So yesterday I decided I would learn French as I already know a little from high school but not enough to actually hold a conversation with someone in French, I have always wanted to know other languages but the opportunity never arose. I’m going to start with French since I already know bits and pieces of that and have friends who are fluent in french. What language should I learn after Bulgarian, Spanish, German?

Although I had no time to prepare, except for 2.5 hrs before the test, I braved the threat and dived into the exam. When I handed the sheets to the Professor I asked him for an alternate date to take the exam again, since the original date is at a date and time that I can’t take. He just took the sheets and smiled at me saying that we should talk about this IF things went wrong.

Today I got the results back. IT’S A FRIGGIN B! He added “Doesn’t look that bad, does it?”

No professor, it looks perfect! Thank you! Jesus Calculating Christ! I think I love math from here on out!

Just thought I’d let you in on my joy…

A.

I say woken up but that was one of the most disturbed sleeps ever. Kept rolling around and waking up. I was semi conscious the majority of the night and barely feel rested in truth.

Today is a very important day for two very important people. One of my closest friends has a big question to ask and my brother has his first AS exam. I think it is English Literature. He took remarkably similar A levels to me, just slight variations in style like he took Literature and I took Language and Literature. I didn’t push him in any way towards them. Funny turn of events.

1x 5 sneezing fit complete and I want to punch a kitten. Big boss is in today and I need more big sales so massive fake smile today. Biggest ever needed!!!

Hi World! Let’s forget about the bad things and concentrate on the good! You’re healthy (except for hayfever destroying your sinus’s and eyes, oh and that lump is still there) you’re family are well, (well they actually are OK I think, I should check on my aunts) and your friends are all doing well (execpt for one with a broken tib and fib).

You were an arrogant, cocky dick yesterday but people reacted well to it funnily enough. Apart from where you became massively insecure for about 2 hours, but I think you masked that well. Ignoring the problem means it goes away right? But that is not you, you’re a positive nice guy! Try to be more that today. Show love to get love, be the change you want to see in the world, always look on the bright side of life, up and at ‘em.

“When the rainy days are dyin’,
Gotta keep on, keep on tryin’,
All the bees and birds are flyin’.
(Ahhhhhhhhhhhh)
Never let go, gotta hold on in,
Don’t stop till the break of dawnin’,
Keep movin’ don’t stop rockin’
(Ahhhhhhhhhhhh)

Get on up,
When you’re down,
Baby, take a good look around.
I know it’s not much,
But it’s ok,
We’ll keep on moving on anyway”

Ahahaha that’s genuinely made me laugh. Man 5ive are awesome. Positivity right?? Right?! Right!!

Yes, POSITIVITY!!

RUN MMS RUN! You are positivity, be the positivity, embody the positivity. Woo sahh, woo sahh

“That is a f*cking nice fish. Big f*cking eyes, but a f*cking nice fish”

Yep, that reference came out too. This is a real old school mental stream here. Literally letting my fingers do all the talking while my brain does the electrical impulses and chemical reactions between the synapses to create my thoughts (sounds smart right, yeah probably not, GCSE biology, that’s it, was never any good, but I did like dissection, and I did work with my ex which always helps; her squeamish, me manly, lovely little ego boost)

I’ve got 5ive in my head and I need a shower now. Probably get an update lunchtime Netty. Thanks for listening and not judging. You’re a good…entity?

MMS

Rest of first year and beginning of 2nd year…

By the Spring of 2nd year…

I don’t say “bring it on” because I’m ready and prepared or even a badass. In fact, it’s the opposite! I’m just too tired to freak out anymore. If anything, give me the damn tests so I can leave sooner and choose between sleep, eating, retail therapy, and/or lots of wine at happy hour!

Assignments

Plan your assignment before you start writing and break it down into smaller sections. It’s much easier to tackle 300 words at a time than 2,000!

Do your research! Make sure to take note of the resources you use as you go. There is nothing worse than looking for that article to add to your references at the last minute.

Utilise the Library Referencing Tool -  this is great for students whose degree spans across disciplines that utilise different referencing styles.

