ever since the “semi” talk we had last monday, I’ve been sad… because I think, I’ve reached that point of helplessness, where everything I do or say to make this relationship work is pointless… I’m just so broken…so broken…

what a way to start December.. with a flu! let’s just hope it’s just a flu and not some mosquito related disease. i miss you. i wish i could take care of you.

1.

Ländlich
Die Haut
Kleid
Quer über den stillen Ozean
Die Schlange der Weisheit schläft und
Jedes Haar ist drei

2.

Schmächtig
Ein Glas
Geist
Von den Klippen mit mächtigem Sprung
Von dem Dämonischen Einfluss
In die neue Welt

3.

Die Luft
Musik
Tanz
Auf Wiesen, Waldböden und im Moos
Klang ihrer eigenen Stimme
Tanz zum Lob Gottes

4.

Einzig
Der Blitz
Wort
Des Lebensbaumes noch ätherisch
Die Rollen in diesem Schauspiel
Durchbrochen werden

will this be the last birthday you’ll ever spend with me? :’(

tick.tock.

today’s the deadline, but you wanted to postpone it for the first week of january. you said you still dunno what you want, whether you want to be with me or not.. and it hurts drei. despite all my best efforts, it’s still not enough to make you want to stay with me.

“I’m not sure if I want to be in a relationship at this point”

your words.

i dunno what to do anymore

Genre: Racer
Untergenre: Simulation

Preis: Vollpreis
Preisleistung: Sehr Gut

Spielspaß: 88%
Sound: 95%
Grafik: 86% (Fehlt Bewegung im Hintergrund…)
Langzeitmotivation: 92%
Umfang: 97%

Singleplayer: 94%
Multyplayer: 90%
XBox Live: 91%

92% Darkwertung
Top Game

We didn’t get to spend time during the weekend.. and I really felt bad. But you made it up by texting me numerous times during the night, while you were out partying with your relatives. You even apologized to me, and it felt good. Because even if I know I’m the underdog in this relationship and you have the upper hand, you’re man enough to admit when you’re neglecting your “boyfriendly” duties. I miss your sad face already. aww

so we watched 2012 today, and I loved every moment spent with you – especially during those times you’d say i love you out of the blue, or lean your head on my shoulder… haay kilig. forever and ever babe

I can’t lose you. I won’t survive. And that’s your fault. You made me love you. You made me let you in.

– Alex Karev
Grey’s Anatomy 602

we went to the movies tonight! and boy, what a nice movie that was (totally unexpected! you gave it 4/5 – i give it 3.5/5) hehe. and what was even more unexpected was the chocolate you gave me my favorite!

I also did.. go a bit emo when i started the 5/20 questions for the day. You asked me what my greatest achievement is/was,  I said it was you. Because I feel that everything you’re going to be, and you already are, I was and still am a big part. I know it sounds cheesy, but right now you are my biggest and greatest achievement… making you love me is an achievement.

I love you drei, i hope we have more nights like these i miss you already.

“No matter how many times I get hurt because of you, I won’t leave you. Because even if I have a hundred reasons to leave you, I’ll look for that one reason to fight for you.”

and I already looked up clickthecity and the movie you wanted was still showing. We’ll watch today baby. I hope this is just the start of our movie watching days together. forever. i love you so much. and i cant wait to kiss your face again today baby.

and you’ve made me the happiest girl in the world.

although it took a lot out on me.. my heart nearly collapsed due to the pain you were inflicting.. and i know you know that.

i still have until dec 1 to make you fall in love with me again. i know you love me still, but i hope that within those 3 weeks, you’ll choose to be with me, rather than the alternative.

nonetheless, im so happy. you gave me 50% chance of loving you again, and for that i’m grateful. i love you so much drei. ill show you a changed me. the girl you fell in love with before. and if you are lost, ill help you find yourself again. we’re better together baby.

and i want to thank you, for loving me. because without that love, you wouldn’t have agreed with me in the first place. I hope i win you back baby.

and i want to thank all the heavenly creatures watching over us today, making sure things will be better for us, answering all my prayers. they’ve been with me since day 1, and i hope until that day we finally talk, they’ll still be there for the two of us. no matter the outcome.

i love you so much drei.

was oct 28. wednesday. 4 days after that stupid fight. and i miss it. i miss you saying it. i never knew i could miss it so much. and if you give me chance, i’d listen to you say it, over and over again, i won’t get tired of it. and i won’t get tired of saying it back to you, if you let me.

i love you so much drei! i love you so much it hurts to know that you might not love me anymore

You could be tinkering away, trying to solve the world’s geekiest problems, and I could be beside you, watching you do what you do best.

