Sometimes I wish I could let yesterday go up in smoke so there wouldn’t be any remnants of it, and then when I think of doing just that I realize all of what I am today comes from who I was yesterday. Those things of the past allowed me to have the experiences I have this moment…no matter how hard it was to go thru. So, let me focus on things I can change in this moment.

This is what I choose:

1. Instead of acting out of hurt, I choose to pray for someone whom I love that hurts me greatly.
2. Instead of acting out destructively to punish myself in some sort of fashion or way, I choose to treat myself with loving kindness as if I were someone else…not just someone who hurts or who feels like I am “bad.”
3. Instead of trying to stuff down the pain, I choose to feel it and let it go through the stages of grief, so I can move past the hurt and pain.
4. Instead of looking back, I choose to look forward and focus on what is happening this moment, so I don’t overwhelm myself with could have been or should have been.
5. Instead of me feeling ungrateful for the chance to love my loved ones, I can feel grateful I can choose to love beyond what another chooses for her/his life.
6. Instead of me defining myself on what happens, I choose to define myself by my character, the values and beliefs I uphold, and the love I have to freely give.
7. Instead of hating, I choose to have love for another even though I am hurt.

So the girl I like’s coming round tomorrow to watch a film. I don’t know how I’m going to keep off of her.

Actually I do; knowing that she probably doesn’t like me and will freak out if I tried anything.

Oh well. Her company’s good enough. This is going to end up killing me I’m sure.

But I can’t help having hope…

“So, you sing songs in the toilet, eh?” she asks.

“Yeah. I do”, he answers, not sure if its a thing he should be proud of.

“What songs?”, she asks

*Thinks of something that will make her laugh*

“Hmm, how about ‘Aati Nahin’? ”, he answers

“Old Joke. But that is when you are…er..constipated na…what about the normal times?”

“Oh then. Then I sing, ‘Tum aa gaye ho, noor aa gaya hai…’”

*Peals of laughter at the other end of the line*

Hoy: Palabra monosílaba de tres letras, generalmente, estúpidamente, indica presente, lo que será mañana y lo que fue ayer…

Hoy tu cabello se veía hermoso, pero no estabas ahí para que te lo dijera.

Nunca estuviste ahí; y todo inició con palabras. Como el aleteo de una mariposa, estas, resonaban en mi cabeza y le daban vueltas a un ideal tan hermoso, ahora tan absurdo. Tan absurdo como el puñal que dispararon a mi pecho.
Tan lejano como una estrella, tan tácito como la sangre que vierte de mis venas, mas continuo ahí parado.
Como idiota, cegado por mi locura y por mi ferviente deseo de algo que nunca se completara.

Hoy tu cabello se veía hermoso, y no te lo pude decir.

Las palabras me atragantaron, cuando de pie, caí en la realidad, y me golpeo como toro en la cara;

Cuando te vi sonreír y sonrojarte, lejos de mis brazos… en el infierno de aquel demonio. ¿Qué hacer?

Sentar y esperar, contar las hormigas a tus pies.

Observar el bello cielo otoñal, aderezado con esos pigmentos carmín que llenan el corazón. Pero son placeres furtivos, perecederos, momentáneos; a tu lado.
pero es lo único que llena aquel vació tajante, que, con tu navaja, cortaste y dejaste sangrar.

Hoy tu cabello se veía hermoso, y no dije nada.

Hoy tu cabello se veía hermoso y no me importó, tal vez, el otro idiota se dio cuenta y lo mencionó.

Hoy… Otra crónica perdida… Estúpido estribillo de una disonante melodía…

فديو, فيديو كليب انا بيه ورومانسى من فلم, فيلم البيه الرومانسىافلام لك تحميل من

شاهد فديو, فيديو كليب انا بيه ورومانسى من فلم, فيلم البيه رومانسى – سعد الصغير 2009
تحمل وتنزيل فديو, فيديو كليب سعد الصغير من فلم, فيلم البيه رومانسى انا بيه ورومانسى

لمشاهدة وتحميل الفديو, فيديو كليب …

شاهد فديو, فيديو كليب اغنية سعد الصغير انا بيه ورومانسى من فلم, فيلم البيه رومانسى
يو, فيديو كليب سعد الصغير من فلم, فيلم البية الرومانسى – انا بيه ورومانسى

