A few years ago being at the weight I was, I could feel my heartbeat while resting. It bothered me that  I could feel it so well when just sitting, doing nothing but breathing and watching. Then one night my left hand went completely numb. 

I called the doctor the next day and told her what happened. I had an EKG done. My heart was fine. Then I had a stress test done.  My resting heartrate was almost 100.  The heartrate they wanted me to get up to – 180. I beat that and went the extra mile to 220 beats.  Isn’t that insane!? Yes, insane that my heart didn’t explode! Next was an ultrasound of the veins running to my heart, make sure I wasn’t clogged up and no stroke would happen.  All nice and clear there.

Having the “All Good” sign given and still wondering why my heart was beating so fast at rest, plus my left hand going numb made me realize that maybe if I lost some weight — well, it’d go away.  And funny, when I lost the 38 lbs, I couldn’t feel my heartbeat. I knew it was going because I was waking up every day, but I couldn’t feel it which made me feel so much better.  And it went down to 86 beats per minute!

Welp, lately I’ve been feeling my heart beating. At rest. And every time I feel it, I feel so grateful it’s doing it’s job still and allowing me to hopefully get it back to where it can do it’s job w/out the stress of the weight.   If I was religious, I’d be thanking God.  And I’d be praying to him to let me see my weight loss thru, to let me lead the life I want to live.  Not afraid I’m going to keel over or never wake up. 

Thirty years old and wondering if I’m going to see another day, how sad!

since 2 weeks i’ve been working in this office, i join “the gathering”. Our main place to be visited is “Safari Garden”.

Our journey has began at 6:00 a.m. I start move from my kos about 6:15 a.m. I go to the UKI with Mas Rinto to join with another team. From UKI we go to Bogor at 6:45 a.m. We stop our trip to get breakfast and full our vehicle with fuel.

We reached Safari Garden at 09:00 a.m. And start making photo. The activity we love so much.

Thanks for the beautifull moment..

now time passed away..

i stand in different land, different air, and different activity.

i’ll walk, but never alone..cause i believe He besides me.

2005 Heroes of the Earth

2007 Change Me

2008 Heart . Beat

2009 Man in the Mirror, single

Scientists believe that an area of the brain, the interior and anterior cingulate cortex, is involved in what is known as interoceptive awareness—the awareness of our own physiological sensations, like a heart beating deep within your body.

But recent research from the University of Iowa has shown that we can also use another separate pathway when we consciously experience our internal physical states.

This second pathway, they believe, runs from the skin to the somatosensory cortex, which is the part of the brain that maps the external body.

The results came from a study with a neurological patient, “Roger,” who has been studied in the lab for 15 years, after suffering brain damage from herpes simplex encephalitis. Roger has nearly complete damage to his insula and anterior cingulate cortex, but his somatosensory cortex is completely intact.

Researchers injected 11 healthy male subjects and Roger with a synthetic form of adrenaline, which made their pulses’ shoot up by 25 beats per minute.

Roger felt his heartbeat as clearly as the other subjects, although slightly delayed. Researchers suspected Roger’s brain registered his heartbeats from the surface of his chest wall and from blood vessels pulsating under his skin. To confirm this they anesthetized his skin in specific areas, and administered adrenaline again.

The healthy subjects felt their heartbeat, as before. But Roger felt nothing.

This study suggests that both brain pathways are involved in interoceptive awareness, which can cover anything from a panic attack, to the sick-feeling of rejection, to a pounding heart from an afternoon pillow fight.

Longfellow, Henry Wadsworth

“…A sermon is no sermon in which I can not hear the heart beat.”- Shaw, George, The SPIRIT in Redemption, (Cincinnati: Jennings and Graham, 1910), 282.

(27 February 1807, Portland, Maine – 24 March 1882, Cambridge, Massachusetts)

Married Mary Storer Potter, 1831(she died 1835)

Married Fanny Appleton, 1843 (she died 1861)

This REALLY made my day! (I sound like I have no life…but for 2PM, I’d be willing to have no life. <3 2PM!)

Right when I came home, I went on youtube just to listen to some music, and to my surprise, symbelmynee uploaded another video — 2PM’s Heartbeat (aka the title song for their full album/the song that had the 6 teasers). I listened to it right away and I’m listening to it now.

It really is a different kind of music like JYPE said. I wonder if the underlying heartbeat noise is one of their real heartbeats. (I know, a crazy thought, but JYP is quite a genius so I wouldn’t be surprised.)

Here it is:

credit: Symbelmynee

I love it because even though it has a bit auto-tune, it really is unique and it really shows 2PM’s vocals and skills. I’m wondering if the video is a music video-type thing and if the name of the album is really “1:59 PM”, then I’m really loving the concept. Hurry and listen to it!

