I’ve now come to realize that Sundays are good for 3 things (esp. when its raining):

• Tidying your room
• Playing guitar
• Reading books/magazines

Its what I do every Sunday. There should be a forth option entitled ‘Catching up on homework” but tbh, I rarely do that so there’s no point in putting it on there. Sundays are a day of rest, and I thoroughly agree with that. I’m currently learning to play Never Think by Rob Pattinson on guitar. His voice is a little weird, but I enjoy the lyrics.

I got no fight in me in this whole damn world to tell you to hold off, you choose to hold on. Its one thing that I’ve known. Once I put my coat on, and I’m coming out of this all wrong. She’s standing outside holding me, saying “oh please, I’m in love…I’m in love”

amazing song. I’ve got the chords all figured out, but the way he strums it is so messy and awkward that I’m either going to a) give up or b) play it my own way. Option B sounds awesome tbh. The intro is also 1.15 long. It gives me something to occupy my time.

Back onto the 3 things to keep me busy me on a Sunday, I’ve tidied my room yesterday since yesterday (Saturday) was a bit of a Sunday. If that makes any sense? So my room is spotless, for once. By Tuesday, it’ll be a mess again. Honestly, I’m such a slob. I found an old bit of pizza in my room, god knows how long its been there. And I picked up 8 Diet Coke cans off the floor. I’m disgusting. And yesterday I also caught up on my magazines, I have subscriptions to Glamour, Cosmopolitan and Marie Claire (OK, I admit, I only bought subscriptions for the free gifts so shoot me) and they come via post and I just let them sit there for a while. My Marie Claire comes out on 1st December, and I decided to read it on 28th November.

So all in all, I literally have nothing to do today. Play guitar? Check. Doing that right now. May read a bit of my book. Need to wash hair, its disgustingly greasy. At some point, I’ll give myself a manicure/pedicure. Shall I do some work? Eh…no. I clearly have far better things to be doing.

(South Wales Evening Post)

Singer Katherine Jenkins has hit back at claims she makes diva-style demands at concerts. The 29-year-old was reported to have made a series of outrageous requests for warm Diet Cokes, three different types of towels and six vegetarian meals at 30-minute intervals.

But speaking to this month’s Swansea Life magazine, Katherine rubbished the claims.

She said: “I do not ask for Diet Coke at three different temperatures, because let’s face it, who wants it warm? The truth is I ask for some cold Diet Cokes, room temperature water – purely because when water is ice cold you can’t sing because it affects your throat, clean towels – I don’t want dirty ones, soap so I can wash my hands, a mirror, a plug point so I can do my hair, and tea making facilities so I can make tea for people. And usually they’ll ask if I want a meal and I’ll ask for a vegetarian one. It’s not six at half-hour intervals – do I look like I eat six meals? It’s insanity. I know what other people ask for in their dressing rooms and I’m really low maintenance because I don’t ask for Cristal champagne and Kabbalah water. I’m quite simple.”

Mezzo-soprano Katherine – who released her seventh album this month – also told the magazine that the economic downturn had affected her life, despite reports claiming she is worth £9 million. She said: “The recession has had a massive effect on my life. I’ve got friends who’ve lost their jobs and are really stressed, and I find myself worrying about them and what’s going to come next for them. But also, when you’re hearing all this stuff about the economy, it naturally makes you more careful. Things are very uncertain at the moment, so I’m aware of it every day like everyone else.

“I still think I’m quite sensible with money from my upbringing with my mum and dad, even when I am doing well financially. They talked a lot about saving. When they got a new washing machine, it was saved for. They didn’t have credit cards and stuff like that. So I’ve still got that voice in my head from my mum when it comes to money.”

Katherine’s interview has seen her hit the Swansea Life December cover for its Christmas issue. In the in-depth interview about her life in the spotlight, she also tells all about her favourite places in Swansea and the time she was star struck meeting Kylie Minogue.

The new issue of Swansea Life is in the shops now.

Related:

I’m no diva! Katherine Jenkins laughs off wild stories of her phone-throwing tantrums

So as Zelda and I are both currently not living in the US, we won’t be able to see New Moon until november 25th (Yeah, I know we already told you that yesterday…). We got tickets to the premiere but still we have to wait five days longer than the rest of you. Our life sucks! We’re so pissed I even considered flying to LA just to watch New Moon a few days earlier. But then I calculated that for the money I would have to invest in a flight ticket I could see the movie about 98 times on the big screen here. 54 times if I buy popcorn and a diet coke every time. 27 times if I always invite Zelda and buy popcorn and a diet coke to share with her. So I decided I can make it through five more days (four by the time this post gets published) by distracting myself with countless blog post. Honestly, I will be so productive! To shorten the time a bit I occupied myself by making a list of things Zelda and I will do in honor to New Moon before the movie finally premieres here. Another top ten list, of course! What else?

1. We will give each other nicely wrapped presents, try to open them, then throw them on the floor while dramatically screaming “Ouch, papercut!” I hope Jasper won’t be anywhere near us, otherwise this might end badly…

Jorts? Check. Tattoo? Check. Abs? Check!

2. We will buy some old motorcycles, find a sexy guy who teaches us riding those and then land ourselves in the emergency room. Honestly, we’re so sure to end up in the hospital…

3. We will cut off our old jeans to have the cool self-made jorts the wolfpack is wearing all the time.

4. We will go to a tattoo studio to get the original wolfpack-pride tattoo. Maybe we won’t be brave enough for that and just paint it on our arms with a black marker… unless we’re drunk as hell… Not impossible but improbable, so it will rather be the black marker version but whatever!

Oh please, let him be the one who saves us!

5. We will drive to a cliff near us. Well, there isn’t really a cliff near us but we’ll find one, promise! Then we will try cliff diving, totally unskilled but fearless nevertheless. Maybe we can hear Edward’s voice while falling down. Not very probable but worth a try. Because hey, it’s Edward’s voice we’re talking about here and there’s probably nothing I wouldn’t do for Edward…(*false…uhm, I think…*) At least someone (oh god, please let him be a sexy super-muscular Indian boy… shirtless!) is bound to think we’re trying to commit suicide and come to rescue us.

