A little chatting with a…let’s say a friend:

Friend says:
Lg ngpaen ni?

Me:
ga ngapa2in

Friend says:
Gmn kul u? Da ujian lum?

Me:
blm, ntar desember baru final

Friend says:
Ow. Btr lg dnk?
So tar tamat dpt gelar apa?

Me:
iya
ST, emang lu apa?

Friend says:
SE MM
Wkwk

Me:
ooo

Friend says:
Ha5.
Mau j di boongin.

(At this point Me is a bit annoyed)

Me:
ya mana gw tau
sekolah2 skarang kan suka double degree dengan sangat cepat

Friend says:
MM tu s2. Magister Manajemen.

(At this point Me is a lot annoyed)

Me:
ya ampun…baru tau

Friend says:
Ms si br tau?

(Me ignored Friend. After a while…)

Friend says:
Btw off dl. Da ngntk. He5. Nitez. C.u n take care.

Me:
(Fought the urge to reply ‘yeah, whatever’)
oke…nite…

Have we met? I’m sarcastic. You are…?
(Hint: Six letters. Starts with an S, ends with a D.)

This word is the way i learn, but also one of my biggest downfalls–both in the organization as well as now–why??? i learn mainly by visualization-memorization. If i see it in writing it is so much more real then hearing it–sitting in a lecture in college–YUCK–for me, doing it online–and actually reading the information, seeing it, etc—so much easier for me to understand, remember, etc–and that was exactly my downfall in the organization i was in—the things i signed (Contract, as well as my evaluation)–people could call me any kinds of names, bad “christian”, bad mom, fat, ugly, etc–i have probably been called worse–hearing it–honestly would go in one ear and out the other–screw them, if they don’t like me–their problem—the difference came when i visually SAW what was wrong with me—it is now in writing–i could see it—and in some cases was actually shown it in the “bible”–not only was i hearing my faults, i was seeing it, and NOW was agreeing to it–then i started questioning so much about me—

and it hinders me now–i can not visually read, look at the “bible” (for a variety of reasons)–if someone tells me the answers, truth is in the “bible” at this point does not help me much–i know that, i want that, but………… right now cant. some have mentioned hear/listen to it on DVD/CD, etc–and another thing i struggle with anyways-but learning in such a visual way–hearing it really does not help me much at this time—or hearing over and over “god” loves you i think, yeah whatever–i want to visually see the proof–not the “god” loves you and nothing else, but the proof, the writing proof if you know what i mean–i try to research different things on line here–sometimes it is good–but most of the time it is again a hinderous–because i visually see something–visually see the proof they put (right or wrong) then there goes my questioning again–i was just told this, now i read this, what is true, what is right, hence there goes the confusion.
Even when i ask questions (which i do ALOT) there are very few people i really “believe”(unfortunately until i find something online again LOL)–still want the writing-and maybe that is why i do not talk much on the phone–i try to save everything that is written to me here on line–so i can go back and read, and or visualize it later (if that makes sense)–and it.

That i guess to is a big reason why i read so many books on the subject of spiritual abuse–and write poetry.

I hope all that even makes sense, it does to me.

since i wrote such a “depressive” post earlier–thought i should come back and thank some people for their love, support, understand and prayers:
Michelle, Rob, nailtech, provender, jen, jenn, quiver daughters, restoringheart, inally, wendy D, curt, and anyone else i absentmindedly forgot (i am very absentminded at times)–may we all get through our journey together.
also thankful for this blog—may others who need support find there way to this blog as well as other blogs and groups, may the lost sheeps not be so lost anymore.

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About seven years ago, when the TV show “Alias” came on, I totally fell for it. I loved the story lines, the spy intrigue (and Michael Vartan didn’t hurt, either.) But mostly I loved how kick-ass Jennifer Garner was as “Sydney Bristow” – female super spy extraordinaire !! She was super fit and super aweosme and regularly kicked ass against bad guys.

Just this morning, on a late night shift, I popped in Season 1 and am hooked all over again !

In case you wanted to know …

School is finished (for this year at least). Finally. Gosh, it feels like its been going on forever. I’m completely physically and mentally exhausted. And no I’m not just over reacting. If you had taken the exams I just did, you would be feeling the same way. They were difficult to say the least. And yes, I do pay attention in class and do my homework, and I did study extra hard, but the revision sheets we got for our study guides in each subject, were completely irrelevant. Like the exams were completely different. I did fill in pretty much every answer on all of them, except for English -which is by far my best subject, I worked out I can only get a maximum of 75% on my English exam. I know, I know, I am soooo ashamed. I haven’t told anybody I’m so excruciatingly embarrassed about it. Well anyways the reason I can only get a score of 75, is because I didn’t finish it. I thought I had plenty of time left, and I did the comprehension first, so I could take extra time on my essay. Only just as I finished my essay and looked up at the clock and saw 2 minutes left, I noticed a little ‘part 3, letter to the editor’ right in the bottom corner of the booklet. Ughhh so MAD!! I am actually that annoyed, A) that they would put the question there, and B) THAT I DIDN’T SEE IT!!!!

But yeah not gonna dwell on the negatives here, besides I think I did pretty good on my maths, better than I expected to anyway. But then again even though I did answer all the questions, there is still a more than likely chance that I got hardly any of them correct. But I am going to stop being negative, and smile, because boy do I have alot to smile about.

