I wish I could just wish away all my problems and issues. I have many and im the type of person that has to take eons to work through them. Why am I me?

Been thinking. Im not sure what I want in a significant other. Above all else I think they should be kind. Warm and tender in everything they do. I want this so very much. My idea of perfection is either flawed or dead on. I wonder sometimes if my idea of an ideal person hinders my ability to see what I really want. I guess it comes down to what I think is perfect. I won’t really know until I find it :]. Hopefully sometime soon please god haha.

I had a weird and happy thanksgiving. I am thankful that my family is happy. I am thankful my friends are happy. When my family and friends are happy, I really dont see why I wouldnt be. I say make the world smile and laugh because its alot more fun when your not the only one :]. Happy Thanksgiving everyone.

Ive been dyeing my hair ever since April of 2009 and I havent stopped. I really enjoy change. Change can sometimes take forever, like highschool ending or moving on from a break up. Although dyeing my hair isnt an extreme change, it still makes me feel that I have control over my life. Ive had many different hair colors and right now I like it the best, but I have said this about other dye jobs. Well at least for right now it is :]. I can’t wait to get my hair cut I need it my side burns are hella long :]. My stay in SD has been fun and peaceful. I cannot wait for my friends Nadia and Lakshmi to come back to SD im dying to see them. I am so grateful to have such wonderful friends I truly wish I could see them all the time :/. yay for life

I went to UCSD for a Gay Dance haha put on by the LGBT community up there. Although I wished more of my friends could have attended it was a grand night none the less. Its good that I have self confidence because I would die at UCSD. Let me explain. Many of the boys there had these looks of yearning to ask someone out but no one was acting and it was hindering their fun. Thats why I like dancing with myself :].

My home is chaotic and disordered. I never realized this until I went away for college and came back recently. The next time I come back for winter break will be my last. I cant come back to my home. Nothing really significant happened to trigger this action I just realized why I truely left and it was to save my self. (Im still going to visit SD just not my family.)

The stupid H1N1 vaccine got me sick. I thought I was dying last night. I am now better but last night was probably the worst night ive had here. Hopefully im better by tomorow for my arrival home. Its going to be so weird. Do things just go back to normal for a week?

I got my HINI vaccine yesterday and now I feel like death. I have the weakest immune system :/. On a lighter note, im going home in two days ahh im so excited, hopefully I will feel better soon. Currently im working on getting an essay done before the weekend. I honestly have no idea what I will write about. The topic is on David Hume’s book something blah blah religions. Also ive decided on what type of dessert I will be making for thanks giving. I will be baking toffee nut cookies :], which were inspired by the cookies at Hot Cookie which were divine :]. The only thing thanksgiving will be missing this year is the actual fall. I sure wish San Diego experienced season changes, but im fine with a never-ending summer :].

Recently a friend of mine recommended I read David Sedaris’s books because I like Augustan Burroughs’ books. I really like David’s books but Augustan still wins. I started reading books again because I haven’t in a while. When I read I tend to “binge read” a term coined by my advisor in highschool. I read around 4 books either at once or right after another in a short period of time and I dont read for 3 months after. Im excited because Mr. Sedaris has 5 or 6 books im not sure.  So far so good. Just finished “Me talk pretty one day”, hopefully I will to some day?

I miss the San Diegan sunshine that warmed the soul. I miss being understood without having to say a word. I miss laughing about dumb things. I miss the times when smiles were infectious and laughter was abundent.

this is one of the songs that i’m feeling right now.. gotta love her songs even if she does suck as a person.. wish i had a man to sing this song too.. then everything would be better..

Gonna stay in bed today
Cause I can’t stand the light
Don’t know why I get so down
I won’t be much fun tonight
And I can’t believe
You still wanna hang around me

It’s not so pretty all the time
You don’t mind
To you it’s all right

AS I AM
IS HOW YOU TAKE ME
NEVER TRY TO PUSH
OR MAKE ME DIFFERENT
WHEN I TALK YOU LISTEN TO ME
AS I AM
IS HOW YOU WANT ME AND
I KNOW I’VE FOUND THE PIECE THAT’S MISSING
I’M LOOKING AT HIM

I’m not the girl you think you see
But maybe that’s a lie
You almost know me better than
Me, myself and I
Don’t know a lot of things
But I know what I got

It’s not so perfect everyday
I don’t have to try
Cause it all falls into place

AS I AM
IS HOW YOU TAKE ME
NEVER TRY TO PUSH
OR MAKE ME DIFFERENT
WHEN I TALK YOU LISTEN TO ME

AS I AM
IS HOW YOU WANT ME AND
I KNOW I’VE FOUND THE PIECE THAT’S MISSING
I’M LOOKING AT HIM

Face to face, eye to eye
You’re standing there
Feels good on the inside
I don’t mind, I don’t care
You’re standing there
Seeing me for the first time
Seeing me for the first time….

Je suis influençable. C’est dans ma nature. J’essaie d’accommoder les autres personnes qui m’entourent (évidemment, jusqu’à une certaine limite).

Il paraît que je suis un peu trop versatile. J’suis trop «bon gars».

Savez-vous quoi? J’m'en fou de ce que les autres peuvent penser. Même si j’suis accommodant, n’allez pas me faire croire que vous allez me faire changer d’avis sur ce point. Take me as I am.