6. We will lend us a yellow Porsche and drive around like complete maniacs in honor to Alice.

7. We will travel to Italy to visit Volterra. I’ve already been there about 10 years ago with my family so it will be quite cool to go there again. Hope Heidi won’t catch us…

Shirtless Robward in all his glory

8. We will go to a church near us (something I haven’t done for years except for some friend’s wedding), take off our shirts (not our bras though, we’re not that slutty!) and walk out into the sunlight. Yeah, sunlight in november is pretty rare and it will probably be damn cold. But we’ll do it, in honor to New Moon. Yep, we’re so unbelievably dedicated! Then hopefully someone will run towards us and nearly knock us over… and so save us from us further embarrassment.

9. We will get airbrushed-on abs just like Rob has in the Volterra scene.

10. We will hold a vote on our mortality and whether we think Edward should bite us or not. (SPOILER: He should! Cause I feel like I so belong with him.)

Okay, you caught us… To be honest, we won’t do all of that stuff. Maybe five out of ten. We’ll take pictures for you though, promise!

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Off to look up where the nearest cliff is

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What else could we do in honor to New Moon? Did you do anything special for the premiere or before watching the movie? Leave us a comment or e-mail us!

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I am rabidly anti-artificial-sweetener.  I’m not quite to the point of a whole family—it was almost like their personal religion—I used to know who got on such a rampage that they would write “TOXIC” on Equal packets in restaurants, but it’s definitely something I (usually) am pretty adamant about.

Thing is, aspartame, sucralose, and the like really are bad for you.  I’m not riding any kind of moral/pc high horse here, but it doesn’t take a medical degree to know that ingesting straight chemicals that we don’t know the effects of yet on a daily basis is not going to be your best idea.  There are some crazy people out there who decry them, yes, but there’s a glut of legitimate research that says you might want to think twice.

Dunno, just Google it and see for yourself.  As for me and my house, we avoid the stuff.

Except for this week.  I’ve had a Diet Coke almost every day this week.

I’m not sure you understand the significance of this.  I don’t take many stands regarding food.  Obviously.  I’m currently cutting back on sweets, and I hope to keep it that way, but if I ended up needing some peanut butter M&Ms at some point, I wouldn’t feel like I’d betrayed a personal principle.  (I’d just feel, briefly, like a fat failure, but I’d get over it after once I’d sunk my teeth into approximately 5 colorful candy shells.)

Beyond that, though, artificial sweetener actually does me physical harm.  I identified it as a migraine trigger a while back, and I quit it on the spot.  For a while there, just the thought of that weird fake-tasting bite almost gave me a headache.  With that and all the other risks, it’s just not been worth it to me.

I haven’t had anything diet—i.e., containing artificial sweetener—in months.  In fact, though I don’t recall the exact time frame, I remember the last time I had a diet drink.  It was months ago, at least—another weird craving.  Before that, it had been several months as well.

For me, and mock me all you want, drinking a Diet Coke is roughly equivalent to being a vegetarian and eating a hamburger.  I just haven’t been able to stop myself these past few days.  I’ve had four.

I don’t know what to do about this.  Obviously, I don’t need to keep drinking them.  I don’t want to reverse all the progress I’ve made with my migraines.  So, I’ll stop.  I hope the weird craving goes away so it will be easier to do so.

I am sitting here, relaxing on a comfy couch, blog reading, with a happy, content tummy from the most amazing lunch. But we’ll get to that.

I managed to get myself out of bed this morning, early even, and was able to enjoy a leisurely breakfast.

It started with a bowl of Nature’s Path Mesa Sunrise cereal, topped with some craisins and shredded coconut.

Part 2 was toasted Silver Hills Squirrelly Bread with peanut butter and apricot jam.

And to round it all out, I had a glass of Oasis Pomegranate Berry juice.

This quick breakfast meant I had even more time to chill this morning.

We’ll breeze over the uneventful transit ride and psychology class, and move straight on to lunch.

Yesterday I asked you all what you would order off the Fall Harvest Menu, and although the salmon burger was the definite leader, I had my heart set on another tasty dish.

I made my way over to Bernoulli’s Bagels and ordered the Butternut Squash & Caramelized Onion Bagel Melt.

I chose the organic multigrain bagel as the vehicle for this taste sensation.

The toasted bagel was topped with layers of garlic & onion cream cheese, butternut squash (from the UBC farm), caramelized onions, and another cheese that I’m assuming might be mozzarella, but I’m not 100% sure.

Gratuitous close-up!

They even served it with pickled beans – one of my favourites. Bonus points!

Let me tell you – this did not disappoint. When I got my order, I was first hit with an amazing aroma, that made me want to dig in right then and there. After the first bite, I was beyond impressed with my lunch choice. All the flavours complemented each other perfectly. This is something I will have to try replicating at home. And talk about filling!

Not only was the food great, but they served it up in a compostable container, with compostable utensils.

Now it’s up to me to remember to head down to the compost before class!

And since today is National Carbonated Beverage with Caffeine Day in the US (who comes up with these things?!), I figured it was only fitting to have one of these.

I have a snack packed up for later on, but I’m not even sure if I’ll need it! I’m off to enjoy the rest of my break before class. Later!

Most folks when they think of  Etta James think of her classic At Last. That is one of her best, but I also think about her other songs as well.  Today I feel a bit sassy, a bit feisty. So, when this Etta James song popped up on my iTunes, I was thrilled. It fit me perfectly in this moment, and so I thought I would share. The first time I heard I Want To Make Love To You was in a Diet Coke commercial with a male model named Lucky Vanous. Eleven-thirty took on a whole new meaning after this commercial.

That commercial is always the first thing I think of when I hear this, however, I do love the song in its entirety so I am posting that as well. Its fun, its sassy and it’s incredibly sexy. This song just begs you to give the one you love, some good loving!!

