I get so confused.  I guess when I look in the mirror, even though I don’t see perfection, I see beauty.  I wonder if I would trade my curves for the chance to be thinner.  I am rounder, and I think that’s ok.  My thighs are round, my hips are round, my bottom is round (very very round), my tummy is round.  I think it’s important to look at myself, really look at all of me, and see the beauty.  The more beautiful I see myself, the less I look for someone else to tell me.  God has created in my an internal beauty that radiates from my being, but I can’t denounce the physical.  I am fearfully and wonderfully made, I won’t forget it.  His good work, my life.

Beautiful Lady

Graceful in the way she moves

In the sway of her hips

The length of her legs

The gentle swell of her belly

The subtle rise of her breasts

The pout of her lips

And the wonderful glow in her eyes

Yet to be discovered

Yet to be held

Beautiful Lady

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cel mai semnificativ înţeles al cuvîntului

cu o condiţie

să fie acelaşi cu începutul

acelaşi cu iubirea !

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making beauty and throwing it away and making more.

windy today and i feel less than brilliant. driving over the hill from work there are the dark parts on the road, when you pass through clumps of wood and the bright spots where you have a view of the ocean but that doesn’t make the road an allegory. i watch the trees, tossing in what certainly looks like sexual arousal. everything looks frail, the sky is grey blue and tells me that it all wont stop unfolding. a bit of air sneaks past a window and into my hair. last night i dreamed again. like a stain on my subconscious sheets that i’ve scrubbed and scrubbed and scrubbed but never got out. what i thought was an end turned out to be a middle what i thought was a brick wall turned out to be a tunnel what i always think i know is just a color in the sky, but i sat in the park the other day and watched natures wastefulness. its been doing that all week, making beauty and throwing it away …and making more.

“let the stars in the sky remind us of Man’s compassion.
let us love till we die, and God bless us everyone”

they say that the person you love should be the brightest star in your sky. but, my star is missing because i don’t know what he’s thinking. should i be like her, collecting stars to remind me of you – no, i think that would be dumb. too obsessive, like a little girl who doesn’t know better. i swore never to fall into a labyrinth of love before anything happened between us. i’m on the edge, almost jumping in, but common sense gets the better of me, fortunately. the stars in the sky, they remind me of you. the clouds that threaten to hide you from me are actually parts of yourself. oh, how well i know the truth that hurts. but, i’ll continue reaching for the stars and trying to get to you.

His song perfected which the stars resonated
dissolved boundaries while expanding his mind-frame.
Who but he could hear music born of pure silence?

seems that today has been a very emotional day for me. but it has also been academically a very fulfilling one because so far, i’ve finished three lectures. seems that when i want to erase the pain of something, i end up studying more efficiently. how these things work, i can never comprehend. but it does.

anyway, for anyone of you who has bothered to read the post till this point of time, you won’t be hearing from me for the next few days because i’ll be away at camp. booking in tomorrow at 0830 :/ sighs. booking out on monday 1000 and then back in the same night at 2030. back to civilization on tuesday 1200. & then it’s a race against time to prepare for my last paper on thursday. *SCREAMS* LTC, here i come again.

truthfully, i can’t wait to experience another year of LTC. very unfortunately for me, this has been a very bad leadership year for me because i was being thrown into a totally new environment. i’m getting the ropes, so the first half of next year will be better, i swear to myself. but going back to LTC is like going back to the basics. and it’s a time for me to actually up my brain level again.

& also to face my deepest fear, facilitating the high elements. in all circumstances, i can be confident of doing a good job. but i don’t know if it’s because i fear the high elements that makes me fearful of facilitating it. hopefully, i do somewhat of a good job. please, i pray that this year, i can face it even better and not let my timidity show through. every year, i go through how to do the figure of eight over and over again at home. but i still get sweaty palms and the nerves when teaching and doing it. this year, i’m going to be alone. no experienced senior to help me with it (in fact, i’m supposed to be that experienced senior), no one but me to rely on myself for the safety of like maybe 20leaders? OMGish.

i pray that God be with me throughout the whole LTC. give me wisdom and the leadership that i need. and i pray that that wisdom and leadership carries on through to the rest of december and next year.
cause i need that confidence really badly.

