While driving, my mind drifted away with the My Chemical Romance’s I Don’t Love You.  There are links to the youtube that I go to once in a while. Weird feelings turned my guts haywire. There was partly love and partly agony, all at once. To whom shall I dedicate the song? Maybe no one. Do I need hocus pocus in my life right now? No black magic shall recover some missing links in one’s life. Or shall I say discover?

I have loved. I have lost love.

Here I am facing another turn in my life. I have thought of so many things. I have done a few things that may haunt me later in my life.

I have kissed. I have eloped.

C
Well when you go
Am
don’t ever think i’ll make you try to stay
G
and maybe when you get back
C
I’ll be off to find another way
C
And after all this time that you still owe
Am
you’re still the good for nothing i don’t know
G
so take your gloves and get out, better get out
C
while you can

Chorus:
F G
When you go
G/G# A5 G5 F5
would you even turn to say
F/E F
i don’t love you
G
like i did
C
yesterday

Verse:
C
sometimes i cry so hard from pleading
Am
so sick and tired of all the needless beating
G
but baby when they knock you down and out
C
it’s where you oughta stay
C
and after all the blood that you still owe
Am
another dollar’s just another blow
G
so fix your eyes and get up, better get up
C
while you can

Chorus2: (as before)
Guitar solo: (chords as for chorus)
Chorus3:
F G
When you go
G/G# A5 G5 F5
would you have the guts to say
F/E F
i don’t love you
G
like i loved you
C C/B A G
yesterday
F
i don’t love you
G
like i loved you
C C/B A G
yesterday
F
i don’t love you
G
like i loved you
C
yesterday

Fascination Mini Album

Track List:

01 바보처럼 (Like a Fool) [Feat. Lee Shi Young & PJ Jun]

02 Hey Ya! (Feat. Son Dam Bi & Bigtone) *

03 Happy Ending (Feat. Kim Hee Sun & Kang Jin Woo)

04 날 사랑해라.. (Love Me..)

05 사랑하지 않아요 (I Don’t Love You)

Welcome to the tearjerking, heart wrenching, blood curdling final installment of Musical Timeline.  If you have no idea what this is all about, then check the previous 2 entries.  We will tell you that Part 2 was probably the best, and most controversial, fitting in right with The Empire Strikes Back and Look Who’s Talking Too in epic trilogies.  We welcome your criticism of our choices, as long as you know that in the end, you are wrong.

We end with the years 1997-2008: there is too much of 2009 left to go ahead and name a best album of the year, but mayhaps we will come back to this from time to time.  It’s a little early in our relationship with our readers to be talking about the 20th anniversary of Random Ramblings (we’re keeping it casual at the moment. Doing the bull dance, feeling the flow. Working it. Working it.)

Here it is. 

1997: Radiohead-Ok Computer

Another no brainer.  This album changed how this band was perceived, and gave them tenure as the Alternative World’s most brilliant, ambitious band.  Not a happy album by any stretch of the imagination, but perhaps the most epic, atmospheric, foreboding collection of songs to gain semi-mainstream acceptance in the last couple of decades.  If they come close to this level of greatness again, it will be ok. Even coming close would be pretty amazing. 

Honorable Mention: Foo Fighters-The Colour and the Shape

1998: Elliott Smith-XO

We first found out about Mr. Smith like most people: while watching the excellent movie Good Will Hunting.  While “Miss Misery” and the other songs on the soundtrack drew us in, this major label debut was full of gorgously bittersweet acoustic ballads, as well as some up tempo rockers.  While we think Figure 8 is probably a better album from start to finish, the highlights of “Pitseleh”, “Bled White”, and “Oh Well, Ok” makes us wish we could have had a full lifetime of work from this troubled musical genius. If you are in a good mood and want to be brought down a notch, anything by Elliott Smith will do just fine.

