Between this and the Seth Rogen posts, it’s probably becoming clear what “group” I would prefer to be in if I were to become one of thems Hollywood people. But if you didn’t think Segel seemed like someone you might want to grab a beer with before, you are about to change your mind:

ok i’m not a 13 year old girl…but i have to admit i have develope a slight crush on Zac Efron.  he’s all grown up and looking better than ever.  and boy does he know how to SMEYS!  Tyra would be proud.

this is a pathetic excuse for a post…sorry about this, i couldn’t resist.

-M

Teacher: What is the full form of maths?
Student: Mentally affected teachers harassing students

Teacher: How old is ur father.
Sunny: As old as I am.
Teacher: How is it possible?
Sunny: He became father only after I was born. (1st Rank)

Teacher: There is a frog, Ship is sinking, potatoes cost Rs3/kg…Then, what is my age?
Student: 32 yrs.
Teacher: How do you know?
Student: Well, my sister is 16 yrs old and she is half mad.

Hey guys,

Hope you are doing well. After a long day, some work, a movie, a chill out with friends and an awesome cup of tea (thanks Ma!), here I am writing my first post.

Earlier this month I discovered that one of my friends was going through a mix of feelings. She liked a guy who did not like her in turn.

When she confessed her feelings to him, he, in a very subtle and respectful manner, said NO. The girl was broken, not for obvious reasons, but because she had never heard a ‘NO’ from any guy she ever had a crush on. In fact, this was probably the first guy she ever proposed.

The guy gave her the reason that he could not fall in love as he wasn’t interested and he was not able to find his pair.

Everything was fine for a few weeks until my friend came to know that the guy had a crush on another girl, and that too one of her friends, and guess what, the girl liked him too.

This is when my friends revenge began. Since then she has been trying here levek best to hurt that boy and show him down.

But I still don’t know what that poor chap’s mistake was. My friend cannot rule his world, can she?

Well, I hope she gets well soon.

Condolences please!

When my own words fail me, I find comfort in the fact that someone else once felt the way I am feeling now and was able to put those feelings into a more beautiful composition than I most likely could have. So now, for your listening pleasure here is Imogen Heap’s “The Walk”.

Inside out, upside-down twisting beside myself,
Stop that now, ’cause you and I were never meant to be
I think you better leave; it’s not safe in here,
I feel a weakness coming on.

Alright then (Alright then) I could keep your number for a rainy day,
That’s where this ends, no mistakes no misbehaving,
Oh, I was doing so well, can we just be friends,
I feel a weakness coming on.

It’s not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this, yeah,
No it’s not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this, so that makes it all your fault.

Inside out, upside-down twisting beside myself,
Stop that now; you’re as close as it gets without touching me,
Oh no, don’t make it harder than it already is,
Mmm, I feel a weakness coming on.

It’s not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this, yeah,
No it’s not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this, so that makes it all your fault.

Big trouble losing control,
Primary resistance at a critical low,
On the double gotta get a hold,
Point of no return one second to go,

No response on any level, red alert this vessels under siege,
Total overload, systems down, they’ve got control,
There’s no way out, we are surrounded,
Give in, give in and relish every minute of it

Freeze, awake here forever, I feel a weakness coming on.

It’s not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this, Yeah,
No it’s not meant to be like this, it’s just what I don’t need,
Why make me feel like this, it’s definitely all your fault.

Feel like this la la la la la la la la
It’s all your fault (Feel like this) la la la la la la la la
It’s all your fault (Feel like this) la la la la la la la la
It’s all your fault (Feel like this) la la la la la la la la
It’s all your fault

I will not get attached. I will not get attached. I will not get attached. Oh shoot, I think I might have gotten a little attached…Fuck!

