Voila, cette semaine j’ai remis (avec joie) mon travail sur les acteurs du Kathakali pour mon cours de méthodologie et (enfin) mon travail sur l’influence de l’architecture grecque vers l’architecture romaine.

Je suis fière de moi!

Maintenant, je dois me remettre au travail pour:

-finir ma recherche sur Ariane Mnouchkine

-pratiquer pour mon oral sur Ariane Mnouchkine

-finir mon immense travail sur une école basé sur l’art-dramatique

-finir mon travail en marionnette

-pratiquer mon jeu avec la méthode REPÈRE

et pour ce qui est du plus amusant et du plus agréable…

-créer un power-point et continuer de me faire du fun sur mon blog!

…c’est quand même bien, je devrais m’en sortir…ha ha ha

I’m not really going to talk about my experience in this post, so I’m not putting this post on private and I’m writing in English.

Yeah, a kid asked me that randomly today. That was pretty funny, actually.

I don’t feel like writing stuff about my experience at all. This weekend I just forgot to do it (and I didn’t really have time anyway) and today I just don’t feel like it and I’m very tired.

Oh, last night I had dinner with a few friends from university who are also doing their field experience, so we talked A LOT. Maybe that’s why I don’t feel like talking about it again, because I did it too much in the last 24 hours. Because today I had my first supervision with my teacher from uni and I got comments and talked… kind of sick of it at the moment.

I think I’ll go take a short nap before dinner. Needed.

Dans ce billet écrit par Sandra Bellefoy, sur Synchro Blogue, elle y fait un compte-rendu du Tweet Up de Québec, événement auquel elle a participé (et moi aussi ^^). D’ailleurs, elle mentionne notre discussion à propos de l’exploitation de Twitter en milieu universitaire. Pour ceux qui se demandent en quoi Twitter pourrait servir dans ce milieu, ce billet est pour vous.

D’abord, Twitter pourrait s’avérer être un outil intéressant pour les professeurs. Par exemple, lorsque l’un d’entre eux participe à un colloque, il pourrait twitter ses commentaires sur chaque conférence, que ce soit pour résumer cette conférence ou pour y apporter son point de vue. Le conférencier, en lisant ces tweets, peut ainsi s’adapter pour ses prochaines conférences ou participer au débat d’idées enclenché par son collègue.

Twitter est également un outil que les étudiants pourraient adapter à leurs besoins. Ainsi, ils pourraient “follower” un professeur qui a pu les influencer dans ses cours, mais qu’ils n’ont pas le temps de croiser en raison de l’horaire des étudiants (examens, rédactions de travaux, vie étudiante, etc.) et de l’horaire des professeurs (corrections d’examens, corrections de travaux, recherches, etc.). Cela pourrait aussi aider l’étudiant à choisir son directeur de mémoire ou de thèse, en fonction de son domaine de recherche, puisqu’il connaît les travaux publiés par ses professeurs (dans un monde idéal, ils les auraient postés sur leurs blogues et inviter leurs collègues à discuter à propos des arguments de leurs textes ).

Comme il s’agit d’un débat sur l’utilisation de Twitter en milieu universitaire, je vous invite à y participer en publiant vos commentaires. Je suis certaine que vous avez des idées qui pourrait être intéressantes, non seulement applicable aux universités, mais également au domaine de l’éducation.

I’m leaving in a few minutes to take my last exam of the semester. Because I’m a procrastinator and one of my teachers extended the deadline for a paper, I’ll still have that to do after tonight, but that shouldn’t be too hard. Hopefully, because the exam in that class didn’t go too well yesterday.

This semester, the last exam also means that I’m going to start my field experience fairly soon. I’m going to the Centre des Sciences de Montréal tomorrow – it’ll be my first time meeting with the students. Then Friday, and a few other days next week, I’m going to the school to observe them and plan what I’m going to do with them. I’m pretty nervous.

And field experience means that I’m going to be living at my mum’s again, at least during the week. I’ll miss my own bed.

I’m leaving now. Wish me luck!

Cette session, à l’université, je voulais aborder les liens tenus entre les blogues québécois traitant une des sciences historiques du département d’histoire (histoire, histoire de l’art, ethnologie, archéologie, archivistique et muséologie). Malheureusement, incapable de créer une grille d’évaluation de ces liens, j’ai changé de sujet. Cependant, je sens le besoin de créer des liens avec les autres blogues. Je songe à ajouter plus de liens dans ma “blog list”, mais je veux faire plus. Pourquoi pas interviewer les créateurs de ces blogues ? Voilà pourquoi, dans les prochains jours, vous aurez droit à des entrevues concernant ceux préoccupés par l’histoire et ses disciplines connexes. En même temps, cela m’obligera à bloguer plus souvent.