Honorable Mention: Beastie Boys-Hello Nasty

1999: Wilco-Summerteeth

Before they started coming out with adventerous but not-so-fun-to-listen-to sonic detours, Wilco had the double dose of heightened inspiration that was Being There, and then this album. After the twangyness of their previous album, the off kilter modern day Beach Boy harmonies were a little jarring.  But this album delivers classic song after classic song, culminating in the perfect title track.  Even the hidden song “Candyfloss”, an apparent tossaway for the band, is better than most bands can ever hope for.  This is pop music for hopelessly romantic,  narcisistic, and nostalgic music lovers (I’m sure Jeff Tweedy wouldn’t mind putting himself in all three catagories). 

Honorable Mention: Travis-The Man Who

2000: Coldplay-Parachutes

It’s interesting to think that everyone thought that Coldplay wanted to be the next Radiohead, instead of the next U2 like they would later aspire to become.  For downtrodden, sad sack songs, this album is pitch perfect.  Favorites of ours: “Sparks”, “Trouble”, “Don’t Panic”, and of course, “Yellow”.  Their song writing would take on a more crowd pleasing singalong turn on later releases, perhaps for the better, depending on who you ask.  But this was an impressive debut for a band that has gone on to become the most popular band of this decade. 

Honorable Mention: Elliott Smith-Figure 8

2001: Pete Yorn-Music for the Morning After

It’s a shame that Pete Yorn has still not moved from just a step beyond cult status.  His debut album seemed to be a sign that his star would ascend a lot farther than it has, but it isn’t for lack of talent. This isn’t a ground shattering innovation of an album-just an album’s worth of heartfelt songs, with interesting lyrics and Yorn’s emotional vocals that resonate with the listener.  ”Life on a Chain”, “Black”, and “Murray” have enough of a balance between world weariness and yearning  to draw the listener in.  If interested, check out his 3rd album next (Nightcrawler), then his 2nd (Day I Forgot). 

Honorable Mention: John Mayer-Room For Squares

2002: David Gray-A New Day at Midnight

He’s known for “Babylon” but then seemed to slip from the radar back to obscurity.  But this album is stronger than White Ladder. A nice combo of drum machine beats, keyboards,  and acoustic guitars align for an underrated mellow masterpiece. More people will hopefully hear this as the years go on. Best songs: “Long Distance Call”, “Kangaroo”, and “Last Boat to Nowhere”.  

Honorable Mention: Queens of the Stone Age-Songs for the Deaf

2003: The White Stripes-Elephant

We truly didn’t get this band until we saw them live. Sure, we liked “Fell in Love With a Girl”. But nothing prepared us for the hot slab of rock that they shoved down our throat when we saw them at Music Midtown in 2005.  Meg White’s kindergarden bully drumming and Jack White’s slide guitar on crack wailing gave us a new appreciation for their modern day blues and rock.  Give Jack White 3 chords and a vintage amp and he’ll pulverize your cerebral cortez and have you smiling the whole time.  If the guitar solos in “Ball and Biscuit” don’t stir your inner air guitarist, then you are an android. A really dorky, uncool android. 

Honorable Mention: Guster-Keep it Together

2004: Interpol-Antics

Menacing bass driven nightclub rock for the city dwelling set.  We have not heard much Joy Division, but anything that inspired this album must be a good thing.  The bass in “Length of Love” is fit for a sinister disco.  And the staccoto guitar in “Evil” seems like the theme music for some ubercool, indifferent city spy, who doesn’t really care if he assassinates his target, but wants to look cool during the attempt.  Other highlights: “C’mere”, and “Slow Hands”.  

Honorable Mention: Ambulance LTD-LP

2005: My Morning Jacket-Z

A perfect mash up of falsetto, reverb, classic rock, epic guitar solos, and non-self indulgent, non-boring jamming.  ”Lay Low” has the best build up we’ve heard in quite some time. It made us appreciate long, jammy codas if done the right way. And the right way includes piercing guitar work, culimating in the whole band regrouping for a thunderous finale. The electro-coustic soul of “It Beats 4 U” shows how creative they can be, but the driving, propulsive “Anytime” also shows how they can maneuver themselves around a standard rock song just fine. Also an amazing live band, which is the icing on the cake. 