Verse1
Talk to me like you do
Tell me the things I need to here
Take me out, make me feel warm
This how I been dying to feel

I’ma spit my game to you
Tell you how I feel
I have a secret let me tell you
You gotta keep it hush cause it’s between us two

Don’t let no one know cause I’ll blush
If they ask me if it’s true I’ll tell’em yes
Sugah you keep me going on
I wonder if you be the same

Chorus
But I have this crush for you
I’ll keep my cool like I do
Have this big crush for you
Tell me what you gonna do

Crush for you yeah it’s true
A secret crush for you
A la la la la la la
Crush for you (for you)

Verse2
Talk to me like you do
Tell me the things I need to here
Take me out, make me feel warm
This how I been dying to feel

Holla at me now (don’t be shy)
I don’t want to wait
I hate rejection so bad (don’t turn me down)
Tell me what you think

Am I going to be the one
Let me know how you feel
Don’t be so surprise cause I am too
Can you be my love doctor now

Chorus
But I have this crush for you
I’ll keep my cool like I do
Have this big crush for you
Tell me what you gonna do

Crush for you yeah it’s true
A secret crush for you
A la la la la la la
Crush for you (for you)

But I have this crush for you
I’ll keep my cool like I do
Have this big crush for you
Tell me what you gonna do

Crush for you yeah it’s true
A secret crush for you
A la la la la la la
Crush for you (for you)

Bridge
A la la la la la la, don’t be surprise
I am to crush on you
A la la la la la la, I’m surprise too
Tell me if you going to be here too

Chorus
But I have this crush for you
I’ll keep my cool like I do
Have this big crush for you
Tell me what you gonna do

Crush for you yeah it’s true
A secret crush for you
A la la la la la la
Crush for you (for you)

But I have this crush for you
(I’ll keep my cool like I do)
Have this big crush for you
(Tell me what you gonna do)

Crush for you yeah it’s true
(A secret crush for you)
A la la la la la la
Crush for you (for you)

Except for the typing.

This blogging app puts lunch logging right at my fingertips. Or tip as this tiny, tiny keyboard makes my hunt and peck style even more – ah – stylish.

In other, Starrhill news, it’s raining (again) and the chickens seem to take great joy in standing in the mud outside of their coop; the gf is out of town for 2 whole weeks and I’m all at loose ends; the mean girl cat has a nasty, nasty wound abover her left eye that I get to pry open twice a day for pus release. Mmmmm…..

Anyway. Lunch. Last night’s fish cakes, made from the previous night’s trout and potatoes plus some onions, an egg and breadcrumbs. Also leftover collards. A girl needs her well done greens.

Log your lunch, please.

Hello, everyone. I haven’t written any proper posts for a long while, but I was simply too busy. Finally I have some time to do the things I’ve been neglecting for weeks now.

Lately I have been thinking a lot about a friend of mine. Our relationship is basically a friends with benefits type of thing. It wasn’t always, and now I’m unsure of what it might turn into also. Our friendship was very turbulent, in fact, not long ago he didn’t even consider me a friend. We haven’t known each other for very long and started off just hanging out. Then there was a small fling, which he backed out of – and also freaked out from the awkwardness that followed.

So we didn’t meet for a long while, and never even talked about it. I assumed that he kept distant because of what happened between us, but finally he also said that he didn’t like hanging out either. Then, to make a potentially long story short, we somehow talked through everything and started meeting as “just” friends again. We have fun together, and at some point we were back to having sex also.

But now I’m the one freaking out because he’s so enthusiastic about me. I even think he might be starting to like me, as in having feelings for me. He freaked out earlier because he didn’t have those feelings, but that it got “couply” between us. And what is it now? I’d say couply. Snuggling. Spending whole days together. Always him taking the initiative to do things. Yes, the same person who stated a month ago that he thought it was “uncomfortable” spending time with me, is buying me presents and inviting me to parties with his friends.

It’s just that the contrast is so big. I don’t believe I am imagining this, interpreting something that is not there. And I have no idea of what I feel about it. I do enjoy spending time with him whether it is going out, watching films or having sex. I used to have a crush on him and was rejected and humiliated. Still I enjoy his company, but I feel this distance somehow. What happened between us definitely did something to how I see and feel for him. But I want to like him – have you ever wanted that?

My friends know how I took it when I was “rejected” as a friend, and they say “let him fall for you and then break his heart”. I say I’m not that evil and vengeful. But I also have no idea what to do if he actually falls for me.

Can You Survive without these two ? If given a choice between these two gadgets which gadget you will choose ?

I’ve got an embarassing confession to make.

I’ve a crush over a lady 7 years my senior.