Proofread. There’s nothing worse than losing marks for small errors like spelling mistakes.

Ask a friend to read over your assignment. They might pick up on something you’ve missed or that needs a bit more work.

Oral presentations

Speak loudly and clearly.

Practice and be confident that you’ve done your research and that you know what you’re talking about!

Remember that everyone is just as stressed and nervous as you are!

Exam revision

Lecture capture
Do you ever find yourself frantically taking notes in a lecture, only to get halfway through before the lecturer moves onto something else, and you just want to scream out “Wait! Go back! Give me a minute!”? A number of courses record their lectures and upload these to Learning@Griffith after class. Lecture capture also has an awesome feature that allows you to search and bookmark, so that when you are revising you can focus on the most important parts!

Go to class!
Pay close attention to your lecturers and tutors during these final weeks and listen out for exam hints. Don’t rely on lecture capture for these – some lecturers will wait until lecture capture is turned off to offer their tips with the students who show up to class.

Time management
If you have a lot of exams, break your study into smaller more manageable sections. It’s much easier to complete several little tasks than to try to tackle a giant task and get overwhelmed! Create a study schedule and stick to it. Don’t forget to schedule your non-study activities as well – taking time out for yourself is just as important as study.

Reward yourself
Reward yourself when you complete a section of study. Study breaks can be dangerous, but they’re also necessary. Be disciplined. If you’re only going to have a 10 minute break, probably don’t go checking Facebook or turning on the TV because that 10 minutes could quickly turn into 2 hours!

Study groups
Sometimes talking about concepts with others can help you grasp material you are struggling with. If you do organise a study session with your classmates, make sure that it’s productive. If you find yourselves at the cafe talking about that awesome party on the weekend, maybe it would help to move into a less social space (like the library) where you know you’ll focus on study.

Hit the books!
If you have a textbook, read over the case studies and answer the revision questions at the end of each chapter. This is a great way to test yourself and discover the content you know well and highlight the topics you might need to allocate additional study time towards. Check to see if your textbook has a companion site. This is usually listed on the first few pages or on the back cover and often has practice quizzes for each chapter.

Final checks
Make sure you know where your exam venue is, what time you need to get there, how you’re going to get there and everything you need to take with you. There’s nothing worse than stressing at the last minute because you’ve forgotten something.

General tips

Set up your study space away from noise and distraction. If you find yourself procrastibaking at home, head to the library! If you find yourself checking Facebook just a little too often, disconnect from the internet (if it’s not vital to your study!).

The Library Study Smart tutorial and self-help resources have heaps of great information and tips for notetaking, assignments and exams.

EnglishHELP have a number of self-help resources as well as one-on-one consultations to help you with your spelling, grammar, punctuation and academic writing.

If you’re feeling overwhelmed or if there is something going on in your life outside of University that is impacting your study, consider making an appointment with an International Student Advisor. They are here to help!

Reward yourself for all your hard work by planning something fun to do after your exams are over, even if it’s as simple as going to a movie with friends.

What students say

“Keep yourself on top of everything and go to lectures. Sit away from friends and force yourself to take notes with your pen and paper not laptop (Facebook is really tempting in lectures!)” – Anh (Vietnamese) – Bachelor of Medical Science.

“I really recommend lecture recording on the Portal especially for international students! You can repeat the parts that you can not understand” – Daye (South Korean) – Bachelor of Commerce.

“Look at the criteria sheet a few weeks before your assignment is due. Then plan how you are going to do it. This means you don’t miss the important things and have to try to re-do the whole assignment the night before” – Amanda (Australian) – Bachelor of Business (HRM)/Bachelor of Psychological Science (Honours).

“I enjoy a combination of methods like listening, rewriting, drawing, discussing and pretending I am the teacher. Using different methods helps with the flexibility of the brain and forming neurological pathways so that there are more ways to retrieve the information in need” – Fan (Taiwanese) – Bachelor of Business.

