Come to think of it, society makes the worst people. It’s either it’s in born or society just changed them. I wonder why society’s judgmental. In my perspective, they’d like to see themselves in every one. It’s like we are puppets and they’re the puppeteers. Or we’re the remote controlled cars and they are the remotes. They  are manipulative. Well, at least that came from my ever curious mind.

Because of society, some of us become them… following their steps like it would make them much happier if society accepts an appreciate them. Hell yes, they accepted you and appreciated you… but obviously, you’re not being yourself. Say, you see yourself a great actress cos you can act like them. But are you happy? We barely live a life where people die in the age of 300. Like Abraham. We live in the generation where people die at 50. So why spend your life imitating to be somebody else when you can live yours happily? Why fit in when you can actually stand out?

I am typing this because this has been on my mind for the entire day and addition to that, I feel worthless. I don’t know why… but every time someone ditches me for someone… I just feel like I am their last choice.

Also, I need to point out this someone’s mistake before they get them. I just wish people would be more sensitive. Not because I’m always nice doesn’t mean it’s fine for me to be ditched. Damn, I looked stupid standing, walking and sitting alone. I can defo be alone -actually, I prefer to be alone, but I waited.

This goes to people who can’t stand to be alone. Like their lives depended on their companions. I mean, my friends can leave me alone at SM but hey, I don’t get pissed off. Ugh. I have a lot of idea on what to post here but I don’t know how to put it all together. How to put it without mentioning a name or how to put it in english.

Tragic, right?

Lastly, here’s something to girls who thinks they need to try hard to fit in.

Always remember what Liam said on the first part of the song What Makes You Beautiful, Don’t need make- up to cover up, being the way that you are is enough. Alright, forget being a huge romantic where in you’ll wait for your guy to tell you that. You can just listen to the song every time you feel deep down low. Yeah, Liam may not be saying it directly to you but I can feel that it’s meant to us who doesn’t feel confident always, to the girls who don’t get to hear “You’re Beautiful” from their beloved boyfriends or to the girls that are suffering from a disease.

I may not have the face, the brain or the figure but I am happy for what I am. I am contented and I don’t need to be thin or white just to feel accepted… cos, again, I don’t want to fit in. I want to stand out

Love,

Ella

You can call me maarte but that’s me.

So, can you suggest any bag brands that are best for teens? I’m looking for a masculine kind of bag or I can have a satchel too. I’d love to have a satchel… the original one -_- there are a lot of imitations and I seldom buy them. I only buy imitated stuffs when it’s needed at soonest time possible then I don’t use it ever again.

I’m done with the bag rants. I don’t usually rant about bags. I usually just pick one from my favorite brands, local, then done. But I’m not buying it here.

I’ve been feeling down since Monday, hence, thanks to these guys who keeps me happy before the day ends…

Especially to this guy right here, that’s my baby Bacon. Their song What is Love is so perfect I wanna cry

Expect these guys to make my day even though they’re doing nothing. Or even when I’ll just listen to them. Mwahahahahhha

Since I can’t find save any new photos of Francisco Lachowski, I’m just gonna mention him instead. So yeah. I hope I finish my forms for the ACET. Oh my gosh. It’s deadline will be on Friday and I still haven’t got my recommendation letter from my adviser ugh. Alrighty, night night everyone!

Love,

Ella

Sigh. On a lighter note, I passed our Physics long test. The long test that looked like a periodical test. It had 90 items. I’ve been busy these days…. catching up some sleep that’s why I didn’t blog anything yesterday. Oh and, d’ya like my new header and chenes? No? Okay. I know it sucks. Must fix the size sometime tomorrow. Ugghhh

It’s rainy… for short I think we’re going to have a cuddle weather tomorrow and just by the thought of it makes me want to be absent again tomorrow but hell no. I can’t be absent. Makakapansin na si ma’am na every week may isa akong absent. So no. Totally no…. but ang sarap matulog T^T NOO TO TEMPTATION!!!!!!

Okay good night. /bye random blogging.

Just by thinking of entrance exams makes me feel nervous like I’m gonna pee. This is again the first time I’ll be taking entrance exams and I haven’t done any review. Some of my batchmates are taking reviews at review centers… gaaaaaahhhh senior year is stressful.

I am so bored right now, last time I got absent I watched Heartstrings. A tv series in Korea. You see, I’m obsess with Korea, Europe and the U.S. Why? You don’t even wanna know.

Here I am once again looking for DIY projects, gee like I’m not busy. I’m doing a detachable collar for Sam and I can’t fine any studs here in Naga like the hell. I still need to go to Manila JUST to buy STUDS.