Ever since mom has made me come along with her morning shopping trips. And you know, MOTHERS and their shopping trips tend to stray off course very often. Because of this, ever since i stopped going to school i have been helping mother with the groceries and whatnot which means i miss out my breakfast. And you know TEENAGE BOYS eat breakfast at around 11-12 AM.

Which means that i had to go around LOOKING FOR FOOD! Could you believe it? Neither could I.

Anyway, ive made a habit of going to the Sushi shop at the corner of Chester Square, whereupon a family of Koreans have made it their livelihood. At this Sushi shop, i met this really pretty lady who has hair as black as coal and skin as white as snow.

REALLY PRETTY.

And if you are one of those people who have once had a silly little crush over older and mature people such as that hot primary school teacher or that Sexy science teacher [if youre into that sort of thing] Then you probably know where im getting at.

Thing is, i dont know her name, or anything personal like that.

Its like a mutual aquaintance, a sophisticated relationship, a blossoming love.

Something like that.

Crush şi Alexandra Ungureanu au primit discul de aur din partea casei de discuri Roton pentru vânzări record la albumul “Hello”, potrivit siteului Roton. Discul conţine 12 piese dance, unele dintre acestea fiind încă ascultate în cluburi şi cerute de public, popularitatea artiştilor fiind în continuă creştere.  Trei single-uri de pe album şi anume “Hello”, “Inima mea” şi “Cu tine în rai”, au ocupat primele locuri în clasamente, au dat un suflu inovator materialelor muzicale şi ne-au demonstrat ca trupa Crush + Alexandra nu înseamnă doar un proiect muzical, ci o atitudine puternică şi originală, menită să influenteze şi să diferenţieze.

Echipa Top Românesc, 23 noiembrie 2009

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MALAYSIA RADIO CHART Nov 22, 2009

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Psalm 42

Lord, all my desire is before You; and my sighing is not hidden from You. Psalm 38:9

While appearing on a panel with other bereaved parents, I was surprised at how much I learned by listening. We were there to help a group of chaplains minister to the grieving, but we ende up learning from one another.

One mom, who had lost her infant daughter to meningitis, shared a simple truth that touched me. She related that as she tried to work through the huge question of “Why?” she spoke to her dad about it. He told her that a better question to ask is “Who?” He explained that she may never know why her daughter was taken so early, but the help she needed most would come from pursuing who God is in this tragic situation.

Think of what this means to us in our difficulties. When we face unexpected grief and ask “Who?” we get this answer: “The Father of mercies and God of all comfort” (2 Corinthians 1:3). When we face a period of weakness, we discover that “the Lord is my rock and my fortress and my deliverer” (Psalm 18:2). When the ungodliness of this world seems overwhelming, we can know that the “God of peace will crush Satan under your feet shortly” (Romans 16:20).

When “Why, God?” is on your heart, ask instead, “Who are You, God?” Then seek Him in His Word. —dave branon

In the desert of grief God provides an oasis of grace.

4/5 — Genuine development.

Midori no Hibi
Episode 12: “Sudden Parting”
Where Midori wakes up and leaves her post as Seiji’s hand, and Ayase finally confesses.

This isn’t a typical episode in that the humor is not rampant and abundant so much as somewhat sad throughout. When Midori stops being Seiji’s hand and wakes up, Sawamura goes through a variety of reactions. He goes back to being his old self from before he met Midori, but he seems to almost be doing it out of spite or anger at not having Midori anymore. His happiness seems somewhat empty. He gets into a huge fight, after which he still seems to be standing though badly beaten. And in the end, Ayase confesses, the episode closing as she rushes to Seiji and throws her arms around him.

A couple of days ago, I decided that I would stop writing this blog and I would concentrate on my job and building a life instead of obsessing about guys.  Actually, I don’t think I’m really obsessing, I think I’m just ready to get on with the next phase of my life.  It’s hard to want something and not be able to figure out how to obtain it and get it.  I’m pretty goal oriented, if you haven’t noticed.

