Well I guess we known the real reason why he got bashed up side his head with his PGA tour DRIVER!

Damn…..

I swear to god if this lady tells me one more time that she wants clothes like Glenn Close from Damage we will be fighting. I’m not complaining, I just wasn’t in the mood. She was cool and came from a referral from Leah. I break Leah off a fee and keep the rest. Its a sweet gig I got going plus I get to be around clothes all day. My husband is very sweet and he works A LOT. In a way I cant believe we got married. I have been asking for him to pencil me in for several weeks now but to no avail. Last time I left him over it, but I now I trying to be more patient. I was but a lot has happened. Let me back up, three weeks ago I made reservations for Brian and I to go out to dinner. The night of,  he doesn’t call me to even let me know that he got my reminder messages. I called Leah and asked if she wanted to go out to dinner with me. She suggested this spot called Lima I was already dressed in my new black BCBG dress and Elizabeth & James peep toe ankle boots that I had been dying to wear. So I decided I was going out anyway. I picked her up and we were on the way. We got a table and ordered a couple of drinks. The atmosphere was nice and before long and anger I had went away.

About an thirty minutes into our outing our waiter bought over some drinks. “The gentlemen over there bought you ladies these drinks.” I looked over and hands down it was one of the finest man I had ever seen. I need to say it again. It was the finest man I had ever seen. He was about 6′2 or 6′3, 220 plus of fineness. In the lighting he looked to be a white or very light brother. either way it didnt matter because he was hot.  I looked to him and mouthed thank you and when our waiter came over again I told him to buy him two of whatever they were drinking. Leah was giggling up a storm and before i knew it they were at our table.

Micheal and Robert were cool guys they both were fianciers. I was kinda impressed. I told Micheal from the jump I was married and he didn’t seem to care. He told me that was nice but he could take me away if I let him. I had to set him straight. Not in a neck rolling kinda way but I simply said I am not “like that” and you guys know what I mean. He laughed and told me he understood I was a classy woman and wasn’t meaning it in a bad way. Whatever. Leah clicked with Robert and Micheal and I clicked. I was scared because I felt like I was cheating. Am I  now better than Brian was before? At that moment it clicked in my brain that I should check my phone to see if he called to which he didnt. I decided at that moment I was spending the night at Leah’s house.

It was still early being it was only 9 and Robert suggested we go to this spot called Posh. They had reservations and asked us to join them. I am not well versed in nightlife so after some convincing and a pleading look from Leah. I decided to go. We were walking and talking like old friends on the way to my car. He opened my door and I waited for him to pull around to follow. We got there and it was lively. It was a mixed crowd kinda old school supper clubbish. Everything was flowing, conversations, drinks. It was scary to me to vibe with someone who isnt my husband.

The night weared on and he gave me his cared and basically asked me to call six thousand times. I had drag Leah out but it was getting late and I didnt want to be out with strangers. I dropped Leah off and went home and of course Brian wasnt there. I called and was sent straight to voicemail. I was tired and not in the mood, I went downstairs had a couple of shots and went to sleep.

In the morning around 10:30 am he breezed in the house like he hadn’t been gone all night. While he was in the shower I went through his phone and wrote  down the last numbers which I planned to call later. When he got out, I asked did he remember about the dinner to which he replied he completely forgot. My next question was why didn’t he didn’t answer any calls or call me back and his response was “I was really busy” … Yeah really busy fucking some chic, I thought to myself. I wasn’t going to blow up the spot but I knew the deal.  ”Make it up to me and take me to dinner tonight.”… ” Long pause. ” I have a business dinner.” Long blank stare by me. “Come with me.”  I sighed. It was an offer but it wasn’t good enough. “How is that romantic? How is that making it up to me?”..”It’s what I can do for now.”…”What you can do for now? How is that good enough?”

“Like I said its what I can do”  He walked out of the room. Stunned wouldnt accurately describe how I felt. I followed him and asked” What is going on?” …”Baby, nothing. I just dont want to argue.” …Noooo something is going on and as I was talking he cut me off and yelled there is nothing going on and he was done having this fucking conversation.” Wow. He was fiesty and I knew something was up. I grabbed his hand and took him to the bed. I started to touch him and asked in my sweetest voice to please make love to me which I had never done ever. He said nothing and looked blank. He got up and said “I gotta go” and left.

And with that I was even more shocked because he has never in life rejected me. I sat there and cried. That hurt more than anything he as ever done. I stumbled downstairs and brought a bottle of patron back up with me. I drank from the bottle and decided that I didn’t belong there. I packed what I could and headed for downtown. I pulled into the nearest hotel which happened to be the Renaissance Mayflower, got a room and cried/drank myself to sleep. I woke up late and when I checked my phone, I saw that Brian called 59 times literally. I put on the first pieces of clothing I could find and went to the Sprint store and bought a new phone. I went back to the hotel and emailed all my clients with my new information. That was six weeks ago and I haven’t talked to him since. There is really nothing say. I know in my heart that we are over and it hurts. I will keep you guys posted.

