I HAVE A THOUSAND WORDS TO SAY.
BUT, YOU LEAVE ME SPEECHLESS.
CAUSE YOU SAID, ILOVEYOU

Nabilah razak is my new friend in myspace. She have a flickr, and when I open it, gosh! all her photos is beautiful.

http://www.flickr.com/photos/bellarazak

Dude, I love your photos

someone is trying to change me. I know it. haishh, how many times must I tell you ? I hate changes. anyway, kakla add me on facebook. well, I guess its not weird to you, because she is my sister. But to me, yes its weird. and she likes one of my photos. and mom look at my photo that kakla likes, and said, why you take picture same like kakli? and I was, huh? kakli? not at all. yesterday, when to nayli’s house. and otp with this one stranger named Irfan (wan muhammad irfan) hha. nayli thinks he is rempit. and i don’t know what to say. in the evening, go jalan to U8. go inside the kumon to see *ehmm , hha. but he wasn’t there. hha what a joke. and go buys drinks and credits. and go jalan balik rumah nayli. and duduk kejap, then my mom dtg. go balik. mandi and 9.10pm. end at 9.45pm. tu pn sbb mom off main tangki. so my room won’t have air. -_______-’ disturb  lah. haishoo.

well, thats all I guess.

L, Jem

~aku.rasa~ ada la sebiji kereta yang ~aku.rasa~ memang dok kuda. Itu je la harta ~aku.rasa~ yang ada pun. Baru la gak ~aku.rasa~ dok pakai. Tiap² bulan ~aku.rasa~ memang akan servis. Kira ~aku.rasa~ jaga la kondisi kereta tu. Ye la.. dah beli guna duit titik peluh, harus la jaga kan?

Tapi ~aku.rasa~ selalu terpikir pasal cerita di sebalik kereta yang bergerak di atas jalan raya ni. Especially kat KL.

Mari kita berimaginasi sedikit.

Siapa yang jual kereta² di Malaysia ni? Atau sapa yang kawal penjualan kereta² ini?

1. orang kaya (orang² berpengaruh juga disebut orang kaya)
2. orang kaya kawan menteri / politikus
3. orang kaya sedara menteri / politikus
4. orang kaya proxy menteri / politikus
5. orang menteri / politikus itu sendiri

aku.rasa golongan² kat atas ni la yang paling layak kot. Kalau orang tak de duit, camne nak jual kereta kan? Nak jual keta 2nd hand pun belum tentu. Walaupun kereta jenis 2nd hand memang berlambak kat Malaysia ni.

ok, itu satu bab. Pastu, kita gi pulak kat jalan raya. Sapa yang buat jalan raya? Atau lebih tepat, sapa yang suruh buat jalan raya?

1. PM
2. Kabinet
3. Menteri Kerja Raya
4. Kementerian Kerja Raya
5. PBT
6. Pejabat Daerah

aku.rasa memang dorang ni jer pun yang selalu buat kerja² jalan raya ni kan? Untuk memudahkan rakyat gak. Itu memang aku tak sangkal langsung..

Tu pasal jalan raya. Last skali minyak. Tak kira la petrol ka disel ka.. as long as nama dia minyak. Sapa yang jual? Sapa yang kawal?

1. orang kaya (orang² berpengaruh juga disebut orang kaya)
2. orang kaya kawan menteri / politikus
3. orang kaya sedara menteri / politikus
4. orang kaya proxy menteri / politikus
5. orang menteri / politikus itu sendiri

aku.rasa sama ja.. Yang buat bisnes besar² ni, ini je golongan dia. Naik turun harga minyak, kerajaan kan yang kawal?

Ok, Sekarang ni kereta dah ada, jalan raya dah ada, minyak dah ada. Sebagai rakyat, ‘harus’ la ada duit untuk beli kereta dan taruk minyak kan? Walaupun duit yang ada tu nak beli sandwich kat depan LRT Masjid India pun tak lepas. Ok, jom kita drive…

Pagi kuar umah nak pegi kerja (minyak dah taruk semalam ngam²) dah nak mengadap jem. Kenapa jem? Kerana kereta banyak.. (hm…) Perjalanan yang terkemut² itu telah menyebabkan kereta makan minyak. Kalau tutup ekon nanti panas. Bila panas nanti peluh. Bila peluh nanti busuk. So, on lah ekon. Lagi la kereta tu telan minyak macam kita minum sirap ais masa buka puasa.

aku.rasa kalau jem tu dari Jalan Kuching nak ke Jalan Tun Razak mungkin ok la kot. Tapi kalau jem tu dari simpang Bangsar menuju ke Shah Alam melalui Lebuhraya Persekutuan, tak ke kaki jadi besar sebelah? Minyak? xyah cite la beb, jarum meter minyak tu dah macam jarum minit jer dia punya pergerakan.