Hello again, 

Not much to report since the last blog yesterday, but just thought I’d remind you that our debut E.P is available to pre-order now! You can get it from our website here, and it should also be up for pre sale on Puregroove’s website soon too.

The launch party for the E.P will be on the 1st December at Puregroove in London (Smithfield). Would be great to see you there! There are more details on their website.

We’re meeting up for a writing day in the next few days, so we should have some shiny new songs ready in time for our next load of gigs. We’ve got so many ideas at the moment, it’s really exciting and we can’t wait to play them live for you in the very near future…

Things i’ve learnt this week:

Drinking straight from bar taps, although fun, can result in a telling off/possible ejection from aforementioned bar. 

You can’t survive entirely on Quavers and Diet Coke (although Lord knows i’ve tried)

Bob Dylan just gets cooler with age. Check this out 

Gravity is not my friend. Bloody Isaac Newton….

Until next time 

adios

gaoler’s x

Capo and poison

Japanese ordered in

Hey there buddy!!!   How’s it goin???   Had any Headaches recently???

I do everything in Three’s, Six’s and Nine’s.   3 — Joy; 6— Love; 9 — Universal Service.   — 3, 6 and 9 — are the Numbers of both The ‘Fourth’ Dimension AND the Numbers of BIG MONEY, therefore, Balancing Spirit & Matter to serve an another example of how Unification of Opposites = PERFECTION. All existences exist in 3 parts — 1-Begin, 2-Middle, 3-End; 1-Least, 2-Average, 3-Most; 1-Every-thing, 2-Some-Thing, 3-No-thing……and so on.   One group of 3 needs its opposite, thus — 6 — and Two groups of 3 need their middle point/Balance point, thus — 9 — Three groups of 3.   To keep Life “pithy” – meaning — “short and to my point”, i.e. — EFFICIENT, I AM focusing on keeping my Life in 3’s, 6’s and 9’s.   With that said, I AM Presenting TONS of research that I have personAlly done and TONS of research that I have Not personAlly done, into, —— —— —— —— —— —— SIX POINTS —— —— —— —— —— —— Why???      As if it isn’t obvious, Because I Love You, of course.

So then,

1)   Question:    What is this person writing about Now???

!)   Answer:      ASPARTAME (pron. ‘ASS-PAR-TAME’)

2)   Question:   What izzz “Aspartame” and Why do I care???

!!)   Answer:   ASPARTAME is an artificial sweetener, also Known as — NutraSweet, Equal, Crystal Lite, et cetera.   You can find ASPARTAME in over 5,000 products Worldwide, some say NINE,000 products Worldwide, products such as — virtually All chewing gum, ALL so-called “Diet” drinks, various baked goods, “sugarFree” products, packaged foods, and I have even read that ASPARTAME is an ingredient in flavored condoms — that may or may Not Be True…nevertheless, it makes sense to Me.   ASPARTAME is Not only Being Used in things that You put into your mouth your child’s mouth as a sweetener, however, ASPARTAME can also Be found in pharmaceuticals, medicines and even CHILDREN’S VITAMINS.

You care about ASPARTAME Because ASPARTAME is no ordinary artificial sweetener.   ASPARTAME is a chemical that is an “artificial” sweetener Because ASPARTAME is specifically designed to excite (y)our taste centers in (y)our Brain…Not (y)our tongue; therefore, using ASPARTAME for sweetness is analogous to using an electrical stimulator to shock your Brain with safe currents of electricity to mimic the sensations of Sex.   However, ASPARTAME, frequently excites (y)our neurons so much, that (y)our neurons die, resulting in various degrees of Brain dysfunction and therefore, Mind/Body dysfunction — especiAlly Brain Tumors due to dead neuron carcasses residing in (y)our Brain.   Due to the ‘excitatory’ modus operandus (mode of operation) of substances such as ASPARTAME AND MonoSodiumGlutamate (MSG), the pioneering doctor that first exposed ASPARTAME for its link to Brain Tumors in rats — Dr. John Olney — Named ASPARTAME and MSG — “Excito-toxins” — due to their ‘excitatory’ mode of function and ‘toxic’ Effect on the Brain.

Thus, You care about ASPARTAME Because ASPARTAME Causes your Brain to malfunction on various different levels in various different Ways — depending entirely on the Way in which YOU REACT to ASPARTAME.

3)   Question:   That is Bullshit.

!!!)   Answer:   Why???   Because You are addicted to your “Diet” Cok(ain)e and do Not want to give it up???   Because You drink “Diet” drinks and chew gum and sugarFree foods ALL THE TIME and are “just fine” ???

Remember, everyBody reacts to everything differently — poisons, pleasures and Excito-toxins — included.   Therefore, some people, such as my Mother and mySelf to a lesser degree — drink a “Diet” drink and instantly develop a headache, nausea and/or Light-head-edness.   Some people can ingest ASPARTAME All day for years upon year upon years and Not Feel anything, nor notice anything, nor realize anything.   Other people such as my Auntie Khadija — develop Brain Tumors due to continued ingestion of ASPARTAME, go blind, get dizzy, lose their Balance, develop various Cancers, develop various nervous System disOrders, get highly addicted, have SEIZURES or DIE — my Auntie Khadija had 2 GRAN MAL SEIZURES (BIG BAD SEIZURES) due to drinking “Diet” Snapple.

She Knows that ASPARTAME is the culprit Because she slowed down on her “Diet” Snapple as a general health precaution following her first GRAN MAL SEIZURE (Not even Thinking about ASPARTAME) and when she Thought is was okay to start drinking her “Diet” Snapple once again, she had her second GRAN MAL SEIZURE.   Then, following her second trip to the Emergency Room, her doctor told her, quote — “Off the record” — that ASPARTAME could likely Be the Reason she was having impromptu – shaking, nose bleeding and UNconsciousness – fits.

Also,

—   How do You Know that You are Not getting somewhat ‘messed up’ from ASPARTAME???   UNless You are significantly Self-aware, do a check to compare yourSelf to your Former Self periodicAlly, or have someOne else keep their Eye out AND notice your different behavior — You could easily Be exhibiting your symptoms of ASPARTAME toxicity RIGHT NOW.

