1. in one day
this body
has come
to take on
such a terrible ache
i wonder
about
spine and muscle
vertebrae
complex machinery of shoulders

the stories we carry
the history we hold
and the arthritis
of absence

inheritances
like wrenches
tossed into the great
inner workings
of cell division
respiration
information processing

2. high winds
on  clear sky late night walk
how i
close my eyes
to hear it
above rooftops
moving through
spruce
fir
pine

3. for every hour of work
two hours
trekking across the great
digital sprawl

4. macon
on stir-fry duty
while i
whisk:
peanut
coconut milk
garlic
lime
salt
sriracha
agave nectar

5. seated at table
re-telling
from the demise of the dating industrial complex
movement
a response to
if our hearts
age like our bodies
how many times
can i do this?

5. sun
glittering through
red curtain
if this is what i get
give me the chill
anyday

6. record bowl
swimming
with
gum drops

7. 12am
if i were there
and you were asleep
i’d wake you
in celebration
a welcoming
to 34
shoulderpunches
lit candles
and awe

Sorry it came really late.

—Spartan Warrior

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Next time I gotta remember to go cursive.

—Spartan Warrior

Earlier this week, I developed a pain in my mid-lower back. It vacillates between a dull, aching throb and a sharp stabbing feeling. It feels like there is a mass or a big knot that is putting pressure on my spine and/or the nerves that run down my back. Both J and D worked on it for a half hour this week and there was no progress. I tried heating pads, topical anti-inflammatories, constant rest, movement and walking, stretching, and Rx and over-the-counter pain medications. It is getting worse, making it difficult for me to breathe, and causing nausea and [more than usual] discomfort in the rest of my body, specifically my legs and face/head regions. I’m also having increased trouble using my hands for writing, typing and sign language.

I had to leave work early two days this week, causing me to lose between $50-$100 of pay.

I have Christmas plans with D’s family over the next 3 days, and I feel incapable of showering myself, let alone being present and energetic. I feel like all I am able to do is stay horizontal and rest. I suppose life gets in the way of that, though.

Injection #2 of intra-muscular meds tonight. Will try to update this weekend.

Trying hard to stay positive. Tattoo session Tuesday will help, I hope.

Best,
s

huddled over my ivory sheet
in the dead of night, I lay here
Through my heart’s pen, I write in blood
till crimson splashes appear
*
*
now in my vain attempt to sleep
my life in tatters at my feet
if i should wake before i die
i pray these tattered wings can fly
*
*
now i beg you tearing ache
gift me sleep
let me never wake
tears tears
the silence hears
*
*
caught in this world so cold
trapped with this empathic strain
silence please, hear me now
i never want to feel again

perfect picture for the poem...

Day 3. Getting used to using my left hand, still need to remember to brush my teeth with my left hand. I think my penmanship got a little worse, it’s a little disappointing. Nothing much to write about.

Here’s the picture:

Really hope it improves now.

—Spartan Warrior

Apparently, my partner, Aira isn’t feeling well… I mean who would after reading way too much mangas and quizilla stories without stopping to eat (only when it’s breakfast or dinner). She fails. T_T So she didn’t get to officially approving the stories that are supposed to come out today and I wouldn’t want to publish it with only 1 approval. Please be patient once again. I’ll get her to be in ship shape again!!!

I wonder if she has a stomach ache, diarrhea or something. Hahaha.

I received my Swine Flu vaccination yesterday at my local GP surgery due to having Cystic Fibrosis. Every year I have the normal flu vaccine, so this is simply an additional vaccine to add a tick to my checklist. However I was told that I would require two Pandemrix vaccinations, due in 3 weeks time.

Yesterday, I received the vaccine known as Pandemrix. There are two different vaccines, the one aforementioned and Celvapan.

I’ve been doing a bit of research on these two vaccines and here are my findings:

Pandemrix

• Developed by pharmaceutical company GlaxoSmithKline
• Only one dosage required for 90% of recipients
• Those with poor immune systems require 2 doses, one on day 1 and the next day 21
• Contains inactivated H1N1 virus – This means that the virus is dead
• Viruses used in Pandemrix is grown in hens eggs and contains traces of egg white
• The defence is about 90% effective against the virus, although some studies suggest 100% effective
• The reason this swine flu vaccine was authorised so quickly was due to data collected from a previous study of a different strain H5N1 which was classed as a “mock-up” vaccine
• Common side effects include aching arms, fever, swelling and headaches

Having received the Pandemrix I did have an aching arm and feet a little congested (cold symptoms) but, apart from these slight ailments I feel fine.