So, anyway, I happen to be producing a small, very small TV show for the place I work.  No, I’m not talented and I have no clue what I’m doing.  I enlisted the help of some co-workers/friends and one of them brought in a guy to help us out with equipment.  We had a preliminary meeting and we did a run through of the script and then we started talking to this guy about places to film.  As soon as this guy walked into the room, it was liked something clicked in my head.  I immediately felt myself blushing and my heart start pounding.  We had met before when I did a presentation and then he came to film me later on because he thought my presentation was so interesting that other people should know about what I do.  BTW, what I do is really interesting to me.  Most people don’t think my job is interesting.  I didn’t pay any attention at that time because other things were going on personally and professionally.  I don’t think I actually looked at him until he walked into the room. 

So, now I’m in the position of potentially embarrassing myself at every turn.  I’m working with him, so I have to be professional all the time and I can’t let anyone know that I work with that I have a crush on him.  I don’t hide my feelings well.  I dated a co-worker before and we hid it really well, but everyone knew something was going on because I would blush when he looked at me.

I love have crushes and I hate it.  I like the fact that it seems like I have a secret and there is that potential that the other person might feel the same way.  I hate it because I can’t ever tell if they feel the same.  Someone once told me that if I feel that way about someone, chances are, they feel the same.  This has not been my experience.  I think Jr. High left scars.

Well. Manga is amazing. I seem to get so involved that I laugh out loud, cry, get angry, or feel depressed depending on the situation. It is so dangerous for me to read Romance because I get so deeply ingrained in the book, I forget that what I’m reading isn’t real nor is it happening to me. Even though I know all this, I cannot stop reading manga.  I was told once that we have the love life we want, but I do not think that that is always necessarily the truth. The deeper I fall in the story, the more I long and yet the more difficult it is for me to crawl out. It is likely that Shoujo creates a save haven for me, which I am, for the most part, pretty okay with. The problem comes when I get asked, as is inevitable, if I like anyone. My answer for over six months at least has been a definite now. I am not always okay with not liking anyone, but it tends to be easier on the heartache/heartbreak scale. It also helps my track record approach zero, so I will just deal with it.

So it goes folks, so it goes.

Raise your arms to the sky; can you see who made the stars?

Crushed with a mere sight
Destroyer of human souls
Youngest girl in town

Maybe I am just lucky, or perhaps I just have what it takes or maybe I am just full of it and it’s just because I worked hard, but I am in a new agency. I know how hard it is for a bigger girl to find an agency, however, I managed to find one that would take me. T, my agent, said that she knows that there is a market out there for someone like me, especially for repeat customers, which I always thought. I have a photo shoot tomorrow so I picked up a bunch of new outfits to wear. Mostly black, and I found a pair of pink and black garter panties which I’ve never seen before, so I hope it’ll come in handy! I am so excited. I just need to make time to get to the nail salon beforehand.

Last night I was meant to meet with a client, a uni student my age. I knew that going with someone my age would just be a problem, however, I thought maybe it would go well. He seemed keen. When I arrived, however, he said his landlord was around and he couldnt bring me over. I told him to just pick me up and we can decide what to do together. He asked if I wanted to do it out in the park or in the toilets of Tescos. I was so insulted. Not only did he make me wait for nearly an hour, but to suggest something like that?! i am not some two-bit dirty hooker that you pay £5 and a line of coke. Who does he think I am? He is paying good money to be with me, why even think to suggest something like that?! I was so angry that I decided to go to My Local and get really drunk. E couldn’t come with me, so I went on my own. Not far into the night, I ran into W, whom I have seen there last semester and we would randomly make out and he came up to me and just started kissing me, like before. I ended up leaving with him. This time it was different as he actually spoke to me this time, bought me drinks, etc. We went back to his almost right away with a friend of his. A fight broke out between his friend and the cab driver… something happened involving the police, etc. I am not sure cause they sent me inside and didn’t let me get involved at all. His friend the whole time we were inside though kept asking, ‘CanI lick your fanny? Can I lick your fanny?’ What part of ‘No!’ does he not get?