— Are You humble enough to even admit that You are Not feeling well, or You feel stupider, or your Thinking is cloudy???   Don’t Lie.   NoBody does Not have even the slightest aversion to admitting stupidity, confusion, or misUnderstanding — unless You routinely admit to your stupidity, confusion or misUnderstanding.

— Since You are possibly just Now learning of the Effects of ASPARTAME AND actually believing in the Effects of ASPARTAME, then up to this point, You have attributed ALLL of your symptoms of ASPARTAME poisoning to … … … SOMETHING … … … else.

Thus, ASPARTAME poisoning is WELLLLLL Known to those who care to educate themselves, investigate and question, —— my Words on ASPARTAME NOT “Bullshit” at All.

4)   Question:   Yeah whatever, “they” would Not put something as ridiculous as ASPARTAME, according to your claims, in my food.

!!!!)   Answer:   You are Not Thinking.   It is All to predictable for You so say, “Yeah whatever.” — You are speaking from your conditioning, Not your Thinking.   THINK.   Also, I Understand that You may Be having difficulty Thinking, You may feel like Thinking is Useless, too slow and makes You Feel claustrophobic in some Way.   I Understand.   I have tried to Understand something that I do Not Understand, it sucks.   BUT, I also Understand that ‘it sucks’ ONLY to the degree that I Think about Thinking, instead of …… just Thinking.   So, just Think.   No worries.   I also Understand that ASPARTAME was fully approved for any product in 1986 by our FDA and Now is in Thousands upon Thousands of products, along with MSG, and these Excito-toxins can DESTROY critical Thinking ability.   No worries.   Just THINK.

— Coca-Cola opposed the approval of ASPARTAME.   Coca-Cola knew, along with just about everyBody else, that ASPARTAME breaks down into — Phenylalanine (50%) (LOOK FOR “Phenylalanine” ON YOUR PRODUCT LABELS, THIS CHEMICAL MUST BE LABELED BY LAW, OTHERWISE ASPARTAME MAY PROBABLY NOT BE LISTED IN YOUR INGREDIENT LIST!!!) – (Neuro (Brain) Toxin); Aspartic Acid (40%) – (NeuroToxin); and Methyl Ester (10%) – aka. Methanol – aka. Wood Alcohol – which YouMeWe immediately metabolize into – Formic Acid – aka. Fire Ant Poison & Formaldehyde – aka. Embalming Fluid (Embalming Fluid is the chemical that we Use to keep dead bodies from decaying and some risky people smoke substances dipped in Formaldehyde to get really really really high).   YET, once ASPARTAME was approved — Coca-Cola made ASPARTAME their prime ingredient in their “Diet” Coca-Cola and is making Millions upon Billions off of ASPARTAME addicted Diabetics and Self-Conscious people (By the Way, ASPARTAME is especiAlly deadly to Diabetics and the Formaldehyde in ASPARTAME stores in (y)our Fat cells and keeps ‘em alive and jigglin — particularly around (y)our hips and thighs).

— G.D. Searle & Company is the corporation that spawned ASPARTAME when a scientist was working to Create an anti-ulcer DRUG and instinctively licked his finger whens some of his concoction got on his finger and he noticed that its sweetness (ASPARTAME is anywhere from 150 to 200 times sweeter than ‘regular’ sugar — sucrose).   G.D. Searle ran numerous tests on ASPARTAME and found that ASPARTAME UNerringly Causes Brain Tumors in rats and has killed 2 monkeys and has Caused 5 monkeys to have GRAN MAL SEIZURES — out of a 7-monkey-experiment (See: Sweet Misery: A Poisoned World, mpwhi.com, russellblaylockmd.com, davidicke.com, infowars.com, dorWay.com…et cetera…).   G.D. Searle fudged their test results on numerous occasions, for obvious Reasons, and as a result, our FDA prepared to indict G.D. Searle for FRAUD.   When our FDA asked — US Prosecutor – Mr. Sam Skinner — was asked to indict G.D. Searle — Mr. Sam Skinner resigned and went to work for G.D. Searle’s Law Defense Team.   When our FDA then asked — US Prosecutor – Mr. William Conlen — to indict G.D. Searle for FRAUD — Mr. William Conlen resigned and went to work for G.D. Searle’s Law Defense Team.

— Our UNITED STATES OF AMERICA current Secretary of Defense — Mr. Donald Rumsfeld — was President of G.D. Searle at when his company was Being chosen for indictment for FRAUD.   Our New UNITED STATES OF AMERICA President at the time — Mr. Ronald Reagan — Used his Executive ability to issue his Executive Order to suspend the ability of the current FDA Commissioner to make any influential decisions and then …… fired the man.   It required a 30 day grace period to get their New and Govern-ment approved FDA Commissioner into his position, during this time, the time allowed for G.D. Searle’s indictment ran out.   When the New FDA Commissioner arrived, a man Named — Dr. Arthur Hull Hayes — Dr. Hayes had the Power to make decisions and promptly OVER-RULED the decision of the independent Public Board of Inquiry to disapprove ASPARTAME … … and … … … approved ASPARTAME into market existence, sale and Use — to this day, and Beyond.   Dr. Arthur Hull Hayes then actually resigned from his position and worked for G.D. Searle’s Consulting Firm (as if his counsel is clean, pure and Wise) for a reported 10-year contract making One Thousand dollars a day, i.e. 3 Hundred and 6ty-Five MILLION dollars.   What is YOUR price???

Thus, the Big Heads that make a myriad of profits off of ASPARTAME and other Minds, are WELL aware of both ASPARTAME’s sweetness and disposition for Death and dis-ease……most people in our World only Know that ASPARTAME is sweet & do Not even Know that something Named — “ASPARTAME” — is the Cause for the sweet taste in their mouth, which is really just a sweet taste in their Brain.

5)   Why the HELL would “they” put ASPARTAME in (y)our food……in MY food…and drink…and medicine???