Celvapan

• Developed by pharmaceutical company Baxter
• Contains inactivated H1N1 virus
• Always given as two doses, at day 1 and day 21
• The viruses used in Celvapan are grown in mammal cells
• Isn’t as widely used because this was authorised for release a week after Pandemrix
• Statistics show that the effectiveness of the vaccine is around 70%
• A good alternative for pregnant women as it is preservative free so they can safely receive the vaccine – According to the website Mumsnet
• This would be used for candidates allergic to egg, no good for vegetarians/vegans
• Common side effects, similar to Pandemrix, include aching arms, fever, swelling and headaches

I can’t vouch for either of these vaccines and all I have done is collate the information freely available on the internet from various sources and placed it here. I have received the Pandemrix and are due to receive the other in 3 weeks and apart from a slight cold and achy arm I feel fine.

I’m a believer in preventing disease and staying as healthy as possible. I am naive though when it comes to receiving vaccines as I don’t ask questions or research the pharmaceutical companies offering the vaccines despite many bad press articles on some of them.

Okay, so I forgot to brush with my left again, but no biggy right? At least my left hand got better at writing. It’s still aching after I finish writing a few sentences, but overall I think it looks a little neater. In this one, I wrote my name, and “The quick brown fox jumped over the lazy dog” twice. Then I drew a picture and labeled it, followed by the alphabet. Here it is:

Much better write? Alright the outcome looks pretty exciting to me. Signing out.

—Spartan Warrior

It’s Winter Break! Finally, but I have nothing else to do other than juggle and do homework. So I decided to see if I can go lefty for two weeks. This is day 1. So I’m going to switch over to my left hand. I’m going to switch my mouse over, eat with my left hand even though I just ate yogurt with my right hand, and write with my left hand. It’s going to be interesting. This is just going to be a log of how I go. I might miss a few days though.

So I planned on writing a paragraph every day at least. My writing and penmanship SUCKS! My left hand is slow and sloppy, although I can say it’s better than the righties in my class. Heck I even write neater than a lefty in my science lab group. LOL! Anyways I wrote down part of the song “Boulevard of Broken Dreams” and tried reversing my right hand writing like a mirror. Here’s a picture:

Yeah. It took me a while to write this post because every time I tried clicking on the “Publish” button my left hand would falter and go out of control, resulting in me clicking on some random site that is NOT the WP Control Panel and then I would have to use my left hand to navigate back to the site and redo the entire thing. Well, I can feel the burn in my left hand, yes there is a burning feeling like I have used it to carry something heavy. I’m signing out now.

— Spartan Warrior

I’m traveling in some vehicle
I’m sitting in some cafe
A defector from the petty wars
That shell shock love away
There’s comfort in melancholy
When there’s no need to explain
It’s just as natural as the weather
In this moody sky today
In our possessive coupling
So much could not be expressed
So now I’m returning to myself
These things that you and I suppressed
I see something of myself in everyone
Just at this moment of the world
As snow gathers like bolts of lace
Waltzing on a ballroom girl

You know it never has been easy
Whether you do or you do not resign
Whether you travel the breadth of extremities
Or stick to some straighter line
Now here’s a man and a woman sitting on a rock
They’re either going to thaw out or freeze
Listen…
Strains of Benny Goodman
Coming thru’ the snow and the pinewood trees
I’m porous with travel fever
But you know I’m so glad to be on my own
Still somehow the slightest touch of a stranger
Can set up trembling in my bones
I know – no one’s going to show me everything
We all come and go unknown
Each so deep and superficial
Between the forceps and the stone

Well I looked at the granite markers
Those tribute to finality – to eternity
And then I looked at myself here
Chicken scratching for my immortality
In the church they light the candles
And the wax rolls down like tears
There’s the hope and the hopelessness
I’ve witnessed thirty years
We’re only particles of change I know, I know
Orbiting around the sun
But how can I have that point of view
When I’m always bound and tied to someone
White flags of winter chimneys
Waving truce against the moon
In the mirrors of a modern bank
>From the window of a hotel room

I’m traveling in some vehicle
I’m sitting in some cafe
A defector from the petty wars
Until love sucks me back that way

