I’m so… GRR. I’m going to try and refrain from using bad language. I know that I’ve used it in another post but I need to tone down.

*breathe*

I’m in the worst mood ever. Venting isn’t good for you but I’m going to do it anyway. Oh, venting isn’t good for you because you can get addicted to it or something. You get angry just so that you can vent, because you enjoy it. Back on track…

You know when you just dislike everyone? I’m in that frame of mind. Let’s hope that I’m happier after my nap. I don’t want to rain on everyone’s Christmas parade.

Oh, MCR’s ‘I’m Not Okay’ just started on Kerrang. Coincidence? Creepy.

I need a pug hug.

Non-participation. You will miss out on so much of what life has to offer due to your dislike for idiocy.

My mother and I are leaving tomorrow evening to visit my family in Baltimore.  And while I am dying to get the hell out of Orlando I am not excited about this trip.  My immediate family (my mom, dad, brother, and myself) are celebrating our Christmas tonight since my brother and dad aren’t coming to Maryland.  I love my family but they can be hard to tolerate sometimes.  A few weeks ago, I was having dinner at my parent’s house when my dad literally used the phrase “Your biological clock is ticking.”  And the only time they are interested in my personal life is when they find out I am dating someone, which I usually don’t tell them about because my relationships seem to have a 3 month time span.

Well about a year and a half ago my cousin was married in Baltimore and my family went up for the wedding. I don’t think I have felt worse about myself in a 4 day time span.  My ex (of 1 year) and I had broken up almost exactly one month before the wedding and while I knew the ending of that relationship was necessary it didn’t make seeing my cousin get married any easier.  My mother’s parents are the matriarch and patriarch of the family and the cousins are treated more like brothers and sisters than as cousins from separate families.  Well, my cousin was 28 and I was 24 at the time (the 2nd oldest).  ALL of the cousins including my brother were in relationships.  And yet, everyone in the family and our family friends felt the need to tell me (multiple times) that I “was going to be next” and should be excited because “your wedding is going to be just as fun, we can’t wait.” And my beloved grandmother told me (and this is a direct quote), “You better hurry up and get married before grandpa and I die.” No pressure there Grandma! Thanks!

A few weeks ago, my cousin and her husband had a baby.  The first baby in the family in over 22 years.  I am very happy for them and I am sure I will love this kid, but honestly, I strongly dislike babies.  They creep me out and I don’t know if I will ever have one. I don’t think babies are cute and I sure as hell don’t want to hold it.  All they do is poop and pee and cry and vomit.  If I was forced to hold this baby and it vomited on me I would probably drop it.  Not on purpose, just as an instinct.  If you drop a baby and screw it up the parents are going to be pissed.  We haven’t even boarded the plane for Baltimore and my mom is already trying to convince me to hold this kid.  She says I can sit on the couch after the baby has been changed and they will just put her in my lap.  I hate that idea. Babies can smell my fear.  They give me the evil eye.  If they force me to hold this kid, it is definitely going to vomit on me.  Gross.

Get excited.  As I am not working for the next 2 weeks, I am going to waste time by blogging this entire trip.

I’ve slowly been realizing that I am not really that into the holidays. I think I’ve always known it in the back of my head, however this year something just clicked to help me really come to terms with it. For example, this evening I was talking with Loren over the phone, and remembered that I have not wrapped a single gift yet. As I was not looking forward to having to gather all the trappings and wrap gifts, I asked Loren if he enjoys artfully covering gifts with paper. Not to my surprise, he loves it.

That got me thinking about the holidays and everything that comes with it. Shopping for and wrapping gifts, decorating a tree, putting up Christmas lights around your home, all of the annoying Christmas songs (not the carols, just the ones about hippos and front teeth among other things) and fattening goodies (there’s a love/hate situation going on there), are all things I can live without. Don’t get me wrong, I do enjoy some things such as family time and traditions that typically come with this time of year. Perhaps once my girls are old enough to understand and enjoy Christmas it will bring back some of the fun and magic for me.

It’s difficult to find the cause of my Scroogey disposition. I always had enough gifts as a child so I didn’t feel any negative feelings. No traumatic situations. In fact I really liked Christmas as a kid. It’s only been pretty recently that I’ve felt this way. Possibly ever since the pressure was on to get my parents gifts to put under the tree. I’ve always been awful with money, and still am but to a lesser degree. I never could afford gifts, and thanks to corperate America, gifts are what seem to drive people during Christmas. It’s what this time of year seems to be all about.

I still have yet to uncover the complete picture, but I am working on getting to the bottom of this issue. Perhaps a solution is to save up for Christmas gifts over the whole year as to not feel the inevitable financial crunch that is always felt during the Christmas season. If we do that, maybe next year Christmas will be different for me.

Man snow is irritating.

