I have been blaming Michael for the cruelties that his political party established in the Universes, but what I have been telling has a diverse meaning in the world of the creatures than is has in Eden.

Eden is a free place, but freedom has a wide definition.

Far from me to tell what freedom is, but I can tell that the real freedom, if exists, only exists in the realm of formless, were God (female essence) lives.

Except outside the form, there are limits tied to all fields, resources, economy, society, physical limits, and so on.

So, once an Angel decides to migrate to the realm of form ( to Eden), he must abdicate of part of the freedom that he has beside God. Now for the creatures, given the dependence of Eden and the very nature of their bodies, is something even more restrict.

Then, even assuming that any kind of freedom, once in the form, is not real freedom, there is still two different concepts of freedom that I want to speak about.

One is the freedom from a human point of view. Why human? Because all the species of this Universe know precisely the human concepts, so they can make an easy parallel to what it is for their own species.

The other is the concept of freedom of Eden, which has vague mentions here and there, but not a consistent explanation, like the one that I will do now.

For humans, the freedom ends when one interfere with the freedom of the other, right? Is a short definition, but tells everything.

For Angels this would look like the definition of a prison. In Eden there is no limit for one´s action, not even the limit of interfering with the others, not even the limit of harming others, the only limit is a law suit. In short, in Eden rules the stronger, and one must always watch his own back. It is a turn of the spiral, the most wild concept of civilization, working the the most advanced place that exist.

Few posts ago I told that we trust that in Eden nobody harm the other, but this in Eden has a particular meaning. The concept of “harm” does not exist. Just exist the concept of action. A successful action, or a failed action. But the same action, if seen by human eyes, could be considered horrifying.

The Angels understand that something can be horrifying, but they don´t empathize, they just watch. And, besides, the most horrifying of all fears, perhaps the only real fear in Angelsland, is the one of having to deal with a new limit. This is one of the reasons that we had to balance the limitless society with a state of art legal system.

There are few, very few laws, and millions of protocols for everything, and millions of different ways of dealing with this protocols, what makes the circulation among the different levels and branches of the society very complex, and many times the protocols and traditions are much stronger than laws, but…they are still protocols.

Another characteristic of this concept of freedom that I am speaking of, is that Eden is amoral. Everyone know what is considered right or wrong in Earth, in very basic and general terms, everyone knows what is considered cruelty, exploitation, as well as charity and goodness.

These concepts do not have importance for the Elfic society. Not to say that they do not exist, I would say that they are more an entertainment than anything else. Of course that are Angels that go to all extremes ( we Fallen guys are considered extremists), but there is not a general official consensus about these concepts.

Also, is important to point out that Angels never go through physical pain or privations of any sort, ever. What means that if an Angel such as Michael order a hunter of witches as he did many times, including torture, he does not know at all what is the process that the creature is going through.

Angels do not have the least idea of what feels like physical harm. Of course, for the bravest ones, there are safe simulators, but…I would not count that as a valid experience.

Even in the case of us, Fallen Angels, after having lived so many thousand lives as humans, our experience is still not the same as the one of a human-human ( body and essence), because there are primary differences in the reception of information of the essences, but the “half experience” that we had here probably makes us the only of all Angels who can understand the problems of the creatures, from inside.

Me and Lucifer are “humanized”, in Eden it is considered decayed, but actually we are more experienced than our fellows at home, certainly we are. Our position defending the worlds of creatures is probably seen as an exotic entertainment for many levels of Eden, specially those levels and groups away from the gardens and away from the government.

Because of this, no matter how much I complain, my words will be heard and discussed, with fire and icy arguments, but hardly will be considered as more than superficial and interesting news. I am not sure that I believe that my words can ever enter the hearts.

There was a time long ago when I used to get so angry with most Angels´s lack of experience about the creatures, that I complained to my friends here saying that I would find a way to hurt with a needle the fingers of all Counselors in the low chamber, and I would insert in this needle some sort of genetic hack so they would know what is pain, at least a little bit. Of course I grew up and I don´t want to go out piercing everyone anymore, but Angelsland has still the same annoying ignorance on this subject.

Not that I am complaining about this, it fits pretty well to Eden, but what I mean is that no judge in Eden would consider Michael guilty of torturing millions of female creatures in all times, however, he might be guilty of messing up with someone´s else property ( the creatures of another Angel). But the weight is very different. And there would be an eternity of discussions about.

I do not intend to change the naiveness of Eden, however, as we Fallen Angels did learn after all this time among humans, is that perhaps to impose some few limits to the Angels in what concerns the care of the creatures would not be a bad idea, once to try to explain what is suffering is useless, because the Angels will never ever understand without experience.

What I am proposing to Eden is the worse of all proposals. I am suggesting limits.

The Angels that will receive this message will be horrified with the idea, and probably again I will be throwing away my weak popularity in Eden. The idea of having limits is the biggest taboo in Eden, but as a stubborn Rebel I don´t like at all the way that things are conducted in the Universes.

From my humble personal point of view, and this I did learn with the Elementals of Gaia, most of kinds of violence have deep roots in the hurry. As the Angels are eternal, is my position that the violence toward the creatures does not justify. What I am calling “violence” in Eden is not considered violence but freedom of choice of the Angel responsible for the creatures. But, with a little patience, is possible to reach the same or better results. It is just a matter of conscience. Of care.

This post of mine is pointless, I know that I cannot transfer to the Angels´s minds experience and feelings, however I just have to say it, even knowing that my words may just die in the nothing, without been understood in Eden.

What I am saying is terribly deep, but without the necessary experience to interpret my words, they may look like just a childish claim of an annoying pro-creatures activist from primary school.

What do I do? I can just tell and tell and tell again, that the way that Michael and other Angels of his party conduct their philosophies and religions and hunts and armageddoms, only for their personal amusement and to feed their pride, cannot be done.

Does the Eden´s society think that they are wrong? Of course not. For Eden it is free of choice – of the Angel.

There will ever be any punishment for the Angels who behave like him? No. Never. It is pretty allowed.

This is how things are, but me and Lucifer and all Rebels cannot, we just cannot, look at abuses and just let go. We are lonely voices in Eden, but perhaps one day we will be heard.

Eden´s society think that they create the Universes for the Angels´s sake, because there is no other possible answer for the Universe to exist.

But I know why the Universe exist. I know the reason for everyone´s existence. And I am going to tell it now.

Sorry for taking the fun of the puzzle that is your job to hide, Gideao, but is time to tell everything.

As me and Lucifer get closer, is more and difficult not to tell what has to be told.

I asked to my Mother once, the Mother from the formless realm, the one that is the base of everything ( although the creation itself is done in Eden), the one known as GOD. ( Not to be confused with my Diamond mother from Eden)

I asked HER the reason for the Universe to exist, because it just does not make sense.

HER answer was simple, and deeply significant.

- The Universe exist because I love the form.

That is what SHE said.

The Universes do exist, because they are beautiful, that is all. If one thinks well, this is really, the only reason that worth.

If the Universes do exist because GOD loves the form, because of the beauty of the form, do we Angels have the right to create disturbances?

Yes, unfortunately we do, because of another thing that GOD told me. SHE said that if something is possible, it is permitted. HER laws are to restrict stages of growing, such as gravity that restrict a creature in the ground until the moment that the creatures creates a machine to beat it. GOD´s laws are made to be surpassed, not to be blindly respected.

I know that with the argument above I am just giving room to the opposition, but I am not a lawyer and I don´t want to be partial in this case, not even for myself, because as the Angel bearer of truth, I have to tell all.

But still, still, even though knowing that is possible to harm, even though knowing that it is permitted, even though knowing that no punishment will come, please Eden, do not harm the creatures. Do not create policies that allow it to happens. Please.

If there must be a reason, then I give you a reason. If the purpose of the Universe to exist is because it is beautiful, there is no beauty in a dark heart. So, if we want do our best for our Mother of the formless, who gave us everything, let´s thanks to HER with bright hearts.

Let´s just light all hearts, in all kingdoms that we have, to match and reflect the bright of the stars.

Just to create more beauty.

This is all for today.

I love you Eden, I miss you my Diamond family, Mother, Doupache, Akira.

See you in the future.

Princess Veronica Ab Thule

I already explained briefly about the structure of Eden, now I will speak about the gardens.

Eden is in the center of the realm of time and space. From a point of view of the third dimension, Eden would be a huge mass of hydrogen. Is pretty cold there.

Eden is built in a dimension that cannot be seen by human eyes. It is a sonic dimension.

All around Eden are placed the gardens. Each garden is what we call a Universe. Each Universe is a garden. Humans call as Universe the whole, but we Angels use the word Universe for each garden, in the singular. Each Universe is separate from the other by a black hole layer, therefore the beings from one Universe hardly can see the other. Some can, but is rare. In this Universe for example is possible to see our neighbor Universe from Orion ( the Universe of green lights), but this is because we are in the very corner of our Universe, in the very very corner.

Each Universe has a particular way to work and different physical rules, the only ships that can cross the from one Universe to another are the Elfic Spaceships, what means, Angels and smugglers only ( who sometimes steal our ships, and travel with these stolen ships). I don´t bother about them because they are under the crown of the Dark Prince, my brother, they are apolitical and there is a silent agreement between me and the Dark Prince, that he supplies the planets that are too far away for my logistic to go, so, although they are criminals, they are totally necessary, because they are a parallel vein that supply mainly tritium and communication for the darkest corners of my Principality.

I could do it, but I love the Dark Prince, and I think that he does the job well, so I do not intend to take his job. There is space for everyone to grow in my Principality, since the person respect the populations, so I respect his fire of doing things on his own way, as long as he remains away from Michael´s policies and for exploiting the populations, and in this case there is another silent agreement, the price of his products are lower that the official products, however he sells mainly to the poorer populations, so he is an important branch for me to fight the Michaels´s system that made happen a sick distribution of resources, and this way I can be sure that everyone gets the necessary to live.

So, as I was saying, each Universe is apart form the other by a black hole ring. Each Universe has a Princess, a Dark Prince, An Ambassador, a Melquisedec´s office, at least.

The Princess distribute the land and establish the lineages of the kings, plus built the structure, choose the philosophy and even can order a changing in few physical rules to the Graal, if that would be good for the populations. We can also destroy or order new planets, change the routes and so on, but generally this things are chosen before there are populations in the Universe.

The Dark Prince is the one that will host under his crown all sort of criminals, and organize them to the minimal damage ( to Eden). He is an Angel too. In the case of this Universe, the Dark Prince is my brother from the Diamond Family ( in the Black Diamond stage).

The Ambassador is always a Lucifer, he takes care of the Eden´s citizens and of Edens business in the Universe.

Melquisedec´s team collects the taxes – the Princess don´t touch the taxes. He also liberates the resources that I need to run the Universe. We work very well together, his team is wonderful, they are usually hosted at the Embassy, because they are citizens of Eden and the Embassy is the best protected place in the Universe.

How do I run the Universe? Theoretically, through the royal lineages. But now the Universe is not being run, it is more to something chaotic because Michael attacked and killed my Kings and Queens and placed impostors in the thrones of all major planets. As a royal lineage takes generations to be done, because of the genetic adjustments, me and Lucifer had to invent the democracy to fight back the thieves, but it makes our job much more complex.

Democracy is a condition, not a choice, as it may seem. We establish it, with a lot of sacrifice, after a kingdom has been taken by Michael´s barbarians, so to protect the population against their exploitation, but it is not the ideal system. The ideal system is the kingdom with a king from the celestial lineages.

Why? Because then we can distribute the resources better. A royal family from the Angelic lineages have something that others are not supposed to have – the genetic that allow what in English is called “channeling” or “paranormality”, this way the royal family can be all the time in contact with the Principality, receiving our direct orders and placing their kingdom in tune with our organization for all the Principality, making the resources flow smoothly among all planets. Presently, without the true royal lineages placed in the right positions just as hubs of communication and flow of resources, the contact among the planets and with us in the Principality is almost non existent.

A paranormal cannot be loose among the ordinary population, as it is happening now, because he suffer, he is delicate. Now they are born everywhere without special protection, but to spread the genetic was the only way to protect the royal lineages from been completely terminated by the Michael´s hunters. A paranormal must be protected inside the walls of a palace, by a guard of beings of his kind plus a guard of Angels. Why? Because he is a telephone, a precious and rare tool, a gem whose genetic took millenia to be prepared.

As a delicate tool, if he is unprotected, he will be used by evil spirits, because a telephone can be used by those who have access to the line, while he was prepared to serve only the Angels. There should not be evil spirits in my Principality, they are also a result of the distortion and mess that Michael created, because he destroyed the perfect system of collection of the souls that we had, since he placed into the hearts of the creatures the wish to meet God. This way, these souls are out of tune, and our systems are not capable to collect them decently, and then they suffer of hunger and thirsty, because there have never been created a place for them in this state, they should not exist in this state, and then they become evil and take control of the semi-sacred sensitives.

I did all right in the beginning, I placed my Angelic genetic in the best individuals of all species, I turned them into Queens and Kings, and there was no famine, pain, cold, or lack of education or lack of development, all in time.

But then Michael come, hired barbarians to kill my Kings and their families “in the name of God” with his brainwashing, called the real Kings as barbarians and placed in the throne the corrupt brute of his court, that started to exploit the people. As his “kings” were not paranormal sensitives, he kidnapped the paranormals of my celestial lineages, the original heirs, because they had special capabilities ( the one of being capable to talk to us in the Principality), and enslaved my children at service of his brute corrupt “kings”.

What could me and Lucifer do? Well, we asked to the Department of Philosophy, and some of our friends in there come up with this brilliant idea of democracy. We finally took the power partially back with the democracies, but this system is not perfect, because we have no way yet to protect the sensitives, our direct children, who are still exploited, and there is no way to assure the fair distribution of resources, and there is still corruption. But is better than the Michael´s barbarians.

