As an adult baby I have been doing the adult role way more lately when I moved ironically.  But a thing I would like to talk about it relationships with a AB.  It can be quite a task and not that many people are lucky to find a different gender partner for there needs.  I have been able to do this more so because I really like to grab what I want.  Right now I started my relationship in Wisconsin and it is interesting.  I really wish there was not a 5 hour gap in between my 3 good friends and that has caused me and our relationship a lot of trouble per say.

One thing I can say for sure, when I was searching for a family I really would have probably been back in Iowa within the first month, so I am happy I found something more than just a family.  I hope in time we will both get to know each other inside and out but one thing is for sure I really love this girl.  I have literally been trying to do everything for her with me second.  I know a lot of people might find that funny but its true.  So having a AB for a boyfriend or girlfriend can be really tasking when moving places.  Getting friends you both like is tough also,

But number one for an AB relationship with someone is be on a similar schedule.  I moved up here and am on exact opposite schedules and it tares us apart sometimes.  We can’t really do too much because when I am up and feeling squirrelly she is tired and sleepy, and vice versa.  So to get rid of this I am starting a new job soon.  Another big thing for me at least, even though I have a crib I don’t sleep in it too much right now and even when I will I still will want my nights cuddling with my girl friend.  The next big thing is to set a schedule. A lot of people including me need schedules to keep them on task.  This stuff I said is in the works for me but it really can help those relationships out.

I am sorry I really don’t have a huge blog post today just kind of wanted to give you a heads up of whats going on.  I wish I could say how and what is going on but I am respecting my girlfriends wishes.  I will post more soon but for now that’s all I got.  I see that a lot of people have been viewing this page so thought id give you something new to look at.

Laterz for now, time to go watch a movie with the GF.

So I made the move with a lot of people thinking I was not going to go through with it.  I now live in the great state of Wisconsin.  The days before the move were very emotional and the attachments I had to some people really hurt to say good-bye.  I to this day still call my friends regularly as it’s still and adjustment up here.  I had saved up around a month and half of money and still used it all when going to Wisconsin.  I got all my stuff in the truck and tears started hitting my eyes, a lot was going through my head, as I loved this girl in Wisconsin but could I really give everything up in Iowa.  Well After saying goodbye to all my friends and many tears later I was off.

After getting up there and hanging with Teisha constantly I knew we were doing good.  We really had to figure out and still are figuring out how everything is going to work with money and such.  We have had a lot of obstacles in our way including cable and internet not getting hooked up forever.  Through thick and thin we are still doing pretty well.  I have a lot of adjusting to do as I have my nursery set up but really have not been in there too much.  It’s a part of me that needs to adjust to be happy and I am getting there it is just taking time.

Really a funny part to this whole event is how grown up I really have been acting.  I have been really putting forth my adult side more so than baby side right now for some reason.  I am confused myself but it will all fall into place soon.  I got the xfer at my new job and they love me there, I tend to work very hard when I am at a job, sometimes to the point of working to hard.  Right now I am taking it one day at a time and a lot of stuff is happening.  Teish and I are starting a babysitting service for adult babies and I want to start my clothing line if I can find the right people.  Right now the hardest part for me being in Wisconsin is missing the people I left.  The thing about it is though, I will get to hang with them soon and probably will make lots of trips back just because of the connection I have with my friends and family and I really don’t want to lose that.

As far as friends go up here, I have some work friends and then I have 1 outside friend so far and am still just adjusting and trying to figure Teish and I out.  Well that’s pretty much my update for now I have so much going through my mind its crazy but since people have not got to see pictures of stuff lately I am going to flood this post with some for ya.

Take care and always remember 1 day at a time.

After all this was said and done We decided to go back to her place and figure what we wanted to do the rest of the day.  Well it just so happened that we needed to go back to my grandparents house for labor day dinner.  We had some awesome burgers then watched some movies.  Never let my mom choose movies……..enough said.  But after the movies we just relaxed in the room and talked and then she went home for the night.

Tuesday she came up again and took me back over right away as this was supposed to be my day to get a transfer in my job.  Well I had called ahead and already talked to each of them which I was just getting the run around.  So we decided to go to her house and her mom needed some stuff at one of the stores.  Well we got there and I basically said, what the heck and went to the back found the store manager and got a job offer on the spot.  If you reach for something in life you will succeed whether its like that or some other way.  If you don’t try nothing will change.  So now that I have Teisha freaking out that I got the xfer we decided to get some pizza.  The place we went the service and food were beyond awesome.  When we were there we talked about a ton of stuff.  If you look at this whole time I had to put my big boy pants on because of first impressions and my grandparents house.

The only thing really baby that happened were a couple diaper changes and a baby blanket taken along with us.  So anyways we decided to go to a movie.  We went to Abraham Lincoln the Vampire Slayer.  Brought the baby blanket in, glad we did it was cold.  The movie was actually really good.  After that she took me to Target because she said she saw this footsie pajamas.  Well I am worse than a girl when it comes to clothing, well baby clothing.  So we went there 10 minutes before it closed to get one.  I got these cute sharks and it looks adorable.

After all of this we kissed good night and she went home again.  I had to go back the next day and actually work that night.  It sucked because I really wanted to stay there, but I knew I would be back there soon.  Now we have a successful transfer.  Money down on my Apt.  And 3 days left of work before the move starts.  My life and this blog will really change in a little bit as it will be a lot different.

I will keep you guys posted, but until then I will leave you with one thing.

Reach for your dreams, anything is reachable if you have the ambition to go for it.

First off my stuff being locked up and what that is doing to me.  I work around 40 plus hours a week as a manager.  I have thought bout this and the stress level is pretty high but I do try to do my best every day I am there.  So after my work is over I usually go over to Cats, yes cat and I are still good friends.  I have also been living there with my GF mommies permission.  One thing is that I love my mom sister to death, but I can only take so much and wonder how my dad doesn’t go insane.  So when I am at Cats I sleep on a bed.  One thing that really gets to me is not having my crib.  For years I slept in that thing and it was cozy and kept me secure.  I think that my anxiety is through the roof right now because of this.  I also have not had my high chair or toys really.  I really do miss this structure in my life and can’t wait to get it back once in Wisconsin and settled down.  The only stuff I have right now is pacifiers and diapers and baby clothes and really when you have been as far as I have this is not much.  Sept. 21st is my last day at work and its coming up pretty quick.  As far as going to Wisconsin that is Oct 1st, and I am scared and excited.  This next week I go up there for Labor day and to see if I can get my transfer then and there.  Also the two other main things are I get to see Teisha and I get to see my grandparents and aunt uncle and others.  It is pretty crazy but I also get to meet Teisha’s mom and first impressions are crazy.

Second big thing that I have been thinking about is businesses.  I have decided I really want to start my own business with my GF/Mommy.  We have talked about this a bit, but I have always wanted to help adult babies be themselves and not be ashamed of who they are.  The first thing I would do after I am settled down and have my own place is start a nursery for adult babies.  It will cost some but people can have the time of there lives and get what they have only dreamed of.  Many adult babies are scared about who they are or are very hidden.  What I would like to do is help people accept themselves as I have basically billions of people who know bout me and I either get two reactions.  “That’s cute, or that’s good your accepting of it.”  I get recognized quite a bit and to this day I havent had one person make fun of me or anything.  The way I look at it is, I drink bottles you drink beer.  I wear onesies you wear suites.  I wear diapers you wear boxers.  I play watch baby type things you do other.  The main point to what I just said is we all have different things we do and just because society is one way doesn’t mean you have to be the boring normal.  I would love to have trips with other adult babies to zoo or somewhere.  The other thing to this is I think that I can help adult babies get to their inner baby, and Teisha can help daddies and mommies be better at that.  The other big business I have thought about is getting my clothing designers together to make a brand name and to really go the next step for adult babies.  I know me for one would love to see onesies just like baby ones and clothes just like baby ones.  When I say this I mean down to the tee not just a design from a fabric store.  I have to get a hold of some people but I am sure I can do this and this would be fun.  Lastly I am going to look into getting some diaper company, I don’t know how but my dream is to get some diaper company to give something like sesame street or some baby character to the adult diaper industry.  Maybe a made up one that could be the icon adult baby character.  Some stuff to really think about.  I think that ABuniverse is in the right direction with the new generation of adult babies and such with the cloth like outer shell.  I would Like to see some different designs but they are so far ahead of others its nuts and I am happy even though the prices are high that they have this.  Ok now that you have seen my DL side(diaper lover), and that’s basically the extent of that side which is pretty mild.  So once I get settled in Wisconsin I will start moving on some of these.  The first and foremost is to start a AB nursery and get that started.