Also, the FULL ALBUM was released!!! I’m totally fangirling right now!

Here’s the list of songs (videos and songs thanks to elaisfangirl):

2PM – The First Album 1:59PM
01. My Heart
02. Heartbeat
03. Tired of waiting
04. (I Was) Crazy Over You
05. Gimme the light
06. Back 2U
07. All Night Long
08. Heartbeat (Red Light Mix)
09. 10 Points out of 10
10. Only You (Acoustic Mix)
11. Again & Again
12. I Hate You (Lounge Mix)
13. You Might Comeback (Bossa Nova Mix)

Back 2U:

I Hate You (Lounge Mix):

You Might Comeback (Bossa Nova Mix):

All Night Long:

My Heart:

Tired of Waiting:

Gimme the Light:

I Was Crazy Over You:

10 Out of 10:

Only You (Acoustic Mix):

Heartbeat (Red Light Mix):

Seems like 2pm wants to tease us showing up with a teaser per member

The teasers were released in couples :Chansung – Wooyoung, Taecyeon – Nichkhun and Junsu – Junho

All of them have a personal message and the heartbeat sound effect on their individual teasers are their actual heartbeats.

Taecyeon

“The ones I love make my heart beat. The ones I give my love to, the ones I get their loves from, my families, my friends, and us seven members. Just thinking about it gives me the warmth. I want to stay with you guys forever.”

Touching … Taecyeon is still talking about seven members...

Nichkhun

“Struggles get my heart beat, ’cause I know they’ll make me strong. That’s why I’m never give up. That’s why I’m not afraid to fail. Today,… I face another obstacle… and so my heart started beating…AGAIN”

Nichkhun’s message is in English and because his English is quite good I think I figured out the wohle text xD Though I think he wanted to say “I never give up but .. whatever, if I got something wrong just correct me

What could Nichkhun have meant by obstacles …?

Chansung

“The trust makes my heart beat. Even at the moment when my heart is about to stop from the pain, the trust between us put me back on my feet. Now when we are together, I can go through anything. And my heart beats with self-confidence.”

WooYoung

“The fear makes my heart beat. Every morning, I ask myself a question. Can I really do this well today? Do I have what it takes? Then I say to myself. I can do this, I can. Then I feel my heartbeat. This is the start.”

Junsu

“The music makes my heart beat. The more i listen, sing, dance, and perform my music, my heart beats stronger. As long as I live, I would like to live this way.”

Junho

“The fans make my heart beat. The fans who love me unconditionally. It’s like a dream to make others happy. Until the very last fan remains, I want to sing for them. Now it’s time to get back on stage. My heart feels like it’s going to explode.”

So, is your HEART already BEATing ?

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Revealing one by one, video teasers for 2PM’s upcoming album has been released elevating the excitement brewed by previously released photos and songs.

I will be updating this post until all members are complete. Ha.

[COMPLETE UPDATE]

Junho

Fans make my heart beat. All of the fans that love me, even though I don’t have much to give. Being able to make someone happy with my music feels like a dream. As long as there is a fan left for me, I want to sing for that fan. It’s time to stand on stage now. My heart feels like exploding.

Watch the rest under the cut.

Junsu

Music makes my heart beat. The more I sing. The more I listen. The more I stand on stage. My heart beats stronger. I want to live like this until I die.

Wooyoung

Anxiety makes my heart beat. Every morning, it asks me a question. Will I do okay today? Will I not be enough today? And I tell myself. I can do it. I can do it. My heart beat feels faster. Now, this is the start.

Chansung

Trust makes my heart beat. Even when my heart would stop because of hardships, I lived through it all because of trust. As long as we are together, we can handle anything. And my heart will beat with confidence.

Taecyeon

The people I love makes my heart beat. The love I give, the love I receive. My family, friends… and our 7 members. The more I think of them, my heart gets warmer. I want to be with you guys forever.

Nichkhun

Struggles make my heart beat. Because I know they make me stronger. That’s why I’ll never give up. That’s why I’m not afraid to fail. Today, I face another obstacle and so my heart starts beating…again.

c: 2pm youtube channel – c:: 2oneday

One can only ponder that their main hit will include the lines of “…listen to my heart beat.”

>.< omg…i’m liking it already! Can’t wait!

About a 15sec teaser has been released on 2pm.jype.com it features jay and junho’s voices

The time under the heart has stopped at 1:59:00

MISS THEM! check it out!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bPxlHtjOoDc

Looking up
at six-feet-under
from my own
Personal Hell,
I hope my hedonistic heart
will stop beating as well.

I love you.I can’t comprehend anyone making me happier, it’s unimaginable.