S: kenapa tak guna NPE?

J: Nak ikut NPE nak kena bayar toll RM1.60 x 2 dah RM3.20. One way. Kalau pergi balik? Tu pun sangkut gak kat pondok toll ngan exit Shah Alam

S:kenapa duduk Bangsar kerja kat Shah Alam?

J: Dah kerja kat kilang gula, kat mana lagi ada kilang gula kat KL / Selangor ni? Lagi pun bini kerja kat Brikfiels dan mertua dia dok situ gak.

S: kenapa tak tukar kerja je?

J: Isk, kilang gula tak de kat tempat lain la.  Lagi pun tempat keja bini dekat.

S:kenapa tak naik motor?

J: Kalau hujan, nak kena benti bawah flyover. Risiko kena langgar tinggi. Pastu, risiko nak kena pow ngan brother² ane’ kat area Subang pun tinggi.. Bahaya sangat kot. Tu tak kira langgar lari lagi.

Tak kira lagi menggunakan jalan raya time cuti raya. Dah cam ada disaster jer kat KL.. suma nak kuar dari KL. Kalut pulak tu..

so, sekarang ni pemenang adalah penjual kereta & pedagang minyak & partly geng² kerajaan. Dan yang kalah tetaplah pengguna² jalan raya atau lebih tepat rakyat yang membeli kereta dan mengisi minyak yang dijual oleh golongan² diatas.

So, aku.rasa kerajaan perlu kot buat something. aku.rasa tahap jem kat KL ni dah kritikal la. Jalan panjang yang berlubang², jumlah kereta yang diluluskan penjualanya, minyak kena taruk, toll kena bayar, saman kena bayar, road tax, insurance. Teruk oo..

~aku.rasa~

Its time for me to take a long break. I will be away for some weeks. I’m a very busy person. I need to do something which take a long time.I’m sorry, if I didn’t pick up the phone or reply your messages or comment or etc. I’m really sorry. I can’t do anything to change that. I don’t know. I seem to have a lot of problems and I causes a lot of problems. I need time to rearrange them. yesterday, i slept at 5 am. and woke up at 1 pm. And wake up, everyone mad at me.  What is wrong with everyone ? someone please understand! well, gtg now.

Jem – Just A Ride

Because it’s an OC themed day!!! YAY!!

Please ignore the tittle. anyway, today.
went to rumah nenek in kl. wearing baju kurung. and reach there, like 4pm+ and uncles and auties and cousins are there. but not all of them were there. We suppose to be there about 3. but we’re late. hha. as usual, we’re always late for something. Mom is the first siap and risha also. and pup were late. and yeah, GIRLS are suppose to be late. kan? kan? Gosh! what am I talking about. I ate a lot today. cause nenek force me to. and there’s so much delicious food. so I ate ‘em. hha. and bla bla. oh, we’re there because uncle kamal wants to say something about the family day or whatever. that family day, we have to wear the same colour of clothes. and guess what is our group’s colour. ORANGE you know. and when he announce it, we all like wooo.. why orange. hha. uhh.. ugly colour. then we ate ate ate talk talk talk. bye nenek. and nenek was sedih because we’re going home. she asked us to stay, but we don’t want. hha.

Yesterday,
I had a sisters supper together (me, kakla, and kakli). Kakla cooked mee sedap 2 packs share 3 of us. then oh god! Oh god, tak nampak macam mee sedap langsung. its lembik and lembik. idk. well,, I gtg now. need to get some rest. tomorrow maybe going shopping at KL. which suppose go tadi. hha. so need rest.
p/s; kakla gave me a song which is kinda nice to listen to. KIMIA – MELDA AHMAD

XOXO,

Up for grabs here is a very tasty Ibanez JS100. You find this guitar in the lovely Transparent Red finish. It’s in good shape – plays really well and sounds lush! You’ve got the fantastic Edge III tremolo system for all of those dive-bombs and artificial harmonic squeals, and also Joe’s name inlaid into the fretboard at the 21st fret.