For one: I got a job, for one night at my mom’s work, but still it’s money in my pocket, and something to put on my resume. Two: I finished my lion painting, I’ll upload a pic tomorrow when I bring it home. Three: I’m finally getting my own room , super dooper happy smile, and Four: Schools out (I still technically have 2 days of promotions, but whatever), which means holidays, which means I can do whatever the hell I want, but best of all is reason Five: CHRISTMAS! Now I’m not a huge fan of christmas, but it hopefully means that I will get my laptop. Fingers Crossed.

I admit it: I attempted steampunk for the NaNoWriMo project, and failed. Melancholy nostalgia just isn’t me. But I did have lots of brass gadgets and remembered to add goggles to a few wardrobes (at least I hope I did, maybe I added googles). So I’ve reverted to fusion fantasy and realised this sovereignty place occupies the same planet as the free city states of Siren’s Gate, Gayla’s Rift, Candle Rock, and Nightingale Ridge etc. Now that’s interesting, as well as a bit bruising, having a continent slam into being. Both the Sovereignty and the Gate have a female ruler/minder at the moment. One’s heriditary, one’s elected and possibly founding a dynasty. Guess I can play with the good old compare and contrast when I extract Flax from the spa resort. 

Well, once I’ve finished this book. And I have a sneaking suspicion that my attempt at a Regency is going to end up here, too.

فديو, فيديو كليب انا بيه ورومانسى من فلم, فيلم البيه الرومانسىافلام لك تحميل من

شاهد فديو, فيديو كليب انا بيه ورومانسى من فلم, فيلم البيه رومانسى – سعد الصغير 2009
تحمل وتنزيل فديو, فيديو كليب سعد الصغير من فلم, فيلم البيه رومانسى انا بيه ورومانسى

لمشاهدة وتحميل الفديو, فيديو كليب …

شاهد فديو, فيديو كليب اغنية سعد الصغير انا بيه ورومانسى من فلم, فيلم البيه رومانسى
يو, فيديو كليب سعد الصغير من فلم, فيلم البية الرومانسى – انا بيه ورومانسى

اضغط هنا لمشاهدة الكليب

|اغانى|فديو, فيديو كليب|مقطع|هدف|مسلسل|اعلان|فلم, فيلم|برنامج|حلقة|شاهد|مشاهدة|اون لاين|سرعة عالية |بدون
تحميل|اغانى|عربى|اجنبى|MP3, mp3, ام بي ثري|البوم|
2009|سينجل|نغمات|تنزيل|نزل|شعبي|راب|حمل|موسيقى|MP3, mp3, ام بي ثري

|افراح|فديو, فيديو كليب|راديو||اون لاين|بدون تحميل|مجانا|بدون اشتراك|2010

فديو, فيديو كليب انا بيه ورومانسى من فلم, فيلم البيه الرومانسىافلام لك تحميل من

شاهد فديو, فيديو كليب انا بيه ورومانسى من فلم, فيلم البيه رومانسى – سعد الصغير 2009
تحمل وتنزيل فديو, فيديو كليب سعد الصغير من فلم, فيلم البيه رومانسى انا بيه ورومانسى

لمشاهدة وتحميل الفديو, فيديو كليب …

شاهد فديو, فيديو كليب اغنية سعد الصغير انا بيه ورومانسى من فلم, فيلم البيه رومانسى
يو, فيديو كليب سعد الصغير من فلم, فيلم البية الرومانسى – انا بيه ورومانسى

اضغط هنا لمشاهدة الكليب

|اغانى|فديو, فيديو كليب|مقطع|هدف|مسلسل|اعلان|فلم, فيلم|برنامج|حلقة|شاهد|مشاهدة|اون لاين|سرعة عالية |بدون
تحميل|اغانى|عربى|اجنبى|MP3, mp3, ام بي ثري|البوم|
2009|سينجل|نغمات|تنزيل|نزل|شعبي|راب|حمل|موسيقى|MP3, mp3, ام بي ثري

|افراح|فديو, فيديو كليب|راديو||اون لاين|بدون تحميل|مجانا|بدون اشتراك|2010

“Why am I beautiful? How am I not? I’m strong, courageous, forgiving, helpful, generous, trusting, honest, caring, carefree, loving, open, and thats not even the tip of the iceberg of words that can describe me.  I’ve set goals and accomplished them. I’ve learned who I am. I’ve accepted who I am. I am learning every day to love who I am. I’ve also learned that who I am is not what I wear, or what I listen to, or what I do. “I am what I am.” Popeye was right. If you actually get that, think again. I still dont totally get it. I’m working with it. I wrestle it every day. I gain strength from that every time I say it to myself.

I’m beautiful because I am me. And I accept me. And every day I fall, and every day I get back up more determined to learn and love and trust and laugh and live. And I succeed at that. I succeed at being me.” Touche.

موالى كل الجديد فى عالم النت

It is a rarity for me to fail to finish a book. Particularly a historical romance, and more particularly a … well, this one so far hasn’t distinguished itself as a Regency which I assume is what it’s meant to be. And with a Carlyle quote on the cover it’s also meant to be bloody good. That got me over my initial dubiousness about a seventeen year old heroine. Seventeen!  But okay, there are plenty of sassy, sexy, sweet and smart debs running wild in my library. They just generally give a sense they have a life outside the scene, too. Flip a few more pages and hmmm. I can hear echoes of Wilde. Sophia, the eponymous courtesan and the mother in this book, sounds so much like Mrs Cheevly as played by Julianne Moore in An Ideal Husband (love that movie) that she’s distracting, and by Chapter Four I don’t need any more distractions.

Sad, really.

Bye bye The Courtesan’s Daughter.