Lastly and not least……………………….TEISHA.  I swear we were meant for each other.  I have said this over and over that I fell in love when I wasnt looking for that.  I cant wait to get up their and watch our relationship fly.  I have a lot of people doubting me but they don’t get the connection we really do have.  When I first started talking to Teisha she started putting a smile on my face that I had not have for quite sometime.  The thing that people don’t realize is that I have been more adult than baby with Teisha.  You can ask her and it has been wierd.  People think of me as a gurgling 2-year-old after doctor phil.  I do have that side but I also have a very developed adult side.  Are there infantile traits still, yes.  Teisha was telling me yesterday that we have been being very adult lately.  I told her that I don’t roleplay on phone or anything.  To be honest I don’t roleplay I just be myself.  If I was myself on the phone I would either eat the phone or throw it.  So even teisha really has not seen the baby part of me for a while.

Leads me to the last part of this huge post.  Cat has probably kept me sane.  From this day even she does not treat me any different than she did when we were dating.  I really do have to thank her for doing that for me because with out that I might be in a loony bin right now.  Anyways main thing is Wisconsin is happening and it is happening quick!!!   I get to start a new, see my relationship with Teisha fly, and start my businesses to make me have more time to be myself at home.  With that I do apologise for not posting more, been quite busy.  I also apologise for the book with no pictures.  I will tell ya once I get to Wisconsin that this blog is gonna change quite a bit and will be more baby life day by day then anything.  God works in mysterious ways and who would have thought that Dr.phil would hook us up, which is what happened LOL.

Anyways leave you with this, keep your head up reach for your dreams, and once there don’t stop keep going to the stars.

Today I was cleaning my apartment and was just getting hit with memory after memory.  My lease ends July 24th and my whole life is gonna change.  I will get to live with my parents gain enough money and a proper transfer to be able to get to Wisconsin to be with Teisha.  Why I say it’s a long night is I have been working all night on the apartment and its a crazy mess.  Today I went to my landlord and just started bawling my eyes out with tears.  I just could not stop crying for a bit there.  I have known and learned to love this land lord and all she has done for me.  She does not care bout me being an AB at all she just loves me.  She really is almost another mom to me.  As I type this I start to tear up and look at how scatter brained this blog is(LOL).  I have a lot of support I will be leaving in Iowa and its going to be hard but it’s for the best and I hope it leads to better things.  I do wish a certain 3 people would transfer work with me but that cannot happen.

As far as Cat and Nathaniel go the key to me being sane and being there for me, I think that going to be one of the hardest.  First off Nathaniel, this dude has been with me through the shows through the before I even was so open.  Yes he makes fun of me but in a loving way and god I will miss him.  For heavens sake he made my high chair.

Then there is Cat, oh Cat.  She and I have known each other quit well for many years.  Through the good and bad we have stuck together as friends.  Even when we were going out people asked us if we were brother and sister a ton, and you know what now that I found that we were not meant to be she will always be a sister to me.  My one hope for her is she starts being truthful to the people she loves.  I just want to see her happy in what ever she does, and not have to hide with lies like she has.  I know she will read this and I hope she does.

Lastly my family.  My Dad has been there for me even when we have had differences he has always tried to understand, and even help me out more than I deserve at times.  I have learned that though we might not think alike at times that in the end no matter what I say do or believe in he will always be with me 100% of the way.  My mom, though I don’t show it that much I love her to death.  She may not understand me now and may never will but its gonna hurt not to see her.  She may be crazy but in the end I love her.  My sister, again I don’t show love to her as much as a should either.  Stuff happened with her awhile back that has made it very hard, and no matter what anyone says I can’t help but blame myself a little bit.

I am not leaving Iowa quite yet and it is yanking my heart like no other.  At the same time there is so much opportunities in Wisconsin.  Teisha met me off my blog after just dreaming about being my mommy.  She watched the show with her mom and even admitted to her that she wanted that.  Out of all the families that reached out to me she was not one of them and for that I think its special.  We have had a hell of a relationship so far and it just gets deeper and deeper.  I have to thank from the bottom of my heart her best friend who I will not name but she probably saved our relationship over all with here awesome idea.  So when I went searching for a family I found more than that.  I was not planning on falling in love with someone again as it had been a 6yr break up.  Despite what she says of how she looks compared to others I’ve dated or how we are so different or any of that I know in my heart that once we get to see each other more and have fun we will be forever together.  I have had many people baby me and treat me as I feel to be treated but for some reason Teisha really knows her stuff and out of everyone is a VERY good mommy ANNNNNNNNNNNND girl friend.  People ask me, are you really making this trip for her only, and you want to know the answer.  Yes I am, is it risky, yes.  Is it leaving a lot of things behind including a job that I feel right in, yes.  At the end of the day though as I told Teisha you have to take risk to get anywhere in life, if you don’t take risk you could watch the things you love most pass you by.

Sorry for the long post, but during this I have cried like a baby.  I love everyone in Iowa, but I need a fresh start and I love Teisha and everything she brings to the table, I really think her and I were meant to meet each other and all this stuff was supposed to happen.

(sorry no pictures just thoughts.)

Lets start with the home life.  I have a crazy crazy home life right now.  It all started when my X cat and my best friend Nathaniel told me they wanted to move in with each other.  At first I was not bothered by this, but then I found out it was going to be 60 miles away from where Nathaniel works to have it better suited for Cat.  One thing you have to realize is that between Cat and Nathaniel they have probably kept me sane.  I can be who I want around the apartment and not have to worry about judgement or anything.  Us three have and I hope will always be good friends.

hanging in my crib and my cat attacked me

The other part to this is about me and Teisha.  We were trying to figure out Iowa or Wisconsin, and it was making a lot of heartache and missing each other.  There was one point where I thought we were done because of what was happening.  So two weeks ago I was freaking out because I didn’t know what was going to happen.  My roommates are leaving and I was gonna be with strangers.  This is where Teisha’s best friend who I will not name talked with Teisha and probably saved our relationship.  We finally figured out that Wisconsin was going to be best suited because I really just need a new life.  Away from the drama I call Iowa.  So this next 4 months is going to be interesting.  Why I say that is because Teisha and I plan to get me moved out in 4 months to Wisconsin, transferred jobs and everything.  Even today she is looking at places for me close to where she lives.  So with all that said it has been a rollercoaster.  I frankly now don’t care as much as I did about Cat and Nathaniel living with each other.  I do have to wonder though what or how this benefits Nathaniel at all, as he will be moving 60 miles away from where he works to live with Cat instead of being in the same town, but hey I guess its his life.