اضغط هنا لمشاهدة الكليب

|اغانى|فديو, فيديو كليب|مقطع|هدف|مسلسل|اعلان|فلم, فيلم|برنامج|حلقة|شاهد|مشاهدة|اون لاين|سرعة عالية |بدون
تحميل|اغانى|عربى|اجنبى|MP3, mp3, ام بي ثري|البوم|
2009|سينجل|نغمات|تنزيل|نزل|شعبي|راب|حمل|موسيقى|MP3, mp3, ام بي ثري

|افراح|فديو, فيديو كليب|راديو||اون لاين|بدون تحميل|مجانا|بدون اشتراك|2010

فديو, فيديو كليب انا بيه ورومانسى من فلم, فيلم البيه الرومانسىافلام لك تحميل من

شاهد فديو, فيديو كليب انا بيه ورومانسى من فلم, فيلم البيه رومانسى – سعد الصغير 2009
تحمل وتنزيل فديو, فيديو كليب سعد الصغير من فلم, فيلم البيه رومانسى انا بيه ورومانسى

لمشاهدة وتحميل الفديو, فيديو كليب …

شاهد فديو, فيديو كليب اغنية سعد الصغير انا بيه ورومانسى من فلم, فيلم البيه رومانسى
يو, فيديو كليب سعد الصغير من فلم, فيلم البية الرومانسى – انا بيه ورومانسى

اضغط هنا لمشاهدة الكليب

|اغانى|فديو, فيديو كليب|مقطع|هدف|مسلسل|اعلان|فلم, فيلم|برنامج|حلقة|شاهد|مشاهدة|اون لاين|سرعة عالية |بدون
تحميل|اغانى|عربى|اجنبى|MP3, mp3, ام بي ثري|البوم|
2009|سينجل|نغمات|تنزيل|نزل|شعبي|راب|حمل|موسيقى|MP3, mp3, ام بي ثري

|افراح|فديو, فيديو كليب|راديو||اون لاين|بدون تحميل|مجانا|بدون اشتراك|2010

On Sunday afternoon in  a Fayetteville, North Carolina church, Manna Church, the world,family and friends said goodbye to Shaniya Davis. Shaniya had captured the heart of the world, after it was discovered that her own mother had sold her into bondage as a sex slave,to Mario McNeill, who brutally raped and murdered the little child.

More than 2000 people were inside the church to support Bradley Lockhart, Shaniyas dad, and the man who made the decision to send Shaniya back to her mother,after having raised the child for the full 5 years of her life,which directly led to her death.

“Don’t let God’s words and don’t let his actions get you down,” Lockhart told the packed congregation. “He did this for a reason.”

Shaniya Davis funeral was open to the public and was standing room only.Lockhart urged the 1,500 crowded into Manna Church and another 500 watching the service from an adjacent building to help the community’s needy, according to press reports.

As mourners filled the church, a photo display of Shaniya Davis was streamed on the overhead projector. Never before released photos of Shaniya were displayed. These photos showed Shaniya with her father, Bradley Lockhart and her siblings.

Lockhart said, “Shaniya, Daddy love you honey. And I know you’re gonna’ be waiting for me … I’ll see you when I get there.”

White doves were released at her graveside as the little child Shaniya was laid to her eternal resting place.

Click on the link below to view a comprehensive sideshow of pictures covering the Shaniya Davis funeral…

http://www.cbsnews.com/blogs/2009/10/01/crimesider/entry5356401.shtml

موالى كل الجديد فى عالم النت

TITA MAR: Culinary Arts? So is that, like, cooking? 
NIECE SAMANTHA: Yeah, I think.
TITA MAR: Whoa. Weird. Is that a public school thing?
NIECE SAMANTHA: I guess.
TITA MAR: That’s so stupid. Cooking? And baking? No one cares about that!  Except for prospective husbands. Colleges don’t care about that!
NIECE SAMANTHA: So what category is that under?  Fine Arts?
TITA MAR:  I have no idea.  Let me look.  [pause]. It’s under “Family and Consumer Science.”  What the Hell does that mean?
NIECE SAMANTHA: So is that under Science?
TITA MAR: Puuaahaha, I have no idea. Yeahhhh, so on Monday, the first thing you need to do is talk to your Guidance Counselor and sign up for that Mixed Media art class instead. And if you have problems doing that, call me.  And I will talk to her myself!

