Being endlessly exhausted due to excessive sleep deprivation is a theme that can frequently underpin the early days of parenthood and a couple of bad nights back to back can really compound the problem. 381 more words
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Completely lost it in Tesco… Fuck.
I was looking at fruit loaf thinking hmm looks nice, has fruit, can be toasted might get some then I noticed they didn’t do wholemeal and only did white and panicked a bit before thinking fuck it, tangerine and sultana sounds lovely and I am not ruled by my ED anymore, cue ED to pipe up listing the reasons why even being in the bread isle makes me a worthless human being, for some reason it was so much worse this time though, voices were so loud and I couldn’t block them out and I think I must have hyperventilated because my heart started racing and I couldn’t breathe, went to the fridge/ freezer section to try and calm down hoping the coldness would stop me and then the visual hallucinations started, somehow I knew they were fake but it was still so fucking scary I just kept looking around and trying, in my head, to argue back with all the voices, also in my head… I hope I wasn’t speaking out loud at least. 436 more words