Wow, I’m posting a lot lately. Is it BEDA yet?

This is what my bed looks like tonight, after hours of laundry last night and putting back my quilt into its cover: http://twitpic.com/kbhc7. No damage done, except one spot on my quilt that didn’t disappear entirely, but it’s hidden by the cover anyway, so that’s not a problem. Phew.

Did I ever post in here about that concept map I had to do for one of my classes? That was all over Twitter and Facebook, I think, but anyways. Before I was done, I was thinking that I really had too much work to do, and I didn’t see how I would find time to do everything. Then I was done, and I realised that it’s not that bad. I do have a lot of stuff, all due before the end of the month (last exam is on October 28), but I basically took the week-end off. I’ll probably want to kill myself later for that, but that wouldn’t be the first time. I feel guilty though. I went to the uni library today to find some books to start researching for a team project. I spent some time there, reading the books and I got good stuff, but I didn’t actually start the research then. I borrowed the books and called my mum: “Hey, what’s for dinner?” I had dinner with my mum and brother (chinese food! yes!), then I felt like watching some TV with them but there was nothing to watch. My mum told me she didn’t mind seeing that “Deal or No Deal - Montreal Canadiens” special again and I hadn’t seen it, so I watched it. Then she drove me home. It was still early, I could have started getting some info in those books I borrowed, but I watched the Glee and Dollhouse episodes from this week (my mum can’t watch them cause they’re in English, that’s why I was saying there was nothing but Deal or No Deal that I could watch when I was there).

I just missed my family, I guess. I wanted to be with them all weekend – and I’ve been most of the time when I wasn’t at work (or doing laundry or getting books at the library). It felt good. I like living on my own, I really do, but I miss them so much. It’s also so different from my other “living-away-from-home” experience. I was living farther away (an hour and a half car ride, two hours bus ride) with crappy roommates. Whenever I was there, I wanted to be home, but not because I missed it – because I wanted to be away from there. When I was home, I was missing the freedom of living on my own, and sometimes my mum and my brother even got on my nerves. I was never totally satisfied. Now it’s just so different. I like both lives. I don’t know if I would go back to live full-time with my mum if, for example, my roommates both decided to leave and I still had enough money to pay rent, but I’d probably like to live a little closer. Lately I’ve been thinking how awesome it would be if I had a car (obviously I can’t afford that and it’d be kind of stupid since I live close to the metro – I wouldn’t even take it to go to uni), because I could go see them whenever I wanted. It’s a 20 minutes drive (if there’s no traffic), but an hour or more in public transport. …*sigh*

And to say I used to be thinking of studying abroad or go work very far away from home. Now I realise that I couldn’t. Maybe I could have, a few years ago, but now it’d be too hard. I guess I’m stuck here, then. Oh well. That doesn’t keep me from travelling. The best part of travelling is that I can take people with me.

AKA me complaining about school work.

Actually, I just want to see the last few articles off the main spot. I’m not a fan of deleting (especially since they got commented on and it  would be disrespectful), so I’ll definitely let them here, but I don’t want to see them each time I look at my blog. There.

I’m currently finishing a paper I’ve been working on for quite some time. It’s the 2nd official week of the semester and I already have to hand in a paper that’s worth 30% of the semester. Yay for an intensive semester!…

I didn’t think being in an intensive semester would be that much more work, to be honest, but it’s still manageable. A friend in social sciences has two MORE intensive courses than I do, which means four 3-hour classes more per week (because we have each course twice a week instead of once). Those people are crazy. I’m so glad I chose French, ha.

Next Monday I have to do a little presentation of a course plan, that I obviously have to make from scratch. I have to use a youth novel, so I’ll probably use HP to keep things easier, but we have to choose a thing we want the students to work on with that book and there’s too many choices. Lots of little cool ideas, but I had a cooler one that I can’t do because it’s surprisingly not among the choices. Anyways, that should still be fun to do, so I’ll figure out something.

I also have loads of reading to catch up on because these past semesters I got the bad habit of not doing them, but this time they actually look useful and interesting, so I want to do them (also because I don’t want to have bought the books for nothing, lol). I hope to be able to do it this week-end, but there seems to be a lot going on, again.

