Just got in from a 7.5 mile slow run.  Beautiful morning and lots of time to think and enjoy the cool air and sunshine.  Today can be a very frantic experience for those of us that share Thanksgiving with several families and must travel.  I would suggest that you push aside thoughts of having a bad time today and stay focused on remaining open to what comes your way.  I know that sounds kinda new agey but when we create expectations of having a rushed or painful reunion with family our attitude may help those expectations come true.  Another helpful tip may be to let this day be for the spouse and the kids and the in-laws, and mom and dad, and know that staying out of the emotional way can go along way for their enjoyment. 

 Think, feel, act.  Our thoughts are powerful and they can create feelings that we will act on, whether they are appropriate actions or not.  More times than not, alcohol can make these situations worse.  Set down the load you are carrying and relax and take the day as it comes, it is going to be what it is going to be.  Hoping you have a Happy Thanksgiving.

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Lately, the world seems to turn upside down. People I thought of very reasonable, are becoming selfisch, rude and way different than when I first met them. And other people, I never hung out with, I’m becoming friends with.

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I would like to say I do not hate any person in my environment, and I don´t want to. But sometimes you just hate certain people. Not because they called you names, not because they beat the shit out of you, not because they dumped you, cheated on  you, have sex more often than you do, not because they have already met their soul mate, they seem happy or because they always tell stories of their splendid life and all you can do is listen in awe… No, you hate them because they make you face your weakness. They don´t make you hate them on purpose (at least, not on purpose); instead, they act like rebels, do everything opposite from what you say and are least likely to do listen to anything you say to them. Their voices are so loud, their persistence is unbreakable. Or they interfere with your life, they think they know what´s best for you, they´re pressing on your limits (sometimes unaware) and eventually show you that you can’t say no. You could tear them in 1000 pieces and don’t feel any regrets. It’s just to make them stop.

These are hard times, socially. Hormones rushing through veins, smiles melting frozen hearts, eyes meeting as if they´ve met before. And in order to hold on to this vibe, we need to dive. Dive into the unknown country.

But what is unknown country? A place we all don’t know quite well, and won’t understand either: the heart. L.A. Rebhun described in her wonderful etnographic study of North-East Brazil the contrast between how people think about love and how people act in the name of love. It is a story of cultural values, public and personal honour, the role of men and women, and money.

Here in the West it is not different at all. We touch each other’s souls, we let them go, we talk about our deepest feelings but never show the way we feel. We pretend to know, but feel insecure; we lie to convince, but within a relationship a lie is the last thing you need. And why can’t be we honest and truthfully for ever? Why do we feel the need to pimp our reputation? Because of the unknown country we reign. It’s like a promised land: we do not know what to expect, but, however, expectations we have.

Today I learned how to dive. I think. And you know what: the moment you lose sight of your feet tight to the ground, and the world flashed around you like a sped-up movie, the hate is gone. You don’t feel weak anymore. At least, I didn’t. I felt pretty strong, and happy too. But that probably due to another reason, because I also learned how to find the way back to the place where all romances start: my own heart

To you again,

I’m sorry.  Im sorry because I think I may have loved you.  And I’m sorry because I dreamed of being with you, I dreamed of being happy.  But now I know that that happiness was based on something I didn’t understand.

Today I saw her.  And maybe I still don’t understand, but even though that moment, your moment, even though it broke me, I think I realized.  I don’t want my happiness to be because of her pain.  It shouldn’t start that way and it was wrong of me to want it, to wish for it, so, so much.

So I’m sorry.  I’m so so sorry for not getting it.  I’m sorry for wanting it all.  I’m sorry for wanting you.  But now, even through my ridiculous pain, I can see, and through it I just want you to be happy.  I want her to be happy.  I can deal with the rest.

Oh, and by the way, she’s beautiful.

Me.

Dear Mom,

I really wish you didn’t know so much… I wish you couldn’t read me with a single glance, sum up my feelings, and talk to me like I already know how I feel.

I don’t. Or I didn’t…

But, thanks to your offhand confusing statement, I’m even more confused, and now I’m worried about being confused! What do I do now?

I, of course, sit worried, wringing my hands and paying way too much attention to my feelings.

