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Apocalypse is How an Over-Achieving Species Like Ours Does Its Will to Death: Thanatos Walking, Pt 1

sillymickel — Wed, 18 Jan 2012 22:34:37 +0000

Apocalypse Is How We Over-Achieve in Acting Out Our Will to Die:
Thanatos Walking, Part One

Freud showed we had a will to die…so — Will we survive? Will we wake up from global apathy to save our planet? Will we resist cowardly denial or die out like the dinosaurs?

Will We Survive?

This post discusses an age-old question which has currently become of immense, literally vital, importance: Will our species survive or die out like the dinosaurs? is the most crucial issue of our time. It is related to the fundamental fact of our existence for it is about the struggle between the forces of Life and those of Death. The consequences as to the winner of that inner struggle have to do with no less than the continued survival of life on this planet or total planetary collapse.

Eros vs. Thanatos

In the struggle between the current powers of life versus death, it is helpful to remember Freud’s paradigm-shifting observations about the human psyche on Eros and Thanatos. Freud showed how all human lives are drawn out against the background of each person’s inner struggle between the opposing forces of life and death…Eros and Thanatos. Specifically, for our purposes here, Freud advanced an understanding that made his insights paradigm-shifting, specifically, that each of us carry within us a Will to Die, which he referred to as Thanatos. [continued after video]

Thanatos Walking/ Will to Die, Pt 2:
Fleeing Freedom, Hating Goodness, Wanting Apocalypse
by SillyMickel Adzema

For the author’s reading, with elaboration, of this part, click on the link to youtube above or click the audio player here:

“Sometimes the lights are shining on me.”

Freud established that we act out a will to live and to be in the sun and to have fun and to love and to like goodness and health and truth.

“Other times I can barely see.”

Freud also saw that we have at other times an opposite feeling that causes us to want to live in the dark; to not be around people; to shy away from life and the light and being seen and recognized and even to wanting to be lonely. This feeling causes us to not care about fun, to hate and be angry, indeed to hate everyone and even to want to lash out at them for no reason other than what might be self-labeled as spite. It makes us jealous of those who find happiness or pleasure in their lives and impels us to lash out at them and make them suffer the way we, on the inside, know we do. Because of this self-defeating tendency we irrationally beat up on our own bodies as well and abuse them with all kinds of substances and behaviors.

Thanatos is why there are always Republicans or something like them — Pharisees, Inquisitors…

And times in which they hold sway—stifling, life- and creativity-averse, stagnant and little changing times: the Middle Ages, for example…

This downward pull makes us want to hate goodness, calling things “kumbaya moments.” This part of our nature causes us to be jealous of others who are more giving and to hate them for that, to call people “goody two-shoes” or say something is “schmaltzy,” or to be saying that all that good stuff is just “drama.” It has us putting out terms like “bleeding heart” liberals. It causes us to not care about the truth, but rather to say things instead to hurt, get revenge, to get back at. Or it has us say untruths to get advantage, to disable our competitors, to hide from the evils we commit which enslave us further in the hiding of them, and so much more.

Struggle Will Out

But Freud took it beyond our inner struggles and talked about how the events of the world, the actions and movements of history, and the dramas of all the ages are in fact the products of this inner struggle.

At this very moment, our lesser selves are taking us on a path that leads inevitably, one way or another, to total species extinction. But not just that, being the “overachieving” species we are, we are bringing total life extinction to this planet and possibly even planetary annihilation–the death of virtually all life on this Earth.

Thanatos Walking/ Will to Die, Pt 2:
Fleeing Freedom, Hating Goodness, Wanting Apocalypse
by SillyMickel Adzema

For the author’s reading, with elaboration, of this part, click on the link to youtube above or click the audio player here:

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Our Dogma Barks Out Our Specialness:
Thanatos Walking, Pt 2

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Sympathy for the Bedeviled:
En-Raptured Proselytists’ Apocalyptic Death Wish

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Should Tv Shows Portrayed Lesbian Marriages?

lezbe — Sun, 15 Jan 2012 23:44:01 +0000

In Grey’s Anatomy, the question around the marriage between Callie and Arizona is facing debates.

The creator, Shonda Rimes, defended her point of view.

Justin Trudeau And The Marijuana Question

russellbarth — Fri, 25 Nov 2011 13:37:43 +0000

Recently, after he heroically chided Environmental-Destruction Minister Peter Kent about his lack of understanding about Ozone, some people in the Canadian marijuana legalization-activism community expressed hopes that Liberal MP Justin Trudeau might help get pot legalized one day. I think they are really barking up the wrong tree with this fop. When one considers Trudeau’s position on pot, one quickly sees that he is in NO position to chide ANYONE about science.

To paraphrase his position: Trudeau thinks that pot has proven medical value and should be available for medical use, but because it is “more potent” than it used to be, and because it is “linked” to mental illness, it would be imprudent to legalize pot for recreational purposes. He’s wrong. This position flies in the face of all science, history, and common sense. But because many – many – people still “believe” this kind of nonsense, it is still regarded as somehow “legitimate”.

This from someone who denies allegations that he smoked pot with Marc Emery.

The facts:

1) Keeping pot illegal subsidizes gangsters. Trudeau knows this. So by coming out in favor of continuing prohibition, he is coming out on the side of subsidizing gangsters. He just is. You are either with the gangsters, or against prohibition. Like pregnancy, it is an “either/or” argument, with no middle ground.

2) Marijuana is not “more potent” than it was in the old days, and science shows that. Further, upon repeated media requests for any form of confirming data, there has been no evidence from either the RCMP or Health Canada to suggest otherwise.

3) The studies “linking” marijuana to mental illness, themselves, point out that it is equally as likely that the pot use was caused by the symptoms, not vice versa. So pot isn’t causing anything bad – despite what some hand-wringing mothers with lazy brat kids and the idiot reporters who give them a public soap box might think.

4) While pot use in the western world has more than quadrupled in the past 40 years, Schizophrenia rates have remained at about 1.1%, dispelling any idea that increased pot use is causing any increase in the condition.

So, any “reasons” Trudeau might give for not wanting pot legalized fall short, leading me to believe that he is taking this meandering, middle of the road approach in an effort to pander to largest swath of the dumbest voters.

It is called “political expediency”, and is the hallmark of a true fop: “Just say whatever needs said in order to endear yourself to the largest number of misinformed, hysterical, under-educated, visceral, punishment-happy, media-addled nincompoops.” is the way people like that roll. It has worked well, especially in a country that has a higher-than-average per-capita number of misinformed, hysterical, under-educated, visceral, punishment-happy, media-addled nincompoops.

But it does lead me to wonder where an intelligent, educated, well-travelled, and metropolitan type of person like Justin could get such ridiculous, archaic, and absurd ideas about pot.

Well, for one thing, Trudeau is a religious believer – a Catholic – and that means that he needs to push aside fact – on a fairly regular basis – in order to be true to his faith. Faith is believing in something despite overwhelming evidence to the contrary, so it is not hard to see where a superstitious person might believe that legalizing pot is bad, even though all the evidence shows otherwise. It doesn’t make him right, though. This leads me to think he maybe isn’t as metropolitan as he likes to make himself appear, or that he is a liar who fakes being faithful. Either way, I would not trust this guy for a moment.

The other influence could be from his mother, Margaret. This former First Lady has been going around the country for the past few years speaking publicly about the perils of marijuana use, pointing to her own experiences with mental instability as “proof” of pot’s danger. She makes a point of perpetuating the myths about pot being more potent than it was in her day, but, again, offers no proof other than her own belief. This “wisdom” seems, apparently, to be enough for those who paid to hear her speak (or wrote about it afterwards).

Of course, in this Maclean’s article, Maggie admits to using tobacco and prescription pharmaceuticals on a daily basis, and alcohol fairly regularly… yet she has the gall to go around talking about how pot made her mentally unstable.

Luckily for her, most Canadians refuse to remember that “Maggie” was brought into the public eye as the young trophy-bride and legacy-breeder of a man twice her age, 15 times her intellect, and of dubious sexuality. But that didn’t make her unstable – it was just the pot. It wasn’t the public scrutiny, fact that she had no qualifications of her own, or the copious amounts – and wide variety – of other drugs that she did over the years – including psychedelics – that made her tense and weird…. no, it was the pot. Only the pot.

And hardly any Canadians read The Warhol Diaries, where Andy Warhol says he walked into The Factory bathroom, not knowing it was already occupied, only to glimpse Canada’s (still) first lady sitting on the can with her pants at her ankles and a bag and spoon under her nose.

Or maybe she had to do this speaking tour as some kind of community service for the 2004 drunk driving charge she managed to squirm out from under in 2008, but that is merely speculation….

At any rate, legalization advocates shouldn’t waste their time with Justin Trudeau, because it is clear – not only by his words and deeds on pot, but on many other issues – that he cares more about getting famous than he does about the greater good. That means he will continue to meander down the middle of the road, not really saying or doing anything, in hopes that it will continue to get him elected. And then he will call that “leadership.”

PANDER-IFFIC!!!

crisishopkins — Tue, 11 Oct 2011 18:15:54 +0000

Opening weekend of Panderfest went fantastically well – here’s the ridiculous (and ridiculously kickass!) promo from the weekend’s madness put together by Mission Control’s comedy overlord organization, PianoFight!!

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Keep Explosions Out of the Neighborhood

gocreek — Wed, 05 Oct 2011 15:02:41 +0000

It’s time to keep explosions from harming Michigan’s neighborhoods, residents, pets, and

The Reading List

April Hayman — Thu, 22 Sep 2011 23:27:21 +0000

Image by ostillac Recently I’ve been reading historical fiction with my 7 year old as he studi

Ponzi! Ponzi! Ponzi!: The truth about Social Security

Admin — Thu, 15 Sep 2011 17:40:28 +0000

*Taken from Reason. Written by John Stossel.

Ponzi! Ponzi! Ponzi! There, I said it. To the extent people believe there are trust funds with their names on them, Social Security is absolutely a Ponzi scheme. So is Medicare. People need to hear it.

Many people think that when the government takes payroll tax from their paychecks, it goes to something like a savings account. Seniors who collect Social Security think they’re just getting back money that they put into their “account.” Or they think it’s like an insurance policy—you win if you live long enough to get more than you paid in. Neither is true. Nothing is invested. The money taken from you was spent by government that year. Right away. There’s no trust fund. The plan is unsustainable. Medicare is worse.

Mitt Romney and other Republicans who scoff at Rick Perry shamelessly pander to older voters. They should tell people the truth.

CONTINUED..

Thanatos Rising - By the Way About That Inner Monster of Yours...

sillymickel — Sat, 27 Aug 2011 09:23:54 +0000

Grasping at Death

Freud showed we had a will to die…so — Will we survive? Will we wake up from global apathy to save our planet? Will we resist cowardly denial or die out like the dinosaurs?

“The Will to Die, Part 2: Thanatos Walking”
by SillyMickel Adzema

For the author’s reading, with elaboration, of this part, click on the link to the audio site above or click the audio player here:

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Will We Survive?

Eros vs. Thanatos

“Sometimes the lights are shining on me.”

Freud established that we act out a will to live and to be in the sun and to have fun and to love and to like goodness and health and truth.

“Other times I can barely see.”

Thanatos is why there are always Republicans or something like them — Pharisees, Inquisitors…

And times in which they hold sway—stifling, life- and creativity-averse, stagnant and little changing times: the Middle Ages, for example…

Struggle Will Out

Well, Ain’t We Special?

Freud pointed out we have a Will to Live, too–nothing earth-shattering there. In fact, so far he is stating nothing more than the common-sensical beliefs of the masses. Indeed, it is the universally held mainstream near-definition of humans…one of those “obvious truths” about us we like to bless ourselves with. Freud’s first point, taken by itself, encapsulates the cliched view of What We Are—that what distinguishes our species above all others revolves around a superior Will to Life.

While common-sensical that our Will to Life is part of a species superiority of ours, it is wrong…going too far. For would anyone say that other species don’t also have an incredible Will To Live?