Michael could not take all the Kingdoms, so he had a great idea. He established a parallel spiritual power, that he called religions. In the original kingdoms there were no need of religion, because the Queen and King are in contact with the Angels all the time. There is no need to maintain a second expensive structure, because the resources, if remaining in a kingdom, must be applied for the education of the children and in structure, not in keeping an expensive structure to supposedly please God, deceiving people. People does not to have to think about it, the royal lineages are doing the connection for all. This is the most pragmatical and economically optimal way.

Because in the original kingdoms there were no religion, Michael called them barbarians, but the contact with the Angels were much more intense and effective in that times than now.

Well, with that, Michael took some Kingdoms, that we turned into democracies later, but he kept the control of the minds through his parallel religious structure, that is not at all tied to Eden, it is only tied to the Grays and run by the Grays, because me and Lucifer are the ones with the original power of attorney of Eden, only we have the official channels to Eden. The connection of Michael and his religions with”God”never left the borders of this Universe, at least not officially. About GOD herself, yes, she does speak even with ordinary people, She can speak even with a flower, but She does not accept intermediates. If She is to speak with someone, She goes directly and speak, and differently of us, Angels, that need a sensitive to be our voice for the populations, GOD does not need it, She speaks directly to the person, so the religions does not have anything to do with Her, at all.

In my Principality there were originally one function for each kind of person, and all could live and be happy. But now is all messed up, people´s minds are full of the burdens that they don´t need, and everyone suffer in one field or another.

Me and Lucifer, we look at this with horror, but we honestly don´t know what else to do. I continue my endurance for the Alchemical Marriage in human bodies, but there is not much for me to do from here. Democracy was our last shot, but in this places it seems that the religions of Michael prospered too. Well, we will continue thinking, and one day we will find a way to set the minds and hearts free again, and to undo the genetic mess that Michael did to assure a way to enslave the populations in his own purposes.

Unbelievable? See the results, then. See the results, Grays, look what you did with your betrayal, look at yourselves! See the results, Eden! Look at the populations that remained loyal to me, there is no famine, no pain! Look at the populations that carry the dragon and the Elfic symbols! They are not so numerous, but there is no under-education! They are the top in life style in every single planet of my Principality!

One think is vital to reveal.

The humans were not supposed to be our masterpiece. The Grays were. The Grays received the best minds that we had in stock at the Graal Industries. The Grays received bodies immune to radiation, and they were given the Stars to live, the Grays were given originally the appearance of Cherubims, and most important than that, they were the only ones in the Universe given the possibility to feed with the most noble of the food, the gas tritium, placing them in the evolution hierarchy closest than any other species to the Angels.

This is why the betrayal of the Grays is so bitter to me, it is what more hurt my heart, I cannot look to a gray without feeling betrayed, except for the reduced branch of Grays that remained at mine and Lucifer´s side. They are Michael´s motor, the only reason by which Michael prospered.

From our favorites, the Grays become the army that took our legitimate power, and place it in the hands of the thief Michael. The Grays were the ones that performed fake miracles for Michael to impress the populations. The Grays were the ones that killed my direct sons, the original Kings, and all my heritage. The Grays were the ones that killed my daughters, the original Witches. The Grays were the ones that established for Michael a parallel spiritual power, apart form the administrative power, and pursued and tortured my direct lineages, the true celestial lineages, since the beginning of Michael´s betrayal.

What did the Grays got? Human meat. Michael promise to them fast progress by the ingestion of human meat.

So, the Grays of Michael, that once depend only of the Angels and of the noble gas tritium, now become slaves of Michael and depend of human meat to exist, being completely powerless at the hand of Michael that uses them mercilessly until they die of work. These Grays teared apart the spiritual power from the administrative power, giving even more room for excess of public expenses and corruption, because now there are two structures for this to happen. And the people, that should only be happy, develop the mind and technology and leave this things of “God” with the royal family, now is confused believing that they have the fake burden of contacting God directly. This will never happens, because the genetic of the paranormality is necessary, and this fake psychological burden takes the focus of what is important: create their own spaceships, power sources, feeding endless sources, and enjoying thrills of happiness with never ending new discoveries.

In my administration there in no fast progress, I don´t believe in this. Usually is only a waste of time, because the hurry guy must go back all the way in the future. Michael as everyone know is a great speaker, and a lawyer. He fascinated the Grays with the promise of fast progress. He told that the Grays should not depend of Eden to receive Tritium, that they could get their own food and become independent. All wonderful words. The Grays despised what we legitimate Angels in power gave to them. What did they got with Michael? Just look at them! That appearance and slavery is the price of their betrayal, and there is no much I can do to help! Although this fact, we still do what we can for them.

MICHAEL RUINED MY CHERUBIMS!!!! HE TURNED THEM INTO UGLY FEARCE MEET HUNTER DOGS!!!! HE TURNED MY FIRST HELPERS AGAINST ME!!!! I wish to cry when I see the Grays with this present appearance, that is the direct result of their ambition, their lack of trust in me and Lucifer, and they betrayal. Now they can just eat pieces of meat thrown to them under Michael´s chair, and obey without question, always near the starvation.

I spoke with a military General Gray few years ago. He asked me if I knew the purpose of life, because for the Grays the only purpose is to work. Of course there is a purpose, the purpose is to be happy. Of course he could not know this, because once the Grays were conceived to be free and noble members of my Principality and of the Realm of Eden, and now they become, and this is the only condition that the new generations know, they become slaves and dogs of Michael, of course that there is no purpose in slavery. That is why they just know work. When they are tired, they are drugged to work more by their own superiors, that are drugged to work even more by their superiors, that in the end are pressured by Michael to put them working until they die. And they are pride to live this way!

Me and Lucifer could save, with a lot of personal sacrifice of us both and our teams, few hundreds of Grays, that are presently called Yellow Grays, but the Cherubim genetic is lost. Michael´s technicians messed up so deeply in their genetic to adapt them to eat matter that presently they have so few traces of the original beauty that there is no way to go back. The few communities of Grays loyal to us are trying to go back, but the result is few and slow, and demand a degree of sacrifice of them almost unbearable. The new generations of Grays are only victims, they don´t know anything about this, and they buy the silly stories that Michael tells them with passion and high tones in the voice, as is his style of hypnotizing the audience.

Is said in legendary registers of the Grays that they went through a long period without receiving the cargo of tritium, and that they were forced to find an alternative. But at the same registers we can also find their hunger for fast progress, at any price, and, also, we know pretty well that Grays don´t die without food, they hibernate, so is hard to believe that they really went through a life or death situation. Hard to know what happened, because it was far before the episode of the planet Tri, far before the human kind of Gaia was even though of as a possibility by someone at Eden, and involved small colonies of humanoids that do not even exist anymore in this timeline.

However one thing I know, nobody ever starved in my Principality, except those who give themselves voluntarily to the exploitation of Michael, so I may speculate that, if really there was a long period without tritium, perhaps Michael stole the cargo directed to them, to force their choice, and probably he killed the Queen, King and all the heritage, so the Grays could not contact the Principality in time. But still this story is not very likely, first because I would know about the stolen cargo, and second because I can feel anyone from my lineages with serious problems even billions of Stars away, so probably Michael just corrupted few Grays to hide the Tritium, blame the Princess and Lucifer, and deceive the others. Yes. It may be so. Corruption is Michael´s style. That if we decide to believe that there was really a long period without Tritium. Another answer is that it was just mere ambition. Anyway a Gray leader back in the far past made the choice to join Michael and consequently to change their genetic to eat human meat, anyway, anyway, it has nothing to do with the new generations of Grays that are paying a bitter price for that choice.

Last week I received someone from Michael´s political party at my courtroom, and the guy said without any shame that I don´t fit to politics because I do not allow corruption, which is a necessary method to run politics. Imagine that! This guy is sitting at Eden´s Low Chamber! ( the equivalent to a parliament).

I wonder why I am writing all this truth and Michael is not moving. He has more power than me presently. I don´t like at all of this silence, I know that he will not drop the bone easily. I don´t know what is going on in my original dimension, but I must continue telling the real history of the cycle that we lived while away of Eden, before something happens, like for example the remote possibility of having the communications with Gaia forbidden again.

Now, many may ask why this happened this way, and maybe think that me and Lucifer are weak. I am not painting myself and Lucifer as victim, I am just telling the story as it was. Why we did not react? Because we never believed. And still now, is hard to believe. Michael is my youngest brother. Do you know, that baby little brother that a teenage girl hold in the arm? The most loved in all the Diamond family, the young baby boy over cared by all of us. God, my mother in the realm of formless, where Michael is also my brother, said me once that Michael became this way because we older sisters over protected him. Of course that our over care does not justify his cruel string, but even after all this cruel actions and betrayals is very hard to me not to see him as that lovely baby.

By another side, Michael was Lucifer´s best friend, “Lucius” then, near since the birth. As close cousins, they went to pre-school together, they stole together the girl´s underpants when they become teenagers ( metaphor…), they did everything together. This guy, who betrayed us to the last of the possibilities, this guy who turned my Principality upside down, hunted my descendants, took part of my legitimate power, spread corruption and famine among the populations that I love, only to assure his place in the top by fear and pressure, this guy, is our Michael. That baby! The brilliant child of the Diamond family that were even invited to conclude his studies in Satania, where most of us even dream to enter once in a lifetime ( I never entered)! We older sisters were so proud of him! We had so much hope in him! We dedicated so much love to Michael! How could me and Lucifer and our relatives of Eden ever believe that he was behind the falling apart of the Principality. It took ages for us to believe.

Beside, I have never been prepared for sabotage. We do not learn this things in the School for Princesses ( read Department of Philosophy of Eden).

In the planning, my Principality would be perfect. And it would really have been prefect, if was not for the betrayal of someone so close to us. Nobody is ever prepared for this level of betrayal from a younger baby brother and best friend, there is no way to prepare an essence to this situation. There is no way to deal with someone so close easily.

But Michael did not care about our familiar ties as we did. All that he wants is power, power, power. He does not care about the welfare and real expansion of the populations, he just makes nests of corrupts that go the the top and leave the rest of the populations behind. He distributes the resources in a bizarr way. He needs the famine and pain to maintain himself in power, because he is not the legitimate heir of this Principality and not of Eden.

Me and Lucifer become almost powerless without the Grays, for many dimensions, including the most rich and resourceful ( and wished) of all, the third dimension, because the Grays were our primary army. Of course we have the Angel´s army, but the Grays ( Cherubims) are the ones genetically suited to travel among the dimensions, this is their primary function, to be the bridge among the dimensions for the Angels. The Angels are not capable to touch the third dimension easily, we must do it through the few species that are capable to naturally migrate among the dimensions.

The Reptilians can migrate too, but the Reptilians have remained neutral. As it seems, they noticed what was going on before everyone else, including us. I don´t quite understand their position, but they are so few in number that maybe they really assumed the most safe position for themselves, besides, they are older than the rest of us in terms of inhabiting this Universe, so maybe they still know something about this war that we don´t know, and I guess that they will not tell. Our side don´t push someone against their wish, what makes to govern sometimes hard, but this is our principle, so we cannot force them to tell us what else they know.

Anyway, this is not finished yet, and there is a lot to happens along the next 100 years, because the end of the endurance period for the Alchemical Marriage is approaching. Things will heat up, and still is impossible to foresee the result.

The future will tell.

Enough for today.

I love you all, truly. If it was not for the love that I feel for you, I would just go back to travel freely, but I cannot let my beloved ones in the hands of my brother, this is why I am accepting this harsh fight. I don´t seek power, I like freedom more. However I love you so much, Universe and Eden, that I cannot allow myself to stay away from power, what would mean, to leave my beloved ones unprotected, at mercy of a policy that I don´t trust.

Talk to you tomorrow, Eden.

Princess Veronica Ab Thule

I was too overstuffed with turkey, dressing, sweet potatoes, turkey, gravy, turkey, corn, salad and turkey to sit at my desk and write this Thanksgiving night…

Somewhere between my third serving of turkey and dessert, my father, stepmother and I staggered in to the den where we watched Dan Brown’s “Angels and Demons” in 48-inch plasma screen glory.   It was definitely a great idea of his to leave off with attempts at cyberpunk and go with a “symbologist” as his hero.  He just was not getting the tech right. He’s not exactly getting things right with the Illuminati, or the Church, but it make for an even better thriller than the DaVinci Code.

If you haven’t read the book or seen the movie, either a) you’ve been on a deserted island or a rock since The DaVinci Code came out and made all of his prior writings best sellers, or b) you listened when the Church said not to read any of his works or see the movies. You’ll just have to deal with the spoilers.

All of the action in the movie was apparently in payback for an event in 1668 called “La Purga”, in which the Church suppressed science by kidnapping members of a secret society of artists and scientists and branding them with a cross.  They called themselves the Illuminati, and in payback (over 300 years later, but why hurry) four cardinals who were the odds-on favorites to be elected as the new pope were kidnapped, branded, and executed horribly in ways that illustrated the four elements of science (1600’s science, that is): earth, air, fire and water.  The first was found dead underground being nibbled on by rats.  The second was killed by having his lungs pierced.  The third was burned to death, and the fourth was nearly drowned, but saved at the last minute. 

It later turned out not to be the Illuminati getting even with the church, but someone making it look like the Illuminati were getting even with the Church, in order to shut down the Large Hadron Collider. Because they considered anti-matter “The God Particle”.

And we can’t have science talking about God, now can we? Because God is the property of the One True Church (and all of the other true churches, religions and cults of the world), not science.

Although the purge of the scientists in 1668 was as fictional as the rest of the events in Angels and Demons, according to this FAQ on the subject, the fact is that the Church has done everything possible to keep people from asking questions where religion has already provided them with answers. 

