Please know you have profoundly helped me grow to who I am today (I hope that’s not a bad thing!). I apologize off the bat for the bad grammar. This is a very stream of consciousness letter. I am thankful for so many people this is going to sound like an acceptance speech. If only I had an award to go with it!For some reason, I feel more thankful than ever. Going through a transformation of sorts puts everything in perspective. When I lost my job this past June, I would have never guessed I would have felt more alive and have met some of the most amazing people. I never dreamed I would be on television/radio and also have a blog, which has had to date over 15,000 hits. I am grateful for EVERYONE who visits day after day!

Thank you for following the journey.

If I could tell you one thing –change the world. Go out and make a difference. Stand up for what you believe in. Change someone’s life. We all have amazing stories to tell. Share them.

My blog wouldn’t have gotten off the ground without a few people. My publicist, George, whose idea it was to really go forward and create the blog. He always has a way of staying positive. A special thanks to ALL the people I have interviewed thus far: the wonderful Marti C., single-licious Melissa B, exceptional Jerry Mitchell, incredible forced to be reckoned with Frenchie Davis, life changing activities Ryan Janek Wolowski and Randy Wicker, and uber talents Richard and Dana. Elisa, Will, Angelo and Renee thank you for one point or another for being my camera bitch! There are many more people, so I apologize if I have forgotten you.

Liz S, you are an amazing woman who constantly gives me the chance to do what I love! You always astound me by the types of events you have me cover. Thank you for taking a chance with me!
Julie H. you have such an amazing heart. I never thought in a million years I would be on the Pat Field website! You have really made my year. You see things in me that I have overlooked. I can’t thank you enough for the dream come true it has been and will keep continuing!
Meagan H. – WE WILL GET KATHY!! You are such a joy to know and you never make my crazy idea is well…crazy! You are a great visionary at what you do!

My family has always been my rock. A special shout out to my relatives in PA, who are not only amazing, but I am so blessed to have reconnected with them on Facebook. Though sometimes we seem miles apart, BENNINGTONS know we are NEVER that far. Thanks guys for all the kick ass support!

My other “family” -my friends who have seen my light and my dark, I feel so fortunate to have had the opportunity to see each of you grow and become individuals who make me proud in the way you contribute and choices you make. Each of you has such a special gift. I truly love you all and you have been a place to look for advice, support and unconditional love. You have no clue how much I value all of you (though sometimes my sarcasm may make it seem otherwise)

My Old Tappan friends, it’s been a while but let me know when you’re around the NYC/NJ area. For me to see us all grown up seems a little freaky! It was only yesterday we were singing to Mr. Boscia’s music, seeing Mr. Rossi throw a desk, cutting class, going to the prom. Now some of you have your own families. Keep me in your heart, as I do with you.

Wagner College gave me amazing inspiration to find myself and meet professors and life-long friends who inspire me daily. There are many ways you can gain an education as I learned in my years at Wager!

Thanks to all the RENT friends I have made. Measure in love. We can always be grateful for Jonathan Larson’s lasting treasure. Thanks for all the RENT road trips!

Thank you, all the new friends I have made. I look forward to knowing you more and more (that DOES sound kind of creepy)

THANK YOU TO ALL OF YOU OUT THERE WHO INSPIRE!

This year, remember those who are not as blessed and keep them in your thoughts and prayers. It’s important for us –as teachers, friends, parents, lovers, brothers, sisters,-you name it, to go out there and make a difference. Anything small can help. We can be the change.

Please have a safe, healthy and happy Thanksgiving this year.

The best is yet to come,

Neal B
www.nealbinnyc.wordpress.com

From my colleague’s van.

I went to the library with my girlfriend.
So………………
Here’s the proof that some paparazzi took pictures of us.

So ya,i heard the pictures are now being leaked in various websites now.
Some even made those paparazzis a fortune.

Have a good day then!
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.

Waiting for lunch

Jeg har blitt skikkelig fan av weheartit.com. Siden er så bra, og så mye fine bilder. Dagens tema: LOVE!