[later during our convo]

TITA MAR: So, the things you must do are 1) remember what I told you about boys, 2) make your Grandma and Grandpa laugh at least once a day, and 3) ask your Grandma and Grandpa about college and signing up for the SAT or going to community college in LA then transferring, and 4) tell your Grandma and Grandpa to buy me a plane ticket home for Christmas, and that I want money for Christmas.
NIECE SAMANTHA: Okay.

[later via iPhone text]

NIECE SAMANTHA: Mission accomplished!
TITA MAR: Yay! What did we accomplish?
NIECE SAMANTHA: Making grandma and grandpa laugh
TITA MAR: Awesome! Now, inquire about college to your Grandma and Grandpa! And tell them about my Christmas travels and gifts!
NIECE SAMANTHA: Yeah we’re at 54th street and some nice young man *sarcasm* served us our steaks . . . His name was daryl.
TITA MAR: WTF?  You mean my high school boyfriend?
NIECE SAMANTHA: Yes.
TITA MAR: Gross. I’m going to puke in my mouth. Now is a good time to ask them to fly me home. And ask about college! And tell your server I live in LA, I own my own business, I have a cute BMW named Lola, and I have a hot guy to go with it all.  And a Yorkie that travels in my Louis Vuitton. Love you!
NIECE SAMANTHA: Haha we all had a good laugh. And i told them that they should fly you in for christmas and they said maybe . . . Unfortunately i can no longer say this due to the fact that we have already left. Love you too.

Today I think I want to talk about intimacy and what it means to get intimate. Especially after an important relationship or after an important break-up or, let’s just say it, after being married for several years and then getting divorced!

Everyone says you’re “back in the game” (like if that was any good!) and you’ve been so far away that just the thought of dating again makes it not attractive at all.

Maybe it´s just me, maybe it is that easy. Is it just, OK, let’s do this!, and that’s it? And, I guess here’s where my second problem comes in, which is, what is it you’re really looking for? Do you just want to get intimate and does getting intimate mean just doing it or does it mean a lot more. What is it you really want? What are you really looking for?

I know what I want and what I’m looking for, I know I want more! Just doing it feels meaningless at this point. And I don’t mean that by casual encounters you can’t start a long-term and lasting relationship but, then again I think that’s when we go back to problem number one, getting intimate, what it means to get intimate again…

Am I the only one who’s actually worried about that?

So here we are, that’s where I find myself today, scared to get intimate? scared of doing it, maybe? Or scared that it will just be that and nothing more? Scared that I won’t find the girl or woman I’m looking for because I don’t know how, and worried that either I do something or I won’t be able to move on with my life… (I’m over my past but can’t find a future to move on to).

Am I the only one who thinks that after this long period next time I’m intimate with someone I won’t really know what to do? Am I gonna make a fool out of myself? Is it going to be awful? Embarrassing? Will it last more than 20 seconds (I haven’t done it for a long time!)? And I guess if she is HER and intimacy is not just doing it then it will be right… but then we go to problem 1, or was it 2?

So, those are my thoughts and questions today, and I guess the big question is, is there anybody else out there who thinks or feels or at least understands what I’m saying? If there is, I don’t know what you’ve done, I don’t know if you’ve had similar experiences, I don’t know if you’ve found yourself in these situations and in any case, if you have, have you ever gotten anywhere close to what my weird personal dumb thoughts and worries are?

Uff… I can’t believe I wrote this but… I guess I said I was gonna get personal, right?

So, I’ve decided that I am never going to bed before 9 pm. Ever again. My body has some weird problem/curse where no matter when I go to sleep. I will wake up 6 – 8 hours later. So last night, I went to bed at 9, and I was up at 4 am. Great. I had to leave Girlfriend’s house to come home because I couldn’t fall asleep. We watched “The Boy in the Striped Pajamas” yesterday. Which is about an eight-year-old boy who grows up in WWII Germany. His father is the kommandant of the extermination camp Auschwitz. It’s quite a tragic story and I would highly recommend seeing it. Girlfriend didn’t like the ending though. I did, I think it was probably the most realistic thing that would have happened given the circumstances.