There is no feeling in the world like my hands or my head against your bare chest. Nothing like your multiple different kinds of laughter. Nothing like the look in your eyes whenever I’m laying next to you. Nothing like the sound of your beating heart.

There is nothing like you out there. Nothing.

Today I had a movie moment. Not a “finding true love” moment, or even a final speech “this is our time/we’ve earned this/win the game for [insert injured player's name here]” moment. I had the moment where someone tells the player just how hard he’s going to have to work. It’s not the culmination of anything; usually, training has only just begun, and it’s going to get worse, but inspiring music underscores the speech and you know in your gut something amazing is going to happen.

It happened like this. I’m in a hospital room with three other students and a doctor learning how to interview and examine patients. Now, no one expects much at this point. After all, I’ve only been in school for a month and a half, and I don’t know any symptoms (though I can tell you why pain from a heart attack goes down your left arm if you let me pull out my dermatome chart…), much less what is important when trying to get a diagnostic history and perform a physical.

Everyone knows who the med students are (the short white coats give us away) and takes it easy on us. Except Dr. B., the physician. The surgeon. My mentor.

He’s one of those people you notice as soon as he walks into a room, probably because he’s the one talking loudly and making a sarcastic comment. The guy who’s the best at what he does and feels no obligation to hide it. The type of guy who makes you flinch when he looks at you. I learned on day one that he doesn’t put up with bluffing, that I should never break eye contact, and that he will always call on me when I have no idea what the answer is. It’s a variation on Murphy’s Law.

So back to the hospital room. He’s just finished explaining what we did wrong while questioning the patient, and is moving on to the physical exam. So far, all we’ve learned is to take pulses, measure blood pressure, and check lymph nodes, but that doesn’t stop Dr. B. Our patient has an interesting heart sound, and he wants us to figure out what it is.

With the patient’s permission, I listen for thirty seconds, eyes closed and one hand taking his pulse the way Dr. B. showed us. I can’t remember what taking his pulse is supposed to tell me. Something about identifying the different parts of the heart beat? I finish, the last of four students to listen, and we each say what we heard: nothing, nothing, whooshing. I heard a swishing sound between two faint beats.

“Systole or diastole?” Dr. B asks.

That was what I was supposed to figure out using the pulse. I have no idea and say so. A brief lecture follows, at the end of which everyone else nods and I’m still confused. I start to ask the girl next to me to double-check what we were told, but she shrugs and can’t repeat it back. Everyone starts listening to the heart beat again, and I take a deep breath and look over at Dr. B., who is talking with the fourth year student supervising us. I’m setting myself up to be the dumb student, the one who always needs to hear things twice, but suddenly I don’t care.

“Dr. B?” I ask, “I’m really sorry, but can you explain where the murmur is one more time?”

And he does. In excruciating detail, even mimicking the sounds for me very loudly and slowly.

Five times.

I return to the patient and listen for the heartbeat. At first, all I hear is the rustling of my stethoscope against the hospital gown. I readjust my hand so I can feel the pulse more strongly. It should be there, right when the pulse is strongest, a little swishing sound between the two beats. Systole.

Everyone is waiting for me to finish, so I consider taking my stethoscope off and pretend I heard it. But I want my question to count. If I must be the slow one, I at least want to get it right.

More rustling.  I close my eyes and slow my breathing until the sound emerges, faint and barely there. Lub-swish-dub. The lub-dub is barely audible, but the switch crescendos and drops with the beat of the man’s pulse. Lub-swish-dub.

I open my eyes and see Dr. B. watching me sidelong while he talks to another student. “I heard it,” I tell him. “I couldn’t hear anything at first, but it was there.” And he smiles. Not a sarcastic smile, a real one. He tells me that he spent two years listening to hearts before he really started to hear it. Then he’s back to normal, making a smart remark about a time everyone around him missed a murmur and he had to decide whether they were just idiots or he was better than he thought he was. He went with the idiot hypothesis. Of course.

Outside, we rehash the session: what worked, what we messed up, how we can improve. Then it comes. The Moment. Except it’s not coming from a gentle, kindly mentor, it’s coming from an abrasive, loud surgeon who would fit in on any street in New York and is wearing a t-shirt under his white coat. Without any soaring music to back him up, Dr. B. tells us that he will teach us what we need to know. That we will eventually be able to hear what the heart tells us. That we will be able to do more than just read test results. And that our time spent in medical school here will not have been wasted.

It’s not a fancy speech. It’s not particularly eloquent. And it’s not even really directed at me. But when he looks at me, I feel a surge of excitement. I admitted I had no idea what was going on today, and because of it I heard that heartbeat. I will be a doctor someday.

My moment was grumpy, and unshaven, and repeated itself loudly to me just in case I still was too slow to catch on.

But I had a moment.