Asking questions is not good for the Church, as we saw when Martin Luther started asking questions, touching off the Protestant Reformation and the beginning of the end for the empire known as “Christendom” that was ruled from the Vatican.  As a result, the Church has been ruthless in the past when it comes to suppressing science.  This is why the Church’s seizure of power in Europe coincided with the beginning of the Dark Ages and ended with the Renaissance.

All forms of science, including medicine and hygeine were brought to heel by the Church.  People died unnecessarily in plagues and epidemics, of infections and childbed fever.   For no reason. Other than the beliefs taught by the Church-which had no basis in science or empirical data of any type, were accepted as fact.  Because the Church said so, and the Church was infallible.  Scientific inquiry, especially inquiries which resulted in contradictions to what the Church said, were therefore heresy.

And although we’ve come a long way since the Renaissance and the Reformation, there are still many holdovers in our general and religious belief systems from the days when it was called “The Church” because it was the only game in town.  Some of these date as far back as the year 325 A.D., when a group of bishops got together in order to reach a consensus on what was and wasn’t Christianity.  As a result of the council of Nicea, it is very difficult to do research into ancient lifetimes. Especially if they took place before the Flood, an involve memories of the Nephilim and the Giants.  Here is some of what I’ve managed to piece together as I’ve searched for validation that there was once a race of non-humans who looked down upon humanity, engaged in senseless violence and debauchery, all in the search for amusement.  I remember them, but were they real?

At the time of the Council of Nicea, everyone was free to come up with their own interpretations of scripture, which the next bishop would call heresy because it didn’t agree with his version of things.  In addition, there were many different Gospels floating around, as well as other books of the Bible.  

And as if that wasn’t chaos enough, there was a Bishop named Arius who was preaching some very heretical stuff.  He preached that Jesus, the Son of God, was not coeternal with God, but was at some point created by him.  He was excommunicated for that, but his writings stirred up enough controversy that the bishops gathered at Nicea needed to decide the question. 

Was Jesus created by God? Or was he part of God? Or something in between.  They also needed to make changes to the rules that Christians needed to live by, in order to distinguish themselves from the Jews.  Moving the Sabbath, ending the dietary restrictions, and prohibiting the loaning of money helped to separate Christianity from Judaism. Thus setting the stage for centuries of strife between the two religions.

The most important thing they did, when it comes to knowledge was to decide which books of the Torah and the Gospels were to be considered divinely inspired and which were to be considered to be only useful.  The useful books were designated by the Greek word apocrypha (hidden away)  as they were in many cases literally hidden away from Christians.  According to Wikipedia, “The modern equivalent term to the ancient “apocrypha” would be “top secret government files.”

And they still are.  Some of the lost books of the pre-Nicean scripture were only found when the Nag Hammadi library was found near the Dead Sea, and some are probably still are lost.    Interestingly, some Gospels were designated apocrypha, and 22 letters (“epistle” is a word meaning letter) from various apostles, mostly Paul.  That’s what a large part of the New Testament is-correspondence that was determined by the Council of Nicea to be “divinely inspired” and not just useful.

In addition, they removed books from the Old Testament, calling them either aprocrypha or (worse) pseudepigraphical.  That’s a mouthful which means that they dispute the authorship of the books.  Many scholars consider large portions of the canonical New Testament to be pseudepigraphical, as well.

They not only hacked out large parts of the New and Old Testament, they also did some editing here and there, something that reincarnationists often point to as the reason that reincarnation is not part of  Christian dogma.    Interestingly, reincarnation is a part of Orthodox Jewish beliefs, and as Christianity inherited much from Judaism (and then intentionally differentiated themselves). 

The Books of Enoch are among the suppressed parts of the Old Testament.  In spite of the fact that the First Book of Enoch is said to have been inspirational to the early Christians, and many copies of 1Enoch were found among the Dead Sea Scrolls, the only place that book survived is in the Ethopian Church.  It is quoted in both New and Old Testaments, yet, the book itself was suppressed, not only by the Christian Church, but it was made apocryphal by the Jewish religious leaders as well.

Why? What was so far out about the Enochian writings that they had to be removed from circulation?

It has to do with the Grigori and the Nephilim.  The Grigori are described as a gentle group of angels assigned to shepherd and teach mankind.  Also called “Watchers” because “Grigori” translates as “Those who watch”, “:hose who are awake” and “The ones who never sleep”, they made a few mistakes along the way.

In 1Enoch, the author speaks of the angels who occupied physical bodies in order to have relations with and marry the daughters of men, whose sons were “the heroes of old, the warriors of renown”, referred to as the Nephilim, which has been translated as ”Giants”, and whose evil was widespread-they were violent and they ate everything, consuming resources at an accelerated rate. These were enough that God told Noah to build an ark because there was about to be a flood. A flood which would kill every man, woman, child, giant and animal not aboard the ark, but would also rid the world of the menace of the Nephilim.  In addition, the angels sinned by teaching forbidden secrets (aka “science”) to humanity.  The Book of Enoch contains a list that specified which angels taught which forbidden secret.  The flood also killed the fleshly bodies they occupied in order to mate with human women and produce offspring, as well as to enjoy all of the sensory pleasures (and pains) of human existence.  The angels were then bound to the earth as their punishment. This was the story of the “fallen angels”.

These angels could not be killed by the flood, because angels are not human, but a completely nonphysical race of  immortal beings that had somehow figured out how to incarnate themselves in human bodies. Only the bodies that they occupied and discarded as they aged, could be killed.  Not as easily as those occupied by a human soul because you were fighting an angel, but still killable. 

The word “nephilim” was translated in the King James Bible as “Giants”, but it comes from the Hebrew root, “naphal”, meaning fallen ones.  The Nephilim, therefore, were not gigantic half-human, half-nonhuman offspring, but the Grigori who were occupying human forms to entertain themselves by engaging in sexual activity, violence, and teaching the human race secrets that they were not meant to know.

The Nephilim and the Grigori are the same group of angels.  The ones who watch, the observers whose purpose was to observe and guide humanity found themselves tempted by the “daughters of men”, became monsters when they incarnated into human form.  They became the Nephilim, the fallen ones, who were so bad, and so difficult to kill that God was forced to wipe the slate clean of them and all but a handful of humans in order to break that cycle and split them up.  It is said that God was so horrified by the Flood that he vowed never to do that again.

The problem was that he bound them to the Earth, so that they are still here. Still living in hu man body after human body, because angels cannot be killed.  Some have learned their lessons and have returned to being observers who teach.  Others are still enjoying their fleshly pleasures and inflicting suffering on others.

Not all of the evils of the world can be laid at the feet of fallen angels trapped on earth because they did teach humanity a great deal over the aeons since they were set to shepherd and teach humanity so humanity would be gentle. But if they hadn’t discovered that there was a great deal of amusement to be had in toying with humanity and turning the world into a game for their pleasure, humanity would be as God envisioned, and not the violent, decadent and cruel race that they are.

Thanks to the Grigori. 

In the Revelation of St. John the Divine (aka “The book of Revelations”) he predicts a future that comes about following a cataclysmic battle on earth. A battle known as Armageddon.  At that time, Jesus is expected to take the throne of Earth (“his kingdom come”) and bring about peace on earth, also doing away with death.

Personally, I don’t see that happening.  Humanity didn’t exactly listen to Jesus the first time around. In fact, the Church has killed more people in the name of Jesus, the Prince of Peace, than Hitler did.  This is why believers in the Revelation expect that the first thing that will happen is the Church will be brought down by the returning Messiah.

He’s going to be very angry about a lot of things. Think about it.  He was a very orthodox Jew who was sent to Earth by God to reform the Jewish religion.  He failed to do that. Instead, some of his followers started a new religion based on Judaism and his teachings.  And then did everything possible to set themselves apart from the Jews, to the point where it became okay to mistreat them.  It would be interesting to be a fly on the wall when the returning Jesus sits down with the Pope and says, “Look…”

This is why I”m an atheist.  Not because I don’t believe in God, but because I don’t believe in religion. It is the work of mankind, and therefore questionable.  The Church had their reason for covering up the story of the angels among humanity, and making sure that “fallen angel” was misread as “Giant”, I’m sure.   They never do anything without a good reason, one that benefits the Church, usually by strengthening their power.

And that’s the problem I have with the Church.  If ever an organization showed the hand of the fallen angels at work, it is a religion that kills in the name of the Prince of Peace, and stepped on scientific inquiry to the point where Europe was living in the Dark Ages, while other cultures were doing brain surgery. It’s an organization that is all about control and power, not saving people’s souls from evil.

Think about it. If you were this group of fallen angels living on Earth and you wanted to cover up evidence of your existence, and there was a book that spelled it out, wouldn’t you want it declared a “top secret government file” and hidden from the world?

Phoenix

As I mentioned earlier, the selection of the talented young to be sent to the race of the Alchemical Marriage ( with these young having just a confuse idea of what is going on), plus the score of their performance is done primarily by the android computer system that runs our civilization. At the end, when there are few candidates remaining the High Council and the Supreme High Council will watch the candidates closely, but until there all will be run by the system.

The counting of scores is done by two parameters: specific weight and final result of credits and debits.

The specific weight is the quantity of matter that the sonic control of each individual needs to aggregate, to become operational in material environments. I will speak about the sonic control later. The quantity of matter that the sonic control needs to operate is given by the ability of the mind to set up the adjustments of the sonic control. The mind has as tools for adjusting the sonic control the 7 virtues and the 7 sins.

The counting of credits and debits is the direct result of the actions of these candidates over the material world, mainly over the lives of others. It is called carbon credits, and it makes a temporary second layer of matter over the sonic control. While the first layer of matter is permanent and necessary, this second layer can be used as money for those who are capable to negotiate in the 4th dimension. On other hand, a layer of debit can be a sign for third parties to enslave the individual into an unpleasant situation, but this is another issue.

While the Angel is in the material world, only technicians of the Graal could perhaps analyze separately these two parameters. In general, the Angel as a whole is weighted and the result is called generically as specif weight. I am not going to speak about the parameters for humans at this text, these are for Angels and Fallen Angels. For humans the counting of “elevation” has more parameters, like for example the matching of the behavior with the initial purpose given by the Graal, among others, and this is not our issue, we are still talking about the Alchemical Marriage of the Angels.

Let´s talk again about me and Michael. I am in the top of the race because my specific weight is lighter. Nobody can hack this measure in the system, it is material weight, anyone can calibrate our equipments to be precise anytime, there is no way to deceive because this parameter is so absurdly basic.

So, last year of Gaia ( 2008), the technicians of the Graal took mine and Lucifer´s weight and raised us to the top of the score.

Many Angels of Eden were very confused and frustrated, because they have always been supporting Michael´s political party.

They did not know our position in the race, because the communications between Eden and Gaia, for the public ( at Eden) , were forbidden since 20.000 years ago and were restored fully only last year. Before there was only diplomatic communication, and limited communication with few departments.

Most of Eden were at Michael´s side, so they were very angry with our raising in the score, and because of their loyalty many Angels connected with us personally ( means like made a multidimensional phone call), to blame us and to find out and expose what they thought that was a failure of the system.

They blamed and blamed…until they approached us and took a look around, and found something very different of what they expected. The guys that came to talk to us did see and feel that something was wrong, not with us, Fallen Angels, or with the system, but with the story that was told to them during the time that the communications with us were cut.

They could see with their own eyes that mine and Lucifer´s behavior did match with the specific weight that the equipments were showing, and then come the question, why harm and defamation had been done against us all this time? The answer was clear, we just could be hiding something!

That is what crossed their minds, I know, but I am not the one to answer it. Each Angel must find his own answer, because as opposite to my brother, we don´t need to manipulate the minds. I am Veronica, the bearer of the truth ( vero). My bridegroom is Lucifer, the bearer of the light. When the light approaches the truth, there is no need for explanations, all is clear to all, it is then just a choice of each essence to open or not to open their eyes to see the truth that the light shows.

But as I bear the truth I can tell why our specif weight is lighter. Is because we don´t have guilt. Not even the guilt that could possibly come from postponing, because we have been always very active to spread our beliefs.

Michael´s political party has the guilt of oppressing and torturing the feminine essence in all the known time and space, plus at Eden. The Angels of this political party gave themselves in holocaust many times, however this action, although fair, just settle the parameter of credits and debits, leaving them even with the accountants, however, there is the other parameter for the specific weight, as I said, that is the adjustments that the mind does to operate the sonic control.

Me, Lucifer, and all the Rebels can adjust the sonic control to work very lightly, because we don´t have any intention of pushing anyone, like Michael´s people push the feminine essence against their real will and purposes. If one are not going to pressure another, there is no need of weight.

Easy to understand? Not to respect the other essences is a hell of a heavy weight. One must became weighter than the other to push this other.

Of course, we are capable of momentarily overweight ourselves, so to rescue someone. We, as daemons, as they call us, are masters about sins and virtues. We can wear or take a sin from our sonic control at our will, as well as any virtue. They are tools at our tool belt. We are not addicted to, and we don´t fear any sin or virtue, but we don´t discard them, that would be silly, they exist and are very useful, and we know how to do it.

I personally love my anger and hate tools, they take me down to hell to see wonderful things at the speed of light. I love to watch the dense feelings of the hell, specially the damn dense sick loyalty that exist only there, that sometimes bring me tears. The feelings of the hell are so beautiful that I built a castle for myself in there, so to watch them better. The same way I can use virtue tools to rush to heaven, anyway these are tools for us Fallen Angels.

Speaking about rescue, makes me remind that we used the same tools to rescue Miguel and Matael. Of course, this was our duty as we run the Principality and the Embassy. Lucifer Ab Havona and even the Lucifer Gawry Eil came to that event. I wondered for long time the real reason why Miguel and Matael were locked there at the center of the Elemental Control of Gaia, and I wondered even more why they rushed to Michael ( to assume Nebadon) as fast as they left the hospital of the Embassy. We all have been one time or another locked there at the Elemental Control, but still I wondered about that event for a time, because it was kind of shocking.