Not So Much

But this hyperbole or over-reaching in stating humans are unique in the degree of their Will to Life reinforces my point about Freud’s ideas being zeitgeist-shattering. For in this common, frequent, pervasive even universal, and nauseatingly repeated promulgation of supposedly the obvious, by any and all who speak before an audience—large or small, from a principal speaking in front of a gathering of high schoolers or a preacher before his gathering of church-goers to the TV media pundit before a world-wide audience, and even to a US President’s audience of even greater global reach–it is shown that our special Will to Life is not as true as is assumed. For if we had such a superior drive in us, would it need to be constantly reinforced and upheld, as if against some attack, or attacker? And if so, what is the feared attack or attacker?

And here we get a clue into Freud’s discovery and its utter undermining of all that which is normally said regarding our humanness. For regarding our being special in our Will to Live, this kind of “protesting too much” and its flip side of repeating it ad nauseum, as Shakespeare obviously saw points to a hidden agenda. Truths do not have to be repeated endlessly, mantram-like, even ritualistically. For they are self-evident and need as much propping up as the belief that the sky appears to be the color blue to us–and you don’t hear much about that, do you?

My Dogma Barks Out My Specialness

But the pervasive repetition of the supposed Truth of our species Will to Life—especially the blown-up version that has it being the thing that makes us human, different from other species, “superior” to other species (there’s a clue), and even “special” (clue. Getting it?)—points to its being, not so much truth as dogma. And dogma does need to be endlessly repeated in that such things are exactly about things that are not obvious truths.

In fact, this repetition of an obvious truth points to its being not true. In the previous chapter I showed how our “sad proselytists” have to say their untruths and unrealities out loud in order to buck up or reinforce their believability. So also human societies need to endlessly repeat, in order to reinforce against onslaughts of insight, their precious untruths.

But the reasons behind the promulgation of this supposed “obvious truth” go even beyond, since we are not dealing here with any conscious or acknowledged, let alone written and standardized, set of things not obvious. For indeed, in this sad repetition of our superior life-valuing, it is put out as being something not needing institutional backing, being simply true in its obviousness.

So what then? Well, this repetitive characterization of Us, as Humans, has all the indications of something that has an intention, however unconscious, that has a calculation, however desperate our desire to not see it, about it to achieve an effect on the audience—in this case—the masses of all humans.

Humans’ Uniqueness Among Species? We Suck Up

What is that pathetically overlooked intention? Well, let us take a look at what that effect might be.

Anytime you place our species above all others (true or not), you are making as much as anything else a play to butter up your audience of fellow humans and appeal to their vanity…and thus, making them feel good, hoping that they will feel good, or, like you in return. In commonspeak, that’s called “people-pleasing.” In the vernacular, it’s called “sucking up.”

OK, so we’ve established that people in front of audiences near-universally want to say things that will make their audience feel good towards them. No, not so fast. For that overlooks the fact that somehow…and get this; for if the spoken thing were of the obvious truth category, then why would this follow…that somehow all these people speaking out to others about the unique will to life they have know—somewhere inside them—that saying such a thing will, in fact, give people a good feeling. That’s another clue.

More Socratic Dialoguing

And again, continuing this Socratic dialogue, well, wouldn’t humans just, of course, feel good hearing about their being superior? Doesn’t everyone feel good when told they are better and such? Well, now we’re getting to where Freud took us. For he knew, as we all do if we simply think about it. The answer is “no, not necessarily or even usually.”

Think about it. If the Beatles were to be told they were a good band, would that give them a good feeling? No. certainly not. For that was so true as to be overwhelming and almost scary in its near-universal belief. And we can suppose that to them having that kind of power and influence because of their talent—especially when you come out of nowhere, from humble, unassuming backgrounds—may have been distressing to think about and hardly something wanted from others. How could they not wonder about this power, its source, where it would lead, and all that? I don’t think it happenchance that this success sent all of them into drug-taking—to both block it out as well as come to terms with it—into soul-searching of the spiritual and, especially John, of the therapeutic sort. Sometimes one does not want to be reminded of how “good” (and therefore powerful…therefore responsible) one is; there’s such a thing as feeling one is scary good.

Or take the obviously accomplished anybody, Pavarotti, say. Wanna tell Pavarotti he sings good? Don’t think he’d feel a thing.

But, you say, that’s because they hear that all the time.

Ok, granted that. But think about when it would have felt good to them. Look to your own experience and you realize that you feel good when people tell you things about yourself—especially when they state them as self-evident and obvious to all–about which you are not certain, about which you often or at least sometimes have doubts, and about which you are insecure! Look to your own life. Can anyone be flattered about the things they know to be without question? Can you be flattered about the color of your skin or hair, or about…. Well, not stated as a fact, you wouldn’t. A person would be flattered only if they had some bad feeling, insecurity in that area, first; and second, if that quality of them is not usually noted though it be assumed by everyone to be a good, positive, or “superior” thing.

This pervasive, mutual stroking we do has a result which is of dire consequence currently: We scapegoat our planetmates because of this pathetically low self-esteem and those who play on it.

How to Make Someone Love You: Tell Them Something Wonderful About Themselves They Normally Doubt Is True

Skipping to the point here. People can be made to feel good about things of themselves they are not sure of. They will feel good, because the thing they would want to believe, the thing that would make them see themselves positively, the thing that would feed their slanted bias toward themselves…. Ok, I’ll finally use the word: The thing that would prop up and feed a person’s “ego” or the belief in one’s goodness, superiority, and so on, in a world of so many others, well that makes one feel good, whether it is true or not.

So, we see that the intention of this pathetic public pronouncing of a superior human will to live is to salve the egos of the masses. Why does it feel good? Because it is universally true that the ego is in constant assault from something which makes it feel not good.

What is that thing that makes people feel not good about themselves, so that being told something that counters that would make them feel good? Well, the answers, by psychologists since Freud, have many terms attached to them. And by the way, before the psychologists there were the theologians attempting to answer this. But Freud’s analysis not only answered it, but put it in the largest context possible—one into which both psychologists and theologians would find an inroad.

We can say, to backtrack a bit, that this pandering by those in front of audiences makes people feel good because it supports the defense system that all humans have erected against the real truth—that zeitgeist-shattering one that Freud was first to fully explicate. It feels good because it supports the denial that all humans have against the real truth that they feel about themselves, one of the things that human societies universally consign to that black hole of the Unapproved and Hidden. [Footnote 1]

“Quit Hitting Yourself!”

So this repetitive obvious truth about humans having a strong Will to Live is repeated to please audiences and make them feel good—”people-pleasing”—because it is a salve to the egos of the masses, which in reality are not merely bruised. No, this goes directly toward propping up a particular defense, a particular denial that we all carry. And that denial is that, IN TRUTH, humans don’t at all feel like they have a tremendous Will to Live. How can I say that? Well, how many things do you know you do which are “not good for you”? How many things do you not do which you know would aid the cause of our supposed universal desire to Live and to Live as long as possible?

The point is that humans, along with a Will to Life that is undeniable, also have a Will to Death.

How many times have you woken up, thought about all the pressures and obligations, or complexities, responsibilities…. thought about all the seemingly insurmountable obstacles or challenges that you are facing… thought about all the things that just have to get done, yet you feel that you could not possibly have the time to do all of them…. How many times have you woken up and felt overwhelmed with what life has become and not wished to just curl up, go back to sleep, and never wake up again? How many times have you taken to drugs or intoxicants in full knowledge of their negative and even dire concomitants and simply thought to yourself, “Aw, what the hell. If I were to die, so what? What’s so great about life anyway?” Or, with less clarity, simply said, “Well nobody lives forever!”

Do they sound like the pronouncements of a species that has a tremendous will to live? No, in fact, alongside our Will to Live, we have not only a Will to Die, but even a will to self-destruction.

Right about now, it might be occurring to you how this makes sense of so much, seemingly insane, human behavior we’ve seen of late. This Will to Die explains why we continue nonchalantly our march to armageddon. It shines light on how we can suck up air in cities that gives us raging allergies, clogs our lungs as bad as chronic smoking would, and will kill off the children we raise there long before their times. It reveals how we could drink poisoned water, blithely go about our business as the globe fills up with nuclear radiation and makes its way into our food supplies and as our government refuses even to test for it, and turn our backs as the oceans die, and killer tornadoes, hurricanes, earthquakes, and tsunamis chalk up thousands in the kill column. It explains why people allow themselves to be enslaved and controlled by others—allowing fascism in established democracies—unconcernedly voting for rabid folk who would take away their rights and security and bring down their freedoms, health, and even lives, while watching those living under totalitarian systems risk their lives for a such freedom and rights and democracy. So much more.

But anyway….

Suicidal Ape

Now, the intention here is not to repeat all that Freud and psychologists have said in showing how this works. Besides, just look at the evidence around you of addiction, chronic accidentalism, unhealthy behavior habits without number, and of course the ultimate evidence: suicide.

And by the way, if we have such a strong Will to Live, superior to all other species, then explain why it is so that we are the only species that has suicide? And we’re supposed to be the conscious ones?

What Freud pointed out has tremendous explanatory power, especially now in our current worldwide financial upheaval, depression/recession, expanding global fascism, nuclear meltdowns, oil spills, near environmental collapse, wars and terrorism, nuclear armaments of planetary annihilation, and tendency to pollute body as well as environment, and even to do it thoughtlessly, in full knowledge of the consequences.

I repeat: Freud established that we act out a will to live and to be in the sun and to have fun and to love and to like goodness and health and truth.

I repeat: Freud also saw we have at other times an opposite feeling which causes us to want to live in the dark—to not be around people, to shy away from life and the light and being seen and recognized and even to wanting to be lonely—that causes us to not care about fun, to hate and be angry, indeed to hate everyone and even to want to lash out at them for no reason other than what might be self-labeled as spite; that causes us to hate goodness, calling things “kumbaya moments,” that causes us to be jealous of others who are more giving and to hate them for that, call people “goody two-shoes” or saying something is “schmaltzy”; or saying that all that good stuff is just “drama”; and putting out terms like “bleeding heart” liberals; that causes us to beat up on our bodies and abuse them with all kinds of substances and behaviors; and that causes us to not care about the truth, but rather to say things instead to hurt, get revenge, to get back at; or to say untruths to get advantage, to disable our competitors, to hide from the evils we commit which enslave us further in the hiding of them, and so much more.

Pandavas versus Kauravas

Freud said we struggled between these two opposite feelings throughout our lives. It is because of this contradiction we carry inside that we can never be truly sure of who we are and even that we can question our motives and intentions (those more self-analytical of us). It is because of this contradiction that we can always feel we could have done better, that people don’t know everything about us, even when they say they do, and that sometimes we fear, especially when we are younger, that if people knew what we had inside they would shy away, not like us, think us to be bad, even monstrous.

By the way, about that inner monster of yours…

It is because of this contradiction that people are so terrified of revealing themselves, lest some of that not socially appropriate, not socially sanctioned, not socially approved part of themselves slip out. And the fear there is that then we will be seen to have been found out; and that then we will be confirmed in our worst fears that indeed that “other” part of ourselves is—the horror that cannot even be spoken in one’s mind—that dark part of ourselves is the real us…which carries with it the view that any of the “good” in us is just a cover up so that other people will not know.

Mask on a monster, lipstick on a pig

But Freud took it beyond our inner struggles and talked about how the events of the world, the actions and movements of history, the dramas of all the ages, are in fact the products of this inner struggle. Desperate between these poles, we join together with others of the same feeling—whether of lightness or of negativity—in multiple relations and groups on both sides of that struggle. More than that, while driven unwittingly from sources on one side, we expend ourselves in complex ways, in concert with these other, to represent these groups as well as ourselves as acting out from sources on the other side; we mask ourselves as the other.

Babel’s inner blueprint

Ultimately, these groups magnify our powers. And the cumulative acts of many individuals, along with the actions of groups and their leaders, all within complex and contradictory motives at all levels and in every matter, create the complex events of all times. All these happenings are at base the story of inner conflicts—complex outer conflicts notwithstanding. In a cumulative manner and over time, things are ever more convoluted and twisted and complicated through the actions of the myriad characters—all of whom conflicted inside, act inconsistently, and out of their own unique struggles which have all of us perceiving and interpreting things in ways totally unique to ourselves.

Again, The Question

These huge world events, then, Freud laid at the feet of the individual struggle. Basically the world becomes an arena of the acting of the Will to Life against the Will to Death, of Eros versus Thanatos.

That is why I say what we are discussing is an age-old question. Although to our detriment…or fortune?…it is now more than any other time crucially relevant, and it is the most immense importance and consequence as to the winner of that inner struggle.

