Jadwal Kegiatan Yayasan Spiritual Dharma Sastra Bulan Desember 2009

1. Selasa, 1 Desember 2009 Meditasi di GOR Ngurah Rai mulai jam 20.00 wita – selesai
2. Jumat, 4 Desember 2009 Meditasi Kundalini Ajaib di Wantilan Poh Gading mulai jam 20.00 wita – selesai
3. Minggu, 6 Desember 2009 Melukat di Pantai Mertasari mulai 06.00 wita – selesai
4. Selasa, 8 Desember 2009 Meditasi di GOR Ngurah Rai mulai jam 20.00 wita – selesai
5. Jumat, 11 Desember 2009 Meditasi Kundalini Ajaib di Wantilan Poh Gading mulai jam 20.00 wita – selesai
6. Minggu, 13 Desember 2009 Melukat di Pesraman Semanik mulai jam 09.00 wita – selesai
7. Selasa, 15 Desember 2009 Meditasi di GOR Ngurah Rai mulai jam 20.00 wita – selesai
8. Jumat, 18 Desember 2009 Meditasi  di Wantilan Poh Gading mulai jam 20.00 wita – selesai
9. Minggu, 20 Desember Tirta Yatra ke Pura Lempuyang Luhur mulai jam 06.00 wita – selesai
10. Selasa, 22 Desember 2009 Meditasi di GOR Ngurah Rai mulai jam 20.00 wita – selesai
11. Jumat, 25 Desember 2009 Meditasi Kundalini Ajaib di Wantilan Poh Gading mulai jam 20.00 wita – selesai
12. Minggu, 27 Desember Tirta Yatra ke Pura Batukaru mulai jam 19.00 – selesai
13. Selasa, 29 Desember 2009 Meditasi di GOR Ngurah Rai mulai jam 20.00 wita – selesai

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Mos Niculae “vine” in noaptea de 5 spre 6 Decembrie si lasa in papuci dulciuri sau/si o nuielusa aurita.

Cine este Mos Niculae? De ce ne aduce el o nuielusa? Orice copil care a primit cu nuielusa la posterior stie care este senzatia. Mai putin se stie si de ce apare aceasta senzatie. In momentele imediat urmatoare “sarutului” dintre posterior si nuia, usturimea provoaca posteriorul sa se contracteze. Aceasta contractare provoaca trezirea energiei Kundalini care “doarme” in Kunda (osul sacrum), in zona posteriorului. Trezirea kundalini provoaca o senzatie de caldura. Intreg corpul se incalzeste.

Auzisem de multe ori ca bataia este rupta din rai. Ruptul in bataie a unui copil nu poate sa produca acelasi efect ca si atingerea (cu dragoste, nu cu ura) a posteriorului. Atingerea usoara provoaca “trezirea” Kundalini, intarirea corpului fata de factorii externi, pregatirea copilasului pentru o viata integra si spirituala. Ruptul in bataie a unui copil il v-a handicapa mental, energetic si poate chiar fizic. Un astfel de copil (maltratat) o sa se dezvolte intr-o victima a sortii, decazut moral, poate chiar criminal. Copilul nu trebuie sa sufere din cauza prostiei parintelui. El trebuie iubit si ajutat sa se dezvolte. Aceasta este diferenta dintre nuia si coada de matura, dintre rai si iad, dintre bine si rau.

Printre popoarele hindului exista o zeita numita Kula Kundalini. Aceasta poate sa explice apropierea dintre nuia, kundalini si Ni-kula-e (Niculae, Nicolae). Mos Niculae este zeitatea Kundalini.

Ca tot am amintit de nuia si de senzatia de usturime provocata de “sarutul” ei, mai e de amintit ca in practicile yoga o metoda de trezire a kundalini (pe care nu o recomand nimanui) este lovirea posteriorului, in cadere, de podea. O practica deosebit de periculoasa. Lovirea dura a acestei parti a corpului poate duce la accidente grave.

Nuiaua ar trebui sa devina un semn de luare aminte pentru parintii mult prea harnici in a pedepsi greselile celor mici.