Nem várom. Egyáltalán nem várom a születésnapomat. Nem tudom mért. Talán biztos vagyok benne, hogy egyedül leszek és ez elriaszt. Vagy nem tudom. Egyre jobban félek attól, hogy egyedül maradok ebbe a nagy világba. Egyik oka az, hogy azt álmodtam anyukám meghal. Sírva keltem fel. Furcsa, mert még ilyen nem volt. Nem is akarom, hogy legyen többet. Emiatt is elég szomorú voltam egész nap. Kb senki se tudott felvidítani. Hozzátartozó haláláról álmodni: bevallhatatlan ellenszenv; súlyos sorozatos sértés, amit elszenvedtél.
Úgy érzem, hogy ez nagyon igaz. Ellenszenv két ember iránt…akik igazán békén hagyhatnának már. Gabika, azért aranyos volt, hogy oda akartál hozzájuk menni beszélni. : ) A sértések meg egyértelmű. Mostanában rosszat kapok mindenkitől. Semmi se úgy jön ki, ahogy szeretném. Rudas hét van és el se mentem semmire. Tesómék is előbb mentek be Rudasba, de nem tudott még a Tamás se meggyőzni, hogy menjek, pedig bírom a jégkorongosokat. Amúgy Fannival voltunk lent a ‘párttanyákon’ és az asok nyakláncot adtak. : D Szóval engem ezzel megvettek. xD Anyu kedvenc mondata, hogy “Majd lesz valahogy.” Hát remélem.

It has really been a long time since I last wrote into the blog.

Reading through the comments made by dear really put a smile on my face. I really treasure the person that she is and the way she cares for me. Really looking forward to our next trip together.

Right now, at this point of time, my parents are in Cairo right now enjoying a cruise on the river Nile. Think it should be quite fun especially for my dad as he really enjoys the company he has in the tour group. And i’m sure the group enjoys his company too.

Last week was rough. Had a not so pleasent appraisal from my superior. But I thought about it. Rather than to comment on the shortcomings of my supervisor where she doesn’t practice what she preaches, I should just focus on my work and contribute to the project and get it successfully rolled out.

That’s all for now. Will post more definately. This iPhone app is cool.

bắt đầu điên ra rồi )

24′11′09

Nincs nagyon miről írnom, vagyis lenne, de arról nem szeretnék. Tehát kitaláltam, hogy egy emberről írok. Úgy érzem, hogy most ő van mindig ott velem, ha rossz a kedvem, ha jó, szóval mindig. Megértjük egymást meg ilyenek. Ahh na jó ez se megy nekem túl jól, hogy másokról írjak. Naaaa…nem régóta ismerem, gólyatábor óta kb. Tök örülök, hogy megismertem. Amúgy Ivettnek hívják. ^^ Szeretem.(L) Meeeeeg ma belém csípett. xD Egyébként tanulnom kéne angolra. ): De nem akarok, meg nincs kedvem. Holnap nincs is első órám. JAAAAAAAJ meg RUDASHÉT van. Remélem jó lesz. Holnap akarok majd mondani valamit Ivettnek :O Ma megnéztem tesómmal az Alkonyatot. Kurvajó :O Tök azt hittem, hogy szar meg mit tudim én.. de nem. Meg még vasárnap megnéztük a Megint 17-et. Nem nagy durranás… jobbra számítottam. : D Akkor Az utolsó ház balra, na az még egy jó film volt. Nem a legjobb, de elment. Két favoritom van: Elrabolva és Alian vs. Predator. Örök kedvencek maradnak.(8 Na de PUX.

Med penger kan du kjøpe et hus, men ikke et hjem.

Med penger kan du kjøpe en klokke, men ikke tid.

Med penger kan du kjøpe en seng, men ikke søvn.

Med penger kan du kjøpe en bok, men ikke visdom.

Med penger kan du besøke en lege, men ikke kjøpe helse.

Med penger kan du kjøpe deg en posisjon, men ikke respekt.

Med penger kan du kjøpe deg blod, men ikke liv.

Med penger kan du kjøpe sex, men ikke kjærlighet.

Har du flere synspunkter du kan gjøre med penger?
Håper dere alle har hatt en kjempe flott helg, det har jeg ihvertfall!
Gleder meg allerede til neste helg!

To whom u-admitted:

SOrry to disappoint u that when i was in thai and heard that u aint gg to HK, i dun have tat IMMATURE thoughts at all. HA! I dun even care of ur presence or absence for the trip. I didnt even bother to question anything regarding it. I juz skipped the topic.  I AM AN IMMATURE PERSON, why cant I? Using “friend” as a transitive verb isnt out from my mouth. What “i friend u , i dun friend u”. Oh plz get ur fact right tat it comes out from ur mouth. I think the 6 yr old kid isnt me. Throughout, i have been using LOATHE or LIKE. Tsk tsk~

Sorry once again that i seriously luv expressing my thoughts infront of the com not before the “it” cos i juz afraid i might juz punched the “it” like wat i did in sec sch. ANd i not the type of person hitting the opposite sex.

