ويقيمُ في قصرِ بعيدْ ..

واتكاءته على وهنِ تزيدْ ..

ويرى خلال عيونها المتوقدهْ

ما بعد سبعينَ ونصفِ أو يزيدْ ..

يرى ملاكاً للمحبة بات يولد من جديدْ ..

http://www.timesonline.co.uk/tol/comment/columnists/matthew_parris/article6888054.ece

More or less sums up what was wriggling around inside my brain last night.

I felt really sick after reading some people’s comments about the BNP and immigration. Then, stupidly, I read an article about a women who was supposedly addicted to abortions. My dreams were unpleasant.

Pengenalan Wrapper Class

Semua tipe data primitif yang di bungkus menjadi kelas di Java dan bersifat tetap.
Terdapat di dalam package java.lang
Digunakan untuk melambangkan tipe data primitif pada suatu objek jika dibutuhkan.
Merupakan final class dan interface.

Tipe Data Yang di Wrap
Ada 8 tipe data primitif yang di wrap menjadi kelas di Java

Well, i feel so boring in my bedroom. so i decided to do something by myself. my brothers sleep, my parents sleep to. Urgh boriiing
So this is me. in front of the computer and getting started to posting something.
First, i will tell you that yesterday i went shopping with my mom to Rumah Mode. Thankfully, Rumah Mode its not crowded like usually. i bought pastel cardigan and orange flanel shirt. actually, i’m not sophisticated yesterday but yeah, no problem. i haven’t enough money to shop much stuff.
Second, i’ve being crazy! i don’t know why. i just can’t control my self to always near form my blackberry and be twitter addict! maybe, i can update my tweets until 10 or 20 tweets/day. and my tweets increasing so fast… But, sad. my followers is still not much. only 19.
Third, i will show you my style!

1.

mic jewelled by edreena featuring Alexis Bittar jewelry

this style name is Mix Jewelled. why jewelled? look carefully. the jacket its full of jewel. yeah, thats cool for me.
2.

sharp! by edreena featuring Anya Hindmarch bags

the name is sharp! i don’t have any idea to give a name for the style. at this style, i very like the wegdes! but, its so expensive. the price is 9.173.065 idr. ugh :’(
3.

mona! by edreena featuring Calypso

for this style i just make sure i cant to play polyvore. just for tryin. so, they looks very not cool haha. but for your information again, the price for lizard platform is 8.402.219. soooo expensive

And guys, what style who you choose? 1 2 or 3? so far i like 1. was wondering to wear the legging.

Yeah, maybe enough for now. i’m so much discussing so, have a nice monday–don’t hate monday pals–bye!
Styling lovers,
edrina

pacar gw hari ini lg jalan” sm tmennya dan gw di cuekin, maklum sih tmennya balik ke jakarta jd mau seneng”. yauda lah, cweknya jg gakan kmana”. dy ta ga sih kl gw kangen bgt sm dya? ga nyadar apa gmna? gw pgn bsk jalan sm dy deh, gausa jalan.. ktemu jg gpp kok. bisa ga ya? mau ga ya dy? dy kan suka gitu, judes bgt kl ngmg sm gw. suka sakit hati gw adanya kl nelvon dy, kata dy biasa aja. biasa ajanya itu yg buat gw bt sm dy! cwok cwok…

gw kmrn jadi flashback sm mantan gw, dy maniiis bgt, ya walo mukanya gada manisnya hahaha, tp sm dy gw ga bisa marah. tiap pacaran pasti akan beda jalannya. sm dy gw ga bisa marah, sama dhka gw marah”. tapi rasa dan greget yg gw dapet ya beda jg. hehehe sm dhka gw bisa bereksplor dan gw puas gt.  gw jd gatau nikah apa namanya dan akan seperti apa… mgkn gw akan mengalami hidup yg bahagia dlm percintaan kl gw uda cantik dan langsing, karna slama gw gendut yaaa gini” aja. cwok gw tetep genit sm cwek lain. cwok” ngeliat gw jg kyk angin doang..gada yg terpesona. yaelah lemak smua apa yg mau di pesonain sih -__-

gw harap sygnya dy ke gw tulus, setia,dan apa adanya. entah mengapa hari ini gw kanggeeeen bgt sm dy. mgkn dy gatau, kl pun tau reaksinya ya datar aja. that what makes me feel dissapointed. gw pgn dy manjain gw dan do romantic thing. kl bsk bisa, ngpn ya? hemm gatau deh. tmn bandungnya lg sibuk, gw jg pgn ktemu sodara bali gw. emg dya aja yg punya relasi dr luar kota. hh cinta emg gini kali ya, suka bt in.

