Have been riding on a high since training. I arrived home feeling different about how I represent work deadlines and feel less stressed about workloads. The past few days I’ve spent working in my office, and today I find an old anchor in my office triggering me back into a bad time wasting habit. Part of me wants to pull everything out of the office, and totally rearrange it to suit my inner growth, and lose the old negative anchors.

That reminds me of what I several years ago. I went through a massive inner shift, and absolutely uprooted everything familiar – my career, my relationship, my friends… whoa… that was not a good plan to throw everything into chaos at once. At the time, I’d figured if I’m going through discomfort then let me do it all at once, and get it done with. Yeahhhhhh… no. I’ve since learned, for me anyway, that change and growth can be better managed in planned incremental action steps. So after I finish writing this, I will stand back at the door of my office and decide how I want to rearrange my office to better suit me. Then I begin to change that tomorrow morning.

I’m sharing this with you as well as for me, because I need to hear this myself right now. As I decided I wanted to live in the now, I had an epiphany that I had to create the now that I WANT to be present to! And so I now regularly assess my values, my criteria in the areas of my life pie, what I’m tolerating, what to release, goals and actions, etc. So I consistently strive to create the desired present. Since I work with a coach buddy, we do this on a quarterly basis. And I still find it takes a conscious effort to bring myself back to the present in a typical day. Remembering to remember to be grateful helps!

Like the portraits I love to paint, my life is a work of art in progress that evolves as I do. As my inner artist grows, it reflects how much better the paintings become. So long as we’re learning and growing, there will always be an evolving inside, that reflects in our outer world. It is that growth and evolving that makes us realize we CAN have more of what we want!!! We’re all a great work of art – in progress! Give yourself permission for you and your life to be a great work of art, knowing that great art happens one stroke at a time. Complete? Oh I hope not – there are just too many fascinating people to paint!

This One is kind of old but I love it ^_^

Standing against the wind with nothing but the horizon infront of her .. She closed her eyes with opend hands feeling that her dreams are so far .. After a while she smiled so happily, opend her eyes and said : ” You are like the horizon.. I can’t reach you but you are there .. So close but yet so far, lost in a mysterious world ” ..

 - Jad Chan

P.S. You might read this in other forums under the name of Ran Mory \ Sakura .. Both names are mine .. If it’s under anyother then it’s stolen ..

“I picked up a book because her cover was attractive,  enticing- her title stirring, slicing… her page one made me wish I’d never get done.”

“Passion is poetic lust.”

“A teardrop or two before I dream, to rid my soul of dirty things.”

“I’m dizzy from rolling my eyes, please stabilize me with some sense.”

“You deserve to smile more than you do… and even that one was owed to you.”

Being in love with someone means..

That someone become the salient figures in everything

Between others SHe’s the one that we can see, everthing seems blurred

SHe is the center in every frame that SHe enters, whether it is nature scenery.. or in a crowded party..  SHe’s the one that is beautiful.. SHe’s the one that stands out.. SHe’s the one that is different!

SHe is different than others

Even though SHe utters the same exact words with others, the words become more meaningful

Even though SHe does the same cliche jokes, the jokes become extravagantly funnier

The nod, the laugh, the way SHe looks at, the way SHe eat, the way SHe write or draw or think.. The way SHe does all the ordinary think might become extraordinary

and the presence.. just make everything different. LOVE.

Did you ever wake up to a beautiful sunny day, just perfect for blowing off some steam, but the annoying cold totally brought you down?

Well I have. And I’m telling you: it sucked. No running, no training and total annihilation of the senses for four-seven days. It was so nasty that right then and there I decided to kick those germs off for good!

And here is my tested method that I can assure you will keep you away from all those squirming viruses just waiting to get you.

On Fighting Germs

My family has a ministry to the world, we call it Creation Evangelism Tools (or CET for short) and it exists to equip Christians with answers to hard questions about life and apologetics. 

Every other month, we publish a newsletter with articles and product reviews, answers to questions and biographies of scientists among other things.  

I urge you to sign up for the newsletter, and browse the site.

to “Fall” is for something that we know less about

to “Be In” is for something that we know beautiful

and to “Be True” is for something that we already know everything

Happy Loving my dear friends,

Ra

This is a great surprise for the day. My article about what to do and what not to do while training is now published on a notorious website.

It is quite interesting, as I assess it. But please, do skim and share opinions!

Handbook for Runners

What I want is that smile, not the one you give, but the one I provoke. What I want is the conversation, not what you say, but what I stir. What I want is that kiss, not the one you give, but the one I return.

I do not want you. I want us.

First post in my new blog.

