I want an iTouch. Yes, me the hater of all things Apple and Macintosh, wants an iTouch. Why? Because I hate using my phone, which I can no longer send even a normal text message with, let alone access my IM or email.

“Why an iTouch? I thought you wanted an Android Smartphone?”
-I do, I do. But right now I don’t have a regular calling plan nor the money to switch to one on a company that isn’t AT&T. I still go under my parent’s phone account for my phone service (which is pay-as-you-go right now).

Why else? Well, it’s just such an awesome little thing. I can customize it to my heart’s content, play games, listen to music (I was planning on buying a new iPod to replace my screen-less shuffle anyway), use the internet~ and there are so many more free apps than there used to be.

To add to that, I’m really bad at purchasing electronics. I always buy “the wrong one” (case in point: Burikuu -that is “brick” – my Palm Centro) and I always over-pay (see previous). But I know that this is a good purchase because everyone has one. All of my friends, teachers at school, even the UITS tech support people have them! If it works for them, why not me?

Alexander Wang shirt / Guess shoes / Balmain jacket / Iosselliani ring / Chanel black nailpolish / Proenza Schouler bag / Efva Attling ring.

Don’t really know when! But I want it..

A few things I wouldn’t mind having from Iosselliani! Gorgeous rings, bracelet and neklace!

Your Magical New Year starts Right Now

Thank you for joining me in this delightful adventure to call in a divine new year. I share your excitement for what we are creating. Thanks for your emails and comments.

But please don’t worry if you haven’t started.

In the past, I did the whole thing in a couple hours the morning of January 1st. And I’m living proof that such compressed intention-setting works. So whether you’ve been preparing to call in your new year all month, or thought about it off and on, or are just now deciding that you do indeed want to call in a joyous new year filled with blessings and grace, I’ve got a plan. A Soul Plan. Take it. It’s my gift to you.

In Writing Down Your Soul, there’s a full description of a “Soul Day.” Here’s a shorter, specific January 1st Soul Day process to call in a divinely-guided and supported year.

If January 1st is not an option in your house, it’s OK. Just pick a time in the next few days when you will have a couple hours to yourself. The date doesn’t matter. Giving yourself the gift of a moment of time to stand in your power, acknowledge your heart’s desires, and call to you in concert with heaven does.

Here’s the New Year Soul Day that always works for me:

Set your intention.

• The universe is run on intention. Use that power to kickstart your year. Place a notepad next to your bed. As you fall asleep on Dec 31, ask for guidance on your Soul Day.You can ask for general guidance or specific questions like what is the name of my year.
• When you awake, lie still for a few minutes and allow insights from the night to come to you while you still have access to the theta brain wave state. When you’re ready to get up, jot down any insights, blessings, images.

Begin with prayer

• As you step into the space where you are going to call in your year, say the prayers that mean the most to you. If you don’t have a prayer process, start now.
• Stand and speak your prayers. Request Spirit, the angels, and your divinely-appointed guides to be with you as you begin the next twelve months in your soul’s adventure here on earth.

Have a nice long conversation with the Voice about 2009

• Ask for help identifying all the gifts buried in the experiences of the last twelve months. List them. Name them. Bless them. Say thank you for both the beautiful gifts you received and the more difficult learnings. Learnings are gifts, too.
• Review everything you accomplished this year. Let your heart be filled with pride for all that you accomplished.
• Forgive yourself for everything you didn’t get done. And anything you did that you wish you hadn’t.
• Release your prisoners. If you are holding someone prisoner in your internal dungeon for the harm they’ve done to you, let them out. (see blog posts on week 3 below)

Have a nice long conversation with the Voice about 2010

• Start talking with the Voice about what you want in 2010. Review the list of the blessings you created in your December Plan or make your list now in partnership with your divine Voice. Discuss what you want until you have a focused list of five to eight desires.
• For each of your desires, create a prayer statement describing it in the present tense as it looks fulfilled. For example, if you want a new job, write something like “I am doing my perfect work joyous as a result of my efforts.” You’ll type these statements up and say them every day for the next 365 days.
• Ask for a name for your magical new year.
• If you have card sets that you love, do a card reading or two asking for guidance on your year. I love to do a Medicine Card reading and an Angel Guidance reading.
  Create a visual prayer for 2010

Create a prayer mandala for 2010.