For while we watched with paralyzed hand on one side, on the other our lesser selves are presently taking us on a path that leads inevitably, one way or another, to total species extinction. And not just that alone, but in fact total life extinction on this planet, and possibly even to planetary annihilation—the destruction of this planet itself.

That is why in upcoming sections I focus on this question of dire importance. I talk more about this Will to Death manifesting currently as planetary suicide. But unlike Freud I do not address this Will to Death in a general sense. I deal specifically with its existence as an element of the current struggle between those of us who would live and those opposing that.

I deal with the question of the sway of the the “dark side” as over against the Power of Truth, Love, Higher Power; God…if you will; Sathya Sai, that is, Truth Love…if you will; the Universe; or simply the Better Angels of Our Nature manifesting in increasing numbers of lives….

The questions we need to ask are about which side will win in the end. For certainly it will be decided one way or the other, and soon, of that we can be sure. And that is what makes this time and this question different from any other time. Because this question is not an academic one, now. It is one whose answer will become known far sooner than we would ever wish.

So, we will continue to live, and we will become good citizens of this planet and our species will continue on?

True? False?

This discussion is only now beginning.

Strange Days, Indeed. “Most Peculiar, Mama!”

Beginning in the next chapter, “Strange Days,” we begin discussing this question of life-death, eros-thanatos, survival-extinction.

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The Will to Die, Part 2: Thanatos Walking
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“Thanatos Walking” is also known as, “Will We Live, Or Die Out Like the Dinosaurs?” – audio by SillyMickel. For the author’s reading, with elaboration, of this part, click on the link to the audio site above or click the audio player here:

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Footnotes

1. The “Unapproved and Hidden” is discussed in the chapter, “The First Prasad,” in my book, The Great Reveal by SillyMickel and the Planetmates. The planetmates describe the origins of this tendency of ours to need to speak out our supposed specialness, tying it to our creation of the Unapproved and Hidden in societies. I write about this more generally on one of my blogs in particular, “S illymickel’s Blog of the Obvious Unspoken Things.” [return to text]

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Corporate-Media Misinformation, The Tower of Babel, The Matrix, and Thanatos - Foes to Authenticity

sillymickel — Fri, 26 Aug 2011 11:54:34 +0000

Culture War, Part Fourteen: The Matrix Versus Truth-Love (Sathya Sai)

Government Broken

All things considered, we need come to several conclusions:

Government is broken.
Government gives free reign to corporations engaging in massive mind control via media manipulation using unlimited amounts of money and having all the privileges and rights of personhood.
Corporations engage in a misinformation campaign.
This misinformation campaign makes us forget who we are and our own interests, suffering, and feelings.
This misinformation campaign makes us forget what we know and who’s responsible for what.
This misinformation campaign works against Democrats and to the advantage of Republicans.
Mystified and deluded, US citizens become apathetic about voting to further their interests, by voting for Democrats, and become enraged into voting against their own well-being, by voting for Republicans.
Repeat -
Government is broken…

Government Is Broken. Corporations Engage in a Misinformation Campaign Making Us Forget What We Knew And Who’s Responsible For What – Works Against Democrats and to the Advantage of Republicans

At this point, with the strange and formidable dominance of Fox (Faux) News, I believe the media coverage in the United States is almost one-hundred percent broken…the one exception is some of the programming at MSNBC. This brokenness has caused the masses to believe that all of government is broken and to vote angrily, in irrational yet orchestrated ways, in ways that insure further and continued brokenness of government.

As I pointed out in a previous part, actually the government has been in dictatorship for the eight years of Bush–check the videos posted and the books written on this, some of which I reposted earlier or referred to. So, government is currently in a broken state that is mightily trying to be fixed by the Democrats…with no help from the almost one-hundred percent broken media, the virtually one-hundred percent dishonest corporations that fund the media, and now even the minds of the masses who are assaulted with a near infinite supply of corporate misinformation that makes them equate the Democrats with the Republicans who have destroyed this country, that makes them blame the Democrats for the mess that the Republicans left them and which the Democrats are heroically trying to tackle…with little help from internet pundits who regurgitate the right-wing line they see all around them.

It is to the corporations’ and the Republicans’ advantage to say there is no difference between the Democrats and the Republicans and to equate an occasional corrupt Democrat or two with an entire party of corruption–acting only in the interests of the wealthy at the expense of everyone less than filthy rich–the Republicans.

We knew this when we threw out the Republicans and brought the Democrats into power in the election of 2008. It’s truly amazing how a hugely funded misinformation campaign by corporations and their lackey media can mesmerize so much of the American people so quickly and easily and make them forget what they once knew. And it’s been done over and over again. A glaring example: The success of the Clinton economy, leaving a surplus, was so easily forgotten by the media and the electorate when those same media folks said not a word as Bush dismantled and reversed the Clinton economy with the expected results, which were “oh so shocking and surprising” to Republicans later, though it had happened exactly that way the first time Reaganomics was tried.

Information

Misinformation

When I asked the how they could say that, they said the Kennedys.

So isn’t it about time we educated ourselves about the real causes of things rather than remained dummied down and going after each other (listen up, Tea Party).

Misinformation Misinformation

So, I’m pointing fingers and placing blame. Anybody who tells you that is an inappropriate or crude thing to do is doing the work of these criminals to cover up and get away with their abominable deeds. [Footnote 1]

More Misinformation

Media Broken

With media broken, surely you will hear endlessly from the media that it is not.

Media Ownership Not Affect Democracy?

We saw an example of this when, several years ago, Rupert Murdoch sought to buy the Wall Street Journal. What you heard…from various quarters of the media…was that it would not matter who owned this giant opinion-maker because the editorial division would be quite independent from ownership. You even heard Rupert Murdoch himself spouting publicly that his ownership of the Wall Street Journal would not in any way affect editorial policy. But how can anyone buy that obvious bullshit? Of course he would say that!

Not so much misinformation as just stupid

Media’s Preferential Treatment of GOP Liars = How Can You Say Filthy Rich Takeover of Media Not Hurt Our Democracy?

I’ll never believe it. As anyone who has read the earliest chapters of this book will know, I was long ago a first-hand witness to the beginnings of the pervasive media mind control program that was initiated by the Filthy Rich, when they were first frightened out of their wits that they might lose control of the American population in the Sixties. Not only was media control by ownership used, but TV anchorman Howard K. Smith was fired over it, history’s records were changed because of it, and it led to a massive restructuring of our higher education, our publishing industry, and our educational institutions at all levels down to kindergarten.

Not so much misinformation as just spurious to distract from real issues,
those truly responsible

It was the first major offensive in the Culture War from the side of the Filthies. It was the first step toward Communist-style brainwashing; and the first step in the erosion of our free press, free speech, and our liberties. This control of the media by wealthy ownership, this media mind control of the masses brought about the downfall of democracy in the U.S. that has already led to two stolen presidential elections and massive voter machine election fraud. Its intent, dire for ordinary folks, is manifest in media refusal to replay the Twin Towers coverage of 911 for fear that the lie about who was responsible for that day will be all too easily exposed as the cover-up it is. Its horrific nature is revealed in death threats against those who would still speak the truth into the media along with actual “elimination” of those on the front lines of uncovering the truth—whether it be of the BP oil spill consequences, Murdoch/News Corp’s hacking of terrorist victims’ phone calls, or similar happenings.

You might have to think about this one

Light Vs. Darkness, Sathya Sai Vs. Matrix

As can easily be seen, there are many ways that if we fail to raise truth and live by love …. IMMEDIATELY, and ON A GLOBAL SCALE, the dire result which we hear spouted by Republicans, that of victimizing future generations, will become reality.

Ironically it will occur if we go along with the Republicans, and the way to prevent it is to resist gop measures.

More Misinformation

Consequently

I say if we do not have the sufficient amount of influence and enlighten enough people to see through such heinous lies, Republicans and people like them will contribute, without question, in one way or another, sooner or later, not just to the financial stranglehold on generations to be coming. That prospect will seem a blessing compared to what we will actually bequeath them.

It’s the forces of Light versus the forces of Darkness…. Is that interesting enough times for ya?

No. Those with brave eyes and recklessly truthful yearnings have been establishing in intricate detail, as scientists and learned people, that we are in the most dangerous time our species has ever seen. The idea of financially strapped grandchildren would be funny if it were not for the fact that—some would say unless there is divine intervention even—those right-wing scare words, along with so much else that contributes to drowning out that truth I was speaking of, will be moot, to use a euphemism.

To say it straight: There will simply be no more generations coming after us. There will be no grandchildren.

The storms of greed

There were powerful storms of greed unleashed in the Eighties, set off especially by the example of an unsympathetic and mean-spirited president, Ronald Reagan. This specter of a jealousy and a drive to control, in a manner so extreme and on such a widespread scale as to have never before been recorded, brought to life then has whipped up powerful environmental, biological—micro and macro—and political-cultural forces of such scope and power as to appear omnipotent and inevitable.

And with every day that passes these Furies approach with speed, increasing speed. Most sad of all this insane greed has brought to Frankensteinian life forces that we, with all our vaunted technology and supposed “rational” scientism, have only the slightest ideas of how even the most potent of our remedies can sway, slow down, mitigate…let alone reverse.

Got your attention?

So, you don’t think you’re living in interesting times? Is the idea that you could be dead at any time now, and in a grand way along with vast numbers of the rest of the planet, OF ALL SPECIES…is that fucking interesting enough for ya?

Most will think this prospect crazy. But they also thought it wrong-headed when my compadres and I were sounding alarms before the global economic collapse. We also warned of irreversible climatological consequences before anyone had ever heard the term “global warming.” We voiced concern before anyone had even conceived of the possibility that our mighty superheroes of American Medicine—with their “miracle drugs,” notably antibiotics—might be simultaneously inventing the very kryptonite to humble them.

Yet the scientists with the most integrity are now troubled in their sleep having realized that these many decades of “miracle drugs” have, to their horror, not strengthened humans against the multitudes of microbes that comprise our atmospheric “soup.” This invisible—and thereby more deadly—airy surround in which we swim, this atmospheric soup had, prior to even just the last sixty years, been a Creator’s obviously perfect fit to sustain us in health. Not now though. We hear instead that we had just as well prepare for the “BIG ONE” in global pandemics, virulent beyond anything ever known because of our weakened systems, the Black Death by comparison seeming to be a bout of the flu.

And were this to be hatched it would be coming forth without question at the peak of human population of this planet—a number unsustainable and ever-polluting its own nest.

Mad Max will be our lucky future.

Still worse, such dense and omnipresent human population would, again compared to the Black Death, make for even more rapid a spread—one virtually lacking any escape, again measuring it against The Plague. Thus, it would likely manifest the fastest, most devastating slaughter of humans ever—not just breaking all previous records, but indeed raising the specter, for the first time, of being reduced to the levels at which we could hardly any longer even maintain, let alone advance, our science and technology. Thus we could not help but return, sooner or later, to a primitivism of sorts.

But swimming in toxicity it would be such a one as primal peoples would themselves consider too horrible to want to live through. Indeed, that is, if it is not complete annihilation of the our species that is at hand.

Babel

One hopeful thought for the purpose, if nothing else, then to keep the bean counters who’ve already got my manila folder labeled and set aside confused–which is one of the better pleasures I’ve found in life: If you’ve got a theological bent like myself, or at least are in amazement and awe at the world we discover here for us, constantly surprising us, well consider:

Building a “skyscraper” to heaven…the “ladder-path”

I only mean this as myth, metaphor, or analogy, of course. But the fact that such mythical statements emanating from the haze of the so long ago are endlessly retold because of their resonance throughout thousands of years and among billions of humans says something about their having some kind of important meaning for humans. The one I want to shine a light on: The Tower of Babel.

The Tower of Babel is a story that begins with humans who once lived together in harmony. But in trying to overachieve and mistaking the true nature of God as being physical, material, the story goes how misunderstandings and arguments and fights, and eventually killings occurred, all around the construction of this tower–a tower they were building to reach “heaven.” People began speaking ever more strangely and not understanding of each other.

$$$ 666

So extreme this mistake—this mistake of conceiving of a spiritual, an all-pervasive God of consciousness and unity as instead being a separate—much reduced in stature, to say the least—physical entity, one more akin to our pathetic selves, even.

So extreme the mistake of placing this spiritual idea outside of oneself and literally, up high in the sky where one could actually build to reach him, as if he were just another “strong man” to suck up to.