Honorable Mention: Coldplay-X & Y

2006: My Chemical Romance-The Black Parade

We felt a little odd when we starting liking this band’s music, seeing as the youth of today were so infatuated with them.  We are sure they would have been mortified to know that we were rocking out to “The Ghost of  You” and “I’m Not Okay” in our cars.  But who would have known that they had this epic, theatrical classic in them.  Intended to be taken in as a whole, with a story of a terminally ill patient running throughout, this album is a soaring mix of punk, pop, balladry, and even some vaudeville thrown in.  Our personal favorites are “Welcome to The Black Parade”, “I Don’t Love You”, “Cancer”, and “Disenchanted”, but we could listen to this from start to finish any time, any day.  

Honorable Mention: Mastodon-Blood Mountain

2007: The White Stripes-Icky Thump

Jack and Meg can’t be denied a second entry on the list.  After the slight detour of Get Behind Me Satan, they returning to their old stomping grounds of riff rock.  The title track is menacing stop start rhythms and screeching guitar work.  ”Conquest” features a duel to the death between horns and guitar.  And “Catch Hell Blues” has slide work so impressive that it makes Duane Allman’s ghost weep with shame. Can’t wait to hear what they create next. 

Honorable Mention: Band of Horses-Cease to Begin

2008: Coldplay-Viva La Vida

If we had to pick a best album by them, it might actually be this album.  We like the succinct, catchy, dense quality of the music. And the title track could be the best song of last year, or any other year in recent memory. It is physically impossible not to sing along with it. (sorry Joe Satriani-we don’t think they plagiarized your song on purpose. Learn how to sing like Chris Martin and beat him to the punch next time).  ”Strawberry Swing” is a nice tribal change of pace, and “Lovers in Japan” bounces along on sunny tack piano. It is fashionable to dismiss this band as lightweight, but the truth is that they write really, really good songs. The scary thing is that it feels like they are just hitting their stride. 

Honorable Mention: Metallica-Death Magnetic

So there you have it. The albums that we will place in the time capsule.  If, perchance, the invaders discover the location of said time capsule, rest assured we have a back up plan. And as soon as we figure out what it is, we will put it to action.

It’s important I believe to sift through the situation. How to do that? Find a quiet, spot perhaps the edge of the ocean or a pond, (be sure there are no alligators if you live in Florida! ) Or maybe a favorite woodland, one that slows your heartbeat and brings new fragrances to your nose. AND JUST SIT……sit and soak it all in. Notice nature around you, the sounds, smells, the air blowing against your cheek, the feel of grains of sand as you absently pick up the handfuls and sift them through your fingers. Breathe, slowly, in and out….deeper now. Maybe just use your senses and breath to quiet your mind from racing, from the fear of “tomorrow” that has overtaken your life. Breathe….over and over, peacefully, in silence, in trust.…and be aware of that small, tiny wisp of a thought or idea that comes to mind….God whispers He seldom shouts or lights a bush on fire, though at times He really has. Perhaps use a mantra of a favorite scripture: Jeremiah 29:11 is an awesome one, I have clung to it many, many times. And just sit…..

Once you have maintained a calm, even state….you will be able to take out a notebook you brought with you and randomly jot words, thoughts, sentences, DON’T THINK ABOUT THEM OR THE GRAMMAR….just let it flow from your pen, endless thoughts, ideas, hope, encouragement….ahhhhh yes, let the thoughts flow on your paper however they do with no criticism from your mind or distractions of the world.

Remember, the economy is really out of your control. Or is it?

You may preserve your job and not lose it like so many others by focusing on being productive, being on time, finding some challenge in your routine to find it more interesting, learn to be a bit more organized, write more “to do notes” for your self, prioritize your tasks, be grateful.

Spend some time in a library or bookstore and peruse “What Color is My Parachute” a fabulous read for those pondering how to find their God given talents and to return to a “long ago career dream” put on a back burner perhaps to maintain survival. Find out what peeks your fancy, what seems to bring you joy. Then investigate the companies who could use your talents and gifts, perk up your resume and drop one off in person or maybe two, on a daily basis. Sometimes it’s not what you know, but who you know. NETWORK. Let everyone you know you are looking for a career change….this is a perfect time to do it, isn’t it?

I have learned within the past 13 years, “every time God closes a door, He opens a window” of opportunity. I have the choice of setting my fear aside, because fear really is the opposite of love and if I cave to fearful thoughts what I am really saying to Him, my God, is I don’t love you, I don’t trust You, and for me that’s simply not true.

