Jen: You’ve been wanting me to start writing in my blog again and this is going to be my start. This is for you.

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I was chatting with a pal this morning and the conversation turned to our relationships as they so often do. I had mentioned how Jen and I have been talking about starting a business together and marriage and all that seriousness that early relationships develop into. My friend then linked me to this book called What I Love About You, a “fill-in-the-blank book [that] prompts you to say what is in your heart, but may not always be at the tip of your tongue.” And I thought this would be enjoyable and cool! But at the same time I thought that it would be a bit anxiety-building.

For several years now, I’ve come to realize that my memory hasn’t always been firing at full cylinders. I think because of the ADD, it’s always been that way. But I feel it’s been getting worse as I get older. And it’s been very worrisome to me because I’ve wondered how it would affect my daily life. School has always been difficult, and though I sail through math, science, and analytical classes with ease–I just treat them as big puzzles to be solved–I can’t do the same in my liberal arts classes where I may be required to memorize names and dates: there just isn’t an analytical link to, let’s say, “Columbus” and “1492.” And there just aren’t enough sailed-across-the-ocean-blue mnemonics out there. But what I worry most about is how it may affect my relationships.

I’ve grown to dread hearing the statement, “Do you remember when…?” from anyone, but especially girlfriends, simply because most cases I don’t. Or I should say that I don’t have full control of my recollection abilities. For me, recalling memories isn’t like flipping through a card catalog or typing into the Search box on Wikipedia, where suddenly what you’re looking for is in front of you, complete and full of detail. For me it’s a lot like slogging through unlabeled cardboard filing boxes haphazardly arranged in multiple rooms with cramped quarters and bad lighting. And even if you do find something, it might not be complete, the rest of it hiding elsewhere. Maybe a different floor or building altogether.

More often, a little more teasing has to occur to pry open the doors, generally to the ire of the person across from me.Many times, a little assistance is all that is needed. A simple word may, to my surprise, trigger a cascade and start the flood. And most frustratingly, memories come to me suddenly and with full clarity when I least expect it–and more importantly, when I’m not trying to look for them. As soon as I force myself to leave the cramped, dank archival offices of my memories and I’m walking down the street appreciating the crisp blue sky and the lush green grass, a FedEx truck may pull up and the driver hand me exactly what I’ve been plumbing for. Or sometimes not, but complete nonetheless. But this doesn’t help when my loved one is across from me asking me to remember, and my heart breaks as a pained look crosses her face. I wish I could give you what you wanted, but sometimes I can’t. I’m sorry.

So this is why What I Love About You is worrisome to me. If Jen and I did the book together, filling in the blanks in the moment might be too much pressure for certain memories to come to the surface. On the other hand, if I complete the book on its own (which I think one is supposed to do), and had plenty of time to work on it, then it would be a much simpler task. Something I know I can do.

But now I do realize that I may have to rely on outside memory devices–books, journals, blog posts, photos, etc–a lot more than I’m used to and comfortable with to remember the important things inside–precious moments spent with Jen and the reasons why I love her so much.

Sometimes I let other people’s comments get to me: that if you loved someone enough, then you’d remember. But I don’t agree. Does a grandmother with Alzheimer’s not love her grandchildren just because she can’t get their names straight? No, she’ll find a way around it, keeping their little pictures close by with their names written on them. That’s her struggle and that’s her fight. That’s what the love for others makes people do: find a way around so you can reach out to and not lose the ones you love. My physical brain may be limiting my mental prowess, but I do know how my heart feels in the present and how much I’m willing to give to someone I love.

Honey, I know how important it is for you to be remembered. Not to be forgotten. Though I may not remember specific moments, I will never forget YOU and who you are. But I do realize that that’s not just enough sometimes. That it’s also important to remember the small moments we’ve shared and rekindle the wonderful emotions for each other at those times. That it’s not just wistfully remembering the past, but a process that strengthens bonds in the present. I want to remember all my moments with you and I’ll do whatever I have to to do so.

This is the day that I start.

Family portraits this time of year can be fun and festive especially if they bring along a seasonal prop or two, which the Meekhofs did for their session at our Red Fish Blue Fish studio.  We had a great time and this gets us ready for our year end job working for Santa!   Putting families and kids (with their pets!) at ease to get those candid shots certainly prepares us for the many, many families we’ll see this Christmas Season.  Happy Holidays everyone!

Here is a sketch.

Red pen. Black pen. A view into my bedroom.

Here are more photos.

Oh my.  So far behind on blogging.

Now THIS was a great day.  We’ve captured the Harvey family a lot over the years.  And with growing boys, we know it’s not always easy when it comes to photo shoots.  It’s always super-duper great when kids get to the point where good old-fashioned bribery works.  In this case, it was leftover Halloween candy that did the trick.  The boys were AWESOME through the hour long session.  I always forget how much energy these kids have–next time I’ll have them run a few laps around the block before we start. (And I’ll ask them for tips on how to go-go-go!)