Well that is the home side to my massacre of life, now for the work part.  I don’t want to say much but it can be very stressful at times.  I am going to end this kinda quick as really not too much on my mind other than this crazy couple of months ahead of me.  The toughest part about leaving Iowa is going to be leaving my friends and family, but hey you need to take risk to get anywhere in life and I need to see what is out there.  I will be sure to write in the next week if I can, it has been more than crazy and there is so much more I want to say but I will leave that for another time.

This is what Teisha says my Paci is, it makes sense lol

The fact of it is that I am stuck in Iowa till at least August.  We actually went through all the scenarios and were really just trying to figure out what we should do.  It has come to the point where we have figured out that Iowa seems better suited as of right now.  As of now we are trying to figure out the best transition to getting into Iowa.  I will need to make a trip up to Wisconsin to meet her mom, which should be interesting.  As of right now Iowa is looking like the winner.  This could change tomorrow who knows.

Salem my Cat pimpin out in a bib

As of the rest of my life, I really have just tried to go one day at a time.  I have been fishing a lot lately with my friends and just really don’t have a schedule down for anything.  I feel that I am getting lost in a limbo right now, waiting to get out.  I have decided I am probably going to try to get some of my baby schedule back into play.  How to do this without another person is going to be interesting but I will talk with Teisha bout that later when she feels better.

Dont we just look right for each other, like OMG if I could move right now I would just to go be with her!!!!

Something I did not say right away is that Teisha came to see me again couple weeks ago.  It went better than the first time, we had a lot of fun, even if I had to work some.  I could go into detail but only people who would like that are me and her.  We basically cuddled watched movies, talked, got babied and a lot more.  This time when she left I just wanted to sneak back to Wisconsin with her, but knew I could not do that.  I really would like to figure this out sooner than later, because let me tell ya long distance SUCKS!!  I went searching for a family to take care of me feed me, change me, let me do what I wanted.  In the end it looks like I fell in love again and now have a GF/Mommy.  This is nuts and crazy and so many emotions go through my body I just almost can’t put my head around it.  I did a radio interview today for 97X WSUN, (www.97xonline.com) and it was pretty fun.  They were down to earth people and it was a lot of questions in not so much time.  If people do have more questions or if those guys had more, I would love to answer them.  My goal is to get to that point in my life where I am loving every moment.  I swear I am close, just need to work and wait a little longer.  Good things happen to people who wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

K this is the before show had to wait a bit so were just chilling

I welcome everyone, yes I did a follow-up episode and I think it will be pretty good.  If its your first time on this site and your curious just look around it’s basically my life on paper from day 1.  I got asked to do a follow-up and my first response was not sure, but then decided that yes my name is already out there from first show, might as well continue as I really only had positive happen to me, and even the negative was really positive.  I will write more after the show airs on how stuff is going in my life, or you can take a sneak peek if you would like as a lot happens in 4 months of that show airing.  Anyways, that’s it for now I am tired need some rest before the show, hope it turned out well.

Booooom 5min till the curtains went up!

As a last thing here is my email so, if you feel you need to comment, I welcome it also under my email will be the daddy who is on the shows email.  Well its time for bed Night.

My email: toon_lord322@yahoo.com

Bills email: diaperbabyboy2000@yahoo.com

A lot of people when they look at this blog see that I only want her for a mommy.  To be honest when I first was looking for families I was not looking for love of a girl friend.  I was looking for love of someone adopting me.  When Teisha and I talk on the phone and meet in person and everything else, feelings have developed over this short time where we are both falling for each other head over heels.  I have fallen in love with this person in such a short time.  Now people have said they think this is a one-sided relationship and a Cat relationship all over again.  Let me tell ya what is different.  For one Cat did a lot of that stuff out of the love for me and guilt she felt for cheating on me.  Teisha on the other hand loves doing that stuff and gets just as much out of being a mommy for an adult baby as I do being the baby.  She has said many times she never sees wanting a real baby but an adult baby instead

Now people might find this weird that she needs help or something but its all in the great cycle of ABDL’s, let me explain.  From my research and this is totally my opinions and no one elses.  I have learned that AB’s really don’t ever grow up, and will always have that desire to be young again, and for some people like me can actually get to that point.  DL’s or Diaper Lovers, the diaper fetish are a little different.  Some in my eyes grow up, they still like diapers and usually can’t hide it to well, but when they grow up they find they want to care for a baby, but not a baby but an adult baby.  I have done my research and out of the 15 families that wanted to take me on, 10 were in some sort of DL state.  So it really is nice that once people are ok with themselves that they have a partner out there waiting.  Another reason this is not one-sided we don’t just do what I want to do.  With Cat this was the same way, but Cat felt that she was doing too much with that baby thing and it wasnt enough in return.  When she was here last we cuddled watched movies went out to eat and just talked.  If she would want to go to some show I would have gone with her in an instant.  I love her more than just a mommy to me now.  We both are trying to figure out what to do and how to do it.  I have a decent job with lots of opportunities but is it enough to want to go day in day out waiting for that time.  I can technically transfer with my job in 5 more months, but that 5 months is killer.

My sister made this, cropped out my friend for elmo lol I thought she did a good job!

On another note I have the Dr.Phil follow up airing Friday of this week at 3:00PM Central time.  This I am not to worried about.  I have already done it once and I am ready for the gobs of emails and such.  Maybe this show will have as much impact as the last one did, who knows.  I will post another entry in 2 days to get ready for the show, but for now this is it.  I love you Teisha and I don’t care what anyone says or thinks, because at the end of the day the only ones that should care are you and me.

If you feel you want to email me toon_lord322@yahoo.com

Take care

So after she was done figuring out this was real I decided to go to McDonald’s because I was hungry.  You all have to remember I work the night-time so I am going on over 24 hours no sleep.  So we get to McDonald’s and her and I were talking about random people coming up to me or waving and such.  I told her that it happens more than you would think.  Back in Wisconsin when we hung out we had that one person wave and smile at me.  Well so back to the story, we are at McDonald’s and go figure the first thing out of the persons mouth is, “Elmo is back.”  She starts asking me all these questions like what my age was, so me being me I said, 2ish around 18 months.  Then I told her my actual age.  her manager asked if I was wearing an Elmo shirt which actually I was wearing a Winnie the Pooh onesie.  She called me and equal opportunity employer.  So now that this one lady was being very loud and knowing who I am she has the whole place asking me questions and such.  She even asked if my new mommy was my sister, since she wasnt on the show with me, and a lot of people don’t know Cat and I broke up.  So was does my new mommy do in all of this.  she gets nervous and walks away, which was not to uncommon as its very surreal that it was happening.  So finally we get out food and sit down.  We both have this connection like one person completes the other persons puzzle connection.  We talk for a bit, and I was like, wow do I choose the wrong places to go.  In the end this was a good experience for her to have as I get it at least 3 times a week.

This is the onesie I greeted her in, and the one that the Mcdonalds people saw.

Well now it is about 1 PM and I was falling asleep.  So she gets me all ready for bed.  She got me a new dry diaper a nice onesie and shows me my gifts she got me.  First she shows me the bag, which looks like she is going to a baby shower.  She first pulls out a baby blanket.  Not any baby blanket, but not just any baby blanket.  This baby blanket had a monkey rattle and has to be the most comfy blanket I have ever felt in my life.  As you can see in this pick its a very cute design with animals and such.  After that she pulled out a new pacifier for me.  It said, “I Love Mommy.”  Lastly she got me a new bubble machine, which is a lot of fun.  So after she gives me all that she gives me my new pacifier and I am off to bed.  Well not bed….. tucked into my crib.  So after 3 hours I get up and we go have lunch with my best friends Nathaniel and Cat.  Well before that she checks me and changes me again, and puts me into another onesie.  Before she even gets that far she is introduced to my clothes closet, which was a mess.  She gives me a bath, and asked me where everything was at, which I really had no idea because it had been 5 months since I took a bath, since I was forced into taking showers.  So after we find some toys she finds out that baby Brett really doesn’t like bath time.  After that we were off to the closet to find some clothes.  So after she found at least 7 onesies she liked she put me in my baby toys onesie with rocking horses.