In case you DON’T know. I had lost my computer to problems for the second time in about 3 months. After about 3 weeks of waiting I finally got it back this week. And I am definitely happier with it. Is that sad? Probably. Oh well. I had a lot of stuff on here that I couldn’t do. Like a music paper, a whole bunch of CD reviews and writing blogs! So I am getting started on that again. Maybe I’ll finish all three of those things this morning! It could turn out to be a productive day!

My jazz band concert is tonight. Great. I am so excited. Except not at all. I have dreaded jazz band and hate the class. I barely do anything so it’s practically a waste of time for me. I guess I set myself up for this, my teacher/conductor lady said that I’d be bored most of the time. I originally wanted to play vibraphone, but that doesn’t really happen because it’s so much of a hassle to get my instruments. I had to go buy a shaker for myself so that I had one to use. So once this is over I won’t have to deal with it for a while. I’m probably going to send an email to the conductor of the Symphonic Band for Non-Music majors and see if I can join that next semester. It should be more rewarding.

Plans have been made for coming home @ Christmas. I will be arriving on the 19th, staying the night in Calgary, going to Thunder Bay to visit my grandparents there for 3 days, and return on the 23rd. This second part is tentative, but probable. On the 23rd, Girlfriend comes home too! So I get to pick her up at the airport and bring her home (hopefully.), then we can go to a party with my friends. I’m pretty excited for that, no one has met her and I want to show them the girl I’m happy to be with!

What else is newsworthy here….I finished my season of NHL 10 yesterday. This really means nothing to anyone but me. But I feel like sharing. I created a character and played through a whole 82 game season and then playoffs. I finished with 120 points in the regular season, 31 in the playoffs. I won 7 awards and the Stanley Cup. Man I am a loser.

It’s been pissing rain for the past 3/4 days. It absolutely sucks. Everything is so fucking water-logged and soaked it’s just gross.

Christmas is coming up slowly. I’m probably just going to get my parents/family/friends small things. I saw ‘Up’ with my mom when I was in Calgary this summer, so I might get her that. Or a puzzle. I’ll probably get my Dad some movie that he always says is so good. Or maybe I’ll buy them “The Proposal.” There’s a funny story behind this: When my parents came in October, they told me and Girlfriend, “You guys should go see the Proposal, we saw it and it was so good.” And Girlfriend and I kinda look at each other…and we’re like…what? Is there some kind of hint behind this? Awkward….So now we’ve kinda made it our own personal joke.

School has been going terribly for the past few weeks. Every Monday comes around and I say to myself “It’s just going to be one of those weeks.” Well, when every week has become “one of those weeks,” I think somethings wrong. I hate all of my classes, nothing really interests me and I just want to do what I enjoy. Because of this, I’ve looked into going somewhere else for school. The next closest thing to the program we have here at UVic is in Lethbridge. I am not at all close to deciding on a place and I’m just inquiring now. Next semester I am going to drop the two Computer Science courses I have scheduled to take, and maybe take a photography class. Or something that legitimately interests me. None of this stupid electrical engineering crap. I’ve only talked to a few people about this, and I am planning to meet with my boss (who is also the head of our program and become kind of a mentor for me) and see what he has to say. I sent him this lengthy email about how much I hate the program, he said we should go for lunch and talk. Which will be good.

Hopefully I’ve given you something to read and enjoy and think about. More to come soon.

Later days,

- J

Friday night was so good. It was Cal’s birthday, and we went to see a movie about the end of the world. It was actually a pretty good movie. Then we went back to her place for the night. It was so nice, being with her all night, and not having to leave her when it was time to go to sleep. Now going back to sleeping alone is going to be shit. Every time i go to bed i will be thinking of her. Thinking of her lying there next to me. Not that it would really be much different to normal, as I think about her just about every second of every day. But now i have a memory to think about, rather than just using my imagination.
I love her so so much.
More than words can explain.