I love the combination of nice, clean studio shots mixed with outdoor autumn shots!

Jen Korte and the Loss found me online and asked to use some of my art. They used some images for their new CD and for the album release posters. You can also find one of my gunpowder images on their website. (as of December 2009)

The band is based out of the Boulder, Colorado area and have some pretty darn good music. You can hear more on their MySpace page.

Hi,

Yesterday was good chance to get +70 pips, but my target was +80 pips. So, target wasn’t reach..

But regarding my strategy, intead of minus, I took + 5 pips. You can find my strategy at Rules.

Hi guys!

Sorry there’s been no posting for a while. Kit is lining up some okcupid candidates like ducks in a ditch, Jovie’s had a busy month at church, and I have been involved in a series of nauseatingly cute things with RDB wherein I’ve occasionally had to say, “Stoppit. Barf. This is disgustingly adorable. Go get your own sushi.”  You all don’t really want to hear details, so I won’t share.

Luckily for you and for all the single straight boys out there, Jen managed to find time between moving across town and balancing a career and a kick-ass birthday party to go for an unorthodox kind of date. Read on!

So my friend Daphne, a fellow passenger on the ‘looking for love’ boat, and I got a facebook message from our mutual friend, Bettie, to introduce us to another friend of hers. Apparently Bettie’s friend was complaining about his meager social network, particularly in the single female department. And Bettie thought, I know two fabulous single ladies in New York, I’ll introduce them to my male friend. Apparently this “Mr.Frienddate” also has many single guy friends; meeting him could open a virtual walk-in closet of dating opportunities, which, much like walk-in closets, are very rare in New York.

The three of us had a little facebook message exchange and made plans to meet for drinks tomorrow night. Daphne and I are both interested in meeting this boy. We both think Bettie is pretty awesome, so anyone who gets her seal of approval must be worth knowing and we like making new friends. At the same time, it’s starting to seem like we’re going to be going on a three way blind date.

Jen: is it weird that he’s flirting a little [with BOTH of us].

Jen: i friend-ed him so we’d know what he looks like.

We’ll see!

I got some great news just before Thanksgiving, that I wanted to share with all of you who may not be my Facebook friends or fans. I have been chosen by theknot.com brides as a 2010 Pick in TheKnot’s Best of Weddings! I get my name in the spring and fall The Knot magazines, and will be receiving a plaque in the spring, which will hang prominently in my studio. So now, I guess you could say I’m an award-winning wedding photographer.

Hey Everyone!

Did you know that this week, Facebook got its 350 millionth member? That means that if Facebook was a country, it would be the THIRD largest country in the world, behind China and India!

I have to admit, I’ve been a real slacker with the blogging since school started this fall. I also have to admit that I spend a lot of my spare time on Facebook. Don’t you want to be a fan of Jennifer Seay Photography? Just click on the image below, and it’ll take you straight to my Facebook fan page, where you can see some of my latest favorite photos.

You can also get there by going to www.jenseay.com/jenniferseayphotography. And, to become my friend on Facebook, just visit www.facebook.com/jenniferseay!

IT was the battle of the clothes horses yesterday when rival department store ambassadors spruiked the latest developments at David Jones and Myer… From The Australian. Full story

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2. Jen suffers the effects of a heart illness (Dawson’s Creek, Episode 6.24:…Must Come to an End)

(Skip to 6.40)

1. Marissa and Ryan get into a car accident (The O.C., Episode 3.25: The Graduates)

You’ll notice some of my picks overlapped with my Top 10 Saddest Moments list because, well, let’s face it–death is about the saddest thing someone can experience.

But what I really tried to focus on here was the jaw-dropping aspect, which is why the overlapping scenes aren’t in the same order as my previous list. For instance, I think Jen’s death was more devastating (read: sad) than Marissa’s, but Marissa’s was more jaw-dropping (read: shocking).

Make sense? Feel free to disagree!

Jen ist genervt von ihrem BH, der schlecht sitzt und ständig kneift. Als sie ihren Kollegen ihr Problem schildert, beschließt Moss, sich dem Problem anzunehmen. Er will den perfekt sitzenden BH entwickeln. Kurz darauf wird Jen der Prototyp präsentiert und sie soll den Super-BH testen. Tatsächlich scheint er perfekt zu sein, doch ausgerechnet in einem wichtigen Meeting zeigt er seine Schwachstelle: Er erhitzt so stark, dass er Feuer fängt. Douglas, der neue Chef, sucht unterdessen nach seiner wahren “Identität”.

In dieser Folge trägt Roy verschiedene T-Shirts:
“The sun is trying to kill me” T-Shirt
“Magic Eraser” T-Shirt
“Bestario” T-Shirt (Tier mit Frauenkopf)

Wiederholung:
Donnerstag 03.12. 22:35 Uhr, Samstag 05.12. 00:45 Uhr