Dont mistake me don’t underestimate me cause just when you think you got it figured out is when I will let it all out. Filled with anger filled with rage I am letting it out in this way.  Though you may not understand, it’s about me acting to be a strong man.  I will control you, I will bring you down cause the only that matters to me,  is you not making a sound.  I don’t want to hear your voice, I don’t wanna hear your opinion, accept me as I am.  For controlling you makes me feel better about who I am.  Inside is dark and shady filled with a wall blocking anyone to see anything, I want you to know of me.  You don’t get it and you never will,  because a lost soul like this,  lost in doubt,  lost in despair is something your will never be able to repair.  So here I am,  me,  myself and I.  You know what it is,  you know who I am,  either you go, or you accept me as I am.  These are my thoughts this is how I feel me and the devil just made a deal.                                                                                    Holloway

Greetings… from the new look blog.

So? What do you think? I was going for slightly more professional and a little more accessible. I think I got it, but you know… my friends and family often have different ideas.

Guess who worked out how to use POLLS?

(polls)

The Valentine Yeti at large.

So Christmas is looming, and the wonderful thing about being otherwise not religious and living in a predominantly Buddhist country is that I get to avoid a lot of both the commercialisation of Mithras’ birthday, and all the churchy clamouring that normally attends the festival. (Midnight mass, carolling etc.) This is not to say that I am utterly immune to the effects of the season… for me it is a time of family, with the emphasis on spending time with family and friends. This year, it looks as though the Yeti will be spending the weekend in with the wife. Of course, being in a non-Christian country means that both the wife and I will be working on the day as well. So we are simply going to join the masses in a state of denial, and celebrate the day on the Saturday.

Now, whilst the Yeti is decidedly non-Christmassy… the wife more than makes up for the both of us. It’s carols and wrapping and decorations and menu planning all the way. My primary goal for the magic weekend appears to be to stay the hell out of the way.

One of the best things about Mithmas in Taiwan is that the temperature is plummeting. Really cold. Like…..14 degrees.
Now I KNOW that most of my family live in temperatures that are routinely lower than that… and to them I would just like to say. You lot live in houses with carpets, double-glazing and central heating. The temperature inside is pretty much a nicely uniform 18 to 20 degrees. Which is nice. The problem with Taiwan is that the Taiwanese summer runs for about 9 months of the year, and the houses are built accordingly. So we have wall to wall tiling, single-glazed windows, and air-conditioning throughout. Which means that the temp inside is the temp outside. Which is pretty bloody cold. Let’s face it, 14 degrees in your bedroom is pretty bloody nippy.

So… as I was saying, one of the nice things about Mithmas is that the temperatures are down, which means that we can actually enjoy a hot meal. (Living in South Africa, having an actual roast turkey dropped on the table when it was 32 degrees outside always seemed pretty dumb.) This year, seeing as everything except mammals are back on the menu, we’re roasting a chicken. YAY!
(And we’re hoping that our favourite restaurant is going to be kicking in with a turkey meal around about that time too. *nudge nudge*)

In other news. I am getting over what appears to be an allergy induced asthma episode. I know. Weird.
For some reason, my lungs decided that the air around me was simply not good enough any more, and started to close. Every (and I mean EVERY) breath was painful, the deeper the breath, the worse the pain. Tell me… you ever tried to teach a class of 25 6-year old’s QUIETLY? Needless to say, this week hasn’t been one of the finest teaching weeks that I have had. I got to the doc on Monday though, and the medication has basically improved my breathing every day this week. Which is a good thing.

Nothing like breathing to pass an enjoyable day.

The Soapbox.

Well… this week marks the start of the rest of my life. Social Networking site FREE. I quit Facebook on Monday. And you’ll be amazed at just how much time it saves. Of course, “quitting” Facebook is a relative term. You see, if you go through your ‘Account Settings’, you will see that there is an options to DEACTIVATE your account. Which is just dandy until you read the print in the confirmation email that they send to you. The wording is something along the lines of “your account will be ready and waiting for you should you ever decide that life without Facebook is just not worth living, and come crawling back to us.” Or something to that effect. Which means that your information is not DELETED, it is merely inaccessible to YOU. And you need to realise that everyone that you are friends with, or share a network with still has access to your shit. Just not you. Unless of course, you log back into your account, in which case, all is hunky dory again.