“Practice with exam-style questions to make sure you know the course content well and will be able to complete the exam within the time limit.” – Angela (Australian) – Bachelor of Law.

“With regards to assignment – read your criteria sheet before and after you are done. Look for the due date and book for an “EnglishHELP” [appointment] ahead” – Tharshika (Sri Lankan) – Bachelor of Medical Science.

Good luck and enjoy your much deserved semester break!

Saturday will be a total pig out day to celebrate the end of exams and the start of summer. But from Sunday I have decided to embark on the 5:2 diet. I am not a diet person, but after watching a documentary on this I got really interested. It’s not just for losing weight but also has good health benefits for many reasons. I’m going to give it a go. Has anyone else tried this yet? If so how did you find it? For those ‘not in the know’ the 5:2 diet, so-called for it’s format is a diet that includes fasting. Basically you can eat as you like, obviously within reason for 5 days of the week and then for the other 2 you eat only 500 calories (for women) and 600 (for men). But the two days can’t be consecutive. For example I think I will most likely aim to have my fast days as Sunday & Thursday and eat normally the rest of the days. I also want to exercise more and intend on doing a workout on the wii fit every single night without fail. I also really want to get into yoga, so intend on doing some as much as possible.

I’m not a massive eater to begin with usually, and I often go all day not eating anything and just have dinner, so I think I should be able to do it without too much pain and lust for food, but we shall see. I know other people that had this view point and found it really hard. I intend on keeping everyone updated with my progress and any words of advice would be of a great help. Anyway, I should probably get to bed as I have a very long day of revision tomorrow before my Saturday exam, freedom, pig out day and then the start of my diet! Wish me luck!

I’ve conquered 2/5 of my exams. One went horrible, the other alright. I got back one of my coursework grades this week too. In short, it hasn’t been a good week. So i’m giving myself me time by pampering my skin with this, this and this, and painting my nails with this. Exam stress be gone!

I’m trying to get started on revision for my next 3 papers but I can’t seem to get going. The amount of work is just… overwhelming. I can do it! I can! And in a month’s time, I’ll be in Utrecht with Mad! ~~~

xx

I’m really excited for this year to be over. I have so much to look forward to and so much I want to do with my time. I have another holiday to plan, days out to enjoy and most importantly time to just see friends and family and do normal tasks like tidying my room and other general things. I also want to get a head-start on my reading for next years courses, begin writing my book, possibly starting to plan my year abroad, searching for intern opportunities and finally finishing my volunteer work which should have been done last year. I have a lot to do, and as I have so much planned already I wont have as much time as I would hope to do it. But four months away from classes, deadlines and work is going to be bliss. 

cocciuto: “stubborn” but it’s a “redneck” term, it’s not used often
stropicciato: “wrinkly”
anca: hip bone

Needless to say, I nerd out.

And there are benefits to taking my Teaching Italian as a Foreign Language course. We analyze textbooks, how they’re built. The use of color, vocabulary, intended audience, pedagogical approach…We had someone come in and they gave us a free textbook. It’s been useful for me – I even learned how to say Volkswagon Beetle: maggiolino.

Right meow, I’m in the eye of the storm (to borrow a phrase from a dear penpal). Exams are slowly trying to sneak their way up. And apparently I’m finishing my courses much earlier than expected – June 5th, 6th and 8th, respectively. Then exams will start. So if I fail them, I can retake them in July. And for my colleague, Raquel, her’s are starting soon. So here’s a shout-out of encouragement. In bocca al lupo (break a leg) Raquel!!!!

I’d like to have at least two of my exams out of the way before my family comes to visit. What’s that? Oh, yes. I will *finally* be seeing parts of Italy I’ve never seen. I think our trip works out to: Siena-Pisa-Arezzo-Florence-Venice-Milan-Turin-Rome. It’ll be a whirlwind of 11 days but still. It’ll be nice to take a break.

And this weekend, nothing too exciting to report. Tomorrow, running around. Groceries, step six of a nefarious birthday scheme I’ve been working on, bus tickets. I’m going back to Arezzo on Saturday – apparently some people from my neck of the woods (Kansas City) will be visiting and my friend asked for help. That’s all I’ve got on the horizons besides anxiously waiting a care package from home!