So seriously, you should help me out. Cuz it wasn’t so helpful when you laughed off “love” like it was nothing. It most certainly is… I think. Clearly, you know more about it and you’re able to identify it. Help?

Love,

Your girl.

“S.O.S.” by Abba:

So when you’re near me, darling can’t you hear me
S. O. S.
The love you gave me, nothing else can save me
S. O. S.
When you’re gone
How can I even try to go on?
When you’re gone
Though I try how can I carry on?

Caught this tweet from Marie Digby earlier today:

ohhh i love the music supervisor for the hills. my song ‘ Feel ‘ will be on the dec. 1st season finale. I’ll be playing NYC that night

Now I have never seen the show, nor do I plan on watching the finale but it’s still a great placement for Marie and we just want ot say Congrats! If you have yet to hear the song you can check out the MV (Japan) and Stripped version. It’s a great contemporary pop record.

So… the girl from the blind date read my last blog (I gave it to my friend and she passed it along). Only problem is that it made her feel kind of bad and me look like I was desperately impatient. And now that I re-read it from her perspective, I feel bad! Cause I can totally see her point.

Sure, I started off with the “Oh me! Oh my! How lame, oh lame, am I?” crap, but at the end it could easily be interpreted like I was putting it all on her by saying she now had my contact info but hadn’t contacted me! Like that’s fair! I’m the lame one that didn’t talk to her on our date! And, of course, that wasn’t what I meant (famous last words)! The part about her not contacting me yet was there for dramatic affect. Anyone that knows me knows I do that!

Oh, but wait, she doesn’t know me! I didn’t talk to her! How could she know that?

You know, sometimes, I can be really stupid!

But, there is a silver lining! We do still have the second date planned. It looks like it will be sooner then I originally thought (YAY!). And, best of all, she’s still looking forward to it! (thus the title of this post)

So, blind date girl (no I’m not giving you guys her name), if you happen to read this, please understand that while I may be an idiot at times, I’m usually a well-intentioned idiot. And, that I’m sorry for not talking to you in the first place. I promise, I totally plan on talking to you on our next date! In fact, I stopped on my way home tonight and bought some Miracle Grow (I checked, it says it works on nuts) just to make sure!

Still single… but hoping!

Scott

Oh, and just to clarify, this is not desperately impatient. This is anxious and excited.

OK… I really have to shut-up now!

I was sipping coffee, standing at the canteen in our office premises. A gentle man came to me straight away and said, “Hey, your spectacles are cool. Nice one.”, and gone.

In fact, he is the only one who praised my spectacles. No one among my near and dear liked it.

It was a totally surreal moment that made me smile. A goofy happy smile? I don’t know.

I open my eyes in the morning

And I think of you

Then I wash my face, wash down

the wrinkles caused by the Memory of you.

I turn on the Radio to hear

How much I miss you

I imagine you working and again,

I can’t escape the ghost of you.

You’re home to my childish fears

You’re home to oh, so many tears.

You’re my man hurt

For whom my heart burns…

Say it wasn’t all a game of my mind

Say that silly beach is still ours

Tell me that the Touch of your hand

The Music, your Voice and the Sun will last

For ever and a day.

Say it, say you’re there. Waiting for me

Say, stay…

I go to work, alone as usual.

And each shadow’s you.

When I stop to take a breath, you’re my Peace,

my Revange and Calmness.

As I finish my day and go Home

There I expect you

I turn in my street to find that you’re not there,

 not there… Not this time, not yet…

You’re home to my confusion

You’re home to a sad conclusion

You’re my man afraid

No plans have been made

Say it wasn’t all a game of my mind

Say that silly beach is still ours

Tell me that the touch of your hand

The Music, your Voice and the Sun will last

For ever and a day.

Say it, say you’re there. Waiting for me

Say you will stay…

Let it be…

I’m walking in the cool Night

Holding Us so very tight

Breeze touches my face

Raindrop leaves its trace.

You’re home to my biggest fears

You’re home to oh, all of my tears

You’re my man, my man

And here I am: your woman.

I can feel you even though you’re far away

I feel you each and every day.

I see you in my Dreams where we’re so alive.

And I can even feel you in the air tonight.

