Misguided Ghosts – Paramore

You Found Me – The Fray

Halo – Bethany Joy Galeotti

The World I Know – Collective Soul (David Cook Cover)

I am a Misguided Ghost, waiting to be Found. I don’t wear a Halo, and The World I Know ceases to exist.

I’ve been “travelling endlessly” for the past three years, and I’ve endured enough pain. When can I “can get what [I] want out of [life]“? I haven’t had “someone to rely on… and run to” in ages. The “ones [I] trusted the most”… well. Yeah. They’re gone. Their footsteps have gone with the tide. They don’t even look. “All my days [are] spent by the telephone that [will] never [ring.] All I [need is] a call that [will] never [come.” I guess it’s true: “in the end, everyone ends up alone.” I don’t even know “who I am, who I’m not and who I wanna be.” And yet, I cannot complain; those around me have “put me on a pedestal… so high that I can’t see the ground below.” All I want to do is “step to the edge”… and jump. But I can’t.

I can’t do anything.

*”You know what music is? God’s little reminder that there’s something else besides us in this universe; a harmonic connection between all living beings, everywhere, even the stars.”* August Rush

I love music. I love how it can make you feel something so profound and so personal. I love how a specific lyric can speak directly to you as if you had written it yourself or how a song can explain down to the smallest detail how you felt at a particular time in your life. The happy times. The sad times. The times that make you want get up out of your chair, Vodka Collins in hand, and head on over to that dance floor to shake your booty to “your song” and show the rest of the world how to dance in your pretty pink pumps. And most importantly, I love how music soothes during the times when the only thing keeping you breathing is that song and how because of it you know there is at least one other person in the world who has felt your pain and who has made it through a comparable situation with a miraculous song to show for it. I love music.

What I especially love about music is the lyrics that accompany the cords. Words have always had such a strong pull on my heart and combining them with musical notes, melodies, and harmonies makes me feel more alive than I ever thought possible. I love that part in a movie- you know the one- when the couple finally realizes that they are falling in love with each other. They look right into each other’s eyes and right before they kiss, the music escalates and leaves you feeling as if your own breath has been taken away.  I love that. I love how it makes me feel. I love how it makes me long to be in love. And, often times, I love theses songs because they can bring me back to the particular movie and make me believe again, even if just for a few minutes.

My love of music is something that drives me daily, often literally for the two hours it takes me to get to and from work each day. With an Itunes library the length of the Great Wall of China, I have a particular artist, song, or playlist that can shape my entire attitude for the day. From my “Drivin’” playlist to my “Relaxation/Sleepytime” mix. I can wallow in my heartache to “Always Midnight” by Pat Monahan and think about loved lost. Or I can jump out of bed strummin’ my own air guitar to “Don’t Stop Believin’” by Journey (that was remade on my favorite show GLEE) because Lord knows that song was written for me!  I could pick out a song for every emotion, life changing event, favorite movie scene, the list could go on… Music is so overwhelming and powerful. Sometimes it’s pure chaos as the notes collide while other times it’s the music that calms the craziness within me.

I am so thankful for all of the talented artists who give so much of themselves and put their heart and souls into their music (Damien Rice, The Fray, Vedera, Donny Todd- just to name a few of my favorites). It is these artists that I admire with a twinge of jealousy as I listen to their perfectly worded lyrics, unmatchable harmony, and amazing melodies. I have always wanted to be a musician. I just don’t have the musical talent, vocal ability and range, or drive to compete in such a hard industry (maybe in some far off *shining lights* Broadway dream, but for me, not a reality). My musical talent is shared within the safe walls of my bedroom into my hairbrush or during my time on the Sunday worship Living Praise team at church. But music speaks to me in a very intimate way. It’s almost impossible to explain, but I feel it in my heart much like I feel the inhale and exhale of each breath I take. Music is amazing. It’s powerful. It’s life changing.

A good friend and I compiled a list of our favorite songs and created our own life soundtracks. I spent hours searching through my music library to find the perfect song for each stage of my life. My soundtrack includes everything from a theme song, fight songs, songs about falling in love, and ending credits. Some of the songs have changed over the past year and I am sure some will change again- because I am everchanging and the way music touches my heart changes as well.

