one day you’re gonna wake up
and realise i’m not who you thought i was
one day you’re gonna wake up
and realise you’re worthy of more than that

one day you’ll have had enough
tired of the fighting and bickering
one day you’ll have had enough
tired of being the only grown up

one day you’ll be exhausted
tired from trying to convince me it’s not true
one day you’ll be exhausted
worn out from trying to fill the void

one day you’re gonna walk out
and close the door behind you
one day you’re gonna walk out
and never look back

one day you’re gonna be gone
and i’ll be left broken
one day you’re gonna be gone
and i’ll go back to being alone

one day i won’t believe the lies
and then maybe we’ll have a chance
one day i won’t believe the lies
but right now, the fear is too huge

The main reasons for depressions are, due to mental stress, family oriented problems, financial problems, usage of drugs and other physiological problems. This problem is improving day by day and many human beings are affected by this.The best way to get rid of mental stress is to do things which we love the most. If possible try to take a vacation for two months and have a wonderful time with your girl friend .

Today my dad and me went for shopping and got a new dress for my mom and for my wife. I am sure that my baby will be happy for me. I am glad that my dad bought a dress for my mom. Today I had an awesome day with my dad and with my family. I am sure that we will always rock and enjoy this world.

November 25th, 2009
My Shitty Town, New York

A large gathering amassed outside the local Waldbaums today, eagerly anticipating the historical departure. Andy DeLonge, 42, will be the first individual launched into space on a completely independently funded mission. The long tenured professor of physics at Dowling University had reportedly paid for the entire mission using the $150 he had won earlier in the week on a ‘Laughing Ducks’ instant win lottery ticket.

Insert Token Uranus Joke...

It is reported that at approximately 6:40 a.m., DeLonge consumed 4 psilocybin mushrooms, put on a pair of Depends adult diapers and crawled the 3.2 miles from his home to the launchpad, a set of broken down liquour boxes stolen from a local Chinese take-out establishment. Cashier Kacie O’Nell confirmed that at 8:01 a.m., she had witnessed DeLonge playing leap frog with an imaginary person, stopping periodically to lick his elbow and swear in Cantonese.

But it wasn’t until 8:20 a.m. that the crowd began to build. “I saw this guy slithering around like a snake with a mouth full of Dave & Busters tokens,” 18 year old Wesley White reports. “I sent a video to some of my friends, they sent it to their friends, it was like a domino effect.” A domino effect it was, and by 10:00 a.m. over 70 spectators were present, including two members of the local fire department. “We could stop this at any time, but this is just too f***ing funny.”

When reached for comment, DeLonge exclaimed, “Yaga Yaga Yaga! Woosh Woosh! *rumbling noises* AY CACACACACACACA!”

Dale Davis, Waldbaums store manager, left us with some words of reflection. “Everyone looks. Everyone laughs. But don’t be so hasty to forget the past. Do you recall Summer 2005? Not many do. A young man named Eric Hansen died while attempting to become the first man on Venus. He looked like he was going to make it too… right up until he crashed into that Gamestop.”

I will be showing an audio piece at

‘Puss IN Boots’

An exhibition/seminar in a strip club in Mayfair.

Private view: Thursday, 26 November

Featuring work by:

Bradford Bahamas
Jack Barraclough
Katia Barett
Alistair Birch
Thomas Bresolin
Eugene Chapman
Vicky Gould
Leon Gower
Michael Harvey
Michael Johnstone
Lily Keal
Alex Lawrinson
Roman Liska
Hannah Perry
Scottee
Rose Rigway
Luis Rodriguez
Miloslav Vorlicek
Alex Warren

Seminar: 7:00pm
Private veiw: 8:00pm
After Party: 10:30pm

11 White Horse Street
Mayfair
London
W1Y 7LB
(the entrance is through the alley around the corner)

curating new ideas etc etc

In lieu of a proper facial at a beauty parlour, a facial mask is the perfect home remedy for lazy people like me. I however am so lazy about this skincare thing, I don’t even have a proper routine. I use whatever is cheap and at hand so I’m always switching brands, buying whatever is on sale. Here are some facial masks I’ve used in the past month:

Generic Drug Store Exfoliating Mask

Rhodiola Rosea Extract Pre-soaked Mask

Dainty Design Rose Mask (Pre-moistened)

Skinlite Firming Lift Coenzyme Q-10 Mask (Pre-moistened)

Clinique Deep Cleansing Emergency Mask

Therapeutic Dermatologic Formula Clay Mint Mask

Most of these were stolen from my sister’s stash as I’m too skint to buy my own. I like the Clinque Emergency Mask for major breakouts – they soothe the skin really quickly and make me presentable overnight. I however don’t like messing around with liquidy things unless absolutely necessary. I most prefer the pre-moistened types where you just pop over your face. The excess liquid can be used over the neck and decolletage area. If I can afford it, I’ll use one every night when I go to bed. It really works! When I wake up in the morning, I swear my face feels so much softer. It’s easy too! Put it on, go to bed, take it off in the morning when you get out of bed. During busy periods when I don’t get enough sleep (say between 5 to 6 hours at most), I’ll put one on every night. I don’t look like crap the next day and it really helps.

