I don’t know how long it’s been since I blogged, a couple of months? Whatever. I’ve been really tired lately, for no reason too. Shit just hasn’t been working the way I wanted it to, so yea. I decided to take a break from fighting games for a while, need to calm my brain over this obsession, play some other stuff, and finish the backlog that I have. The recent weeks has been chill, life wise anyway. So I’m gonna try to keep it like that for a while.

*yawn*

Need more sleep apparently. Damn……

P.S. Super Street Fighter IV is getting more hype by the second. With the recent annoucement of Guy,Cody, and Adon, this is shaping up to be a worthy sequel to Vanillla Street Fighter IV and, in some cases, better.

P.P.S.: I do plan to write in this blog more. My good computer got a virus and basically doesn’t work anymore, so I wasn’t able to do much. But I still blog when I can, hopefully more now that I have a little bit of time on my hands.

P.P.P.S (yes, 3 P’s): Tekken 6 is awesome. End of story.

Seriously, college is all I think about now. College and life and death and dying and Goddamn I’m sick of it. I’m ready to be done with college and I haven’t even started it yet. I’m hoping that’s a good omen in the long run, though, because that’s the way I felt about prom exactly and I ended up having a blast.

But there’s just so much stress involved. If KT tells me one more time “you need to relax” I’m going to punch Colton in the face, because if it weren’t for him she’d be the same as before.

But life is life and it changes and so do people so I’d better suck it up and move on. God.

At least I’m talking to boys, though. That might help me relax (Jesus Christ).

Relaxing isn’t what I’m supposed to be doing, though. I’m supposed to be working, supposed to be doing everything I can to beat my way into a great school.

My mom told me today that I’m going to end up pumping gas. She told me to go to JCC for free. And meant it.

I’m just not even going to think about that. There’s no way. Just no fucking way I could go there. After all of my dreaming, all of my hard work, to throw it away, for that place?! I know I probably don’t know what I’m saying when I say this, but I’d rather be in debt for the rest of my life and do what I love than go somewhere to learn how to do a nine to five job and get plastered every weekend for free.

God. And there’s just no way I could throw away everything I’ve hoped for and thought of and wished for with all of my heart. Just because of money.

I know money’s important, and my mom would say I’m stupid and have no concept of it because I’ve never had to get a job, never had to make the money to support myself.

Well I guess I’ll figure that all out next year, won’t I? I haven’t gotten any experience with it so far, huh?

The way I figure it, I’ll either sink or float next year. I’ll either succeed or suck and come back home to pump gas.

But I’ll be damned if I don’t try to be all that I can. It’ll be like the dream where I died and watched everyone standing around, shaking their heads and mourning, “What a waste of potential.”

Well, here’s news. I’m not dead.

And I have all the potential in the world. I plan to put it to use.

Suck onnnnn that.

i sent you a text but you never texted me back

i like you more than any other person i’ve ever met

i had a dream about you and i felt ‘ happy’ and ’ scared’

i see you almost everyday and i like you

i think you like me too

because you play with your hair and smile at me in class

and we walk and smoke cigarettes together

and you gave me your number

and one time you saw me leaving and you ignored the person talking to you and ran towards me because you wanted to walk with me and i felt ‘ happy’ and wanted you to live in my room

but maybe you don’t like me

and maybe i should die

i don’t know you

we talked enough that i feel like i know you

i was in your car and you drove fast

i know where you were born

and you know where i was born

but you don’t know that i had a shitty childhood and my mom was very depressed and  never paid attention to me and my brother used to be on drugs and used to steal my stuff and hit me and my mom never wanted me to have friends and made me feel guilty when i had a girlfriend and moved me away into the dessert and those years were so depressing that i would cry for no reason and nobody cared and i had no internet or friends and there were no trees and when i looked outside i just saw nature and desert but the desert can’t make you feel loved and the desert won’t care if you die and i had to get away from my house so  when i turned 18 i lived alone in a city and i lived alone in a studio apartment and i was alone and i did not like talking with people but i felt okay but later i became depressed but i got a girlfriend and she did not like me back and i felt depressed and i thought about dying but i got afraid and moved into a house with a roomate and she was alone and depressed and her boyfriend left her for somebody else and we wanted to live together but still be alone and depressed and i got drunk one day and i  told her i was going to drive until i crashed and she said she did not care if i died and i said i don’t care either and i laughed but now i am more normal and adjusted because i have not been to my house  in year and i am not needy anymore because my last girlfriend made me needy and we broke up and she wanted to get together again and i thought she was being needy and i ignored her and i felt good to ignore a text like you do because it boosts your self esteem and i became less needy and i became assertive and i don’t care if you don’t want to be my girlfriend

i really don’t

just stop showing up to class

stop dressing the way you do

stop smiling at me

stop looking at me

your the prettiest girl in class and you always sit by me

your the prettiest girl and sometimes you text or talk to me

i met you in august and now it’s november

and pretty soon we will never see eachother again

and i will picture your head on another girl’s body

i will feel stupid

seems really funny

and i don’t really care about anything

‘ damn’

“Art should change his name to Damn the Man. Art is too common a name. Jerry’s name is cool though, I don’t know any other Jerry’s.”