W and I a didn’t sleep with one another that night, I wanted to wait because I actually really fancy him and he is the most attractive person I’ve seen in a very long time. I always said I would take him home and now I did, I didn’t want to ruin it! We fooled around a lot and he didn’t mind when I didn’t sleep with him. He just said, ‘It’s ok, girlfriend, don’t worry about it.’ and he held me til I fell asleep. We fooled around a lot the next morning on and off and talked and just got to know one another. He is so sweet and lovely. I eventually just gave in and we did sleep with one another, but he didn’t seem to change his mind about me. I hope he does get in contact with me again soon. It’s not often I can find a man I really fancy. If not, I mean, I always know where t go to find him.

Contemplating as one of my hobbies to do a project called project 50/50 or project 365, where i take one picture each day for the how many number days i need to and publish it on Flickr.  Although not sure how it would work out round my job…so possibly start it in the new year as one of my resolutions. Hmm.  Will have some more thinking about it and let you all know

So today has been okish, really not done much at all bar watching tv, and a couple of films…free willy was the first. I can’t believe I forgot about how good and sad this film is. Always gives me goosebumps watching it, and i have no idea why. Free Willy 3 is on next weekend, although i will be working bah! But why not show Free Willy 2 next weekend, it makes no sense to miss that film out. Love that film as well.

Then i continued with my fishy theme, and watched Finding Nemo. I cannot tell you all how much I love Dory, she is my lil favourite fish, but also kind of reminds me of myself…i can be a bit dipy at times, if you havent worked that out as of yet. If not, don’t worry there is still plently more time to learn Then I decided to have a Dory/Crush and Squirt debate…so far its 2:1 to Dory Hehe.

Thought i might see awesome dudey, but he’s busy…although have spoken to him twice today hehe. And been put in a much better mood, much better than the foul mood i was in last night. And for day 1 of 7 off now, hopefully gonna stay a happy lil panda now

I was sitting silently and faithfully in my chair ten days ago, ignorant of what lies ahead of me in the next few minuets of my life, when i first laid my eyes on him..

He was just one nobody who talks alot about almost everything i should know, when suddenly it struck me, the absurd feeling of butterflies in my stomach. i wanted to puke. but there’s just too many people around me.

He was one of the witty people i know, he’s eye glasses are perfectly sized for his cute bulgy eyes, his clothes are well ironed and fitted for his non-muscular but not fat body,  his haircut was simple, delicate and clean, his smile was in the right gorgeous angle and he was about only an inch taller than me. He was perfect for my eyes to see.

And then few days after, he knew that one me exists. I was happy, even if it makes me nervous and tremble at times I speak.

He is into stage plays and musicals, I am too (CATS is my favorite). He loves melow and slow music, so do I. He is a bookworm too, just  like me. He has already have traveled half  the world and achieved many cool things one man wants to and maybe he has what he wanted right now.

Honestly,  He’s the only reason i keep myself wide awake and the reason why i am excited about a pressure cooker 7-7class schedule. Makes my shiver everytime that moment comes. XD

I remember this one day when his clothes aren’t ironed too well, i was really disappointed with his washers.

But, some things are just not meant to be.

I am just me and he is who he is.

I will miss him after the next five months have gone by.

i like this feeling of excitement and butterflies in the stomach.

it makes me smile and laugh at myself because i am really being stupid just thinking of me thinking about him. XD]

I started to appreciate this guy back in 2006,  when I saw him again after several years. His pains and struggles made us somewhat ‘close,’ I thought. He made me wanted to care for him. But I was holding back the feelings. It was too awkward. My appreciation for him, I guess, wants/needs to take a back seat for now. I don’t wanna yearn for someone who’s attention is not mine. Or maybe, really not meant for me at all. To let go of it and to surrender this aspect of my life to Him, I’m posting this poem for you to mark my farewell to that emotion. Weeh… So emo! LOL!!! I’ve actually made this poem in 2008 pa. The poem is more than a year old already.

Self Defense

Nag-uubos ka lang ng load,

Everytime na nagti-text ka

Ng tungkol sa buhay mo at sa kahit anong bagay.
Wala ka lang makausap,

Sa tuwing pinagti-tripan mo akong asarin,

Na parang natutuwa ka pa

Kapag naiinis na ako.
Common na sanyong mga lalake

Yung magpa-asa, magpa-sakay.