Un alt aspect al nuielusei. Culoarea ei (de obicei aurie) si faptul ca este flexibila sugereaza ridicarea energiei Kundalini pe canalul Shushumna Nadi. De la Osul Sacrum la crestetul capului, la locul in care omul intra in legatura cu Dumnezeu.

IS HERE, FOR YOU

“The Power of Kundalini, which is your own Mother, has to rise and manifest itself, because of your Pure Desire. In your introspection, … and in your meditation, you should see for yourself, why are you in meditation.

It is for Pure Desire of compassion and love

to be awakened within us.”

“It’s so remarkable how the Nature is so much within us and how this, whatever is within us, guides outside and receives the blessings. We are not something separate. This Mother Earth is our home. We have a home in Her and She has a home within us.”

Shri Mataji Nirmala Devi

In un qualsiasi momento in cui ne avete l’opportunità, dovreste meditare ogni giorno per almeno 10 minuti. Alcune persone trovano che iniziare la giornata in uno stato di pace e silenzio rende il giorno migliore. Alcune persone trovano che il momento migliore è la sera, in cui l’effetto calmante li aiuta a portarli in un profondo e riposante sonno successivo. E molte persone meditano sia il mattino che la sera, e includono alcune tecniche di pulizia nella meditazione serale.

Come meditare

La meditazione è un processo semplice, e prende forma nel momento in cui ci siediamo tranquilli e permettiamo alla Kundalini di salire da dove risiede lungo la spina dorsale fino a sopra la testa – lungo quello che chiamiamo canale centrale.

La Kundalini pulisce i vari chakra individuali e lascia la persona in uno stato di profonda pace e rilassamento. Varie altre tecniche di meditazione, fatte apposta per facilitare l’entrata nello stato di Consapevolezza senza pensieri sono insegnate nelle classi di Sahaja Yoga. Queste includono semplici mantra e movimenti delle mani che incoraggiano l’attività di pulizia nei chakra.

Andare nel profondo con la meditazione non è qualcosa che possiamo forzare. E’ semplicemente questione di dedicare pochi minuti ogni giorno in cui possiamo sederci con calma, non fare niente e sperimentare il potere della pura introspezione, attraverso la meditazione e la percezione delle nostre vibrazioni, e sensazioni. Facendo questo, col tempo noteremo che la nostra meditazione diventerà più efficace e i benefici più tangibili.

EverydaY is a day to give Thanks. Today is another one of them & it just so hapPens to be one that many more peoplE wilL be, let’s say, “Paying More AtTentioN.” ThougH, many may have resERvationS for this day due to the tragic evEnts thaT folLOwed (The Natives’ decimation)…..StilL, Give Thanks. I’lL be sending My Love & GoOd Nature to not only The AncestorS & Natives but those I pasS in the streET & nevEr say a word to, the bus driveR thaT takes me wherE I neEd to be, My Mom FOR EVERYTHING (HAha), My Girl, througH whom I’ve come to personalLy find out why many men have calLed their signifIcaNt others their “BetTEr Halves”, AlL My FamilLy & Friends (whom, becausE being an only child, I’ve made brotheRs & siSters of…..What Up Dave, Moe, Paulo & Sonja, Tim, Ricky, HarRy, Bori Rock, Gary, CripPIn’ AsS Jey (HAha), Sean, RichIe, Kwaz, Henry, 88 for alL of those helpful talks & examples, Etc…), L Fudge for “walking” me in the entErTaiNment busineSs doOrs in the Rawkus days, alL those that have spent therE time & enErgy one works thaT I’ve creatEd, the enErgies thaT contain the esSEnces of Water, Air, Fire & Earth, Norman RockwelL for being a great inspIratioN, as welL AS, for this postS visual art & alL ALl elsE whicH carRy on side by SIDE with us at evEry tick of the clock. Why? ‘Cause it’s what’s right & yeah, evEn thougH this may be selfiSh, it feEls goOd to do GOoD. & Oh Yeah, Take A Load OfF

TherE Are Truly No Ordinary Moments

I have had a few ask me lately, how this feels, to have kundalini activated.

I have some inquire as to what is the purpose, of kundalini.

