Welcome to the second installment of the wiki interest section of grab.bag

mary celeste
crepuscular rays
most commonly challenged books

Its really what I want to do. Disappear. I don’t want to die, just vanish. Go live somewhere else. Live nowhere. It seems like a hard thing to do, to live without the social constructions. Live off the land and what other people give you. I could do it though.  Maybe I wanna become a trucker for a while… Im not sure but things are getting pretty desperate with me. I just know I need to change something, do something about it or Im not going to last long. As in, I wont finish this semester. I need a dog, or a companion. A lover maybe. A friend who understands. All of those seem impossible to get. So im stuck. Dwindling away… I want to walk away quietly into empty spaces.

“But you are wrong if you think that the joy of life comes principally from the joy of human relationships. God’s place is all around us, it is in everything and in anything we can experience. People just need to change the way they look at things.”

And I do realize that at the end of the movie, he wrote, happiness only real when shared, but I have to find happiness in the first place. Do I find it in people? I found myself wishing today that I had a family who loved me as much as any of the people who met alex. Or that I could be like him, and see past needing it.

i hate it if links get cold like in my last post…this video dissapeared…hmmm…

so well…what did i do the last days…i tweeted a lot…of course.

i painted…got this awesome canvas paper…or cotton pages…i dk how it´s in english…

it is just awesome…i play with my acrylics and switch off my brain…

to have the right paper is very inspiring.

i created a page @ yuwie http://www.yuwie.com/nataschaartworx/

i got an pre order for a framed print in oktober

i am working on the DoItYourselfArtBookProject together with @devilgossip Julie M. Tate

a little collection of some of my artworx with lyrics and artie words by Julie.

you should check out her fabolous website Gossip [&] the devil .

i will be featured at this place http://www.silverthornpress.com/

i met the creator of this site via twitter…i like twitter, did i mention that?

well, enough for today…if you wanna know what i (natascha artworx) am doing

check my twitter ,

follow the twitter account of TheCollaborativeArtBlogAndMore… ,

leave my a note in my guesbook at my homepage

or write a comment here.

have a good time

N

8:07…dah stiu, sunt foarte matinal uneori. M-am decis sa scriu in sfarsit ceva in blogul acesta creat de o luna in care nu am avut, si inca nu am vreo forma de inspiratie divina…sper doar sa-mi vina stand si ascultand “this is how i dissapear”.

Hai sa incep in primul rand prin a ma lua de aceasta melodie. Cu totii avem momente in care ascultam muzica si ne contopim atat de bine cu atmosfera incat ajungem intr-o stare de semi-inconstienta, iar gandurile noastre se transforma in versuri de genul : “and without you is how i dissapear!…I’m soo far away from you, let me go, FUCK!” iar acestea nu sunt versuri romantice de scris pe un biletel iubitei noastre usor vulgare… ci sunt versuri ce releva aceasta stare de care am povestit, “you” din acea melodie este realitatea, pentru ca noi renuntam la realitate pentru un moment cand ne lasam plutind purtati de muzica pe care o ascultam, iar aceasta nu trebuie neaparat sa fie o balada, eu intru uneori in aceasta stare pe death metal, sau KoRn, sau solo-uri de chitara, depinde doar ce fel de om esti. Dupa cum probabil ati ghicit, in acceptiunea mea aceste momente nu sunt unele la care vreau sa renunt, si nici voi nar trebui, ca fara muzica am fi niste idioti care belesc ochii la stiri, rad ca prostii la glumele lui Garcea, sau dau la laba mancand floricele de porumb, avand un IQ de 69 … Faza e ca nu trebuie sa ne deranjeze faptul ca muzica ne ia o oarecare parte din timpul liber, dar nu trebuie sa negam faptul ca e o mare parte din viata noastra

I have disappeared. I will acknowledge that.

 I don’t post on my blog

Respond to emails

Call my friends back

Return my students quizzes the next day

Do basic chores

I don’t exist or function as a human being.

My friends call me a Blissed-Out Bride.

I’ve turned into the worst cliché.

Now I’m not here to excuse myself, but rather explain.

I think I’m functioning.

I think I’m responding

I think I’m being responsible

I think I’m still all here.

But looking at my performance of the last month objectively…I’m not.

The thing is I THINK I am.