What songs would make up YOUR life soundtrack? Think about it… It may be kind of fun!

Right now in my life sound track this song is playing — on repeat.

…

Happiness hit her like a train on a track
Coming towards her stuck still no turning back
She hid around corners and she hid under beds
She killed it with kisses and from it she fled
With every bubble she sank with her drink
And washed it away down the kitchen sink

The dog days are over
The dog days are done
The horses are coming
So you better run

Run fast for your mother, run fast for your father
Run for your children, for your sisters and brothers
Leave all your loving, your loving behind
You cant carry it with you if you want to survive

…

Viva Voce – Octavio

Há tempos não acordava com alegria. Garotas fazem coisas… Se não for eterno – e essa raridade é conhecida – a iminente tristeza há de vir. Até lá, carpe diem, ah?

Soundtrack: Zero 7 – Waiting to Die

Diga a todos [que todos?] que volto. Não exatamente no meu melhor estado de espírito, mas volto.

Acho tão irônico que, sempre que planejo voltar ao Château, estou passando por uma fase, digamos, não muito feliz. Estivesse eu com mais paciência, digitaria para meus queridos leitores [como se eu tivesse algum...] qualquer coisa do Oscar Wilde. Qualquer coisa, mesmo. Oscar [me permite a intimidade?] sempre me sai um excelente companheiro nessas horas. No entanto, se é pra ser sincera, me falta coragem e me sobra preguiça – daí que farei algo mais prático, como viciá-los no mais novo amor da vida dos meus tímpanos.

Ontem, em um momento não-quero-dormir-agora-mas-também-não-quero-conversar-com-ninguém-então-vou-me-deitar-e-pseudo-assistir-qualquer-coisa, acabei aquietando o controle remoto em Live, from New York, it’s   Saturday Night Live. E eis que a convidada musical da noite foi Adele.

Não, eu não tinha a mínima idéia de quem era Adele. Mas já tinha ouvido uma música dela – precisamente a que foi apresentada no programa. E, acho eu, a expressão ‘caí de amores pela voz e pelas músicas dela’ cabe como uma luva aqui.  

Ok. Chasing Pavements não é exatamente a música que mais recomendo para se ouvir num domingo à tarde quando você está realmente chateado, mas vale a pena. A música é qualquer coisa de linda - e o clipe, também.  

Inté a próxima e vão pela sombra,

Pato Fú – Sobre o Tempo

Tão doce…

My boss has been all about his life soundtrack for almost the last year.   Turning 50 can do that to you I guess, but I’ve got to say I find it rather interesting and fun to consider.  I can’t sleep, so I’m sitting here at 3am doing what I used to do until late in the night: listening to music on headphones.  Instead of having a Walkman and a pile of 90-min mixed tapes (only high-bias tapes, of course), I have an MP3 player with a few thousand songs on it.  And I’m searching my collection for those “blasts from the past”.

Early '80s wood paneled Jeep Wagoneer

The first track, “On the Road Again” by Willie Nelson, is the first song I can remember really loving and getting excited about…I have a distinct memory of riding in the back of my friends’ Jeep Wagoneer, and hollering at his dad “Turn it up, this is my favorite song!”.  I don’t have any memory of why I might have liked it so much…it was probably something I heard quite a bit, I think it was a pretty big hit for ol’ Willie back in the day…sometime between 1980 and 1982 I guess.  I would have been 4-6 years old.  It probably would have been on both the jukebox at my parents’ bar and the one in our basement.

John Denver's Greatest Hits

John Denver’s “Rocky Mountain High” is another one from about that same time for me…probably more like 1980 or so.  It was my first trip to Colorado with the family, and I was awe-struck by the mountains as we drove up to Estes Park…we stayed at the Hobby Horse, which still stands, though it appears to have been renamed.  Years later, Laura and I would stay there for a night or two while on vacation.  I was totally fascinated by the fact that there was this guy called John Denver (the capital of Colorado, as I understood it) who sang in a sort of magical way about the Rocky Mountains in Colorado.  I’m sure I made them play that cassette over and over…I remember feeling like it simply had to be that way.  I thought I was going to see John standing on the side of highway or something…when I dug this song out, the same feeling came back to me.