I just realised I haven’t been posting a lot lately, and I don’t know why. I haven’t exactly been busy… I’ve done things, but the rest of the time I was just plain bored. I haven’t even been posting on Twitter that much. My last tweet is about Party Mix snacks, so I guess the reason is just that I had nothing to say.

I’ve had some adventures though. Well, not much interesting adventures, but they were things I was annoyed about - I vented enough about them and I just don’t want to get annoyed at that again. Mostly it’s because of public transport that got complicated when I moved here. I finally sorted everything out today so I’m glad that it’s behind me and that I’m free to take the metro as much as I want.

Also, I have a sunburn on my shoulders due to the fact that I spent yesterday by the swimming pool with my uni friends. The water was kind of cold so I didn’t swim that much, but it was still really fun. And I think it’s safe to assume that it’s my first (and probably last) sunburn of the summer. I think it’s going to change into a tan though, because it doesn’t hurt that much. That’d be fun, because I’m about as pale as I’ve been all winter.

Another thing is that I got my spot for my “work placement” (I never know how to say this in English – I took that in my French/English dictionary - someone please help me once and for all), and though it isn’t at the school I asked, it’s in my old high school, so I already know the place and it’ll be easy to travel there as my mum works basically in the same building. The sad part is that we’re not supposed to go on a “work placement” twice at the same school, and after we graduate, the schools are most likely to hire people who were in their 3rd or 4th year when they go on their “work placement” there. There’s still a chance that they won’t care when I’m in 3rd or 4th year, but my chances are thinner. *sigh* But I guess that’ll force me to see what’s going on in other schools, which is obviously a good thing. I wanted to try a private school, and there’s still the school I asked for this semester, and like, I live in the city now, so there’s plenty everywhere. Still, I can’t wait to meet the teacher and see her groups. I only know that she teaches the second cycle, so that would be years 9-11 for the most of you, I think.

In other news, I also started one of my classes on Tuesday and had another today. I’m working tomorrow and I don’t even know what I’m doing, so I’ll be there at least an hour early (not paid, obviously) to make sure that I’m ready. I’m also going out tomorrow night, which rarely happens. Hopefully I won’t feel too awkward.

Sorry that article was boring and random. I just didn’t want to see a LeakyCon post as my latest post because that feels a bit depressing.

Tout d’abord, un petit coucou à ceux qui ont connu mon blog grâce au billet “L’histoire patatisée” : plus de 9850 visionnements uniquement sur cette page !  J’espère pouvoir retenir ceux qui s’intéressent à l’histoire, à l’éducation et aux autres débats de notre société, qu’importe la nationalité.

Et maintenant, le programme principal.  Cela fait longtemps que je me pose la question et cette question se fait de plus en plus insistante, surtout à l’approche de ma troisième et dernière année de baccalauréat : dois-je faire ma maîtrise ou non ?

D’un côté, je n’ai aucune idée de mon futur métier, je suis toujours hésitante.  Pour qui vais-je travailler ?  Pour un musée ?  Pour une université ?  Pour le gouvernement ?  Je ne suis pas certaine pour le gouvernement, j’ai peur de perdre mon temps là-bas.  En fait, si j’avais un métier de rêve, ce serait d’être chercheure à domicile.  Tout ce que j’aurais à faire, c’est de collecter des données (entrevues) auprès de personnes consentantes et les envoyer (par courriel) à l’université pour laquelle je travaillerais.  Ne croyez pas que je vivrais comme une ermite, c’est juste que j’aimerais bien vivre en-dehors de Québec ou Montréal.

Mais voilà, est-ce une bonne idée de faire ma maîtrise pour devenir chercheure ?  On m’a dit que ça prendrait même un post-doctorat pour le devenir.  D’un côté, il en faudra, des ethnologues, pour recueillir la mémoire des baby-boomers.  D’un autre côté, je me demande si le Québec (et le Canada) aura les moyens d’encourager les recherches scientifiques.  Je devrais cesser de m’en faire.  Après tout, je pourrais également travailler dans le domaine historique ou patrimoniale.  Par contre, je serais curieuse d’avoir les avis de ceux qui ont fait une maîtrise (ou qui songent à en faire une).