SOrry again to disappoint u, i admitted for not turning up for JZ’s bdae cos my unitmates were not gg so why do i have to go alone when i knew none of the crowd there but at least i have to heart to tell everyone i felt bad for not turning up when he actually turned up for my bdae. Juz to let u noe i have been the one who kept asking them whether they gg anot 2wks b4 his bdae party.  So does it show tat i dun even concern anything abt it. And plz get ur facts right at the 1st place. With the presence of zj and kim, they heard me telling my junior tat i was outside wif my frenz already and not gg there as none of  my unitmates was going too. OF cos i;m contented after getting my dslr. When u got smth tat u wan, i think u probably will grin till ur lip cracked. CArrying my newly-bought DSLR shopping wif evil aura? EVIL? U noe wat it means by evil? I think it;s should be guilty instead. And zj and kim knew i felt guilty, so do i have to show my feeling in order to spoil others’ mood. I dare to tell u, I still dunno JZ well even till my bdae. MY unitmates all knew him better than me cos they have more common topics and had gone up to thai tgt b4. So do i have to go to his bdae when i noe no ones well while feeling outcasted. WAt a “naive” thinking?! IF U WREAKED HAVOC AND MESS UP MY CAMP OR HC’S CAMP, I ASSURE TAT U WILL DEFINITELY LEAD A “BETTER” LIFE , BTICH!

Facebook is a place for people to update their status and wat they feel. So nth can stops me from posting anything i want. It’s none of ur concern as no names was mentioned. It can be anyone under the sun. There are loads of vocabulary to use, i’m not running out of words since the definition of the word has covered what i want to describe so y do i bother finding other words again.

Be Gentlemen?! Did i sae i want to be? Gentlemen is too far-fetched for guys to be. Y do i have to be a gentlemen when i wanted to be nasty and harsh to a particular person. LMAO! We alwae travel from the nearest to the farthest location by cab. If u aint used to it, I’m sorry that’s OUR DOING in OUR circle. I definitely wun do this to another friend circle of mine.

Parasite to me? U kidding me?! Or parasite to everyone? Haa. Like what i have told them, I have no controls of changing one’s opinions and impression of the other party and what hc had said was oso true “one will have a different opinion ONLY after he/she has experienced something under some circumstances”. In ur memory, u did nth to offend. Yup that’s ur memory but not mine cos u dunno wat i feel. Ur actions had alwae offended me, causing discomfort.  So i had to be nasty to u. Tch~

I noe wat i typed here may change other’s impression on me but i am not afraid cos my frenz ard me noe me better and deeper than u! They even noe whose the lowest living form of life in this world. Sorry again tat an arrow has juz pierced thru u.  I’m sincerely glad tat we all have get the wrong signal but I will sae  this bluntly, “Any guy u like will juz rather sucide”   Oop Oops~ I dun mind being transformed into a bad guy image in other’s perception.

At least i’m not the type of person is hunger for opposite sex, trying by all means to noe them yet trying to put on a fake front or should i sae a fake ans too to account for  the actions. My ang moh is poor not as good as u, so plz correct me the definition of “flirt” in my dictionary.

Anywae, juz to let u noe while typing for the above statements, i do not have any strong feelings like anger nor wateva. So, sorry to disappoint u again AND tis will be the last reply of clarification to everything. REST IN PEACE! Cheers!

Ma nem sok minden történt… Hívott Kati, vagyis anyut. Én nem beszéltem vele, mert takarítottam. De üzentem, hogy szeretem. Utoljára még talán nyáron beszéltünk úgy ketten, de akkor is telefonon. Nagyon hiányzik már. Örülnék neki, ha ide költöznének…Mivel szülinapom is közeleg biztos, hogy engem is felhív. Remélem. Jó lenen már vele beszélgetni, sok mindent kihagyott az életemből. Persze a gyerekeit is jó lenne látni. Őt még jobban. Ha felhívna rábeszélném, hogy költözzön ide a városba, a közelembe. Érdekes soha nem volt velem, olyan sokat, mint például a Tamás, mégis ragaszkodom hozzá. Benne van az is, hogy a nővérem és szükségem van rá. Vele lehet “csajos dolgokról” beszélgetni. Bár ugyanezt megteszem a bátyámmal is. Egy lánynak mégis más elmondani ilyen dolgokat, mert ő is talán átélte egyszer. Anyuval is megtudnám beszélni, de vele se, olyan jó. Szóval nekem a Katira van szükségem. : )

Finally back to SG. Tat’s wat i am yearning for during the 1st day of the trip. But it aint to be that feeling after the 3rd day.