yuuk mari dikenalkan sejenak pacar saya, namanya yosef andhika. dhika aja panggilan. karakternya? ehmm mudah ditebak kok. he is nice but some of time he is so rude   see him on : http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1479581524

memang harus sabar dlm menyayangi seseorang, butuh waktu pengertian kepercayaan dan sikap yg baik toto kromo

after i come home, now i just stay at home. umm actually i hope my BF comes to my home and sees me, but i think he doesnt want. maybe he isnt miss me =’(

he dares me to ake me diet! hell yes i can do it, who the hell you think you are? it is possible for me to turn into slim, maybe it needs long time but i want to do it. with or without you i can do it. i will make you crazy in love with me, not only you, all of the men!

i dont know what i will do at home. maybe just sitting around and watching tv.

totally bored -___-

okay, 3 days 2 nights we spent our holiday in queen harbour-or lets say pelabuhan ratu,west java. i enjoy the holiday actually,but there are some problems in here.

1. the electric matter  – guess what, there’s just 1 stopkontak in each bungalow [2 bedr-1 bathr-1 tv room]. and daddy brought a note book, i had a mp3 player.and all of us had cellphone,and dont forget, we need electriccity to charge the DSLR. well soo no cool!
2. boyfriend  – he’s ignore me just because he think he’s attitude made my holiday became better and happier. BOO! sok tau bgt! nothing different, is just.. i need my BF to share and umm i miss him till i write this blog i had angry at him because of his attitude to ignore.im not that kind of girl! so, he is apologize and became sweet again, well i hope its hold on longer than i expected.
3. the weather and my family condition  – my mom condition is not really well to ask her to go to the beach and asked her to swam at beach-she scares of sun shine,she said its a pity for her skin ! and my bro,he doesnt like an adventure so much,even my dad does i just doesnt feel really comfort with him so i hold my want to take a rafting in here. i’ve ever take rafting in here. it’s fun you know! i’ addict to it hahaha

so we plan to go from here tomorrow noon, maybe after the lunch we go back to jakarta and i have prepare for my TO2 because my TO1 paper work doesnt finish! ooh vanished me! okay okay change the topic, in here.. i get fatter and fatter, darker and darker and get an acne! ugh! i am scare to meet my BF, i dont he complain me because of all this. he will say im ugly.. is that right? im ugly?

my plan when i arrive in jakarta? umm i want meet my BF, cook puding roti www.kejumooo.com and prepare for school. there are lots that i need to do. -__-

oya! in here, the beach, seafood,sunset,hotel or inn are not really bad. yaaa 8 lah hehehe, next time i go in here i want to stay in karang sari hotel. it’s better that my inn that i stayed now hehehe.

ok, good night . have great holiday all  D

met lebaraaaan smuaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

duuh enak ya uda ga puasa lg, bisa makan lg-minum lg-ngebir lg hahaha, gw ngerasa sebenernya taun ini bukan tentang makna dari kehidupan lain, tp tentang makna rasa cinta gw. bukan dibawa ke arah yg gmna, ga memihak. ga memburuk ga membaik, tp gw ngerasa aneh sama perasaan gw. seolah gw butuh fakta dari sgala galanya yg terjadi. dari A sampe Z. byk hal yg uda gw alamin slama bulan puasa bersama cwok gue. dan byk yg uda dy lakuin, tp itu ngebuat jd bingung buat ambil keputusan. gw gatau apa yg mesti gw lakuin.