Bubble machine she got me LOOK AT THE BUBBLES!!!

The gift bag she got for me, so cute!!!

After work we decide to go to IHOP for some breakfast.  We both were sold with chicken and waffles.  This has to be the most amazing combination ever.  After a very nice meal we go off to get me ny nyte, because she could tell I was really tired.  We get home she does her mommy thing and checks me changes me, tosses me into a different onesie and gets me ready for bed.  After my sleep she finds the room not smelling to nice and she had evidently been talking with my friends the whole day.  She goes out of the room and tells everyone bretts up but he stinks so it will be a bit.  What do my friends respond like other than, he always stinks.  Cat responded with, “lol now its your turn have fun!”  Well the thing that is different about Cat and this Mommy is that she loves this and wants this.  So after a change we go for a bath, and get me ready for the day.

num num num!!!!!

She had went to the store to get me some baby food and some other stuff.  Sadly my stomach is weak to some baby food.  She tried baby corn, and well that didn’t work to well, so after being a little sick and telling her I just can’t stomach some baby food.  She gives me the rest of my baby meal.  I have to say this has to be the cleanest meal I had ever had in my high chair.  She literally held the plate away from me and made it basically very hard to make a mess at all, since she had just cleaned me up and put me in a new onesie.  I still managed to get a bit messy but 100X less messy in general.

Sadly no highchair photos this time, but here's me in a onesie with my new blanket and my new pacifier

After my baby meal, which consists of baby noodles and apple sauce, she took me out to my friends in just a onesie.  She was in shock that they really did not care at all.  We got a movie to watch and she cooked a very awesome spaghetti thingy.  After the movie I had to get ready for work again and it will have already been 2 days together.  Every time I would go to work I would go nuts and want to be home more than ever.  Tomorrow would be a little different as she would get to meet my family.  Well she tucked me in to go to bed.  She had a very good routine down.  Well she took advantage of me being asleep and asked if she could hang out with my sister with out me, and of course I said yes because I was asleep.  After I woke up we got me changed and played a bit.  We then put me in her favorite shirt which is the cookie monster one that says, “Num Num Num.”  I told her if my family doesn’t scare you away then we should be good.  around 6 my dad picks us up, and we go to Okoboji Grill.  It was amazing my dad sister were connecting so well with my new mommy.  My actual mother was still a little sketchy about everything asking questions to her about will I ever grow out of this and such.  I of course was very talkative and loving that my family was loving my new mommy.  So after a good dinner, my dad had to show my new mommy ISU and such.  So we went around all of ISU.  My dad looked really happy that this person was way more accepting and didn’t care at all then a lot of other people had been.

So we get back around 8:30 and my friend Nathaniel was waiting since the time I told him was wrong to come over.  He gets there then finds out he has to pick up Cat from work.  We start cuddling and start to watch the movie Deathrace.  We play for a bit then I get a text wondering if I wanted to go to AppleBee’s to hang out.  I asked and she said sure.  It was amazing, as weird as this sounds she wanted me to be in my baby state as much as possible.  So before we left she checked changed me, and we had a moment where we kept falling more and more for each other.  So we go to AppleBee’s and I finally get to meet this friend of Cats that seemed interesting.  So we sit down and I didn’t have too much time so I was wanting boneless wings.  It got to late and I didn’t get my boneless wings, but I can get them when ever so not to mad.  I had my Xmanager and friend meet my new mommy.  He seemed very happy that I had found someone for me.  I even got to see my Xroomate, I gave him a hug.  Then I saw another Xmanager which I thought we were cool, but I guess not, because I went up there and he was very cold to me.  Maybe he was just having a bad day I don’t know.

So after that I had to get to work.  After work it was now Monday and she was going to have to leave pretty soon.  I was not going to go to sleep until she left.  We decided to not get breakfast and just wait for lunch.  We hung out wishing this time would never stop.  We ended up going to Hickory park again.  She got me in another cute onesie and I put my Elmo jacket over it and some sweat pants.  We get there and she asks me why I always put my jacket over my onesies or baby clothes.  She thought I get embarrassed and that I wasn’t that open to just go in my onesie and sweat pants.  I actually told her the truth, that I felt it was embarrassing for others.  So she dared me to take my coat off and hang is just my onesie and sweat pants.  I was like well if you don’t care then I don’t care and off my coat went.  So here I am in a onesie that you could definitely tell was a onesie and sweatpants.  Was I embarrassed, no I was not.  I had never had a person actually ask me to do that and not care about it.  So now I had fallen even more.

Rocking it up in a onesie at at lunch OOOOOO ya!!!!

We get home from lunch and we cuddle and I get her in my crib with me.  She does have a little AB in her and was loving every minute of it.  I even locked it so she got the full effect of being in a crib.  What she didn’t know was my hidden agenda.  I actually jumped over the crib and got a nice couple camera shots of her in the crib.  It was cute and funny.  After that I went back into the crib and we cuddled not wanting this to ever end.  Sadly it had to, and with one last diaper change and playing a little more she had to pack up and leave.  As she left I knew that she had hit my heart hard and I had done the same.

Mommy getting ready for one last change before she leaves

This is when I jumped out and took a picture!

When I saw her car pulling away I had to turn away as I started crying, I really have to figure some stuff out in the months to come.  Lucky my friends are always there for me and love me.  So that is my last week.  It was insane and almost unreal.  I went searching for a person or family to take care of me when Cat left.  I had many families reach out to me and the one person that doesn’t reach out at all.  The one who says good luck, and I will post what she said on my blog, what really started all of this.  It wasn’t her asking to try her out, she had just told me good luck.  Now we have hit a level of happiness I have not felt in a while.

(This is what she commented)

hi

yes choosing AB parents can be tough just make u choose carefully im 27 and i have been a mommy since i was 18. Make sure the connection is genuine and real and sinciere, I know when i meet babies in real life i have to make sure there heart is in it b/c I want a real baby! a baby who can regress and and just let me take over and nurture! be carefull and be safe in who choose!  Even though the choice is hard im sure u are SOOO EXCITED!!! good luck mommie

ps if u ever need a mommie friend dont be shy!!!  I love helping other ABs and DLs!

She asked me today why I missed her, was it because I had to change myself.  Or was it because I had no one to clean up my messes, or feed me or any of the other things that come along with being a baby.  My response was this,  “No, quit worrying I miss you for a billion reasons.  To be honest you just felt like that piece of the puzzle that completes me.”  I really do believe that with all my heart.  I really had a time that I had never thought I would feel something far past what I have felt before.  The big issue is one of us lives in Iowa and one in Wisconsin.  One of us is going to break down and move.  Who it will be we will see.  She sees from coming out here that my support group in Iowa is beyond strong and that my friends really love me.  Anyways I am sorry for the book but that is what has happened and its life changing.  I will leave you guys with this.  If you have a dream, reach for it and don’t let anything or anyone in your way.

Now people are probably wondering why I touched on my new job and everything.  Well right now it is a big part of my life, and really makes me re adjust things I do around the house.  Right now I am alone in my efforts of being happy at home.  I have decided against baby sitters for now, so I don’t have a jealous mommy.  This brings me to another thing going on.  This girl and I have kicked it off well, as you can tell from my other blogs.  I have basically declined any babysitting for me and or families that wanted to adopt me.  I really think her and I were meant for each other.  Well this finally brings me to why next couple weeks are going to be interesting.