Of course, you don’t believe it. You’re never an optimist when it comes to teenage boys at exam times – unless of course they’re a genius. Anyway, you go through the ritual every night; you ask them how the revision’s going. They say well. You don’t believe them and then the shouting up the stairs begins. That’s day 1. Day 2 is the same, as is Day 3 and Day 4 and everyday up until the exams start.

Then the exam itself. The post-mortem usually goes something like, “Well? How did it go?” Teenager replies, “Good, good.” Parent asks, “What do you mean, ‘good, good’? Did you answer all the questions?” Teenager replies, “No, but I got most of them done. I left out a few. I forgot you had to answer 3 parts to each question. But I reckon I’d give myself a good mark for what I did” This is followed by mum going berserk and dad giving a deep sigh because there’ll be no peace and quiet in the house ever until every exam is over.

Nobody understands dads at teenage exam times. We just want to be left alone to watch the footy or read our book convincing ourselves that our teenagers really are working upstairs on their revision. But every now and then, the wife comes along and says, “You go up and speak to them now. I’m sick of shouting at them!” So, you know you have to do it if you want to go back to that peace and quiet you’d been enjoying. “I’ve told him, luv. He’s working. I’m sure of it.” Once wife is satisfied you’ve done your bit at exam time, you can find some relative tranquillity.

I cannot believe how quickly year 1 at Trinity Laban Conservatoire of Music and Dance has gone. This year has been a whirlwind of learning so much, creating new things and establishing myself as an artist here in London. Being at both Trinity Laban and my incredible church, Emmanuel Church London, has presented me with so many exciting opportunities and ways to push myself and explore the unknown. From recitals to improvising with dancers, the concert stage to an art exhibition, it’s been such a fabulous year!

My website glendaallaway.com is almost here (horray!) and I hope to be recording a CD soon. Last 3 weeks until my final exam and then comes the summer. Can’t wait to see what it brings!

Love to you all,

G x

Upcoming concerts:

Thursday 30th May, 1.05pm @ St Alfege Church, Greenwich – Trinity Laban Harps

Thursday 30th May, 7.30pm @ Holywell Harps, London – Trinity Laban Harps showcase

Intent to hold exams

The basic intent behind conducting examinations was to allow a student to self appraise and allow the tutor to use it as an evaluation tool. In the ancient time, examination was one of the tools used by a teacher to evaluate the students’ level of knowledge, skill sets and performance. However, in the current era, sadly, examination is the ONLY tool to evaluate a student.

It is time for teachers to expand their ways and means of assessing a student’s ability, skill, knowledge and attitude. With the rising need to approach an exam differently, students also have to re-orient themselves towards exams.

Exam fever at different temperature

The exam fever takes a different avatar depending on the importance of the exam in one’s life, extent of using the results as an evolutionary determinant and impact on one’s persona with a trepidation to disapproval.

For instance competitive exams like CAT, MAT, GATE and so on are screening tests or more of an elimination round for the assessors to pick the best from the crowd. However, each competitive exam will have its hidden criteria to select the right candidates for a given course or job.

Similarly, the main motive behind conducting term-wise exams in schools is to ensure that children and in sync with the pedagogy and are acquiring the necessary knowledge and aptitude required by their age. But now the purpose of conducting is not this anymore. Schools conduct more and more of these exams and tests to check their status of churning out more number of education board toppers.

With this we can infer that the true motive of holding exams is meant for progressive reasons. Hence, it is good to revisit our approach towards writing and preparing for exams.

I should really be making notes on Yeats and Jane Eyre for my English Lit exam tomorrow afternoon, but all will be fine. I hope.

Nothing major has happened, I don’t think. I mean, nothing that I can remember, really. I just feel a bit static at the moment. I also feel far less stress than I believe I should be feeling at this moment in time, because really, these exams are important. At the moment I feel nothing about my English Lit tomorrow, which worries me. I’ll probably feel fine until about half an hour before, and then I’ll begin to feel the stress I should have been feeling days before. Oh well.