• Use a dinner plate to make a good-sized circle on a piece of firm paper. Write a phrase or word for each of your prayer requests inside the rim of the circle (like numbers on a clock).
• Write the name of your year across the top. 2010 is “My Break Through Year.”
• Decorate the mandala. I like to write my core prayers in a border around the circle. Words like: I know. I trust. I love. I’m not sure what words I’ll add this year. Have to wait to see what the Voice suggests on January 1.
• At the center of the mandala, draw an image that captures your year. My “Break Through Year” is symbolized by a chair. (see Dec 28 post) I’ll draw a chair at the center and put a small wooden doll house chair on my altar.

Celebrate

• Conclude your Soul Day with prayers of gratitude and joy. You have been heard, supported, and guided to stand in your power and declare the life you want. Be thankful.
• Bless your prayer mandala and post it where you’ll see it every day.
• Type or print your prayer statements and put them where you’ll say them at least twice a day.
• Eat in joy. Have a delightful meal and toast the blessings of the magical new year that are coming to you

Bring your year to life

• At least once a day for the next 365 days, stand in front of your mandala, say your prayer statements and SEE all the good you have declared coming to you. Visualize it. Feel the joy you’ll feel when it happens. Smile. Say thank you in advance.
• Keep your thoughts and your eyes focused on what you want to attract in 2010. When you stray into fear and doubt, put yourself back in front of your mandala and remind yourself that you are divinely guided and all is well.
• Recognize good things when they come to you. Save evidence of your desires being fulfilled on your Evidence Shelf. (p. 228 in Writing Down Your Soul.)
• Keep communication between you and your Divine Voice wide open. Write down your soul every day. Pray every day. Ask for guidance and you will receive it.

See how easy it is to call in a magical new year? January 1st is my favorite morning of the year. When I pin my 2010 prayer mandala to the wall, I always feel lifted. I feel my angels beside me clapping and laughing. I know that I am blessed.

And you are, too.

I’ll be thinking of you on January 1st. And throughout the year as together we call in our magical years. 2010 is in for a big surprise! We alchemists are changing not just our own individual lives, but the life of the whole planet.

Please let me know how your New Year’s Day unfolds..

Whew, the Christmas holiday is over and me and my Darling Honey are back in the wet, miserable English suburbs. We had an absolutely LOVELY Scottish Christmas, and now that I’m back, I have loads of updates.
1) I finished the Coffee Princess (Ysolda’s Snow White) while on holiday. I know, I really really really wanted to get it done before we left, but I just ran out of time. But a half hour on Boxing day meant that this baby was FINISHED! The only issues I had were that I should have added an inch or two between the decreases/increases so that I wouldn’t have to have added length to the top, and that I really really really need to join better.  I Russian joined my ends together and they kinda left a telltale line where the join happened.  But not enough to bother me.  Outta sight, outta mind.

