But I am detoxing this week. I want my strong immune system back

In fact, I have been thinking of starting this blog for days. Then, I did not immediately start writing and post. These are due to a bad habit of mine, procrastinating.

Procrastination is the main reason why I’ve got so many DREAMS in my head. These dreams, which are very likely to stay in this form forever, never come true because I never got to do them. It’s not because I don’t have time, it’s because of laziness.

I tried to get rid of the laziness inside me. Every night, I tend to promise myself that I will study every day starting the day after, I will start practicing “I dreamed a dream” the day after, I will start a YouTube  channel the day after, I will write my diary the day after… But on the next day, then the next week, until the next month, none of them are done. Sh*t.

What I meant by I tend to (here comes the funny part) is to have the “draft” of what I am going to do in my head. (Unknown stranger): SERIOUSLY! YOU GOT EVERYTHING PLANNED AND THEN YOU DO NOTHING? Yes. Yes. You’re right.

Ughhhhh!! Now I’ve admitted that I am a total procrastinator, I think I should make a change. (?!) Maybe I should start off by writing diaries? I guess filling this blog with posts will be easier!

As you are my loyal readers (dude, you only have one post!), I guess you (which is no one) can help me get rid of my procrastination?

#1 I, Isabella Shao, here by promise I will start writing diary tonight.

#2 To motivate me, I here by encourage you all (ghosts) to write your own diary. Write whatever you want, your day, your new handbag, a new girl at school, a toy which was given by your crash… Make it an essay of your life!

I hope that I can make a change and I hope those procrastinators out there (HEY!:D) can support me (each other) and start saying no to this bad habit. Wish me luck:)

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I wont place anymore TVD’s here… it goes to my Tumblr NYX since I don’t have much time to be placing 2 sites that are both same files…
I got plenty of things to do and I got blogs to provide and each are different genre.. and I’m too freakin’ tired and tense..
I got TVD – Nyx …
The love for my pets and animals, posting anything about pets and animal – Paws And Claws
My arts manipulations – Deviantarts (I do wanted to post also the pics I used in making that piece -if I still got the energy to do so)
My journal – here
and my random photos and other pics that’s in my HD.. I’m gonna save it here and in my photobucket.
.. I need to clean up also my files in my HD.. alot of junks in there..

I wanted to dispose any clutter in my freakin’ HD, so I’m getting rid of my photos and files..
and time consumes me when I still play FarmVille…oh yeah, It’s in my system and I can’t remove that easily, though I wanted to.. it’s keeping me from doing other things specially when I’m at home.. net is too damn slow and it just frustrates me… I do wanted to complete my mastery seeds but all of my longest days of seeds are done.. so I got less of a days.. so meaning I have to open my facebook still on weekends, to check up my crops.. now I’m talking about my freakin’ farmville in here..

I remove my twitter, so I don’t have any place else to shout out my inner side of me anytime and when I write notes.. it’s just garble into trash.. that’s why I don’t write on paper my journals because it looks really scraps.. and I do want to remember all, even the little things that happened and thoughts.. the problem is.. I’m just too lazy and it seems time is just too damn fast for me.. (I will make something art about it) I still have 2 pics line up that I’m working on.. because I’ve done something that is not my plan of idea. Join some contest.. in DA

A note: If you’re bored and nothing else to do… just blog it! That will consume your time..

Sebagai seorang ibu, sangat tidak baik membiasakan diri begadang, karena bagaimana pun kita memiliki kewajiban di pagi hari mengurus buah hati kita, entah itu sekedar memandikan si kecil atau menyuapin sarapan pagi. Terlebih bagi mereka yang mengantar ke sekolah. Kasian nanti anaknya dimarahin bapak/ibu guru di sekolahnya karena terlambat. Aku pun mengalami sendiri efek negatif tersebut. Karena aku sebagai ibu bekerja, ada tambahan lagi dampaknya, telat masuk kantor. Mengenai telat ini pernah dibahas di postingan sebelumnya. Oh iya, akibat begadang juga konsentrasi kita bisa hilang. Trus aku pernah membaca, katanya bisa menimbulkan kepikunan dini loh…!Ih…serem.

So, berpikir dua kali deh kalau mau begadang. Mengutip lirik lagu Bang Haji, begadang jangan begadang, kalau tiada artinya. Begadang boleh saja kalau ada perlunya. Tentu diperbolehkan kalau begadang untuk tujuan mulia, seperti melakukan pekerjaan kantor yang udah deadline atau menemani orang sakit yang hampir meninggal. Kita kan wajib menuntun si sakit dengan bacaan-bacaan yang baik (talqin) dengan harapan si sakit bisa mengikutinya dan insyaallah meninggal dalam keadaan khusnul khotimah. Al faatihah! Hehe…

Nih lirik lagu begadang secara lengkap. Siapa tau mau bersenandung..

