Ahh the agony!!!!!!! Only halfway through stupid exams! I hope FM will be easy. As in, as long as I can understand what to copy from my cheat sheet, that would be enough… FM all the way! FM all night! FM FTW!! haha!

Leonard’s mother is funny. I need to urinate

For some odd reason, TCOYF website changed servers or something, but now I am unable to link up my chart so I can view it online… Oy… why did they change things? arg. Nevermind, found the fix hehe (Charts Here)

So, I’m on CD 18 today, I think I will start testing on Monday or Tuesday for my big O! Hubby will get his SA on Monday, so we’ve been holding out on BD’ing these last five days because the doctor said not to for about 5 days to get the “optimum” amount of swimmers to test… I also ordered another 15 OPKs.

My SIL and her family came down from WA for Thanksgiving. It was so nice to see them. I love spending time with them. My nephew has gotten SO big! He’s such a cutie pie! I love him so I was talking to my MIL and SIL yesterday, and they told me that they have had numerous dreams of me with my little girl… she had a round face (like me), pigtails and totally adoring her daddy. I hope that’s true and I hope it’s going to be soon! My MIL asked me yesterday if I want to help her start making receiving blankets yet… I said.. “um…” My SIL said that if we start making things it could push start the pregnancy process… I laughed at their logic.. But I know it can’t hurt! haha!

I haven’t been getting any sleep these last few days, so hubby let me sleep in today until 11am, and he cooked me breakfast and brought it to bed for me I have such an AWESOME husband! After breakfast and a shower, we watched an episode of  ”I Didn’t Know I Was Pregnant” on Discovery Health. OMG, it was so crazy! I just could not believe that these women didn’t know they were pregnant! I mean, their reasoning was believable, but at the same time it was unbelievable! One woman was told that because of her obesity and high blood pressure, she was probably never going to have kids. She hasn’t had a dot in over 14 years! Then all of a sudden she was pregnant and had TWINS! Sadly, one of the twins only lived a few months, but it was a blessing that she was able to get pregnant.

Speaking of being obese. I’m slowly losing weight. I luckily have not gained any weight during the Thanksgiving holiday. I haven’t been eating much, and the lack of appetite has helped Tomorrow I will being my exercising regiment.

I think Metformin has been the best thing to help me jump-start my weight loss I am so thankful that my new doctor didn’t just tell me that I needed to lose weight, and that I may actually NEED some help losing it in order to start ovulating. Gosh, I have so much to be thankful for. And I’m hoping soon, I will have a bundle (or two!) of joy to be thankful for too

Happy Sunday!

-k

Jag missade det igår men såg nu att bloggen firade 1 månad igår! Kul även om tiden har sprungit förbi men samtidigt är jag ganska stolt över att ha levererat ett TV-tips varje dag. I besöksväg så blir det 100 – 200 unika besökare varje dag vilket jag anser vara otroligt bra för första månaden. Nu bygger vi vidare på detta och fortsätter växa!

Idag blev jag positivt överraskad när jag såg att nostalgifilmen Ensam hemma från 1990 sänds på TV3. Det var ett par år sedan jag såg den senast men jag är säker på att den fortfarande lockar till skratt och underhållning. Det var helt enkelt bättre kvalité på kärleks- och barnfilmerna förr. Det enda som egentligen har utvecklats är action och thriller.

Längre in på kvällen hittar vi Big Bang Theory på Kanal 5 följt av ett dubbelavsnitt av Entourage. Tyvärr tog jag mig inte tid att haka på nysändningen av Entourage utan valde istället att påbörja Psych. När jag har gått igenom samtliga avsnitt av den serien blir det dock dags för Entourage.

Handling för Ensam hemma

Filmen handlar om 8-årige Kevin McCallister (spelad av Macaulay Culkin) som blir kvarglömd hemma när övriga familjen åker på semester till Frankrike över jul. Under tiden de är borta kommer det två klumpiga inbrottstjuvar, Marv och Harry. Kevin får själv försöka se till så att deras inbrottsförsök misslyckas. Men Kevin är smart – och svår att lura.