It’s not intentional. I want to do all the things I’m supposed to do; I mean to do it. I really mean to write, to call you back, but the time just disappears and I didn’t do anything, but space out.

It’s the weirdest phenomena.

And even weirder is how not me this whole thing is. I’m not the googly-eyed, gushing, glowing, giggly type. I’m the analytical, unemotional, detached, logical type.

My behavior goes against all my principles.

And it’s a great thing.

My apologies again. J

Absorb It, before …!

Terkadang setelah kita mengetahui bahwa suatu website terdapat artikel yang sesuai kebutuhan, kita ingin lebih mengetahui artikel lainnya sedangkan mungkin waktu untuk membaca tidak ada. Atau anda ingin mengumpulkan semua artikel dari suatu website karena alasan ingin menunjukkan kepada orang lain tanpa harus terhubung ke internet, sehingga apa yang menurut anda penting dari suatu website dapat benar-benar diketahui secara lengkap oleh teman anda.

Seraplah website yang anda kehendaki sebelum isinya berubah atau website tersebut karena satu dan lain hal mendadak lenyap – hilang dari peredaran.

Disinilah peran Pagenest. Melalui Pagenest kita dapat menyerap keseluruhan isi website yang dapat anda simpan di flashdisk sebagai koleksi yang sewaktu-waktu dapat dibaca sebagai pengingat atau presentasi seperlunya baik bagi diri sendiri atau orang lain.

Anda jalankan pagenest dan klik yang ditandai oleh panah berwarna merah, lalu klik “Custom”.

Isilah beberapa parameter seperlunya seperti: mulai dari “Address” yang berisi alamat website yang akan diserap isinya, “Name of the site” di isi dengan nama dari website menurut versi anda sendiri. “Folder to download the site into” di isi dengan lokasi dimana anda akan menyimpan keseluruhan isi dari website yang diserap. Kemudian anda klik “Download” untuk memulai proses menyerap.

Anda akan melihat kotak dialog yang menunjukkan bahwa proses penyerapan sedang berjalan.

Selanjutnya setelah selesai, anda akan dapat menjelajahi keseluruhan isi website yang telah diserap seolah-olah seperti browsing di internet, walaupun koneksi internet telah putus.

PageNest Free Offline Browser

Copy your favorite webpages to hard disk with PageNest. Give PageNest the address of a website and it will copy either the page, or the entire site (whichever you prefer) to your hard disk. It will create an exact copy of what you see in your browser including the text, html, images and css

Use PageNest to create a ‘cache’ of pages you read regularly. Use PageNest to store copies of websites so you can read them when you are not connected. Use PageNest to archive sites before they change or disappear.

Pagenest

Home

Forbidden love is all I’ve known,

A cut too deep that cannot be sewn,

I saw the sadness in your eyes,

At that time I wish I had said my goodbyes

If I would have known it had to end this way,

I wouldn’t have let you danced into my heart like a classical ballet,

I had to keep my feelings hidden,

Since we both knew this love was forbidden

Only if I would’ve destroyed that letter,

This would have all been better,

As I try to let go of my emotions with every tear,

I find my feelings do not disappear,

There is one thing I received from all this madness,

A lifetime worth of sadness.

I logged onto FunOrb yesterday, expecting a new update, nothing new on the website and a forum full of impatient players. I was slightly disappointed but I reasoned with myself, they did say the next update would be in 3 weeks. Well AoG was released a day late, so maybe they are counting it from that day.

Well I logged back on the next day, checked, nothing, checked a little later, nothing…This continued for a few hours. Eventually, I refreshed a page, and found a game half added into the website. The banner was up but the everything else hadn’t been changed yet.

I quickly logged on as I love the buzz of a full lobby all excited about a new game. I entered, well a full lobby buzzing with excitement because of a new game… I said hello to a few people in the room I knew and sat talking for a while. I saw my clan leader (Mod Sallyd) had created a game, so I clicked into it, and after a brief exchange we started to play.

Half way though the game (I was losing badly by this point), Sallyd complained that it wasn’t her making the moves. AI had taken over and was had started making (very bad moves) for her. I quickly beat the AI and returned to the lobby thinking it was all a little strange.

I played a couple more Jmods, and was spectating a game containing a couple of people I know playing when I got a message though all the lobby chit chat.

This server will be shut down in 5 minutes.