So extreme this mistake that forever after, it is said, people would live apart, in disunity, spread throughout the globe for fear of each other, not hearing or understanding each other, and with increasing language differences reinforcing the misunderstandings.

Well, that story, containing much of psychological truth in fact, is often seen, as often as the killing of Abel by Cain, as the foundations of our bloody, horrid, past, and now even present. So, ok, where’s the hope?

Revolution is not a tea party…more like a tweet party.

Well, and this can perhaps be said only right now, given the comparatively quite recent technological advances on this planet. For are we not seeing the most rapid reversals of those barriers to misunderstanding that, proclaiming, often form the outlines of the most evil that man is capable of?

Look around. Yes, we’ve had the internet. We now have even computers that will in a twinkling translate the script of one language into another. We have ordinary high school kids and even cabdrivers and health professionals taking a break to play some kind of card-, board-game, or whatever, with anyone in the globe who will show up. More importantly people around the world are connecting with Twitter and Facebook and are becoming electronically enlisted in campaigns to write wrongs and bring down injustices and tyrants anywhere on the globe, as we have been seeing in the Middle East. Provincial? Well this we cannot call it.

Was Obama “taken out to the woodshed”?

We may yet even have hope through our president. Certainly it seems President Obama has been “taken out to the woodshed” since his election, as Jesse Ventura phrased it to Piers Morgan not long ago. [Footnote 2]

Obama has caved on so much and the opposition has gained much ground and much more wealth and power under him. But he holds a whole world’s worth more hope for us than the previous president–who actively sped us to the cliff–of possibly reversing this locomotive of doom. We have not only his words and his past actions to reveal to us his intentions, but we have his background and life experience to indicate a different direction than what we have seen of late.

The circumstances themselves seem to have carried to the center of all these strong competing forces at play right now a man who not only is half one race and half another, in his very blood, but who has grown up with diversity. With this there is hope that he understands even those who oppose and ridicule him.

Mister Obama, the Republicans, they’re just not into you.

Certainly Obama has much in his early life experiences which handicap him as well, as does everyone. Growing up without his father, he appears to want to appease such figures, as if that will please daddy and bring him back. So also he seems unable to see through the ruses of the “daddy” Republicans he has to deal with. He wants to have “mommy” and “daddy” get along and live together in harmony…red and blue states.

With this blindness comes a naïve belief in an “audacity of hope” that he has found to be untenable in real life. He certainly has not been made wise and true in the struggles and confrontations that tempered the activists of my generation. He grew up with the benefits already in hand of the civil rights activists of the Sixties..

So Obama is hardly a savior. Yet he is the most uninterested politician I’ve ever seen in a fight. Some of that hurts us all as he avoids confrontation. He may be Ghandi-like in not being belligerent, but he has no grit to confront and stand unmoving in the face of injustice like a Ghandi or Martin Luther King did. Obama is averse to stand in the face of real evil and stare it down.

Still to the extent he can he is the most powerful person there is right now who is truly interested in solving the problems that only government can, and without which people’s lives are much more difficult.

The music died; Reagan let loose the wolves.

And The Matrix, as I’m sure you realize, is determined not to even see this function of government. Without a person with Obama’s inclinations, people can never receive such help as only communities can give to each other, no person being an island after all. For people die. They die in alleyways, in hospitals, and even in lonely boarded up little houses that keep out the light and prying eyes. Without community, without government, these unfortunates can only lose all will to live, all hope for anything better. The Republicans would have it be their lot to wallow in mighty despair, only, at the wolves that were let loose on this globe shortly after John Lennon was assassinated and Ronald Reagan was crowned.

The Matrix – “Electronic Curtain”

“Mister Obama, tear down this electronic curtain!”

But take care, Mister Obama, as to not get assassinated in the process. For the corporate-republican-media-matrix—America’s electronic curtain—is showing incredible desperation as it loses its hold on the minds of Americans. True or not, it sees you as on the side of the craving that Americans are having to know the truth and not the lies told them for fifty years to cover up the ever increasing, ever more blatant, robbing of the poor and middle class to fatten the wealthy to its most extreme ever.

So though this corporate-republican-media-matrix has been showing cracks because of Bush’s unbelievable ineptitude in virtually every area of government; while Bush did manage to make his wealthy benefactors the strongest they have ever been in terms of the power that can be wielded simply by the fact of being “filthy rich.” For even the mainstream media, which used this term–filthy rich–to describe them in a documentary, cannot hide the fact that these people who have controlled the truth and have therefore determined what we believed to be true-false, right-wrong, something worth fighting for, something worth fighting against, and therefore created the American mindset, are now richer than they ever were.

Fearful, vulnerable filthy rich = Desperate, dangers measures

But extreme wealth combined with the desperation of feeling that you might get found out, that there now exist media arenas that you cannot control and therefore, for the first time, don’t have that totalitarian like power over what people will think and believe and for the first time might be vulnerable….well, that lends itself to desperate and dangerous actions.

We have seen this slide into the insanity of the right with more and more shootings by the unleashed unhinged, more and more dangerous rhetoric by the reckless TP politicians and the right-wing TV pundits, and more and more attacks on basic liberties that Americans are supposed to have to organize, speak, not be harassed or spied on, and to simply be free…autonomous…and capable of surviving financially.

Well, hello, Mister Anderson.

Mister Obama, please face and rend this matrix curtain. Do be careful as you approach dealing with this issue of massive mind control of a people for so long, a mind control so pervasive and refined that Americans have even been brainwashed into thinking they have been free-, independent-thinkers of these last fifty years. For we have lost so many of those who had the integrity and authenticity that required they take the red pill. They became Mister-Anderson dangerous as they found out more and more the degree to which that which is thought to be true is a fabrication that benefits this wealthy elite and also protects them as it covers up the many heinous crimes they have committed to further their ends as well as deludes the American people, often in the formation of false enemies, “straw men”–who they cleverly concoct and use ritualistically to tap into Americans’ intuitive sense that all is not right and that everything is not being said.

Keep in mind to inspire you, Mister Obama, those we lost. They were—probably correctly—seen by this elite as threats to their maintaining the grand illusion of the Matrix. And these controllers at any cost wanted it intact in order hide and block out virtually all truth and therefore conceal them. They overlook that this conceals virtually all real solutions and undermines every effort to change. Because solutions are bound to fail founded on totally made up events, interpretations of them, and the falsely labeled perpetrators of these crimes. These supposed guilty are just the “fall guys,” but the overseers deem them extremely important to be sold as the real sources of evil to deflect any attention that might swing in their direction.

Neo

So please see through your naiveté, Mister Obama. For remember, since you would have a true majority of Americans on your side, you have the best chance of anyone to allow change that would in time bring back freedom of thought, a free press, and hence the foundations for a truly democratic nation.

For people without the facts cannot make good decisions in any arena. Just see how blatantly that was taught to so many new people through the way the Iraq War was “sold.” And, God forbid, should you let people in on the facts surrounding 911—where all credible evidence…and there are massive piles of videos and eye witness accounts and experts who know…points to one thing for sure: that those buildings did not come down because of a few planes. But rather they came down because of precision demolition charges that were placed a little time before the actual planned event. Really, how do you explain the third tower collapsing, being separate from the others and not hit!? [Footnote 3]

Mister Obama, we lost those other people I mentioned…we all know who they were—JFK, Martin Luther King Jr., Bobbie Kennedy, John Lennon…. In time, with the people on your side, I believe you have the best chance ever to allow freedom to live in America again and again to provide hope to the oppressed of the world.

Matrix, Part Two – The Question

So, The Matrix in the age of Obama: Will the fifty-year web of media mesmerism and comprehensive, hi-tech mind control of the masses maintain its sleepy veil as the anonymous powers steal in plain view and push the world into environmental looney tunes?

True? False?

Who will prevail in the current global struggle of light versus darkness, which for the first time in the entire multi-billion year history of this planet has the most dire consequences possible, or even imagined?

Who will prevail in the struggle of Ego versus God?

Or, who will win out in the struggle of The Matrix versus the power of what many people believe to have been the most recent incarnation of God on Earth (Sathya Sai) who specifically told us He had come at this crucial time to return humankind to the path of dharma—i.e, right acting, truthful speaking, goodness, doing the right thing—when things have come to such a pass as to threaten the very existence of dharma—Truth, Goodness—and that it is impossible for Him to fail in this task and that dharma would triumph in due time?

So, will it be The Matrix—Republicans, media flunkies, huge corporations, the filthy rich, and the Shadow Government—who will win out and bring us into a 1984-ish “brave new world” which will only end because of it having self-destructed in environmental or other catastrophic collapse? Or will it be Truth and Right Action…and Courage…that will arise and block out the face of Evil?

Will the power of Sathya Sai (Truth, Love) manifest in an increasing and sufficient numbers of lives? Will the force of Truth-Love be strong enough to bring about the massive consciousness change necessary. For this change would have to essentially be more along the lines of a restructuring, even, of what we have come to believe is human nature and therefore unchangeable.

So could these divine forces (Truth, Love) incarnate in humans on such a sufficiently grand human scale as that several billions of human lives, at least, are so radically transformed that our species miraculously lives on? Along with the other species here? And indeed the planet itself?

We are engaged witnesses of the penultimate battle: The Matrix Versus Sathya Sai (Truth, Love); it is The Matrix versus the power of Sathya Sai.

To continue, now, we look more deeply into this, the defining and preeminent struggle of our age, our globe, and our individual selves. We look at its features, reveal its structure, and highlight the power sources that drive it and the mechanisms that steer it. Thereby we see disclosed a vision wonderful and the path of its attainment.

Thanatos Walking – Will We Survive?

Freud showed we had a will to die…so – will we survive? Will we emerge from global fascism to save our planet? Will our species survive or die out like the dinosaurs?

“The Will to Die, Part 2: Thanatos Walking”
by SillyMickel Adzema

For the author’s reading, with elaboration, of this part, click on the link to the audio site above or click the audio player here:

Image of “The Will to Die, Part 2: Thanatos Walking” by SillyMickel Adzema

Life vs. Death, Light vs. Matrix

This part discusses an age-old question which has currently become of immense, literally vital, importance: Will our species survive or die out like the dinosaurs? is the most crucial issue of our time. It is related to the fundamental fact of our existence for it is about the struggle between the forces of Life and those of Death. The consequences as to the winner of that inner struggle have to do with no less than the continued survival of life on this planet or total planetary collapse.

Eros vs. Thanatos

In the struggle between the current powers of life versus death, it is helpful to remember Freud’s paradigm-shifting observations about the human psyche on Eros and Thanatos. Freud showed how all humans lives are drawn out against the background of each person’s inner struggle between the opposing forces of life and death…Eros and Thanatos. Specifically, for our purposes here, Freud advanced an understanding that made his insights paradigm-shifting, specifically, that each of us carry within us a Will to Die, which he referred to as Thanatos.

“Sometimes the lights are shining on me.”

Freud established that we act out a will to live and to be in the sun and to have fun and to love and to like goodness and health and truth.

“Other times I can barely see.”

Thanatos is why there are always Republicans or something like them — Pharisees, Inquisitors…

And times in which they hold sway–stifling, life- and creativity-averse, stagnant and little changing times: the Middle Ages, for example…

This downward pull makes us want to hate goodness, calling things “kumbaya moments.” This part of our nature causes us to be jealous of others who are more giving and to hate them for that, to call people “goody two-shoes” or say something is “schmaltzy,” or to be saying that all that good stuff is just “drama.” It has us putting out terms like “bleeding heart” liberals. It causes us to not care about the truth, but rather to say things instead to hurt, get revenge, to get back at; or it has us say untruths to get advantage, to disable our competitors, to hide from the evils we commit which enslave us further in the hiding of them, and so much more.

Struggle Will Out

Well, Ain’t We Special?

Freud pointed out we have a Will to Live, too–-nothing earth-shattering there. In fact, so far he is stating nothing more than the common-sensical beliefs of the masses. Indeed, it is the universally held mainstream near-definition of humans…one of those “obvious truths” about us we like to bless ourselves with. Freud’s first point, taken by itself, encapsulates the cliched view of What We Are–that what distinguishes our species above all others revolves around a superior Will to Life.