17:55 – Ensam hemma på TV3
21:55 – The Big Bang Theory på Kanal 5
22:30 – Entourage på TV6
23:05 – Entourage på TV6

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I believe we’re arrived at another rock paper scissors lizard spock moment.

scissors cuts paper
papers covers rock
rock crushes lizard
lizard poisons spock

spock smashes scissors
scissors decapitates lizard
lizard eats paper
paper disproves spock
spock vapourises rock
and as always
rock crushes scissors

In a way I’m glad today is over. All that’s left is to curl up on Mr T and lose myself in a film. In theory today was a good day, we continued with our brought forward spring clean o our living area which is making good progress (I even organised the crap on top of the wardobe that threatens to knock me unconsious every time I want to dress), and we went for a wander around the local wetlands centre to feed the ducks with the midgets.

This should sound lovely, except it was combined with me having one of  ’those’ days. Those days when being faced point blank with my own infertility and other’s apparent ability to breath in and get pregnant, when talking about donation and how it is percieved that should a man unzip himself in a woman’s presence she’ll be popping out sextuplets. It’s just it doesn’t work like that. For some of us, even if we managed to get the best swimmers fired directly at an ovary, our chances are slim to none and when boiled down to minute details, on a technicality it’s our own stupid fault. On days like that when you have to face up to the reality that your body is f****d, life is generally just too much. In the end we took the kids out and Mr T and I walked, held hands and talked for as long as it took to shake off the feeling of hopelessness. For now we have to put the ttc idea to bed. And it feels like someone has died.

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!  I hope you all have a WONDERFUL celebration with your families!  I know holiday’s can be hard for us IFers (especially for those of us who will be surrounded by children and babies on Thursday!) but I hope that you all can enjoy your family and be thankful for everything you DO have in your life!

My husband and I will be hosting 15 people at our apartment on Thursday.  Yup…crazy I know!  Not only that, but we’ll have 6 people sleeping in our house this weekend and another 4 at a nearby hotel!  We host either Easter or Thanksgiving at our place every other year.  It’s nice to have a break from holiday traveling every once in a while!  I’m very excited for everyone coming and for the food, and for the fun!  We have 21 pounds of turkey set to go!  I’ve baked about 6 pumpkins to make pies and other yummy food with.  People will also be bringing food, so thankfully (see what I did there?) we won’t have to make all of the feast!

While I’m extremely happy to not have to travel and that we are having so many relatives and friends over, there is one problem: when to do the BD??  According to FertilityFriend.com (which I have been diligently putting my BBT’s into everyday for tracking) my possible big-O day is Wednesday.  Luckily most of our house guests will not be in yet, but 1 will.  Not only that, but FF is estimating based on a “normal” woman’s cycle…as this is my first cycle diligently using FF, they have know way of know what my reg cycles are like, and frankly, neither do I.  This is my first cycle on the Metformin, so I have no idea what will happen.  I started doing OPK’s on Sunday…so far the elusive 2nd line has evaded me.  This could mean that if things go according to my hopeful plans, the DH and I may have to BD with 6 guests in our house…yeah.  Awkward.  Have any of you ever come up against this problem?  What do you do??  Do we just hope that my O day is AFTER thanksgiving?  I’ll keep tracking, and I’m not really sure that I WILL ovulate this cycle, but you never know.  Any advice?

Well, I actually got up out of bed an hour later than I wanted to… I got up at 8am instead of 7am. It was COLD this morning! I got up, did my thing, put on my exercise clothes and a hoodie, ate a bowl of Joe’s O’s with some soy milk, and headed to my spare bedroom to hop on the treadmill. I started off slow today, trying to ease my body into the exercise regiment. I walked for 30 mins and didn’t do any strength training… I’ll start it tomorrow. After the treadmill, I hopped on my Wii Fit, and it said that I gained 4lbs since I last weighed myself How sad! Bah, I think my weight fluctuates too much! Hopefully I’ll be able to get everything on track starting today…

I got the OK from my doc to continue taking FertileCM with my Metformin… I start taking those tonight. I’m excited I hope my body doesn’t react to any of the side effects… I will be taking two 500mg pills with dinner, apparently they are the “slow release” kind…?

Since Hubby is still sick. We probably won’t be able to see much of each other today But he needs to get his sleep so I’m ok with it.

My temps have been a little erratic since I started CD1 this time around… how odd… hopefully it’ll start evening out when I get closer to my ovulation day…

Happy Thursday!

