It’s On My Mind!!!!!!

Ever hear a song in your mind play repeatedly? It almost torments your thoughts, with a sweet melody. You try to sing it…. You try to hum it, just to get it out of your system. I had an epiphany. Why not blog whatever song starts to come to mind…. With that said, so begins “The In My Mind” Series!!!!!!!!

*sigh*
Here we are again. You’re trying to pull me back into this circle again. We have a beginning, but we have no purpose. We have a house built on a solid foundation but no family lives there.

Do you love me? You don’t love me. I bet you don’t even think you do. A love, such as our love cannot exist with something stronger to compare it to. This is where we get loose. We are the gray area. We are the null, the void, the undefined. But how then, do we get away with titles? His. Hers. Mine.

My world spins.

You don’t want to hear that I’m with this man. I don’t want to catch you with the next girl. We don’t belong to each other, though. This is unhealthy. We’re too deep and only doing the doggy paddle— Going no where. I tell you I can’t do this. I say that I need more. I want better than this. You tell me I’m stuck with you. Remind me not to forget.

Wrong. We need to forget. We need to fall back. We can’t live in the gray area forever. The light has shone on our darkness. People are looking. They know. They’re watching. You don’t care. Exhibition is ours. You don’t care what they hear, what they see. It’s no longer just us, just you and just me.

Don’t regret me. Don’t forget me. I ask you to let go. Just let me. We can’t live in the gray area forever, remember. We can’t ever be. There can’t always be a 1, 2, and 3. I don’t want that to be me.

We have to let go… especially… if can’t be each other’s only.

A treia carte din seria “Saga lui Darren Shan” a aparut. Sunt bucuros sa va anunt ca le am pe toate pana acum. Astazi am fost prin librari si intr-un final am gasit-o, dupa cateva incercari si dupa raspunsuri de genul “Stoc epuizat”;”Nu mai avem nici un volum”;”Au fost vandute toate cartile din aceasta serie”. Intr-un final am gasit-o si nu imi mai venea sa ma dezlipesc de ea. Nu maia veam rabdare sa ajung acasa si sa ma apuc sa o citesc. Nu am citit-o, nici nu am inceput, dr cand o voi termina de citit imi voi spune parerea, pentru ca merita!

Don’t know why should i feel sad…

yes,sometimes i feel alone and jealous when i see my friends with their boyfriends..but me…i don’t even have any experiences or have a relationship with a boy…maybe some of u won’t believe it or maybe laugh at me and then ask ‘how come?’…yes,i have heard the words so many times…and i also can’t find the answer…but only possibilities which exist in my head,maybe maybe and maybe…

Maybe i still wait for someone or maybe i am not a smart girl or i am not interesting to be talked to…i don’t know and i have no idea…

Actually,maybe because i am not easy to fall in love and to believe with a guy…you know,when i see a problem with one of my friends with her partner sometimes i get doubt with a man…whether he lies,cheat,or something like that.I know it is a part of life also…but maybe because i am not easy to be near with a guy,that’e even more funny maybe,but i am shy when i meet a guy for the first time…

i am stupid…oh…i don’t know what else should i say…but one thing for sure…i believe in god’s will and also a miracle.I can’t tell more about this for those who don’t know me and the story…

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“Ya waktu terus berlari dengan amat kencang. ‘Waktu tidak menunggu’, kata istri saya. Waktu berlari meninggalkan kita dengan sekencang-kencangnya. Ia lari lebih cepat daripada pesawat yang paling cepat. Maka kita semua akan merugi. Hidup akan sia-sia. Tak meninggalkam makna dan kebaikan, kecuali- seperti firman Allah dalam surat Al-‘Ashr- kalau kita beriman dan saling menasehati dalam kebenaran dan kesabaran” (M. Fauzil Adhim, Dunia Kata, hal 26-27)

Waktu merupakan pembentuk kehidupan, semakin baik cara kita menggunakan waktu, maka semakin baik pula kehidupan kita. Karena itu setiap detik yang kita lalui mestinya mengantarkan kita pada kualitas kehidupan yang kita rindukan, termasuk 10 menit yang kita gunakan untuk menunggu dimulainya perkuliahan, menunggu teman yang karena sesuatu hal datang terlambat, atau 10 menit yang kita gunakan untuk menunggu keberangkatan Bis ke kampus atau sebaliknya misalnya.