Sneaky eh?

So. I decided that Deactivation was not good enough. Instead, I wanted to actually get my profile DELETED. To this end, I went into their Help section and did a search for deleting your profile. And there… in the third paragraph of reasons why you shouldn’t leave, is a single word hyperlink for account deletion. But that is not all. No no. See, once you have clicked on the link, they still throw everything they can at you. To whit… pictures of a selection of your friends with the caption “Joe Bloggs will miss you….” “John Smith will miss you….”. Pathetic, isn’t it?
Once you have confirmed that you do indeed intend quitting permanently, and confirmed that you are happy for your profile to be deleted, and entered all their security codes and bullshit… THEN, you get a message to the effect that your account has been DEACTIVATED, and if you do not log in for the next TWO WEEKS, only THEN will your profile be deleted.

So. After you have expressed and confirmed and confirmed the desire to leave their fucking website. After you have made your will clear, after all that… YOUR details are held on their servers for an additional two weeks just in case you change your mind and come back to them. Well thank you very much Facebook. But on the hallmarks of a great organisation is facing up to loss with grace. And this smacks simply of juvenile sore-loser material.

Now, besides the time wasting issues of the social website, there are issues of privacy. Anyone who intends putting actual data on the site needs to have a look at what they are advertising. And remember that anything that is hosted on a public server is deemed public information. Have a look. Just google “Facebook privacy issues” and then ignore all the facebook employees saying that there is nothing wrong.

Notable Notes and Clippable Clips:

This section is going to be dedicated to the video clips and music clips that caught my eye this week. Enjoy.

The Chick and the Dinosaur.

Panic Attack.

Because it IS the gorram season.

Watch to the end of this one.

Yeti. Out.

Many times during the winter, I find myself, “On duty” because one of “My People” become sick.

This time it was “The Boy”.

Nothing heals like a purring cat

Just after lunch time yesterday, “Daddy” received a phone call and then got his boots and coat on and left. About 10 minutes later he came back with “The Boy”.

Apparently “The Boy” was feeling ill with a tummy ache.

After several trips to his litter box that makes a flushing sound, he felt a little better.

The tummy ache came back everytime after he ate.

It was getting close to bed time when I went to work.

First I jumped up onto his bed while he was in the room with his litter box. Then I layed down and warmed up the spot where I knew he would be laying.

When he entered the room and crawled into be , he was making a groaning noise and talking in a whinny voice.

Then after being patient as he got adjusted (including lifting me onto the outside of the covers), I curled up close to him and let him pet me. I know he likes this, especially when he is feeling sick. I even started purring to help him feel better. (O.K. I couldn’t help myself because the petting felt good for me too.)

This helped calm him down, so he could drift off to sleep. After I knew he was asleep, I got up and went on to my next bedtime assignment. But I also spent most of the night with “The Boy” to make sure he was O.K.

It must have worked because he woke up looking rested (I can tell when one of my people is rested, because they have their hair sticking out on the back of their head.)

Then he went back to school this afternoon, so I think he is feeling much better.

by Dr. Brent Lipke DC

What puts the ache in a headache ?

Hundreds of millions of dollars are spent each year on medications to relieve headaches but none of these drugs correct the cause. 

Headaches can have many causes, one commonly overlooked factor involves spinal misalignment causing pressure on the nerves at the top of the neck that control the blood supply to the head.

Chiropractic research has shown that relieving pressure on the delicate nerves at the top of the spine can decrease the number of headache hours by 69%, reduce migraine episodes by 90%, and decrease medication usage by 94%.

To learn more about how a safe, gentle and scientific, Chiropractic adjustment could TRANSFORM your health contact your chiropractor.  If you are interested in a complimentary consultation, CALL  The Family Chiropractic Centre, 519-837-1234. 

 I’m Dr. Brent Lipke, educating you to help you educate others !

when I closed my eyes
I was there in your room
your arms around me
and that look in your eyes

our first kiss
one of a few
a feeling of surprise
but incredible flattery
excitement
that you liked me more than I knew

what is a first kiss
if not all of our
feelings for each other
wrapped up into
one embrace

an intimate glimpse
into your soul
as it winds
around mine

whatever is repressed is
channeled into a
now shallow expression

the possibility
of true love

when you feel so much you show it

before the days of
dissatisfaction, reality
and separation

a moment
pure as can be
bathed in the light
of the eternal sun
and endless
clarity

when I open my eyes I realize
that you are gone
that you love her instead
that my heart is aching

so I close my eyes again
and I hope you’ll
feel like I’m
a chance
worth taking

so I stay there
in my mind
as though I’ve
gone back to
those two weeks

and then you
leave again

so I open my eyes

Meet Dr. Frank Dallan DC

“As a child I suffered from intense migraines at least once every two weeks.” Dr Frank recalls. 