Sendiri dikantor, tanpa teman yang menemaniku, sebatang rokokpun tak ada tuk ku nikmati. Temenku yang cantik disana pun, entah kemana, tiada kabar setelah sms terkahir. Hmmm …. pacaran kali ya… biarin lah, emang dia udah punya pacar.
Silahkan lanjutkan, aku juga akan melanjutkan hidupku. Ya mama.. mama…. sikapmu membingungkan semua orang, termasuk diri mama sendiri, dan terutama aku. Gak ada gunanya kayaknya aku terus bertahan seperti ini. Semua harapan ini harus dimusnahkan tuk selama lamanya, sekarang saatnya kembali membuka hati tuk wanita lain.. Bisakah diriku melakukannya ?
Aku udah pernah menjalin hubungan dengan seorang wanita, tidak ada alasan bagiku tuk bersikap seperti ini terus. Dia emang bukan cinta pertamaku, tp baru pertama kali ini aku ingin serius ama seorang wanita. Entahlah, apakah dia masih ragu kepadaku atau dia memimpikan sesuatu yang lebih indah dari pada bersanding bersamaku? Hanya dia yang tahu.

Ketidaktegasan yang semakin jenuh tuk dirasakan.
Kebimbangan dari sikapmu yang mulai membuatku menyerah tuk mengejarmu.
Bukan diri ini mudah tuk melupakan semuanya
Tapi emang tiada arah yang baik tuk dilanjutkan
Harapan kosong yang selalu kau berikan
Rasanya udah cukup sampai disini tuk aku rasakan
Mulai sekarang kita hanya sepasang teman
Teman biasa tanpa kemesraan
Teman biasa yang tak perlu dirindukan
Teman biasa yang tak perlu tuk diperhatikan
Teman biasa yang tak mudah untuk dilupakan
Alihkan harapanmu kepada dy yang lebih baik dan lebih mencintaimu
Akan kualihkan harapanku tuk seseorang yang akan aku temui nanti
Seorang wanita yang akan menemaniku
Tuk mengarungi behtera hidup yang sayang tuk dilewatkan
Seorang wanita yang akan sepenuh hati kan kucintai
Dengan kedua tanganku ini
Kan kucoba tuk membuat dia selalu tersenyum
Dengan kedua tanganku ini pula
Kan kucoba tuk membawakannya sebuah kebahagian hidup yang sangat indah
Yang akan abadi untuk selamanya
Dengan kedua tangan ini
Kan kurangkul semua anak-anakku
Kan kuberikan mereka sebuah pengertian tentang hidup
Kan kuajari mereka tentang sebuah ketegasan dalam menjalani hidup
Kan kutunjukkan kepada mereka sebuah jalan tuk meraih sesuatu yang indah
Kan kuajarkan mereka cara membahagiakan pasangan mereka
Dan cara mencintai sesama.

Semuanya udah usai, kita jalani kehidupan kita masing-masing ….
pertanyaannya : bisakah kita melakukannya mulai sekarang, mulai malam ini ?
atau dirimu akan memberiku waktu sampai kapan aku harus bertahan ?

Jika emang harus mulai malam ini, aku hanya bisa bilang, maafkan atas semua sikapku, terimakasih telah mengisi hari-hariku, dan berbaringlah dalam tempat tidurmu, lupakan diriku dalam mimpimu, dan bangunlah di pagi hari dengan penuh senyuman tuk menyambut hari esok yang harus lebih baik.

Jika dirimu meminta aku tuk bertahan, sampai kapan aku harus bertahan ? sampai kapan aku harus memupuk angan-angan ? sampai kapan perasaan seperti malam ini harus aku rasakan ? sampai kapan ? jika jawabanmu hanya tidak tahu. Pilihan pertama akan menjadi pilihanku.

semoga semuanya jelas …
*apa yang aku rasakan semalam …..

With a mix of old school grunge and verbal hint of Creed, A-Tract is a new alternative band that has made an impact the K-Rock scene. Despite the average age of the all members is only 17, they’ve already got stage experience and landed the producing/composing rights their first self-titled album.

From the lyrics, to the melody, to arranging it for a track, each member has played a vital role in the making of the band. Members include: Leader/vocalist Kim Ji Ho, guitarists Raze and Kim Jin Hwan, and last but not least bassist Diem.Their first track “It’s Over” is steamy ballad that not only displays Ji Ho’s amazing talent, but was also composed by guitarist Jin Hwan.