L’idée en question remonte entre mai et juin 2008, alors que je suivais le cours “Savoir entreprendre : la passion de créer et d’agir“.  C’était le premier cours de mon Profil entrepreneurial.  Avant, je ne me voyais pas entrepreneure et, pour être franche, je ne me voyais pas comme une leader non plus.  L’argent ?  Je n’aime pas les profiteurs, alors…

Mais je me suis trompée.  L’entrepreneuriat, c’est savoir faire germer une idée.  Et elle n’a pas besoin d’être lucrative.  Par contre, vous vous demandez sûrement pourquoi je voulais suivre un tel cours ?  Eh bien, j’avais envie d’user un peu plus de ma créativité.  Et j’avais envie d’apporter un petit plus à ce qui existe déjà…

Dans mon cas, j’ai passé mon secondaire à l’École Polyvalente de Disraeli.  Je n’ai pas grand chose à lui reprocher, j’ai même eu la chance de rencontrer des enseignants passionnants et amusants.  Cependant, je trouvais que l’école était un peu trop axé sur les sports.  Je comprends que cela puisse contribuer à baisser le taux de décrochage scolaire (comme le prouve cet article), mais je trouve, quand j’y pense, qu’il y avait peu d’activités intellectuelles (mais rassurez-vous, il y avait du théâtre et beaucoup d’activités socio-culturelles à mon école ).  En fait, je crois qu’il fallait s’impliquer fortement pour participer à une telle activité (la preuve étant que j’étais la seule élève de mon école à participer à la finale régionale d’Expo-Science à Thetford Mines, en 2004).

Après ma première idée, qui consistait à créer un musée de l’histoire régionale à Disraeli, j’ai légèrement modifié mon concept et cela est devenu un projet destiné à sensibiliser la communauté à l’histoire de leur région, les jeunes communiquant leur vision du passé aux moins jeunes.  Un projet qui a l’air moins ambitieux que ma première idée, mais qui pourrait bien avoir de l’avenir si j’arrive à implanter le concept dans diverses écoles.

I’m planning to blog about the whole experience, hopefully writing every detail before I forget them. But it’s 2am and I don’t have that kind of time yet.

I’m blogging about school again. I got an e-mail from one of my teachers today. Well, our whole work-team got it. He e-mailed us personally to tell us that he’d never seen a work like this (my brother would add: “yeah, but he’s very young!”, but I don’t care), and that it could be a good idea to get it published. Hm, WHAT? Published?

I don’t want to get my hopes up, because this is very hypothetical (I mean, we’re only in our first year in the bac (1st year as undergrads, if it’s more comprehensible) and I can already see a few problems in that work), but… SERIOUSLY? He wouldn’t say that if there was absolutely no chance, would he? He said he’d keep our e-mails and keep us posted “if he gets some offers or ideas”. He seemed quite serious about it.

He also asked if he could keep our printed version to show his future students and, though I feel very honoured, that also makes me sad because I was the one who made the presentation, who printed it and put it all together in a binder and thus I feel very strongly attached to the paper version. (Plus, it’s my paper, my ink, and my binder, lol). I wanted to keep it, as a souvenir at least,  because I put so many hours into this. It’s ridiculous. I didn’t count, and didn’t need to, because I enjoyed it a lot (except at the end when it was just correcting some minor mistakes, I got tired of it). Especially working with these people. We once had a four hours meeting, without any breaks, to work on that, and it didn’t even feel like working. I’m so lucky. Everytime I’m angry about myself for choosing this program too late (I’m 2 years behind the “normal” course of things) or choosing this school that’s always on strike and has a lot of problems, I think about those friends and how my life would be totally different without them. If I’d chosen this program in the first place, I wouldn’t have been in the same year as them, and maybe I wouldn’t have made any friends and maybe I would have decided to quit because of that. I’m so, so lucky.

I’m now even more considering the master’s degree. I still have three years until I graduate, but I’d really like to do that.

I love school right now.

I haven’t done anything for school today. It’s kind of bad, cause I still have a lot of things to do.

I woke up at around 11:45 this “morning”, and stressed a bit because I had an appointment at the dentist at 1:00 and my brother had an appointment (at the optometrist across the street from the dentist, lol) too around that time and I knew he hadn’t done anything like take a shower or have breakfast. I think we arrived a few minutes late to our appointments but it wasn’t so bad. Dentist said my teeth were awesome, and I joined my brother, who found out he needed glasses, so I helped him choose, since he hates “shopping” a lot. He would’ve taken the first one he tried on… Anyways. Got back home, answered some e-mail, and my aunt called to ask if we’d like to go eat some pizza with them for dinner. Since there wasn’t a lot of time before we had to leave, I didn’t start anything new for school… it wasn’t worth it, so I played a bit of Guitar Hero. It’d been a long time, and I still got my skills! haha. I beat a song that was SO hard, I’m proud of it. Anyways. So we went for dinner and then I wanted to see something in a store. My aunt and uncle had invited us for coffee after that, so we went there, and now I’m here, not caring to do something for school at this hour.