2) I finally got the chance to cash in my gift vouchers for K1.  I had them in my purse since I left the NLS and really wanted to exchange them for £20 worth of New Lanark, aka enough to make the Central Park Hoodie or the Arwen or another Owls.  So imagine my angst and annoyance to discover that k1 no longer sells that wonderful £3 for 188yds of Aran goodness.  Thank god I can at least order it online.  So there went my hopes of being able to make a jumper.  And without a game plan pre-set, I panicked and didn’t know what to do.  Do I splurge it all on Fyberspates sock yarn to make a lacy shawl? No, don’t like any of the colours left.  Do I splurge it on Magnas Orkney Angora? No, they don’t have the colour of my other ball left and I don’t know what to do with 2 balls of that.  Had I been properly thinking, I would have bought 4 skeins of my favourite Artesano Aran and made a Leisl, but proper thinking was absent that day.  So with my Darling Honey anxiously pacing around outside in the icy Edinburgh cold, I rushed and bought 4 balls of Artesano Inca Mist.  Luckily, I have always always wanted to make Ysolda’s Scroll Scarf, so that what they’re going towards. And with the leftovers….I ‘ll probs get another lacy hat out of them…maybe another Meret.

3) I was SUUUUUUUUUUUUPER lucky to have a wonderful mom who spend a small fortune on me this Christmas buying and shipping me more precious yarn.  I got my order of Knitpicks Wool of the Andes Chunky that I’d bought back in November and then my Kissmas Pressis….MORE WONDERFUL YARN!  My mom went posh on me this year and sent me 8 skeins of Plymouth Pacca Tweed, an aran weight tweedy half alpaca half wool blend that is just luscious.  After much deliberation, I have decided to use it to make Arwen .   And I’ll use my KnitPicks to make another Owls.

4) I also got a bit of Kissmas money from The Parents, The Grandpa, and The Uncle, so while most of it is going to be squirrelled away for saving/rent/food, a wee bit shall be used for more yarn buying.  More yarn?!?! Yes.  Because even though I got loads now, I don’t have enough for all my specific projects.  Projects for the new year:
1) Arwen using my Christmas Pacca Tweed

2) Owls using my Knit Picks Chunky

3) Central Park Hoodie using my unbought New Lanark

4) Vine Yoke Cardigan using my unbought Cascade 220

I also have quite a few patterns I want to make from my Fitted Knits books including another Back to School U neck Vest that will be great in New Lanark, the Boatneck Bluebell sweater, the Textured Tunic, and the Elizabeth Bennet Cabled Cardigan, all by Stefanie Japel.

Whew!  This is not to mention all the smaller projects queued up, such as the scarf, a few shawls, and maybe a few shirts and hats to use up the stash.

Here’s to loads of knitting in the New Year!

with all the festive season overeating, just to hear the words “spaghetti”, “barbeque” and “salad” makes me vomit. sorry but yikes for the next 4 weeks.

now i want tinapa and itlog na maalat, 

tska ung fried rice ng banana leaf. perfect for rizal day

hewbewtchoo?

This week in our December Plan has been fun, fun, fun. As of last night, December 27th, we have a list with 27 delightful expectations for 2010. If you haven’t created your wish list, it’s OK, you can begin today or tomorrow or any day you want. Just sit down and get clear, really clear, about what you want to see happen in 2010.

Please note the use of the verb “see” in that sentence. It sounds simple, but it matters. It really matters.

Yesterday, I received a profound confirmation of the power of “seeing.” I had an angel guidance reading with Margo Mastromarchi, The Oracle of the Dove. When I asked about finances, the angels had this to say:

“Do not focus on what is going out. Focus on what is coming in and it will multiply. You are the only reason you do not see it coming. See it. See it as checks, checkbooks, bank accounts, receipts of paid bills…see only that. And as you see it, open your hands.”

Instantly, I recognized what I’d done. I’d put my focus for the last few months on paying bills. I’d made endless lists of what was owed and when it was due and then I jockeyed funds to make sure I had money in the right account on the right day. The only thing I’d been “seeing” was bills. And while I was looking hard and long at all that outgo, fear crept in. And once inside, it grew, and spread, and gobbled up all the air.

But since December 1st, I’ve added one delightful item every day to my wish list for 2010.