Old Ford LTD coupe...a monster

“Upside Down” by Diana Ross. I definitely recall hearing this in my grandparents’ massive, yellow, LTD…and I used to play on the jukebox in the basement and spin around in circles as fast as I could until I fell over, nearly puking…it just seemed like that was what Diana was commanding me to do!

OK…that’s a start.  More to come on the life soundtrack including some of the “rules”…as it is 4am and I’m still awake, and it is thunderstorming, I’m thinking about grabbing a beer and listening to some more tunes…while my eyes bleed from lack of sleep…

Coldplay – Poppyfields

Smoke is rising from the houses
People bury in their dead
I ask somebody what the time is
But time doesn’t matter to them yet
People talkin’ without speakin’
Trying to take what they can get
I ask you if you remember
Prospekt, how could I forget?

Drums
Here it comes
Don’t you wish that life could be as simple
As fish swimming round in a barrel?
When you’ve got the gun
Oh and I run
Here it comes
We’re just two little figures in a soup bowl
Trying to get behind a kind of control
But I wasn’t one
Now here I lie
On my own in a separate sky
And here I lie
On my own in a separate sky
I don’t wanna die
On my own here tonight
But here I lie
On my own in a separate sky

Muse – Starlight

The Asteroids Galaxy Tour – Around The Bend

E’ passato un anno dal mio esame di maturità.
Al di là del diploma, mi sento sempre lo stesso coglione di prima.

Se errare è umano, perseverare è diabolico?

Lunedì: Storia Medievale. Poi?

Questa è per tutti i vichinghi sentimentali e ubriaconi laggiù

Ci vediamo al fondo di un bicchiere
illusione che non so dimenticar
ogni notte ti devo ritrovare
nel mio cielo popolato di bars

Ci vediamo al fondo di un bicchiere
dolci labbra che non posso pìù baciar
voglio perdermi e sognar
fino a quando può brillare
tristemente l’orizzonte d’ogni bar

Da principio non ti vedo
troppo whisky mi separa da te
ma poi bevo e a poco a poco
tu mi appari e sei tutta per me

ci vediamo al fondo di un bicchiere
fino a quando l’alba in cielo tornerà
e nell’alba disperata
sarà triste rincasare
per attendere la notte
e poterti ritrovar
al fondo di un bicchiere
nel cielo dei bars

Placebo – Bright Lights

♪ A heart that hurts

Supergrass – Alright

Violent Femmes – Blister in the Sun

Jacques Loussier Trio – Claire de Lune

Primal Scream – Some Velvet Morning

…
Conste, formatura do Max logo mais.
Olhei no guarda-roupas e não acho a calça do meu traje. Great sucess.

Blur – Song 2

I do now, and have always loved music. I own maybe 40 gigs of music, which is a small amount these days, but my collection covers an extremely wide range. I was thinking the other day of putting together a list of my Top 10 favorite songs, and I finally got around to it.

A friend of mine recently introduced me to GrooveShark, a website that allows free streaming of music, playlist creation, and much more. So, I’ve used GrooveShark to create my Top 10 playlist for your listening enjoyment.

You can listen to all 10 here: Sam’s Top 10 Playlist, or individually as follows:

#1 – Bonny Portmore by Loreena McKennitt – Celtic music has always been my favorite. I’m a direct decendent of many of the kings of Scotland, and I guess the blood of the Celts has lent some favoritism. Of all the Celtic songs I’ve heard, this one is my favorite.

#2 – Bullets with Butterfly Wings by Smashing Pumpkins – I was depressed a lot as a kid, bitter and angry. This song represents much of my youth. I’ve always loved the phrase “The World is a Vampire”…It can be so true!

#3 – Frontier Psychiatrist by The Avalanches – I have never in any way been normal. This song is such a perfect representation of oddity that I really related to it the first time I heard it.

#4 – Teenage Dirtbag by Wheatus – This is a bittersweet song, and a near perfect representation of my youthful pursuits of love from afar. Alas, mine didn’t have happy endings until later in life.

#5 – The Freshman by The Verve Pipe – This song was the song that played before my first dance with a girl I loved all through junior high and high school. I couldn’t for the life of me say what was playing while we danced though, since I couldn’t think properly…The Verve Pipe has been a favorite band ever since.