With so much shit I’m going through, I’m leaving my personal concerns aside for a stranger- it’s not a resentment, but a thank you. Someone who reached out to me when I was going through problems, someone I know little about, but have seen enough from to know that he cared for me first. For that, I’m indebted to you.

No matter how many self-help books we read or how many religious ceremonies we attend, there’s a constant redefining of our purpose here. It’s never completely clear.

You matter. The obvious people aside; kids, lovers, friends, family, etc… We’re all connected. The things I’ve been through, will (and have) connected me with others to assure them that they’re not alone, they’re not crazy, it is human to feel that way, it is temporary. Temporary as long as you keep going.

You have roles to fill in this life; husband, father, friend and the countless unknown. Sometimes you’ll fail, but it’s the constant correction of the good in us that makes us perfect in the pursuit.

No one can expect anything more from you, including yourself.

Here is a link to my latest article in Al-Adab

Vừa ra khỏi một vụ kẹt xe kinh hoàng thứ 2 từ ngày vào Sài Gòn. Hơn một giờ hít bụi khói, chen lấn, đẩy dắt, nghe đủ mọi loại âm thanh, nhìn đủ mọi loại xe cộ, thấy đủ mọi loại gương mặt chán ghét căng thẳng mệt mỏi. Như thế có lẽ vẫn là quá ít, quá may so với bao nhiêu người ngày nào cũng trải qua chừng đó thứ lặp lại nhiều lần. Rồi thì người ta vẫn tiếp tục sống. We’ve got to live.

Nơi đây mọi thứ có vẻ như nhấm nhuần Phật giáo: Sắc tức thị Không, Không tức thị Sắc. Mọi thứ đều có cũng như không, mà không cũng như có. Những con đường, đèn hiệu giao thông, vỉa hè, cảnh sát, pháp luật, cả câu chuyện Dê Trắng Dê Đen trẻ con ai cũng từng nghe, không một thứ nào chịu làm đúng vai trò / giá trị của chúng. Và bầy đàn người: họ hiền lành và ngây ngô, họ yếu đuối và ngu xuẩn, họ ích kỷ và bơ vơ. Một đại lộ kẹt xe hàng chục km chỉ vì vài chiếc xe máy chen ngang từ hẻm nhỏ. Một đất nước lụn bại chỉ vì vài cá nhân xuẩn ngốc tham lam.

Còn 3 ngày nữa là tròn 6 tháng Sài Gòn. Chắc chắn sẽ ở đây thêm ít nhất 1 năm nữa. Ít khi nào mình chắc chắn về 1 năm sau đến vậy. Cũng hay.

So we reach the point where I am sick of hearing people say that darkness represents evil, and as such, is evil in and of itself. What exactly is Darkness? We know for one that it is the absence of light, but this at least can be proven. Turn off all of the lights in the room, and then block out all the windows. There is now no light there, but when you pull out a cell phone, or a lighter, there is light, in that little area of the room. This light makes the darkness vanish in that spot, proving that darkness is the absence of light. That is Darkness from a scientific point of view, now I shall take it from a Christians point of view, after that, I shall take it from my own point of view.

To many Christians, Darkness represents evil, and as such should be avoided. For this reason they like to condemn Halloween, and name it the day of Satan, and Satanic religions. This goes against all that Christianity is supposed to represent and believe in.  According to the Bible, which as a Christian they accept  as the infallible word of God, God created all there is, down to the hour, day, and time we live in. Thusly the only reason Halloween can be counted as a Satanic day is because Christians handed it over based on superstitions that they had no place believing.  The majority of Christians believe that because Halloween has become a day of darkness that it is an evil day. If it is so, then as we are to be lights shining in a dark world shouldn’t we be out there more so on that day, witnessing? Realistically, there is no cause for them to blame any of the weirdness that happens on Halloween on anyone but themselves. Witches, Occultists, Pagans, none of these are to blame. Christians made the day what it is now, and are still making it worse by refusing to take it back.

My own beliefs on the subject: Darkness and Evil are two separate and different things, and, unlike the above beliefs of most Christians, mine can be proven with experience. Darkness merely draws out the darkness in your soul, to make you feel at home in it, whereas Evil openly collides with you and attacks you, even if only in small ways. I have felt the effects of both, me, personally. Evil I am  acquainted with, but Darkness I know very well as of October 31st, 2009.

If one thing annoys me the most about this topic it is the lack of Christians proving their beliefs from paragrah number 2. I have always heard them try to prove it with the scientific slot from paragraph one, but that doesn’t work for them, and they only sound like they don’t have any idea what they are talking about.

-P^K^K-