There’s nothing majorly substantial to write this post about. I mean, I could tell you about my life, if you wish, about how I hate that I’ll never be absolutely well ever again, or the fact that no, I don’t fancy him, so I don’t know why I’m acting the way I am. I could also talk about the fact that instead of the exam stress I should be feeling, all I am actually feeling is absolute longing to be somebody I’m not. Not because I see my life as awful – it isn’t, I actually quite like it – just the fact that there are girls out there who are my age, prettier than me, smarter than me and not having to do exams. It’s mainly famous people on TV who I wish I was, I wish I had their lives and their lack of exams and stress. 

But the issue with that is I’m not focusing on my life and my needs at the moment, which is never good. I mean, I have been working and actually, I think I might be ok when results come out and I don’t care if I don’t go to Cambridge (which reminds me, I need to e-mail that musical director at some point). I can see a future at Royal Holloway for me that looks sparkling. I want to be a singer or a teacher and meet someone who loves me for who I am. All these things that are important to me are forgotten because exams are stupid and make me wish I was Chloe Grace Moretz. I mean, seriously.

Normally, this would correspond with my stutter getting worse. However, since my last blog, I’ve had a fair few speech therapy sessions. I now find it easier to not stutter, and when I do, i don’t feel as stressed or embarrassed or foolish or stupid about it, which is a big thing for me – I have low self esteem anyway, so this means I have one less thing to get myself down about, which is always a good thing.

The less stress about my stuttering has also led to me being less stressed about my exams. Because exams period previously would, as mentioned before, lead to an increase in stuttering, I would become more stressed and embarrassed about my stuttering. Because I’m not this time, it means I can concentrate on my exams and revision, and not on my speech.

…That wasn’y very eloquant. I apologise.

Basically, because I’m less stressed about my stuttering, it means I can focus on my exams more, which means I’m less stressed about them. There we go.

Now, I put on my tumblr a while ago a post asking for pieces of media which portray a stutter. I got a fair few replies, and after the 17th June, my last exam, I am going to write a long post about the portrayal of stuttering in the media. I think it’s an interesting topic, because I’m amazed at how little people seem to know about it.

This has been a disjointed, ramble-y blog, but oh well. The next one will be better. (I swear I’ve said that before…)

Thanks for reading!

It’s weird, though, finishing French. Like, five years of me learning it will probably be a waste, since I don’t intend to continue with it and I’ll probably forget most of what I know. That’s quite sad, isn’t it? To progress with a language and then let it fade? But to be honest, I have enough stress with continuing to learn Spanish, and also all of my attempts to learn sign language. Hopefully I’ll retain some of it in case I ever decide to return to France.

We had Biology on Tuesday. I was revising like crazy a few days before, and especially the night before, and I actually think the exam went okay! There was a really difficult question about tadpoles, with a label to something called ‘Structure X’ which allowed substances to diffuse in and out of it, and the question was something like ‘Without using the example of movement, describe how the fully grown tadpole is adapted to survival’, meaning you couldn’t say anything about tails or escaping from predators. I said the surface area of the Structure X increased so that more food and minerals could get to the tadpole so that it could grow more. Apparently the Structure X was gills, but they didn’t look like gills – they were just squiggles, but hopefully I’ll get the mark even though I didn’t talk about oxygen. The last question was HORRIBLE – it was about glucose levels in certain veins, but I somehow came up with an answer involving glucagon and the liver.

We had our Environmental Science exam this morning, in the old canteen where we usually play table tennis. It was so bloody cold in there! I think the exam went all right, but some of the questions were pretty difficult. We have Spanish tomorrow, which, after the French, I’m dreading. Hopefully it won’t go as badly.