So it wasn’t really my fault if I didn’t do anything today. I could have, but I think I really needed the break, too. Doing grammar tomorrow and then some research for my oral communication project, it shouldn’t be too bad.

I know I always say this, but I’m sorry to talk about school again. Nothing else is going on with my life… I guess I could just NOT blog about it, since BEDA is over and I don’t have to blog even if I don’t have anything interesting to say…

In fact that’s not true. There are some more interesting things going on in my life… I’m going to a Murder Mystery night on Tuesday! Our oral comm. project is actually about murder mysteries (well, not really about… we’re making our fictional students build one and then play it), and it made us want to do one. It’s going to be fun! We talked about it being a sleep-over, too (actually because we had no other time to meet for our project than Tuesday night/Wednesday morning) but I don’t think it’s gonna happen because the place of the guy to which we’re going is kind of hard to reach by public transport. It’s just ridiculous: it takes 20 minutes to get there by car, but 2 HOURS by bus (because of 3 different buses). I hate my city for that. Anyways. Anything else interesting? Oh, since yesterday, I’m trying to catch up on thisisnottom.com… I’d discovered this some time ago, it’s a riddle website thingy, for those who don’t know, and since the riddles were too hard for me, I just dropped it. But then I learned that John Green’s “new book” is sort of hidden inside those riddles, and I love John Green, so I want to read it. Of course I could just use the spoilers, but I thought I should try it at least. So far I think I used the spoilers for each of them, lol. I always figure out some parts of the riddle but I never get everything and I don’t have any patience, so I go to the clues and everything and then I look at the spoiler and try to figure out how to get there. So it’s not really cheating, cause I still do everything to do to get the right answer… I just get the answer first. Right now I’m on a chemistry riddle and I’ve never taken any chemistry class, so it’s kind of hard, but I found a few interesting things… I just need to know how to translate everything into the answer, hehe. I can’t wait to find it – this one’s supposed to lead to the very first chapter!

OH and HOW could I forget to mention that??! I GOT A JOB! yep! I got news from that Chinatown e-learning place (the one I was telling it looked weird from the outside, lol), and I actually didn’t get the one opening that they had – the lady told me that I did so well on the test that she talked to her superiors to see if they could take me for a few hours a week this summer, just so I could be trained and then be ready if they had something else… But the day after, she called back to say that she had talked to her superiors again and they opened a full-time post just for me! I feel kinda big now, hahaha. It’ll be for the summer camps, from June 25 to August 18. I have no idea if it pays well or not, but I HAVE A JOB. I hope I’ll like it… I’ll probably have to find something else when the summer is over, I don’t know, but for now I’m just happy to know I’ll be able to payback every penny I owe soon, and feel less guilty about buying merch at LeakyCon!!

Gosh that was long. I kept thinking about new things I had to say, lol. Sorry?

I need to write my progress somewhere, and because I don’t want to bother anyone on MSN just to say where I’m at, and because I don’t want to alert everyone on Facebook or Twitter each time I write a paragraph, I’ll update this post as long as I go. No need to actually read, this is for me. As the title says, I just want to keep my sanity.

