Lori, over at Finding Radiance, is giving away a cookbook. It had me at “Learn short-order secrets” and “spend less time in the kitchen.” I’m sure the hubs would love it. Go check it out.

I DON’T love to cook!  Is that wrong since i’m in a cooking club?  This week I have to make a dessert by Nigela Lawson.  She has so many yummy sounding desserts but  I don’t feel like making any of them.  I think I’m coming down with a cold.  I’m really tired / lazy! 

I think  have a solution:

4 (2-ounce) chocolate candy bars (recommended: Mars Bars or Milky Way)

1/2 stick unsalted butter

2 1/2 cups crunchy sweetened corn cereal (recommended: Cornflakes)

Special equipment: approximately 40 mini muffin papers

Directions

Break the candy bars into bits and drop them into a saucepan. Add the butter and melt, over lowish heat, stirring frequently with a rubber spatula. When everything is melted (the nougat-like layer takes the longest to go), tip in the cereal and turn them, with your rubber spatula, in the chocolate mixture until they are all pretty well coated.

Fill the mini muffin papers with the mixture and put in the refrigerator, on a small sheet pan or tray, for at least 1 hour.

HI, It’s Lori
Anyone know any good Jamie Oliver appetizers ?

FAR is proud to be helping patients across Armenia to receive better healthcare.  Twice last summer, FAR organized various events to discuss the subject of early diagnosis of spinal disorder. These events, held at the Gyumri Mother and Child Austrian Clinic and the Gyumri Maternity Hospital, included seminars as well as a weeklong training program for doctors. In conjunction with the training sessions, traumatologists and orthopedists organized check-ups for local children and teenagers. The Program was initiated and organized by the Armenian Health Ministry of Traumatology and Orthopedy Scientific Center and Fund for Armenian Relief.

More than 40 physicians participated in the program, and 18 X-Ray Diagnosis specialists participated in the 7-day training.  On November 3, in the Shirak region, the 18 X-Ray specialists were awarded with official certificates approved by the Armenian Health Minister.  As a result of the success of the program in Shirak, the Health Department of the Lori Region is also considering implementing the program.

Shirak Physicians Receive Traumatology Certificates

Credit: FAR Staff

I had an epiphany today as I laid in bed trying desperately to get some sleep before I headed off to work. Over the last two days I’ve been so filled with hate and despair that I have lost sight of things that are good in my life.

While I might not overly enjoy where I live, I have a roof over my head and the cost of living is minimal. My dog has been a pain in the ass since I broke up with Charlie, but thats because I’m stressed, which means he’s stressed and he loves me and I still love the little bugger even though he adored Charlie. My job is a job, not a career. It pays me more than I could have expected right out of college, and I don’t mind it as much as I protest.

This clarity is a good feeling. I’m still fairly unhappy, but I know that eventually things will get better, they have to right? I know that this clarity will be short-lived and I’ll be right back to where I was before, bitter and cynical, and certain things will go terribly wrong as they usually do.

Along with this personal clarity comes a clarity in regards to Charlie. Charlie did some unconscionable things to me and I will always hate him for making me feel less then Lori. In his twisted mind he thought his truthfulness would gain him my understanding, but it blew up in his face. To me being told that one of the reasons you are breaking up with me is because you still love your ex-wife who cheated on you not once, but numerous times and on the final time took all your money and your daughter out of state. Being told that Charlie still loved her even after all that and after how understanding, supportive, and helpful I had been I was hurt, beyond repair. I can never forgive Charlie for that. Charlie started this relationship, he pursued me. But back to this clarity in regards Charlie. Charlie is not the brightest and I can’t fault him for that. I still love him and a part of me always will, but I can’t keep beating myself up for it. It’s doubtful Charlie and I can be friends, as much as he wants to (which is just a way for him to feel better about himself, I doubt he actually wants to stay friends).

I already desperately miss Charlie even though he had bee an “asshat” and “douche” as some have commented. While apart from Charlie I could see how devastating the relationship was when I was with him I enjoyed every minute, he made me happy, but I didn’t always feel loved. None of what Charlie told me in the breakup was a surprise. I had actually mentioned each part of it before this. I figured there was a chance he still loved Lori, I just didn’t need him telling me as such.

Its funny, as I sit here and type this I feel like I want to cry still. I hate that I still care for him this much even after everything. Its really unfair.

I’m making Salt-and-Pepper oven fries. They sound great . Here’ s the recipe and I’ll let you know how they turn out. Wish me luck!

Prep: 5 min., Bake: 27 min. Serve these with any of our dipping sauces or just plain ketchup, but be sure to try them the French way at least once—with Lemon-Garlic Mayo.

Charlie broke up with me today.

I can’t say I’m all that surprised.  I knew the time was coming and I know it’s for the best, but it’s still killing me.  For all the shit I took from him I still deeply cared for him, I loved him through out everything.  I know it wasn’t the healthiest thing for me, but none-the-less when I was around him I was happy.

We broke up today because I pushed him.  I asked him if he had gotten my email or not, and he stated he had not.  He asked what it was about and I told him.  I told him that I really wanted to work on our relationship and that I loved him, but I was not going to wait until April when he returned from his military training.  He sighed a lot and swore a couple of times and continously  mentioned to me how this wasn’t easy for him either.  Whatever.  Bastard.

I pushed him into telling me that it was for the best that we not work on our relationship.  At least I know now, and that’s all that really matters in the end.  He gave me three reasons as to why he didn’t want to work on things. 

1. He wants to focus on his military duties.  WHATEVER! I have never stood in the way of him pursuing his military stuff.  I’ve been nothing but supportive when it comes to his military duties.  He’s been in the military 11 years and look what he’s accomplished, he’s still only a Specialist.  Eleven years and he can’t even make Sergeant.  And they gave him back to back tours, and he’s looking at his 3rd.  Yeah they’ve been great to him, but you know I never said anything.  He was in the military before he met me so I stepped back and never said anything, never gave my opinion when he talked about getting out.
2. He wants his space.  Well he can have all the fucking space he wants now.  We barely saw each other to begin with, but because he treated me like shit on my birthday and I got upset about it he wants his fucking space, fuck him.
3. He’s still loves his ex-wife (Lori) and would take her back if she came back to him. WHAT THE FUCK!  She cheated on him not once, not twice, but numerous times.  They’ve been divorced for over a year, and have been seperated for longer.  Yes they share a child, and yes they shared 10 years together, but good fucking lord, she took you for everything to the point you lost your home, you had to move back in with your mother, and you can’t even get a cell phone contract on your own without spending $1000.00.  Oh and yeah she took your daughter away from you.  Yeah she’s a fucking catch, isn’t she!  Unfucking believable.

What else is amazing about #3 is he proceeds to tell me that I’m better then Lori is in so many ways.  Apparently I don’t or we wouldn’t be breaking up.  Don’t try and tell me I’m so much better when you are breaking up with me.  Telling me I’m perfect in everyway only makes it worse you jackass.

I just can’t believe how big of a fool I was.  I gave him the benefit of the doubt so many times and stood up for him and this is how he fucking treats me.  I was so fucking good to him, unbelievable good.  The cincher?  He wants to stay friends.  I told him absolutely not, never.

I had purchased his Christmas gift on eBay last night to.  GREAT!  Its non-returnable.  He says he’s going to buy it from me and I’m alright with that.  I need to get my Micro SD card I borrowed him back anyways.  After that time I never want to see the dipshit again.  What a fucking weasel.  UGH!  I HATE MEN!