You killed me with a Smile.

It was yours but now it’s mine.

What I got from you was Life

But it turned into a lie.

It is you that I miss

And we didn’t even kiss…

In my dreams you’re so alive

And I feel you in the air tonight.

Generations of women
know how i feel
when I say abuse, rape, and fear
Trillions of women
know how I feel
when I say that the end is near
Due to me
Looking at the wrong peer
Billions of women
know how I feel
when I can’t speak
Cuz my words
Have been choked out by tens
of thousands
of men
“complimenting” my ass
instead of wiping my tears
Millions of women
know how I feel
When courage runs low
And thoughts of being low
Run high
Thousands of women
know how I feel
When sweat, blood, and tears
Dripping down on us
Remind us of the most traumatic
Incendent of our lives
Hundreds of women
know how I feel
When I reminise about a hate
so strong
That my ora literally
Burns
Your whole atmosphere
Your whole world
Til nothing exists
Cuz thats what you did to me
Tens of women know
My story
Now, a part of me
in my history
One woman knows
That this story will not
Define who she is
This woman
Is me.

Sometimes I wish I could let yesterday go up in smoke so there wouldn’t be any remnants of it, and then when I think of doing just that I realize all of what I am today comes from who I was yesterday. Those things of the past allowed me to have the experiences I have this moment…no matter how hard it was to go thru. So, let me focus on things I can change in this moment.

This is what I choose:

1. Instead of acting out of hurt, I choose to pray for someone whom I love that hurts me greatly.
2. Instead of acting out destructively to punish myself in some sort of fashion or way, I choose to treat myself with loving kindness as if I were someone else…not just someone who hurts or who feels like I am “bad.”
3. Instead of trying to stuff down the pain, I choose to feel it and let it go through the stages of grief, so I can move past the hurt and pain.
4. Instead of looking back, I choose to look forward and focus on what is happening this moment, so I don’t overwhelm myself with could have been or should have been.
5. Instead of me feeling ungrateful for the chance to love my loved ones, I can feel grateful I can choose to love beyond what another chooses for her/his life.
6. Instead of me defining myself on what happens, I choose to define myself by my character, the values and beliefs I uphold, and the love I have to freely give.
7. Instead of hating, I choose to have love for another even though I am hurt.

Yeah~

Akhirnya penantian ni berakhir jugak.

7.30 PM ni, aku akan gerak balik Melaka sempena Hari Raya Qurban.

Rindu kat Cola

Mood : Sangat gembira

* Baru belajar makan kacang botol

• To move forward in life.
• To feel fresh, especially if you are not a morning person, do this Mudra.
• If you are stuck up in a traffic.
• After 8th month of pregnancy is over, do this Mudra. Movement of the child will be smooth. Natural movement of foetus will happen and there will be an easy delivery.

Index and middle fingers touches the thumb.

Beat the Traffic – a Case History

Tom is not a morning person. He works for a software company. Timings are flexible. So he can afford to go late to office.

Due to some work pressure, though suddenly he had to go early to office. This he found it very difficult to do, even after setting up an alarm.

So after waking up, and until he got up from bed, he started doing Movement Mudra or otherwise called as a Kubera Mudra. After a couple of weeks, he was able to get up early without an alarm.

Unfortunately, the morning hour’s traffic was too much for him to handle. He started doing this Mudra, whenever he had to wait for the signal or when the traffic stops. Surprisingly he found that he could beat the traffic somehow.

Within a couple of months, he was asked to vacate his house. He found a house, which was closer to his office. He thinks there is a connection between this change and the movement Mudra, as he started reaching his office early without any effort whatsoever.

Darling~~~I really wan to thank u for the beautiful tulips that u give it to me and little girl….And we r really touch by ur effort and thought…I no that u just flew back in the morning fr holland and u must be very tired already but in the afternoon u still came personally just to make sure that the flower will in our hand somehow u make me feel like the 3 of us is in holland with ya… me and little girl was touch and speechless…So i decided to forgive u for the EARLY morning msg/call sometimes its killing me but…..we will still entertain you no matter what, it’s all worthy for our friendship. Thou the flowers may wither in time but this friendship, never will… Lurve you ‘stupid bitch‘….!”(wat little girl has say)….