Without A Word – Park Shin Hye

i should have done that
i should have ignored it
like something i couldn’t see
i shouldn’t look at you at all
i should have run away
i should have acted like i didn’t hear it
like something i couldn’t hear
i shouldn’t have listened to love at all
without a word, you let me know love
without a word, you give me love
you made me even hold of your breath
but you ran away like this
without a word, love leaves me
without a word, love tossed me away
what should I say next?
my closed lips were surprised on their own
coming without any words

i look at you the same way she looks at him. i’ll sing the same lyrics as she does if you asked me to. i feel the same way as she does for him. but the only difference is that she gets reciprocated in the end, while i don’t even know when i’ll next see you. i hate it at times like this where i know i’m not supposed to miss you, but i do. it seems obsessive, and i try to keep myself away from it. but why is it so hard?

boy, you pull my heartstrings. and without a word, this heart bleeds just for you.

the whole of thursday was spent somewhat lazily. not that i was not using my time well, i just didn’t study because i had A DAY OFF! *beams* spent time with my mummy the whole day. got picked up from hall, where i stashed some clothes into her car so as to start the “moving back” for the holidays. then we went to Wessex Village near one-north to find this little cafe that’s supposedly to have really good reviews called “Colbar”. unfortunately, it seems that westerners don’t really have good taste for cafe food. i think the food was quite horrid. or maybe it was because we were the first customers for the day? hopefully if i ever go back, they’ll cook something to save their name.

then went down to hollandV to get some banking issues settled. not really optimistic about certain things right now because there’s not many good deals. hah. but at least that’s one thing off my mind for now. and we bought a christmas tree! (: yeyness. christmas is coming already. seems so soon. sighs. it’s gonna be december in a couple of days and the year’s gonna end. time flies so fast, and that’s just an understatement. had a little lunch at crystal jade’s la mian xiao long bao. did a little more shopping for other random things, ate some traditional dessert and then got sent back to hall.

upon return, i bathed, facebooked somewhat and then fell asleep till about 12mn. hah. and now, it’s a new day at 2:35am. sighs. i’m gonna finish two lectures and then get some rest. wake up at 12nn and continue trying to study. as you can see, the day was what i called relaxing, because I FINALLY GOT OUT OF CAMPUS GROUNDS! like, finally. it’s torturous staying here all week long, but i need to study and this is the most conducive place to do so.

and the whole thing that really made my day was that when i started the day, I SAW HIM! but i pretended not to. but just seeing him made me really happy because i thought that i wouldn’t get to do so until like zomg, next year? i wish the two people in the picture were me and him, lazing together on the beach. hah. but that’s about all i’m gonna be happy for right now. because i still have two more papers and one facilitation camp to go.

& then it’s Phuket and holidays for the rest of the “winter” break! <3
plus, CHRISTMAS is coming and i can’t wait! present shopping time!
i wonder why christmas is associated with red & green though…

Just chill and see loads of harmony flowing into your soul… ))

Rose?

Hey guys, yes, today I am not in the best frame of mind, and all because of the strange weather and heaps of problems suddenly fallen on me. And all just because I do not like to solve problems as they come, all the time I leave them for later. I hate myself in this terrible trait.

But in recent days were some good things. First, my dream came true – I got a gift … a new gas mask^^ GP-7. It’s so cool, and I want it a little upgrade. I think soon he will be in all its glory, and ready for continuous wear.  Yeah, for me is the height of bliss. My little fetish:)

Other – what I finally reached a new book Strugatsky brothers. And now with gusto read these masterpieces. Such a feeling that plunges oneself headlong into a new world and forget about reality.

Yes, that’s such small things make me really happy. Sincere joy and delight. Oh yes, almost forgot. Recently unearthed Beatles record, and now I listen it again and again. Perhaps this is the music that I really have long sought. For my current mood – this is the best.

Macy’s Bra and Panty catalog

Victoria’s Secret

Frederick’s of Hollyweird

Still Sexy After all these Years

Twin bed pans overlooking the Septic Tank

Is Sarah Palin Qualified to Squeeze the Cheese?