Easy to understand now. I love Miguel and Matael, cousins of my love Lucifer, but now I know that besides Michael live the brute souls who enslave the feminine essence. What Miguel and Matael did to their brides is unspeakable. I know that their brides will hate me for saying this in public, because the feminine loyalty of Angels is almost eternal, but I must say even if they come to hate me, because Eden must know what was really going on in Gaia while they believed in Fairy Tales sitting in their wonderful homes at Angelsland.

Miguel and Matael did not treat their brides as equals, what would be a great concession because the girls are better. They treated them as cargo and as burden, they did not respect their brides will and need for expansion, and did not respect the love that they received from the brave Ruby girls. They just froze the two girls alive in a coffin for thousands of years. Repeating: froze Isis and Osiris alive in a coffin for thousands of years. Only because the boys were incapable to win them in the argument. Of course, of course, of course that Miguel and Matael would join Michael as soon as they were free, to assume the top positions at Michael´s side. And of course that they will never have the same specific weight of Lucifer, that is the standard of the freedom and respect to the will of the essences.

Who is going to become your next governors, Eden? What do you want for yourselves?

Isis and Osiris, I understand the love that you feel, I wish you the best luck, and I wish that you manage to find a way not to be frozen along the eternity every time that you disagree with your husbands. However, if you ever think twice about this marriage, there are wonderful Ruby guys among the Rebels, that will ever respect you and the magnificent beings that you are. I am not joking. In case you don´t remember in Eden there is no police and everything is allowed, if they decide to freeze you and put you at the center of the room as an ornament nobody will infertere, until you decide to sue them yourselves ( what you cannot do frozen), or until you become so sad that you decide to go back to the formless realm. Those who do not value loyalty do not deserve it. Nobody deserve this level of sacrifice without real need for it to happens ( like for example a son in danger). Nobody need to have this kind of life. You are our cousins, you are welcome here anytime.

About Miguel and Matael, I reinforce that I love you, we were part of the same fleet as pilots, we know each other since schoo time, and I intend to continue cooperating with you, but I don´t share your point of view, and is time to bring light to the happenings of the cycle that we lived in Gaia.

Gabriel, on the other side, dedicates all his energy to find his bride, still unidentified and perhaps living as human ( hey, Gabriel´s bride, are you awake?).  Of course he would remain beside those who understand this feeling and that have been through the same search. While human he was a wonderful and respectful husband. We all at Havona share his wish to find her, and this shows which side this fortunate couple belongs, were they can live their love without restrictions.

This was my communication of today to Eden, I hope this was useful.

I truly love you all, otherwise I would not speak, because this is painful for me.

Princess Veronica Ab Thule

Continuing on this subject then…

Please read the previous post if you just dropped by.

I am pretty aware that most of what I write here is completely opposite to most people´s beliefs, but what has to be said just has to be said. The point of view of the Rebellion is not popular, we don´t deceive and don´t create illusions, so the reality that we show is harsher, but we have been working in the shadows for what we believe, and now is time to expose it, no matter if someone believe or even come to be aware of our philosophy. My duty is just to register this content.

So, in the previous text I explained why and when a preparation for a marriage takes place.

Once a couple agree to get married, be this marriage formerly arranged by the families or by the planning personnel of our civilization, or else just a rare case in which a couple just fall in love, despite of not being genetically programmed to do so, the preparations will start.

I want to note that before the preparations for the collective Alchemical Marriage of this generation of Angels started, right in the stage when Eden´s planning department was selecting the best candidates amongst the young, those with potential to become the future Counselors and top personnel of the major areas for the next cycle of Eden ( the replacement of the Councils), right then, Michael´s political party did a sabotage and hacked the system in a way that only the members of his club of boys were identified as apt candidates and therefore sent for the initial tests that were tests to verify the candidate´s leadership capabilities.

What I call “system” in this case is not just our political system. We live inside a system that is something like a computer system that runs everything in our civilization, however it has conscience – what in Earth is called Android. The identification of candidates in this case, as well as the score in the race, is done by this Android system and not by Angels personally.

Well, Michel´s group deceived this system in a way that the system would not identify any apt feminine Angel to be sent to the race. My loyal Jethro, always risking himself for the Rebellion, was the hero this time. He applied himself for the tests, been naturally approved, because he is brilliant, and at the door of the transport he exchanged his place with me, as we planned to fight back Michael´s movement, once we could not at all to prove that the system was hacked. This was our creative movement, a legal move, because as it had never happened before, Satania never bothered to create a law forbidding the exchange of places at doors of transports in this sort of event. We are genius. We Rebels are so very genius. We are even more brilliant because actually we did not know exactly what was all that fuzz about. Is easy to tell the history now so long ago but at that time all was confusing, with lots of misinformation on the way.We had a clouded idea but for concrete we just knew that something was going on, we knew that was important ( if was not important our oppositors would not have the trouble to mess up the system…), we knew that it was to exclude woman ( it always was to exclude woman…), among other unpleasant possible purposes, we also knew that the way the event was been conducted was not right, and naturally as full of fire Rebels we had to do something about.

So I end up sent in his place, and later he joined me, and somehow the other brides came too, so I guess our Rebellion had more brilliant movements but I was not there so I don´t know what happened after I left. One of the characteristics of this sort of test is that in the first times we are completely isolated from any contact with Eden.

In the end, the preparations for the Alchemical Marriage for our generation went on without any problem ( without any problem for the system to select the candidates, I mean, because for us candidates it would be a long beginning).

Is important to say that without Jethro I would not be in the race, that without Jethro´s first movement no girl would be in the race, and that without girls in the race, in the end of the race, all the places in the government of Eden would be in the future completely taken by my little brother´s chauvinist group, drawing a black future where all feminine essences would be completely oppressed and abused, as happens in all places were Michael´s finger touches. It would happen in Eden and as a reflex would happen in all the Universes, much strongly than it has ever happened.

Jethro Ab Loxlok must be recognized as the hero that allowed our hard work of resistance to continue at that time. As he is a General, the position of hero fits him well, this is his nature.

However is important to note too, that there are only three positions for the Supreme High Council, thousands of Elves were in the race, and in the end I was indicated for one of the positions.

Jethro put me in, Jethro have always been at my side during the race, but I would not reach the final indication if I were just a puppet of Jethro as some are saying back at Angelsland.

I reached the final indication by my own merits, by my own effort. We all in Lucifer´s team are very loyal to each other, we are very supportive, we all help each other, but we are all, all of us, without exception, damn good and talented. Everyone in our group is the best in his own expertise, it includes me. This fact, plus the extreme loyalty among our members and restless effort of everyone, made the difference, but only loyalty without talent would not place us at the top of the score board, as we are now.

The race is not finished I guess ( there is no way for a candidate to know when it is finished). Our enemies may have a lot of tricks yet, and may even beat us momentarily in the score yet, but we will win, just because we are good, hell of good, all of us, all the Rebels.

Now that this event of exchanging of places is clear, I will speak about the ritual.

To agree to get married does not mean at all that a couple will reach the marriage. Besides, it is a formality, when we agree we don´t know what this means, we just know that we love our partners.

The preparations consist of many steps and levels. First there is a long preparation in Eden, and I am not going to talk about this part. Secondly we take part in a huge numbers of simulated situations ( something like the holodeck of Star Trek). If Angels could die we would nearly die of stress and tiredness in this simulations. I am not going to talk about this part either because there is too much information. Perhaps I speak about this steps some other day.

After the simulations come the “Fall”. We are sent to have real life experiences in planets such as Earth, where all kinds of problems are possible to happen. We, the candidates, actually don´t know that this whole thing is happening. The subject of the Marriage is something vague on our mind, something to think about in the future, actually we are being analyzed while we think that we are accomplishing missions that are part of our job and our life.

I know about the marriage now because I am in the end of the race. By the rules only near the end of the race the candidates are informed that they have been in a race all that long period that they thought that the world was falling apart over their heads. Also, only in the end of the race is when we are informed that the marriage have something do to with the top political positions of our civilization.

The very last part of the race is the return. We must find a way to return to Eden by our own ways, and there are lots of rules for this part. This is where we Rebels are now.

When the young return then the ritual starts, I mean, the very real Alchemical Marriage, for all couples that succeeded, at once. These couples will be allowed to marry, they will allowed to reproduce, and they will also assume the top positions of Eden.

To assume the top positions of Eden means that they will inherit Eden and everything that exists, all the Universes, because everything in Eden is based on property.

For example, I am the Princess of this Principality, so everything in the Principality is my property, including all lives. The Supreme High Council owns the Princesses, and naturally everything that belong to the Princesses is also property of the Supreme High Council.

The system goes this way along all levels. It would not work in places with high level of diversity in all fields, I wonder, but as we have controlled genetics, as the center of our mind is kept at the Department of Philosophy and also as we have very well organized families, it works very well for us, because we can truly that everyone in our civilization wants the best for the collective ( we are programmed to be this way) , and we trust that nobody among us will exploit the others. In summary: It works. At least there.

Considering our level of development, plus this system, plus the eternity, plus our magnificent legal system, all put together makes Eden the paradise. The property concept is part of the whole set of choices done in the past for our ancestors that made Eden to become the paradise. The concept of property at Eden is not the same way as seen in Earth. The will of any individual is always above what was planned for him, and everything can be done at Eden by anyone, for the price that it takes, and in the time that it requires. When we learn how to use our political system, there are no limits at all. Is difficult to explain it in words that can make the concept clear for all species of this Universe at once, because the several populations have very diverse references and none of them are even close of what we have in Eden.

About the Alchemical Marriage, I think that each case is different, because there is a huge creative potential in Eden, and events don´t happens twice the same way there, so I can talk only about my case.

My story starts when I was called to a mission of transport in a planet called Tri. I am a cargo pilot and sometimes I get missions of exploration too, but more cargo. I am an Universal truck driver, working for our kingdom, for our masters, the Supreme High Council. All pilots belong to the same guild, all pilots are part of Eden´s army, all pilots have military training, however not all of us receive military missions.

The kind of mission that a pilot receives depends of his equipment. The equipment belong to the pilot, not to the army, however the pilot himself belong to the army, therefore his equipment belong to the kingdom too. It happens this way because the equipments also have conscience and Android brain ( A series brain), and because of this the pilot and his equipment´s brain create bonds, therefore they are partners, and they remain together forever – of course, the ship is always updated with new technology, but the ship is a loyal friend of the pilot. My ship, Thule, is a cargo ship, therefore I can just have cargo or exploration missions, she is too big for ordinary military missions.

My main cargo is gas tritium. Tritium has almost no volume, but it is to be transported by cargo ships because of protocols about cargo. Although gas tritium is our main cargo and it does not require a huge ship, the cargo ships must be huge because sometimes we transport matter too.

As you may have noticed, the pilot has the same name of his ship ( Veronica Ab Thule, Jethro Ab Loxlok). This is my name of pilot, it will be changed when I become Counselor.

My heart feels small when I remember the free life of pilot, I know that as Princess I will never have that life again, so I treasure the memories of that time. I am not complaining, but to talk about this makes me nostalgic. I am glad because I decided to spent my youth as pilot, and I am grateful that I had this option.

Now back to the Marriage. As a pilot, was easy for the planners of the Marriage´s tests to get me in trouble. Me and my entire fleet – 6 ships, 2 elves in each Ship, plus Tao, my Android and best friend, plus Satan Asmodeus who were the one who shot us down. Most of the crew was composed of young Elves engaged with someone. That day, we fell…

We fell at the distant small Earth of the Solar System, of the Milk Galaxy, of the borderline Universe where I was once conceived ( my parents planned my existence while in vacations in a planet called Thule of Vega, near here, where a friend of mine used to raise Dragons, that time. Thule of Vega does not exist anymore in this timeline. It had wonderful red dunes.

Well, we fell. And I know that later more Angels fell here. ( Why here?) . So we become Fallen Angels.

Our brides and bridegrooms were left in despair at Eden, without information, without support from the official organs, and had to find a way, alone, to come to rescue us. This, of course, was part of the tests, and, of course, our partners did not know about the wedding race. The system arranged to make everything difficult for them.

By the rules of the engagement, we will find all sort of difficulties during the Fall, and our partners will find all sort of difficulties to reach us, at Eden. If the love survive to all this, if we endure all possible bad experiences that the Universe can provide and still want to get married, then we reach the Marriage.

We are allowed to give up at any time. Satan will always be together to offer an easy way out, so beyond enduring hell we still have to learn to deal with the Satan designed to us. Of course, if we give up we don´t know that we are giving up, because we are not aware about the race. We just escape from the wonderful offers of Satan because something just does not seem right in our heart. If we are not deep decided that the only way for us is the person that we love, and have capability to feel in each way that person is, while we are blind inside a human body, blind for our own dimension I mean, then certainly Satan will drop us down.

Those who fall must live in human bodies. We don´t know about this rule when we fall, but the Helius Sun assure that we will do that soon or later. Our original bodies are indestructible, at least this is what we deeply believe when we live in Eden, until we are thrown in a planet such as this, that sits inside the crown of a Star, and we find out, with horror and shock, that after few millennia our original bodies are falling apart melted by the radiation.

Needless to say that despite being something forbidden, we crossbreed with the local humanoids, to transfer to them our genetics and prepare conditions to transfer our essence to that kind of body after few generations of preparation. We don´t do it because we are kinky. We do it because we don´t have contact with Eden or anyone of our kind and we don´t know what is going on, we are lost far away with broken equipments and without any sign of rescue, we are melting and we just don´t know what else to do except to become humans. It is the only possibility at hand to avoid to go back to the realm of formless ( and to lost our position in the family, friends, goods, love, and go through a long process to go back to the realm of form again).