so far, yaa formalitas aja setiap pacar blg I LOVE YOU and blablabla. tp nyatanya gw gatau gmna dy sm gw. ada rasa syg, tp gw ngerasa gw bukan seseorang yg dy tunggu”, there is someone else. ELSE. gw pun sukses ngalamin malam takbiran sm dy, tp entah mengapa saat gw ada aja hal yg ngebuat dy gabisa spending night sm gw. tp sm yg lain, BISA. gatau knapa. bukan rejeki gw kali ya..

is there something wrong with me? sampe pacar gw, org yg gw sayang.. yg meaningfull berbuat gt sm gw? apa bener apa kata film cinta, kl cwok itu hadir buat bikin hati kita sakit aja? ngebuat perasaan kita ditinggikan lalu dijatuhkan?

gw ngerasa jd cwe paling desperate di jagad raya! plg ga guna, plg ga penting. gw gatau dy nganggep gw apa,gw gatau rasa syg dy kyk apa,gw gatau apa yg disenangi dr gw. gw blank! apa iya cinta itu unreasonable. ga kok, cinta itu reasonable. apa gw gada tandingannya dari tiara? seburuk itu kah gue?

masalahnya yaa, gw uda tlanjur syg sm lo. kl ini cinta akan makin membahayakan buat kita-oke buat GW! karna lo aja ga bisa menggaransikan, apalagi gw. kl gw ngmg apa lo bilang :

1. apa urusan lo
2. bodo amat, apa peduli lo
3. suka” gw
4. kl ga suka cari aja yg lain
5. terserah
6. trs lo ada hak apa?

apa iya gw gada apa|nya di hidup lo?

knpa harus kyk gini jalannya?

apa Tuhan merencanakan in smua? apa iblis? apa aku yg berdosa padaMu hingga ia harus Kau pertemukan dgnku?

dhikaaa, km itu gmna? km itu knapa? atau aku yg bersalah? apa yg harus aku lakukan agar ini smua jelass..

lelah rasanya berlari mencari jawaban seolah mencari pasir putih di tengah pasir. apa harus aku cari di tempat yg teramat luasnya dan kamu hanya terpaku begitu saja? setega itu ya kmu skarang?

ehmm what?

hahaha i dont know, well me and my BF were back together again. we feel there is a love in us but sometimes the diferrences separate us far away.

he said i was over protective, selfish,and too much talking. really? i dont mean it.

and i said he was over close with his girlfriends and stubborn. i want we can make each heart and each self better to walk together in our path of love hehehe.

i dont know  how far this relation can be continue. but at least as a human being i already do a hard work to keep my love stay with me and be mature with it. because its juast diferrent when you break up with your couple and when you keep struglle with him/her to keep your love alive. you will through named troubles-diferrences-boredem-loneliness-adaptation. so it will build you to be more mature to face troubles ..

so how bad and how hard the condition that ever happen in your life, never give “middle finger” to it but gie it smile of thankness to it. GOD IS FAIR,ALWAYS

Hari ini diawali dgn rasa bersalah.. i felt guilty to my BF, i said wrong words that made everything ruined. I am sorry, again. In a week i’ve already made 2 big mistakes. Maybe im not your best BF and best future wife.. but this feeling is belonging to you dear. Why? I dont know. Is this name chemistry? Same when i FELT really happy in bali.yeah paradise island HAHAHA. Okay forget it—focus!