It was a great eye-opening to the rural lifestyle on the other end of the world. A slow-paced place whr it’s vex-free of momentary.  Everything over there was pretty cheap comparative to SG, definitely. Simple home-cooked dishes would make u water-dripping. What a shocking scene when i saw a small boy & a girl at the age of appro. 10 yrs old was riding a motorbike. In such an urban environment, we were onli exposed to the fun of riding bicycle. But i could onli sae there is law that we r bound to obey.

This was my first time chasing after chickens. PRetty fun~ tat’s wat we heard from our parents of a kampong lifestyle. The onli concern tat everyone was gripping about was the freaking scotchy weather that made us prespired thru the day n nite. Towards the last 3 days of the trip, the weather had turned cold. I luv cold weather. It juz make me feels goOd.

Looking forward to the next trip ~ =)

Jövőhét szombatig lesz nyitva a bolt, ahol anyu dolgozik. Furcsa lesz, hogy nem lesz többé, mert suli után mindig bementem. Próbáltam anyut rábeszélni, hogy vigyük tovább a boltot, de nem sikerült, mert hogy sokba kerül meg blablabla… megértem persze. Majd talán egyszer…máskor. A cím, azért ez, mert 10 nap múlva lesz a szülinapom. Pont ma beszéltük, hogy a sok ember anyagiakat vár szülinapjára, meg karácsonyra meg úgy mindenre. Szerintem az kurvára nem fontos. Nem érdekel mit kapok, csak az, hogy szeretettel adják. Nem is kértem semmit, mert MINDENEM megvan. A szüleim, testvéreim és a BARÁTAIM szeretnek. Úgy érzem nekem az bőven elég. 1 évvel ezelőtt talán nem ezt mondtam volna, innen látszik, hogy én is idősödöm. Nem mintha az a 15 év, olyan sok lenne. December 1-jét remélem veletek töltöm, Ivett,Jení,Cací. : )

Finally able to step my feet to my beloved hometown.
Will be going home tomorrow morning.
I have never really like the idea of traveling during the sunrise.
I prefer to begin my journey at night.
But have to since the tickets are all sold out.

Am turning 22 years old in just 5 days time.

Gulp.

I feel so ancient.
There’s something churning in my tummy, butterflies hovering and squirrels jumping in gusto, figuratively of course.

Happie Holiday everyone.

p.s. Officially Sam’s Bunkface number 1 fan starting today.

Just wrote a short script for my STSB assignment.
It’s a happy story.

Good night~

Babe,
Where are you?
I know its only the second day but i really miss you now already.
yesterday morning i didn’t wake up for you,
was my greatest mistake and,
i really REGRETTED it.
Are you doing okay there?
i cant see your face,i cant see your smile..
i don’t know whether you’re hurt or sad..
I,JUST,CANT SEE,YOU.
Whatever it is please do take care of yourself honeey.
Please be back soon.Sunday i want to see your msg coming in.
I dont want Monday.
I just cant take it anymore.Everytime a msg came in,i hoped it was YOU.
yesterday night,i went to bed at 10.30pm. But my mind was not at
rest because i kept thinking of you.
at last,i closed my eyes at 1.10am.
I know i slept late,i’m so sorry.
):

and why the hell you chose him as your prom partner?
cant there be any other guys?
fuck that guy i tell you.
he was my batch fucking enemy.
every guy in my batch hates him and you still.
Fuck.
okay?FUCK.

Anyway.

Bby,i want you now.
Take care lurb(:
I’ll be waiting…

“I couldn’t sleep last night i walk alone,
on the beach where we always used to go..”

I watched 2012 last week=) To me, the show was over-rated because it wasn’t the WOW feeling to me. I was kinda disappointed because it wasn’t that fantastic after all. Despite a normal story line, the show has good animations and great sound impact.