There’s not a lot of indie/rock bands hitting the crowds lately so it’s refreshing having them in full force!  The “Goodbye” track will probably be ended up being the favorite however, the whole album is definitely worth the your time.

A-Tract – Goodbye [Audio]

Monday – 9.00pm. Charenton.

My place. (our place)

She came back home and was looking pretty odd. Her face looked sad. The tone of her voice sounded strange. And so she began telling me…

- “Bob*”, It is over, our marriage is over… I do not love you anymore…

As she is a kind of rational person, she had already set everything up in her head.

Well, I’m not that kind of person I do not accept things concerning me without saying my word. And I am a believer. I believe in us, our 2 person project, our family. I will fight. I will fight to keep that family in one piece. And if I failed, I would have at least tried! For me, but most important, for our kids.

As I need to talk and do not want people to get bored with me, I’ll write it on these pages.

(*my name is not Bob…)

Secondhand Serenade’s It’s Over is what i’m listening to at the moment. I’m not an emo but i can’t help to feel what the song is trying to let me feel.

My tears run downlike
razor blades…
I’m falling apart.
You’re breaking my heart.
It’s not over.
It’s never over.
Why is it over?

Yeah.. Heart break. Still. I think i’ve said for the nth time that i’m so over it! But still, I’M NOT! Especially when everything that i’m turning into reminds me of him.

Take note: EX-Boyfriend no. 2 hurts me the most. I’m hurt not because i still love him BUT because i’m still the one with grudge for him. HE LEFT ME!

(if you can’t understand what i’m saying, please read my other post entitled “Why i Don’t Have A Boyfriend… RIGHT NOW?!)

I still can’t take away the hurt that i’m feeling for him.

I’m left without any notice.
Okay. Maybe someday i might forget about him. I’ll be waiting for that day…. unconsciously.
Haha. Am i now an emo?!

God bless!
Melody J. Mular
http://www.Twitter.com/KristenMelody

I’m running scared and I have one foot out the door.

Wait for me sweetheart, I’m coming.

I look back, but there’s not much to see, so I need to look straight ahead.

No regrets.

Wait for me, I’m coming.

I long for you and the time passes so slowly.

Will you hold my hand?  I’m terrified.

I might fall.  Will you pick me up?

Wait for me, I’m coming.

What if I cry?  Will you wipe away my tears?

I need reassurance.  Can you give it?

Wait for me, I’m coming.

My heart is pounding, my pulse racing, I see the light.

My mind is blurry with scattered thoughts, but I see clearly.

I can’t stop this now.

Wait for me, I’m coming.

My soul cries, can you hear it?

Do you hear me calling your name?

Wait for me, I’m coming.

By: Jesse McCartney

We’ve run out of words we’ve run out of time
We’ve run out of reasons really why we together
We both know it’s over baby bottom line
It’s best we don’t even talk at all

Don’t call me even if I should cross your mind
Hard enough I don’t need to hear your voice on my messages
Let’s just call it quits it’s probably better
So if I’m not returning your calls it’s ’cause

‘Cause I’m not comin’ back I’m closing the door
I used to be trippin’ over missin’ you but I’m not anymore
I got the picture phone but baby your picture’s gone
Couldn’t stand to see your smile every time you dialed

‘Cause it’s over
Girl you know it’s over this time
So when you call I’m pressin’ seven
Don’t wanna hear your messages messages
I’m tryna erase you from my mind
‘Cause it’s over
I swear girl it’s over this time
So don’t keep callin’ leavin’ messages
Don’t wanna know where you been
Baby ’cause it’s over

I still wake up every morning quarter to ten
I still eat my cereal right at the kitchen table
I can’t even remember how long it’s been
No trouble stayin’ occupied

Oh I ask about you whenever I come around
I do what I can not to put my business in the streets
Last thing I need’s another episode
Keep conversation short and sweet because

‘Cause I’m not comin’ back I’m closing the door
I used to be trippin’ over missin’ you but I’m not anymore
I got the picture phone baby your picture’s gone
Couldn’t stand to see your smile every time you dialed

‘Cause it’s over
Girl you know it’s over this time
So when you call I’m pressin’ seven
Don’t wanna hear your messages messages
I’m tryna erase you from my mind
‘Cause baby it’s over
I swear girl it’s over this time
So don’t keep callin’ leavin’ messages
Don’t wanna know where you been
Baby ’cause it’s over

You know that it’s over when the burnin’
And the yearnin’ inside your heart ain’t there anymore
And you know that you’re through when she don’t do to you
And move you like the way she moved ya before

And you wanna pull her close
But your heart has froze
You kiss her but her eyes don’t close
Then she goes out of your heart forever
And it hurts you but you know that it’s better