-k

Today is the day folks, I’m up to 3 Metformin pills per day!  Took the first pill this morning with breakfast (though I think I should have eaten a bit more, because now my tummy is just a touch wonky), will take #2 with lunch and #3 before bed.  So far things have gone well with the Met.  I’m actually thinking it’s the reason my period started somewhat “early” for me.  Usually, without meds, I’ll go up to 3 months between periods, but this time is was just a bit over a month.

I’m on CD-8.  I’ve been doing the BBT thing so far everyday (except CD1).  I haven’t noticed much difference from when I used to chart, my temp still seems like it’s all over the place:

• CD2: 97.44
• CD3: 97.70
• CD4: 97.50
• CD5: 97.26
• CD6: 97.19
• CD7: 97.44
• CD8: 97.46

I’m not sure if this is a normal flux or if my body is still crazy and the Metformin hasn’t started adjusting me yet (I know, it can take up to 6+ months, but a girl can be hopeful, right?)

All you BBT vets, is this normal?  I suppose I really won’t be able to tell until I ovulate and start the next cycle…any info would be appreciated!

Damn you, night cravings. Damn you, damn your addictiveness, and damn your non-conduciveness to a healthy diet.

Oh look, I never put this up from this summer, and this was one of my fave shots from TW. Silly me.

It was meant to be a positive day. Except I’ve ended it tired and grumpy and feeling slightly guilty that I didn’t hear my phone and didn’t help someone in time.

Mini-midget was poorly again today and I think most of my low mood is down to being indoors for two solid days and not getting much daylight combined with feeling very drained and tired. Generally if I’m feeling low, all I want to do is sleep and I’ve hit that now – it took all my effort to stay awake past 6pm instead of leaving the kids with Mr T and crawl off to bed (tbh, I would have happily done that from about 2pm today).

Off the top of my head, why so low? Second month of the official break and the light at the end of the tunnel has gone out. To start with I saw it really bright, a few months later I realised it was a train, now I’m squashed into the tracks waiting for someone to come along and scrape off my remains.

Here’s the irony of realising that this ttc thing probably isn’t going to work: the three female friends I count as actual friends, one has a tiny baby and has sufficuent issues of her own (which being there for is therapy in itself), one is basking in the happiness of her bfp and the other is nearing the end of her pregnancy. It’s like having your jaw wired and yet sitting in a bath of cream cakes. I love these people dearly, but when I think about my own poor excuse for the female form I just want to shrivel up.

Sunday morning – I’m about to commence work on more iStreet stuff. Pace is picking up and I will have the site launched if it kills me (or Mr T). Just quickly though I want this thought out of my head. Apologies for bad language now, and especially on a Sunday (under 16’s or those with sensitive dispositions navigate somewhere fluffier now).

We had a lovely time last night with Kitty & D. I stuck on the stiff upper lip where it didn’t matter that my body is fucked and refuses to conceive while she appears to be able to produce children like sausages. She gave me her blog address too. We’ve always been open with each other and reading the blogs you get more of an insight. When we got home (past midnight!) last night I sat down for a read. So, actually I feel a bit guilty writing this as I know she’ll read it and she’s my friend, despite having dated Mr T (before me I might add), she’s brilliant! I can see why he dated her! She’s one of the people who I am closest too, hell, in terms of the last however many months we’ve been doing this (this rubbish has been going on since she was pregnant with the last one so we’re talking over 2 years here) she’s the one who gives me a good kicking and tells me to act like a grown up (much appreciated) and shares all this crap with me and is supportive and brilliant so I would never want to upset her. As for D, he was sneaky on my last blog while I was having a major meltdown, and I still can’t express how much he helped, but he did and I wouldn’t want to upset him either. But it’s still my blog so unadulterated thoughts here we come.

So just for now, just for this minute, this quiet Sunday morning would you just fuck offf with your perfect life, your perfect lovely house with brilliant dining room furniture, your brilliant children (who I love lots), your multi-breastfeeding, your perfectly acceptable political views, your tiny waist despite moving onto your fouth baby and your seeming ability to live totally in the moment without any panic stricken earth shattering melt downs. Because right now you have everything that I want, and despite coveting being a bit of a nono on the whole ten comandments front, your grass is looking decidedly greener. I may add a bit of foot stamping and screaming to this as it has indeed come out like a toddler tantrum, but at least I admit it. Right now all I want is to be the one with the bfp, and you know what? It’s not fucking fair.