Traveling Naked

Avoid a fat head

It is better to be drunk than wasted

How to Travel Naked

Beer Alert

A Constellation of Idiots

It is Better to be Drunk than Wasted

Texas Toast

Going GaGa!

GooGoo GaGa

Oct 31 is dress up like Lady GaGa day.  Halloween is canceled!

Happy GaGaWeen!

Burned Tranny

Online Job Search

Government Work

Job Search

Job Search for the Older Worker

Dressed as Lady Gaga

Monster Ball

Ultimate Costumer

Becoming Gaga

Gagging on Gaga

Sexy

Which witch to twitch?

Prepare to go Gaga

A Hottie does GaGaWeen right

Rush Limbaugh

How to find a Government Job

How to make Money

It is better to Drunk than Wasted

Job Search for the Older Worker

Alternative Job Hunt

Get Free Stuff

MARXIST MEDICINE

COMMIE CARE

ENEMY OF THE STATE

YouTube Lady GaGa Bad Romance

Amy Leaks?

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How to Lead a Secret Life

Avoid a fat head

It is better to be drunk than wasted

How to Travel Naked

Beer Alert

A Constellation of Idiots

It is Better to be Drunk than Wasted

Texas Toast

Let us say that you find your selves in the throes of ardor with some hot neoprene nymph when your supposed flesh and blood beloved enters the room.  Is she amused that you cheated on her with a Latex Lover.  Well that’s what Chicken Choker first class would have us believe:

Copping a Rubber Feel

Fashion and blow up dolls

Sarah Palin Sex Doll

Sex with an Android

Doing the Doll

Plastic Orgy

Choking that plastic chicken.

090909

How to Lead a Secret Life

Exotic Vacations

Traveling Naked

Avoid a fat head

It is better to be drunk than wasted

How to Travel Naked

Beer Alert

A Constellation of Idiots

It is Better to be Drunk than Wasted

Texas Toast

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Runes and Moons

Zazzle!

Angelic Verses

DeviantArt

Rumors of Angels

LuLu

CafePress

Luck

Digital Art

Angel Sightings

Cyber Rainbows

Selling Rainbows

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and i have no business doing this…no business at all…but its just that from time to time i feel like i’m dying a little bit and then those words…all those lovely words reminding me of what i meant to say… or that i meant to say something….

As it’s been getting closer to Thanksgiving,I’ve been thinking more and more about the last year. I think I ate Thanksgiving dinner with my left hand. That was just after my little plate collision with my right elbow.

 I was about to turn 18. 

Earlier in that month of Nov. I had become a rebelutionary,after reading the book by Alex and Brett Harris. I wanted to do hard things. I just wasn’t sure how. How do you search for hard things to do?

 Little did I know then that I didn’t have to look but identify the situation. I got many chances to do hard things.

I got to suffer a little pain,colds,the flu and bloody noses,until just breathing was hard.

I got to stand up for what I believe in. Stand up for truth. Even one of those harder things;myself. 

I got to gain and lose all friends,as some came from far away and then all moved far away. I was given opportunities for some wonderful good times,and to lay them down when they were done. 

I learned that trusting gets you hurt,but to trust anyways;especially a God who loves me.

 I had many simple moments in thanks of Him; like water droplets on the grass,like the sound of rain falling,like bright warm sunshine,and the stars at 5:30.

 Chances to sing and teach Sunday School. Wonderful times with my pastor’s family.

 Having my charge run and hug me when I pick her up from Head Start.

I really can’t complain when I get sugar in my water instead of salt. Having a matched pair of escorts is pretty handy. Even getting patted on the head. Overwhelming opinions and protection.

Good food and a warm house.

The unexpected circumstances that turn into grand adventures.

 All in all it’s been an exciting year.

          It’s life and I’m thankful for a chance to live it.

Daniel Lanois with Trixie Whitley, Brian Blade and Daryl Johnson in the studio rehearsing material from their upcoming release. Recorded by Mark Howard. Directed by Adam Vollick.

Daniel Lanois with Trixie Whitley, Brian Blade and Daryl Johnson in the studio rehearsing material from their upcoming release. Recorded by Mark Howard. Directed by Adam Vollick.

Please let the rain stop now!!