Wait a sec. I’ve got to stop calling it a “wish list.” These are not wishes. These are expectations. These are miracles. These are requests. Dare I say, demands? These are descriptions of the good things flowing to me in the next twelve months so that I can do the work I’m here to do and live the life I’m here to live. These are the ways I fulfill my purpose, my calling, my destiny. These are not wishes or pie in the sky dreams, these are real. And my eyes are fixed upon them. My eyes are now fixed on the horizon of Jan 1 and over that horizon comes my ship. My ships. My many ships. Filled with the 31 divine gifts of the year.

No more wishes for us. We are alchemists. And alchemists know how to use the power of this magical universe to create. Last week — forgiveness week in our December Plan — I suggested that we call this list our “Freedom List” because as our ships come in, we break more and more of the bonds of doubt, worry, fear, frustration, depression — whatever name you give to what you know is holding you back.

If you read yesterday’s post, you also gave your new year a magical new name. Mine is “My Break Through Year.”

So, today we wrap up this week in our December Plan to call in our magical new year with one last totally fun adventure:

• Look at your Freedom Lists
• Visualize ships laden with those expectations sailing your way
• Meditate on the name of your year

When you do those three things, what do you see? What one image or picture or object or animal or, well, anything, comes to mind that somehow symbolizes your year?

Mine is a chair. As I began my Freedom List, I realized that my expectations for 2010 fall into 4 categories: my work, the partners who help me get that work out into the world, my son, and my life partner. I know that when all four legs of the chair are in place, I will be living the joyful life of service I am here to live. And how perfect for me that the symbol of my divine year is also the symbol of the space where I work. I do, after all, spend my days sitting in my writing chair.

So, I’m headed to the craft store to get a small wooden chair to put on my altar. And when I draw my mandala for next year (you’ll learn how to do that in the next few days) I’ll put my perfect four-legged balanced chair in the center.

So your delightful task on this the 28th day of the December Plan to call in a magical new year, is to get a symbol for your year. If you’re not sure what that is, ask for divine guidance and it will come. On a walk, in a magazine, in your dreams, while deep soul writing…. It will come.

Then, follow the angels instructions:

“See what you want to see. See it coming…. See only that… See the flow and as you see it, open your hands.”

Me? I see a gorgeous, strong, balanced chair with four gorgeous strong balanced legs: work, partners, son, husband. That’s some chair. My goodness, it’s more of a throne!

**this video is my favorite from childhood – its how i picture myself telling God what my heart desires [like his doesn't already know, lol]

Tanner has been asking about a husband, telling me his wish list for this person (cute, eh?) so here’s mine:

1. must be hot! not talking cute, good looking, nice – I want hot! I have wasted too much time on acceptable.
2. by hot: tall-er 5′11 – 6′3, well groomed, hair, light or really dark eyes, baby soft skin, no unibrow, eyelashes longer than mine, own a pair of nose trimmers and use them, ears (sounds simple but you never know), no hair issues on chest stomach or back, does not need to look like a body builder but I do appreciate a nice physique, a a** would be fun but not too much, no kankles, nice feet.
3. Knows how to dress – I dig peacoats, turtlenecks, trousers, shoes that do not have letter or animals or characters on them, boxer or boxer briefs, no excessive chains medallions rings or earrings, piercing are ok if well done.
4. THE MAJOR STUFF
5. HONEST
6. FAITHFUL
7. COMES HOME TO ME
8. LOVES GOD WITH ALL HIS LIFE
9. Cooks
10. eats
11. sleeps
12. likes dogs cats and enjoys spending time around my animals (i have a sphinx)
13. likes to travel to new places and explore them
14. will travel with WITH me
15. not afraid to try new food places things ideas
16. is smart i mean really smart in a backward not so noticeable way (like the brains of dickinson, dorothy parker, southpark creators, Steve jobs, Mike Rowe, lil wayne [seriously read his lyrics  - they are genius])
17. LOVES MY KIDS AND WANTS TO MAKE BABIES
18. BRITISH ACCENTS ARE BONUS
19. loves to watch movies (i like bollywood a lot)
20. likes to talk on walks
21. loves to go driving
22. take me out – alot
23. like to have people over to play games like Cranium and cards
24. Like to travel with other families
25. thinks prostitution, porn, cheating on ones partner, lying and deception are negative to a growing relationship
26. LIKES MY FRIENDS
27. likes snow, skiing and mountains
28. does not hold it against me that i do not dig yardwork
29. loves to grow things like veggies
30. thinks organic is the only way to go
31. understands that i could have a orgasm everytime i go to wholefoods – its that wonderful! and does not think that is weird.
32. loves that i share my secrets with him and that he shares his with me.
33. TAKES MY BOYS TO GAMES, PARK, RIDE BIKES, FISHING, CAMPING, TO GET DIRTY AND DIG IN THE DIRT – all the things they missed out on.
34. knows that i am a little quirky  - but loves it!
35. is proud of me
36. thinks im beautiful even with pjs and tears
37. loves to dress me up and show me off
38. understands that i think outloud and loves to here me talk
39. know im an idea person and loves it
40. loves that i dream
41. lets me love him
42. lets me take care of him
43. lets me stay home and raise our family even though he knows i could be doing something amazing at the office
44. doesn’t get mad when i forget stuff or fall asleep during the movie
45. reads to the boys
46. leads the boys in Christ
47. prays with and for us and our family
48. doesn’t mind coming home to mess sometimes
49. is my friend, lover, and  knows when to be them and when to let me be his
50. knows my 5 loves languages and let me know his
51. is my knight in shinning armour
52. lets me be me
53. laughs at me when i make dinner and it burns because i had to share with him the news of the day
54. loves that i run to him
55. is open to me loving him in the quirky ways i do
56. loves the notes i leave on his car  and in his breifcase and on his  phone
57. loves that i surprise him with things
58. loves that i am a lady but a freak in bed
59. loves that i love him
60. loves that we have blessings
61. understands that money and things are not as important as family and life
62. HE NEVER RAISES HIS VOICE TO ME OR THE KIDS
63. WOULD NEVER HIT OR ABUSE ME OR THE KIDS
64. WOULD NEVER BRING SOMETHING INTO OUR LIVES THAT WOULD HURT US
65. is strong
66. knows how to fix stuff bc i sure dont
67. he knows how to laugh at life
68. has tattoos not bc its cool but bc they mean something to him
69. is an artist
70. has a job
71. has a career
72. established
73. loves that i grew up the way i did
74. knows me inside and out
75. willing
76. trusts
77. gives
78. takes
79. provides
80. shares
81. not sure if i could do *secret* that…. i trust you God.
82. IS A MAC
83. or if he is a pc is willing to convert.
84. knows the 2 BIG SECRETS about me and does not care but supports me in the struggle.
85. LOVES GOD MORE THAN ME – and knows i do too!

ok so this is it! if you fit the bill – APPLY!

This December Plan to call in a magical new year has been quite an adventure hasn’t it? The first week, we set our intention and created our personal processes. The second week, we unearthed all the gifts of 2009. Last week, we took a long swim in the cleansing sea of forgiveness. With each stroke we collected more and more of the cash that runs this miraculous universe.

You’re rich right now. Whether you see it or not, your pockets are stuffed with miracle cash. This week, you get to decide what you’re going to spend it on. The really fun part of our December Plan starts right now.

2009 has been a strange year for many. For some, it’s been downright brutal. But we are here. We are standing. We are alive. And January 1st is coming. We have done what we could. Now it’s time to gently tuck 2009 in her bed, bless her, kiss her, and say goodnight. It’s time to close that door and turn our faces toward the rising light of 2010.

2010 could be magical. It could be divine. It could be a year of wonder and joy. It could be. And you have the power to call it in. Truth is, like Dorothy, you’ve always had the power, but if you’re anything like me, you’re really just beginning to absorb that profound truth. Our December Plan is our red shoes. And I, for one, am ready to do some serious clicking.