And it almost happened, but then we decided we shouldn’t, as much as it was wanted.
I love you Cal.
I really really do.

testing

I think I started this blog incorrectly. I can’t just be complaining about everything and expect to get anywhere like that. Having said that I did get a comment on my second day which is way more than I expected but it’s also true that it’s still my first and only post ever! :S

But that’s not the point, it’s not about getting more hits or comments it’s about an attitude and that’s not my attitude, that’s not me… or at least I hope not   It’s true that I’ve always been pretty critic with everything but I’m also a very positive and fun person so a change is definitely needed on this blog.

Starting today this blog will be a little more personal… and even if I still remain the only reader, I’ll keep the posts a little more meaningful. I think it’s time to write a little bit about myself. Even though I want to remain anonymous there’s nothing wrong in telling you some things about myself.

Lately I’ve been reading blogs to try to get some inspiration and I read one about love, life and starting over. I’m over 30, recently divorced and just moved to a new country (not bad for a change :S). I’ve always been a very stable relationship-guy, meaning that I’ve always had long-term relationships or, what’s also true, not many girlfriends

I wouldn’t change any of my ex-girfriends or ex-wife experiences for anything. I know what you’re thinking, “they didn’t work, you clearly failed!”, and it’s true, but what I lived with them was worth each and every moment and it’s a shame they didnt’ work out, but that’s life and you can only take it as it is.

I do miss something, though, and it might be because of my “girly, sensible” (or maybe “stupid”) personality that feels I had so much that I don’t want to be alone and not have someone to share life with. I do, I want to live, listen, comment, feel someone else’s pains and joys, bad and good times, you know what I’m talking about… I want HER!

So there you have it, I do feel empty, or at least like I’m missing something, and I’m not sure if this “need” to love someone is something positive or just another flaw or weakness in my personality… but I know I like it and I know what  I want… except I don’t know how to find it…

Music. Fashion. Media. Writing. Intros. Red Carpets. Artistry. Celebs. Celebrations. Events. Everything I love about the industry.

But this time, my own

Ne avevamo parlato questa estate in occasione del racconto della finale del Festival “Saremo al C’entro” di Ponte San Giovanni, frazione di Perugia. Ora ne riparliamo, perchè il progetto Radar è arrivato alle ultime battute e venerdì selezionerà i vincitori.

 L’IDEA – Franco Zanetti, insieme al giornalista di Radio Rai Massimo Cotto, è il motore del progetto. L’idea, già sposata anche da Radio Italia, è quella di andare alla ricerca di nuovi talenti musicali attraverso manifestazioni e rassegne come quella perugina e di mettere loro a disposizione come trampolino di lancio non già un talent show o un reality, ma maestri e tutor che possano seguirli sui pezzi scritti dagli stessi ragazzi, così da formarli autonomamente. I prescelti, saranno parte di un progetto di lavoro che vedrà coinvolti esperti professionisti del settore: autori, compositori, musicisti, arrangiatori, produttori. Ai selezionati, in conclusione, sarà riservata una vera opportunità discografica.

LE FINALI – A Tordandrea, nello splendido scenario del Relais Valle di Assisi, i venti finalisti si stanno esibendo in questi giorni sotto gli occhi della commissione composta da Gatto Panceri, Francesco Arpino, Maurizio Bernacchia, Paolo Morisco, Francesco Morettini, Ignazio Morviducci, Luca Angelosanti, Luca Mattioni e Federico Sacchi.  E se passate dall’Umbria, venerdì 20, giorno conclusivo della selezione, si esibiranno a partire dalle 22 in un concerto a Ponte San Giovanni, presso la parrocchia di San Bartolomeo, che organizza il festival “Saremo al C’entro“. Erano oltre 300 i partecipanti, sono arrivati in 23.

I NOMI DEI FINALISTI – Ecco l’elenco completo: Il Dubbio di Davide, Alessandro Zanolini, Elena Balestri, Giulia Nofri, New Classics, Silvia Vavolo, Ilaria Marano, Miriam Caruso, Mario Cianchi, Giulia Virelli, Manuela Mannarino, Le Case del Futuro, Rosella Pollicino, Elisabetta Gagliardi e le Sagome di Cartone, Valentina Bagni, Her, D- Stefano, Maurizio Kisari, Stefano Cherchi, Silvia Zambruno, Minelli & Minelli, Canemorto, Davide Papasidero.
 