Begadang by Rhoma Irama

Begadang jangan begadang, kalau tiada artinya
Begadang boleh saja, kalau ada perlunya

Begadang jangan begadang, kalau tiada artinya
Begadang boleh saja, kalau ada perlunya

Kalau terlalu banyak begadang
Muka pucat karena darah berkurang
Kalau sering kena angin malam
Segala penyakit akan mudah datang
Dari itulah sayangi badan
Jangan begadang setiap malam

Awalnya kami pun ga langsung percaya sehingga hasil lab tersebut dikonsultasikan lagi ke dokter spesialis penyakit dalam. Suami pun harus menjalani sejumlah test tambahan. Hasilnya? Memang benar suamiku kena Hepatitis B. Waduhh…

Ternyata mengeluh kecapekan atau tidak, memporsir diri tetaplah tidak baik. Merusak metabolisme tubuh dan cenderung mengabaikan signal yang secara alami diberikan tubuh.

Suamiku memang termasuk orang yang gila kerja. Teman-teman di kantornya pun tahu itu. Sering mereka iri dengan stamina suamiku yang terbilang kuat. Mereka heran plus salut dengan sikap suamiku yang easy going. Masalah serumit apapun di kantor ga membuatnya kehilangan napsu makan.

Dia sangat pandai membedakan urusan kerjaan dengan kurusan pribadinya seperti makan dan urusan keluarga. Apapun masalah keluarga yang dihadapi, kerjaan tetap beres dan memuaskan. Ga heran kalau dia menjadi andalan di unitnya. Dia juga tahan begadang bermalam-malam hanya untuk menyelesaikan pekerjaan yang mendesak. Baginya, pekerjaan itu ga perlu dipikirkan tapi perlu diselesaikan/dikerjakan. Ga ada kata insomnia dalam kamusnya. Begadang berbeda dengan insomnia.

Pasrah dengan vonis Hepatitis B, kami sekeluarga pun harus rela menjalani vaksinasi. kalau ga, siap-siap aja tertulari. Penyakit Hepatitis ini ternyata merupakan penyakit pembunuh nomor satu di dunia. Makanya kami sangat was-was dan khawatir dengan penyakit ini.

Anak-anak yang sejatinya pernah divaksin Hepatitis B sewaktu bayi ternyata ga terbebas dari kewajiban vaksin. Vaksinasi semasa bayi ternyata tidak menjamin seumur hidup, hanya beberapa tahun saja.

Anak-anak yang pada dasarnya takut melihat jarum memprotes ayahnya, “kenapa ayah kena Hepatitis B, kan kita jadi disuntik”. Itulah anak-anak, terlalu polos untuk membedakan mana kemauan dan mana musibah. Memangnya ayahnya mau mengidap Hepatitis B? Ada-ada saja.

Yang paling susah adalah menghindarkan pemakaian handuk bersama, berbagi sisa makanan dan minuman. Meskipun biasanya kami memiliki handuk masing-masing, tetap saja pemakaian handuk bersama ga bisa dihindari ketika kita buru-buru, terutama anak pertamaku. Handuk siapa pun diembatnya kalau dia mau mandi. Mana yang dekat saja. Untungnya suamiku belum terinfeksi parah sehingga bisa sedikit mengabaikan kekhawatiran itu. Suamiku hanya bisa menulari melalui darah saja. Jadi pemakaian pisau cukur atau jarum suntik bersama tetap harus dihindari.

Ga banyak orang paham dengan risiko tersebut. Di sekeliling kita masih sering melihat kegiatan makan bersama dari satu piring. Bahkan memakai sendok bergantian. Ikatan emosional memang seringkali mengabaikan risiko penularan penyakit. Apabila kita menolak kebiasaan tersebut, seringkali kita dianggap sombong dan ga mau berbaur.

Jamuan makan ketika pesta di kampung ga selamanya harus dipertahankan. Perlu usaha untuk menyadarkan masyarakat akan risiko ketularan penyakit. Penyakit yang mengancam bukan hanya penyakit Hepatitis B. Masih banyak penyakit lain yang menular seperti penyakit Flu dan TBC. Memang beberapa penyakit tidak menular melalui pemakaian alat bersama tetapi melalui udara. Ada juga yang tergolong penyakit tidak menular seperti diabetes, jantung dan kanker. Tapi ga ada salahnya jika kita memahami dan menyadari perlunya memperbaiki gaya hidup guna menghindari penularan penyakit.

Saya pernah begitu marah (meskipun ga secara langsung saya utarakan, tapi melalui suami saya) ketika mudik ke kampung suami. Saudara-saudara suami, karena sudah menjadi kebiasaan, memakai handuk siapa saja, tanpa ijin pula. Begitu pun dengan sabun mandi dan sikat gigi. Kebetulan waktu itu masih memakai sabun mandi batangan. Saya jengkel sekali. Untunglah suami saya tanggap dan menyampaikan keberatan saya kepada keluarganya. Sekarang saya bisa bernapas lega karena ga harus berbagi risiko, penyakit dan kekhawatiran dengan mereka.