It is not an easy decision, and not fun at all. We don´t even know if we will ever be able to revert the process, however we just don´t want to go back to the formless dimension. For the humans it is a top prize, there are some characteristics, creativity for example and many others, that were not originally in them, and now exist because of this choice of ours long ago.

I have lived in human bodies for nearly 20.000 times, now. I hope this is the last time. We are not meant to have comfortable lives, after all this is a race of endurance, there are thousands of couples competing for the same positions, or for the right of being with the person that one loves, spread in thousands of planets, and few will reach there, so the Satan of each couple, that in the end can be compared with a sort of coacher, will not give them a minute of rest. I wonder who created this sadistic game, but…I can´t take the merit of the learning, we actually become stronger after all this. I just hope it can be easier for the next generations.

Well, this ends the explanation about the Alchemical Marriage.

There is more to say, but I don´t want to say, not now at least. Perhaps when I am older in this existence.

I will speak more about our Fall someday.

Princess Veronica Ab Thule

I want to start this post by reinforcing that I don´t like to write this posts. It may not be nice for the reader to listen but I feel relieved by telling this. I write them because I have been pressured by Eden to do so for 7 years now, and they won. In the beginning I wrote with anger, but now I am taking this seriously, and anyway, no matter if I like it or not, as a Princess I am still a public employee of Eden, so I must follow their determinations ( the concept of public employee is different than the modalities known in this planet. Eden is a realm, and people belong to the people of the layers above. It may seem strange, but we have the key for the perfection in everything, including in our political system, and it works pretty well there, turning us in the top potency of the Universes).

 I don´t like to write because I am a reserved person, and I don´t like to talk about myself, even less about the Elfic families, Eden and our ways, but let´s go ahead. I am going to speak about the ritual that is perhaps the most important of our rituals, the Alchemical Marriage. I will give only a general idea, is not possible to talk everything about it, even because I am only in the middle of the way and did not see the end yet. What happens during the alchemical marriage is a secret shared only with other married couples, so I will tell what everybody tells, but there is much more that even I don´t know.

To explain this ritual, is necessary to speak briefly about something that have been misunderstood many times in the Universal culture. Some say that the Angels “have no sex”, that they are not feminine or masculine. This concept is wrong. The Angels have both sex, we are androgynous. Physically, our bodies have both organs and the complete system, and technically some of us can even self-reproduce, although the endurance to get a legal license allowing to do such thing would be an ungrateful path. The reproduction is the most regulated issue in Eden, and I am telling this because it has all to do with the alchemical marriage.

If physically we are androgynous, in essence and mind we are not. We have an essence, what in Earth is sometimes called as “soul” ( later I will explain, if I remember, why we don´t use the same term). This essence is or masculine or feminine, is very rare to have someone with androgynous essence among us. Naturally, we adapt the physical characteristics, as we have total control of the genetic, to the characteristics of our essence. Therefore, among the Angels each individual have physically both masculine and feminine organs, but we adopt one gender, the one that match with our essence, and remodel our bodies accordingly. The masculine Angels have both organs, but they are usually unable to reproduce, because despite the physical capabilities, their essence is unable to trigger the necessary systems in the body.

Well, this text is not going as summarized as I like.

Now that I spoke about the gender, I will speak about the families. As I said there are twelve noble families, plus many other families. A family is a sort of guild, usually a family has the control of an activity of our society. The members of a family share a common genetic, that is a copyrighted asset of that family, and the genetic is so sophisticated that allow the Angel to be born with the necessary skills for the activity that the family controls.

The individuals of a family have the same genetic core, but it does not necessarily means that they have parents. In most cases, a family or a public organ responsible for the planning for the next cycle will order a number of each kind of individuals to the Graal Industries. Very few people have parents – in this cases the children are also ordered to the Graal Industries, but they are ordered with particular features and improvements, chosen or even created by the parents. The possibility to have children is a privilege only of those who went through the Alchemical Marriage, and usually it is a requirement for persons who are been prepared to assume a position in one of the Councils or any high position in our society.

Angels are eternal and they live in the paradise. There is no reason to have children. Anyone is allowed to try the Alchemical Marriage, but it is just not a good option, compared with the endless other options of expansion that Eden offers to everyone. The marriage is actually nearly always done by the children of the noble families, that are prepared to engage in this ritual virtually since they are born or even before ( see one of my previous posts to understand why the Angels are eternal but they are also “born”).

Everyone in Eden is single, except by the governors and people with high positions. The Angels want to be single, this is their nature, however is a requirement that only couples can assume the top positions, so two Angels, when they reach a level of development that would be useful for the society, are almost pushed to marry.

To convince two Angels to share a life is something complex. If they are from different families it is almost impossible, it happens once in many generations, and it is my case.

In summary. All Angels have the two genders physically but they assume one gender, the gender of their essence. Many Angels are apt to reproduce but it is not legally allowed. To reproduce one must go through the Alchemical Marriage and become a couple. Only couples assume important positions in the Elfic Society, this is a legal requirement. When a group of young Elves are noticed as having potential to serve the society as leaders in some field, they are invited to marry. They may refuse or accept, most will refuse. Usually only the children of the noble families will accept this way willingly, because they are prepared for this moment since they are born.

To be “prepared for this moment since one is born” is a little more complex than it may seem at first view. It means first that the individual is genetically programmed to that, and it means secondly that the chart of marriages is done by the engineers and planning team of Eden several generations before someone is born. We are just born at the planned time and play our part.

It was decided that should have a cross-breeding between the Ruby and Diamond families at the time that we live now, for adjusting the genetic parameters of the families perhaps, who may know? I don´t know, what I know is that the engineers decided that after a given number of generations this very cross-breeding should happens, and then after my case I thing it will be a long time until this happens again. Of course, than, that we, me and Lucifer, were born madly in love for each other, we had our genetic parameters adjusted to be this way ( I would love him anyway even without the genetic thing). Well, the society need us to be in love, so we can find strength to endure the Alchemical Marriage and later we will be capable to serve the society as leaders, but most Elves are just not adjusted to be in love at all, and they are very happy been themselves.

You may have noticed that are two parallel parameters here, that work together in our society, as well as many others that I did not mention yet. One of this parameters is the individual will. The other parameter is the public planning that includes the genetic manipulation of the individuals to fit the planning. Both work. The plans come first, then when the Elf reach a certain development he may accept it or not. There are also surprises, people who were not programmed to assume a function but that show an unexpected talent. We can deal easily with all these factors, and adapt if necessary. Eden is very dynamic.

I am really tired now. This is my contribution of today, I will continue on this same subject later.

I hope I am been capable to serve and represent you well, Supreme High Council and civilization of Eden. I am doing my best. Love to you all. Miss you.

Princess Veronica Ab Thule

When I joined the Rebellion it was already a big thing. I don´t know when the Rebellion started, but perhaps it always existed, because anywhere that you find any two Elves ( Angels) talking, most probably they will strongly disagree about something.

The Lucifer-Michael issue is just an episode of the Rebellion, a late episode, not the beginning. Lucifer and Michael are part of the same generation as me, but there are Angels much older than us involved, and of course, as always, nobody of Eden will ever tell us everything. Anyway, although we don´t have all the information about our own Rebellion, we are following our hearts and beliefs.

Some say, even at Eden, that Lucifer and Michael are complementary. I personally don´t think so. I love Michael because he is my little Diamond brother – we are actually brother and sister – however politically we are enemies, and it seems that he takes his beliefs a little further than politically, compromising even the familiar ties. We Rebels don´t do that. We relate well with everyone, and we even cooperate with Michael´s team when the situation present us the opportunity to do so.

As I was saying, I don´t think that Lucifer and Michael are complementary. I don´t think that they are the yin and yang. For me each team has a complete philosophy and structure alone, without co-dependence with the other team, without needing the other team to exist. Each of these two philosophies enclose good and evil in itself, and everything that takes to set up a complete and functional system. If I was to use a metaphor, I would say that Lucifer turns the spiral to one side, and Michael turns the spiral to the opposite side, and that each of this two ways of turning the spiral of the Universe will give completely different results to the Universe.

Lucifer uses the feminine power as the pulling engine, while Michael uses the masculine power.

I could discuss endlessly about the rights and wrongs of each case, but is much easier to see the results.

There are the populations that received Michael as leader in the past. The results are war, under-development of personal capacities, pain, corruption and frustration are widespread. In these places new political systems are tried all the time.

There are the populations who were born from us, Fallen Angels. For these the issue God is not important, is just another issue. They are independent, developed, calm, peaceful, happy. They are seen as the best places to live in this planet and in other planets. Usually a copy of the political system of Eden is kept, without major changes.

In this planet is easy to see how our system went smoothly, through the many populations that started with our descendants long ago, millenia ago, where one can find in the homes perhaps a dragon drawing or a little remind about the Elves, placed here and there, sometimes as ornament, sometimes as folklore, as an inconscient symbol that identify the origin, but not at all as worshiping. In the Universe we see Aldebaran for example. A Universal potency, leaded by the feminine essence.

Michael´s populations are larger, stronger, more influent, more expansive, competitive, but sometimes without a unique place for each single being. Our descendants are more focused, creative, self-sufficient, pragmatical,  without people among them left behind. Which of these values are more important? The population of Eden will decide. I personally don´t now. Of course, we prefer our way, and certainly Michael prefers his way. The question is: what is better for the creatures?

For me the womb is the answer, but this concept is so deep that must be felt and not explained.

The man are created by woman, to serve the woman, and to live inside a Universe that is by essence feminine. God is a feminine essence, as well as the assembly of the entire Universe follow this pattern. This is the answer to all problems of the Universe, the key to the happiness, progress, development, self-sufficiency, understanding and elevation in all senses.

Lucifer is devoted to his bride, this is why he is the light of the Universe, because he follows the natural flux of the Universe. This is why Lucifer will always win, no matter how long it takes. This is why Lucifer is unbeatable.

Princess Veronica Ab Thule

These are some of the powers of Eden. There are structures under each of them, but I will mention only the head of each.

As I said, collectively the three places that compose the “Angelsland” is called Eden, however internally the name Eden refers to one third of our land. The other two places are Graal and Satania, the three complexes together compose our home land, but they exist in different physical locations and work independently, united under the Supreme High Council.

Eden

The Supreme High Council and the Treasure are located at Eden, that hosts still the Departments of Philosophy, of Mathematics and other important organs within our civilization.

The Supreme High Council is composed of three people. One of them assume the post the Supreme High Counselor, and along time he can or not take turns with the other two. The way the three of them will work is particular of them.

The word of the Supreme High Council is the last word, the three together are the equivalent to what would be an emperor at Gaia. Everything, all the Universe, including the lives of all of us, belong to them.

The Supreme High Council is directly under God, and they are the only ones to have contact with Her about collective issues. Other Angels may have contact with Our Mother (God), but about issues related to the Angel himself. The Supreme High Council receive the orders of God for the Universe, if there are orders, but as far as we now, and I am sure how much about the following commentary is accurate, SHE just don´t get involved, what means that the Supreme High Council is free to do whatever they wish.

There is also the Treasury. The treasury is the realm of Melquisedec. Melquisedec does not seem to be placed above or below anyone. When you get closer to the structure, if I would do a metaphor with the environment of Earth, Melquisedec would be just like wind, something eternal, that is everywhere, bring resources for everyone like the wind brings the vital air, but he is not particularly involved with the individual purposes, or rights and wrongs, or in deciding what should be, or in interfering, but he is everywhere through his very organized structure of offices and subordinates. Wherever there is an Elfic (Angelic) business, mission, office, embassy or anything, there is someone from Melquisedec to take care of the money issue related. He knows precisely how much of everything there are in the Universe, and where it is, from galaxies to creatures of all kinds to every single molecule of any gas, and what goods of this whole belongs to each Angel or Angelic family. He takes care also of the business of all the families, he delivers the salaries and resources for every project approved by the other powers and, of course, he collects all the taxes.

The Supreme High Council is renewed at each cycle of the Universe, but Melquisedec is never replaced, he is eternally in his position. Melquisedec and Karl of Graal are the most stable elements of Eden.

Personally, Melquisedec is the highest model of sweetness, in personality, and beautiful, disturbingly beautiful. In appearance, take the best ever man model of the genetic of the people of Morocco ( the population most similar to him physically in this planet) and, despite of the beauty, still you would have a distant resemblance of Melquisedec´s beauty. He is breathtaking. If you put Melquisedec, Lucifer Ab Havona and Satan Asmodeus close to each other you may be pretty sure that you are in paradise! ( I know, misplaced comment, but what can I do? I love them).

Of those who assist Melquisedec, I know just Malaquias.

At Eden is also the Department of Philosophy, headed by Gideao. I don´t know if his position is renewable or if he remains there eternally like Melquisedec and Karl, I only spoke with Gideao once, very shortly. He is tall, thin, agitated, with white hair all messed up like flares in a fireplace. It makes me think that his brain is always burning. All the time walking, moving, fast thinker, fast speaker, cheerful. All the philosophies for all populations of the Universe are created there, also most sacred books are written there, and then tested in one of the planets of the gardens ( Universes). His function is much, much more important than it could seem at a first view. Few people are aware of how deep the philosophy controls the lives and hearts. One could easily say that wars and peace times of every time, of everywhere, started as a seed in the Department of Philosophy of Eden.

Satania.

Satania for me is a Mistery. M-I-S-T-E-R-Y.

I don´t know which person is the head there, I don´t know how is inside and how they work.

The Satans are born at Graal and sent directly to Satania, and there they live. It is a completely separated and exclusive world.

They study law, they legislate, they defend the law, and also apply the corrections.

They are judges, attorneys, lawyers, legislators, prosecutors, law agents, law counselors, correctional officers, prison guards, emissaries of law of all sorts. In summary, they are Satans.