Not So Much

But this hyperbole or over-reaching in stating humans are unique in the degree of their Will to Life reinforces my point about Freud’s ideas being zeitgeist-shattering. For in this common, frequent, pervasive even universal, and nauseatingly repeated promulgation of supposedly the obvious, by any and all who speak before an audience–large or small, from a principal speaking in front of a gathering of high schoolers or a preacher before his gathering of church-goers to the TV media pundit before a world-wide audience, and even to a US President’s audience of even greater global reach–it is shown that our special Will to Life is not as true as is assumed. For if we had such a superior drive in us, would it need to be constantly reinforced and upheld, as if against some attack, or attacker? And if so, what is the feared attack or attacker?

My Dogma Barks Out My Specialness

But the pervasive repetition of the supposed Truth of our species Will to Life–especially the blown-up version that has it being the thing that makes us human, different from other species, “superior” to other species (there’s a clue), and even “special” (clue. Getting it?)–points to its being, not so much truth as dogma. And dogma does need to be endlessly repeated in that such things are exactly about things that are not obvious truths.

In fact, this repetition of an obvious truth points to its being not true. In another place I show how our “sad proselytists” have to say their untruths and unrealities out loud in order to buck up or reinforce their believability. So also human societies need to endlessly repeat, in order to reinforce against onslaughts of insight, their precious untruths. [Footnote 4]

Humans’ Uniqueness Among Species? We Suck Up

What is that pathetically overlooked intention? Well, let us take a look at what that effect might be.

OK, so we’ve established that people in front of audiences near-universally want to say things that will make their audience feel good towards them. No, not so fast. For that overlooks the fact that somehow…and get this; for if the spoken thing were of the obvious truth category, then why would this follow…that somehow all these people speaking out to others about the unique will to life they have know–-somewhere inside them–-that saying such a thing will, in fact, give people a good feeling. That’s another clue.

More Socratic Dialoguing

Think about it. If the Beatles were to be told they were a good band, would that give them a good feeling? No. certainly not. For that was so true as to be overwhelming and almost scary in its near-universal belief. And we can suppose that to them having that kind of power and influence because of their talent-–especially when you come out of nowhere, from humble, unassuming backgrounds-–may have been distressing to think about and hardly something wanted from others. How could they not wonder about this power, its source, where it would lead, and all that? I don’t think it happenchance that this success sent all of them into drug-taking-–to both block it out as well as come to terms with it–-into soul-searching of the spiritual and, especially John, of the therapeutic sort. Sometimes one does not want to be reminded of how “good” (and therefore powerful…therefore responsible) one is; there’s such a thing as feeling one is scary good.

Or take the obviously accomplished anybody, Pavarotti, say. Wanna tell Pavarotti he sings good? Don’t think he’d feel a thing.

But, you say, that’s because they hear that all the time.

Ok, granted that. But think about when it would have felt good to them. Look to your own experience and you realize that you feel good when people tell you things about yourself-–especially when they state them as self-evident and obvious to all-–about which you are not certain, about which you often or at least sometimes have doubts, and about which you are insecure! Look to your own life. Can anyone be flattered about the things they know to be without question? Can you be flattered about the color of your skin or hair, or about…. Well, not stated as a fact, you wouldn’t. A person would be flattered only if they had some bad feeling, insecurity in that area, first; and second, if that quality of them is not usually noted though it be assumed by everyone to be a good, positive, or “superior” thing.

This pervasive, mutual stroking we do has a result which is of dire consequence currently: We scapegoat our planetmates because of this pathetically low self-esteem and those who play on it.

How to Make Someone Love You: Tell Them Something Wonderful About Themselves They Normally Doubt Is True

What is that thing that makes people feel not good about themselves, so that being told something that counters that would make them feel good? Well, the answers, by psychologists since Freud, have many terms attached to them. And by the way, before the psychologists there were the theologians attempting to answer this. But Freud’s analysis not only answered it, but put it in the largest context possible–-one into which both psychologists and theologians would find an inroad.

We can say, to backtrack a bit, that this pandering by those in front of audiences makes people feel good because it supports the defense system that all humans have erected against the real truth-–that zeitgeist-shattering one that Freud was first to fully explicate. It feels good because it supports the denial that all humans have against the real truth that they feel about themselves, one of the things that human societies universally consign to that black hole of the Unapproved and Hidden. [Footnote 4]

“Quit Hitting Yourself!”

So this repetitive obvious truth about humans having a strong Will to Live is repeated to please audiences and make them feel good–-”people-pleasing”–-because it is a salve to the egos of the masses, which in reality are not merely bruised. No, this goes directly toward propping up a particular defense, a particular denial that we all carry. And that denial is that, IN TRUTH, humans don’t at all feel like they have a tremendous Will to Live. How can I say that? Well, how many things do you know you do which are “not good for you”? How many things do you not do which you know would aid the cause of our supposed universal desire to Live and to Live as long as possible?

The point is that humans, along with a Will to Life that is undeniable, also have a Will to Death.

Right about now, it might be occurring to you how this makes sense of so much, seemingly insane, human behavior we’ve seen in previous chapters. This Will to Die explains why Americans vote for Republicans, for one thing. It explains why people allow themselves to be enslaved and controlled by others…how fascism arises in societies. So much more.

But anyway….

Suicidal Ape

I repeat: Freud established that we act out a will to live and to be in the sun and to have fun and to love and to like goodness and health and truth.

I repeat: Freud also saw we have at other times an opposite feeling which causes us to want to live in the dark–to not be around people, to shy away from life and the light and being seen and recognized and even to wanting to be lonely–that causes us to not care about fun, to hate and be angry, indeed to hate everyone and even to want to lash out at them for no reason other than what might be self-labeled as spite; that causes us to hate goodness, calling things “kumbaya moments,” that causes us to be jealous of others who are more giving and to hate them for that, call people “goody two-shoes” or saying something is “schmaltzy”; or saying that all that good stuff is just “drama”; and putting out terms like “bleeding heart” liberals; that causes us to beat up on our bodies and abuse them with all kinds of substances and behaviors; and that causes us to not care about the truth, but rather to say things instead to hurt, get revenge, to get back at; or to say untruths to get advantage, to disable our competitors, to hide from the evils we commit which enslave us further in the hiding of them, and so much more.

Pandavas versus Kauravas

By the way, about that inner monster of yours…

It is because of this contradiction that people are so terrified of revealing themselves, lest some of that not socially appropriate, not socially sanctioned, not socially approved part of themselves slip out. And the fear there is that then we will be seen to have been found out; and that then we will be confirmed in our worst fears that indeed that “other” part of ourselves is-–the horror that cannot even be spoken in one’s mind–-that dark part of ourselves is the real us…which carries with it the view that any of the “good” in us is just a cover up so that other people will not know.

Mask on a monster, lipstick on a pig

But Freud took it beyond our inner struggles and talked about how the events of the world, the actions and movements of history, the dramas of all the ages, are in fact the products of this inner struggle. Desperate between these poles, we join together with others of the same feeling-–whether of lightness or of negativity–-in multiple relations and groups on both sides of that struggle. More than that, while driven unwittingly from sources on one side, we expend ourselves in complex ways, in concert with these other, to represent these groups as well as ourselves as acting out from sources on the other side; we mask ourselves as the other.

Babel’s inner blueprint

Ultimately, these groups magnify our powers. And the cumulative acts of many individuals, along with the actions of groups and their leaders, all within complex and contradictory motives at all levels and in every matter, create the complex events of all times. All these happenings are at base the story of inner conflicts-–complex outer conflicts notwithstanding. In a cumulative manner and over time, things are ever more convoluted and twisted and complicated through the actions of the myriad characters-–all of whom conflicted inside, act inconsistently, and out of their own unique struggles which have all of us perceiving and interpreting things in ways totally unique to ourselves.

Again, The Question

That is why in upcoming sections I focus on this question of dire importance. I talk more about this Will to Death manifesting currently as The Matrix. But unlike Freud I do not address this iconic incarnation of the Will to Death-–the Matrix–-in a general sense. I deal specifically with its existence as an element of the current struggle between those of us who would live and those opposing that-–Republicans, media flunkies, huge corporations, the “filthy rich,” and The Shadow Government….

I deal with the question of the sway of the Matrix as over against the Power of Truth, Love, Higher Power; God…if you will; Sathya Sai, that is, Truth Love…if you will; the Universe; or simply the Better Angels of Our Nature manifesting in increasing numbers of lives….

So, we will continue to live, and we will become good citizens of this planet and our species will continue on?

True? False?

This discussion is only now beginning.

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The Will to Die, Part 2: Thanatos Walking
by SillyMickel Adzema

“Thanatos Walking” is also known as, “Will We Live, Or Die Out Like the Dinosaurs?” – audio by SillyMickel. For the author’s reading, with elaboration, of this part, click on the link to the audio site above or click the audio player here:

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Tags: apocalypse, death wish, denial, die, ego, eros, extinction, live, matrix, pander, thanatos, untruth, war, will

Footnotes

1. Here are some of the faces of the “faceless” filthy rich. Go to Bad Billionaires and Balance the Budget on the Back of Billionaires. Part of that is reprinted here:

Last year a list was leaked of attendees of an important rightwing planning conference organized by Koch Industries. This is an annual meeting at which the servants of plutocracy plot its further entrenchment. Eleven members of this year’s Forbes 400 were on the list. These are the hardcore plutocrats. These are the people who personally take the time to destroy our political system for their own short-term gain — and that of their families if their aristocracy of wealth is allowed to continue. These 11 people pay a fraction of the rate you pay on your income into Social Security and Medicare. They have no need for Social Security or Medicare. And they participate in a political movement that is trying to dismantle those programs. Meet your masters, fellow Americans.

Philip Anschutz, Denver, Col.

Anschutz has $7.5 billion and got his start in oil and gas. He remains a board member of the American Petroleum Institute (API) which President George W. Bush’s Energy Secretary credited for Bush’s decision to kill the Kyoto Protocol in 2001. API’s president and leading members met in secret with Vice President Dick Cheney as an Energy Task Force planning the energy future of the United States and how to get their hands on the oil of Iraq. API has more recently organized astroturf activism against any efforts to limit climate change.

In spring 2009, Anschutz bought the rightwing Weekly Standard from Rupert Murdoch’s News Corp. and the rightwing Washington Examiner, despite reports that these have “little hope of making any money.”

Anschutz has funded Colorado’s 1992 Amendment 2, an anti-gay-marriage ballot initiative, and the Discovery Institute which promotes creationism, among other similar causes. In 2004, the Washington Post reported that he, his companies, and members of his family had given over a half a million dollars to Republican candidates and committees. In 1987, Anschutz’s family foundation gave Focus on the Family founder James Dobson an award for his “contributions to the American Family.”

Anschutz is not always so generous. In 2002, Anschutz gave $4.4 million to law schools and charities only when forced to as part of a deal in which New York Attorney General Eliot L. Spitzer dropped a case charging Anschutz with making $1.5 billion in “unjust revenue.”

Anschutz also sold $1 billion in Qwest shares before they tanked, but avoided the charges that stuck to Qwest CEO Joe Nacchio. In recent months, however, Anschutz lost a case charging him with selling $375 million in oil company shares as part of a tax dodge. The IRS wants $144 million. Every little bit helps, right? But Anschutz is appealing.

Balance the budget on his back!

Stephen Bechtel Jr., San Francisco, Calif.

Bechtel has $2.9 billion, and got rich by inheriting his money from his father. Our top concern should clearly be encouraging that sort of initiative!

The Bechtel Corporation, now run by Stephen Jr.’s son, is one of the top recipients of funds from Washington and from state governments. Bechtel has contracts at most U.S. nuclear weapons facilities.

Bechtel Corp. is also a leading violator of laws and regulations, including violations of nuclear safety regulations, water quality laws, radioactive waste policies, and asbestos emissions laws, not to mention having dug the Big Dig tunnel in Boston with such criminal incompetence that it collapsed.

Bechtel Corp. spends hundreds of thousands each year on lobbyists and hundreds of thousands more on funding political candidates’ campaigns. George Schultz, former Secretary of the Treasury and Secretary of State, and former Bechtel president and director, lobbied as a Bechtel board member in support of the 2003 invasion of Iraq.

By sheer coincidence, Bechtel got the very first Iraq “reconstruction” contract for $680 million. Bechtel’s performance was so scandalously bad that it had contracts in Iraq canceled and was early to pull out of Iraq entirely.