• 8:55pm, I’ve finished my introduction and one principal idea out of 3. I have 2¾ pages and have to write between 6 and 8. My outline still isn’t finalized for principal idea #3.
• 9:30pm, finished the first secondary idea of my second principal idea, out of 2. 3 1/3 pages done.
• 10:05pm, 4 pages done, I think I’m finished with my second principal idea but if I lack something at the end, which I doubt, there were still some things I could add. Now I’m done writing everything I had fully planned, so I have to finish my outline before I do anything else. This is actually going better than I though… Oh, and in the process of thinking, I split my lower lip. With my fingers. I was playing randomly with my lip and it split. So stupid. It hurts. I put some lipstick on to rehydrate it and to stop touching it, so I look silly, at 10 pm, looking like crap BUT wearing lipstick. Haha.
• 11:36pm. Exact same point as I was at 10:05. Took a nap until 11:00, then uni friends who were done spoke to me on MSN. Encouragements, but at the same time, discouragement, due to the fact that they are DONE, and I’m not.
• 0:11am. Still nothing more, been reading/responding to a 16-e-mails-long convo. I’m starting to seriously feel sleepy. Can’t go to bed, cause there’s still too much to do before I can hope to finish the resto tomorrow. Due time is 5pm, by the way, but I have to count at LEAST an hour for transport.
• 1:10am. My outline is officially finished. Haven’t started writing my last principal idea yet… should do that now, but I’m so tireeeed. I’m still afraid of not enough time tomorrow, so I’ll have to wake up somehow. Also, if I go to sleep at 2-2:30, I can’t get up much earlier than 9, more like 10-10:30. Which means I’ll have no more than 4 hours tomorrow, with the showering, eating…, you know, survival stuff. Should get going then.
• 2:14am. 5¼ pages in. Only one proof (= ½ of one  secondary idea) left, and the conclusion. Given the hour that’s not so late, I’ll go to bed and I’ll be able to wake up relatively early to finish this. I’d also have some serious re-reading to do, but I usually never bother and it doesn’t show on my marks, so I’ll see.
• 8:23am. I’m up and ready to go. I’m even early on my schedule, cause I’d put my alarm clock at 8:15 and woke up by myself at 7:30 instead. Facebook is done, Twitter is done, and I even looked up the LeakyCon schedule! Oh, and I ate, too. Maybe I’ll be able to take the 10:30 bus to go to uni? I’ll try, but I’m more likely to take the 11:50 one or even the 1:15 one (no, there’s no other bus between those hours). Not too bad!
• 9:24am. I’d be done with writing!! Do I bother to re-read, that is the question. I probably should, because I was so tired…. But I’m also very sick of this paper. I’ll go take a shower and decide then. I’d technically be able to get on the 10:30 bus, but I don’t want to stress myself, so I’ll go with the 11:50 one. I have 2:20 to myself / reread, WOOT!

I almost checked “BEDA” for the category to put this post in. April is OVER.

I’m writing this because I have a lot of other stuff to do and I’m SO late on my schedule. And yeah, I made a schedule, not because I didn’t want to procrastinate, but because making the schedule made me procrastinate. It’s that bad. And there’s nothing going on on Facebook or Twitter, nor are there interesting people online on MSN… I watched a few videos off of my subscriptions on YouTube, but only the most important ones, because I somehow feel more guilty watching YouTube videos than stalking people on Facebook or Twitter.

I’m actually kind of proud, because I’ve started this paper 6 days before it’s due. I had the habit of starting them the day before… But even starting 6 days before the due date, I feel like I’ll be short on time. Of course I procrastinate a bit while I work (Facebook and Twitter, my loves), but it’s not that bad… I just have trouble getting started in the morning. I can’t work in the morning, I don’t know why… So I start in mid-afternoon, stop for dinner, and continue until I fall asleep.

According to my schedule, I should have been done with my outline today and started writing the actual paper. I haven’t started the actual outine yet. I mean, I brainstormed a lot, but it’s not written as an outline yet. And I have to and it in with my paper, so it has to look good. *sigh*

I have to analyse a complete novel, this time, and think of the themes myself and all. It’s not a huge book, but there’s still a lot of things in it. I have to choose what’s most important and I don’t know if I can… That’s blocking me right now. I’m afraid of not being able to include everything, and forget something that’s essential. Also, I’m afraid of not choosing the right themes and be completely off track. I need guidance.

I’ll get to talk about it to one of my friends tomorrow. Maybe I should wait, and hear what she thinks. But at the same time, I’d like to have made my own thing before I talk to her, otherwise I’ll be too tempted to make the same thing as she did, and that’s not good either.

I think I’ll make a temporary outline and wait for the discussion. Right. Now I can procrastinate sleep.

I’m officially ending on May 19th. Which means I won’t have a life until then. The summer semester starts May 11th, so I’ll have summer classes at the same time as my other Tuesday classes for the last two weeks, as well as a very important exam on the 16th that I won’t have time to study for. Great.

Really, I don’t know how I’ll be able to do it. I should be studying now (or writing that damn Cinderella paper), but I’m tired and hungry so I’ll just wait after dinner.

And this should be my shortest blog of the month, is it?

So today I finally worked on that Cinderella thing. I didn’t actually write anything, but I organised my ideas and wrote an e-mail to my teacher to see if it was any good, and she responded within, like, 30 minutes. I loved it. Then I took all that she said and asked some more questions. She hasn’t responded yet, but I can’t expect her to be online and working on a Friday night, can I?