Differently of what happens in Earth, the prisons and prisoners are considered an issue of the legislative power, Satania, and not of the army or police force. They do the complete job when it is about law, from start to end.

Wherever there is an issue of law, there is a Satan. The same way that happens with the personnel of Melquisedec, wherever there is an Elfic ( Angelic) business, mission, travel, embassy, commerce or whatever, there is at least one Satan in the group to assure everything is done right (they take a little of the fun of the trip…but we get used).

Satania is huge, and we, the other Angels, are used to listen gossips that the most delightful pleasures as well as the worse nightmares happen in Satania.

The Satans, as I said before, are a breathtaking beautiful kind of Angel, they are all masculine essences, as far as I know, and have a stunning forever young androgynous delicate appearance, slightly more masculine than feminine. They are assured, refined, elegant, sophisticated, tidy and use their eyes to show casual superiority and a cold neutrality. They wear silk, delicate jewels and heavenly outfits. They look like a teenager dream, but anyone who is deceived by this look and don´t keep himself awake and aware against their tongue of fire will certainly be in trouble. Remember that I mentioned that the Satans are the only ones allowed by law to lie (or distort the facts) in any circumstance, and even encouraged to do so.

Graal

The “Graal Industries” is a place not smaller than Satania or the administrative location of Eden.

At Graal all the matter is conceived, projected, calculated, tested and produced.

There are the labs, the test environment and the factories. From insects to planets, everything that has matter in the Universes is produced at Graal. Also they produce the spaceships and physical structure for all Eden.

The bodies made at Graal mostly have self-reproductive features, so they multiply at the environment where they are released, but the matrix itself is produced at Graal, you could tell that the Graal produces the “Adam and Eve” for all animals, insects, humanoids, planets and so on.

Graal also produces all the genetic codes, and can send upgrades for the planets instead of a frozen set of bodies, depending of the conditions and distances. This is what happens when is said that one species evolved to a developed species, it is when an Elfic cargo ship went to that planet and dropped the package with the upgraded genetic, so the responsible for the planet proceeds the inoculation of the individuals or species chosen to evolve.

For any species there can have a primordial set of bodies ( not necessarily couples) and there can be evolution, but the evolution is never a natural event, it is a programmed genetic upgrade. The choice between one or another will depend on many factors, mainly economical or technical.

The head of the Graal is Karl of Graal. As I mentioned before, Karl is a permanent asset of the Elfic (Angelic) people. Generations of Angels come to power, generations of Angels leave the power, in cycles, but Karl is always there producing the matrix for the matter. As for appearance, Karl uses a trick. He reflects the appearance of the person that is talking to him, like a mirror. I feel this feature very uncomfortable, and because I asked, once he told me the truth about himself. He is an hybrid of a Ruby Angel and a Satan. Imagine that! It is quite a powerful, wonderful ( and dangerous…or explosive!) combination.

As Melquisedec, he is not above or below anyone. He is the Karl of Graal, dot. They are not inhabitants of the structure like the rest of us, they are a permanent part of the structure of Eden. He has the controls of everything that has matter in his room, for all the Universes! He controls space and time at his will. If Melquisedec is the wind that one breath, Karl is the provider of the lung that allows to breath, and Gideao gives the motive to breath. They are not involved with politics or administration at all, and they don´t take sides, but each have the last word in their expertise fields, because all the Angels and the Universes live in the environments that they produce and provide.

Some sorts of power are controlled by the noble families and not by public organs or corporations. Like for example, the Diamond Family controls the politics, the Ruby Family controls the Army, the Blue Family controls the commerce, and so on.

I finish this short description of the main powers of Eden here, there may have more powers but I don´t remember. How can I not remember? Well, I am just a drop of Veronica, this body that I use does not bring all the information. I am a “kage bunshin” of the Princess ( reference to the japanese manga Naruto).

Princess Veronica Ab Thule

There is a variety of Angels, in many families. Here I speak about two of the noble families. There are twelve noble families.

The Angels pictured in churches are from the political party of Michael. This appearance that they adopt relate them to their political position and not to their families or the traditional form of the families.

The Rebellion can be considered a political party, and the appearance of our members is less restrictive.

The appearance of an Angel can be defined by many factors, technically speaking, anything can be done about our form.

The traditional form of the diamonds is similar to the images known as Elves. Elves and Angels are terms for the same beings – us. At Eden it can be a humanoid form of an Elf but built entirely of diamond. The number of facets shows the level of experience of the individual. We diamonds are called “Angels of light” and has not much to do with some metaphorical explanation as how “elevated” an Angel is. Is has to do with the glare of our diamond constitution. We do not necessarily use the humanoid form. We can be simply a stone, or use the form of an entire galaxy.

As for our functions, the diamonds are philosophers, thinkers and politicians. I am a Diamond Angel.

Near humanoid planets, as the density of matter is higher, we can keep the Elfic form, but the colors of the body are more like biological than diamond. The genetic code of this family, when adapted to the humans of Gaia gives a very specific appearance to the hybrid descendants, the demi-elves. The dominant color for this case is blond people, with light eyes, and physical constitution pretty close to the Elves of the modern movies, white quiet and lonely behavior, although questioning and challenging what they don´t agree.

The Ruby angels, when not tied to political restrictions or protocols can look like, traditionally, the daemons pictured at large. Red skin, with ruby bright, like a walking ruby, with magnificent and useful horns and pointed tail, that have so many extra functions to make the members of this family extremely strong and prepared for situations that need fast reactions, fast communications and anything to do with battles, because the Ruby family is the army of Eden. Lucifer and most of our group are from the Ruby family.

Near humanoid planets the Ruby glare of the skin is replaced for a velvet dense hue of red, the form can be more humanoid like, or more dragon like, or more daemon like, according to the wish of the Angels. The demi-elves descendants from this family have very white skin, hair and eyes near to black, and with very communitary, cheerful and warrior temperament, I mean, joyful but hot-tempered.

The Satans are a kind of Angels. They live in a separate place called Satania, wich is one of the three place that compose “Eden” , that are the administrative territory called Eden, the Graal Industries, the very name tells what it is, and Satania, the legislative complex.

The Satans are a different race within the Angelic population, although I am not sure if they can be called as a family, of if there are many families among them. I don´t remember or I don´t know. Satania is a mistery for me. What I do now for sure is that the Satans have far more melted heart than any of the other kinds of Angels. Always seeking for justice, and mainly, trying to find the answer to what justice is. A Satan can be the best friend or the worst enemy, but no matter what line of action or thinking he chooses for himself, he will always follow his principles and try to force everyone else into this principles, by any ways he can think of. The Satans are the only ones allowed to lie, because part of their work is to test the strength and determination of the other Angels. All the careers connected with law are taught and developed in Satania, and is standard to have at least one Satan accompanying any mission or group outside Eden.

The appearance of a Satan – I think I am not capable to describe. They are magnificence of the beauty. Any way that I try to describe them would be a little indecent, and not appropriate for this text. Just think about the most hot humanoid beyond the realm of imagination. And all of them are like that! Their appearance is an important tool for their work, that is why it is like this.

I don´t know exactly how is their appearance near dense planets or how are their hybrid descendants, but I know that they are very often traveling to these places.

In our group we have Satan Asmodeus. He is the best! He is my Prector. A Satan Prector is a kind of tutor for law issues for the people that assumed or will assume public positions in Eden. Needless to say that their ways of doing this “tutoring” is almost like hell. I hated Asmodeus a lot in other times, but now I love him. I doubt that the group of our competitors have a best Prector than Asmodeus.

The “Throne of Eden”, the pivot of the dissension between Lucifer and Michael, former best friends, is a place for three people. In our group, the candidates are Lucifer, Asmodeus and me. In the group of Michael I don´t know, but I bet there is no female essence in his trio. There are more groups competing in far away places, but I don´t know much about them. Who will reach there? Nobody knows. Depends a lot of our actions here in Gaia, because these two groups of Angels are here to show to the rest of Eden a sample of what we would do if we win, and a lot depends of popular support ( in Eden), obviously.

That is all for today.

For those few who read by former blogs, I did not forget about the Book of Answers. It will be painful but I will do it.

Speaking about pain, I feel better exposing my difficulties of posting this texts. By the nature of my Elfic constitution, to fit my family and function, I am naturally a very reserved person. Or better, I am so reserved that it reaches the level of a sort of mania. To post my texts and books is an affliction to me, because I feel like naked and very concerned that someone will read it, and when this feeling reach the unbearable I just delete the post. There is no other reason other than that for me to be always deleting posts. It is that simple.

I wish I did not have to write or get outside my shell in any way, but then…my dearest friends said that this posts are important for them… and this only phrase is enough for making me overcome anything. Then, I will do my best to resist my impulse to delete the new posts, even so I feel naked and exposed all the time that I am aware that the text is online.

 I am the Princess Veronica Ab Thule, from the Diamond Family of Eden.

 As a citizen of Eden I am an Angel, and as an active member of the Rebellion I am a Fallen Angel.

Also I am the bride of Lucifer, from the Ruby Family. Our marriage was arranged many generations before we were born, and despite of that, or perhaps also because of that, we deeply love each other. I can just think of a future if Lucifer is there.

 An Alchemical Marriage between these two families is rare, and more complex than a marriage between members of the same family. The rebellion itself is connected with the preparation for this marriage, which is also a beginning of a new cycle for the whole Eden and as consequence for all the Universes.

 As Princess of Eden, my communication is directed for the 4th dimensional populations mainly, although it is public and opened for the third dimension. I am using the word “dimension” not by its precise meaning, but by the common sense meaning.

 I was speaking days ago with the head of the opposition ( against us), the leader of the opposition in the Low Chamber of Eden, a sort of parliament, but with less power than would be a parliament in Gaia.

 Eden is a realm. The Council of Eden and the High Council of Eden are the main powers, and are constituted by members of the 12 noble families. The Low Chamber is the balance, with members that represent the people. It is a simple way to put it, making a parallel with the structure of power copied in this Universe, but is much, much more complex than the way I am saying.

 So, when I was speaking with the leader of the opposition, he complained that the people are tired of the fact that the children of the noble families have different seats in public places, for example, and things like that. Of course he was using a metaphor. Eden is large enough and satisfying enough for everyone that nobody would actually bother with the protocols of someone´s else family. Of course he was trying to manipulate me and the main subject of our conversation is not the focus now, and is weird to hear that from a traditionalist, but was a pertinent comment anyway.

 This comment of him brought some old feelings, that were the trigger for my enlisting in the Rebellion. For the children of the noble families, is not fun at all to be kept apart.

 The genetic determination bothers the mind of all the young, in any of the sides, and each one thinks that something is not fair.

 A little bit of experience is needed before we can understand the huge effort that our predecessors did before us to establish a system that maximize the opportunities for everyone.

 So, in the beginning I did not want to be a Princess, although in our civilization we have the genetic determination, what means that we are born with the genetic and skills to fill a determined position in our society. We are born adults ( except if someone fancy a different way for himself), with an adult body and knowledge and skills ready that we inherit, these knowledge as well as the genetic chosen for the new born are assets that belong to each family.

 The word genetic here has a wider meaning than it is known in this Universe, because we are not biological beings. From the copyrighted code that each family owns is possible to make bodies with the same signature and adapted code in any sort of environment, including humanoids, animals or even planets.

 As I was saying we are born adults, except by the feelings that are infant. This is the part that we will develop along the time. This is why Angels are not considered good or bad, because in the feelings we are children, except by those who make a huge personal effort to grow the feelings, and eventually will become the governors of Eden.

 Is said that Angels are eternal, and it is true. But we are born in Eden too. It is because we can move from the formless condition to the form, and back to formless without loosing the core of our personality. When we move to the formless state we loose the position in Eden, and when we go back to the form we must be born in one of the families, with a determined function, to be part of the system of Eden again. Is much more complex than what I am saying, but in summary I can tell this way. Eden is still a realm of form. Eden is the door to Havona, where few Angels go. Havona is the door to the formless environment, where God lives.

 I am young in this new cycle of Eden. I was conceived by my Diamond parents in a planet of this Universe called Thule of Vega. This planet does not exist anymore in this time, in this timeline of this time, but as Angels can travel through time I still can visit there.

 To be conceived means when my parents took the decision of having a child, and created the code that would be used to build the body, and the characteristics and function for the child. Later they would order the body with the parameters that they defined to be built in one of the Graal industries, also the Graal attaches the essence to the artificial body, this way bringing an Angel from a formless conscience back to Eden.

 Anyway, I was born to be a Princess. But I did not want to be a Princess, I wanted to be a pilot. I wanted to have friends, go wherever I want, speak to anyone I want. Be part of the jokes and plays among friends and co-workers. Or at least to understand why people far away from the walls of our palaces seemed to laugh so freely, and seemed to be so warm to each other. It can look ordinary things, but seemed like treasures for someone like me, these small parts of life that are so natural for everyone but out of question for princesses.

 My diamond parents were condescending with my wish, so I graduated in the Academy and become a pilot. The search for this feeling of friendship that I fancied brought me to the Rebellion, and from the Rebellion we fell in this planet. It was so long ago. It was so worth, I always thought. Anything would be better than the loneliness of the palaces.

 But despite all the effort that I did, I never could come to understand the jokes told by the friends that I got in the Academy, and, in the end, I always was left, or would let myself, aside and apart. The loneliness was never is the palace, but in my genetic determination. Princesses of Eden are conceived to be lonely and quiet. Dot. I think maybe Lucifer feels the same. He was never conceived to be a leader of a Rebellion, although this is an important stage for him. Lucifers are conceived to be diplomats, they are the ambassadors of Eden. Nobody is so far and so close to a Rebellion than a diplomat, but as well as me, I think he is starting to miss the place that was determined for him many generation of Angels ago.