November 24, 2009
My Shitty Town, New York

Seventeen year old Joshua Haguan arises at the break of dawn every morning to prime the grills and load the fryers. Haguan, a 27 month veteran of the short order scene, is the morning shift supervisor at the McDonalds on Montauk Highway. He’s a local hero to the early birds, battling the traffic and the night before with Joshua’s caffeinated potions.

“I work pretty hard,” Haguan claimed, “And I didn’t light no spliffs either!” Haguan credits his position for most of his success, taking particular pride in his Mazi Krusher 22″s and his PhatNoise Digital Audio system.

The morning started off just like any other. A few misorders, a couple of early lunches, even a beligerant gypsy singer, but nothing the Montauk “Mac”ker couldn’t handle. “I’ve done 10 McGriddles at once while keeping two pots fresh,” Haguan stated, “Some people have it, some people don’t… I have it.” Haguan’s wind was hastily removed from beneath his sails when Korea Menstachia, 16, pulled in for her daily sausage biscuit with orange juice. Menstachia, a forward for My Shitty Town’s varsity soccer squad and Haguan’s girlfriend of two months, did not finish her drive through order with the usual “See Ya Bitch!” but rather with a ‘Dear John’ letter.

NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM

She stated that she had no respect for his position as shift supervisor and was leaving him for Marty Flank, the evening manager at the local Burger King. Flank, a man of age, is 27 years old and has been working for that particular Burger King for over 14 years. “I started off as chum, you know tables and toilets. But with hard work and a 65% turnover rate, I turned things around and really took life by the horns.” Flank, while sorry for Haguan, realizes that a mature girl like Menstachia needs a real man, not some loser kid.

Menstachia, when reached for comment, but only had this to say: “I’m over it.”

1. sebenarnya samapai kapan semua permasalahan hukum ini akan selesai?????
2. sebenarnya pemberontakan ETA itu tujuan apa ya????
3. sampai kapan banyak orang terjebak dengan cekokan media????

Sâmbătă am băut şi eu ceai şi chiar mi-a plăcut! În cazul extrem de rar în care mai luam vreo gură de ceai şi îmi plăcea, de la a doua gură deja îmi trecea şi nu mai voiam să beau. Daaar acum a fost simpatic, şi nu mi-a plăcut numai al meu, ci şi al persoanei cu care am fost.
Aşa că acum pot să ies şi eu la un ceai şi să nu mai beau fresh sau suc de mere.

-Vreau sa ma pierd in universuri paralele…Vreau sa simt cum lumea mea ia amploare,ma depaseste,si ma inchide in ea…
-Esti sigura de asta?Esti sigura ca e bine?Vrei cu tot dinadinsul?
-Da,vreau!Sigur ca vreau!Tu nu vrei?De ce n-ai vrea?Hai cu mine!Hai sa ne creem lumi ciudate impreuna…
-E periculos!Dar sunt sigur ca stii asta deja!
-Da,stiu,e periculos!Eu ma descurc…si stiu ca si tu te-ai descurca..oricine ai fi!Nu e ca si cum e o crima…Bine,e ilegal sa-ti creezi propria lume dar eu ma risc…Ma risc ca de nu,pierd!Pierd dorinta ce ma omoara inauntru…Si stiu ca daca pierd,castig ore de luciditate,de realitate!Dar la ce e buna realitatea?Am parte de ea zilnic!M-am saturat de ea!
-Dar e mai bine sa traiesti in realitate decat intr-o lume inexistenta!
-Off…stiam ca n-o sa ma intelegi!Se vede ca nu stii nimic…Se vede ca nu intelegi stupiditatea lumii noastre…Stii,in lumea mea eu pot fi cine vreau,pot sa-mi modelez peisajul,pot sa ma joc cu oamenii…E placut…Bine,mai sunt si parti nasoale,trip-uri d-aiurea,stii, asa ca tine!Intamplari inexistente,ca si acum..dar,cel putin,e mult mai distractiv!
-Tu nu mai esti tu!
-Ce?
-Esti diferita!Nu mai iubesti realitatea!Uite in ce hal esti!Nici macar nu stiu daca stii ca nu sunt real!Nu te mai cunosc…Ar fi bine sa plec…
-De ce dracu’ sa pleci?
-Pentru ca eu vreau sa vorbesc cu tine,nu cu o fiinta paralela!Vreau sa renunti,nu pentru mine,pentru binele tau!Mai vorbim…sper sa-ti revii!
-Ce ai ma?Nu ai niciun drept sa-mi ceri nimic!In fine…Du-te dracu’ si nu te mai intoarce…Pleaca odata!Ce te uiti la mine ca la desene animate??Huh??Unde dracu’ te duci??Hei,intoarce-te dobitocule ca n-am terminat!!!….Ba,opriti-l pe ala!!
-Pe cine ba?
-Pe tipul care abia a fost aici!
-Ce tip ba?Ai avut doar un trip nasol!Sincer,iei chestia asta prea in serios
-Realitate idioata…

a very fun film…
of roald dahl’s children book…

and this is one of the fanciest one…

emilio pucci..