Na pag naniniwala na kaming mga babae,

Bigla nyo kami bibitawan.
Di lang naman

Ikaw ang na-encounter kong

Ganun. Nagkalat ang mga

Tulad nyo. Bakit nga ba nagkalat

Ang mga tulad nyo?
Ayoko na. Siguro

Nag-expire na rin

Kung ano mang paghanga

Na meron ako sayo.

Di mo rin naman kasi napapansin.
Hindi na lang ako aasa na

Baka nga gusto mo talaga ako kausap,

Na somehow,

May puwang na ako

Sa manhid mong puso.
Magbababad na lang rin siguro

Ako sa anaesthesia.

Tulad mo…

Seriously, I heard my school was cliquey but figured, please!  I am way too old for that to bother me!  Uh, no!  Long story short – I chose wrong the first week of school and can you believe it is TOO LATE for me to hook up with any group or to have any substantial friendships now???  WTF?

I mean don’t get me wrong – people are extremely nice to me and there are A LOT of nice people.  Problem is, they are all connected and like in high school, don’t seem too keen on adding to their group.  It could just be me they don’t want, but I am more thinking they are just comfy in their groups and that’s that!

I was with this group of girls – not at all sure how I connected with them, but we had a lot of fun!  I was much older than them, but it was fine.  Then, things happened and it just didn’t work out.  Now, I feel a bit alone in a section of 120 people.  Like I said, don’t feel sorry for me – I’m fine and having a great time, but I do wish I could have those close friendships I see people developing.  I miss getting the invites to the parties.

It’s also like high school because you can hear people talking shit about other people alot!  That drives me CRAZY!  I hated that in high school – it does nothing but make people feel self-conscious! 

Also, there are the pretty girls and hot guys everyone wants/hates/envies!  As I’ve said before, I’m thankful I don’t have to get caught up in that whole game/competition but it is fascinating to watch!  There was a discussion one night about how many hot girls there are in my section (this was a group of girls talking) and they were pissed.  Then 2 girls who I adore said “Yea, I thought I’D be the hottest girl in the class!”  And I think they were serious!!  WOW, the confidence!!!  They are lovely, adorable girls, but as much as I love them, they are right – there are hotter girls (which is QUITE annoying!!!   

The guy situation is interesting!  Most of the girls in the section think there are slim pickings.  Either the guy is hot but not too bright or hot and way too reserved.  Most girls think the guys are just so-so! 

I wish I could shake them!!!  When I was 20-something, I too chased the hottie, bad-boy and where did it get me???  PLEASE!  What I finally (thanfully) became attracted to was the decent looking guy who was the smartest in the room!  NOT the guy who KNEW he was the smartest (cause he ususally was just an ass who was way too cocky for my tastes!) but the guy who really was the smartest!!  Around 25 yrs old I began noticing this gooey feeling I’d get for older men who were the men people called when they needed to get something done.  I even married one of those guys.  Cute, sure, but what made them more attractive was their intelligence!  Now, when taken in those terms, there are a TON of guys in our section that are total hotties!!  I could name 20 off the top of my head! 

Problem for me is two-fold:  still married and too old!!    (Not old enough to be their mom, but their mom’s younger sister, perhaps!!!) 

It doesn’t hurt to look!  And, since I have been back in school these last 4 years, I have found classes are much more interesting when I develop an innocent crush on someone in the class.  Some classes have end and I’ve never even spoken to the guy, so this is not about follow-through!  This just helps make a dull situation more interesting.

My new crush – let’s call him HH (Happy Hottie)!  Now, HH is more empirically hot than most of the others I’ve crushed on in years past, but I can see how maybe some might not think so.  I don’t want to say too much about him to give it away, but let’s just say he’s a really nice guy and one of the smartest ones in the room (which is saying a lot in a law class full of geniuses!!!)  It’s almost the end of the semester and I’ve spoken to him MAYBE once – possibly a whole 2 minutes!!    It’s perfect for me – worship from afar!  I believe he is secretly dating someone in our section – hope so – they’d be great together if I couldnt have him!!

So, as you can see – law school is totally high school!!  Even I, an “older student” has crushes and crap!!  Can I click my heels like Dorothy and it be 3 years from now – I’m a Jr Associate at some great firm and all of this nonsense is behind me…