These migraines were so unbearable that my mother would put me to bed in a darkened room, where even the faintest light caused me great pain.  She decided to do some research, and came across some information suggesting that Chiropractic care could possibly relieve migraines. She was skeptical in the beginning but didn’t want to rely on Tylenol or Advil as a source of relief so she decided to give Chiropractic a try. 

 I started going to a Chiropractor and over the course of the next year the occurrence of my migraines diminished drastically. 

Since then, I have been fascinated with the field of Chiropractic.  However, it was not until my experience volunteering at my brother in-law (Dr. Brent Lipke’s) clinic, that my desire to become a Chiropractor was solidified. 

At this point in time I was impressed with a Chiropractor’s vast knowledge base in the health sciences, and the art and precision with which they assist the body to heal naturally, to truly help the sick become healthy.  It was this excitement about becoming a Chiropractor that motivated me to focus more time and energy on my studies.  I knew then that I was truly destined to become a Chiropractor, and that I had found my calling, and made a commitment to myself that I would do whatever it took to realize my dream.  Like Dr. Brent, I have found purpose and passion in helping people unleash their own ability to lead a vibrantly healthy, and fulfilling life.”

Dr. Frank began his pre-chiropractic education at the University of Guelph, where he attained his degree in the Honors Biological Science program.  There, he studied biology, physiology, organic chemistry, mammalian physiology, biochemistry, physics and human nutrition. 

After completing his study at the University of Guelph he was accepted into a variety of Chiropractic programs and chose to receive his Doctorate in Saint Louis Missouri, at Logan College of Chiropractic.  During his stay at Logan, courses included, biochemistry, microbiology, embryology, X-ray physics, with a major emphasis on human physiology, human anatomy, neuro-anatomy, human neurology, differential diagnosis, diagnostic imaging, human nutrition, chiropractic adjusting techniques, physical rehabilitation, and patient care in the Logan satellite clinics. 

After graduating in 2007, Dr. Frank returned to his hometown of Guelph to practice at the Family Chiropractic Centre. 

In his spare time you can find Dr. Frank golfing, working out, wakeboarding, waterskiing, downhill skiing, mountain biking, hiking, rock climbing, or walking his black lab “Rocky.”

Dr. Frank also maintains peak performance through weekly adjustments, a healthy diet, regular exercise, restful sleep, and stress coping techniques.

Dr. Frank feels a moral obligation to reach out to his community, and educate people about Chiropractic care and the ways in which it can literally transform their lives one adjustment at a time.  He is looking forward to becoming a mentor and leading by example to promote a healthy drug free lifestyle throughout his community.

I would like to leave you with one very powerful quote, used by one of the pioneers of Chiropractic, Dr. B.J. Palmer which he used in his book The Big Idea (1944) “So, the adjustment of the subluxation to release pressure upon nerves, to restore mental impulse flow, to restore health, is big enough to rebuild the thoughts and actions of the world.  The idea that knows the cause of dis-ease, is one of the biggest ideas known.  Without it, nations fall; with it, nations rise. ”

I am smiling,  funny all it takes is an email, phone/text message, or a phone call

and my heart beats faster when I know its him.

I am smiling soon we will be together.

We talk of everyday things my mind is there but my body

is reacting.  I still ache for him.

I am smiling……………………..

1. six am
talcum powder sky
day begins
with a dictionary fortune:
page 1374
abbreviations and symbols for chemical elements

2. work jeans
like ice sheets
plastered on legs
eyes watering against 20some degrees
the most intense cold gathering
on nose bridge
and spreading out from there
pedals revolving forward under booted feet
and this is nothing
compared to the winter wind off lake michigan

3. remember the root of all this:
our two ghostie younger selves
pressing hands to hearts
saying
you are so good.