#6 – Mad World Remix by Donnie Darko – Donnie Darko is one of the strangest movies I have ever seen, and this song is just as strange. I loved it that it was used in the Gears of War trailer. There are times when I have to agree whole heartedly…it IS a Mad World!

#7 – If I Had $1,000,000 by Bare Naked Ladies – If my life has a theme song, this is it. I have never met anyone else as determined as me to be an uber-millionaire. Here is to retiring on a beach by 30

#8 – Chasing Cars by SnowPatrol – This is I and my wife’s song. I very clearly remember the day we picked this as “our song”, and it fits us perfectly. This represents the happiest part of my life!

#9 – Cathedrals by Jump Little Children – I heard this song for the first time watching the TV show Everwood. There is something moving and ethereal and absolutely fascinating about this song. It is tied for my favorite. While I can’t really relate this to my life, I really like it, and it is obscure, so there.

#10 – Keep Your Mind Wide Open by AnnaSophia Robb – This is the theme song in the movie Bridge to Terabithia, and is sung by the main actress in the movie. After much deliberation, I have decided that this is my favorite song. It is so upbeat and imaginative, and perfectly represents my hope for the future!

So that is it, me and my life in 10 songs. That would make a really good company, matching people based on their Life Playlist or something. With millions of songs out there, a perfect match really would be a perfect match.

Roberto Carlos – As Curvas Da Estrada de Santos

Corrijo num segundo
Não posso parar
Eu prefiro as curvas da estrada de santos
Onde eu tento esquecer
Um amor que eu tive
E vi pelo espelho na distância se perder
Mas se o amor que eu perdi eu novamente encontrar
As curvas se acabam
E na estrada de santos não vou mais passar
Não, não vou mais passar

Bloc Party – This Modern Love

NOFX – Philthy Phil Philanthropist

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Nirvana – Love Buz

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NOFX – Don’t Call Me White

Lembra demais os domingo no Ataliba… Como era legal ir almoçar lá…

Ray Conniff – Brazil

My mind today… it’s teetering…

“Panic Switch”
By Silversun Pickups

Time.

It’s never worth my time.

Moonshine

Bleeds into my eyes.

I still

Sleep on the right side

Of the white noise;

Can’t leave the scene behind.

Could I be anything you want me to be

If so, is it meant to be seen?

[Chorus]

Do you see yourself in a crowded room?

Do you think I’ll snitch? Are you pistol-whipped?

Do you step in line, or release the glitch?

Can you fall asleep when I panic, switch?

When you see yourself in a crowded room,

Do you think I’ll snitch? Are you pistol whipped?

Will you step in line or release this glitch?

Do you think she’ll sleep with the panic?

And I’ll try to hold on tight tonight.

Pink slip, inviting me inside.

I want to burn skin and brand what once was mine,

But the red news came ripping in to fight.

If I go anywhere that you want me to go,

How do I know you’ll still follow?

[Chorus]

I’m waiting and fading and floating away

I’m waiting and fading and floating away

I’m waiting and fading and floating away

I’m waiting and fading and floating.

I’m waiting and fading and floating away

Waiting and fading and floating away

Waiting and fading and floating away

Waiting and fading and flailing and fading

[Chorus]

I’m not afraid. I’m ready.

Famous Last Words
by My Chemical Romance

Now I know
That I can’t make you stay
But where’s your heart?
But where’s your heart?
But where’s your…

And I know
There’s nothing I can say
To change that part
To change that part
To change…

So many
Bright lights, that cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
I’m incomplete
A life that’s so demanding
I get so weak
A love that’s so demanding
I can’t speak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
‘Cause I’m out here
On the other side
Of a jet black hotel mirror
And I’m so weak
Is it hard understanding
I’m incomplete
A love that’s so demanding
I get weak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

These bright lights have always blind..ed me
These bright lights are always blind..ed me
I say

I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I’d never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

(How can I see, I see you lying) ‘Cause I see you lying next to me
(How can I see, I see you lying) With words I thought I’d never speak
(How can I see, I see you lying) Awake and unafraid
(How can I see, I see you lying) Asleep or dead

‘Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I’d never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

‘Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I’d never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I’ll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home