I know the quote is kind of old already cos you can read that on trimedias nowadays. I’m just showing you this cos I want my room wall to look something like that with photos and other stuffs. Then I’ll have my motivation board~ aaahhh I want my room to look like off those teenage girl rooms. Cos it looks too classic. Plain. Ugh sucks.

And really I really feel bored and hungreeehh but I’m too lazy to get out of my comforter cos its too cold. Yap. I still am sick -_- sometimes, it really sucks. I can’t go down just to get food. And I can’t shout either cos Jian’s asleep. Huhuhuhu okay very hungry. Byee. Will wrap myself up with a comforter and get something edible. Bye!

Love,

Ella

Aside from that, I hate attending practices. They ruin my day, yeah I know, it’s for the good of the class but time’s gold and life’s short. You have to live life to the fullest and how am I supposed to do that when we have practices? Yeah? I don’t care if I sound very reklamadora, we’re in the Philippines and it is legally and clearly stated on the law that we have freedom of speech. Meaning I can share whatever thoughts I am thinking and you can go either mad or agree with it. Or better, you can just ignore it.

I sound like a bitch, do I? Thank you very much. I like dogs too. Specially bitches. You know, female dogs cos I can dress em up.

Kidding aside, I hate dogs. In fact hate is a strong word but not strong enough to explain my hatred for dogs.

I destroyed the typo okay? Nothing. Cos you know I am one conceited narcissistic kid. I said narcissistic to show my love for greek mythology. As you all know, or might not know, but that’s too impossible cos Narcissus loves himself so much that he’d want to marry himself instead of the nymph Echo. Anyways, I love myself too much too that I don’t want myself to get any scratch from a pen. Weird? Kidding. I always vandal myself. Either I put a tattoo, the ones that come with a chewing gum with Dragon balls… I love Gohan and Goten. Anyways, I sound very… geeky. But that’s okay cos I’m weird like thet. I post random thoughts and random stories.

Also, I’m thinking of redecorating our room. But I don’t think posting texts and pictures on my wall will be very safe. Jian might tear them and that would be a big waste of paper… and money. Money’s made of paper too. It came from trees and trees are now few. So I suggest, stop printing nonsense books (e.g school books.) and print books people widely read nowadays. I say, fantasy books, mangas, gothic novels like Beautiful Creatures series, or futuristic stories like The Hunger Games, Under The Never Sky, Eve and so much more. And yes I’m done with my book worm talk.

Adios!

Love,

Ella

Yeah. My bru and I had a talk last Friday regarding some stuffs and I totally feel her. That night, I was kind of browsing through tumblr and when I see some typographies I can totally relate into I thought, I should totally save this and share it to everyone reading my blog. If I can’t share my thoughts, all of them, to my friends… then maybe I can at least make pahiwatig na.

Nqe knows the story why. Actually, in terms of dismissal. I mean, nauuna nilang daanan ang classroom ko ba’t di nila ako hintayin? HAHAHAHAHHAHA

Yep. Nakakainis lang talaga kasi ganito ang nafifeel ko minsan. I just make myself feel more better by thinking I’m pretty. I believe in the saying that nobody’s ugly so fuck those people who make people feel ugly. I’m fat. I’m proud of it and if ever I’d want to get thinner, I’d do it because I want to not because people want me to.

Yep. Hahaha I don’t want to make it obvious that I have a problem or something. I don’t want to be repeatedly asked if I’m okay, though I find it very touching that they can notice that I’m okay but it makes things worst cos it makes me burst out everything. E V E R Y T H I N G. Oh and I’d like to share my (lol) latest fashion sketch. You see, I sketch when I’m bored.

I still have 6 more sketches but I’m too lazy to scan. Anyways, that’s all for now. I’m going to update the day after tomorrow. And uhh byeeee!

Yow peace!

Love,

Ella

To tell you with all honesty, I want the quiet students to have a lot of exposure during the concert. That would be like their big break.

In the afternoon, I felt noice cos we’re not going with the musical anymore. But they’re still pushing through that love story thing on the concert. DOES JUSTIN BIEBER DO THAT? OR LADY GAGA? OR KATY PERRY? No. They sing, they dance, they interact with the audience and that’s it. Ugh if only I have the guts to tell them that but I appear very complaining. That’s the problem with people nowadays, they misunderstood everyone. They only consider what they want not what everyone wants. And to think that they think doing a skit is quite humorous. Honestly, it’s not. Unless you’re a professional which you’re not. Ugh lord I sound very rude, evil and other stuffs. I am just sharing what I think since I can’t share it to them and all I have to do is to keep it to myself until I find time to post it here on my blog.

Naf with the rants here’s a photo spam again.