Girl you know it’s over
Girl you know it’s over this time
So when you call I’m pressin’ seven
Don’t wanna hear your messages messages
I’m tryna erase you from my mind
‘Cause it’s over
I swear girl it’s over this time
So don’t keep callin’ leavin’ messages
Don’t wanna know where you been
Baby ’cause it’s over
‘Cause it’s over
Girl you know it’s over this time
So when you call I’m pressin’ seven
Don’t wanna hear your messages messages
I’m tryna erase you from my mind
‘Cause it’s over
I swear girl it’s over this time
So don’t keep callin’ leavin’ messages
Don’t wanna know where you been
Baby ’cause it’s over

After 4 years of dating, Nelly and Ashanti have called it quits!

Very well, but remember this… I’ll be looking at you when you’re laid on the cross and the twelve blows are crashing down on your limbs. When the crowd is finally tired of your screams and wandered home, I will climb up through your blood and sit beside you. I will look deep into your eyes… and drop by drop I will trickle my disgust into them like burning acid until… finally… you perish.

Sometime back I made mention to the fact that the thrill was gone with Bronx. Well, I it wasn’t totally gone at least not then. But it is gone now for sure. First of all, I was being totally distracted from my goal. Uh…look at the URL…the site is called “35 First Dates”…not 35 dates with one guy. Besides there are a number of things that I have discovered that I don’t find very appealing. In years past I would have ignored those things and just been happy that I was “seeing” someone. Well, like the thrill with Bronx, those days are gone too. I don’t have time for the nonsense. I’m on a mission and I only have 152 more days to reach the finish line. Sorry Bronx, but you no longer have a chance at becoming the next top guy.

After sixteen years, VIBE magazine has closed it’s doors! Here is their statement!

“On behalf the VIBE CONTENT staff (the best in this business), it is with great sadness, and with heads held high, that we leave the building today,” said Danyel Smith, former Chief Content Officer of Vibe Media Group and Editor in Chief of Vibe.

“We were assigning and editing a Michael Jackson tribute issue when we got the news,” Smith said in a statement released to AllHipHop.com. “It’s a tragic week in overall, but as the doors of VIBE Media Group close, on the eve of the magazine’s sixteenth anniversary, it’s a sad day for music, for hip hop in particular, and for the millions of readers and users who have loved and who continue to love the VIBE brand. We thank you, we have served you with joy, pride and excellence, and we will miss you”

SOURCE: ALLHIPHOP.com

Do Not Enter is right. We are breaking up in here! So various news outlets (including the NY Daily News) are reporting that dumb dumb Jessica Simpson and former dumb dumb who obviously lost his mind when faced with big titty-bitties for a year Tony Romo are over it. It looks like Tony called it quits on her as he went out with tons of his friends last Friday to party at LA club My House on Jessica’s 29th birthday. Sans her. HAH! Someone take a picture of me blowing out my candles……*crickets*…..*SOB!*

“She is heartbroken,” says the source. “She loves Tony. But it’s been difficult lately. He’s busy with his career and she’s getting ready to shoot her show (The Price of Beauty). They decided to part ways.”

I’m guessing the Price of Beauty is some sort of infomerical? That would cure my current insomnia. I would immediately shut my TV off if her heifer mouth came on trying to sell me rouge. She doesn’t have anything else going on besides trying to shoo her Dad out of her bed. Oh, and why did Tony really leave? Here’s a clue:

Simpson is said to have planned a Barbie and Ken-themed birthday party for July 10, however no such event happened.

“Barbie party didn’t happen, but I turned 29 and feel like I am on top of the world yelling I LOVE GETTING OLDER!” she wrote on Twitter.

That’s such a pre-suicide attempt Tweet. There is no way in hell a self-respecting athlete is going to show up for that party. He would probably have been traded from the Cowboys when those pics got out. Does that mean he would have to cover his genitals up with some sort of plastic and drive a really gay car over? He probably had to cover them up when Joe Simpson was around anyways. That guy goes both ways and he knows no limits. What’s Jessica’s is his!

I’m really happy for Romo. He’s kinda goofy looking but has a nice smile and can probably do a lot better than that dumbass bitch. I’m sorry, when a celebrity will try any career path to keep the money flowing in despite being a shithead, I have no sympathy. Pop, reality tv, acting, makeup line, country music. My head is spinning from how much you suck, Jessica. Take Dad’s tongue out of your crevasse and go rest awhile and come back when you have talent. I will not buy your cheesecake lip gloss.

p.s. Don’t feel too bad for her. Her ex-husband Nick Lachey is single once more, as well. Newlyweds 2 comin’ to MTV On Demand in 5!