Customer satisfaction with their mortgage lender has declined as the time between between application and closing has increased, according to the J.D. Power and Associates 2009 study of mortgage lender satisfaction.

Overall satisfaction among mortgage customers fell to 739 on a 1,000-point scale, down 18 points from 757 in 2008. The decline appeared to be a response to tighter underwriting standards and extended turnaround times.

The study found that the average time required to approve and close a loan has increased to nearly 47 days in 2009, compared with 30 days in 2008. The increased time is a reflection of tighter scrutiny and the rising volume of applications to refinance, lenders say. Borrowers also report that requests for increased documentation have increased from 33 percent of applicants to 45 percent.

Lenders with better-than-average customer satisfaction were:

BB&T (Branch Banking and Trust, 783 out of 1,000
Wachovia, 781
National City Mortgage, 769
SunTrust Mortgage, 769
Wells Fargo, 754
Flagstar Bank, 744
GMAC Mortgage, 744
Bank of America, 741

Source: J.D. Power (11/12/2009)

Things I am thankful for:

• My hubby, who loves me unconditionally
• God- who is there to listen
• MJ who loves to cuddle me anytime I’m feeling down
• My family and friends who are always there for me
• A job!
• A house
• Food on the table
• Clothes on my back
• A car to get to work
• That I actually ovulated last month
• That I had a “normal” looking BBT chart last month
• That I’m losing weight
• That my BFF is pregnant and I’m gonna be a auntie again!
• Another month to get pregnant!

For those who are trying to conceive it can really become an obsession. If you have been there or are there now you know exactly what I am writing about. Wake up in the morning and the first thing you meet with is the thermometer to take your BBT. Then it is planning to ‘baby dance’ at exactly the right time. And it can go on to the point where trying to conceive becomes a huge chore and the fun is pretty much gone.

But there are benefits to trying to conceive. It may take a little work but you can make it fun again and less of a chore.

10 benefits of trying to conceive are listed to hopefully put some ‘pizzazz’ back in your life.

1. It is a time to reunite with your partner.
2. Use this as a time to get away. Even if it is just an overnight trip.
3. It CAN be romantic!
4. Perfect opportunity to buy some new sexy garb.
5. An excuse to plan the perfect date.
6. You have to take extra good care of yourself (you are apt to get pregnant at any time).
7. A time for relaxation-who said you have to go out to be romantic?
8. Remember the bubble bath for two?
9. Like scented candles?
10. A perfect reason to try something daring with your partner that you always wanted to try.

Trying to conceive does not have to be a chore with a little imagination involved. Nor does it have to be expensive. One of the best ways to conceive is to just relax and let nature take its course. Life is too short so you might as well have fun trying!

Anyone have any other great ideas to add? Guys? All thoughts and ideas appreciated.

Well. That was the longest last 12 days of my life… AF showed this afternoon… I knew it was just too good to be true.

I’m trying to stay hopeful and be on top of charting my temps.

My doc appointment is still on Tuesday. I have to let my new manager know that I have to leave early.

These are the things I will be asking…

• Regulating my period/ovulation
• Testing for infertility
• SA for hubby
• The prescription: Clomid
• The prescription: Metformin
• IUIs

I guess I should be starting my dieting regiment soon.

*sigh… what a horrible day off…

-k

Well, last night before I went to bed, I went potty, wiped, and noticed brown stuff on the toilet paper… I FREAKED! Thinking: “OMGOMOGOMG My stupid dot is going to be here tomorrow!!!”

I went to my trusty TCOYF software, inputted that I had spotted, and it came up with this:

That was good news right?

Then I woke up this morning, with a horrible night’s worth of sleep (waking up every hour), cramping like a mo’ fo’ and finally it was 6:20AM, took my temp: 97.5 (THANK GOD! It’s still high!) and I got up, peed in a cup, wiped, more brown stuff on the TP, and dipped the HPT. 5 minutes later: BFN I should have listened to the software…. I SHOULDN’T have done the HPT… I SHOULD have waited like a good girl That’s what I get for being impatient!!! arg!