Oh, and I got a letter from school on Saturday about the Honours Program. In case I haven’t already explained – I’m not sure if I did or not – it’s a scheme they’re doing for sixth form, because most of the smart people are going off to different colleges. Basically, in addition to your four A levels, you do General Studies (which I’d be doing at Carmel anyway), a course in Mandarin Chinese, and a qualification that involves writing some sort of essay to do with university and UCAS points. You also get a one-on-one tutor, trips to universities to stay overnight and go to talks and stuff, and you get a £30 a week bursary or an iPad. To get onto the program, you need four As or above, three of which I have already in RE, English Language and ICT. That letter threw my whole future plan off course. I mean, I want to go to Carmel, to get away from everything. I’d pretty much made up my mind. But now I think I want £30 a week more. Factoring in pocket money and everything, by the end of two years I’d have £4040. Which is enough for a new laptop and an iPad and whatever the hell else I want to buy.

So who knows what I’ll do? Certainly not me! I mean, I still need to get another A, but hopefully I’ll be able to do that. There’s a talk at school about it on June 20th, so we’ll go to that, and I’ll go to the taster day at Carmel on the 28th, too. Exciting times lie ahead! Except I can’t look forward to any of them because a) I’ve had toothache for like three weeks and keep worrying and I’m scared about going to the dentist but I’ve told Mum to make an appointment, and b) the gates to hell have been opened to exams this week.

What else? Oh, yeah, we got given yearbooks. They’re sucky. There are pages of form photos (I look ridiculous in mine – just stood off to one side and it looks like my hands are in my pockets but they’re not) and then comments from teachers and stuff, and then pages and pages of photos from school years and stuff. There’s a terrible one of me in Year 7 with a God-awful fringe, smiling vacantly at the camera. SO not how I want to be remembered, but hey ho! I honestly think I’m incapable of taking a good photo. Anyway, I made my own yearbook, which looks awesome. I used the brown notebook I bought from HobbyCraft ages ago, collaged the front and back in different papers with flowers and patterns on, and on the back I wrote ‘The End’ in a bubble. I put stickers to spell out my school name and 2008-2013 on the front, and stuck the picture of me and my friends at lunch last year, bordered it in Sharpie and drew swirls coming off it. It’s the single most artistic thing I’ve ever done in my entire life. I stuck photos on the inside covers and on the first few pages, with flower stickers around them, and I’ve started getting people to write messages in it. I got quite a lot of compliments on my design in class today. That made me smile. Abi, Laura and Kayleigh signed it in Spanish even though I’ve never really spoken to them, and they wrote me gorgeous messages! They’re actually really nice. Except they wrote upside down, accidentally, so my yearbook isn’t as perfect as it was. Still. I appreciate them. I got a page full from Rachel, most of which I had to prompt her to write, with two drawings of fanart at the bottom because we were bored in PSE. Alannah called me her best friend in hers, which was lovely, and Tamara did me a page with little drawings and stuff. I got a lovely message from Reece mentioning all the memories we’ve made, and a page from Maria which was incredibly poetic and lovely. I’m embarrassed of my message to her. I kinda think it sucked, but I was stuck on what to put. I signed Kayleigh and Laura’s in Spanish, too.

So that’s that, I guess. Six more days of actual school left! Although I have to go in on freaking SATURDAY for English revision. Just kill me now! We have Psychology revision on the Thursday of the holidays, too, which is definitely not good. I do NOT want to go. But he did say he’d bring food. So next Friday we have two ‘normal’ lessons which means actually doing stuff in Geography and then sitting around in English, then a two hour leaver’s assembly before we can go home at lunch. And we can get our shirts signed and stuff – if Sharkman doesn’t get his way, that is! I guess people will rebel anyway – it’s the last day, after all. I’m sick of this uniform. I want to burn it. It’s apparently an own clothes day on the last day, so I guess I’ll wear my school shirt over it.

Loads of love and cuddles, Alex xXx

Since i don’t have a exam tomorrow (friday), my schedule for today was to not do ANYTHING.

here is the listed order of what i did when i got home from my exams today:

1) kicked off my drenched shoes from rain

2) yanked off my soaked socks

3) took off my pants.