4. sick tea
like tuesday taught me
during those jesus christ superstar
star blanketed
marathon fever nights
lemon
boiling water
garlic
ginger
cayenne
hands around hot mason jar
warmth healing its way through

5. when molly says cut the cords
i see pale gold
smooth and braided into itself
i see hedge trimmers
raw edges
unfrayed
and a relief
in the gap

6. who would you rather:
maverick or goose?
goose.
duh.

7. every night
a shaper-than-dull ache
lodging itself
alongside shoulder blade
if only these ribs
would stay in place

8. foot warmer
and speakers
we’re talking big time
the volleyball scene
bogies
radar lock
a million gay undertones
door shutting heat in
my hand on corinne’s shoulder
when goose goes down
how his body hangs
as it is lifted
against sunset
into coastguard chopper
above ocean
surface water curled outwards
from propeller force

9. there are no better words for it
than the rainbow
pinwheel of death

10. demise
of the dating industrial complex
begins with two time capsules
one never to be recovered

I’m very excited to announce our upcoming patient safety webinar titled “Best Practices in Patient Safety from Commercial Aviation” hosted by the American College of Healthcare Executives (ACHE). Presented by me, I’ll examine why the healthcare industry needs to look to other industries for new methods to improve patient safety. Commercial aviation has been able to achieve a level of safety for flight critical systems of 10⁹ or one in a billion chance of complete system failure. This level of system safety has been accomplished through the rigorous, systematic management of operational hazards and risks.

In this webinar you will learn how to leverage the airline industry’s Safety Management System (SMS) approach to improve patient safety in your organization. To demonstrate the effective knowledge transfer between industries, a recent case illustrating the disconnect between patient safety and the medication administration process will be examined. As part of this exciting learning platform, you will explore how to create a new blueprint for patient safety by designing and managing safety in clinical care systems, sub-systems and associated working-level processes.

I’m also quite pleased to report that this webinar will NOT be another death-by-PowerPoint presentation. We will not use busy slides that contain too much text or incorporate hideous graphics that ultimately read like a boring annual report. Instead, we will present a visual slide deck that accentuates the flow of the message and the learning objectives that describe – how it works! I promise. To assist you in better learning how it works, webinar participants will receive a complimentary Getting Started Guide. Who should attend the webinar you ask? Healthcare executives at all levels.

Interestingly, when we were published this past February in the Journal of Nursing Administration (JONA), the editor insisted that we describe “how” to implement commercial aviation safety management strategies in healthcare. She didn’t want to publish another journal article that discussed the “what” without sharing “how it works”. Well, we listened! The JONA article titled “Medication Administration Process Assessment: Applying Lessons Learned from Commercial Aviation” did just that, described “how it works”. In fact, this is the case referenced in the webinar.

If you’re interested in learning “how it works,” then please join us (me and ACHE) Wednesday, February 17, 2010 for our webinar. Hey, if nothing else at least you’ll earn 1.5 ACHE Category 1 education credits and you won’t have to travel to earn them!

We hope to see you on the 17^th of February!

Promises are made to be broke, I suppose. Nevertheless, it literally makes me ache that I haven’t the time to write here nor read the words of my friends. The only thing that comforts me at the moment is the fact that in less than two weeks I’ll be boarding an airplane and flying home for a month, during which I hope to rejuvenate and let my creative juices flow for a while.

If I have my way, I’ll be taking a writing workshop next semester, and so I’ll be able to combine work for class and posts to share here. Also, hopefully, as next semester will be my second one and I’ll be a bit more blooded and not quite as green and new to the whole intensive studying experience, I’ll be able to have more time to sit at my leisure and pursue all the blogs that I dearly miss here…

Next week my work should – hopefully – be winding down in general, and so I hope to be able to start to re-familiarize myself with this space again, starting then already.

For once it’s hard to find the words
They can not mend this gaping hole
They can not wipe away these tears
Or lift my tired, trampled soul
I told myself it’s worth the risk
But now I can’t remember why
Now that my chest feels cold and hollow
I’m scared I’ve let my poor heart die
I never knew it would get harder
Now that I know, what can I say?
It fills my bones with fear to find
That this road only goes one way
I hold my breath at every corner
Hoping I’ve reached the end at last
But once again there is just darkness
And the next mountain I can’t see past
I can’t give up, I can’t keep going
And I can’t do this on my own
But you just don’t know what to say
So you turn and leave me here alone
I can’t remember who we were
Before the cut, before the scar
It runs too deep and threatens daily
To ruin everything we are