Yet Stephen Bechtel, Jr., is still rolling around in mountains of your hard-earned dollars.

Balance the budget on his back!

Joseph Craft, Tulsa, Okla.

Craft has $1.9 billion and made it by helping a coal corporation, MAPCO, later renamed Alliance Resource Partners (ARP), pay lower taxes. As CEO of this coal company, Craft advocates for coal as the solution to our energy needs. ARP claims that coal is cheap, but of course that’s because the cost of the environmental and health and climate damage gets passed on to us.

ARP also believes that coal is in our best interests whether we like it or not. When townships in Pennsylvania have banned mining, ARP has taken the towns to court.

Following hundreds of citations for safety violations in 2010, the company’s Dotiki Mine in Kentucky collapsed, killing two miners.

According to Source Watch, Alliance Coal employees were among the biggest campaign donors in Kentucky’s recent state primary election.

Is this man making the world a better place? Can we afford to have him sitting on $1.9 billion?

Balance the budget on his back!

Richard De Vos, Ada, Mich.

DeVos has $4.2 billion, which he made from Amway, a company that later became part of Alticor, and which is now run by his son. Another of his sons was a Republican candidate for governor of Michigan in 2006.

Amway may be a legitimate way to make obscene amounts of money, but last year Amway agreed to pay $56 million to settle a class action suit alleging fraud, racketeering, and operating a pyramid scheme.

DeVos and Amway have been big funders of Republican campaigns for decades. Amway and its sales force chipped in half the money that elected Amway distributor Sue Myrick of North Carolina to Congress in 1994.

In 1996, Amway tried to give $1.3 million to the funding of Republican infomercials but was forced to refrain by public uproar over campaign financing.

In 1997, a Republican Congress slipped a last-minute provision into a bill to give Amway a $19 million tax break.

During the 2004 elections, DeVos gave $2 million and Amway a total of $4 million to the Project for America Voter Fund, which spent almost $29 million supporting George W. Bush’s “reelection,” having found a way around campaign finance restrictions.

Balance the budget on his back!

Ken Griffin, Chicago, Ill.

Griffin has $2.3 billion and gets a special tax break for being a hedge fund manager, also known as a bankster. He doesn’t produce anything other than money.

Before the collapse, Griffin praised shady practices that helped cause it:

“The market for credit derivatives has effectively created a huge new pool of risk-taking capital for our debt markets. By unbundling and trading credit risk without having to transfer the underlying asset, this market has introduced an entirely new and vital way of spreading risk. Credit derivatives, to use one example, let banks transfer risk from their portfolios, allowing them to create new loans.” — from a 2005 presentation to Goldman Sachs.

Griffin spreads what to you and I would seem like a lot of money around our electoral system, funding Republicans and Democrats alike, including Barack Obama – the current world record holder in money received from Wall Street.

Balance the budget on his back!

Diane Hendricks, Afton, Wis.

Hendricks is hoarding $2.2 billion. She is the only woman on our list of 11 leading plutocrats.

Hendricks and her husband were business partners from 1982 until his death in 2007. She then took over ABC Supply, which is the nation’s largest roofing, window, and siding wholesaler.

Last year, ABC Supply acquired its top competitor, Bradco Supply Co., a move that’s sure to help competition and benefit consumers.

Hendricks told Forbes in 2010: “We need Washington to stop putting new burdens on businesses. That’s the best way to encourage job creation.”

Burdens?

Balance the budget on her back!

Stanley Hubbard, St. Paul, Minn.

Hubbard has $1.9 billion. He inherited his wealth, just like you would have done if you’d been a better capitalist.

Hubbard Broadcasting, Inc., owns television and radio stations in Minnesota, Wisconsin, New York, and New Mexico.

As restrictions on media ownership are stripped away, corporations like Hubbard’s monopolize more outlets. As this happens, a handful of Stanley Hubbards acquire the means to rewrite more laws, creating a vicious cycle.

Hubbard gave Newt Gingrich’s American Solutions for Winning the Future (a Gingrich phrase before an Obama one) $100,000.

He funds lots of candidates, most of them Republican, including Michelle Bachmann.

Balance the budget on his back!

Charles Koch, Wichita, Kan.

Charles Koch has $22 billion, and his brother David another $22 billion, giving them fifth and sixth places in the list of grotesquely wealthy U.S. citizens. Together they probably do more damage than the four people above them or the 394 people below them on the list. All eleven billionaires in this collection have attended their annual rightwing retreats.

The Kochs’ father invented a way to turn heavy oil into gasoline. The Kochs inherited a fortune, as all truly responsible people do.

Koch industries is invested in gas and oil pipelines and refineries, fertilizer, fibers and polymers, and chemicals. In 2010, Koch Industries was named one of the United States’ top 10 air polluters by the University of Massachusetts at Amherst’s Political Economy Research Institute.

Charles cofounded the Cato Institute. He is a board member and funder of the Mercatus Center. He funds the Heritage Foundation and Americans for Prosperity. Koch Industries funds the American Legislative Exchange Council (ALEC). Charles Koch has said he’s been pleased by the Tea Party’s accomplishments. The Kochs have given more than $100 million to rightwing groups since the 1980s. Their political action committee gives more to federal candidates than any other oil-and-gas PAC.

The Kochs also pressure their 50,000 employees to vote the “right” way, sending them letters warning of harm to their families, jobs, and country, if they don’t vote as the Kochs advise.

Balance the budget on his back!

David Koch, New York, NY

Like Charles Koch (see his entry) David Koch has $22 billion and got rich by inheriting a fortune.

If anything, David does more damage than Charles. He founded and chairs the Americans for Prosperity Foundation, is a director of the Cato Institute, and serves as a trustee of the Reason Foundation. Americans for Prosperity has spent $45 million on rightwing candidates.

David Koch himself was the Libertarian Party’s vice-presidential candidate in 1980, running on promises to end Social Security, welfare, minimum wage standards, campaign spending limits, corporate taxation, the EPA, the SEC, and OSHA, among other things.

Here’s a blogger pretending to be David Koch gaining all kinds of access to Wisconsin Governor Scott Walker:audio.

Here’s an interview with the real David Koch: video.

Balance the budget on his back!

Kenneth Langone, Sands Point, NY

Langone has $1.3 billion. He doesn’t work for a living, so taxing his income is not a real priority. He makes money from investments.

Langone co-founded the ChoicePoint data-mining company whose subsidiary DBT Online, under a no-bid contract from Florida Secretary of State Katherine Harris, gave Florida a list of felons to remove from election rolls in 2000, including 8,000 mostly African-American and Latino names of people who were not actually felons.

Langone also co-founded top Bush contributor Home Depot, which picked up a $48 million tax break in a Bush-Cheney energy bill, and which saw one of its stores used as the setting for a Bush speech on the economy — which may have helped the speech, but certainly not the economy.

Langone chaired the New York Stock Exchange’s compensation committee and was forced to testify when Eliot Spitzer prosecuted Richard Grasso, the former chief of the Stock Exchange who had been given $187 million. Langone also attempted to purchase the New York Stock Exchange, a move that might have given him freer reign.

Balance the budget on his back!

Stephen Schwartzman, New York, NY

Schwartzman has $5.9 billion, every cent of it earned by others. He doesn’t work; he invests. Schwartzman served as Managing Director of Lehman Brothers. Then he cofounded and became the CEO of the Blackstone Group.

The Blackstone Group is partially owned by the American International Group (AIG) and by Kissinger Associates. The Blackstone Group was Enron’s principle financial advisor for its restructuring.

Schwartzman raised $100,000 for Bush, his former Yale classmate, in 2004. He is a member of the Council on Foreign Relations and serves on the JP Morgan Chase National Advisory Board.

Schwartzman gave $100 million to New York Public Library which has now named its main building after him. Frank Rich commented:

“At the centennial gala, you couldn’t escape the paw print of Stephen Schwarzman, the Blackstone Group billionaire whose library gift had entitled him to blast his name on any stray expanse of marble on the 42nd Street building. Schwarzman is nothing if not a representative 21st-century titan. His principal monument has been to himself, namely a notorious over-the-top 60th-birthday party, exquisite in both its bad timing and bad taste, that he threw the year before the crash. (If you’re shelling out a million bucks for an entertainer, is Rod Stewart the best you can do?) He is perhaps most renowned of late for comparing Obama to Hitler because the administration dared propose taxing private-equity firms’ share of client profits at a rate higher than 15 percent. (He later apologized.)”

Balance the budget on his back!

3. See, for example, On 9/11 a THIRD Skyscraper Plunged to Earth: The Sudden Implosion of WTC Building 7 and WTC7 collapse INCREDIBLE CONCLUSIVE.

4. “Sad proselytists” are discussed in the chapter of my book, Apocalypse Emergency, titled, “The Will to Die – Zombies and Sad Proselytists.” And beyond that, in the chapter, “The First Prasad,” in my book, The Great Reveal by SillyMickel and the Planetmates, the planetmates describe the origins of this tendency of ours to need to speak out our supposed specialness, tying it to our creation of the Unapproved and Hidden in societies. Of course, I have written on variations of this topic in previous chapters of this book as well–-in particular, the series on the rise and fall of “obvious truths.” And I write about this more generally on one of my blogs in particular, “Sillymickel’s Blog of the Obvious Unspoken Things.” [return to text]

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It’s the Forces of Light versus the Forces of Darkness…. Is that interesting enough times for you?

sillymickel — Fri, 26 Aug 2011 10:41:31 +0000

Culture War, Part Fourteen: The Matrix Versus Truth-Love (Sathya Sai)

Government Broken

All things considered, we need come to several conclusions:

Government is broken.
Government gives free reign to corporations engaging in massive mind control via media manipulation using unlimited amounts of money and having all the privileges and rights of personhood.
Corporations engage in a misinformation campaign.
This misinformation campaign makes us forget who we are and our own interests, suffering, and feelings.
This misinformation campaign makes us forget what we know and who’s responsible for what.
This misinformation campaign works against Democrats and to the advantage of Republicans.
Mystified and deluded, US citizens become apathetic about voting to further their interests, by voting for Democrats, and become enraged into voting against their own well-being, by voting for Republicans.
Repeat -
Government is broken…

Government Is Broken. Corporations Engage in a Misinformation Campaign Making Us Forget What We Knew And Who’s Responsible For What – Works Against Democrats and to the Advantage of Republicans

Information

Misinformation

When I asked the how they could say that, they said the Kennedys.

So isn’t it about time we educated ourselves about the real causes of things rather than remained dummied down and going after each other (listen up, Tea Party).

Misinformation Misinformation

More Misinformation

Media Broken

With media broken, surely you will hear endlessly from the media that it is not.

Media Ownership Not Affect Democracy?

Not so much misinformation as just stupid

Media’s Preferential Treatment of GOP Liars = How Can You Say Filthy Rich Takeover of Media Not Hurt Our Democracy?

Not so much misinformation as just spurious to distract from real issues,
those truly responsible

You might have to think about this one

Light Vs. Darkness, Sathya Sai Vs. Matrix

Ironically it will occur if we go along with the Republicans, and the way to prevent it is to resist gop measures.

More Misinformation

Consequently

It’s the forces of Light versus the forces of Darkness…. Is that interesting enough times for ya?

To say it straight: There will simply be no more generations coming after us. There will be no grandchildren.

The storms of greed

Got your attention?

And were this to be hatched it would be coming forth without question at the peak of human population of this planet—a number unsustainable and ever-polluting its own nest.

Mad Max will be our lucky future.

Babel

Building a “skyscraper” to heaven…the “ladder-path”

$$$ 666

Revolution is not a tea party…more like a tweet party.

Was Obama “taken out to the woodshed”?

Mister Obama, the Republicans, they’re just not into you.

The music died; Reagan let loose the wolves.

The Matrix – “Electronic Curtain”

“Mister Obama, tear down this electronic curtain!”

Fearful, vulnerable filthy rich = Desperate, dangers measures

Well, hello, Mister Anderson.

Neo

Matrix, Part Two – The Question

True? False?

Who will prevail in the struggle of Ego versus God?

We are engaged witnesses of the penultimate battle: The Matrix Versus Sathya Sai (Truth, Love); it is The Matrix versus the power of Sathya Sai.

Thanatos Walking – Will We Survive?

Freud showed we had a will to die…so – will we survive? Will we emerge from global fascism to save our planet? Will our species survive or die out like the dinosaurs?