This week has been a busy week for me. Long working hours and my call was horrible. I was post-call on Tuesday and after sleeping like for only 3 hours, i forced myself to wake up to attend one of my colleague’s wedding=) I was really happy for her and she looks absolutely gorgeous on her wedding day. I absolutely love her wedding gown and her night gown. It was full of diamonds and crystals shining under the romantic atmosphere of the swisshotel lighting=)

Wangfang and Huimei was also attended the wedding=) We camwhore the whole night and i bet my boy was totally bored. i am so lazy to upload somemore pictures. I will upload it when i am free=) 

I got fever again..this is all durian punya pasal lah…sedap tapi membunuh!sumpah taknak makan lagi..(sumpah tipu jer).This semester break really get me crazy! I don’t know what to do again…surfing the internet?I get bored about it..Download videos?I don’t know what more to download…Last2 tengok crita korea jugak..Balik2 benda yang sama ku lihat….My mom took me to the market these days.Well,actually i’m the one who following him..That’s because i’m lonely at home since my lil sis and bro go to school.
Dekat pasar,macam2 buah aku nampak…My mom siap tawar-menawar harga durian ngan tokeh durian tu…As the result,beli 2 ikat..almost 20 biji! Tu belom kiraan this week.This week,our family makan 50 biji! Makan macam tak ingat dunia!!! First my sisiter got fever..tulah,makan rambutan lagi..now my mom..makan durian macam makan nasi..my dad pulak tak tau.because dia bawa durian tu pi tempat keja dia..my lil bro tak pandai makan buah2an tempatan ni…as for me..sakit tekak lah…have to drink a lot of water!
The story not end here,tak cukup dengan durian and rambutan.my mom bought langsat! Adalah 2-3 kilo seminggu…my mom and lil sis yang habiskan semua tu..Then,my mom serve me with mango..hoho!!! my 2nd favorite fruit!My mom plant mango tree in front of our house.I thought it will never be a real mango tree..(jangan pandang rendah hasil tangan seorang ibu!)…
These are some picture of our mango tree that i proud of ^^..(my lil sis is coughing again)

Da er vi i gang. Om få timer er jeg igang, og om enda noen dager er resten av folket igang. Julebord. Idag blir det jentejulebord med hele 22 girls. Først hjemme i lysthuset til bestevennina mi, så en tur på byn etterpå…mest sannsynlig. Jeg har vært ute å shoppet litt, følte jeg trengte no nytt. (som alltid, hehe)..

Hva skal dere idag?

hmmm…blogspot banyak yang pake…mending pindah sini aja…walopun rada rumit…XD
blajar dikit2 lama2 juga bisa…

Huahemm…

bangun pagi(sbnre nda pagi2 bgt sich…jam 10an gt lah…hahah)mo ke gereja eh dah tlt bgt..hmm..mumpung mood lg bagus…mending jalan2 smbil cari makan!yeah good idea…

Akhrny kputuskan jalan kaki smbil cari2 tmpt makan yg enak…

tp makin lama koq ada bau2 yg aneh…

aq cari2…apa bau badanku y?emang iya soale aq blm mdi…ah tp kykny bkn , soalny aq kenal bnr bau badanku…yg ini baunya beda…eksotis bgt!(halah…haha)
nah bener ternyata bau itu adalah E’EQ kucing yg nempel dsandal!
ckckckck…bangun tdr injek e’eq kucing…ptanda apa y?mg2 ptanda dpt rejeki ah…hahaha

duh…e’eq kucing ngilangin mood bwt sarapan…ya wes, mending pulang…

nah smpe drmh aq dsambut kponakan ku…dia bilang “buu buu”…haha lucu bgt y?akhirnya aq maen2 sm kponakanku itu…dia minta digendong kesana kemari…ya biasa lah anak kecil.

Lama2 koq ada bau2 aneh lagi…wah jgn e’eq kucing lg…tp bukan!yg ini baunya masih anget!hmm…selain bau2 aneh, tanganku jg rada2 anget..yah..tnyata..kponakanku E’EQ dclana…dia cuma senyum2 polos tak berdosa…haha dasar anak2.. T.T

Skrg tangan ada e’eq nich…ok saatnya mandi…

seger abis mandi…

-kriuououououk-

(emang gini suaranya jgn protes!)

wah perutku berkumandang…tndanya minda diisi…hehe..

Ambil nasi ambil lauk…hajar!saking lapernya nambah 2piring…nda kerasa klo lauknya tu lmyn pedes…aduh br inget bkny perutku khan sensitif sm yg pedes2?

Alhasil bbrp jam kemudian aq mules2…alias e’eq2…

Arrrgh…

IM SICK OF THIS SH*T!!

sial bgt…bulan baru diawali dgn e’eq…

ya Tuhaan mg2 bkn ptanda buruk…hmpf…AMEN…