It’s no secret I dislike snow, I’ve been out and played but I do wish it would hurry up and go. I’m bored of it, bored of being cold and wet, bored of boring news and bored of being indoors and freezing due to the snow.

It does look pretty, but I like to go out side and it’s restricting me. Snow, please go away.

Is it any wonder why Facebook hasn’t installed the “dislike” button…

It took me all of a few seconds to realize it and I stopped campaigning for them to add it.

But still, there are dozens of groups and fake button applications.

The reason they don’t add it is because… duh!…It’s mean!

Who wants to read that somebody “Disliked” their engagement to the love of their life.

Wake up people!  Why WOULD they install it?  Some would say, well if you can’t take it, then too bad, but honestly, do you really have that little of a life that you would be devastated at not having the chance to express your opinion on somebody else’s post when they probably don’t care anyway.  Some things are just better left unsaid.

As the old aphorism says, “If you don’t have something nice to say, don’t say anything at all”

Gebetan jadian sama orang lain, tapi nggak bisa ngasih “dislike this” di status facebooknya? Ho ho ho, sekarang bisa…

Begini langkahnya:

1. Pastikan anda memakai browser Mozilla Firefox

2. Buka alamat https://addons.mozilla.org/en-US/firefox/addon/13672 atau http://dislikes.info/

3. Klik download now!

4. Ok sudah terinstall, silakan buka facebook

5. Ingat, “as the great power comes great squared current times resistance (P=I^2.R)” , halah, “as the great power comes great responsibility”, ok?

Yang bisa liat tombolnya cuman yang udah nginstall add on ini, jadi ajakin orang lain buat nginstall juga, hehe.

West Yorkshire is under siege by Snow. It’s mental out there, settled and i’d guess there’s about 3 inches in my garden. Car’s are being abandoned in the steet and such it’s that bad and said to get worse over night.

This is usually great but I hate the cold, it seems to affect me more than most people, had to wear 6 layers today and I was still cold. I dislike snow. It’s no summer, summer is so much better.

I imagine I will go sledging, hopefully I won’t hit any dormant cars which can’t move or die on patches of black ice. I also imagine I will extensively complain about the cold whilst I do. I imagine I will say something along the lines of ’sod this it’s freezing, i’m off to revise’ also.

I dislike snow.

Take a look at “Watch the light” by ~Tim-Photography on deviantART

Take a look at my newest long exposure road shot, “Watch the light”

I really do love long exposure, examples of amazing ideas of photos are long exposure sea shots, and waterfall shots. They truly are breathtaking.

Although I’m not sure why, I am absolutely certain that I am developing some kind of dislike for pairing condiments or other things with foods or snacks. Examples being sriracha hot sauce and any food, hot sauce and random things, and ranch with almost anything.

I do know where this is stemming from, though. My roommates. For some reason completely outside my comprehension, they love adding anything to anything. Like I mentioned earlier, sriracha with almost anything! Nick is weird, he’ll get things like slices of ham, cheese, and sriracha and make some strange meat burrito thing that he insists is “great.” I only use sriracha with certain things and in modest amounts. Alicia puts sriracha or ranch on a ton of stuff, apparently she can’t have hot wings without ranch and certain foods without sriracha. There is a bunch of other situations I’ve seen, I’ll have to recall them and add them to the story.

I don’t understand it. I like to enjoy food as it is, adding ranch to hot wings can overpower the spicy flavor and sriracha can completely reverse the taste! I can understand it on some things but if these two kids have the chance to pair food up, they will. My feelings about this have gotten so bad that I’m even frowning down on milk and cookies combination! It’s a classic combo, but when I see them do it, I think they are ruining the fun of having cookies or maybe it’s because they seem to be glorifying the combo. Milk and cookies do go together, but for me, milk is consumed after the cookies are. I don’t want to be fishing my cookies around in the cup and risk losing it. Cookies taste amazing as it is! I don’t know.. I definitely need to try not to pay attention to the little things like this or else I’ll have a constant hatred for this stuff.

My ex would pair stuff up, too, constantly. Maybe that is where my dislike is stemming from. I’m not a big “pairing” person when it comes to food and condiments. Hamburgers and hot dogs taste great with condiments. I like putting relish, chili, cheese, mustard, etc. on my hot dogs and hamburgers but that’s expected for food like that. I like wasabi on sushi, but that’s about where I’ll stop. Some sauce is okay, but I only do that every now and then. I even opt out on steak sauce because if you have a juicy enough steak, you have no need for steak sauce. There’s a lovely flavor in a juicy steak that’s been prepared and cooked well (like one that hasn’t been “pressed down” by some amateur cook).

I also get the feeling that most girls love adding condiments to their food. I think it might stem from making things look cute or just that underlying passion for ranch that a lot seem to have.