Sometime at 5AM she is going to drive out here to meet me, and the whole baby me, in my zone.  She is going to meet my best friend Nathaniel, and my other best friend Cat.  She also is going to meet my family and probably some of my co-workers.  I really hope that this experience goes good and she isn’t to shy.  As I write this I already know she will be reading it in the next couple hours after the gym.  I want to share with her what it will be like if she chooses to adopt me.  I can say first hand I am a handful, but she also has a lot of AB experience as a mommy.  She has told me she is not used to a AB that is so open and has so much time and experience as a baby.

My first hope is I don’t scare her away.  My second hope is my friends don’t scare her away, and there is always family being scary too…..  So I know a lot of people are going to read this including Cat, and my parents so please don’t scare her. 

I preparation for her coming out I have had these decals that I have wanted to put up for quite some time.  So finally one night before work I got to it.  I have to say I think they look pretty neat.  I had only enough for 3 sets of places so I chose above my high chair, by my crib, and the middle of the room.  I have to say I am not a very nervous person.  If you ever saw me I am a very laid back person that sometimes is to laid back.

So ya that weekend is going to come and I hope it is all I ever wanted and that I have maybe found the person for me.  On an adult level we click so good, and she was talking that she usually meets her babies in baby on the phone and such.  I told her that I would end up either throwing the phone or chewing on it.  Maybe that is for some but for me its the real deal or go home.

So that’s whats been going on with me, and you can BET that after this weekend whether it good or bad you will see a post of what is going on.  I do want to end this with something kinda different but still in the same category.  I have told people I am full AB and not DL(diaper lover) at all.  Well for the most part this is true but I have to say ABU (www.abuniverse.com ) is now my favorite place to go for diapers.  They finally made a diaper for AB’s that has the outer cloth like feel just like the Pampers cruisers have.  So I have to say without a doubt that this company has turned in the right direction.  If I had a mommy here for me I wouldn’t worry about what type and such but untill then I have to figure that out for myself.  Anyways here are some pictures of my new decals in my room.  Untill next time, BabyBrett out! 

Now to add the baby stuff that went on.  Cat really doesn’t baby me anymore BUT, she still does talk to me like a baby.  Welp as always I had my diaper on and my binki by me.  I even found out that I am to big for swim diapers, which sucks, because a bit ago I could fit in them easily.  When we went to the beach I went swimming in the ocean.  The diaper its self wasn’t filling up, that is till I got hit by a huge wave.  At that time I decided I needed to get changed quick as that thing was really heavy.  When you’re a pro like me it takes less time to change then it does someone actually going to the bathroom.

So I had my swimming for the day, the water was cold and we decided to walk the beach still getting some water.  When I was all changed and such, we went back out and started walking the beach.  Me not caring what anyone thinks of me decided to get in a onesie and some snap pants.  I guess it was LA so no one even noticed, which is really funny.  We coasted the beach took a lot of pictures, and then went to world-famous Manhattan beach pizza.  Had some of that, and then walked the beach back.  I found out that LA is a place I would love to live.  People don’t care what or who you are and they just roll with it.

As for the whole other part to all of this adventure.  I have been looking for that family, and I think I am getting close in finding it.  I have basically the same connection I did with Cat with this other girl.  The one big thing that is different is she wants to care for me.  I of course need to be safe in what I do and will be.  I can’t wait to meet this person, its crazy because of the connection we have.  Now people are probably wondering you have yet to meet this person?  The answer to that is yes, I need to meet this person.  So what makes stuff different with this person then the other potential families.  Well I can’t say why yet I want to stay in Iowa, but I can say I want to now.  I have a lot of opportunities to go other places Oregon, Washington, New York, Florida, but something has changed where I think I need to stay in Iowa at least for a bit longer.  This person in Wisconsin is willing to move if we click in person as much as we click with each other over phone.  I know this all sounds crazy but you have to follow your gut, and this is what my gut tells me to do.  So I hope to see this person before the month ends and start a new journey.

(I’m AB and I Know It!)

Ya, ya,

When you see me waddle on by.

You might see a big boy slash sigh.

I fall on my seat, crawling by pretty neat, can’t stay on my feet ya.

This is how I roll big Binky diapers im out of control.

Its bubby with the big baby pose

I’m cute, onesies, don’t wear regular clothes.

Mama look at my face    x3

I make farts!!!

Mama look at my face   x3

I make farts!!!

When I walk in Bubby’s room this is what I see.

Mommy and Kitty staring at me.

I got cookies in my pants and you can definitely  smell it, smell it smell it!

I’m AB and I know it     x2

yo when I’m wet

My mom needs no help

With cleaning my butt, I make brown swirls.

I talk to mommy and watch elmos world.

This is how I roll

Tum on mommy its time to go

We tread to the store with the stroller where not nervous

Got a onesie on a baba an I still get service!!  WHAT

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Then it goes into the other two choruses.

Also I have been thinking about getting a Tattoo.  I have been getting a lot of BABIES DONT GET TATTOOS!!  Well let me tell ya, I am a baby but still and adult thus I am an adult baby!!!!

Here it is, tell me what you think!!!

When I was looking at going out there to see them I met a girl on the way.  Not going to give her name, but she was exactly like me, and just stuck on wanting to be a baby.  Her and I chat time to time, and are not sure but maybe someday would live together as 2 lil babies, if we can get over a couple of things, and of course have a daddy or mommy to take care of us, while still having some of a work social life, as that is healthy to have.

So after meeting her I have really wanted to somehow find a way to have it so I have her as a baby sister, but only time will tell that.  I already went into detail on the mommy in my home town, so…..lets go to the other people who I could possibly call home.  After the show I got a lot of people wondering if I wanted to stay with them and be their baby part-time.  This one family in particular I fell in love with.  It would be me as the baby boy another baby boy, a baby girl and a mom and dad.  Well this all seemed to be going well till one day something happened and the dad is no longer with them.  Also the baby girl doesn’t want to move.  I have two things keeping me in Iowa, and they are friends and family.  The big friend that keeps me here is Cat.  I really don’t know how I am going to break that leash if I decide to move.

(I posted this vid cause I like it even though it has to deal with another AB.)

Well after a couple of months of trying to put this all together the mom is about to go out to see the boy, and then it would be some time before they could make it to Iowa.  So here I really had to think is this what I want to wait for, or not.  The answer to that question is no.  I really wish it could work out but so many different things, that would take a very long time to deal with, so sadly no. 

The second family that contacted me, lives in Pennsylvania.  Dad a Mom and a kid that knows all about this stuff.  I have not taken this one out of the picture, it’s just really hard to choose the best thing for me.

Third family would be in TN and that would be with that girl and her daddy.  Though I would have to move out to TN.  I think if i can get past the fact of wanting to stay out in Iowa, I will be a lot better.

fourth family lives on Long Island and is two friends that would love to have a baby.  They seem fun and would like to get to know more about them.

fifth family is one in Oregon, and seems like a really good family.  I have chatted with that daddy a lot.  It would be a daddy and a big bro, and they seem to have a lot set up.

A lot of people would say that is crazy 5 families like that?!?!  Well truth is I have at least 3 I have taken out of the equation.  On top of all else, I am just at a crossroads where I just need to figure out is this what i really want…….only time will tell.

Why I said why can’t this 4 months go by, that is when my lease, and thats when I have to find something or sign another agreement for a new place.  So in this next four months I have a lot of deciding to do.  I will also keep you guys updated the whole way.

A big question is what does my family think about all this.  Well my dad for one is all for me living my life I want to, as you all saw on TV he is into diversity quite a bit.  He is happy I am doing what I am doing and that is that.  My mom also just wants the best for me as well as my sister.  Would they be sad if I left to go to another state.  Of course the answer is yes……or I hope it is lol.