Mr. Satriani is well known for his fantastic tone, and also the versatility of the instrument he’s designed that we’re discussing now. A core part of the flexibility of this instrument is in the ‘push-pull’ tone control. This opens you up to a range of single coil type sounds not unlike the configuration on a telecaster. That’s right, not only can you get searing lead lines, but glorious twang too!

In my view this guitar is an excellent buy, and great value for money – you’ll get a lot of mileage out this guitar! £399 is the price…let us know where we need to send it!

Yeah, I don’t know what I really need right about now.

I really needs a NEW PHONE! please!! talk about new phone, this morning, mom read newspaper. and saw a new phone frm Nokia. touch screen. rm800++ and its new model. then I said, mom. nak. and mom said, nantilah. next month. *melting hha stupid. whats the model? Ican’t remember. but seriously, I NEED A NEW PHONE!

OH MOM, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! <3

‘Think How Different It Wold Be
If You Never Met The Person
Who Changed Your Life ‘

Ever since I was a little girl, I always wanted to be Jem … this so was my favorite cartoon when I was a kid. Jem was a record company owner Jerrica by day and a rockstar by night. Her dad made this computer called Syngery that allowed her to turn into Jem. All she had to do was mess with her earring and she turned into Jem. She had a boyfriend named Rio and a band called the Jem and the Holograms that included Shana, Kimber and Aja …. Shana got kicked out and replaced by Raya because she had a drug problem (she really didn’t. She just left and then she came back). Jem’s rival band was the Misfits (not the real life band The Misfits), lead by Pizzazz and her friends Stormer, Roxy and Jetta.

Just like any other cartoon – Transformers, G.I. Joe, Thundercats, etc. – Jem had a huge following and there’s actually an annual convention for fans every year … though I love Jem, I think I’d rather enjoy it as a novelty as opposed to traveling all the way to New Hampshire next year to meet other fans … that’d be too weird for me.

I tend to geek out about pop culture. I am an avid teen novel junkie, love watching retro commercials, and my favorite sweatshirt has a picture of Jem on it.

So of course I would want to inflict this on my children.

I was the mother pushing a stroller in the line of the midnight release of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows at Pegasus. And of course my 1-year-old daughter had a lighting blot drawn in eyebrow pencil across her forehead, it only seemed appropriate. She was kept up all night in the middle of a pack of tweens and overly excited booksellers so that her mother could give into her obsession.

I have dressed her in Adidas track suits, without the shell toes, as an ode to my favorite rap group. She knows all the words to Another One Bites the Dust and could pick out Freddie Mercury out of a line up. She can tell you who that frogs can hip hop better than other cartoon animals. But recently I wondered if I might have to start to filter my pleasantries.

Recently I have been swooning over Kings of Leon, a band whose it Sex on Fire single has been dominating the radio airwaves for months. I, not wanting my daughter to repeat the words, would make up my own and sing them at the top of my lungs in the car as the song played. This way I get my fix and she won’t know the difference, right? “Oh, this dress is on fire,” the two of us would sing. The other day I wasn’t on top of my mommy game, and I forgot to cover up the lyrics. Next thing I know, I hear in the back “Sex on fire, what?” Okay it is not like the kid has not heard the word sex, but it caught me off guard. I did what anyone would do in this situation, I lied.

“No he said ‘Dress on fire.’”

“Mommy! Sex on fire.”

And so went the battle. I realized that I would never get to listen to my precious Kings of Leon with her around, and put on Madonna full blast to switch the subject.

Another incident that had me scratching my head was a game her and her buddy are now playing at school. As you can figure I am a Twilight geek, and proud of it, thank you very much!

“Today at school we played Bella and Edward.”

“OH, how do you play that?”

“Naja is Bella and I am Edward.”

“OK?”

“She swims and I stand there and look at her.”

Now if you aren’t familiar with the story the game sounds odd, but if you are it is just creepy. It is from a commercial where Bella jumps off a cliff so that she can see the ghost of her vampire boyfriend.