To wrap this up: I’m lost in the culture that is making strange pairs with condiments and food. I’ve tried many of them and I’m still a fan of the food in its vanilla form (original form). My roommates praise their combinations as if they were part of a holy recipe. I feel like it’s unnecessary and is one extra step that gets in the way of my food and my chompers.

Whenever it’s toted as a great thing over and over, it annoys me. I’m ranting, sorry.

I’ll get over all this, it’s a nagging thing and I wanted to understand it better by writing about it.

This is another DevaintART.com I would like people to see i like it and think the name works well with the photo. Take a loo if you have a spare minute

http://tyrrell86.deviantart.com/art/Two-s-company-144541652

Look in the side bar, yes the bar on the right hand side. There’s a poll titled “Photography or Traditional Art?” Please vote, it’s for our own research.
Thanks, Tim + Alex

It has been probably the most crazy week of my pregnancy. Have I mentioned that I have a strong dislike of the medical field? If you havent heard it from me yet, you’ll hear it now! But it was also an exciting week, getting to find out the sex of our baby.

I had a clinic appointment last Thursday. My mom came with me, and they took medical history from me, and directed me to get an ultrasound before my next clinic appointment 4 days later. Stress!! I was very hard trying to figure out insurances and locations and times. But finally got an appointment for the next day. I had to have a full bladder for the ultrasound, and was nervous about this because of a bad experience last July.

(I should perhaps explain that last July I had a miscarriage of a 6 week pregnancy. I ended up going to the ER, where they refused to take me in the adult ER because I was not yet 21…even though my 21st birthday was 3 weeks away, and was having a miscarriage. So I was taken to the children’s ER, where I got to stare at WonderDog on my ceiling and listen to screaming children with broken bones and illnesses while I was losing my own child. A student nurse tried to take my blood ten times in one arm [not an exaggeration], and tried again in the next. Blood was everywhere, and finally the regular nurse took over. I know now to say that NO, you may NOT practice on me. But anyway, after nearly vomiting and passing out from blood loss and dehydration and pain, they got the needle in and blood out. They wanted me to have a full bladder, and gave me 2 huge bags of IV fluid plus a ton of drinking water. By the time of bladder was full, it was so full I couldn’t even lie down. And of course, the technician wasn’t ready. And on top of it all, every nurse treated me like a child with an illegitimate pregnancy, even though my husband was right there. Forgive me, if this is too much information, but I now know which ER I will NEVER set foot in again.)

So needless to say, I was a little nervous about the whole “full-bladder” thing. But I was fine! The ultrasound technicians were great in this hospital, and I really enjoyed the experience. When the technician stopped moving the wand, I could see my baby move on its own and open and close its little hand! Oh, it was amazing. And! We got to find out that it is a BOY! I was shocked to hear this, I must admit. I thought for sure it was a girl (still not sure why, maybe because I have been so sick). I was shocked, but still happy. It was the strangest feeling! But as the days have passed, I get even more excited knowing that it is a boy. I am so excited to meet him.

And so today was my appointment with the clinic doctor. Eric came with me, and I met with a nurse, and then got examined by a doctor. She was so kind that my nervousness about this part soon passed. And then…the dreaded bloodwork!! I felt so lightheaded even thinking about it!! But Eric had explained to the nurse beforehand about my painful experience; and she took me by the arm and said, “Honey, I’ve been doing this for 18 years!” She was so funny and kind and reassuring. And then Eric and another nurse had a conversation that I tried like mad to listen to while she drew blood. It was uncomfortable, but not painful! She was right!

All in all, I am glad that all of this is over. It has been so busy and confusing. But I got to see my little boy, and know that he is a healthy size and weight, and that everything looks good. And this helps me feel better.

Check out my latest work on DeviantArt!

http://tyrrell86.deviantart.com/art/The-boy-on-the-gate-146507326
It was taken on my phone whilst out on a walk a few weeks ago. It is of my brother sitting on a gate in some field some where next to a peaceful stream and i like the way my aunt’s dog is in the background. I have aged the photo and changed the exposure slightly, i think the aging of it works well with the setting.

Disabled sailor Geoff Holt has set himself another challenge. Geoff Holt has set himself the challenge of sailing across the Atlantic single handed! Geoff sets off on Thursday 10th December.

To follow his progress and find out more go to geoffholt.com or follow him on his twitter.

Tim and i have been busy creating new groups on Facebook.

http://www.facebook.com/group.php?v=wall&ref=nf&gid=20090994689

This one is a music and photographic group if you think music or photography are the best forms of art the the group was made for you

http://www.facebook.com/group.php?gid=198833941919

This group is for people who hate getting to the checkout and only having cash and being 5p too short

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Sailing-is-better-than-Football/205682014472?ref=ts

If you can not stand football and like sailing or at least think you like sailing the join this group

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Brighton-United-Kingdom/I-hate-it-when-parents-NEVER-listen/195707929573?created&v=wall

If your parents never ever listen even to important stuff then this group is yours to join

http://www.facebook.com/pages/Join-if-your-birthday-is-in-either-December-June-or-September/197636300422?created&v=wall

If your birthday falls into either December, June or September join this group

Don’t you think it’s odd that the one (perhaps only) absolute in life is change, and one of the major things we dislike/fear is change?  Hmmmmm.  SOMEONE didn’t think this through!