And now it ends with a fury! Big angry because of a thing.
Ngapain sih lo deketin cwok gw? NORAK! Kyk gada cwok laen aja buat di emba. Katanya uda di add, “iyaa,dy ramah kok yank.km coba add aja dy pasti gitu juga sm kamu.” HAH GITU APANYA!! Gw di IGNORE. Aaaah ANJING lo!! Mana ngomongnya uda sok lucu bgt, kl skrg lo uda males sm gw trs pgn beralih sm slera baru ya bilang kek, gw jg bisa ngerti.
“HONEY I LOVE HIM!” diulang, HIM . H-I-M cwok yaaaaa!! Bener-bener pgn gw tonjok tuh COWOK! Kmrn gw dibilang lesbi skrg homo,bsk mah uda penggemar 22nya! Maksud gw ya lo genit, tp cwok gausa digenitin jg dooooong! Lo mau di sodomi? Gw yakin sih engga. Trs mau lo apa? Ke kosan di di blakang kukusan itu ken ya?trs di traktir deh sama aa’ ferry imoet ntu.duu co cwid beudh neeeh. Wall-wall’annya aja lbh byk drpd sm gw yg jd pacarnya.waaa hebat ya, ngalain gw bok! Heran gw maunya dy apa, pake nge’ignore gw itu mah uda cari ribut bgt. gw bisa buat lo kyk gitu.mudaaah.. lo deketin dia habis lo. Lagi seh, homo sapien bgt lo jd org.HIH! pake ngomongnya uda mesra bgt,skrg tukeran nomor minta pulsa jg cwok gue. Apa cwok gw yg gatel apa gmna deh? Uuu hbs sm ANGGIT skrg sm FERRY. Trs sypa? SUKIMIN?ebuseeet. duh aku tau km suka bergenit ria ya sayangku,tp si ferry itu ya gausa km ladenin ato km yg mulai jg gt.
IYA,GW MAU LO GA WALL”AN LG SM DIA. SYAPA YG NGASI NMR TRS NGASI IDE SUPER HOMO BRILIAN KALIAN TUKERAN NMR? EMG CANGGIH! Haaaah puyeng gua!gw pikir gw uda salah bgt,mewek” gitu mohon km jgn marah, yaa emang aku salah jg.eeeh pas gw liat wall…. WEDEEEEH ADA 2 PASANGAN HOT LG WALL-TO-WALL tuuh.. uda cwoknya maksa bgt pgn ktemuan di DETOS trs ntar ke kosannya mau dijajanin.emg aku ga bisa jajanin km?
“kok km cwmburu sm cwok sih?”,tanya penga (emg beneran penga dy!!!!)
“ya iya,dy tuh wallan ke km lebay bgt,cwok normal gakan ampe sengebetnya itu bwt ktemua dan ngajak jalan!!”,balas gw.penga cmn ktawa.bangga bgt dideketin cwok mas.kl anggit mah gw marahnya masih normal,lah kl dia? Kl emg elo lbh demen sm itu politeknih UI yang mau ntraktir lu yauda sono geh!
GA HABIS PIKIR gua bisa ampe kyk gitu, ini C O W O K!!pgn gue labrak nnti dia maennya ngaduan,ntar marah cwok gw,trs trs MUTUSIN GW BUAT ITU FERRY BANGSAT!! Najeeeeeeeeess!!
Km itu uda disurh ke dokter gamau malah marah2,ini skarang malah PDKT sm anak cwok UI yang ngebet bgt ktemu sm km.ga puas sm aku?pgn nyari pengalaman baru?ato apa?jelasin ke gw,kasih tindakan jelas,dan jadi orang yang bener!!!
DHIKAAAAAAAAAAAA!! Elu ZZZZZZ abeeeeeeeees!!!!

luckily there is photography invention, looking at the pic does make me smile. so much good memory. By our asia trip, Isle of wight, Paris, Birmingham, Oxford, Bath and of course London. Thank you for being with me to spend those memorable moment. I love u more than word can describle. Let’s create our own future togther and we have more n more place to go, more and more ppl to meet. It is all good. =)

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This is the first weekend I m alone without KK. I m feeling ok luckily I got a few fds that keep me busy. But deep down I missed KK so much. Don’t think too much I told myself just be happy n enjoy the life with a positive thinking. I m confident tmr is a better day . I m smiling =]

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Can’t believe today really has come , Kk has officially left london n back to Asia. I always believe I don’t cry that much but today my tear just totally out of control. The feeling is so intense that I don’t know how to control it, I guess that is the power of love. all of our good memory flash back, somehow I just wish to have a simple life together why we have to separate thousand miles away? That is life? That is fate? I will fight hard to live together with u . I m positive n I know I can do it. Keep smile baby . Asia I m coming =]

What can I do to stop the time ….