You could be cooking dinner for me, pasta ala drei and I could be imagining the anguish of washing the dishes when we’re done.

You could be smoking that last stick of cigarette, and I could be berating you for smoking too much.

You and I could be anywhere, at this moment, with no care in the world.

…..or I could be at home writing this down, my heart breaking with every minute we’re apart.

when and if i see you again, i’ll just hold you close to me till we can barely breathe. I love you so much drei.

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i went to the cashflow 101 boardgame today babe, and i was able to finish the game.

but not a minute passed that i didn’t think of you. because i knew you’d enjoy the game, and you would have enjoyed playing with me.

i miss you so much. come back to me.

Remember when you’d tell me, it will come. The ice will be broken, and I’d pray at night so papa would get good leads. You never failed to comfort me during those times, and maybe my dependence on you broke you. Because I forgot you, I forgot to take care of you. I’m sorry babe.

I wanted to text you drei, of the good news…but I’m too scared of your reaction. I’ll just write it down i guess…

I woke up this morning crying.

I tried drei, as much as I could, to just forget your face for a second, but all I could think about was how I was going to miss pinching your cheeks whenever we’re together.

I’m writing this as i’m listening to kenny loggins. Kenny Loggins! You’d be appalled at my taste in music these days. Sappy love songs have been playing in my itunes, and I like it that way. Maybe I’m a sucker for pain and I’m trying to rub it in some more, put a lil salt in my wounds, or maybe because I know I can relate to the composers of these songs who’ve gone through horrible heart breaks.

Drei, I don’t know what to do today. I’ve had so many inquiries the last few days, and everyone tells me to keep busy, but my mind just sits there at the thought of you. Been turning in as early as I can, but your midnight texts for the last 2 and a half years continue to haunt me in even in my sleep.

I want to call you, but I’m too scared you’d reject my calls, even if all I want to do is ask you how your day was.

I miss you so much.

Außerdem sollte dringend ein Gesetz nach französisch-urheberrechtlichem “Three Strikes” Vorbild eingeführt werden. Also Politiker, die drei mal für ein Gesetz stimmten, welches vom BVG kassiert wird, werden aus allen politischen Ämtern entlassen und bekommen eine Sperre für politische Ämter für die nächsten zwei Legislaturperioden.

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Hallo, Leute,

Ihr braucht einen Kinderwagen? Wir haben einen abzugeben! Um unsere vier Labradorwelpen in den etwas 500 Meter entfernten Park zu fahren, haben wir einen angeschafft. Da die Kleinen ab der siebten Woche lieber laufen wollten, anstatt gefahren zu werden, waren das nur wenige Fahrten. Wir haben ihn nagelneu erworben und möchten ihn gern gegen Gebot abgeben – Sympathie entscheidet

Also, meldet Euch einfach auf kathleen.tanu@gmail.com.

PS: natürlich werden wir ihn vor der Abgabe noch einmal gründlich mit Bio-Desinfektionsmittel säubern. Generell aber ist er sowieso wie neu und abholbereit. Der Wagen ist ein gewöhnlicher Kinderfahrradanhänger, in den 2 kleine Kinder oder ein großes Kind passen, inklusive Sicherheitsgurt. Hinter der Sitzlehne gibt es einen großen Stauraum. Den Wagen kann man schnell montieren und demontieren, so, dass man ihn auch im Auto transportieren kann. Die Anleitung und den Inbus-Schlüssel geben wir natürlich dazu.

2 Sicherheitsstangen können noch außen montiert werden, die haben wir aber  nicht benötigt. Außerdem gehört noch eine Fahrradstange dazu, mit der man den Wagen im Handumdrehen an ein Fahrrad befestigen kann! Einen Wimpel für die Sicherheit gibt es oben drauf!

Hier einige Fotos, ohne Sicherheitsstangen und ohne Fahrradstange:

Seitenansicht, Hinterräder

From the back - "un bleu jolie"

Und hier der Flitzer von vorn

Liebe Grüße in die Welt

Kathleen und Michael