To Human & Little Girl

Am sorry that after so long than i tell u all about the “STAR” cause i just wan everything to be “FIX” , “CLEAR” & “ARRANGE” before i tell u girls but nothing is gonna happen and I am not going to let it happen

But I just wanna let u girls no that am really happy to hav met u girls in my life LUV u girls & Squeeze u girls

Sometimes it’s hard for me to tell apart the boundaries of my emotions. So I prefer the vague discourse. I revel in a little ambiguity. As what it is ambiguous can be judged in many ways, I don’t risk so much getting it wrong.

Feeling good, feeling bad, feeling ok… These expressions don’t actually mean much, but they are comfortable. The precise naming of a feeling is a dangerous endeavor. What it is named tends to become reality, through the wonderful mechanism of self-fulfilling prophecy.

It was late before the two guests left and Russell was alone with Lady Ottoline. They sat talking over the fire until four in the morning. Russell, recording the event a few days later, wrote, “I did not know I loved you till I heard myself telling you so — for one instant I thought ‘Good God, what have I said?’ and then I knew it was the truth.” [Clark, 1975, p. 176]

(from Daniel Dennett’s “Consciousness Explained)

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Wanna close to you everytime hunney,,,,,everytime,,,and every moment that we have,,,,,

Whatever you do,,,

Sometimes you can make me very,,,very,,,,,unlimited happyyyyyyy

Sometimes you can make me so hopeless to you

Sometimes i am piqued with you,,,

Sometimes you seems like annoying person,,,

Sometimes i am proud of you,,,

sometimes i really feel disturb your time and your mind,,,

sometimes you make me miss,,,,,you soooooo much,,,

sometimes you can make me cry because of you,,,,because your unpredictable demeanor,,,

sometimes i feel meaning for you a lot,,,

But that words have been save in deep inside my heart,,,,sooooo deepppppp,,,,

SO i can’t be able to say that i don’t love you,,,,,

coz,,,,, i realllllllyyyyy love you,,,,for every packaging in you,,,,,

SO don’t let me down hunneyyyyyyy,,,,

cos i always won’t to love somebody,,,because it can make me weak every time i love somebody,,,,,like i do for you hunneyyyyyyy,,,,,

I never said that to you,,,,,but i did,,,,

So my friend’s new boy toy got me thinkin…..

He’s a junior, he’s attractve, he was in the military, he’s drivin, and he SINGS!!!!!!!! HE SINGS!!! (and well!!!!)

Is it wrong that I’m attracted to him? I mean I’m only human right? It’s not like I want to be with him but is it wrong that I’m slightly jealous of the aCe just because she is available to talk to him?

Don’t get me wrong……I love my fiance with all of my being but a part of me still wonders what life would be like with someone else…….or even alone for that matter.

But then he reminds me why no one else in this world could make me smile the way that he does;

how no one in this lifetime will put me at peace the way that he does;

and how in no one else’s arms will I feel as secure and loved.

No one will ever love me the way he does

and I’m happy with that!!

=]

Yesterday,Nov.23,09 was a sleepy day but it was so fine. I slept 3am and woke up at 6am! no,it must not happen again because I do not feel really fine! I was so dizzy and I was so high. The happiness I can’t explain but all I know is I am happy. Around 12pm, I was trying to sleep and did not took lunch because I felt 90% sleepy,10% hungry.LOL A new number appeared at my celphone and it was Jon again! He was so happy, I hear and feel it in his voice. His words,his touching words makes me feel so lively though a little dizzy. The talk was short but it is so meaningful,nothing compares the feeling we have.Thank you  Lord.

I am happy, I have a new friend at BMT, where I can send Jon his needs,God really moves!Thank you so much Jah.

I worked yesterday but I cant continue because of on/off network of internet. I did not sleep well because its my tummy again, I feel I am full,bloated maybe because I went outside last night and I didn’t wear anything to cover me from cold breeze.Maybe that’s why. I slept a little irritable but I can say it was fine, because I asked Jah to watch over us always and my loved ones whenever we sleep and in every thing we do.

I love and miss you too Jon,mwah!God bless us!

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