(Thanks to Beth Boardman for this delightful picture. Guys, I know it doesn’t work for you; imagine red loafers!)

 Click I acknowledge that I am an alchemist. I have the power to co-create my life, my world, my year.

Click I know what I want and what I need. I don’t apologize for it. I state it. I state it loud and clear.

Click My year is alive. It has a name, a delicious, delightful, smile-inducing, heart-lifting, soul-popping name.

Click My year has a symbol. A picture. A thing. I infuse my year’s symbol with the power and joy of my new year. Just glancing at it makes me happy.

Click I believe. I believe in myself. I believe in my purpose. I believe that my soul is unfolding just the way it wants.

Click With my head high and proud, I joyfully take the next step toward my purpose. Toward my year. Toward my destiny.

Click I trust. I trust that I am loved, protected, guided, and led. Led right into into my magical new year.

I told you this week would be fun! Let’s begin with Click One:

I am an alchemist. I am a magical being. As Rev. Lauren McLaughlin of Unity Now states so elegantly and succinctly in one of the Twelve Affirmations:

“I am intimately connected to all the power of the universe.”

Say that. Let it sink in. It will start in your head as an idea, but let the words drift down to your throat, your heart, your solar plexus, your stomach, your bowels and down into your legs. Let the words flow out of your body and into the earth. Then back again. Draw the words up into your feet from the blessed earth that sustains you. For fun, when it reaches your feet, click your heels as you say it again:

“I am intimately connected to all the power of the universe.”

Then let the words flow back up through your chakras and out
the top of your head to connect with and attract the power of this beautiful universe — our home. Now and forever. This is home. This is your home. You belong here. You are one of its power children. Not a bad family to be a member of!

Till tomorrow’s blog, keep clicking!

These could make me so happy! Beautiful, beautiful Rick Owens boots!

.. Does anybody know where I can find them in a size 6? European size 36..

$7.00 now, then after 1 month(s) $47.00 every 1 month(s)
https://paydotcom.com/r/16329/dekun1/26030262/

I’m looking for inner peace and harmony that comes with little earth quakes. I’m looking for a person or people who share a lifetime of experiences with me. I’m looking for feeling as alive as possible. I’m looking for doing exactly what I want with my own life and ways how to do it. I’m looking for a way to understand… myself and be me as genuinenly as possible.

for the past two years, i’ve been trying to let it go. trying to move on with my life, avoiding any brush i might have with the past, avoiding any encounter i think i might have that would change the way things were. they were over. and i wanted myself to believe that.

Sorry for not being here these past days! I’ve had a busy weekend!

Friday I hung out with a friend, Saturday I went to a party with Emma, everyone was there, Slept at Nuno’s place along with Dimitri, Anton and Emma, not that much room, hah. Sunday I had to go to work which I really wasn’t in the mood for! especially since the morning started out so good with bunch of cocoa and juice, just lying in bed smoking with all of the people mentioned above..

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• a hard drive.
  doesnt need to hold a big space 150gb is enough. i just need it to stoke movies and pictures. ^^
• more socks.
  cos my smart ass sisters won’t buy their own and they wear mine >:
• a shoe rack.
  i have one in my room but it holds only 20+ pairs and i’m maxing it out to hold 30 pairs. there’s at least 50 pairs now in my room and i’ve already invaded the shoe rack downstairs. my mom will kill me if i take up more space.

that’s all.

So I stumbled upon these nifty little things a few months ago and I need to get a pair. I mean, who doesn’t want a pair of shoes like these?

Vibram makes these shoes called Fivefingers and that’s the perfect name. They fit snuggly on your feet while you’re free to roam the outdoors with no worries about your shoes getting wet and having to worry about blisters and cuts. People rave about them, saying they’re a must have for the avid camper.