“The Will to Die, Part 2: Thanatos Walking”
by SillyMickel Adzema

For the author’s reading, with elaboration, of this part, click on the link to the audio site above or click the audio player here:

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Life vs. Death, Light vs. Matrix

Eros vs. Thanatos

In the struggle between the current powers of life versus death, it is helpful to remember Freud’s paradigm-shifting observations about the human psyche on Eros and Thanatos. Freud showed how all humans lives are drawn out against the background of each person’s inner struggle between the opposing forces of life and death…Eros and Thanatos. Specifically, for our purposes here, Freud advanced an understanding that made his insights paradigm-shifting, specifically, that each of us carry within us a Will to Die, which he referred to as Thanatos.

“Sometimes the lights are shining on me.”

Freud established that we act out a will to live and to be in the sun and to have fun and to love and to like goodness and health and truth.

“Other times I can barely see.”

Thanatos is why there are always Republicans or something like them — Pharisees, Inquisitors…

And times in which they hold sway–stifling, life- and creativity-averse, stagnant and little changing times: the Middle Ages, for example…

This downward pull makes us want to hate goodness, calling things “kumbaya moments.” This part of our nature causes us to be jealous of others who are more giving and to hate them for that, to call people “goody two-shoes” or say something is “schmaltzy,” or to be saying that all that good stuff is just “drama.” It has us putting out terms like “bleeding heart” liberals. It causes us to not care about the truth, but rather to say things instead to hurt, get revenge, to get back at; or it has us say untruths to get advantage, to disable our competitors, to hide from the evils we commit which enslave us further in the hiding of them, and so much more.

Struggle Will Out

Well, Ain’t We Special?

Not So Much

But this hyperbole or over-reaching in stating humans are unique in the degree of their Will to Life reinforces my point about Freud’s ideas being zeitgeist-shattering. For in this common, frequent, pervasive even universal, and nauseatingly repeated promulgation of supposedly the obvious, by any and all who speak before an audience–large or small, from a principal speaking in front of a gathering of high schoolers or a preacher before his gathering of church-goers to the TV media pundit before a world-wide audience, and even to a US President’s audience of even greater global reach–it is shown that our special Will to Life is not as true as is assumed. For if we had such a superior drive in us, would it need to be constantly reinforced and upheld, as if against some attack, or attacker? And if so, what is the feared attack or attacker?

My Dogma Barks Out My Specialness

Humans’ Uniqueness Among Species? We Suck Up

What is that pathetically overlooked intention? Well, let us take a look at what that effect might be.

OK, so we’ve established that people in front of audiences near-universally want to say things that will make their audience feel good towards them. No, not so fast. For that overlooks the fact that somehow…and get this; for if the spoken thing were of the obvious truth category, then why would this follow…that somehow all these people speaking out to others about the unique will to life they have know–-somewhere inside them–-that saying such a thing will, in fact, give people a good feeling. That’s another clue.

More Socratic Dialoguing

Think about it. If the Beatles were to be told they were a good band, would that give them a good feeling? No. certainly not. For that was so true as to be overwhelming and almost scary in its near-universal belief. And we can suppose that to them having that kind of power and influence because of their talent-–especially when you come out of nowhere, from humble, unassuming backgrounds-–may have been distressing to think about and hardly something wanted from others. How could they not wonder about this power, its source, where it would lead, and all that? I don’t think it happenchance that this success sent all of them into drug-taking-–to both block it out as well as come to terms with it–-into soul-searching of the spiritual and, especially John, of the therapeutic sort. Sometimes one does not want to be reminded of how “good” (and therefore powerful…therefore responsible) one is; there’s such a thing as feeling one is scary good.

Or take the obviously accomplished anybody, Pavarotti, say. Wanna tell Pavarotti he sings good? Don’t think he’d feel a thing.

But, you say, that’s because they hear that all the time.

This pervasive, mutual stroking we do has a result which is of dire consequence currently: We scapegoat our planetmates because of this pathetically low self-esteem and those who play on it.

How to Make Someone Love You: Tell Them Something Wonderful About Themselves They Normally Doubt Is True

What is that thing that makes people feel not good about themselves, so that being told something that counters that would make them feel good? Well, the answers, by psychologists since Freud, have many terms attached to them. And by the way, before the psychologists there were the theologians attempting to answer this. But Freud’s analysis not only answered it, but put it in the largest context possible–-one into which both psychologists and theologians would find an inroad.

We can say, to backtrack a bit, that this pandering by those in front of audiences makes people feel good because it supports the defense system that all humans have erected against the real truth-–that zeitgeist-shattering one that Freud was first to fully explicate. It feels good because it supports the denial that all humans have against the real truth that they feel about themselves, one of the things that human societies universally consign to that black hole of the Unapproved and Hidden. [Footnote 4]

“Quit Hitting Yourself!”

The point is that humans, along with a Will to Life that is undeniable, also have a Will to Death.

But anyway….

Suicidal Ape

I repeat: Freud established that we act out a will to live and to be in the sun and to have fun and to love and to like goodness and health and truth.

Pandavas versus Kauravas

By the way, about that inner monster of yours…

It is because of this contradiction that people are so terrified of revealing themselves, lest some of that not socially appropriate, not socially sanctioned, not socially approved part of themselves slip out. And the fear there is that then we will be seen to have been found out; and that then we will be confirmed in our worst fears that indeed that “other” part of ourselves is-–the horror that cannot even be spoken in one’s mind–-that dark part of ourselves is the real us…which carries with it the view that any of the “good” in us is just a cover up so that other people will not know.

Mask on a monster, lipstick on a pig

But Freud took it beyond our inner struggles and talked about how the events of the world, the actions and movements of history, the dramas of all the ages, are in fact the products of this inner struggle. Desperate between these poles, we join together with others of the same feeling-–whether of lightness or of negativity–-in multiple relations and groups on both sides of that struggle. More than that, while driven unwittingly from sources on one side, we expend ourselves in complex ways, in concert with these other, to represent these groups as well as ourselves as acting out from sources on the other side; we mask ourselves as the other.

Babel’s inner blueprint

Ultimately, these groups magnify our powers. And the cumulative acts of many individuals, along with the actions of groups and their leaders, all within complex and contradictory motives at all levels and in every matter, create the complex events of all times. All these happenings are at base the story of inner conflicts-–complex outer conflicts notwithstanding. In a cumulative manner and over time, things are ever more convoluted and twisted and complicated through the actions of the myriad characters-–all of whom conflicted inside, act inconsistently, and out of their own unique struggles which have all of us perceiving and interpreting things in ways totally unique to ourselves.

Again, The Question

So, we will continue to live, and we will become good citizens of this planet and our species will continue on?

True? False?

This discussion is only now beginning.

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The Will to Die, Part 2: Thanatos Walking
by SillyMickel Adzema

“Thanatos Walking” is also known as, “Will We Live, Or Die Out Like the Dinosaurs?” – audio by SillyMickel. For the author’s reading, with elaboration, of this part, click on the link to the audio site above or click the audio player here:

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Tags: apocalypse, death wish, denial, die, ego, eros, extinction, live, matrix, pander, thanatos, untruth, war, will

Footnotes

1. Here are some of the faces of the “faceless” filthy rich. Go to Bad Billionaires and Balance the Budget on the Back of Billionaires. Part of that is reprinted here:

Philip Anschutz, Denver, Col.

Balance the budget on his back!

Stephen Bechtel Jr., San Francisco, Calif.

Bechtel has $2.9 billion, and got rich by inheriting his money from his father. Our top concern should clearly be encouraging that sort of initiative!

Yet Stephen Bechtel, Jr., is still rolling around in mountains of your hard-earned dollars.

Balance the budget on his back!

Joseph Craft, Tulsa, Okla.

ARP also believes that coal is in our best interests whether we like it or not. When townships in Pennsylvania have banned mining, ARP has taken the towns to court.

Following hundreds of citations for safety violations in 2010, the company’s Dotiki Mine in Kentucky collapsed, killing two miners.

According to Source Watch, Alliance Coal employees were among the biggest campaign donors in Kentucky’s recent state primary election.

Is this man making the world a better place? Can we afford to have him sitting on $1.9 billion?

Balance the budget on his back!

Richard De Vos, Ada, Mich.

In 1996, Amway tried to give $1.3 million to the funding of Republican infomercials but was forced to refrain by public uproar over campaign financing.

In 1997, a Republican Congress slipped a last-minute provision into a bill to give Amway a $19 million tax break.

Balance the budget on his back!

Ken Griffin, Chicago, Ill.

Griffin has $2.3 billion and gets a special tax break for being a hedge fund manager, also known as a bankster. He doesn’t produce anything other than money.

Before the collapse, Griffin praised shady practices that helped cause it:

Balance the budget on his back!

Diane Hendricks, Afton, Wis.

Hendricks is hoarding $2.2 billion. She is the only woman on our list of 11 leading plutocrats.

Hendricks and her husband were business partners from 1982 until his death in 2007. She then took over ABC Supply, which is the nation’s largest roofing, window, and siding wholesaler.

Last year, ABC Supply acquired its top competitor, Bradco Supply Co., a move that’s sure to help competition and benefit consumers.

Hendricks told Forbes in 2010: “We need Washington to stop putting new burdens on businesses. That’s the best way to encourage job creation.”

Burdens?

Balance the budget on her back!

Stanley Hubbard, St. Paul, Minn.

Hubbard has $1.9 billion. He inherited his wealth, just like you would have done if you’d been a better capitalist.

Hubbard Broadcasting, Inc., owns television and radio stations in Minnesota, Wisconsin, New York, and New Mexico.

Hubbard gave Newt Gingrich’s American Solutions for Winning the Future (a Gingrich phrase before an Obama one) $100,000.

He funds lots of candidates, most of them Republican, including Michelle Bachmann.

Balance the budget on his back!

Charles Koch, Wichita, Kan.

The Kochs’ father invented a way to turn heavy oil into gasoline. The Kochs inherited a fortune, as all truly responsible people do.

The Kochs also pressure their 50,000 employees to vote the “right” way, sending them letters warning of harm to their families, jobs, and country, if they don’t vote as the Kochs advise.

Balance the budget on his back!

David Koch, New York, NY

Like Charles Koch (see his entry) David Koch has $22 billion and got rich by inheriting a fortune.

Here’s a blogger pretending to be David Koch gaining all kinds of access to Wisconsin Governor Scott Walker:audio.

Here’s an interview with the real David Koch: video.

Balance the budget on his back!

Kenneth Langone, Sands Point, NY

Langone has $1.3 billion. He doesn’t work for a living, so taxing his income is not a real priority. He makes money from investments.

Balance the budget on his back!

Stephen Schwartzman, New York, NY

Schwartzman raised $100,000 for Bush, his former Yale classmate, in 2004. He is a member of the Council on Foreign Relations and serves on the JP Morgan Chase National Advisory Board.

Schwartzman gave $100 million to New York Public Library which has now named its main building after him. Frank Rich commented:

Balance the budget on his back!

3. See, for example, On 9/11 a THIRD Skyscraper Plunged to Earth: The Sudden Implosion of WTC Building 7 and WTC7 collapse INCREDIBLE CONCLUSIVE.

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Death Grasp - Fleeing Freedom, Hating Goodness

sillymickel — Wed, 17 Aug 2011 16:24:53 +0000

Grasping at Death

Freud showed we had a will to die…so — Will we survive? Will we wake up from global apathy to save our planet? Will we resist cowardly denial or die out like the dinosaurs?

“The Will to Die, Part 2: Thanatos Walking”
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Will We Survive?

Eros vs. Thanatos

“Sometimes the lights are shining on me.”

Freud established that we act out a will to live and to be in the sun and to have fun and to love and to like goodness and health and truth.

“Other times I can barely see.”

Thanatos is why there are always Republicans or something like them — Pharisees, Inquisitors…

And times in which they hold sway—stifling, life- and creativity-averse, stagnant and little changing times: the Middle Ages, for example…

Struggle Will Out

Well, Ain’t We Special?

Not So Much

My Dogma Barks Out My Specialness

Humans’ Uniqueness Among Species? We Suck Up

What is that pathetically overlooked intention? Well, let us take a look at what that effect might be.

More Socratic Dialoguing

Or take the obviously accomplished anybody, Pavarotti, say. Wanna tell Pavarotti he sings good? Don’t think he’d feel a thing.