!!!!!)   Many Reasons.   Just Think.   Why would YOUUU put ASPARTAME in people’s bodies???

— ASPARTAME is an alternative to sugar, for Diabetics and Self-Conscious people —— —— New product line.

— ASPARTAME is over 100x sweeter than sugar —— —— Save MONEY ($).

— ASPARTAME Causes dis-ease —— Hospital Bills, Pharmaceutical Bills and Health/Life Insurance Bills —— —— BIGGG BIGGG BIIIIIIGGGGGG MONEY ($$$).

— ASPARTAME Causes bio-Spiritual retardation (retardation on All levels – ‘physical’, ‘emotional’, ‘mental’, ‘Spiritual’) —— Stupid and Weak people canNot survive without Fathers —— ——                                                                                        Control, Dependency & Slave-Mastery —— (i.e.  PERFECT Profit).

— ASPARTAME Kills people —— It is much easier for Me to Control and Be the Big Man on Top when there is less cattle for Me to Control and less competition & it is much easier for Me to Be in Control and happy and All that when I AM Not dead from my planet collapsing on itSelf from Being drained of its reSources —— Depopulation —— —— Security, Inner Peace, & Bliss.

— ASPARTAME is Sweet AND Addictive AND we can slip it in like a Date Rape DRUG —— WILLING DRUG addicts —— —— Domination, Power and BIGGG BIGGG BIIIIIIGGGGGG MONEY($$$ & $$$)

Thus, there are a plethora of Reasons Why “they” would put ASPARTAME in people’s bodies, Reasons that Present promising profits on nearly ALL levels.   I have shared SIX Reasons Why I would personAlly put ASPARTAME in people’s bodies, if my conScience did Not scream like a New born baby.

6)   Question:   I don’t Know man.   You Seem to Know your stuff, but I AM having A LOT of trouble Believing this kind of insanity.   You are making sense and You have quite a detailed story, buuuuuut, comon man.   I gotta investigate.   Where did You get All this from???

!!! !!!)   Answer:   Good.   Investigate. It’s fun.   It can really suck, Because as You may certainly find out, Truth is universes stranger than fiction, however, Truth is also instant Freedom.   I Will share SIX of my Sources with You.   Feel Free to feast.   I AM also posting THREE of my video Sources on my platter of pure Peace.   Feel Free to feast.   I have many other Blogs that I have written and shall continue to write — read Me and See who I AM, where I AM & Why I AM — Understand where my Words on ASPARTAME are coming from — See my Blogs and listen to my Word.   Feel Free to Feast.

(P.S. — — — Links at my bottom).

Thank You,

In the NAME of my BALANCE, the WORD of my LOVE,

Jelani Asar

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(One):   ASPARTAME super search engine — — — DORWay.com

(Two):   ASPARTAME super International Volunteer Foundation – Mission Possible World Health International – founded by super activist – Dr. Betty Martini (living in my home of Atl, Georgia, and I AM going to See to soon so that she can add to my book that I AM currently writing) — — — mpwhi.com

(Three):   “Excito-Toxin” super scientist, author of – Excitotoxins: The Taste That Kills – Russell L. Blaylock, M.D. — — — russellblaylockmd.com

(Four):   ASPARTAME super scientist, author of a 1038-page book entitled – Aspartame Disease: An Ignored Epidemic (See: http://www.amazon.com/Aspartame-Disease-Epidemic-H-Roberts/dp/1884243177) – H. J. Roberts, M.D., F.A.C.P., F.C.C.P. — — — SUNsentpress.com            (Not my Intention to have H. J. Roberts’s Name & the Words that You are reading – in bold).

(Five):   Alternative Knowledge super site — — — Infowars.com — (search for “ASPARTAME”)

(Six):   Consciousness Expanding super Source — — — DavidIcke.com — (search for “ASPARTAME”)

(Seven):   Video Number 1 — This documentary had Me disgusted.   I Thought about my Family in Georgia that are filling themselves with ASPARTAME and MSG products & UNconsciously KILLING themselves on ALL levels.   This Powerful documentary is Named — — — Sweet Misery: A Poisoned World — just click on this movie at the top of the page on the following link — — — http://video.google.com/videosearch?q=sweet+misery&hl=en&emb=0&aq=f#

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Hey hey! I’m posting early today because of my country dancing, boot wearin’ plans for the night.

I tasted the forbidden fruit this morning, and it was good.

Diet Cokes are pretty much an insta-headache in a can for me, yet I still drink them once in a blue moon. One of the great mysteries of life.

Around the noon hour I zipped over the the grocery store to get some listerine (my dentist pushed that nasty liquid on me like cray and I felt like my teeth would fall out if I didn’t immediately purchase some – I got the off brand though, so I still might lose a few) and some thangs for a recipe that I hope to actually cook this weekend.

Upon returning to work, I had another kid-friendly meal.

A pb&j, some aminal crackers, and a narsto clementine.

The pb&j was made with my fave apricot preserves, and it was delish.

My fellow moving buddy Janetha asked if there was an elephant aminal cracker yesterday, and I thought I would confirm that they do in fact exist, but sadly they are not larger than the rest of the animals.

And I would like to open the floor for discussion what exactly this guy is supposed to be.

I’m guessing it’s a goat or a sheep, but they could have made it cuter! It looks kind of creepy to me for some reason.

Work was pretty busy today, and will probably continue to be that way until the holidays. Makes the days go by pretty fast!

I was going to have this cute persimmon as a snack today.

But when I was reading up on how to cut it (I’ve never had one before) I read that if you get an underripe persimmon it will be the most bitter thing you’ve ever tasted and turn your mouth numb for several minutes. Not sure how true that is, but this persimmon was pretty hard and I decided not to take my chances. I’ll give it a go in a few days. Instead I had an apple.

I’ve been guzzling water today too, in preparation for tonight’s boozing. I simply cannot drink anymore without being super hungover the next day. I hate getting old. I mean I’m talking just a few beers and I am totally worthless the next day. Perhaps I will forgo the brews? Hmmmm… not likely

Right after work today I’m going to hit up a resale shop and sell some of my old clothes. I am trying to get rid of as much stuff as possible before I move, and I figure it won’t hurt to have some cash in my pocket for the weekend. Whatever they don’t take will go to Goodwill!