I don’t usually e-mail my teachers, because I don’t feel at ease doing it, sort of. It feels weird, because I can speak directly to them and say anything I want, and they’ll only know my name and probably don’t know the face that comes with it. So the next time I go to class, I’ll have had a few hundred words discussion with them and they won’t know with one in the class I am. That’s why I always preferred asking my questions face-to-face, and it’s also easier if I have more questions, like in this case. But last Monday I hadn’t read any of the books I’d gotten at the library an hour before the class started so I really didn’t know what I was doing. If I had waited until next Monday, the day of the exam, I wouldn’t have done any work on it for the entire weekend/week, and since the strike is over (say ‘yaaay’ everyone!) I’m going to have a full day of classes on Tuesday, and I’ll also have to catch up on those classes with some more work. I’m hoping to finish the Cinderella paper this weekend so that I can hand it in on Monday just before I do the exam, and then I’d be completely done with that course. If my teacher responds to my e-mail early in the day tomorrow (I’m crossing my fingers, but I doubt it), I might be able to make a decent outline and then I’d take the day on Sunday to write it. That’s the best plan. If she doesn’t respond early on tomorrow, I might still try to make an outline and just make some adjustments later. I need to finish it before Thursday though, because if I don’t, then I’ll have to make the ride to uni the next Monday just to hand in this paper.

Anyways, that’s probably boring, and I’m sorry to talk about school so much again. At least I’m getting stuff done, not like that other paper that just wouldn’t end…

Wow, 2am. I’m 2 hours late. I had the impression it was close to 1am which is not too bad… but 2am, ouch. I’m going to wake up late and have less time to work on that. *sigh*

I’ll try, I promise.

I didn’t work on that Cinderella paper since I talked about it here. It’s not that motivation for doing it isn’t here, it’s just that I’m a procrastinator and I realised I still had almost two weeks to do it, so I can’t bring myself to actually do it.

I also understood today that I don’t like poetry. I mean, I think it’s awesome and very beautiful artistically speaking, but I just never understand the meaning of it in the first place. Like I read it, and I know it’s cool, but I can’t say why and I don’t bother to concentrate on it to find all the cool things about it. And I’ll have an entire course about poetry somewhere in the next few years *sigh*.

So this was my last “Analyse littéraire” class, as well as it was my last “Corpus français” class on Monday. Next week I have 2 exams and then when I have finished my paper work for those courses, there’ll only be 2 courses remaining! I better get going then. I should at least work enough so I can e-mail my teacher with my new outline relatively early tomorrow and hope for an answer during the day and I’d be set for the weekend.

Was that short? I think so. See you tomorrow!

I’m sorry I’m going to talk about school again, and my assignment. I just realised  that I had come on the computer to write this blog and and now it’s an hour later and I’d completely forgotten. So I really have no idea what to talk about, and if it has to be about my day, well, I worked on that paper. And maybe you’ll all be able to help me with it, who knows?

Here’s the thing: the course is about French literature (French as in from France, not the language) and we have to write a less-than-10 pages literary analysis about something that one of the authors we’ve seen this semester wrote. Since we went chronogically and we had to hand in the outline of this analysis as a mid-term work, I chose an author that we’d already seen by then. Because I’m a lazy person, I chose something that was very short, so that if I needed a quote I wouldn’t have to search into a 300-pages novel to find it. I took Charles Perrault’s fairy tales and chose Cinderella because it was one of the shortests, it had no weird things like incest or cannibalism, and I could take references with the Grimm brothers’ version and Disney’s.

To make a long story short, I got a really bad mark for my outline. I’ve even considered not doing Cinderella anymore and start over. But lazy as I am, I don’t really want to read another story and get information on the author and such… so I’m staying with Cinderella. But I still have to start over and make a new outline. I went to the library yesterday and took 3 more books about Perrault and/or Cinderella (I already had one, though I didn’t really use it) and I was reading them today. Here are the notes/ideas I’ve taken from them so far:

• Women: relationship with beauty, clothes.
• Are they complex characters? Cinderella=good. Step-mother=bad. Sisters=bad but become good when Cinderella is under disguise at the ball and when they realise it’s her.
• Does Cinderella seduce the prince willingly so she could escape her pityful life?
• Quote from Fairy Tale Romance, by James M. McGlathery (University of Illinois Press, 1991) p. 14: “Heroes succeed because they act, not because they are. [...] Heroines [...] are already perfect.” Is Cinderella passive or active?
• Men are necessary for social status, but they don’t do anything. (Seriously. The Prince sees her coming in the most beautiful carriage he’s ever seen with the most beautiful dress, falls in love, and then she marries him and becomes Queen.)
• I could also write something about the morality. It basically says that if you’re beautiful on the inside, it only takes a godmother or godfather to make it shine and that external beauty itself isn’t all that it takes to succeed. But honestly, in the story, the Prince falls in love with Cinderella only because of the way she looks. Granted, during the ball, they talked and got to know each other better, and he saw that she was good, but still, we know how men really are – he would still have married her if she’d been stupid! But yeah, that’s hard to prove, I’m no literature major and I haven’t read anything like this in the books, lol. I have a feeling I would fail majorly.

Which are the ones you find most interesting? Any ideas?

Sorry this was long again… I was typing out my ideas at the same time and got a little carried away =S.

Judging from how long it took me to write the other 8,5 pages, this shouldn’t be too rejoicing, but still.

I’m just so tired of being in a sitting position… but I can’t write while standing, unfortunately, unless I was being hi-tech and used the voice recognition thing but since it’s not that good, it’d probably take me longer to finish it than just go having a little walk and come back.

The worse thing about it is that I know that the teacher doesn’t even care. He said we couldn’t fail the course (which is related to a training course, if that’s the word) unless we did something awfully bad while at the school with the students, and that didn’t happen very often. 40% of my mark will be coming from the school where I had my “training” (it was really just observation) and 60% coming from the teacher at the university who can only mark me with that paper. Still, he’ll only read some of it to see if it makes sense, and then give a mark that makes me pass. I just have to do it because I won’t get the mark if I don’t, obviously. This is just so stupid. I don’t like writing it and the teacher won’t like reading it. What’s the point, then?

Also, the only parts I have left to write are the parts that I have to invent, because I couldn’t ethically experience it: they ask us to write about what we observed during a meeting between a student and someone like the psychologist, but even our uni teacher said we couldn’t do these, for obvious reasons. Which student would like to tell he has suicidal ideas in front of a random uni student taking notes about the subject of the meeting and the communication between them? But I have to write one page about how I think a meeting like that would go on, according to what the psychologist said when we met her. And then, one page about a meeting between the psychologist and a teacher, which I couldn’t see for the same obvious reasons. The other page is about the school’s climate with the activities and such, so that shouldn’t be too bad as I went to that school when I was in high school and was very, very much into planning the activities. I still have half a page to write about my interviews with some students. My book asks me to talk about what they said about school rules and their teachers’ rules, but I haven’t really that much to say (wrote half a page already) and my uni teacher wanted us to ask questions about school activities. I see now that their answers to that might come in handy for the activities section, so then I really don’t know what to write and I’m not sure about letting it only at half a page… Edit: Nevermind. I just read and the activities part of the interview goes into the activities section.

Sorry this was me rambling about school again. When I’m finished I’ll probably stop, don’t worry. Or not. Because I have other stuff to do.

And to say, if it hadn’t been for the strike, the semester would be ending in two days…

Edit @11:18: I’m finished! It’s not even midnight! O_O Okay, it’s 1,5 page shorter than what it should actually have been, but who cares, honestly? I even saved some paper! ♪ Looove trees!

I fear tomorrow. I haven’t done the assignment that was supposedly due for today (I wrote 4 lines out of 12 pages). I have to get up early because, as I guessed, the student strike is over so I have a lit class at 9:30. We should get info on our final paper then. I’m also afraid everyone will say they’re done with all the work that I was too lazy to do during the strike… Also I have to take an appointment for my driving test (dates for June open tomorrow and apparently after a few hours everything’s gone). And I haven’t taken any driving lesson this week becaue I wanted to practice with my mum before the next one and when we both had time I just didn’t feel like it… Everything’s pretty bad.

So I’ll just go try to do as much work as I can tonight on one of my assignments… For the other I need to speak with my teacher. I just hope she doesn’t think we’ll hand it in Monday, as it was planned at the beginning of the semester. But a lot of people will probably be finished with it… and if I’m not… well, it’s my fault, isn’t it? GAAH.

Sorry for this unhappy post. I just wanted to be done with BEDA for today so I could concentrate on my work, and I didn’t have anything interesting to talk about.