SPECIAL GUESTS TO BE ANNOUNCED

Having sold 2 million tickets to date on her current worldwide Funhouse Tour, P!nk has announced via her Twitter that she will be returning to the UK in 2010, with The Funhouse Summer Carnival Tour to break new ground at six stadiums across the UK, kicking off on Saturday 12 June in Bolton at the Reebok Stadium. Tickets will go on sale at 10am on Monday 9 November.

Her astonishing and record-breaking Funhouse Tour will be transformed into a Carnival-style spectacular with a visually stunning new production. The Carnival with roll into six cities, six open-air stadiums across the UK and it will, without doubt leave hundreds of thousands of fans across the UK stunned with P!nk’s special brand of high octane and dazzling performance.

The Funhouse Carnival Tour will be arriving into Bolton, Swansea, Coventry, Glasgow, Alton Towers and Ipswich in June 2010. P!nk is an unrivalled live performer, not only demonstrating her incredible showmanship but unlike most artists today P!nk has the songs and the voice to go with it, proving that she is the ultimate artist of a generation.

“…It would be difficult to find a better pop show than Pink’s.”

“Pink can out-sing almost anyone out there. She can out-crazy Gaga or Lily. She’s the total pop-star package, everything you’d want in a singer/entertainer/icon”

The Funhouse Carnival will be unforgettable and a must see for 2010. Special guests to be announced. Stay tuned!

The Funhouse Summer Carnival Tour 2010:

Saturday 12 June         Reebok Stadium, Bolton
Wednesday 23 June      Liberty Stadium, Swansea
Thursday 24 June        Ricoh Arena, Coventry
Saturday 26 June          Hampden Park, Glasgow
Sunday 27 June          Alton Towers, Staffordshire
Tuesday 29 June         Portman Road, Ipswich

They’re beautiful
Them two

Though cute
When separate
They’re beautiful
Those two

It’d be tough
To add to
Because they’re so beautiful
Already
Those two

Of course
It’d be different
Any other way
Yes
That’s for sure

But what’s awaiting
Behind the next door
Isn’t always as wonderful
As these two
So beautiful

Without
One another
It just wouldn’t be
The same

So beautiful

So true

Love

Me & My Inspiration

EXCLUSIVE Hubby Ray on the agony and ecstasy of seeing her skate COLEEN SAYS DAILY Mirror BEST FOR WEEKEND TV

Even bluff Yorkshiremen are not immune to shedding the odd tear – just ask Coleen Nolan’s husband. He’s been welling up every week just watching her glide around on Dancing on Ice.

Ray Fensome has felt so proud of what Loose Women star and Mirror columnist Coleen has achieved on the hit ITV1 skating contest that it has been hard keeping his emotions in check.

“The cameras keep catching me with tears in my eyes,” confesses 50-year-old Ray. “But the feeling I get when I see Coleen take to the ice is incredible. I feel so proud of her.

“I am an emotional man and I cry, I am not ashamed to admit it. I have never been so proud in my life. It is overwhelming.”

The Leeds United supporter has been getting stick from friends and family for wearing his heart on his sleeve. But is he bothered? Not a bit of it.

“My mates were ribbing me for having tears in my eyes,” says Ray. “The kids take the mickey out of me for getting so emotional as well. Jake and Shane, my stepsons, rib me all the time. They say, ‘Oh Ray’s going to cry again’.

“But when they announce her name and she comes on the ice it just overwhelms me.

“I get a lot of stick but I have always been an emotional person – I cry at films. And since we’ve had Ciara I’ve become even more emotional.”

Ray has been yelling himself hoarse for his wife every Sunday night. And, along with their seven-year-old daughter Ciara, he can claim to be her most loyal fan. But the devoted hubby fears there is only one clear winner of the show. And it’s not his missus but his namesake – Ray Quinn.

“I want Coleen to win,” insists music promoter Ray. “But everyone’s saying Ray Quinn’s the best skater to ever be on this show at the moment. So I guess I’d feel bad for him if he didn’t win – but I want Coleen to take the trophy.

“I would love her to win, to improve that much that she could beat Ray would be amazing.