Have a good weekend amigas!

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Earlier this year, Diet Coke relaunched it’s “Just for the taste of it” campaign. The well known slogan had originally been used in the 80’s and early 90’s. The campaign’s debut was on Oscar night via a TV commercial with celebrity chef Tom Collicchio of restaurant Craft and show Top Chef.

The latest in the “taste” campaign is built around the idea that good taste is stylish. The soda’s online marketing presents a range of integrated content to reinforce this idea, including fashion, cooking, entertainment and wellness.

On the Diet Coke website, a cooking and entertaining section begins with a video introduction from Collicchio who again reinforces that “ living well doesn’t mean you have to sacrifice great taste.” Recipes, hosting ideas and inspirational tips are presented. Diet Coke is running online advertising like a unit featured in Daily Candy that drives users back to the recipe section of the site.

The website also has a celebrity style series, featuring interviews with popular Hollywood stars and designers like Heidi Klum and Hillary Duff. This is most interesting not for its content, but for how the content is broadcast. The interviews are filmed in a Times Square studio and streamed live to billboards outside, plus online to the Diet Coke website and banners on related sites like E! Online.

As highlighted in AdWeek, this “real-time marketing” is being viewed as the next step in digital media that allows instant connections between brands and consumers. AdWeek points out this tactic has its challenges as well, like loss of control for brands and smaller reach versus traditional mass media vehicles.

Based on this series of online marketing tactics, it would seem that Diet Coke has embraced digital media. However, what I found surprising is that the soft drink does not appear to have a presence in other online media. All the Diet Coke Facebook pages, Twitter handles or YouTube videos appear to have been made by fans. In fact, when you search “Diet Coke” online, aside from the soft drink’s website, a Wikipedia page and a couple Coca-Cola press releases, the results are filled with entries on the artificial sweetener aspartame or the Mentos – Diet Coke experiment.

Diet Coke may have embraced digital media as a way to talk to consumers, but does seem to have taken the next step to actually engage with their consumers.  Moving beyond what seems to be a push strategy would allow Diet Coke to more fully connect with loyal consumers and make the most of online tools.

Tom Cruise is perfectly normal…except for the one small part of his brain that makes him an absolute lunatic. For the love of his Scientology…he supposedly was all about beating people up. What?

Marty Rathbun, once one of Miscavige’s most trusted lieutenants, tells us he has a witness who can corroborate his account of a bloody beating at the church’s 500-acre compound in Hemet, Calif. Furthermore, he’s brought it to the attention of Cruise’s attorney, Bert Fields.
On the day before the actor’s visit a couple of years ago, the compound’s managers took part in “the Tom Cruise arrival preparation drill,” which required “orchestrating every action they perform … in the presence of Cruise,” Rathbun recently wrote Fields.
But Miscavige wasn’t happy when he addressed 80 to 100 managers at a prisonlike facility, known as “The Hole,” where three insubordinate officials — Marc Yager, Guillaume Leserve and Ray Mithoff — were “incarcerated,” according to Rathbun.
“Miscavige berated [the managers] for being far too light in their demands for confessions” from the three, Rathbun alleges in his letter, “because they refused to beat [them] … to pulps. Miscavige said that Tom … had vowed to come to the Hole and personally ‘beat the living [bleep]‘ out of Yager, Leserve and Mithoff if the managers failed to do so themselves.
“In response, the mob rushed at the three targeted gentlemen,” Rathbun claimed. “Fists flew and feet kicked into the three. They continued to pound until … each had two black eyes.”

This makes perfect sense when you think about it. But, then you think about the fact that Tom Cruise is about 5′2″ with lifts and it makes it kind of funny and then very sad. It would be like getting attacked by an angry Hobbit. It’s not very threatening…but you never know if they have some kind of medieval axe or something in their tiny backpack. Which reminds me that I once got into a fight when I was in 7th grade over a bowl of Jell-o. You never know what is worth fighting for until someone wants your Cherry flavored Jell-o. Then my friends, these fists turn into Jewish hammers of fury…and the only thing that will stop me is a nice cold diet coke.

These were the days out in Roxbury, when I’d spend long, hot hours in the hall closet–my office, “the writing room,” which I decorated with photographs of my life and multi-colored twinkle lights.  Some of those lights were shaped like butterflies.  In certain places the wire was thin and dangerous.

This was a time when I didn’t go anywhere without a backpack—a thirty-pounder stuffed with books and diaries and a maroon apron that smelled like old pepperoni and sweat, no matter how many times I washed it. 

Back then I smoked cigarettes, because I was young and careless and invincible and stupid and horribly addicted.  I smoked and smoked in that little closet on Cedar Street.  The closet had no door but rather a heavy tie dyed sheet carelessly hung with thumb tacks.  The smoke in my little creativity cave was so thick that I’d choke on it and pull aside the sheet and stick my head out for fresh air.  The air was never all that fresh.  We were not very good at taking out the trash, or cleaning at all for that matter.  And of the many roommates that came and went, not one of them was a nonsmoker. 

These were the days at Emerson, undergrad version.  I transferred there from BU and found my stride as a writer.  I was inspired and confident and above all, prolific.  When I wasn’t writing pages upon pages of short fiction, I was writing in my journal.  When I wasn’t writing at all, I was waiting tables.  Often after waiting tables, I went to the bar with the other waiters and waitresses.   You were one of them.  And when I wasn’t doing any of those things, I was playing Pipe Dreams and Jezzball, mindless games on an ancient Apple—the 2GS, I believe. 