“Ahhh, Sallyd has told someone about the bug and they’ll be updating a little fix for it” I thought. Just before the 5 mins we’re up I logged off and headed to my FunOrb sanctuary, the Forums and joined in with some discussions about the new game.

A few mins later I checked the server list to see if anyone was back on the game yet, as I was keen to carry on playing – well, there was no server there. I checked the forums to see if there had been a message posted in announcements. The game thread had been hidden. I clicked back to the homepage, gone, achievements page, gone. No sign of it anywhere.

Well they can take the game away, but we can still talk about it…right? No, all threads about the game we’re also…yup…gone.

And that, is the story of the Incredible Disappearing Game

If anyone who wasn’t able to see the game before it was removed wants some information about it, then read on.

The game was called Ataxtix and it was based on the same style as Tetra Link and set in the same place. There is a grid just like the Tetra Link one, though you could change the size of the grid when setting up games. One player controls the white pieces, one controls the blue. You start with 2 pieces, in opposite corners, so you either had the top left and the bottom right, or the top right and the bottom left. You can move one of your pieces 1 or 2 spaces per turn, moving it two spaces jumps the piece to that position, moving it one space clones that piece, so you have one in the old position AND one in the new position.

The aim of the game is to dominate the grid by having the most pieces, or trap your opponent so they can no longer make a move.

Easy to learn, hard to master. NOTE – The game is completely free.

DOWNLOAD

DISSAPEAR

Ako, Hiro and Yoshi have been good friends since they were children. Yoshi has secretly always been in love with Ako but when she starts dating Hiro he snaps. After a study session with Yoshi, Ako wakes up dazed, locked in a small room with her hands tied and her legs chained…

RATED MATURE. MUST BE 18 OR OLDER TO VIEW.

Cast
Mei Fujishiro
Kaede
Kazuaki Kubo
Yuya Matsuura
Eiji Nakamura
Masayoshi Nogami
Norihisa Yokokawa

Director
Hideo Jojo

INGAT…

INI FILM DEWASA LOH, JADI HANYA DIPERUNTUKAN BAGI 18+

DOWNLOAD

DISSAPEAR

Ako, Hiro and Yoshi have been good friends since they were children. Yoshi has secretly always been in love with Ako but when she starts dating Hiro he snaps. After a study session with Yoshi, Ako wakes up dazed, locked in a small room with her hands tied and her legs chained…

RATED MATURE. MUST BE 18 OR OLDER TO VIEW.

Cast
Mei Fujishiro
Kaede
Kazuaki Kubo
Yuya Matsuura
Eiji Nakamura
Masayoshi Nogami
Norihisa Yokokawa

Director
Hideo Jojo

Whenever I stare at the sky and try to look beyond the clouds and try to see outside of this world, I think of how desperate I am wanting to leave this body, or wanting to know how it feels like to be dead.

It may seem very suicidal and stupid of course. Hearing people who kill themselves because of depression, and now, curiosity. Hmm…

I like the idea of leaving this body, this country, this world, and to just go to other places. I feel like I’m stuck here and I resent this feeling so much.

Lying on my back, I would stretch out my hands toward the sky and hope that I can escape from the world.

Sometimes I wish I was a fish or anything that lived in the ocean. It seems so carefree and not so stressful to be washed around, carried by the ocean current.

Or maybe a grain of sand, following the wind.

I want to drift away from the world.

I thought of myself as a quite opened person, but no one else seems to think so. I’ve been told that I push people away and close myself in. Always minding my own business and lost in my own world. Now that I look at it, it seems to be that way.

Maybe that’s why I never seem to befriend people easily, or ever.

That’s just another reason I feel trapped inside myself.

Everyone looks at the world from their eyes, they see things around them rather than themselves. They only know what they are doing but they never see it. They can see what happens while and after they do something. But when thoughts run into reality, the wrong things may be interpreted by the mind. I’m not sure if this would apply to others, but it definately applies to me.

Sometimes I would think and tell myself to do something one way, and actually end up with the idea that I did it the way I wanted to. But I don’t.

I want to see things from different angles. I want to get out of this body and be able to see things differently. I want to see things clearly.

I feel so frustrated and trapped. I want to escape to somewhere and hide.

See, too much time is bad for people. Too much free time allows some people to think too much. Nowadays, most people don’t think enough. But it may not be a good thing.

I wonder how it feels like to be dead.