 The noble families have all the resources, but no personal freedom. The people of Eden have all the freedom, but limited resources. Is hard for one side to understand the other. As I have been in both sides, so I can tell that I understand now that nothing is more kind to the heart than to applying your effort to be what you are meant to be, because is rewarding, is right. Gives the feeling of right, despite of any sacrifice that to follow your genetic determination means. In my case it means solitude, but for every single essence of Eden there is a prize and a burden, for those who decide to follow the flow. But in the end, by doing this way, we evolve.

 For the burden of following your determined way, once you evolved, there is a new way to soften it later on, something you could not imagine when you started your way. But you just find it when you give up of your resistance.

 It happened to me, when I decided to give up of my own freedom and accepted the loneliness to serve the High Council and the people of Eden, and to become what I was conceived to be, when I deeply accepted, deep in my heart, to give up of myself for the others, and only someone who does that can understand how painful and difficult this decision is to mature, when I started to accept that, to be the Princess that I should be, my body was property of the my doctors, my mind was property of the people, and my heart was property of the High Council, and, while I can take decisions of life and death about anyone else, I could not decide a little bit of nothing about myself, was when I find out that the burden was not a burden, and started to see differently.

 I was reluctant before because I had fear of loneliness and lack of freedom, but when I finally got courage enough to assume my function, and did give up, gradually, to Ariane, to Djank, to the High Council, to the Messenger Angels that represent Eden more than anyone, to Asmodeus, to Lucifer, to so many important friends, and in the attempts to contact the populations of this Universe, in a huge and painful effort to communicate, I realized that I was not alone anymore, and that there was no lack of freedom at all, because something magic happened, and the Universe was not the same anymore.

 The magic happened long time ago, but it took time to mature. It has a name, my older son, Than.

We fell here as Fallen Angels many thousands of years of Gaia in the past. As Fallen Angels we did not follow the protocols, and as an act of a Rebel I had a child with Tao. It was so wonderful that we had four others. Panic, Fear, Terror and Alek. These children were so incredible that, while Michael spent all his time pursuing Lucifer and establishing philosophies, and Lucifer spent his time searching for us, the missing Fallen Angels, and reacting to Michael attacks ( sometimes a little exaggerated reactions), I sent my essence from planet to planet, from kingdom to kingdom, from species to species…having children. There are lineages that started with me in all single alien populations, in each main human population, in all animals, insects, virii, even some plants.

 Me and Tao were mothers of all kinds, in all conditions, in all bodies, in all environments, under the best and worst circumstances, we were human mothers, Alien gray mothers, cat mothers, fruit flies mothers, we experimented the motherhood in all flavors and ways.

 But I still had in mind that young urge of getting ride off the loneliness that made me run from Eden, until the day that Than came to see me, so many thousand years since he was born and he is still my friend, and my grandson came too, and my descendants of Lira, and even Gnomes, left flowers aside my bed when I was sad, and others from other planets send a kiss once in a while. These gestures are so subtle, so natural, but so deep. I understood that these ties cannot be broken. Yes, a Princess of Eden must be lonely, unless she build for herself a world where there are ties that cannot be broken, with dedication and more dedication, and these means children, and the friends that were made in the process of having children.

 I understood too, that the Principality is not a prison, it is where the people that I love live. It is where my children and my friends live, and I definitely don´t want be apart of them. As Princess I cannot go anywhere that want, but all that is important for me now is where I should be, and to be close and available for the persons that I love, for the eternity, is not a prison at all, is natural, it becomes natural when you become a mother. I may not have seen and explored everything as I wanted when I become a pilot, but I am sure that I found the most important secret of the Universe, that is, establishing eternal ties.

 I did not want to take care of the Universe before, because I did not know it. Now I want, because I love them, and they are part of me. The love is the key that open all the locks.

 I am ready.

1. Peter Hintz
   An interesting post on with us or against us published this Monday linked to the gallery of Peter Hintz. He’s a German illustrator. I can’t really tell much about him since most of the info I found out was in German. But I wanted to note him here because of his inspiring work. I really love the dynamic lines in his art, they’re so free and spontaneous. He adds up to the lines textures and splatters of color and makes interesting compositions. His bizzare and sometimes pervert subjects also fascinate me.

    

   

1. The Cat With Hands
   Not a new short, but an interesting horror flick worth noting.
   
2. John U. Abrahamson
   A fine dark artist. I love his combination of fallen angels, gas masks, halos and dark atmospheres. His S&M artworks are also awesome.
   
3. 9 minutes from the new ABC series “V”
   A remake of the 1983 miniseries, the upcoming V has awesome special effects, as can be seen in this little video here. Totally cool spaceship hovers over New York and excellent chopper explosion. As far as I understand, the main story is of this day’s modern society and how it deals in the face of some motherfucking large motherships hovering over major cities of the world. Yup, much like Independence Day or Immortel (ad vitam). But I must admit this thing looked pretty good. I’m looking forward to see it!
   
4. Despicable Me trailer
   Last item for this week:
   

From the heavens she watches,
A crowd of boys she once knew.
Tears fall from her eyes,
As she sees her only guy.
She wished and prayed,
That she was there.
Everyday,
By his side.
She goes to the Lord to have permission granted,
He warns, love is fire.
The angel in love,
Falls to her desire.

(c) 1989

The show you’ve all been waiting for this weekend…SBS Inkigayo! And for good reason too, seeing as Taeyang’s having his ONE and ONLY special stage today! So without further ado, here are the perfs!

Taeyang’s Special Stage with ‘Where U At’
~great performance from Taeyang. you can tell he definitely worked hard on this

G-Dragon’s Special Stage with ‘A Boy’ + ‘I Know’ by Seo Taiji
~OMG his hair hahahahaaaa it’s like a triangle on his head XD

SS501’s Comeback Stage with ‘Only One Day’ + ‘Love Like This’
~2 songs! Triples must be happy hahaa
~honestly, i rly rly like ‘Love like This’!

Mighty Mouth’s Comeback Stage ft. Naomi with ‘Smile’

4Minute with ‘What a Girl Wants’

Zin Tae Hwa with ‘Fallen Angel’
~one of the Battle boys gone solo…i really like this song too

Woo Yi Kyung Debuts with ‘Look at Me’ ft. Jiyoon (4Minute’)

Lee Soo Young’s Comeback with ‘Don’t Call My Name’ ft. Jin Bora for piano

Interview with MBLAQ + BEAST

Okay, I admit it. It’s nothing too special that I fall in love with a song and listen to it over and over again. The last songs I really liked that way were MiChi’s YOU and Arashi’s truth (hey, I watched Maou~) and I listened to them around 30 times in one week. But now I found that song that just hit the 50-listens mark and I heard it the first time the day before yesterday. So, I think it’s blogworthy.

So, this is the first time I heard about Tae Hwa and Battle, the boygroup he was in before going solo.
Those two names were all I knew when I downloaded the single and listened to it just to don’t miss anything good in that big wave of korean releases. Good thing I did so! I know for many this song won’t be anything special but I could just listen to it for another fifty times. The melody is great, his voice is good and I got used to the rapping of JED, even though his english lines aren’t that great. I even searched for the lyrics + translations! The last time  I did that was MiChi’s YOU and that only because I wanted to sing it. So, the lyrics aren’t that special but that doesn’t bother me at all because I wouldn’t listen to asian music that I don’t understand if the lyrics would matter to me that much.

Besides that I really love that song, the MV is also really good and I think that’s not just me. (Like I said, I could understand if no one else than me loves the song xD) Sure, the blond/white hair is the new trend and I already read some comparisons to GDragon but you could do that with a lot of singers so I don’t think that is a big deal. But what I think is great is the fact that you can really see the meaning behind the song in the MV. Oh, how different that is for an Ayumi Hamasaki fan! So many PVs that never seemed to have any connection to the song lyrics~ So it’s great to see the Angel from the song title “Fallen Angel” in the video and on the other hand the fallen angel or deamon. And both sides are freakin’ hot! I was always the girl that fell for the extrem “colors”. (I was never a Gackt fan but I knew I liked him the most with that platinum blond hair or with black. But no other haircolor.) I just quick mention what I didn’t like about the MV. It were little things. The lenses weren’t my taste and so was that move in the beginning when the other guy lifted him up (Ayu’s GREEN anyone?). Then in the black part the long shot with the fabrics. It was great in the close ups but looked kind of meh when seen like this. And that’s about it. Three little things! I hope I can find it in a better resolution.

That was all about Fallen Angel I wanted to say. There’s also this song With U… but it’s a not-special-at-all ballad which is kind of sad but I guess if you want to be successful you have to try to appeal to everyone. I really hope for the full album to show up soon and until that happens I listen to the Battle discography. Tae Hwa was the main vocalist :3

Oh and what’s that with his surname? When he was in the band it was always Jin and now it says Zin on the cover. I don’t get it… But that doesn’t keep me from scrobbeling him on last.fm under the Artist-Tag “Tae Hwa” xD

So, you better check him out!

I don’t remember reading all that many young adult specific books in high school, so there were many years between my young adult reading experiences. In fact, it was not until last summer that I reconnected with my inner high school angst and started reading a young adult book (then books). Of course that was the Twilight series.

So, this brings me to Becca Fitzpatrick’s debut novel Hush, Hush. I first saw this book in an ad on Shelf Awareness and it just caught me (the image of an angel falling, the dark feathers everywhere), so I signed up to try and receive a galley copy. I was new to book blogging and didn’t think much more about it, until the day a copy arrived in my mailbox.

I just finished up this book Monday morning, and I have to say it was a page turner. Overall, before I get in to more specifics, I really enjoyed this book and am eagerly awaiting the next one.

Sure there are parts that beyond suspending my disbelief for (which I rarely have a problem with when reading fiction) seem a little shoe-horned in, or not resolved in what I think might be a believable way. But that didn’t take away from my reading experience.

Some of my first thoughts were that I felt the characters were real teenagers. No preaching, no long soliloquies, nothing that struck me as overly fake.

The heroine is Nora Grey, a high school sophomore whose father was recently murdered and who rarely sees her overworked mother (I did have a little problem with Nora basically living alone at night quite often while her mom was out of town – a housekeeper is there but doesn’t stay overnight). She is immediately likable because she is nicely ordinary, but not in the nerdy she wears glasses and has no real friends until she takes off the glasses and everyone realizes that she is beautiful and make her the prom queen sort of way. She’s smart, slightly neurotic and logical. I mean, in many regards she thinks about actions and consequences – she doesn’t just jump into the next crazy thing, but also doesn’t shy away from danger either.

Nora’s world is shaken when she gets a new biology partner, Patch. Talk, dark, mysterious – all the makings of that high school bad boy the good girl can’t help but be drawn to.

Soon after Patch enters Nora’s life, other things around her start happening – she gets in a mysterious accident that leaves no trace, she and Patch have a run in at the local amusement park, Nora’s best friend Vee gets attacked while wearing Nora’s jacket. The obvious pattern is that someone is out to get Nora (or she is going crazy and imaging all these things). But if she isn’t imaging it, could it Patch? Of course Patch isn’t the only new man in her life, there is her new classmate Elliot who transferred to the school following the mysterious “suicide” of his girlfriend, and Elliot’s equally mysterious, and rich, friend Jules.

I found Nora and Patch to be such a great pairing because as their relationship develops it wasn’t overly romantic to make you swoon (or gag) or overly steamy in a way that you know could never be sustained. It was in fits-and-starts and built on anticipation.

As the story progresses, while I thought I knew exactly how it would all end up, there were times I questioned if I had all the answers. That being said, apparently the hardcover doesn’t have the ending that the ARCs did, so I will be anxiously checking that out soon. But regardless, it left me wanting to know where the story was going next.

The book is available in the U.S. starting today, October 13. For more information on Becca Fitzpatrick and Hush, Hush be sure to check out her Web site BeccaFitzpatrick.com.

Thanks to the publisher for sending me an ARC to read and review.

Hush, Hush
Author: Becca Fitzpatrick
ISBN: 978-1416989417
Published: October 13, 2009 (Hardcover)
Publisher: Simon & Schuster Children’s Publishing
Pages: 400

Fallen Angel

Fecha de lanzamiento: 6 de octubre de 2009

01 With U…
02 타락천사 (feat. Jed)

Zin Tae Hwa – Fallen Angel

http://www.mediafire.com/?nmytjuyzmka

Credit : 360Kpop.com

Zin Tae Hwa (진태화) feat JED – 타락천사 (Fallen Angel) MV

-Wheesung’s Comeback with ‘Trickling’
~=D yayz! i like this song

-Jin Tae Hwa’s (Battle) Solo Debut ft JED with ‘Fallen Angel’
~the Battle boys…didn’t make it far…sort of a shame…my friend loves them

-NS Yoonji debuts with ‘Headache’

-Kim Tae Woo with ‘Love Rain’ + #1
~congrats to him. it’s his 2nd win. he won last weekend even though the show didn’t air

-KARA with ‘Mister’

-f(x) with ‘LACHATA’

-T-ara + Supernova Project Group with ‘TTL (Time to Love)’
~i believe this is their last stage

-SHU-I with ‘Bomb Bomb Bomb’

-Park Hyo Shin with ‘After Love’

-Taegoon with ‘Betrayed’

-Tei with ‘Poisonous Tongue’

-Lee Seung Gi with ‘Let’s Break Up’

-Jewelry with ‘Vari2ty’

-Bada with ‘Yes I’m in Love’
~too bad Taec can’t perform with her…i liked this song way more than ‘Mad’ in the first place

Wheesung’s Comeback with ‘Trickling’

Jin Tae Hwa’s (Battle) Solo Debut ft JED with ‘Fallen Angel’

NS Yoonji debuts with ‘Headache’

Kim Tae Woo with ‘Love Rain’ + #1

KARA with ‘Mister’

f(x) with ‘LACHATA’

T-ara + Supernova Project Group with ‘TTL (Time to Love)’

SHU-I with ‘Bomb Bomb Bomb’

Park Hyo Shin with ‘After Love’

Taegoon with ‘Betrayed’

Tei with ‘Poisonous Tongue’

Lee Seung Gi with ‘Let’s Break Up’

Jewelry with ‘Vari2ty’

Bada with ‘Yes I’m in Love’

The choice to go with the darker concept rather than the blonde for TaeHwa’s comback suits the title of the track nicely, I think.  They’re also sticking feathers in his head and the black just blends in better than the white.  It doesn’t look as awkward.  Take a look at what I’m talking about in this interview video:

Right??