I drank one hundred ounces of Diet Coke a day and often forgot to eat.  I called in to Julie Kramer’s flashback lunch radio show at least once a week, begging for songs off the Pretty in Pink soundtrack and “Make a Circuit With Me” by the Polecats.  When Julie wasn’t on, I listened to my old favorites.  Upbeat new wave classics or the Spice Girls while getting ready to go out, Grateful Dead while trying to fall asleep, They Might Be Giants while writing, and the Pixies while playing Pipe Dreams and feeling restless.  Sometimes I was restless.  I was restless in the fat, wet heat of a New England scorcher, restless in my loud little life. 

The heat that summer was unbelievable.  Every ten minutes or so I’d take a break from the smoke box writing room and stand under a cold shower with my clothes on.  Between showers I’d be sweating and wondering about you.  I’d often think of calling, but I never did.  You’d find me eventually.   That summer, you just had a way of finding me.  Your turned up everywhere.

It was a time of disconnect on Cedar Street–roommates in fights and roommates ending their roommate romances.  At the end of it all we got the worst roommate in roommate history, the one who built the blue tarp sweat lodge and the totally not-to-code fire pit.  He used his boxer shorts as a coffee filter and spent most of his time with some sort of art therapist.  If I ever for a second looked bored, he’d try to get me to sleep with him, and he brought home a pit bull and tried to turn him mean.  When said dog pissed on his bed, he slept on it anyway and then stank of urine for days.  And by winter he jumped in front of a train—the mighty red line—and lived. 

That summer, you and I skated around something totally terrifying.  What was it there, that wasn’t there at the same time?  We were horrible and wonderful to each other.  I remember going on walks in the woods with other boys and forgetting that you existed.  I kissed strangers in front of you and cut my hair defiantly when you begged me not to.  I told you not to bring me orange juice when I was sick.  I didn’t want that kind of attention.  But I did confess that certain things were beautiful—your bright blue eyes, your full lips, the sunny morning when we walked the length of Boston, talking, talking, talking after kissing all night long, lips blissfully tired from all of it. 

You were unabashedly free, with words and thoughts and time and sexuality.  Although you hinted at settling down, I never bought it.  You sang crude songs at art shows and made fun of ugly girls.  You joked about our romance publicly and only pretended to kiss me at work, at the frickin’ rat infested corporate pizza joint.  I remember it.  Don’t think that I don’t.  In the cold, dry walk-in cooler you leaned in with your head tilted just right.  And then you laughed and walked away.

There were two walls to scale that summer, you see.  I have to believe that when walls exist, you can peek over and enjoy the view very, very much.  But you cannot climb.  You cannot climb walls made of fear and differences that can’t be bent.  I know this because I have lived and loved without walls for many years now.  When there are no walls and the man smells like your mate, you just fall in love.  I don’t mean to imply that it’s easy, but it’s clear.    

I’ve seen friends fall in love with the walls themselves, longing for what might be on the other side.  They can smell what’s on the other side.  They can feel it tug at the heart.  I’ll admit, there may be some pretty good stuff over there, but what good is it if you can’t get to it? 

I’ve seen people try.  They bang their head against thick brick for years.  They bleed on rusty barbed wire.  And this is what love feels like to them.

Ha ha!  Do you remember that our first kiss was against a wall?  A dark spring night, a chain link fence.  I was stunned still by the eagerness with which you pressed me there, your hands in my hair.  And I should have known better. 

But we don’t need to get in to how it all started, or the funny things that people do.  I’m trying to remember that summer; oh, I’ll say it—1998.  I’m trying to remember our two walls, which both could have easily been of my own design.  I was fairly frightened of falling.  If there was a night, however, that the walls shivered and thinned, it was the night of the party at Em’s.  I wasn’t expecting to see you there, but I was never expecting to see you.  You’d turn up, in one of three favorite shirts—the black one, the Army one, or the one expressing your love for a certain east coast city.  You’d turn up and you’d plant yourself next to me and then we wouldn’t part for twenty hours or so.  And this night you turned up all messed up on something, I never asked you what.  I didn’t want to know.  You were sweaty and intense.  You chain smoked and you rambled on about wanting to get into my head, not just my pants.  And you rambled on about wanting to see my heart.  There were moments, that summer, and this is one of them, that I very nearly believed you.  I did believe you on some level.  A part of me wanted to rush at you, knock over your scrawny little body and see if it would break—that thing, that invisible thing that made me feel lonely and unsafe even though I was smiling.   

I know, it’s all so dramatic.  Don’t worry.  The window of time paints you sweetly.  That’s the funny thing about summer flings—because the sunshine is fleeting, because the days are long, because each year brings a packed, golden capsule of a certain kind of memory, the memory highlights the good.

We took a walk that night, the night of the party.   It had rained while we were inside, momentarily cutting the oppressive humidity.  The beat up Boston neighborhood seemed lush and inviting and you could even see a few stars.  I hid from you behind a tree because you looked alarmingly cute, and electric.  The moonlight/streetlight mix coated your dusty curls in copper and silver streaks and I could feel a deep heat rise to my face.  I knew that I was blushing or flushing; I knew that my body was overreacting to your presence.  Then we kissed, of course, in the tamed summer air, under the street lamps, under the stars.  You asked me to dance, but we didn’t have any music.  So you sang.  Oh oh oh, it’s magic, you know, never believe it’s not so.  I let you dance me over the cracks in the sidewalk, and the ancient trees with the roots that did the cracking winked and swayed to your gravelly voice.  And I let myself rest my weary cheek to your sharp shoulder.  And I let myself lift one shaky foot to the first brick.  You have to learn somehow.

An onion bagel at the NYC Marathon, mile 7.  There was coffee too… did I not photograph it?

Sandwich at Fairway… Sam examines ingredients in his Vitamin Water.

Appetizers

Amazing brisket (I made it).  Dinner with Jules and Juliane and Susan and Vin.

Dessert

Oh how I love DIET COKE!  And not just any Diet Coke… it really has to be fountain and preferably from McDonald’s in a Styrofoam iced tea cup and a big straw.  (There… is that specific enough for you?)  It truly is my drug of choice.  I’ve been addicted to it for about 5 years now… and can count on 1 hand the days that have passed in that time in which I have not enjoyed one.  (Diet Pepsi will do in a pinch, but not my favorite.)