Okay, why is this my new favorite song? Robin is so sexy to me and he is so talented. I’m not saying that because I just like songs like these (baby-makin’ music), he really got some skills. In the real video, he is groovin’ and flirtin’ with the camera and really givin’ it to you… so sexy. *LOL*.  Here it is for your viewing pleasure.

Okay, I know this aint news but I just want to show you this eye candy. Come savor the flavor bishes! Lance Gross is so sexy and so talented. I’ve been a fan of his since “Meet the Browns”, Tyler Perry’s movie. With him being on “House of Payne” and seeing a lot of potential in his future, I just see him maturing an an actor… and even an icon (ie Denzel). But in the meantime, in between time, I will just look at him and drool… and say that Miss Eva Marcille is a blessed woman in more ways than one.*SMH* One lucky bish.

Photo via Love B.Scott

Hammercy Jeebus!

Cant remember when did the exams started!! Am I getting the ‘Amnesia’ again?! Its just because the exams have started long back… Some 2 months back, its just ‘nonstop exams’ stuff!! And the worst part of it is that this ‘nonstop nonsense’ will continue and go on till March 19. The list goes on like this; Pre Quarterly; Quarterly; Pre Half Yearly I, II, and III.! And then Half Yearly, Revision I, II, Pre Board, and then finally the ‘Final Bugging Board’ On March 2nd! It looks like a long forgotten route already and I’m finding it hard to camp myself at nights to study ‘ The foolish subjects!’

Last Friday night was the worst night in my life so far. The next day was scheduled to be the Chemistry exam including just seven lessons! Its fair that I got a holiday on friday due the rains! But; ironically I didnt study! Found it hard to study to change the habits of watching the ‘Discovery Channel’ every half an hour to study some 20 pages in 1 hour! I felt so annoyed, so pestered, so disturbed, so bugged up as if my blood veins would plop out of my body at any time sending red streaks of blood in all directions! Felt my pulse level rising up and some extra adranaline disseminating into my whole body! I cant help thinking myself  ”I’m lost! I’m Gone! Thats it mate! Its your end!”  All such thoughts and nightmares revolved around my head on that night!

Fortunately, on the same time ironically Chemistry was rescheduled to be held on Tuesday with no holiday! I studied up, but didnt do well!!

Something has to be done! :|

Photo via CNN: Click here for story

RIP to the soldiers lost that day. I will pray for this man and the wounded too.

Here’s the story Click Here for the story from CNN.

Damn smh. We lost Michael and got Sammy. Some trade. I guess someone didn’t really define rejuvenation to Sam, it doesn’t mean bathe in bleach. Sammy Sosa checklist: get good at baseball, go to the majors, enter the hall of fame, become a role model for all spanish people, then finally use clorox as suntan lotion.

hahaha i dont know why, but im freakin loving this song at the moment. its called Alone and its by Avril Lavigne. its fricken fantasmic! go listen!!!!!!!

so last night I was thinkin of a few new things to add to the blog, and ive got some now, i just gotta figure out how to make the barstools work. as soon as theyre sorted, wowy, in my oppinion, then itll be aweshome!

I feel pretty damn happy again this morning =D lifes good. slap happy and all that.

being me is pretty fricken aweshome. now, im not saying it doesnt have its fart sides, but im starting to realise every day is pretty much great for at least three minutes. and thats good.

i reallllyyyyyyyy need to get some new music! some of mines gettin pretty worn at the moment… except the bits that never get old. =D but then, i dont wanna wear then out…

busy day today people! lots to do.

laters ho’s!

x.

What if we went back in time and gave these workers two Apple computers and an ipod. I am sure if technology was that advanced back then they wouldn’t be sitting up there

Check out artist Drew Beam’s work!

jeesh could i be any clumsier. sometimes, i think i could, but days like today, i realy realy doubt it. only i culd manage to fall down the stairs and cut my gum on a shoe while at the same time said shoe also did something evil and crazy and manage to MOVE one of my teeth into a super weird angle.

your probably thinking dip shit. im thinking, not so much. I wanna have something to blame, but, the truth is, i was trying to kill myself, throwing myself down the stairs and hoping myself the shoes would somehow magically knock me into oblivion…

JUST KIDDEN!

damn im probs gonna get hate messages now. feel free. my email is sell… yeah not gonna happen. haha damn thought you had me then didnt cha.