I’ve also had others ask of me, if they should suddenly have kundalini activate, would they also have “this, this, or that” occur, same as I.

I can only speak upon my personal experience, what this is like for myself, for I know somehow, that this is a very individual experience.

What another individual may, or may not experience, and in what sequence or duration, I am unable to surmise.

Anything I share concerning Kundalini is done so from this basis.

I am certain there are similar threads within individual experiences, yet am just as certain you may have certain markers/symptoms and not have a full kundalini experience follow immediately.

I say this, for I do know a few that have kundalini awaken, then go dormant quickly.

As of yet, I do not personally know another that has experienced kundalini to the degree that I have, though I do believe there are many others out there that have/are experiencing it to this degree.

I know there are websites and chat rooms, where others that feel, or actually are, having kundalini experience, share their experiences.

A few years past, I perused some of these sites, and didn’t feel a fit for myself at the one’s I visited.

I felt that at many of the sites, there was a lot of fear, of kundalini and the process that it is.

A lot of focus, on the “what could go wrongs”.

This just doesn’t work for me..focusing on the what if’s.

This is not to say I don’t experience moments of anxiousness, for I do.

Yet I do not fear this process, my philosophy is one that I experience, and receive, that which is right for myself, in exactly the perfect time for it to occur.

Everything, absolutely every moment, is a larger process.

Ever evolving and building upon itself.

When I have a moment of anxiousness, that is simply a signal that I am to take a moment to observe, what is currently happening with me, and adjust accordingly.

Being anxious, in and of itself, is not a bad thing. It is simply a signal of a need to realign oneself in some manner.

In fact all of our human emotions, are to serve US, not incapacitate us.

The emotions are simply like road signs on our journey, assisting us in maneuvering through this walk, this human experience.

Work towards mastering your emotional body, and you will find you have invaluable tools for daily living. Allow your emotional body to master you, and you will likely find life to be overwhelming and live in a continual state of reaction, as opposed to, action.

So here are my thoughts today, concerning Kundalini.

This is what this current experience is like for me, later I may share more from previous experiences.

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Last night I had another huge uptake of energy through the arches and soles of my feet.

This energy, is hot. It is like lava. Thick and scalding.

There is no pain though, not within the energy itself, or how my body feels, absorbing it.

Sometimes physical discomfort follows though, yet I believe this to be the burning of dross, within my physical body.

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I should quantify what dross implies for myself at this point, as there are many applications of the term.

My usage of dross, is to imply and refer to, the energy represented within the emotional, mental and/or physical bodies that is representative of outworn energy patterns, that no longer serve our Purpose. I do not view these patterns, this dross, as being a ‘bad’ thing.

If I were to view the exact same energy pattern, in two separate individuals, for individual A, that which is dross for individual B (outworn patterns/energies) , may still serve individual A very well.

Individual A, is still growing and learning in some manner, evolving, with the assistance, of this identical energy pattern.

Individual B, on the other hand, has learned and taken all of which was required for them to do so with this identical energy pattern, and now must clear the pattern, at its most microcosmic levels, to prepare to receive their next energies to continue their personal evolution.

So as stated, what is no-longer useful to one, may be perfect for another. To compare this within individuals and apply labels or judgments as to if one person is “good, bad, more evolved or less evolved etc.”, then another, is irrelevant.

Everyone, is exactly where they need to be, and contain the proper patterns of energy, for that which they are striving to learn and acquire, within every moment of their existence upon this plane.

I do not presume to know, an individual’s Greater Being, solely by that which they contain, within the human matrix, as represented by their current energy patterns.

I have found in my experience and service, that one who may ‘appear’ to be less-evolved within this current incarnation, may actually be, of an extremely high vibration in their Greater Being.

Too, the opposite may be present.

You may view one in a current incarnation, as being of a greater evolution than others currently incarnate, yet, their Greater Being is of a lower vibration, then the one standing beside them in human clothes, that appeared to be less-evolved.

This is something I continually hold in awareness , in my interactions with others upon this stage, which we refer to, as the human experience.

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I have expressed my view of dross.