Fonte:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/vkrithinas/

1. In The Presence Of Enemies
2. Beyond This Life
3. Panic Attack
4. A Rite Of Passage
5. Hollow Years
6. Constant Motion
7. Erotomania
8. Voices
9. Solitary Shell
10. The Spirit Carries On
11. As I Am
Encore:
12. Metropolis Pt. / including Learning to Live & A Change of Seasons

O concerto no geral foi muito bom, com melhor som que no Porto embora algumas falhas ocasionais no som de alguns instrumentos (principalmente no teclado), e setlist decente, mas que podia ser melhor…

O concerto começou muito bem, gostei da In The Presence of Enemies Pt1, assim muito. Beyond this Life foi outro dos momentos, grande loucura por parte do público… Hollow years foi daquelas que sempre quis vêr ao vivo portanto adorei também. A sequência Erotomania/Voices/Solitary Shell é que trocava bem por outras, a que gostei mais ainda assim foi a Solitary Shell principalmente pela parte intermédia. Spirit Carries On é sempre aquela coisa, e a As I Am foi extraordinária, a que mais esperava também. O medley… preferia que tocassem a Metropolis completa, não se pusessem a inventar, e ainda tinham tempo para mais uma, mas foi fixe na mesma =P

Sandra Smith, she’s as delightful as I am demonic.

Alison Rosen, she knows gossip like I know goiters.

Sherrod Small, if hilarity were hurdles, men would jump him regularly.

Re-Intros:

Sandra Smith, if financial acumen were cotton candy, children would eat her at the fair.

Alison Rosen, if intelligence were a crying baby on a plane, angry passengers would want her to get off.

Sherrod Small, if hilarity were the early bird special at Denny’s, old people would live up to get inside him.

Julie Banderas, she’s so hot you can stir fry noodles in her armpit.

Alison Rosen, she’s as clever as I am clueless

Rick Reichmuth, if climate expertise were a cell phone he’d vibrate in my pants.

Re-Intros:

Julie Banderas, if talent were a garage sale I’d fondle her junk in a driveway.

Alison Rosen, she know’s society like I know sclerosis.

Rick Reichmuth, if climate expertise were the dog whisperer, I’d be his bitch.

welcome to RedEye, it’s like Wife Swap, but we never return them.

Lauren Savant, she’s so hot the sun wears Lauren Savant screen.

Mike Baker, he’s so tough the blind often mistake him for a ford truck and hop in back.

Alison Rosen, she’s as perky as I am jerky.

Re-Intros:

Lauren Savant, she’s so hot, firemen grab their hoses when they see her.

Mike Baker, he’s so tough the blind mistake him for overdone steak and try to eat him. It’s actually quite disgusting.

Alison Rosen, she craves fame like I need shame.

..brüllt er und verlässt türschmeißend lautstark die Wohnung..
Ähm, warte kurz… NEE!! Werde ich nicht.. muss ich auch nicht. Ich bin schließlich keine 40 (oder 50). Außerdem, was heißt erwachsen sein? Immer schön kuschen und “ja, natürlich, Sie haben recht, verehrte Eminenz” sagen?! Nicht mehr widersprechen?! Ach sooooo. Das ich da jetzt nicht gleich drauf gekommen bin. Verrückt.
Aber ich muss Dich enttäuschen – ich bleibe genauso wie ich bin. Selbstverständlich inklusive meiner postpubertären Anwandlungen. Ich mach einfach weiter was mit Fratzen ziehen vorm Spiegel, Kindchenschema auffahren, Musik laut machen und dazu heulen, ab und zu peinlich sein (1), so oft wie möglich verbal ausfallend werden, Türen schmeißen,… und so.
Und zum Schluss möchte ich noch alle grüßen, die mich so mögen, wie ich bin.

You talk real loud
But you aint saying nothing cool!
I live a life of sin
But it’s alright
I don’t give a damn
I don’t play your rules I make my own

(1) natürlich vorzugsweise donnerstags

Thanks for you being my comfort place,I can run to and cry on..

Thanks for your always open arms..

Thanks that I should not do something to be acceptable for you..

Thanks for accepting me as I am..

Thanks for walking with me every step to be better..

Thanks for just seeing me better,even I am not..

Thanks for seeing my inside,that others don’t,that I DON’T..

Thanks for not needing any promises or saying sorry..

Thanks for calling me your own, as I am..

The day after Asleep in the Bread Aisle hit stores Asher performed in NYC at the Gramercy Theater. The above playlist features Lark On My Go-Kart, Good Health Freestyle, Blunt Cruisin, As I Em, Be By Myself, Roth Boys (in that order) a Chester French performance and Oren Yoel holding it down for solo. Shouts to Grofoshows on the footage.

Dedicado a todas las mujeres que luchan porque lleguen tiempos mejores:

Everywhere I’m turning
Nothing seems complete
I stand up and I’m searching
For the better part of me
I hang my head from sorrow
Slave to humanity
I wear it on my shoulders
Gotta find the strength in me

Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am
Yes she is
Even when I’m a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes
I’m a Superwoman

For all the mothers fighting
For better days to come
And all my women, all my women sitting here trying
To come home before the sun
And all my sisters
Coming together
Say yes I will
Yes I can
Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am
Yes she is
Even when I’m a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes
I’m a Superwoman

When I’m breaking down
And I can’t be found
And I start to get weak
Cause no one knows
Me underneath these clothes
But I can fly
We can fly, Oooohh

Cause I am a Superwoman
Yes I am
Yes she is
Even when I’m a mess
I still put on a vest
With an S on my chest
Oh yes
I’m a Superwoman