I get harassed about this obsession constantly, but no one can argue with my logic… which is… “It’s better than crack cocaine.”  Things could be worse… I could have worse habits.  Even a Starbucks coffee is a worse habit.  Not only do their beverage choices have lots of calories, but they are very expensive as well.  I might look a bit more sophisticated carrying around a Starbucks cup, but I’ve never been one to worry about appearances.  Nope.  It’s Diet Coke for me and now with the new job, a part of the morning ritual.

“Totally wrong, yet funny.  Something JR would like” – Ben

Direct link (if it gets cut off in my blog)

Good morning!  I’m so happy you all liked my pumpkin decor and overabundance of cookbooks.   Sometimes simple decoration really is best!  I can’t wait to show you all more of my kitchen soon.  The mountain of cookbooks is just the beginning!

The last few weeks Solomon has really committed himself to becoming a much healthier person.  He started taking vitamins, watching what he eats and sleeping more.  I thought it would be fun if he did a guest post every week or so about his new healthy lifestyle.  So without further ado, here’s Solomon!

Hey everyone! It’s Solomon again. Morgan has asked me to throw in a guest post here and there…I hope you can all bear with me as I am still getting used to this blogging stuff. They will definitely not be as good/interesting as Morgan’s, but I hope you enjoy them.

Living with Morgan out here in the ‘ville, has been interesting. Back at home (Boston), we would constantly spend time with my family which often meant eating out and big family meals. We would also find ourselves going out often on our own, because we lived in Boston, which has some of the best restaurants in the world! It was always tough trying to stay healthy. We’d always have an excuse to break the rules.

Out here in the ‘ville, as Morgan has mentioned, there is not much variety. It has been pretty good for our waistline and for our wallets. What I have noticed is that Morgan’s experiments in the kitchen have been really good for me…not only are they healthy, but they are delicious! Just head back to her post on her Thai Peanut Pizza! This whole idea of knowing what you are eating is really helpful when trying to change your lifestyle (and I write this as I pop a starburst in my mouth )

Anyway, I have tried to let these changes affect me all across the spectrum…from eating, to exercising, to the way I think about my life. For example, I am on Day 8 of the ” Solomon’s No Diet Coke – Going COLD TURKEY – Program!” I don’t drink coffee so I found that I needed the boost of caffeine. Well, it wasn’t until I adopted some of Morgan’s changes, such as eating better, sleeping more, making smoothies (don’t forget to enter Morgan’s contest!) and eating breakfast that I realized that the caffeine wasn’t affecting me AND I was addicted. I also recently read an article that completely turned me off from Diet Coke. You can read it here: What Soft Drinks Are Doing to Your Body

Overall, I have started to use Morgan as a coach (and vice versa), think about what I am putting into my body, get more sleep, and try to find more time to work out. The thing that I have realized, is that sometimes, hitting a wall is a good thing. It forces you to think outside the box and find a way over the hump. Here’s to all of you finding a way over, under, around, or through that wall.

What are some ways you have gotten over a difficult hump in your life? Any suggestions for those people who want a BIG change?

Don’t forget to enter my Blender Bottle giveaway! There are 3 ways to enter!  Winner will be picked later tonight and posted tomorrow!

1. Leave me a comment on this post with your favorite smoothie recipe.  I like smoothies,and I like variety!
2. Follow me on Twitter and tweet about this.  Let me know what you said, be sure to include my name (@liveloveeatplay).
3. Link back to this contest in your blog.

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I have been doing a bit better on my previously posted goals-  I had the chance to flake out twice this week and I have not!  Hurrah!  This is a start; not much, but a start.  I am still consuming a bit of artificial sweeteners- though mostly via beverages (diet coke*, sugar free syrups and splenda).  The more I cut down the better I feel but it is definitely a difficult habit to break.  

I’m still pining for the guy.  I don’t know what my deal is.  I think it’s funny that I always want what seems unobtainable.  The thing is, I know I don’t want to hurt him… and therefore I know I should stay away from him.  Am I scared that I won’t find another?  I’m not really sure. I was comfortable with him but not to the level I wanted.  I need to be able to communicate with a person about things that matter.  I think part of the issue is that I am not entirely stable myself.  No- I am not “crazy”.  Emotionally, however, I have been through a lot so I think that it would be very difficult for anybody in my position to be emotionally stable.  So do I wait to become this stable person (who, to be honest, I have never been) or do I accept myself for the way I am at present?  A question to ponder. 

On another note- my uncle and I looked at a car the other night- a  2007 Toyota Yaris.  It was beautiful and it was such a smooth ride.  

2007 Yaris

I love the car but it is about $11,000 with 45K miles on it.  Financially, I think it would be wise if I aim for a car between 7K and $10K.  We are supposed to look at some cars at the Honda dealership on Friday night.  Once I have a car (of my own) I think I will feel a little better and slightly more independent.  Does anyone have any suggestions for a reliable car that is typically inexpensive?  I think the Toyota is my best bet  for this but I am open to suggestions.

My brother moved out  on Sunday and so my sister and  I are hoping to finally have our own space (we have shared a room our entire lives until I went to college- now that I am back we are together again and it has been a tough transition).  I think this will also lead to some obtainable independence and mental sanity.  My hope is that I will be able to organize my life a bit more once I am able to spread out.  For me, organization is key to feeling calm.  

* As a side note- I used to be a diet coke ADDICT.  Literally, 5 cans per day (cans only, not bottles).  Last night I bought coke zero because the store was out of diet coke.  Can we say disgusting? Apparently it has a higher Acesulfame potassium: Aspartame ratio… in the end, it’s all chemical.
  I don’t know how anyone can drink it… and I say this while I am choking down a can.     A bit hypocritical, maybe, but I’m desperate.  I’m trying to cut down on my caffeine and, seeing as coke has fewer mg than a cup of starbucks coffee I feel this is better.  Not better for my teeth.  After I buy (and enjoy) a 12 pack of diet coke THEN I will switch to coffee and tea.  

I miss diet cherry coke.