So there you have it, that’s about what has happened in my life over the course of this month.  Oh ya I passed my management test where I work and could land a role in there sooner or later, and that would make stuff even harder……..

Anyways thank you all for reading my blog, that’s all I got for nowz

Peace

Now on to bigger things happening in my life.  For one I have so really great opportunities I can’t talk about, but can’t wait till I can.    I also had some other stuff happen in this last crazy week.  I had a trip planned to go to Tennessee, to meet these folks and see if that family was right for me.  Well with Cat backing out of going, the weather not looking good and the fact they wanted to basically keep me hidden from everything.  In my mind that doesn’t seem to be what I want.

So instead of going I got invited over to a friend’s house and were talking about how I want to find a family and such.  Then out of no where this person says, “why not me.”  Needless to say my jaw dropped, and then dropped more.  She cooked me an amazing meal, spoon fed it to me, then we went to my house.  We got their and it was pretty nuts, this woman knew exactly what to do for me.  When we got their she wanted me to go play, so I did.  She cleaned my sippies and stuff, and then watched some TV with me.  When we were watching TV Cat came in.  Cat was really defensive and wanting the best for me, as she did take care of me for quite some time.  I was afraid those two were going to get into it.  So I called off what I was doing and figured lets all go for a drink, seems to smooth stuff out.  Well we get there and each of them were in there separate chairs staying separate.  I really told each of them, I need them to get along, and they finally played some pool together.  After a couple of drinks we went home. 

When we got home this new person changed me and got me in my high chair and surprised me with some baby food apple sauce.  It was amazing that more than just Cat would ever do this for me.  After that we watched a lil more TV and then she tucked me in to bed and I really felt like I was in the right place.  In the morning Cat left, and I went up and watched Barney then Criminal Minds with this woman.  in between all that she fed me again, made sure I was clean and I got to play with toys everywhere.  After that 2 amazing days, this woman had to go back home, and ask her parents.  Sadly to find out, her Mom said this wouldn’t be the best for her right now.

I had so much fun in those 2 days, and was really hoping that, that was gonna be it, the family I had been looking for.  During all this I have had at least 4 families that want me,  but one keeps touching my heart more than the others.  They seem to be a good bunch and I would have 2 sisters, a mom and a dad.  I really hope they do decide to come out and live here, I would def think that, that would make me a very happy baby.  Sorry I didn’t go into detail more about those 2 days, but it made me feel better than ever.  When I am in my baby state, or what ever you want to call it, I don’t feel out-of-place, and that’s what I really seek in life. 

Some friends have asked me if I plan to date ever again, and that answer is this, yes when the time is right and the girl is right for me.  As of now I have a couple of things going but not sure on any of it.

That’s it for now, I have learned a lot of things from the experience, and I am happy I did it.

This was actually at my grandparents house

The big discussion that has went on is, is this a choice?  You will have half the adult babies say yes it is a choice.  Then you have the other side that says no it’s not.  Well lets look at the facts.  First off there is a lot a different theories of how someone gets infantilism.  I think something happened somewhere in your life to make you stuck in this mode.  Do I believe some of it is a choice, yes.  Do I believe all of it is a choice no.  Let me tell ya what I think is a choice.  Your choice to accept what you have is a big factor.  After that yes I did choose to make my life better.  Everyone is guilty in some way of trying to make their life better.  Whether its something they want or believe they need.

To me I believe I need a crib and high chair.  I believe I need diapers because I am a 18 month old baby stuck in an adult’s body.  That is my take on things.  Like I said everyone is different.  Some people will get so angry that they choose to be shut off about the whole thing while others will choose to have fun with what you have.  Life is a choice, whether you choose to embrace or hide its up to you.

Guess I was asleep cute pic though

I go back to when I was a kid I randomly started stealing baby things, why, I don’t know.  I figure something triggered something, and that’s how this all happened.  Now do I think I have the choice to just stop everything…….no I don’t.  I actually tried to stop everything once when I was younger and let me tell ya those were dark days.  You can stop looking at your life and wonder why you do these things.  It really is still a mystery to today where or how adult babies come to be.  It’s all theories and nothing more.

This is the ABDL triangle it shows the differ between the 2

One thing I hope happens in the years to come is some actual doctor research on everything.  The stuff that is on the internet is of people talking about their lifes but this shows no research that its completely a fetish, or completely something mental.  To me its in-between.  See this site that I will link on here and will put on my blog site, shows basically any and everything you want to know. http://understanding.infantilism.org

It states right on top that Infantilism is often mistaken as a fetish, so who knows what the real thing is without some research.

So when you think of struggles it can be small or big everyone does have them.  My struggles are quite different and I’d love to share them with you.  First off lets start with the biggest one.  Going to work/school.  Believe it or not but working and school is beyond hard for me to get pumped up everyday.  Anyone who knows me at work would not even know the ritual I do to make myself want to get there.  People at my work right now would tell you I am a hard-working individual that will do anything for anyone.  Now when you see me at work you see a “normal” person doing their job, in reality I have so much going on through my head.

When I get ready for work, first I have to slip out of the baby clothes, whether it is with Cat’s help or not.  If she is there she usually helps me get ready for work because it can be really tough.  I make sure I’m all clean and that I have everything with me.  Without Cat I would be lost.  She is my organizer to the max.  She usually will drive me down depends on the day but this helps me get ready and relax.  Before I leave I usually have my pacifier in my pocket and try to pump myself up.  You have to realize going to work is really tough for me.  I would rather stay at home (more than the normal person) and be treated how I think it really should be.  I have to keep thinking to myself have to pay the bills.  After I am at work my friends there are so nice, they make me feel at home.  I make sure that most people know what I have or am going through, and am the complete opposite of most adult babies.  A big thing that makes me feel at home is I do wear diapers 24/7.  A lot of times I even will wear a onesie underneath my clothing, this helps me think everything is ok.  I have grown to be somewhat incontinent over the years, but really that doesn’t affect me to much, because I already am wearing protection.  Soon as I’m at work I usually stay longer than anyone.  Which if you look at it, its like why does he stay after he pumped himself up for work this whole day.  Well its simple I am a very helpful guy who likes to make sure things are done before I leave.

When I was in school (college) it was quite difficult too.  Again no one would guess the stuff I had to go through.  Cat for one just tried to help me the best she ever could.  I was a really smart guy, but at the same time I rather be at home chewing on a toy or something.  I did end up skipping some classes to try to balance stuff out.  Finally Cat made a baby schedule for me.  This put structure in my life, and made me happy, more than you can believe.  The schedule had everything from nap time to feeding to playing to bathing, she really is one of a kind.

I might as well hit this sense, really it’s not a struggle for me but for a lot of people it is.  I said I wear diapers 24/7, well I also use them for there intended purpose.  The thing is somewhere in my brain says this is right and that won’t change.  I have grown somewhat incontinent that can put you in awkward positions, but I also am able to change very discreetly with in the time it takes someone to go to the bathroom if not quicker.  I have had some instances where Cat and I are out and I really don’t even think about it and will have an accident here or there.  Cat will just smile and say something cute and help me through it.  She has gained a mother sense as well as a good gf sense.  She loves me for who I am and that’s all anyone could ever ask for.

Next and this might be the big one is doing stuff by myself.  I am a very dependent person, which does suck sometimes but again Cat makes it just fine.  I eat 5 meals a day, 2 baby whether its baby food or graduates, I eat something.  Then I eat 3 big boy meals a day.  Two times a day I am fed in my high chair if not more, and the other 3 are usually cooked and handed to me.  I drink out of sippy constantly and quite soda at the beginning of last year.  I drink V8 Splash and A LOT of it.  Somehow Cat has made me graduate to sippy’s.  I have no idea how but I still do like my ba ba’s at night-time.  She does everything in her power to make sure my sippy is full no matter what.  Which if you saw this, its pretty amazing. When she is at work to long I can forget to feed myself quite often, and then she comes home and asks and I’m like whoops.