-k

It’s time to stop this now. I can’t go through any more rounds of AI that fail every time. I can’t spend any more months scrutinising every twinge and feeling that gut wrenching hatred of those smug women with their surprise bfp’s. I will not waste any more of my life on this. I don’t know why I can’t have this, but fine, I give in, have it your way. But don’t expect me to be bloody grateful for your greater plan. Because your greater plan sucks on a personal level. Whatever lesson you want me to learn from this isn’t very clear – perhaps I could have some more class notes, because right now all I can think is that you’re a vengeful bastard who’s punishing me for no bloody reason. You know what? Right now, f*** you.

Crisis of faith aren’t generally vented on the net, but hey, if God is all seeing, he’ll probably read wordpress.

I had the most oddest dreams last night-and it was all through the night. I had multiple dreams that I was pregnant… Or dreams that I found out that I was pregnant. They were so real… I texted hubby this morning to tell him and ask him of it was a sign and he said that it could be and that he’s praying that it’s true… I am too!

It was also weird last night that even though it was cold, I was having hot flashes… As soon as I kicked the covers off, I was cold again… How odd.

I woke up this morning and took my BBT, as I was taking it, I freaked because I thought AF had come! I took my temp as 97.7 and rushed to the bathroom an was relieved that it wasn’t whew.

Today is 10dpo. 4 more days to go…

-k

O domingo (8) foi de ótimos resultados para o Programa do Gugu, na Record. Exibida das 19h56 à 00h, a atração conseguiu a liderança  por 24 minutos, com pico de 16,3 pontos.

Na média geral, a atração ficou na vice- liderança isolada com 11.3 pontos. O ranking das emissoras foi o seguinte: Globo com 19,6 , Record com 11.3  , SBT com 9,5 , RedeTV! com 9,1 e Band com 1,6 pontos.

O Programa do Gugu exibiu o quadro Sonhar Mais Um Sonho, uma reportagem sobre o drama das pessoas obesas, a semana do ex-morador de rua Piu-Piu, Vou Não Vou, entre outras atrações.

I’m blogging right as I’m listening to all the laggy and hanging gunshots from my sister’s computer who is behind me playing my Left 4 Dead with my hard disk drive. =/ I kind of got her addicted to it as well. LOL got her to try out Death Toll instead of the usual No Mercy she has been playing. But she keeps getting lost LAWL so I keep having to direct her. haha. Hoping to be able to sneak her out then to bring her to a lan shop to play L4D with cousins or something. That’ll be cool. Except, she’s really irriating or getting on my nerves on time. BUT SHE IS SOMEONE WHO PREFERS PISTOL TO THE NORMAL BETTER GUNS.

Okay, nevermind… Just have the thought. I WANNA DANCE SOON!! I haven’t been dancing in a long long time and I can somewhat feel myself dying or fading away! =( Maybe I’ll go try out Fredy’s classes at O School with Veronica and Cheryl. Since I don’t think I’m ready to do an intermediate with Ally. I need to warm up LOL. I really wanna dance! Like seriously!! Okay. I’m really really really hoping to master handstands by this holiday. But chances are nevertheless very very slim ‘cos I haven’t found the guts to do it. But I really wanna do an invert!! ^^ Then I’m damn shen wahahaha! Okay. Wait till I succeed first. Oh and I wanna do popping and locking like the BBT boys! 虎牙 and 小禄! I should learn popping from Pingteck? But wth. That’s so weird right? I wanna learn Waackin’ soonish too! Ah, we’ll see how it goes. I’m tired. I’m going to sleep soonish. Tomorrow Project Work in school at 1030am. woo~! let’s get it done. I wanna improve. I have to improve. I’m going to be comfortable and confident without a script. ^^

I ought to explain that – I’ve spent the evening re-reading Cooties, one of the books of comics of Lenore the Cute Little Dead Girl by Roman Dirge. The man makes me giggle for reasons I never thought possible. If it was up to me, I’d get everyone in the world to read this, except when thinking about it I’m not sure everyone quite gets the weirdness of the book. I think you have to experience Lenore more than understand it – just accept that it’s written to be warped and that the kid is clearly insane (which maybe why I find it so funny, she reminds me of mini midget, or in fact how I would be if I had no inhibitions).

So… many lots to catch up with. Didn’t blog yesterday as we had a friend over and it’s really hard to spill your guts to the internet with people here.  I’ll end with the big news (hold your breath….), but start with the mundane catch up….

I finally got the photos of halloween off the camera (I know, I know, I still haven’t uploaded the rest of the welsh stuff, but for this evening, lets just ctahc up with this week!).