sad times. you lose out.

theirs the biggest mother lover of a spider creeping down my curtain at the moment. as soon as its eye level, its gettin gassed.

yeah, gassed. with some lynx.

why the hell not. it has the guts to come into MY room, and go on MY lime green curtains. it has it coming to him realy!

animal rights kinda people are probably freakin right about now. stuff you. tell the spiders to leave my house alone.

night night all you sexy people.

peace!

xo

Comedian Katt Williams has been jailed in Georgia on charges of burglary and criminal trespassing. A deputy at the jail in Coweta County, southwest of Atlanta, confirmed Williams was being held there and that a magistrate was expected to set bond at an arraignment Monday afternoon. The deputy did not have access to a police report to provide more details. Williams’ real name is Micah Williams. He’s known for his appearances on BET and HBO, including an HBO special, “Katt Williams: Pimp Chronicles Part 1,” which was shot in Atlanta. He also had roles in the movies “Friday After Next” and “Norbit.” It was unclear Monday morning if Williams had an attorney.

If you don’t know, Tony is married to Keri Lewis formerly of the group Mint Condition. I don’t know if this is a stunt to get record sales but I know one of her son’s, Diezel, has autism. Autism causes stress and tension in the best marriages and it may be a strong factor in the split. I know she kissed Trey Songz on an Award show (Soul Train Music Awards)  but I really think that would not break the 8 year marriage up. It (the split) was probably in the works then when the kiss happened. Then again, it could all just be theatrics, I mean they do have a song together called “Yesterday” and it could just be to beef the song/album up. I don’t know. But then again, what tickles me about this is that Keri was IN THE AUDIENCE when it happen. Oh my damn! But hey, to each her own. *L* Either all of them got a damn good understanding with each other or Toni on some bold ish.

helllllllllloooooooooooooo!

wow, 9AM, and its raining. big, fat, wet, heavy rain. i like it. and now I can fully enjoy it again, because the Gutters stopped its incesant dripping. life without dripping, its almost heaven.

Almost, but not quite. Maybe throw in a hot irish guy and a bag of maltesars, and maybe flick on p.s. i love you and i think that be as close to heaven as you could get.

wow, i just reached my 1000th ‘Weet. how freakin awesome am I… you know… considering im a child and all.

gonna hoover my house later, just for the hell of it. sometimes, i think hoovering just might be the freaks equivilant of retail therapy, but then, sometimes i just think what the fuck no it isnt, retail therapy is retail therapy, their is no god damn equivilant.

and, the only thing better than retail therapy… retail therapy with a hot irish… yeah ill stop doing that now.

grrr i think i need to hoover under my key pad. its kinda skanky… i just hope it dont suck the actual keys of… :S slightly worried about it now. ahh im sure itll be fine… and if it isnt, fuck it ill just get a new one.

anywho, im off now.

have fun and remember, always wear protection!

x.

Firefox like to eat ram …Today my firefox  use  many memory usage.And always hang.And i just check process from TaskManager.And Firefox uses 269,692 memory usage…and 49 cpu usage.that firefox version is 3.5 beta 4.and i download and test 3.5.that was so nice.and lighter .lighter than 3.5 beta4 but also uses many memory usage.All versions of firefox uses many ram usage so i thought a funny thing.I wrote that below.

All versions of firefpx uses many ram and cpu usage…. that is universal truth!! even the sun rise from west but the firefox usage will not change…. :S

Người ta bảo muốn nổi tiếng thì hãy chăm blogging
Dạo này công nhận mình lười blogging thật, chẳng viết cái chi mô ra hồn. Haiz, văn chương cạn kiệt, tâm hồn khô héo, nhưng người vẫn béo =.=

Cuối cùng thì cũng nhận ra là do mình bị stress nên tâm trạng bất ổn, ăn nói bậy bạ hàm hồ (ew!!) thế nên cuối tuần mình đã xả stress, vất hết, quẳng hết tất cả những thứ làm mình ko vui, yeah!!

Sách, dạo này sách hay nhiều phết, mà sách ăn theo cũng ngập tràn chẳng kèm chi, nhìn cứ hoa cả mắt, đau cả ruột vì tiền là tiền, sách là sách, bao giờ mới mua được cho xong!!
Rock, The Blue Van, haiz, lại khuấy động trong lòng ta nhiều thứ, cũng muốn lên sân khấu quậy tưng như thế, và một phong cách khuấy động cả sân khấu vô cùng chuyên nghiệp như thế. Hoặc như Kamelot… =P~
Nói ra thấy thèm chảy nước tèm lem đây (ơ, bẩn nhỉ!! ^^)

Dạo này muốn gì?
Sexier, hotter, ngoan hơn =))