staring at this blank papers..

im soo glad i have ample of time to write my thoughts.
it feels awhile since my last write-ups. im having a great time in here.
writing my thoughts, stories,piece of wisdom and etc..

to start with, this morning i had a conversation with an aunt.
our conversation is centered on somebody who commit suicide.
its maybe safe to write bout it here since i didnt divulge identities. to continue,
that somebody who commit suicide is 28 y.o, single and only daughter. so in our culture
it is expected that she would take care of her parents but in this case, that would not
happen since she killed herself and left her loved ones behind. she wrote a suicide
note which stated her reason for suicide. the reason is that she had lots of debts which
she cant handle. Prior to her suicide, she attended a meeting on his workplace the agenda
was that not all employees will be absorb to be regular employees maybe her dilemma is
that she wont have a job in the future.

the moral behind her story, is never ever give up. life is full of challenges, frustrations,
flaws, uncertainties and rejections. in return there are abundant solutions available.
im pretty sure their is a God who will succor me in times of needs.plus i have matt,
aunt alma, aunt olive, aunt reda, faye, my sister hane and jograce and the list continues.
on the brighter side of life, its full of happiness, beautiful days, awesome people,
profound moments, heaps of oppurtunities, crazy experiences, and etc…

tracking back the past, one of my friends told me that im more than blessed:
family, love, security, education, happiness etc.. i have everything in life save the
financial aspect.i totally agree with it.

in life, i really dont need that huge house, elusive cars, stressful job and that
expensive lifestyle. a laugh a day, a conversation with family and friends, a hug,
a pat on a back, eating tempura on an ordinary day, a walk with a loved one, a visit in an
orphanage, special school or
home for the dying (knowing that i still have something to give),
a freetime to learn japanese, a nursing book which my parent could afford,
my aunt letting me borrow her book, reading paulo coelho books and other favorites,
crazy momentss( we have lots of it)
with my mom, dad, joseph, jograce, hane and joyce, reciting rosary at dawn,
attending mass with my family and relatives, going to fiestas and celebrations…
and the list goes on and on

it doesnt mean i stop here though i still have to join the dog eat dog world however,
i sorta know my priorities and real treasures.