Review your spending habits. Are you accustomed to living beyond your means? Using plastic? Satisfying your cravings for “stuff”? Well, I’ve got news for you….have you ever seen a funeral hearse pulling a U-Haul into a cemetary when your time comes to go home? NO? Then change your thoughts to those who have survived with much less, the victims of storms, fires, losing all their possessions and be grateful.

Reassess all you know about you, start to notice the homeless on the streets, the elderly alone and struggling. Find your niche that pings at your heart and do a random act of kindness with whatever you have to give and share, whether words, a smile, food, a blanket….be creative. Give some time to help another human being, just because. And be grateful.

Over 2 years ago when I still lived in Northern Michigan I experienced the loss of jobs, being out of work for over 18 months, giving away all I had and packing what I could, basically the clothes on my back and drove to Florida. I realized because I assessed and looked about, the economy wasn’t good then. I experienced sharing my daughters couch for 3 months, renting a room for almost what I would pay in apartment rent, moved two more times, worked for temp agencies and for short term assignments. Survived major surgery which led to the loss of yet another job, found a job and was fired, and finally found my position now which is part time permanent with no benefits…..and I still have my faith, my joy and my bliss. Each challenge brought me closer to God, I finally was baptized and gave my heart to Him at a very seasoned age….I had nothing to lose and so much to gain.

He’s walked with me, guided me, protected me and wrapped His arms around me and carried me when I could walk no further. It breaks my heart that in a country founded on Trust in God, we are slinking further away from Him. We all need Him, whether in a great degree or in everyday contented living. Jesus loves us and gave His life for us.…that’s really huge. And now, it’s my turn to give back to Him for the blessings I have endured through each crisis.….by helping another. It might even be you.

So, now, each day I make time to sit a while and think….to chat with my Higher Power whom I call God.…soak in the free gifts I was so often too busy to notice and allow His peace and hope wash over me like a gentle rain of spring. This economic crisis too will pass and it’s your choice whether you will be a better person because of it or whether you choose to be immobile and walk in fear of situations you cannot control. It’s up to you. You can accept the state of the economy and you can do things about it….you just need to sit awhile and think….rest….pray and be grateful.

Esse clip do MCR é bem legal e dramático tbm.

por- ana suemi

Well when you go
Don’t ever think I’ll make you try to stay
And maybe when you get back
I’ll be off to find another way

When after all this time that you still owe
You’re still, the good-for-nothing I don’t know
So take your gloves and get out
Better get out
While you can

When you go
Would you even turn to say
“I don’t love you
Like I did
Yesterday”

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading
So sick and tired of all the needless beating
But baby when they knock you
Down and out
It’s where you oughta stay

And after all the blood that you still owe
Another dollar’s just another blow

So fix your eyes and get up
Better get up
While you can
Whoa, whooa

When you go
Would you even turn to say
“I don’t love you
Like I did
Yesterday”

Well come on, come on

When you go
Would you have the guts to say
“I don’t love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday”

I don’t love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

I don’t love you
Like I loved you
Yesterday

It was bound to happen. Two young “adults” alone, at night, completely unaccountable to anyone. We had both taken a long break from dating. Me, because I wanted time to grow, so my relationships in the future would be more healthy. Him, because he and his previous girlfriend were expecting and she had miscarried, breaking his heart.

After talking on the phone, going on walks, attending group functions, we graduated to spending time alone. It wasn’t very long before I had that scary realization that I just might be pregnant. When I was ten days late, (TEN DAYS LATE!), I let him in on the emotional roller coaster ride. This was a real blow to him because he knew better than either of us that premarital sex was the last thing he should be doing. He voiced over the phone that this whole thing had been wrong, and that he didn’t even love me. I didn’t take offense at his statement because “loving” him hadn’t even occurred to me until now.

Alone at work one evening, I was wrestling with wanting what was best. What young lady doesn’t love the child within her? I didn’t want to miss the experience of having a baby. I also knew it seemed impossible for me to be able to raise a child on my own. I was barely making ends meet as it was.