Now I present that in any individual’s current incarnation, there is the possibility, regardless of how some may view and choose to label this other individual’s current evolution status as being more evolved or less evolved, to cleanse themselves of dross energy.

If they have achieved the growth that was contained within patterns that were necessary and beneficial upon entrance into this current incarnation, they are now, while in human form, in need of discarding and purifying their bodies, of said outworn energy patterns (dross).

They may then be receiving of new energy patterns, to continue their growth while in this current human form, as opposed to leaving this current form, through what is commonly seen as physical death, hence eliminating the need to reincarnate within another form with a new set of energy patterns to continue their personal evolution.

This, is death and rebirth.

This, is transformation.

This is the function of Kundalini, to wipe out the outdated patterns  (dross), and to prepare the human system, through purification, to be receiving of new energy patterns.

This process can be viewed in terms of computer technology and applications.

It is defrag, compress, delete, empty bin, reboot.

And it can continue over and over, dependent upon the pace of the individual in completing the lessons of any currently contained energy program.

Awe inspiring stuff, yes?

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In reference to what I have just presented, this is why I feel anyone, can experience the purification of kundalini in this current life.

I had no previous knowledge of what kundalini is, or what it was about, before it occurred, years passed.

This is now my 3rd encounter.

If it should say anything at all about me to others, I hope it is simply that I apply myself well to my lessons and growth.

Yes, I do see it as my personal enlightenment. Yet that only means to me I am ‘enlightened’ or ‘graduated’, if you will, from a particular course of lessons I have mastered.

This does not make me more, in any way, then any other.

If anything, it is probably indicative of my nature to bore easily and always be stretching my Self to achieve more, to be better each moment, than I was the last. ((smiling))

That may not be everyone’s cup of tea, but it works for me.

~Before enlightenment, chop wood, carry water. After enlightenment, chop wood, carry water.~ Zen Proverb

Incredible wisdom, contained within those words.

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So right now, I am in the ‘delete’, stage.

I do notice, where as in my past experience, the focus seemed to be on my emotional and mental bodies, this current experience is focused upon my physical body.

I am having more physical discomforts at this time, then before.

Yet I was somewhat prepared.

I was channeling information for myself at the end of last year that I needed to better strengthen and prepare my physical body for what was to be coming in the Autumn of this year.

I was not 100% certain that it would again be kundalini, but I suspected it was so, and I have complete trust in my information, and in myself.

I got busy. I made a lot of changes.

Diet and strength and agility training became my central focus.

I assisted my body with salt and sun bathes, and numerous other endeavors, to divest any impurities I could, before Autumn.

I believed it has helped tremendously, I am able to manage the pain levels naturally, and I am continuing to apply myself daily to the routine I established many months ago.

Yes, there is much that I have had to set aside for now.

I take this seriously, and wish to move through it with the most ease possible.

I am not currently driving, it can be quite difficult, and in previous experience, impossible, to do so while in this stage.

It does not concern me though, for I have others that assist me in traveling somewhere if necessary.

I find if we are open to it, the Universe does supply all that we need, to function, through everything and anything.

I do miss the freedom of driving, and I am one that has always preferred, to be the driver, not the passenger.

Yet it will return, my driving capability, when this is done.

It has before.

For now, my one and only job, if you will, is to attend my personal self, and needs, to assure my well-being through this process.

Everything else at the moment, duties, are optional.

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I mentioned earlier, that last eve I had an energy uptake through my feet.

Today, I have the burn.

Betty asked me the other day, how that felt.

There are actually many different types of burn, with kundalini, that I have experienced over the years.

This burn, this time, is like this:

You have spent the day at the beach, and now, hours later, realize you have borderline ’sun-poisining’.

You’re skin is a dry as the Sahara, yet cranking heat, anyone around you can move in slowly with their hands from a good measure away, and feel that heat, radiating from you.

Inside though, you are internal ice.

It is if someone made your body a human example of what the “Icy-Hot” ointment would be, if it were to become a human.

So you have this huge contradiction going on here..and during it, it seems to make no difference what-so-ever what the external environment temperature is.

Someone could tell you it is a hot day outdoors, and you will feel a need to clothe yourself as if you were skiing the Alpines.