Facebook is apparently planning ANOTHER UPDATE (cuz you know, the last ones have been so well received, only pissing off about 90% of users). One of the most annoying new things is the suggestions it makes. In the old days it just used to be “hey, you may know this person” based on, sometimes absolutely nothing. Ok, occasionally you would have friends in common with them, but occasionally you just get “hey, you live in England, maybe you might know this person, they live in Zanzibar, a country which also has the letter A in it”. Also, it really wouldn’t get a hint “look, I’ve rejected this suggestion about 15 times THIS WEEK, what else do I have to do to get it through to you that I really do not wish to speak to this person, just because we have a few mutual friends doesn’t mean I don’t wish to slit this persons throat and fuck the gash in their neck” and then you feel ashamed for thinking of such violently sexual images. Well done Facebook; you made me feel like an arsehole, I hope you’re happy now.

Anyway, I kind of forget where I was going with this. Oh yeah, the suggestions. Now, the suggestions are just kind of retarded “hey, you never speak to this person on Facebook, do it”. No, I speak to this person almost every day at work, fuck off. Or “he only has x friends, help him” or in English “this person is a loner and/or non existent. Make their life better, because without Facebook, people are worthless”. Surely they realise that sometimes I don’t want to speak to somebody, I just can’t be bothered to go through the hassle of deleting them. Quite possibly the most annoying thing about Facebook is when you get in touch with someone you haven’t seen in years, you get all happy and look forward to talking to them again, and then you find out that they are now a racist wanker. That sucks. Especially since I don’t like deleting people, so now I facebook friends with douchebags.

If Facebook really wants to evolve and change, it just needs to do the following things;

• Allow us to appear offline and still see who is online. The only reason we would appear offline is because we wish to avoid speaking to people. This is usually for two reasons; 1) we are busy. 2) We are avoiding somebody. Now, if you’re doing the 2^nd one, you have no way of telling when the person you’re avoiding has gone offline. Have to depend on dumb luck.
• Add a dislike button. Simple.
• Allow us a tiny bit of customisation. I’m not asking for it to be MySpace; which occasionally just looked like the internet vomiting up glow sticks.
• Sort out Facebook chat. That thing is very temperamental. It’s nearly impossible to hold a conversation on it, due to it cutting off users randomly.
• More tabs at the bottom.
• Let us know when people have deleted us. Otherwise it’s just guesswork as to which our friends actually hate us now.

All that’s certain is that if it doesn’t change something soon, facebook will end up as dead and desolate as bebo.

also; check out www.lamebook.com for more facebook silliness

Aku dah tembam. Literally chubby at various parts of my body, i.e hips and face.

Need to slim down or else I won’t fit into my kebayas anymore!

Thanks to the medicine that I had taken for the past 2 months, my weight increased spectacularly.

Owh well, it is the side effects of taking that kind of medicine, if you know what I mean.

Probably I’ll buy a treadmill, owh macam la kaya sangat kan.

Jeg er ikke den type jente:
..som elsker å være i byen.
..som behandler mine venninner som om de var min kjæreste.
..som alltid skal ha oppmerksomhet.
..som baksnakker i hytt-og-pine.
..som ikke står for det jeg sier.
..som forelsker seg hele tiden.
..som liker vinter.

Jeg er den type jente:
..som er ærlig.
..som liker å prate og setter pris på en lang samtale.
..som synes skole er viktig.
..som liker smarte mennesker.
..som elsker snille, små barn.
..som har lojale venner.
..som kjøper klær for å føle seg bedre.
..som foretrekker fredager.
..som elsker sommeren.
..som elsker å sitte på café med en god bok.

(Bildene ble litt teite. Beklager det – jeg kjedet meg)

Thats what a source has revealed to Us Weekly.

“Barack Obama does not have Angelina Jolie’s seal of approval.

“She hates him,” a source close to the U.N. goodwill ambassador, 34, tells the new issue of Us Weekly.”She’s into education and rehabilitation and thinks Obama is all about welfare and handouts. She thinks Obama is really a socialist in disguise,” adds the source.[Us Weekly]

As much we love Angie we don’t mess with The BO.

The BO can sneeze with his eyes open.

The BO can kill two stones with one bird.

The BO is the reason why Waldo is hiding.

(Ok..those are Chuck Norris facts, but just ignore this sentence and be happy its Friday dammit).