Love Ele ~X~

The windows are all open now, I surround myself with the things that I love... 
a bowl of grapes, white cotton nighty, unfinished books.
  The wind blows swollen melodies of lust and tenderness right across the room 
and into my brain... A conversation starts. It makes it that much harder 
to ignore the fact that I am alone.
 Suddenly the music feels too intimate. The implications and the heartbreak of every note 
magnifying the reality of where I am...where I want to be.
I long for a closeness that is fed by vulnerability....by weakness. 
Mine is a folded paper origami heart made 
from the Kleenex full of tears...  long since dried.
I remember how I fell from the sky and found gravity in my backbone.... 
how I stayed in that place where the light barely reached my finger tips 
until silent prayer became loud... until it felt like home.
 It crept up on me. In the folds and shadows of my skirts and my open books. 
In paintings and on snow covered sidewalks. In the drain of my bathtub...in the painful screech 
of my kettle that played a song of gratitude and shame and hope, over and over.
It’s hot now, the rain seems to have gone missing and the air smells like the color green,
 its sticky and full of chirping and incidents. Silverware outside, doors left open,
 hearts falling deeply and landing softly...I miss the little things most...
 and if I could write this is what I might say....
 

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Submission in Prayer (Part 1)

What are some reasons you pray?  Is it simply because you want something from God?  Do you only pray when there’s a dire emergency and you want God to get you out of a predicament?  Or do you pray so that you can become more submissive to God’s will and less to your own?  Let’s find out what the Bible has to say about this matter of prayer.

First of all, prayer bends our wills to God’s will.  Rom. 8:26-27, “Likewise the Spirit also helpeth our infirmities: for we know not what we should pray for as we ought: but the Spirit itself maketh intercession for us with groanings which cannot be uttered.  And he that searcheth the hearts knoweth what is the mind of the Spirit, because he maketh intercession for the saints according to the will of God. “ How willing are you to grow in prayer?  Do you desire to bend God’s will to your own?  Or do you seek to bend your will to God’s will?  It is so interesting to listen to those people pray that all they can say is, “Gimme, gimme, gimme.  I want this, Lord!  Please provide this for me.”   This is what the health, wealth and prosperity people do.  They demand things from God and believe that God will instantly gratify their demands.

Many years ago, I met a woman who told me that she would pray and be patient for a long time but when she didn’t get what she wanted, she would stomp her foot and demand that God give whatever it was to her.  Her comment was something to the effect that God has a sense of humour and waits for us to throw that tantrum before He will give us what we want.  How sad that she still behaves like a toddler and expects God to give in to her demands just because she threw a tantrum.  What’s even sadder is that we, too, act like toddlers so many times!  It is important for us to realize that prayer is a way of bending our hearts and wills to do what the Lord would have us to do.  It’s better for us not to get something we desire if it’s against the Lord’s will than for us to keep demanding it until we finally get it!

Second, prayer is our source of power.  We grow spiritually through prayer.  Philippians 4:6-8, “Be careful for nothing; but in every thing by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known unto God.  And the peace of God, which passeth all understanding, shall keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.  Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.” Notice, we are not supposed to be anxious over anything!  Even in the midst of hard times it is important for us to realize that discipline is just as important in our lives as what the blessings are.  We don’t learn as much when we are blessed but we learn a lot when we are disciplined.  In these times we must earnestly pray  and make request with a thankful heart no matter what the answer ends up being!

The peace of God then keeps our hearts and minds through Christ and it is important that are thoughts are totally on the Lord Jesus Christ!  Rom. 13;14, “But put ye on the Lord Jesus Christ, and make not provision for the flesh, to fulfil the lusts thereof.” Interesting how we are supposed to PUT ON the Lord Jesus Christ in Rom. 13:14 while in Phil. 4:8 we are supposed to keep our thoughts on everything that is true, honest, just, pure, lovely, of good report, whatever is virtuous, and whatever is praiseworthy.  Who alone is all those things?  The Lord Jesus Christ alone is praiseworthy and all the things that we should be keeping our minds on!  This week let us seek to clothe ourselves in the Lord Jesus Christ and make NO provisions of the flesh to fulfill those lusts!

To be continued…