Perhatikan bahwa jika kita dalam setiap hari membiarkan 10 menit tadi berlalu begitu saja, berarti kita telah membuang 60 jam setiap tahunnya dengan percuma, bukankah waktu itu adalah uang?. Lalu bagaimanakah agar 10 menit tadi kita lebih berharga ?

Jawabannya tentu dengan mengisinya dengan aktifitas-aktifitas sederhana namun berkualitas, salah satunya adalah dengan membaca dan menulis.

10 menit yang kita gunakan untuk menunggu teman, atau menunggu dimulainya perkuliahan misalnya, dapat kita isi dengan membaca, tentunya bahan yang kita baca pun haruslah bacaan yang baik, yang  mencerahkan, dan memberikan inspirasi. Bisa kitab suci, surat kabar, atau buku yang telah anda pilihkan sebelumnya. Jadikanlah buku sebagai sahabat setia, pelengkap dalam perjalanan aktifitas keseharian kita.

Menulis merupakan cara lain untuk memanfaatkan 10 menit Anda. Tulislah apapun yang bermanfaat, misalnya menulis mimpi dan rencana-rencana Anda, atau menuliskan ide-ide tulisan yang tiba-tiba melintas di pikiran Anda pada buku catatan kecil Anda (Ini yang biasa saya lakukan dulu saat masih menggunakan Bis untuk berangkat ke kampus atau sebaliknya. Suasana di dalam bis saat itu terkadang menarik perhatian saya untuk mengikatnya ke dalam catatan-catatan kecil. Tentang pemusik jalanan dengan biolanya, penjual makanan asongan, atau kisah seorang bapak tua yang duduk tidak jauh disamping bangku tempat saya duduk  yang tiba-tiba  membuat  haru hati saya).

Terakhir, semoga selalu ada kegiatan-kegiatan sederhana namun bermanfaat lainnya untuk mengisi 10 menit waktu  Anda agar menjadi lebih berharga dan bermakna.

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Ega Permana

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Assalamu alaykum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh

I’ve finally decided to tell you about my way to the niqab; how and when I started and wanted to wear it…

I’ve always had this love inside of me for the niqab wishing, one day, to wear it full time. I was wearing it only when on holidays in Algeria… until back home or back at the airport… horrible feeling taking it off and returning to the normal life style… working in contact with the public. Well yes, ’cause I was working, in a shop and so in contact with customers every single day subhanaAllah! I was always thinking: if one day I stop to work I’ll wear it for ever insha’Allah!

And here the baraka from Allah, I was blessed with a baby (my son masha’Allah), having the time off for maternity leave, not sure if going back to work or not. Things were going on in my family life so there was the chance for me to go back to work (…. how much I cried and prayed for being a “stay at home mum”!!).  During those months I started to think about the niqab, the idea popped up in my mind when, one day, my family and I went for a lecture in the new mosque. I knew the entrance was the same (for brothers & sisters I mean) so I decided to wear it just to feel more relaxed.

So, on the way to the mosque, I was feeling soooo well masha’Allah! Not a big difference! If one or two people were looking at me, I realized it was the same “looking at me” when wearing the khimaar only. The difference was that, this time, I was feeling even stronger alhamdulillah!

Back home was the big question: keep wearing it or not? – I was answering this question in this way: what if I go back to work? I’ll take it off… I think I should wait! – I was really thinking about this dunya and not with the right intention to wear it. So, after a while, I decided: I do it for Allah, I don’t care, maybe I’ll die before going back to work… who knows??? ….

… and alhamdulillah, after a month or so I finally had the chance to choose to NOT go back to work, wearing my niqab and feeling it as a reward of my Lord for putting my trust in Him… Allahu Akbar!

Entah kenapa dada ini selalu sesak ketika saia merasa telah menyakiti hati orang lain. Sangat sakit dan semakin sakit setiap nama orang tersebut terlintas dalam pikiran. Mungkinkah ini sebuah ’sensor’ yang sangat peka yang diberikan Alloh sebagai pertanda bahwa setiap manusia harus saling menyayangi. Tidak layak manusia saling menyakiti apalagi menganiaya.

Mungkin juga sekejam-kejamnya penjahat, setega-teganya orang pasti juga merasakan hatinya sakit ketika dia menyakiti orang lain. Entah apakah dia tidak mau mengakuinya, ataukah memang sudah terlalu sering merasakan sakitnya hingga ia tidak lagi merasakan apa-apa.

Semoga Alloh masih tetap menyematkan rasa sakit itu disetiap hati hamba-Nya.

Like a $50.00 tip over 50%. I wanna be tippin’ because of you.