To not have to feel anymore.

Zij doet het op haar manier

She does it her way

…. auch für die No Angels beim Grand Prix? Abwarten und Tee trinken  …”Dissapear” heisst der Song…

Ok gang . I am at it again for another season of “busting criss angel’s magic acts”

Let me start with saying.. The audience is fake.. always fake. no matter what it looks like , they are there knowing and seeing how the trick really is done. and when he is at a real true live event , the fake audience is always up front , unless it is a small act where he does cheap parlor tricks.

The exploding building, the first door lock was planned he was not to get through that door because the script said so. kicking the window in, it was  a break safe sugar glass window.it was a prop. all of the footage of him running around picking locks inside, previously recorded before the show.. the announcer says ” I have never heard 15000 people be so quiet… or invisible.  when he kicked in the glass as you where watching the pre-recorded junk, he was running downstairs through open doors out the back. and was safely away.

puts hand through man I dunno who did this video and edited it.. but he is right. a lil stupid, but right. watch how long criss’ magical arm is when it pokes through.

rips woman in half : for starts, this woman has been on all talk shows since the early eighties when she was just a child. the woman you see lay down, they don’t show her face.. pause camera and another woman lays down at the fake feet.

Walks through Glass : the glass is longer than the window area. lower left corner is missing . if you listen closely you can hear the window slide up.

I dunno.. maybe?

makes woman dissapear: when you see the handshake through the blanket, the girl is long gone and the hand the guy is shaking is a fake hand on a stick, you will see guy run wrong way with the stick in back ground.

The head you see poking through blanket, is fake it is on a hinge, when blanket gets yanked back, the head swings behind backrest.

walks on water this guys is somewhat right, But really I think some scenes where you do not see his face, he is suspended, just because you are too lazy to think someone would take the time, does not mean they would not take the time.. it is entertainment .. ya know? not real magic!

walks up a wall.. I would assume there is a crane out of camera view.

Chain trick : dur dur slip knots!

lol not me… but said something that sounded like my name ? =-\ asshat lol

lol kids He can’t even fool children.

Yay LOL He rides a go kart and disappears.

steam roller trick.. he is laying in a hole. no matter what you tell yourself you saw. you did not see that spot in the ground before he laid down.. notice the cracks in pavement notice he is holding himself up by elbows and toes.below him is cushion in a hole.

the whole bit where he was lowered into a tank in a silver box.. you see him with an oxygen mask on.. and the guy who “could not descend” was just there to stir up the water and make it panicky looking.. it’s an act . the whole bit is an act. to make you feel like they show real stuff also. they say he has no idea about water pressure, but he has done this damn trick before…STAGED.

man hole cover, the one he carried was plastic, they dropped a real one at the same time as when he set the plastic one down, when he turns and picks up the “manhole tool thingy” lol you hear the other one drop over the manhole and it is no longer sitting the way the original was.. the key there was the camera was away from the manhole while he got the tool. but the error was, the real one was dropped while criss was talking so the audio could not be edited… you see the look in his face was like “f***, you are soooo fired dude” … HAHAHAHAHA (man I really need a link to this video.) Second Time he says “right back in the hole” .. lol continuous shot cam.. lol gayness,

Manhole 2 watch the ground for markings and see it is just barely out of camera veiwe. scoot cam forward focus out pan back down . looks like cam did not move at all.
Levitation from building to building : this dude really did his work… excellent job. edited footage. took many hours and a few days.

The Houdini escape from the jail cell.. stupid and staged . Audience was in on trick also. Don’t believe me? don’t understand how?.. dur dur when he magically made the picture fall off the mirror was the part that lets you weigh your own intellect, or admit to yourself you are an idiot. the picture had a string attached.

Wine glass with needles in it, there is a second glass attached to the back of the wine bottle. Notice his belly button is nearly up to his ribs?… fake skin.. why not?

the wood chipper, the cops clearly are not cops so the whole thing about “he always does about 17-20 seconds, so I dunno how he is gonna do 15 ” is bs to sell you into the drama. the angles do not allow you to see anything, you can not examine the area below or beside the chipper or between the chipper and the truck.. roll out side walk along side and climb in truck when cam pans to mom and g/f.

Mind reading numbers on hands : either the girls are in on it, or there is always someone standing behind them when they show the other person their number

TruXter