Same person could then tell you one minute after, “Well would you look at that, ice everywhere on the tree’s, seems we just jumped into the next ice age.”

Pffttt!

Does not compute.

Does not matter.

I am currently on a very personalized thermostat, that has absolutely nothing to do with external temperature fluctuations.

Now the part that can be challenging, and draws my full attention, is when my body has a bit of a reaction to the ‘icy-hot’.

This, feels a bit, like a glucose crash, a bit of a ’shock’ reaction, if you will.

When this happens, I simply adjust what I was doing.

Put the brakes on my current activity, and switch it up.

If I was sitting and writing, I get up and dance or exercise in some form, anything to move that energy.

If I was cleaning the house when it comes on, I slow it down, lie down a few moments, let it pass, and slow my system.

I drink tons of water through all of this..and green tea. I have chosen to restrict myself to these fluids, they work well for me.

Another area I have to put much focus on right now is my diet.

In these kundalini stages of ‘burn’, I find my metabolism to be off the charts.

Rapid weight loss is quite possible at this time, so I closely monitor my diet.

I do not seek to pack in calories, and absolutely do not partake in empty calories..but I do pay attention to a minimal amount of calories I wish to intake in a day, and receive them through the best whole foods possible for my current needs.

Lot’s of eggs, oats, berries, brown rice pasta, almond butter..that sort of thing.

I avoid foods that may cause a flare-up of candida systemic overgrowth, which is an issue during kundalini.

I also increase all of my supplements and herbals as I feel appropriate, as the nervous system, liver and kidneys are taxed during the burn phase.

Yes, this is my job, right now.

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I likely have much more to share in this arena, but for now, it is time that I take a moment to adjust to the burn.

Blessings All!

Feel free to share your experiences and/or ask questions, I will do my best to answer as to what I know from my experience.

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(RichIe Cruz, left & Richy Mor RTNC)

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CocOCabAna

“Trying My Best To Give mY bEST”

Richy Mor

Welcome to the world of Aghoris! and wish you all the best for the journey ahead. This could be the most thrilling experience of your life. Who knows, might be worse. This is the advice I provide when i talk about Svobotha books. Thought he is fantastic (I mean his books) in many ways. Yes, we are talking about, the famous writer, Dr. Robert E. Svobotha. His books are enthralling. especially the Aghora Series. The series has 3 titles:

Aghora – 1 – At the left hand of God

Aghora – 2 – Kundalini

Aghora – 3 – The law of karma

You start with the first one, and I bet, it will give you a shock of the lifetime. If you do not belong to the group, who have spent some time out of busy lives, to dig more about Mysticism, Ascetism, or Spirituality. The books narrate the story of Vimalananda – the Master and his daredevil spiritual stunts and bold discussions. A journey to dark realms. If you are interested in Tantra, or Aghora, then, you got to read these, before you proceed further. The experiences are narrated in a simple and touching language, which will definitely inspire you. You would wish that you could have met a master like Vimalananda. This is the world of darkness. Darkness of life and darkness of death.

The story of Vimalananda starts in the first title, continues soberly, with additional cherishing short stories and explanations. The second one i.e. Kundalini is dedicated to the Yogic and Tantric essence, the rising of Serpent Fire, although, I realized, very few chapters were dedicated to it. Vimalananda has suggested that Kundalini, is a yoga for practice and experience, under the blessings of a awakened master and not a topic of discussion. Aghora – 2 also opens some of the mysteries related to the five elements and their workings. The third one is more focussed on the law of nature and the law of karma. Overall, I will say, a must read series for Tantra seekers.

One thing, i noticed in all the titles, was, that, the techniques were missing. The books do not offer any of the techniques to practice Tantra or Kundalini Yoga, which in fact is the essence of Tantra teaching. Tantra is about techniques and not about Philosophy or fiction. This might have been the decision of the Master Vimalananda, i suppose.

The books are published by Rupa & Co (Aghora 1 and 2) and Lotus Press (WI) (Aghora 3)  and are priced at rs. 195/- each for non-paperback editions.