Mungkin awalnya mereka memandang sepele dengan semua itu dan menganggap kita sok bersih atau malah pelit. Tapi kalau kita mau berusaha, kita bisa kok merubah sikap dan kebiasaan buruk orang-orang di dekat kita. Buktinya ipar-ipar dan mertua saya sekarang menghormati sikap saya.

I have recently started a new job, and this means that I am now working with other beings. What I observed is that some of the considerations of the job, are…well, not being considered. Since I started walking/participating with Desteni now for some time, this has introduced me to certain ‘considerations’ of this reality that I had not taken into account before. And that I see others simply are completely unaware of.

What I see as that these considerations I now look at within certain moments or instances are as such related to my participation with desteni and what desteni stand for, that being, to put it in a single phrase, “what is best for all”

Through my participation with desteni I have stopped many of those “small habits”  that are very likely a part of most humans beings general acceptances with regards to who they have become and how they express themselves and live in this world…I mean if everyone else is letting it slide, why not I let it slide to. And slowly but surely we have created, developed, and built ourselves within this world as this world within the point of ‘letting things slide” or “getting to it later” and this has become us to the core where now it is nearly impossible to stop these “little habits” which are in essence a mark of our laziness as a human race which we have accepted and allowed ourselves to stand as. Literally Humanity has really let itself go, and now is standing/applying itself from a certain perspective as the manifestation of Laziness.

So I noticed this point coming through at work today where for instance I would observe a co-worker “let something slide” where within myself I see how I used to do the exact same thing, not actually grasping the full scope of what this seemingly innocent act of “letting something slide” is actually implying. So what I was even more seeing here was not that my co-worker was letting something slide, but that, I, WAS NOT letting it slide, and that I simply cannot allow such a point as I see that this is self compromise and me allowing myself to allow another to compromise themselves, rather than taking on the point of Self Perfection, Taking Self Responsibility in this world and creating a new being and and new world that actually care for itself and love thy neighbor. Too long we as humanity have been letting the little things slide. Its like we just, in a single moment, let it happen, and pretend we didn’t see it.

Well I work today, I did see it and I refuse to “let it slide” as I Know this road. I have been down that path of letting it slide and I simply cannot accept and allow this from myself any longer as I know what kind of being this creates. And what kind of experience this creates. Rather I push me to instead, stop the excuses and justifications and push self to get it done, and not accept or allow any limitation of self as to why I would not direct that which is required to be directed in the moment as it come up.

We require to clean up this mess of a world and it is not ever going to happen if we continuously allow ourselves to cut corners, because this is actually impossible to do. One can only cut corners when it comes to money, and because of this, this has allowed one to believe that they ‘escaped’ and ‘are in the clear’, not considering that one is not actually able to cut corners but that there will be a consequence.

So when it was time to leave work today, there was still tools that were laying about and my co-worker was eager to get going. I stood looking at all this and could not accept this, yet I see that there is a point of compromise still occurring here where I am not adamant and immediate in directing the point yet but allowing my co-worker to have the benefit of the doubt, or hesitating, and thus see to push myself to that point of immediate direction where I am directing me towards, where in I do NOT accept and allowing myself to stand as anything Less than what I am actually capable of doing, directing and becoming.

I also looked at this point as me showing a lack of self value as who I am as a being that is in fact standing as what is best for all and thus accepting nothing less than this and there-in, being certain within my decision making to not allow abuse and self compromise to take place, where in for instance I assert myself and to no more accept and allow myself to hold back or take a more “submissive role”, even when I see clearly that to simply accept this other persons way of doing things is effectively compromising myself and another.  So I did see myself pushing this point today of where I allowed myself to push my self-effectiveness and will not simply compromise or diminish myself because “that’s just the way things work” kind of thing. So will continue to do this at work, and rather than reduce myself down to a lesser application to make everyone else ‘happy’, rather I stand stable within my application and within this push beings to direct themselves more effectively and from my perspective this is actually what real happiness is anyways, where the being experience a certain degree of self confidence that they actually pushed themselves beyond their limitations so to speak. And this is a Life that I would rather Live and thus will live and accept nothing less than this from myself. Its time to stop diminishing myself just to be nice and fit in. This is absolute compromise and a perfect way to allow nothing to ever change.

If you are interested in becoming a highly effective being in this world and are tired of the mediocrity and limitation that this world accepts / promotes as who we are – Investigate the “Desteni I Process” And begin the process of the creation of self as a dignified honorable effective being that is actually here supporting life and doing what it is Best for ALL to ensure that all beings are properly cared for and supported equally as the next, so that ALL live a dignified life and not just a few with money.

http://desteniiprocess.com/

Trash

Trash – If you are dreamed that you are throwing a trash, this indicates that you are throwing the bad attitude and bad habits.

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