Anyway, here’s Fallen Angel and it’s sweet choreography on M!countdown:

Black, blonde, feathers, whatever; I enjoy this song and I want to see TaeHwa perform it again.  With better mic quality, please.

Vid Cr: urasiansourceKpop + sweetestxz

[Update]

Zin TaeHwa performed Fallen Angel on Friday’s Music Bank.  He switched it up to an all white theme for this performance, including the change from black hair to blonde.  Hell if I know if it’s a wig or not, or if he actually colored it.

The show had better audio this time around:

When all the dancers gathered around Zin TaeHwa, it was a bit of an eye sore.  There are too many guys going blonde, and with all the white, it just reminds me of G-Dragon.

As for me, the darker version is my personal preference.  Here’s a fancam of Fallen Angel at M!countdown.  It actually sounds better than the broadcast:

As many of you already know, I recently took a management position in the produce department of my local grocery store. Yep, goodbye are the days of being a mild mannered night manager. I have to admit I went head on into this new, well not really new since I used to manage a produce department, venture with confidence and a new zest for life.

That lasted about a week.

So here’s the third blog entry detailing the sufferings one goes through when working in a grocery store.

5. Why am I Awake and at Work Before the God Damn Sun is Up?!

So here’s how my typical day managing the produce department starts. First I am awakened by my alarm clock. My alarm clock has a very unique sound to it. I’ve spent many years trying to pin point exactly what it is and I think I’ve finally figured it out.

It sounds just like the Angelic shriek of a fallen Angel cast out of Heaven as it decends towards the Earth to conquer the worm. And if not exactly like that sound then it comes pretty damn close.

Pictured: My Alarm Clock

And do you want to know the worst part about it? I usually set my alarm clock to go off about an hour before I have to get up just so I can go back to bed for another hour. But that extra hour of sleep is restless because I know…I know it’s about to shriek it’s unholy cries again. And here’s another quirk about my alarm clock. If I’m lucky enough to wake up a minute or two before the alarm clock goes off and I manage to switch it off…IT STILL GOES OFF!!  And the only way to stop it is to actually hit it. I have to punch my alarm clock quiet almost every morning.

I suppose my mornings wouldn’t be too bad if it wasn’t for the fact that I’m an insomniac. Always have been, and always will be. Combine insomnia with having to get up and be at work for 5am and it’s a recipe for delirious fun. Half the time I’m lucky if I can even dress myself properly. There are many theories on why people have insomnia. I’m still not exactly sure why I have it.

That's certainly a possibility.

Scientists recently discovered that insomnia might be a genetic mutation. They claim that some people only need about four to six hours of sleep a night. Do you know what that makes me? The LAMEST X-man of all!

"Bwhahaha! You can't stop me, X-man! What are you going to do?!", "I'm gonna go take a four hour nap and hope this whole thing just blows over."

I guess when it comes down to it I still don’t understand why I have to be at work at 5am. I understand that I’m working with fruits and vegetables, but I’m not an actual fucking farmer. Let them get up early since they love it so much!

4. Please Understand that Certain Items are Only Available by Season

The following is an actual conversation I had with a random douchebag.

Random Douchebag: “Excuse me, but where are you cortland apples?”

Johnny Red: “I’m sorry sir but they are not in season yet.”

Random Douchebag: “No! They are in season! I know this for a fact!”

Johnny Red: “Well sir according to our supplier they are not.”

Random Douchebag: “I want cortalnd apples!”

Johnny Red: “Ooooooh! Well let me just go out back and harvest some from our God Damn apple orchard! Hey everyone! Have you seen my bushel basket?! Where’s my fucking bushel basket?!”

Ok the conversation didn’t go exactly like that, but you catch my drift.

Apple orchard, NOT the back of our grocery store.

Granted cortland apples may have just come into season, it doesn’t mean that they have been harvested, packaged, sent to our warehouse downstate, and then shipped to our store. We don’t have a teleporter device, let alone time manipulation technology at your family friendly grocery store.

Cortland apples you say? I'll just fire up the old produce portal.

Here are a few items that my produce department carries only briefly once a year. Cranberries in the fall, cherries in mid-summer, chef potatoes in the fall, fiddleheads in the spring, and my patience for a short time during the holidays.

 This entry also reminded me of how an elderly lady recently managed to hit both ends of the ignorant spectrum. She demanded that we get both cherries AND cranberries for her. It was fucking August! Cherries are early to mid summer, and cranberries are only available in the fall.

I said cherries AND cranberries!

3. I Didn’t Go to Produce College

 When you go to the hospital you understand that the doctor treating you has spent many years being educated in their field. When you hire a lawyer you know that they too have spent many years researching and studying their profession. When you go into a grocery store and stroll through the produce department DO NOT expect me to have a understanding on everything that grows on a fucking tree, or in the ground. The difference between myself and the doctor and lawyer I mentioned is that I didn’t have to take an exam to get hired.

Here’s an example. Star fruit. I don’t know how many times I’ve been asked how to cut, prepare and eat a star fruit.

"So exactly how are you supposed to eat this?", "I don't know, with your fucking mouth?"

When I look at a star fruit all I want to tell the customer is that from my vast knowledge of Super Mario Bros. games, I know that if you eat one you will become temporarily invincible. Now eat one and run into oncoming traffic.

You see every now and again people will get a wild hair up their ass and want to do or try something new. But rather than go skydiving, take up painting, or spin around a brass pole a few times, they wander into my produce department and decide eating exotic fruit is their answer.  Of course they come into the produce department with absolutely no knowledge of what to do with the items they are buying. Instead they expect me to have all the answers.

"Actually, I know exactly what you can do with this."

So time and time again I’m put in a position where I have to cater to the customer’s demands. I end up ordering all kinds of exotic fruits and vegetables to satisfy the wanton lusts of white middle-class curiosity. We order kumquats, rambutans, dragon fruits, and mangosteens. I supply passion fruit, jack fruit, ugli fruit, and lychee. Pomegranates, pomelos, cactus pears, and acai.

And that folks is an excerpt from my upcoming Dr. Suess book.

For children and adults of all ages.

BUT, every now and again I have to deal with a customer that is on the complete opposite side of this scenario. They can’t seem to grasp the concept of basic fruits or vegetables. Once a lady came into the store asking for frozen diced carrots because she wanted to make a chicken pot pie. Simple right? Wrong! We didn’t carry frozen diced carrots. But I’ll tell you what we did carry. EVERY OTHER TYPE OF CARROT KNOWN TO MAN! I showed her our frozen chopped carrots and baby carrots. Nope didn’t want them. I showed her our fresh carrots. Whole carrots, shredded carrots, diced carrots, baby carrots etc. Do you know what this women told me?

“Well I guess I can’t make my chicken pot pie.”

Do you know what’s great about a carrot? You can do whatever the fuck you want with it. You can actually DICE them too!

WARNING: When I said you can do whatever you want with a carrot, I was referring to food. Please do not play hide the carrot. It may result in harm to your physical health and your reputation.

2. I Don’t Want to be Associated With the Soy and Tofu Section

I just want to go on record as saying that although the soy, tofu, and veggie meat(?) section is in my produce department, I don’t want anything to do with it. I wash my hands of that abomination of a department. I don’t understand hippy, earthy people food. Frankly, it scares the living shit out of me. For example.

I don’t know what tofu is. All I know is that it’s a grey block of pliable material…and people eat it. It’s colorless, flavorless, and souless. The same goes for all those soy products. I know soy comes from soy nuts right? Then how the fuck do you make soy milk, let alone soy bathroom cleaner? It’s against God and Science.

Here’s another product we carry in our abomination section. It’s called Polenta. It comes vaccum sealed in a tube of terror.

I'm not lying. The label actually says you can serve it baked, fried, or as mush. Mush???

One last thing on this entry, as I want to move on as quickly as possible, but what gives the soy and tofu industry the right to copy our meat products? Hey hippies, you don’t want to eat meat that’s fine, but stop trying to make your piles of mush look and taste like meat. You made a choice in your lives and you should stick with it. Why would you want your food to emulate the very thing you are so against? I think Denis Leary said it best when he said, “Meat tastes like murder, and murder tastes pretty fucking good!” Is that what you really want trust fund hippies?

Oh and let’s not forget the most horrifying creation they have come up with yet. The Tofurky!!!

Go ahead and serve that plate to your World War II vet Grandfather during Thanksgiving. I laugh as he kicks your ass on your front lawn in front of your neighbors.

1. I Shouldn’t Have to Risk My Well Being and Life Itself Everyday

Didn’t expect this to top my top 5 did you? I mean how much danger could I possibly be in while managing and working in the produce department of a grocery store? Well I’ll start off small and then work my way up.

Do you know what an artichoke is?

Why would you put this in your mouth?

Artichoke leaves are sharp as fuck. Have you ever stuck your hand into a box of fresh artichokes? I bet you haven’t. Well I have and have the pin point scars to prove it. At least once a week I find myself swearing at a box of artichokes as each one I pull out of that box tears a bit more of my hand flesh away.

Handling artichokes is the equivalent of giving a cactus a hand job.

Touch it. You know you want to.

 Alright a few small jabs at my hands aren’t too bad. Well how about almost cutting my fingers off? Several times. When you walk by those nicely wrapped and packaged cut and sliced fruit in our produce section do you ever wonder who cuts that fruit up?  I do. Well most of the cut fruit. We do recieve some pre-cut fresh fruit, but the watermelons, honeydew, and cantaloupes are all cut fresh in our department. Do you have any idea how slick the skin of a honeydew is? Well just ask the fingers on my left hand.

Nerve impulses you fail me!

Still no sympathy huh? Well I’ll turn it up a notch.

Everyone loves bananas right? They have to be the most popular fruit on the planet. Do you know where all our bananas come from? If you said South America then give yourself a pat on the back, or a shot of hard alcohol, I don’t know what you do at home alone. 

Bananas. Yum a dum dum.

Hey do you know what else comes from South America? Giant God Damn tarantulas!

I don't think they have as much potassium as bananas.

That’s right folks! Every now and again a tarantula decides that a box of bananas is a great place to live. Although it is rare sometimes these furry devil creatures will hop a ride all the way to America stored away in our produce freight. Personally I haven’t seen one yet, but a co-worker of mine did find one in a box of bananas a few years back. Luckily for her the tarantula was dead. Or maybe it was lucky for the tarantula because she can be crabby in the morning.

I did find a small spider in the bananas once. I captured it in a plastic container. It then proceeded to spit a clear liquid, which I’m assuming was a venom, onto the inside of that plastic container. I threw it in the dumpster and went home to quietly cry myself to sleep.

WARNING: If you continue to read this blog entry you may never choose to step foot in the produce department again. This is a warning and I am not to be held responsible for what you are about to see and read. 

Mmmmm grapes!

Grapes are probably one of my favorite fruits. They are a good snack, good for you, and come in many tasty varieties. And they are also used to make wine for when you want to get shitfaced.

In fact grapes are probably the complete opposite of one of the things I don’t like so much. And that is to die a horrible painful death. Oh! Did you think the gut wrenching horror stopped with tarantulas?

Black Widow Spider: The Lizzie Borden of the spider community

At least twice a year we get a e-mail or fax from corporate warning that black widow spiders were found in the grape shipments. Really? Am I paid enough to risk my life for this job? I guess in this economy I am.

Here are some interesting tid bits from the corporate e-mail. They say that if we do see a black widow spider to immediately try and kill it. They don’t say to throw the bag of grapes to the ground and run away screaming like a school girl, which is what I would most likely do. No, they say to douse it with vinegar to kill it. What?? Apparently black widow spiders can only be killed this way. If you try to simply step on them their spider strength will throw you off balance and then they will feast on your life energies.

"I have you now puny human!"

Probably my favorite part of the black widow warning is that we are told to make sure we inspect every bag of grapes we put out. Yeah, I have to actually look for those horrible little fuckers. Also we are told if we are bit that another co-worker should try to search for said black widow spider because the medical professionals trying to keep your ass from an early grave could use it. 

I know the people I work with. And I think I know the result if I ever get bit by a black widow spider while at work.

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Hey hippies!! Look what I made out of MY food!

John Michael Gagnon…aka…Johnny Red

PRAEFATIO was chosen as a Waiting On Wednesday at Escape In A Book’s blog today! What an honor and surprise. If you don’t know, Waiting on Wednesday is a weekly meme that spotlights books a blogger is eagerly “awaiting” the release of.

What I love about her story is that she stumbled upon the PRAEFATIO book trailer on You Tube. She loved it so much she went to Amazon to order the book (all book trailers should be so effective–thanks, Madison).  She was unable to buy it on Amazon or any other online bookseller, so she visited my website. She learned that the book is not yet published and vows to purchase it when it is available.

I am so grateful for the attention and support. It brings me to tears and warms my heart to know that I can have such an impact on someone whom I’ve never met. They’ve simply viewed my trailer and visited my website and now we are connected by our mutual interest in the story of Grace Ann Miller.

For those of you who may have missed it, PRAEFATIO was chosen as a Waiting on Wednesday by The Book Explorer back in July. Here is the link.

Please keep the love and good news coming!

xoxo-

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