I read a page from a booklet of daily inspirational messages (a devotional) about accepting God’s will, His best for everyone concerned, and at that moment I accepted just that, God’s will, whatever it was.

I wasn’t experienced at talking to God…praying…but this booklet said I could talk to Him, and that I should tell Him I was willing to go along with His way of handling this situation, and then completely trust Him with the future.

I spoke the words, “God, please do what’s best for Jim, for me, and for this baby, if there is one inside of me.” Believe it or not (seeing was believing for me!), at that same moment I started my period!

I didn’t think about being happy or sad about not being pregnant. I had just seen a miracle! The only thing that was important was that God Himself had reached down into my minuscule (previously unbelieving) life and had shown an interest in what I was experiencing. At the precise moment when I had reached acceptance…peace…and asked him to do what was best, He did! Was he waiting for me to get to that point, or would it have happened this way anyway?

Whether or not a baby had ever existed inside of me up to this point, it didn’t exist now, and I was okay with that, because God was okay with that.

Very soon after, I became a Christian. Sold out. On Fire. In love with the Jesus of the Bible!

Very soon after, Jim gave up whatever amount of sobriety he had accumulated and heaped more guilt on his head for being such a rotten person that he would dare to give in to temptation.

Where are you now? You didn’t know Christ would use you in such a profound way to reach another one of his little ones and bring them into his flock. I wish I could tell you what a difference you made in my life. One comment in particular that you made will never leave my memory. I didn’t really understand it at the time, and I wonder if you really did either: “Don’t you think that’s Christ trying to get your attention?” He has my full attention now.

Pernah tau ga ada kalimat yang bilang “Manusia ga akan pernah mengulang kesalahan yang sama untuk kedua kalinya”, nah inget ga sie apa peribahasanya yg tepat..??

masalahnya bukan karena gw lupa dengan peribahasanya, tapi justru krn gw inget bgt dengan kalimat itu..tapi knp ya gw selalu terus masuk kedalam kesalahan-kesalahan itu.. udah tau salah, masih aja dilakonin. Bandel, nunggu ampe kapok dulu? gw sebenarnya udah kapok, gw udah bosen. gw udah ditahap paling ga bisa ditoleran lagi deh. Mungkin itu dia knp Sobat gw udah nyerah klo dimintain advice tg relationship ke gw. Apapun yg dibilang cuma masuk kuping kiri keluar kuping kanan.

Pengen banget kembali ke kehidupan yang normal apa adanya, ga kayak yg sekarang ini..

Boys will be boys.. and this is the story for some bastards in my lifE..

“Well when you go

Don’t ever think I’ll make you try to stay

And maybe when you get back

I’ll be off to find another way

When after all this time that you still owe

You’re still the good-for-nothing I don’t know

So take your gloves and get out

Better get out

While you can

When you go

Would you even turn to say

“I don’t love you like I did yesterday”?

Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading

So sick and tired of all the needless beating

But baby when they knock you down and out

It’s where you oughta stay“

(MCR-I don’t Love yOU)

Intro,

1st Verse;
Well when you go,
So never think I’ll make you try to stay,
And maybe when you get back,
I’ll be off to find another way..

1st Bridge;
Well after all this time that you still owe,
You’re still the good for nothing I don’t know,
So take your gloves and get out,
Better get up, While you can..

1st Chorus;
When you go,
And would you even turn to say hey,
I don’t love you, like I did, yesterday..

2nd Verse;
Sometimes I cry so hard from pleading,
So sick and tired of all the needless beating,
But baby when they knock you down and out,
Is where you ‘oughta stay..

2nd Bridge;
And after all that blood that you still owe,
Another dollar’s just another blow.
So fix your eyes and get up,
Better get up, While you can..

Woahh..

2nd Chorus;
When you go,
And would you even turn to say hey,
I don’t love you, like I did, yesterday..

Well Come on, Come on..

(Solo)

Ending Chorus Ad-Lib;
When you go,
Would you have the guts to say,
I don’t love you, like I loved you, yesterday hey..
I don’t love you, like I loved you, yesterday hey heeeey..
I don’t love you, like I loved, you yesterday..