Vibram sells them anywhere from $75-$125. Yeah, a bit pricey, but just think about how you won’t have to change your shoes and socks when they get wet.

www.vibramfivefingers.com

Rockers NYC / Cassette Playa

I wanna go on a trip somewhere warm! And I want these things to be in my suitcase when I get there!

.. I wouldn’t complain if these landed under my tree either, they’re gorgeous!

// Please santa!

source : net-a-porter

On sale at Barney’s, I really wanna buy them, sadly my economy isn’t for it!

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What do you want in 2010? Please don’t say something vague like a “better” life. Be specific. But not neurotic. I know there are spiritual teachers who say the more detailed the better. But really, if I were in the market for a new car (I’m not), I wouldn’t say I want a 2006 navy blue Lexus 350i with beige leather interior, a sunroof and wire rims. Even though that sounds like a rather delightful car.

I wouldn’t describe my new car with such a level of detail because the universe may very well have something different or better in store for me. I would say something like, “I am driving my beautiful, safe, affordable, and totally delightful car. I love my new car.” Or, if I wanted to find a job, I wouldn’t say, I want an administrative position in downtown Clearwater making $55,000. Why? Because maybe the perfect job is in Largo. Maybe I’m ready to branch out of administration. Maybe I’ll earn less initially but more very soon thereafter, or maybe there’s a job waiting for me with a higher starting salary. So, I would say something like, “I am in my perfect job doing my perfect work and generating prosperity for myself, my family, and all I serve.”

Got the picture? Think of it as a hamburger (or veggie burger) order. Do you have to specify all the ingredients, the cooking method, the temperature and the condiments for the chef? Or, in the hands of a master chef, don’t you feel free to say something like, “I’d like the best hamburger the chef can make for me, a hamburger that will be an absolute joy to eat.” The idea is to stimulate the universe to deliver what you want but not give it such a tight order that the Master Chef’s hands are basically tied.

And why do you want to do this whole I want exercise? Because in our December Plan we are preparing to call in our magical 2010. How will you know it’s magical? You’ll know it when everything you asked for in December “magically” appears in the next 12 months. You may not know when or how, but it will appear.

So, what do you want?
Professionally?
Personally?
In your home?
Your friendships?
Your relationships?
Your partnerships?
Your business?
Your finances?
Your family?
Your health?
Your dreams?
Make a list. Check it twice. Then, write each I want statement on a small piece of paper or little folded card.

When I went to the craft store to get my Advent wreath, I discovered that the commercial world is a little short on the whole Advent idea. Frustrated, I wandered the aisles looking for anything resembling a candle wreath. I’d just about given up and was planning on getting a few candles and figuring something out at home, when I wandered down a “Holiday Decorations” aisle and saw on a bottom shelf a totally delightful standup wooden Advent Calendar with 25 tiny doors. I know our December Plan goes all the way to December 31. But this wooden calendar is perfect in every other way. (And it was half off, thank you, God.) When I get to December 26, I’ll just go back to door number 1 for a few days.

Here’s how I use my I want statements. Every evening, I light my advent candle (just one this first week) and say my December Plan Prayer. (Day 5’s post) Then I read one I want statement out loud. The statements make me so happy, I can’t help but smile. I instantly feel a little burst of joy imagining this thing arriving in my life. As I smile, I feel a spark of gratitude for this delightful thing. Then I put my little card inside the tiny compartment behind the door marked with the day’s date. By Dec 31, there will be 31 little cards.

If you are using a wreath, you might put a small bowl in the middle and put the cards there, or in a pouch, or a small wooden box. Any arrangement that makes you happy. Remember you are your own priest and you are creating your own December ritual. You are laying the groundwork to call in your divinely guided, lovingly supported, profoundly magical new year.

So, what you want? Do you even know? Don’t be surprised if you don’t. Not really. If that’s the case, ask on the page. “Dear Voice, what do I want? What will make 2010 magical?”