~ net-a-porter

Dansez de când mă ştiu. De capul meu, aşa, fără să mă fi învăţat cineva ceva sau să mă fi dat părinţii la cursuri.
Dar în toamna asta am ajuns să dansez şi “organizat”, mergând la cursuri de salsa şi bachata.
Şi mi-am dat seama de ce îmi place atât de mult să dansez! Pentru că mă face să nu mă gândesc la nimic, pentru că mă eliberez de orice şi doar mă bucur de dans. În viaţa de zi cu zi nu poţi face mereu ce simţi, dar în dans, dacă nu faci ce simţi, te-ai pierdut. Înveţi nişte paşi de bază şi nişte figuri, dar când dansezi liber pe muzică, nu te mai gândeşti la teorie. Da, faci paşii cum trebuie, dar mai mult simţi muzica si ritmul ei.
Sunt fată, aşa că eu mă las condusă şi doar opun puţină rezistenţă, nu tre să mă gândesc la ce figură să mai fac, ce să mai improvizez, cum să mai surprind etc. A, şi incă o parte simpatică, dacă băiatul greşeşte, e vina lui, dacă fata greşeşte, e vina lui, că doar el conduce, nu?

Cred că fiecare ar trebui să aibă un loc sau o activitate care măcar să-l facă să se relaxeze şi să-i limpezească mintea. Pentru mine nu e nici pe departe doar atât. Entuziasmul cu care mă duc, dorinţa constantă de a învaţa cât mai multe lucruri noi şi de a dansa oricând, faptul că aş putea să vorbesc încontinuu despre asta, că plec extrem de încântată de la cursuri, gândindu-mă numai că “poimâine vin iar!”; toate astea arată că m-am îndrăgostit definitiv şi iremediabil de dans!.

First off I want to thank William McKeen for the mention on one of his sites The Farm Report

Next up is Wayne Ewing’s addition to his Vodcast. Its called The Eulogy and as usual has great HST related reading and a video thrown in for good measure.

Poundland The Novel is one book I’ll be watching for. It is by one Rodney Munch (maybe not someone who you’d like to bring home to meet your folks.)  Go to the site for more information.

An good friend of mine here at hstbooks is Kevin Ring of Beat Scene Magazine this magazine is a must for fans of the Beat Generation.

Korean Rum Diary One of David Wills’ many sites always has some caustic words to share.

Ed Smith Books has loads of interesting stuff for the book lover and collector. Ed has some nice Steadman and HST stuff amongst his extensive catalog.

Padfoot and Prongs are ploughing along with their very successful book site. They have great reviews and a ton of other stuff there.

Writer Simon J. James has a great site packed full of interesting articles.

Stay in touch with Noel Davila for updates on his writing and coming articles.

when i wish i have my film camera…

Yesterday, i’ve taken some picture of sky and flowers that grew in my garden house. I did this because i’m so bored,,so i went downstairs and i took some pictures of flowers. But i took that picture with my mobile phone’s camera so it doesn’t look good though =______= .

But i like it . Check this out :

worse ><

Well,,it’s bad =____= . Then,,i go upstairs and i gazzed at the sky. That day’s sky was so cool for me. So i took some pictures of them too . Check this out :

This is the cloudy sky. This pictures are plain but i don’t know why,,i like it ^^ . This morning after i pray shubuh, i looked at the sky (again). This dawn’s sky are pretty. So i took a picture of them (again^^).

Check this out :

I like sky soo much >< . Because when i saw the sky i feel free. I felt i could forget all my problems and i felt calm .

So this is basically just a note to myself as nobody will see this yet, but hey lets start a blog.

Hey friends! This is a new collection of my garbage. Now that the punch-up and freelance work is coming in rather steadily, I need to be able to produce some decent material on a regular basis. As a result, I start off every morning with a quick brain wetting exercise that usually isn’t very good and hastily makes it to the garbage pail.

Previous exercises include:

• Freestylin’
• Stream of Conscience
• Left Side Drawing
• Crafting Clay Penis Monsters
• Black Poetry

Snape and Dumbledore

I’m going to start off with a new method of fail. Before work I’ll visit a local establishment, look at my surroundings and attempt to conduct an accurate read on the individuals around me. With my keen insight and 3 credits of Sociology under my belt, I’m not too sure how this could go wrong.