The big question a lot of people asked is does she change you.  Answer is about 80% of the time yes.  She checks me around every 3 hours and talks just like a mommy talks to a baby.  She even made up this thing how the cookies have to go to the factory, I’ll let you decide what cookies and factory are LOL.  When its time for a bath she does bathe me, we have fun bath time with toys and everything.  I even do use baby products for that. 

Lastly nap times and bed times.  I am just like any other baby, I DON’T LIKE THEM!!!!!!!  It is sometimes hard for me to get in bed to the point where Cat will read me a story, play with me try to settle me down.  A big thing she has done is when she picks me up from work she brings my baby blanket my favorite book and a comfort toy to make me get sleepy by the time we get home.  This actually is probably the most effective thing she has done

Those are just some of the bigger struggles I have day-to-day.  I also have other struggles that everyone else does, and even with all I said there that’s just the big ones for my babyside.  Anyways this was kind of one of my bigger posts.  I hope you enjoyed it and I hope to post again soon.  Thank you again for the comments and emails, I really am happy I have the guts to do this for every adult baby out there.  I’ll leave this with a funny saying I saw on Facebook.  Isn’t that the truth!!!

When I was in school, lets say highschool I wore diapers to class to make it feel like a baby.  I also would have a pacifier in my pocket with none being the wiser.  Now this was back when I was a lot more self conscious about the situation at hand.  Now I could careless who sees or what ever.  Back in highschool was tough, everyday I would think someone saw that I was wearing a baby diaper, or somehow someone was talking behind my back.  Which in reality this never happened, or so I don’t think.  The real kicker was trying to change in the restroom with no one figuring out what you’re doing.  You can ask anyone now, and I am so quick at it, but back then I wasn’t.  I always thought about what if I get caught, there going to take me to the nurse and whats going to happen.  Well I got through highschool………somehow and moved on to better things.

The other difficulty I had as a child was not wanting to go to school.  Most kids don’t want to go to school but for me it was different.  I felt like I didn’t belong there because babies don’t go to school.  So many MANY days I skipped, I just felt it was wrong to go.  I also felt that doing homework and such was just not me so I never really did it till junior year when I figured I didn’t want to be a highschool drop out.  Every time I would skip, I would watch TV.  Well when I look at TV I watch anything from Teletubbies to YO Gabba Gabba.  The odd thing about it is, I could sit there for days watching that and not be bored AT ALL.  Other things I would do is trying to research why I have these behaviors on the internet.  I also had a secret stash of toys and hid them so no one knew besides my sister, what was going on.  My parents probably thought that the Sesame Street comforter I always slept with, was because it was comfy but in reality it was because it was Sesame Street.

Lastly the hardest struggle back then was to tell people.  My parents didn’t know untill I was 17.  The only people who knew were my cousin who also was an adult baby, and my sister.  So trying to keep that hidden and being stuck thinking im basically the only one who is that messed up in the brain.  I felt very lonely, depressed and was all around just a very dark person at that time.  Later on I would find out when your true to yourself, that you can live a really happy life.

My next post will be on my struggles now and how I deal with them.  Till then, thank you for reading my blog, and I do appreciate the comments.

Before we go into this detail, lets turn back to how our relationship progressed to regress if that makes sense.  Cat and I met around age 17ish, I knew her from school, I had went through a few girlfriends, one in particular, that crushed my heart.  The thing a lot of people didn’t realize was that I was dealing with 2 big things being a teenager, and trying to figure out why I wanted to be a baby again.  I actually opened up to my last girlfriend before Cat, and well she dumped me not too much after.

Anyways back to the story.  Cat got hired at the place I worked, and I actually trained  her a bit.  For those 2 weeks when she first got hired I knew that I had a major crush on her.  Well I was quite mean to her……I tend to do that to people I like for some reason.  Well after we flirted back and forth for what seemed to be a life time I finally asked her out.  Our first date was not the best, she picked around her food and ate like 2 bites.  I could easily see chemistry though.  So her and I went on these little dates for a while, and then it hit me one night.  That I was head over heels for this girl and couldn’t get her out of my head.  We started going to dances together and more and more.  Then one night I got kicked out of my house and asked if I could live with her.  I could see by this point that we both loved each other soooooo much.  It wasn’t too much longer that I had to tell her I didn’t have a baby cousin and that it was me.  She asked if I was a pedophile, I said no, and told her all I know.  What is weird about all this is, this didn’t make not want to be with me.  In fact she started babying me and having fun with it.  She didn’t even blink an eye when I told her.  RIGHT THEN AND THERE I KNEW SHE WAS THE ONE!  I for one do believe in love at first sight because it happened to Cat and I both.

So now that you have the little cut background why does she stay with me.  I had Cat and I play a game last night called 10 reasons you stay with and love me.  Then I talked to a friend today online, and they made me realize something.  Love is unconditional and the person that loves you will love you through thick and thin.  They will love you for who you are not what you wear, do act.  Yes relationships are a balance, and I think our balance is pretty decent.  So just to help people who don’t realize why she stays with me I’ll throw out the list here for fun.

1. Your personality
2. How your true to yourself
3. How you accept me even after all the faults I made
4. How bubs is so cute
5. How he can be so nice to me in makes me crazy
6. When we are out together we always have something to talk about
7. I love my baby for who he is, and am happy just the way things are
8. At times feeding, diaper changing and such can be rough but when I see his eyes it makes it all worth it.
9. One of the big reasons I stay with you is that we have come along so far, and you have helped me through rough roads and I have helped you.
10. People may think that its 1 sided but I actually have the love that an actual mommy does, and at the same time I have the love for that an actual girlfriend has.  My best friend is right, love is unconditional and the balance between our relationship is the love from both sides.

Those were Cat’s 10 reasons and I also have mine, but I’ll leave that for another post.  As you can see our relationship is different.  We have a kinda mixed role relationship that works out.  Hope that answers the questions of the people who emailed me.  Also want to thank the people who emailed me for such a good subject.

She usually has the TV already turned to PBS, and has most of her things done.  This is not always the case sometimes I wake up before her too.  First thing she does is check to see the condition of my diaper.  She usually does this when I’m asleep or waking up.  She then will get my Clothes for the day, usually baby clothes and hang up my work clothes for later.  She then will proceed to wake me up, and let me watch my shows for a bit, while she gets breakfast.

When she decides whats for breakfast, usually baby food of some sort, she puts me in my high chair locks it down, throws a bib on me and starts to feed me.  After breakfast she puts me onto the changing pad/table.(still working on that)  Gives me something to play with so I don’t fuss while getting changed.  She usually gives me my favorite book where I can feel how a lizard feels.  For some reason this is really fun for me.  After she gets a clean diaper on she proceeds to dress me, again so I don’t fuss she will give me something to play with.  Today she dressed me in a onesie and snap pants.  She has to still work so usually after that she lets me run wild.

Depends on the day I can either be a good baby or bad.  It really just depends on how I feel that day.  If she doesn’t work we usually go to the mall or somewhere public and do the whole baby/mommy thing which in my eyes I think she enjoys more than me.  Usually somewhere in there, we figure out somewhere to go new.  We have went fishing and even just hung in a park.  There is plenty more we want and will do but, a lot of people find it socially not acceptable to do this.  Again if we were all normal it would be boring so people need to lighten up. 

After were done with our outing she usually will open my toy bin and I get to play with numerous toys, she sometimes plays with me.  We will do everything from itsy bitsy spider to patty cake.  Like a normal baby, if she has the day off it’s what I like to do.  It’s what I feel is right to do.