Chef Kae! <3

With the ever pretty Kath.

I’m the one behind Kath. I was fixing her hair aaaaaand

During Physics period. We were doing our activity at the S.A lobby cos Ma’am Blancy’s nice

Phew so slow. So yeah bye byeee!

Love,

Ella ♥

AMPOTEK! I MONTH NA LANG, PASUKAN NA! DI PA AKO NAKAKAPAGPAPAYAT WAAAHHH PANIC PANIC. KERI BA YAN IN TWO WEEKS? Hunger strike ako huhuhuhu pano yaaaaaaan? T^T waaah what about my fantasies? Ahem, brain ko dumudugo na naman. I can feel ettt! Bookworms kami ni Caya for the past two days. Imagine niyo na lang ang kasiyahan ko nung na-appreciate niya ang Beautiful Creatures series na paborito ko ^O^ try reading it mehehehe it’s wandaful <3 oh and di pa pala ako tapos sa ginagawa kong collar -____- nahihilo na ako sa paglagay ng sequins. Naka-dalawang ulet na ako tsss.

Oh and, finally! Naka-register na ako sa nuffnang. La lang, etchos lang. BLOGGER NA AKO EH B-) if ever you’re reading my blog… you can sponsor me y’know LOL alright, enough blab. I’m doneee weeee!

Don’t mind my hand. Nahilo lang yan. Okidoki so adiosss!

Love,

Ella ♥†∞

Mahilig din ako magday dream.

Feeling ko nga di na ako magkakaboyfriend ever. Sa taas ba naman ba ng standards ko sa lalake. Pinaghalo halo kasing attitude ng mga natitipuhan kong fictional characters. Hutaena, kung bakit kasi di sila lumalabas from the book. Nababaliw na naman ako, pagpasensyahan niyo. Tingnan niyo oh, tagalog ako ngayon. Walang halong english na sentence. Ewan ko na lang kung may makaintindi nito na hindi taga-Pinas.

Malamang, di nga taga-Pinas pano ka maiintindihan?

Pati sarili ko kinakausap ko na, Lord. Pakisabi na lang saken diretsuhan kung kailangan ko nang ipasok ang sarili ko sa mental hospital ah? 15 minute ride lang yun galing dito sa bahay. Pero bago yun, pa-attendin mo muna ako ng prom. Kahit ang gown ko eh yung hospital gown na. Para naman maiba diba?

Don’t fit in. Choose to stand out.

Kaloka ng motto ko. But either way, di rin naman ako nagsstand out nor nagfifit in. Kumbaga, stuck in the middle ako. Sana sa lalake, ganto rin. Stuck in the middle ako. CHUSA HAHAHAHHAAHAHAH Wala namang masama mangarap, eh sa yun pangarap ko. Magagawa niyo? HII DI AKO NAGHAHANAP NG AWAY AH? ^O^V Mahal ko kayo. Pero mas mahal ko mga fictional characters na mahal ko

But aside from that, yeeeeess! PWEDE NA AKONG GUMALA! Kailangan ko na ring mag-ukay ulet bilang last March ako huling nag-ukay at naghihirap ako bilang ayaw nila ako bigyan ng pambili ng damit sa sm kesyo raw sobra sobra na ang damit ko. PALIBHASA DI SILA MAARTE SA DAMIT HUHUHUHU Sorry naman, feeling ko kasi rich kami pero, di naman talaga. HAHAHHAHAH Tapos paulet ulet nang lumalabas sa bunganga ko ang mga salitang ; “Mga barkada ko naiikot ang Naga, Bicol o Pilipinas. Ako nalibot ko na buong bahay naten.” Yun nga ahahha di naman ako pinapayagang gumala kasi di ako pumahag mag-summer class sa Math.

Panira sa buhay ang math. Praktisin mo nang sabihin ang, what’s your order ma’am/sir?.

Naman eh, marami ako duhreeeaaams. Gusto ko pang tumira sa tuktok ng Eiffel Tower. Napapasobra na ata ang daldal ko. Eto oh, enjoyin mo.

I LOVE YOU NATHAN SYKES AWW AIN’T HE ADOWABLE? Kung di mo siya kilala, ha! mabuti. siya ay member ng The Wanted. Boyband from the UK! Hoo okay. Eto na babye.

Love,

Ella ♥ xx

PS: POWER VOTE KI MYRTLE AND NIKKA. PALAYASIN SI KAREN SA BAHAY NI KUYA. At ipalit ako

It’s past 1 in the morning and I can’t sleep. Indulging myself with food blogs. Yep. I’m starving hungry. Mouth drooling aaaaahhhhh so yummeehhh. Naff said. I’m going to read.

Credit goes to HIM