I think I might have to tone down my geek, for the sake of the kids of course.

Today is the day before the big T-Day, and what better way to celebrate than by thanking the universe for pink hair.  (I was going to sing the praises of open soda fountains in fast food joints, but faint rouge follicles FTW.)

It doesn’t matter if the puce  a wig, dyed, or animated, pink is a winner.  Now presenting three solid examples:

Also known as The Mercury Girl (click image for commercial), Jill Wagner gets the mercury rising.

Natalie Portman is Closer to a rapper than the singer Pink ever was (click image for proof).

My insurance policy on how much pink hair rules (click image for more thoughts on Erin Esurance).

Not a chance this is better than pink hair (but if there happened to be Mountain Dew)...

Today, I’m finally 14 years old

Yes, yes. Today is my birthday. The first person that wished me on the right date is KAKLA! yeah, love you. Then follow by kakli, and then NAYLI . and  papa bought me a t-shirt for my birthday present. and mom belanja ice-cream. -,-’

This year’s birthday, is much better then my other past birthday.

LOVE, jem <3

Hey, today I clean up my messy room. mom help me. So, its really clean as my mom’s room. hha. And thank you for not asking so much questions like pup used to do to me everytime he helps me clean the room. Not much to say in this post. Oh, yesterday I collect alot of pictures. I’ll upload it later.

LOVES,
JEM

If I wear this tomorrow, please promise me not to laugh at me.

WILL YOU DO  THAT ?

Maybe those stupid reminder remains you of me, kan? heh! I you really forget about me, just ignore that fucking remainder will you?
Oh, wanna know something? I also forget about you. But I talk to you about it, because someone told me to. Go get a life, BITCH!

Gosh! Straight to the point, I HATE YOU!

I was about to move back to blogger.

But I think I should stay,

Seriously, I had no idea. This picture isn’t so bad.

Quite a while since I’d attended Diamonds as I’d been away in USA and busy with various family things, I went along with Jem this week. It was good to see such a good turn out and to see old friends and meet a couple of new folk.

I was  shocked to hear that the landlord of the Bird had been attacked outside the pub in an apparently homophobic attack and is in hospital with head injuries. This is just appalling, I simply can’t understand anyone who has a problem with LGBT people going to a ‘gay’ pub and then being upset and going of on one. of course the cynic in me says that’s why they choose to go to the Bird in the first place.  I hope this will be born in mind when they are prosecuted and sentenced for this crime.

I spent much of the evening talking with Amba and a new acquaintance Kelly, when they left I caught up with Lucinda, Di, Hannah and Pauline another new girl. And this week we actually took some pictures in the pub (see below)

Yeah, everyone wish they had a time machine. so do I need it. I don’t know. I mean, I wish I had one so I could go back to the old life time and change everything. so When its today again, everything changed. I mean from bad things to good. and I want my old life time so badly. well, I don’t know why I wants it. but, to be honest, I love all my sisters and my parents. Even they have hurt me so many times. But yeah, I want to see us happy again. and I miss talking to kakli. and I miss the time that kakla always played with me outside. like cycling till i jatuh basikal. and have to go to the clinic. and, playing stupid stuff outside. and I still remembered the time that petir one. hha. aww, miss you lah tulang! and oh, if I have that time machine, who knows, risha is my bestfriend. I mean not like now. fighting everyday. kan? hmmp,, what to do. and I will try not to hurt so many hearts. hha.. Nayli said I’m HEARTLESS. hha. but maybe its true. so many guys asked to be their girlfriend, but I tak nak. hha. That time my heart is close. talk about guys, where could Zul be. hha. my first guy bestfriend. he is so sweet. but too bad, I moved. :’( My bestfriend, amira. Yeah, where are you? My first bestfriend. I met her in the kindergarten. Miss you so damm much! oh amira, sorry for not replying all you cards you gave me. hee.. And Ira, the only person who understand me what is my problems in that school. We lost contact lah. so sayang. The Bagan Datoh’s school. hmmp I don’t really miss them so much. because they all hates me. Kan? Sitiawan? same. They all acting like they like me. but no. BACK STABBER. When are you guys gonna stop hates city people? Lastly, Bukit Jelutong. Finally stop moving I guess. I hate Ameera. I miss Aainaa. I hate Aina Nadhirah. I miss Nayli.