She will read stories to me as well as turn on the baby monitor during my naps.  After naps I usually get to just cuddle with her, I might be destructive, just depends on the day.  Sometimes will go out to eat, as mommy/baby and sometimes as boyfriend girlfriend.  Fact of it is, it almost feels like we live 2 lives sometimes but have fun doing both.  A big thing that a lot of AB’s want is 24/7 babycare.  I for one wouldn’t mind that either just to try it.  I reality that is something that just can’t happen as of yet.  As of right now I am 24/7 diapers and she probably changes a god 80% of those.  She is beyond a treasure for me and one day we will be married.

People have asked why she stays with me, what benefit is in for her.  The fact is she loves her bubs(me), and that’s basically it.  People shouldn’t judge who you are with, without taking a look into our lives and seeing that we do have a good relationship.  It is a lot different but it is a good one.

This was fun comfy and made me really want to be at work.  Usually I really hate work more than the normal person, but you have to pay the bills.  The second outfit I had been some shortalls.  Again I didn’t think they would be to accepting of these because it would show too much skin again.  These shortalls I got a while ago and I love them so much.  In this next pic you will See my bob the builder shortalls.  Lastly for actual Halloween I asked a friend if they wanted to do matching outfits.

Lastly I wanted to do an outfit where my friend and I could match.  So we did a Elmo and Cookie Monster theme.  Had hats shirts and baby snap pants to match.

As you can see were just chilling having a good old time.  Halloween was different as I worked it for the first time in 24 years, but with the people I was with it was just as good.  These people really make you feel like family.

So this is a pic of the high chair.  As you can see it is very high off the ground.  This whole design was done by my friend and I, and it seemed to be coming together pretty well.  Now we had to find a food tray, and to do that we had to think.  I figured out you could get a TV tray, and take off the top, but then came the tough part of trying to connect it to the rest of the high chair.  We ended up using really small pieces of wood at the bottom and making nudges in the arms in 3 different places.  This made it so there were 3 different modes it could be on, loose normal and tight.  After going through 3 drill bits because they kept burning off, we were done.

As you can see I’m chowing down on what looks like to be banana’s.  I wanted to do one better though.  When you look at all the baby high chairs, they have waterproof covers.  So I first started going and emailing the big companies.  This led me no where because they basically said no.  So I started going online looking for any and everything possible to see what was out there.  After a hard search I had it down to 3 sites, so i emailed them all.  First site called me a sicko……..so that was a no.  Second site said she didn’t think she could do it.  Now the 3rd site was open arms to the idea, but it would be one of her most challenging things ever.  Well we started this in July, she has a very busy life and has had some health problems so I feel for her.  She said its done and just needs mailed, so I can’t wait!!!  After I get it I will throw up a pic of that.  Well that concludes my high chair madness, now I have a high chair AND a crib, can’t wait to create more.

I decided let’s do like we did with the crib, just make one.  I started with the wood I had left over from the crib.  I then made a pattern that in my eyes was exactly what I wanted.  Well the only problem was making it.  I’m not good with power tools or anything of that sort.  I asked my roommate but he had just finished the crib and didn’t want to do the high chair for quite some time.  So I asked on of my best friends, and he said he could do it.  We started thinking it would be a lot smaller than it started to turn out.

This is the start of it, you can tell that it’s actually really high off the ground.  We wanted it 3 feet off, it ended almost being 3.75 off, which in the long run worked.  This is the base, but we needed to see if it held the weight of at least me.  So I blindly jumped on top praying it wouldn’t break.  That would have been a 4ft fall and could have really done something.  Also would have been interesting to tell the hospital/family.  Needless to say it held my weight and we were on to the tough part.

After a dozen trips to Lowes, again we finally were getting close to a final product.

Here is a pic of me going to Lowes, yes that is a onesie.  I feel like why do I need to hide who I am, no one should hide who they are.

Well this is all the time I have for now, I will update this post when I get home from /sigh work, but ya got to pay the bills since life isn’t free.

There is a pic, of the actual baby crib i have, it was a toddler crib that was 5ft long.  For my health this wasn’t the best because im 6 ft long.  When I turned 23 I said to myself I want to live my life with no fears at all.  So i decided to type to some shows and see if I could help the awareness for Adult Babies everywhere.  Well sooner or later one of the shows got back to me, and that adventure began.  I also decided I really don’t care who knows anymore so I was completely open with everyone I knew.  Most people didn’t care and im sure a lot of people have talked behind my back, but that’s just human nature.

We met up with a friend we had not talked to for a while and found out that we were becoming really good friends with this friend again.  This friend had a 1.5 year old and made cat and I think about really wanting kids.  She welcomed us into her home, and we practically lived there some days we loved this friend so much.  This friend even allowed me to come dressed in baby clothes.  I never even thought twice about it, because she made me feel so comfortable at her house.  When I came in baby clothes it usually had onesie pants(snap long pants) and I usually kept my hoody on.  This person also is who gave me the idea to get my voice out there and gave me the courage to do so, and for this i thank them.  About christmas time, we go over exchange gifts, she said ours was still in the mail.  We made her probably the best christmas gift I could ever think of.  I made a poem about friends and about her baby, and Cat decided to use her crafting skills and framed it really nicely with a pic of her and her baby.  We gave this to her and she said see you guys next week.

Well Sadly their was never a next week.  There was never a next month, she just took us out of her life like it was nothing.  I find out later that it’s because her BF thinks that me having infantilism was bad for there kid.  To be honest i might have crossed the line with the baby clothes and I tried apologising with that, but to no avail.  But a big misconception is that if you have infantilism you are a pedophile.  This is not true at all, and I think this is how I lost one of the best friends I had in some time.

This happened right when i graduated college, and now, I was a mess.  My structure was gone and one of my best friends in the whole world taken away from me like that!  It was a rough depressing time, because i for one do not like work at all.  More than a normal individual.  So i did try reaching out to this person, and as silly as it is, I still try to keep that person in the loop about whats happening now.  All I ask is a second chance but I doubt that happening   This is probably one of my most hated things that has happened to me with infantilism, losing a friend like this hit me really hard.  But you learn to move on and im still working on that to this day.

I decided it was time to work on some of my adult baby things, and started searching the web.  I came across these plans that one of my good friends had on the internet.  http://www.bedwettingabdl.com/CRIB.html

So now that i had the plans, I needed some help on making the crib because im am not a wood worker.  My roommate decided that he was bored and would gladly help with making the crib.  So we went to lows over 10 times to get the right stuff for this crib.  After about 2 3 weeks he had created it all.  In the mean time I went out got a twin size mattress and some pretty babyish twin size sheets and a mattress protector, because sometimes diapers don’t do their job.    I ended up finding some zoo prints that had a matching pillow case cover for pretty cheap.  After we got the crib together we had to make the lock mechanism to make it slide up and down, this took another week or so because we all had pretty busy lives.  After about a month it was done and I was happier than ever.  To finally not hurt my legs and be in what is and looks like a crib was one of the best feelings in my life.

This was the start of it, now i have everything from bumpers to night lights.

This is me one morning and cat taking a pic of me before im awake for the day.  She does this a lot she likes to keep a baby diary of me, which is pretty cute.

This is all my onesies, rompers snap pants footies and lots more.  Yes it is a lot and yes I probably have spent quite a lot of money as this stuff is not cheap, ranging anywhere from 30 to 90 dollars an item.  I also spend a lot on diapers, and other things too.  I had also got lucky with how much Cat(my gf) actually babies me.  Around age 20 she really got into treating me as a baby to the fullest and even being a great mother like figure to me.  By age 22 I was living a life that most adult babies dreamed about, but who knew that, that was only the beginning.