“That is going to take some doing but Coleen is going for it with everything she’s got.

“Ray is unbelievable. The professionals are looking at him and learning off him, he has got that much style.

“It would be a shame if this was a one-horse race from day one but with a public vote anything can happen. Look at last year with Chris Fountain. He had practically won it before it started but Suzanne Shaw pinched it off him at the final.”

Ray’s biggest fear is that Coleen might end up on the Dancing on Ice injury list – another celeb with bruised ribs, needing hospital treatment.

He remembers how scary it was when the family went skating in Blackpool a few years ago.

“It is so dangerous,” says Ray, a session guitarist who has toured the world. “I ripped all the ligaments in my arm when a kid cut across me and I went flying. My arm was out of operation for six months.

“Coleen was the same as everyone then – cling on to the side and try to get round, like Bambi on ice. So to see her come so far has been amazing.

“I have seen her fall – your heart is in your mouth when it happens. But I haven’t seen her take a really bad one yet.”

Ray is not worried about his wife getting cosy with her skating partner Stuart Widdall. He knows she only has eyes for, er, Olympic champion Christopher Dean.

“I have no worries with Stuart,” he laughs. “She’s in love with Christopher Dean, so I can’t do owt about that.

“If she runs off with him I can’t blame her. He is a legend.

“She said on last week’s show she had a crush on him… I have a bit of a crush on him myself!”

Ray is just loving the show although I have to admit he’s now turned into Jason Gardiner.

It’s so bad it’s like I’m actually living with Jason.

He tells me everything I do wrong.

He says things like “no you’re great, you’ve just got to bend those legs, get more speed and sometimes you look really scared”.

So I’m like, “Ray, I AM scared. I can’t bend my knees because my knees are knackered and I can’t get more speed because I might fall and I don’t want to.”

I had a crafty idea what to do to even things up a bit and stop all his criticisms. I decided to take Ray and our seven-year-old daughter Ciara skating today.

The last time Ray went was years ago and he could just about stay up on his feet.

So I said to him “OK Mr Know-It-All.

Now do a backward crossover.” He couldn’t even imagine it.

It’s great because he said “God, it’s only when you get on the ice you realise how difficult it is.”

The thing is, the pros and Ray make it look easy – Ray Quinn that is, not my Ray.

Anyway usually my Ray is pretty helpful around the house but he’s really helping now.

He cleans the house, looks after Ciara, even answers my fan-mail and brings me photos to sign.

I mean, obviously I come home and think “well you don’t quite do it like a woman but at least you try”.

Then when I get home he cooks me food and he’s great… apart from when he criticises me. Then I just want to kill him. But I’ve been amazed how emotional he’s been watching me dance – even shedding a few tears as he gets into it.

Maybe all the household chores have made him get in touch with his sensitive side.

And oh my God, have I made him cry. I think he gets frustrated with me because I am a different person to how I am on a Sunday.

The nerves just kill me in the lead-up to the show and Ray knows I’m not usually like that.

The thing is, I thought I’d be out in the first week. I’ve even had people tell me that women in their 40s don’t win these programmes. But here I am in week seven – thank the Lord for the public – but I still get so nervous.

My poor old legs are literally knocking together they’re shaking so much.

Also Ray’s not getting a lot of sleep which can’t help.

Apparently I’ve been screaming and crying in my sleep since Dancing on Ice started. I don’t know I am, but even the kids have said, “Mum will you stop screaming in your sleep?”

And even though he’s so sympathetic there are limits to what I can ask Ray to do to ease my many aches and pains.

He doesn’t give me any back massages or foot rubs though. I think that’d be too much. He’d probably divorce me if I asked him to!

I am so interested in the American tour that Sarah Palin will be promoting this week for her book Going Rogue: An American Life. I think there is something we all can learn from this. If anything, it is a media spectacle unlike anything ever seen before: Sarah Palin, the former Governor of Alaska, who makes history as the first female Vice Presidential candidate for the Republican Party, dishes her perspective on the inside story behind the McCain campaign. While I haven’t read the book myself, (I plan on buying a copy soon,) it will be interesting to see how this all plays out in the end and how it will bode for the future of national and global politics, if at all.