Om Sathguru Sri Seshadri Swamigal Thiruvadikkae

Disciple:

Would you briefly describe Kundalini Yoga?

Master:

Kundalini Yoga can not be described briefly because it is such a grand and extensive yoga.

Kundalini Yoga is inspired and directed by Chiti, the same Cosmic Energy that sustains and directs the order of the Whole Universe. This energy moves in a channel at the Central Core of this complex Human Body. It has two aspects: inner and outer. The outer aspects sustain the order of one’s mundane life. The inner aspect lies dormant, but when it awakens it sustains and directs the process of MAHA Yoga, the great yoga. Kundalini Yoga is a totally independent autonomous yoga and completes itself fully without the help of any other yoga. It is a Self – existent and a self-propelled Yoga.

The Kundalini stabilizes and controls all the seventy-two thousand subtle nerves of the human body. When it awakens by the grace of the Guru, it purifies the whole nervous system and makes the body radiant.

It dispels all diseases, purifies all the body centres, and makes itself an abode of divine peace within the heart. All the senses are refined, cleansed, and strengthened. As this process culminates, the Kundalini reaches the Sahasrara, revealing a Divine Brilliance. Sparkling in the middle of this brilliance in the Cerebral Centre is a dazzling BLUE DOT, which the Kundalini enables one to see. Not only that, but by means of this Blue Dot, or Neela Bindhu, a yogi is shown the subtle worlds, all the Gods and Goddesses, and all that can not ordinarily be perceived by the physical senses.

As this process continues, Samadhi occurs spontaneously. The Jiva, the individual soul, is lifted above pleasure and pain. After establishing the aspirant in Supreme Bliss, the Kundalini becomes tranquil.

This Kundalini is the Para Shakthi (Universal Energy) of Para Shiva (Lord of Universe), the transcendent energy of the Supreme, auspicious principle.

Externally it inspires the creation of the world; internally, it inspires the yogic process. By means of the independent, self-sustaining Kundalini, Maha Yoga unfolds automatically. This yoga can also be called Siddha Yoga, the yoga of perfect masters. It is the synthesis of the four Yogas – Hatha Yoga, Raja Yoga, Mantra Yoga, and Laya Yoga-and it is therefore called Maha yoga, the great yoga. It can also be called Chief Yoga. Chiti is the primordial consciousness that is the source and essence of the world in answering your question about Kundalini Yoga; one could fill an entire book. It is a vast subject.

This past week, I have come to the certainty, that I am once again experiencing the rise of Kundalini.

My writing has taken a backseat this week, out of my current necessity to ground out this intense energy as it moves closer daily towards my crown.

I awoke today and found that I did want to write today,  not about healing or astrology advice for others, but about what this is like, the experience of Kundalini aroused.

I debated for a moment with myself over this, for I claim no authority in this area and I do not wish to represent that I do.

Yet, this has been a part of my life since 2002 when I had my first round with Kundalini.

Frankly, there is not much information accessible concerning Kundalini.

From my own experiences I believe this to be due to the likelihood that when one is in this experience, it is very difficult to bring into the human language ‘what this IS’.

After completion through the crown, you are left with much to assimilate and integrate. It is then possible to relate to others that which you acquired during your experience, yet, the essence of the experience is lessened.

So, I may attempt to share here a bit through my posts, of my daily experience, what it is like, as this particular episode unfolds.

My last experience in 2007 lasted in full peak experience for nearly 6 months.

This time, I have personal insights that lead me to believe this will be a much more grounded experience than mine was in 2007, and likely to be of shorter duration.

Though, I suppose I’ll just have to wait and see!

I have a little snippet to share, just something small, that is not directly about my current experience, yet for some reason unknown to myself, I wished to share this first, before I begin with blogging anything else of this experience of mine here.

I am mother to two daughters, now young adults.

My first daughter came into this world when I was 18.

I often tell people I think I was a more attentive mother at 18, then possibly I would have been at a later age.

A child filled with giggles and light, the sun shine bright in her every smile….her blue eyes twinkling, a peaceful child. She began reciting the ABC’s backwards, at 18 months. By 3, she could read and write. An artists Soul, she thrived in expressions of music, dance and canvas. This child I never remember crying, and the world around her fascinated her.