Now I know the pumpkin was for ythe kids, and they did get really excited about it, but I’ll let you into a little secret: I had so much fun carving that, like proper child like fun. It does seem I am a proper kid inside, it’s just that she doesn’t get out much.

There was also this on the camera. The last night with the doggy – I never thought I’d miss her quite as much as I do. It was a bit like having another REALLY bouncy child. And weirdly I miss the walking, even in the rain. She is a big furry bag of bloody heavy cuddles and I’m a little bit sulky that I can’t be dragged around a field of mud any more.

Still, she isn’t that far away and we do get to give her part time cuddles when we go to see Kitty & D. Which reminds me I must arrage a play date seeing as Kitty and I can now combine our mummy time!

So, the final piccy of the week is the midget rocking out to Three Days Grace with the Guitar Hero Guitar. I can’t believe she’s 5 already, but she manages to make me laugh every day. Today was her birthday party (pics of which are staying offline as they contain other kids, and they stay offline) which went really well – she ended my day with the bast goodnight hug. I switched out the light, sang them a song and blew them a kiss. Midget’s closing words were ‘I love you too, thank you for my party mummy, I loved it’. Big smile. My work here is done.

Finally, the big news! Mr T is terrible at keeping secrets from me (I see this as a good thing). So, I’m rather impressed that he’s been planning and plotting with my parents since September over my birthday. Thing is, he slipped up yesterday and I ended dragging the ruth out of him – mainly becuase I caught scent that he’d spent money. So… the truth is revealed and ok, my reaction was a bit blank. He finnally confesses he’s booked me and him a surprise trip to Iceland. Me: blank face… desparately searching brain for anything I know about Iceland…. all I can come up with is this:

This pillock here is Sportacus, the Icelandic oddball who backflipped his way onto our tv screens to confuse the midgets over who is real and who is a puppet ( at least the muppets allowed us to know they weren’t real, well humans at least). So, my reaction wasn’t what it should have been – especially having done a bit of research and now knowing I’m going to see tectonic plates, lava fields, geothermic spas, and the northern lights!!!! OMFG. Just look:

The outcome of this is that Mr T has earnt himself enough brownie points for him to walk like John Wayne for at least a year. I will accept turning 30 – especially if it means I get to watch one of the 7 wonders of the world with one of my own personal ones.

So for now I’m feeling pretty good. We’ve decided to give everything a rest until the new year. My brain and my body needs a break. Once we’ve had some time to think, things can start over. Maybe during that time I’ll get off my helter skelter. But for now I’m climbing up those steps to have a look at the view rather than jump off.

I woke up at 7am this morning… attempted to wake up my hubby… but it was like trying to wake up a bear! He’s still in bed of course… ha!

Well I wanted to know how the egg fertilization actually happens, so I goggled it… I found so many funny videos!!!

Exhibit 1: Circa 1973 (love the music! hahha)

Exhibit 2: Educational

And here’s a good one very educational!

Well I sure did learn a lot from those videos!

As for my progress, my temp jumped up today from 97.5 to 97.9. Is that a good sign? Am I headed to a triphasic chart? Who knows… It’s day 8…. only 6 more days to go…

I’m surprisingly not anxious to POAS. Right now, I’m just trying to get my mind off these aches and pains. So far, my boobs still hurts, my back still hurts, my stomach still hurts, and I’m still nauseated…

Well, Happy Saturday All!

-k

I feel like poop. My stomach hurts, my back hurts, my boobs hurt, my head hurts… everything freaking hurts

I just want to lay down and sleep! I’m sooooo tired right now… but I have to go to my parent’s house for dinner tonight…

Last night, dinner with the in-laws went smoothly. No real baby talks… only the fact that my SIL basically steals our thunder… haha. When we got married in ‘07, she up and decided that she was going to get married in ‘07 too. When we bought our house in ‘09, she decided that she was going to have a brand new house build in  ’09. But she did one up us by having the first grandchild first.  I joked last night that when we do become pregnant, she’ll announce that she’s pregnant one month later… with my luck, she will… ha. And no I’m not bitter or anything… ;p I just want my baby in my arms…

My temps are still up… it’s 7dpo… I’m getting real impatient! bah! I think I will POAS next Friday… that will make it 14dpo… I think that’s a plan

Well, I’m off to my parents… have a blessed night everyone…

-k