4) sat down on chair pantless for at least 30 minutes while browsing the web with the webcam on as i skyped my friend clara

5) After i finally got motivated to change, i put on my pajamas.

6) took a shower

7) layed on bed browsing da web for like few hours

as seen, i am not willing to do ANY revision until saturday. NO MOTIVATION NO DETERMINATION

ORIGAMI TIME!

ANYWAYS, I STARTED TO PLAN THE EVENT FOR MY FRIEND SWETHA’S LEAVING DINNER PARTY (shes leaving to US, that sucks ):). WE WERE PLANNING TO FOLD HER ORIGAMI ELEPHANTS (because i swear that is her sprit animal jks she just adores elephants). So i started searching up tutorials on folding origami elephants. due to my intelligence, the amateur me began folding her first elephant by using a super advanced level origami. and i fucking died.

BUT——

i did it. it looks like shit tho.

CLICK HERE FOR HORRENDOUS CREATION OF MINE  

you have, no, idea how long that took me. and i was watching a video tutorial as well, so i had to fold realllly fast just to catch up to the guy folding it. and i had to stop every few seconds because he was going too fast for my standard. and then my super leh feh traits created a uglified piece of shit. but then i still suceeded so props to me. LOL. even a super smart friend of mine couldnt fold it. that feeling makes me feel super proud. HAH i overcome my friend? once in a lifetime!

Anyways, we were planning to make like over 10 elephants for her so i am like. no fucking way. i am ever, doing this again with mr fast asian hands folding paper man on youtube and i am no way going to go through that pain again *wipes dramatic drop of sweat off forehead*. so then i went on youtube to find another tutorial– also before that i had to post my picture on facebook ofc first to show off to my buddies that i can create smth like that right hah yall think i’m smart now? ok so anyways i found this other tutorial, and its a shorter video unlike the DIFFICULT AS FUCK ONE i did just now, so i was like hmm, maybe why not, the elephant looks good and maybe not as much steps too?

NO SO FUCKING WRONG.

THE MAN FOLDED THE ORIGAMI LIKE HE WAS SOLVING A RUBIX CUBE AND HIS ACCENT WAAS SO UNCLEAR I WASLIKE ‘shit what say that again i cant’ and then i had to like replay this section of the video at least 10 times to understand what hes doing. and he was like using super short sentences like ‘then you fold here-and here-and there’ GODS SAKE I DONT KNOW WHERE HERE THERE AND THERE MEANS BITCH! BUT— the origami turned out quite well in the end. he needs to slow down, but the steps were 10 times simpler. still tricky though.

CLICK HERE TO SEE THE NORMAL AND AWESOME ELEPHANT I MADE!

and yea you should be proud right? it looks nice! and i’m planning on to place small messages inside the tummy of the elephant (bottom of photo) so then when she receives every elephant it has a special meaning behind it! what sincerity right i’m a good friend! sigh sigh, though, because when she carries these to her new home in the US they’re all going to be crumbled up. haha. maybe we should put the elephants in a shoebox. omg, good idea toni.

and then everything went pretty well, except for that i have my fucking PERIOD today, hurts like a BITCH! tmi, but every time i pee my tummy hurts. mommy says its cuz of the contractions of my uterus wall. i also feel slightly anemic, kind of dizzy and lack of air that kind of feeling. also feeling my body wants to shut down. BUT I CANNOT, BECAUSE OF WORDPRESS <3 i cannot ditch my baby, right.

also for dinner today, i got to eat salmon roll sushi (mum’s grand prize for me after my exams today, SO NICE IKR!) i also ate drunken chicken — usually a Chinese term but when its directly translated to english it becomes drunk chicken. basically, its pieces of chicken marinated with wine, its really good! one of my favourite dishes. seriously will not get the people who do not like the taste of wine marinated with chicken, it develops such a nice and savoury taste together.  Also, for reference, the chicken is not drunk. and i am not drunk either.

also, the salmon roll sushi,

fucking delicious

too bad you weren’t here smd smd smd.

yea! so that was my day! and for the rest of the night, i went back to my beloved laptop.

<3