My second daughter made her grand entrance when I was 22.

A child of intensity and zing, at birth she climbed her umbilical cord, fist over fist, and the physician had to pry it from her fingers. We were told by the delivery doctor and attendings, that her Apgar score was off the charts. Usually, I believe it tops out at 10..they said she was the healthiest, most active child they had ever witnessed in the births they attended, and I do believe they meant it, for they kept stating it, over and over with a curious look on their faces. Ali walked at the beginning of her 7th month, and by 9 months she could push chairs to the counters, and we would find her walking across the kitchen counter-tops.

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As most mothers do, while expecting these children of mine, I made a short list of name possibilities.

Yet, not until I held them for the first time, did I know whom they were to be.

My eldest, I named Kaleigh.

My youngest, Alexandra.

When my daughters entered pre-school, they both had difficulty with others pronouncing their names properly. This bothered them very much, so they each chose a simple form of their name to express to others.

Kaleigh chose Kay…and later, just K.

Alexandra chose Ali. To this day, she has a dislike of her full given name, even if her father or I are the one’s using it. She is Ali..that’s it.

So I have these two daughters, they are like the sun and moon, day and night..yet in their dualities, they are the perfect compliment.

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These things I share now, are a retrospective. It has only been in recent years, that I have come to see the symbolism, and I share it because it means something to me.  Something deep and wonderful, something not meant to try to understand logically, but to be enjoyed with awe, and to be appreciated for the way it all works. The mystery of our experience and journey, and the magic it truly is.

Before my first stirring of Kundalini at 27, I rarely concerned myself with subjects such as astrology and gods/goddesses of the various religions upon the planet.

Yes, I was born ‘psychic’, but I maintain now that there is a distinct difference in being psychic, and being on the Path of Spiritual/Consciousness Awareness.

For myself, I came into this world with my psychic talents, but I had to CHOOSE to step onto the Path of Conscious Awareness.

It was a choice I believe we all have to make. And I do not believe that there is a right or wrong choice in this.

When it is the right time, for any individual, they will make the choice, that is just right, for them.

You KNOW when your time has come.

Until that time comes for someone, it is pointless to try to encourage them towards it in a forceful direct way.

You’ll just waste your energy and frustrate yourself, and you’ll be doing them no service either in harping on something they just can not currently conceive of.

These things, make no sense to you whatsoever, until the time is right, and upon you.

And that is as it should be.

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At the age of 33, shortly after my 1st experience of spontaneous kundalini awakening, I began to connect with an energy..a presence..whom I shortly after came to know as the energy of Kali.

I realized over time that this energy of Kali was deep within me, and all around me. After first identifying it, the energy signature, I came to understand that it is quite likely this energy had been with me since birth.

Kali, is creation and destruction, in perfect harmony. This I understand, and am not fearful of, I can see the divine beauty within this.

At 37, when I was in full kundalini experience, I said my girls’ names one day, to a friend, as they themselves put them forth, K and Ali. And something I never ’saw’ before, came into center focus.

When I named my daughters, as I mentioned, I had no conscious knowledge of Kali, nor kundalini, or even indeed any clue as to where my journey would take me a decade+ later. It would seem though, my daughters, represented themselves in my life from their birth, as the transformational element they would be for me. Of the gift, they came into my life, to share with me.

My daughters, symbolize Kali, very literally, for they chose for themselves, K + Ali…KALI.

I had always shared with others, that my daughters were my reason for getting back up, each time I hit bottom, each time I ‘died’. They, were the catalyst, for each re-birth.

And on the day, of this awareness, I was so very deeply thankful, for the Beings they are, not just in this temporary incarnation as my daughters, but these tremendous Souls..that carried the energy of Kali to me..and gifted me with the greatest of gifts.

Kachina

Being thaT I’ve made alot of music througHOUT the years & I would sometiMES wonder why I’d hold ontO them espEcialLy since I like’Em. I was realLy bad at “shopPing” beats back when so I nevEr got thesE to peoplE for therE projects & when I last listenEd to thesE with some friends, one of the things thaT came up a goOd deal was how/why was it thaT we werE listenINg to thesE from I iTunes & not someOnE’s 12 inch single (thougH 2 of them werE on others’ projects but I realLy thougHT it’d be dope to let beat tape instrumental versionS get heard, which werE for WordsWorth’S “Unity” & my group, Sound Strange’s “CapitAlism”). I think I was realLy scared thaT peoplE would think I sucked, so instead of pushing myself as strongly as I could, I played the quiet & humble…..evEn when invIted to studio seSsions (wherE some heavy players werE at hand in many caseS).
My view now though is thaT I wilL/should nevEr hold back anymore. I get an idea, if I find thaT it one I realLy enjoy, I do it & do it with no expEctaTion. Who knows? Maybe the reason why I diDn’t get the placemEnts I thougHT I should have was indeED becausE they sucked? Maybe they stilL suck? Or maybe they’rE Dope!!!!! I seE it as the later & I hope you do as welL.
I’m trying my best to give MY BEST.
AlL thaT said….This is some music I made about 10 years ago (or 10 trips around the sun ago). I say “about” becausE I think one was made about 11-12 years ago & another in 2000.
Bon ApPetit

RTNC’s 10 (Trips Around The Sun)

Om Sathguru Sri Seshadri Swamigal Thiruvadikkae

Disciple:

I would like to talk to you about the heart. In terms of my own work as a teacher and my own growth, I want to know what can be done to open the heart. I feel that so many of the schools teach from the head, not from the heart, and I want to work through the heart.

Master:

Meditate. The inner Shakti (Sheathe) should be awakened through meditation. When the inner Shakti becomes awake and opens the heart, you become aware of the exactly what the heart is. There is no point in teaching theoretical knowledge or concepts about it to people. There are many kinds of powers; inside man and when they become active through meditation, you will be able to experience all of them. One of the powers enables you to hear distant sounds, and another reveals the past and the future. You should experience all these through meditation. Meditation is the main thing.

Disciple:

I feel that the heart is the place where all other centers become integrated. I do not want to teach theoretically; I want to teach from the heart because I feel that is the only way to teach.

Master:

For that you should meditate. Through meditation you should be able to get to the place from which the ego arises and into which it subsides. Find the place from which all the different thoughts of the mind originate – that is the Heart.

Disciple: Is there a special meditation that is best for the heart?

Master:

The meditation that you get through initiation is the best because it is the meditation, which arises spontaneously after Kundalini awakening and inner unfolding.

Disciple:

We try to teach trans personal psychology, yet none of us are really to teach. Any guidance that you could give us would be appreciated.

Master:

There is no point in giving one, mere verbal advice. You should meditate; that is the best advice I can give. Many professors come to meet me, and I tell them the same thing. More and more people accept the idea that there is something beyond the mind, and I ask them all to meditate, in order to experience that.

Om Sathguru Sri Seshadri Swamigal Thiruvadikkae

Disciple:

Sometimes we work with people who are very disturbed, and their disturbance reaches a place inside us where we are ourselves disturbed in the same way. I wonder how, when working up to them, one could avoid taking in things that are not good?

Master:

Healers or Therapists sometimes do absorb the negative influences of their patients. In many cases it happens that they start out as therapists and end up as patients. A woman healer came up to me and said, “when I started, I was doing a good job, helping people well… Now however, my arms and legs have begun to ache terribly and are nearly paralyzed. What should I do?”

This is the common complaint of therapists and healers who have come to see me, and this is exactly what happens to me too, when I provide initiation or blessings. It pains me quite a bit, but afterwards I sit quietly in meditation, and through the force of the Divine energy (Universal energy) that is released in high meditation (the Kundalini Shakti-Sahasrara-Meditation), my Guru burns up all those negative energies. This is how I stay fresh.

Therapists and healers should also find a way to burn up the impurities they absorb from their patients. It is not enough to become drunk on your temporary success as a healer. You must think about the future and what may happen to you as a result of your healing work. It is essential for a therapist to be in touch with his inner energy (inner Guru – creator) and to keep himself strong.