But, you say, that’s because they hear that all the time.

This pervasive, mutual stroking we do has a result which is of dire consequence currently: We scapegoat our planetmates because of this pathetically low self-esteem and those who play on it.

How to Make Someone Love You: Tell Them Something Wonderful About Themselves They Normally Doubt Is True

“Quit Hitting Yourself!”

The point is that humans, along with a Will to Life that is undeniable, also have a Will to Death.

But anyway….

Suicidal Ape

I repeat: Freud established that we act out a will to live and to be in the sun and to have fun and to love and to like goodness and health and truth.

Pandavas versus Kauravas

By the way, about that inner monster of yours…

Mask on a monster, lipstick on a pig

Babel’s inner blueprint

Again, The Question

So, we will continue to live, and we will become good citizens of this planet and our species will continue on?

True? False?

This discussion is only now beginning.

Strange Days, Indeed. “Most Peculiar, Mama!”

Beginning in the next chapter, “Strange Days,” we begin discussing this question of life-death, eros-thanatos, survival-extinction.

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The Will to Die, pt 2 - Will We Survive?

sillymickel — Thu, 04 Aug 2011 05:46:55 +0000

Thanatos Walking – Will We Survive?

Freud showed we had a will to die…so – will we survive? Will we emerge from global fascism to save our planet? Will our species survive or die out like the dinosaurs?

“The Will to Die, Part 2: Thanatos Walking”
by SillyMickel Adzema

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Life vs. Death, Light vs. Matrix

This part discusses an age-old question that has currently become of immense, literally vital, importance: Will our species survive or die out like the dinosaurs is the most crucial issue of our time. It is related to the fundamental fact of our existence for it is about the struggle between the forces of Life and those of Death. The consequences as to the winner of that inner struggle have to do with no less than the continued survival of life on this planet or total planetary collapse.

Eros vs. Thanatos

In the struggle between the current powers of life versus death, it is helpful to remember Freud’s paradigm-shifting observations about the human psyche on Eros and Thanatos. Freud showed how all humans lives are drawn out against the background of each person’s inner struggle between the opposing forces of life and death…Eros and Thanatos. Specifically, for our purposes here, Freud advanced an understanding that made his insights paradigm-shifting, specifically, that each of us carry within us a Will to Die, which he referred to as Thanatos.

“Sometimes the lights are shining on me.”

Freud established that we act out a will to live and to be in the sun and to have fun and to love and to like goodness and health and truth.

“Other times I can barely see.”

Thanatos is why there are always Republicans or something like them — Pharisees, Inquisitors…

And times in which they hold sway, stifling, life- and creativity-averse, stagnant and little changing times — the Middle Ages, for example…

This downward pull makes us want to hate goodness, calling things “kumbaya moments.” This part of our nature causes us to be jealous of others who are more giving and to hate them for that, to call people “goody two-shoes” or say something is “schmaltzy,” or to be saying that all that good stuff is just “drama.” It has us putting out terms like “bleeding heart” liberals. It causes us to not care about the truth, but rather to say things instead to hurt, get revenge, to get back at; or it has us say untruths to get advantage, to disable our competitors, to hide from the evils we commit which enslave us further in the hiding of them, and so much more.

Struggle Will Out

Well, Ain’t We Special?

Freud pointed out we have a Will to Live, too–nothing earth-shattering there. In fact, so far he is stating nothing more than the common-sensical beliefs of the masses. Indeed, it is the universally held mainstream near-definition of humans…one of those “obvious truths” about us we like to bless ourselves with. Freud’s first point, taken by itself, encapsulates the cliched view of What We Are–that what distinguishes our species above all others revolves around a superior Will to Live.

Not So Much

But this hyperbole or over-reaching in stating humans are unique in the degree of their Will to Life reinforces my point about Freud’s ideas being zeitgeist-shattering. For in this common, frequent, pervasive even universal, and nauseatingly repeated promulgation of supposedly the obvious, by any and all who speak before an audience–large or small, from a principal speaking in front of a gathering of high schoolers or a preacher before his gathering of church-goers to the TV media pundit before a world-wide audience, and even to a US President’s audience of even greater global reach– it is shown that our special Will to Life is not as true as is assumed. For if we had such a superior drive in us, would it need to be constantly reinforced and upheld, as if against some attack, or attacker? And if so, what is the feared attack or attacker?

My Dogma Barks Out My Specialness

But the reasons behind the promulgation of this supposed “obvious truth” go even beyond, since we are not dealing here with any conscious or acknowledged let alone written and standardized set of things not obvious. For indeed, in this sad repetition of our superior life-valuing, it is put out as being something not needing institutional backing, being simply true in its obviousness.

Humans’ Uniqueness Among Species? We Suck Up

What is that pathetically overlooked intention? Well, let us take a look at what that effect might be.

OK, so we’ve established that people in front of audiences near-universally want to say things that will make their audience feel good towards them. No, not so fast. For that overlooks the fact that somehow…and get this; for if the spoken thing were of the obvious truth category, then why would this follow…that somehow all these people speaking out to others about the unique will to life they have know–somewhere inside them–that saying such a thing will, in fact, give people a good feeling. That’s another clue.

More Socratic Dialoguing

Think about it. If the Beatles were to be told they were a good band, would that give them a good feeling? No. certainly not. For that was so true as to be overwhelming and almost scary in its near-universal belief. And we can suppose that to them having that kind of power and influence because of their talent–especially when you come out of nowhere, from humble, unassuming backgrounds–may have been distressing to think about and hardly something wanted from others. How could they not wonder about this power, its source, where it would lead, and all that? I don’t think it happenchance that this success sent all of them into drug-taking–to both block it out as well as come to terms with it–into soul-searching of the spiritual and, especially John, of the therapeutic sort. Sometimes one does not want to be reminded of how “good” (and therefore powerful…therefore responsible) one is.

Or take the obviously accomplished anybody, Pavarotti, say. Wanna tell Pavarotti he sings good? Don’t think he’d feel a thing.

But, you say, that’s because they hear that all the time.

Ok, granted that. But think about when it would have felt good to them. Look to your own experience and you realize that you feel good when people tell you things about yourself–especially when they state them as self-evident and obvious to all–about which you are not certain, about which you often or at least sometimes have doubts, and about which you are insecure! Look to your own life. Can anyone be flattered about the things they know to be without question? Can you be flattered about the color of your skin or hair, or about…. Well, not stated as a fact, you wouldn’t. A person would be flattered only if they had some bad feeling, insecurity in that area, first, and second, if that quality of them is not usually noted though it be assumed by everyone to be good, positive, or “superior” thing.

We scapegoat our planetmates because of our pathetically low self-esteem and those who play on that.

How to Make Someone Love You: Tell Them Something Wonderful About Themselves They Normally Doubt Is True

What is that thing that makes people feel not good about themselves, so that being told something that counters that would make them feel good? Well, the answers, by psychologists since Freud, have many terms attached to them. And by the way, before the psychologists there were the theologians attempting to answer this. But Freud’s analysis not only answered it, but put it in the largest context possible–one into which both psychologists and theologians would find an inroad.

We can say, to backtrack a bit, that this pandering by those in front of audiences makes people feel good because it supports the defense system that all humans have erected against the real truth–that zeitgeist-shattering one that Freud was first to fully explicate. It feels good because it supports the denial that all humans have against the real truth that they feel about themselves, one of the things that human societies universally consign to that black hole of the Unapproved and Hidden. [Footnote 1]

“Quit Hitting Yourself!”

So this repetitive obvious truth about humans having a strong Will to Live is repeated to please audiences and make them feel good–”people-pleasing”–because it is a salve to the egos of the masses, which in reality are not merely bruised. No, this goes directly toward propping up a particular defense, a particular denial that we all carry. And that denial is that, IN TRUTH, humans don’t at all feel like they have a tremendous Will to Live. Why? Well, how many things do you know you do which are “not good for you”? How many things do you not do which you know would aid the cause of our supposed universal desire to Live and to Live as long as possible?

The point is that humans, along with a Will to Life that is undeniable, also have a Will to Death.

How many times have you woken up, thought about all the pressures and obligations, or complexities, responsibilities…. Have you thought about all the seemingly insurmountable obstacles or challenges that you are facing… have you thought about all the things that just have to get done, yet you feel that you could not possibly have the time to do all of them…. How many times have you woken up and felt overwhelmed with what life has become and not wished to just curl up, go back to sleep, and never wake up again? How many times have you taken to drugs or intoxicants in full knowledge of their negative and even dire concomitants and simply thought to yourself, “Aw, what the hell. If I were to die, so what? What’s so great about life anyway?” Or, with less clarity, simply said, “Well nobody lives forever!”

Do they sound like the pronouncements of a species that has a tremendous will to live? No, in fact, alongside of our Will to Live, we have not only a Will to Die, but even a will to self-destruction.

But anyway….

Suicidal Ape

I repeat: Freud established that we act out a will to live and to be in the sun and to have fun and to love and to like goodness and health and truth.

Pandavas versus Kauravas

By the way, about that inner monster of yours…

It is because of this contradiction that people are so terrified of revealing themselves, lest some of that not socially appropriate, not socially sanctioned, no5 socially approved part of themselves slip out. And the fear there is that then we will be seen to have been found out; and that then we will be confirmed in our worst fears that indeed that “other” part of ourselves is–the horror that cannot even be spoken in one’s mind–that dark part of ourselves is the real us…which carries with it the view that any of the “good” in us is just a cover up so that other people will not know.

Mask on a monster, lipstick on a pig

But Freud took it beyond our inner struggles and talked about how the events of the world, the actions and movements of history, the dramas of all the ages, are in fact the products of this inner struggle. Desperate between these poles, we join together with others of the same feeling–whether of lightness or of negativity–in multiple relations and groups on both sides of that struggle. More than that, while driven unwittingly from sources on one side, we expend ourselves in complex ways, in concert with these other, to represent these groups as well as ourselves as acting out from sources on the other side; we mask ourselves as the other.

Babel’s inner blueprint

Ultimately, these groups magnify our powers. And the cumulative acts of many individuals, along with the actions of groups and their leaders, all within complex and contradictory motives at all levels and in every matter, create the complex events of all times. All these happenings are at base the story of inner conflicts–complex outer conflicts notwithstanding. In a cumulative manner and over time things are ever more convoluted and twisted and complicated through the actions of the myriad characters–all of whom conflicted inside, act inconsistently, and out of their own unique struggles which have all of us perceiving and interpreting things in ways totally unique to ourselves.

Again, The Question

That is why in upcoming sections I focus on this question of dire importance. I talk more about this Will to Death manifesting currently as The Matrix. But unlike Freud I do not address this iconic incarnation of the Will to Death–the Matrix–in a general sense. I deal specifically with its existence as an element of the current struggle between Republicans, media flunkies, huge corporations, the “filthy rich,” and The Shadow Government….

So, we will continue to live, and we will become good citizens of this planet and our species will continue on?

True? False?

This discussion is only now beginning.

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Footnotes

1. “Sad proselytists” are discussed in the chapter of my book, Apocalypse Emergency, titled, “The Will to Die – Zombies and Sad Proselytists.” And beyond that, in the chapter, “The First Prasad,” in my book, The Great Reveal by SillyMickel and the Planetmates, the planetmates describe the origins of this tendency of ours to need to speak out our supposed specialness, tying it to our creation of the Unapproved and Hidden in societies. Of course, I have written on variations of this topic in previous chapters of this book as well, in particular, the series on the rise and fall of “obvious truths.” And I write about this more generally on one of my blogs in particular, “Sillymickel’s Blog of the Obvious Unspoken Things.” [return to text]

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Open Relationships & Heteronormative Hate?

Braiden — Thu, 16 Jun 2011 18:03:03 +0000

Being the delightful young homosexual that I am, I have a particular taste for topics that are relevant to the gay community. The male gay community, if I am to be precise. Amongst my more ‘pro queer’ friends, (keeping in mind that queer is used to describe a cacophony of divergent sexual orientations) there is a particular contempt held for the heteronormative. This is naturally understandable, as the nuclear family with approximately 2.3 children does not seem particular appealing. There is also the view of the detrimental impact of the heterosexual influence within the lives of those that consider themselves to be queer. As a response to this notion it has be theorised that queer people should celebrate their divergent sexual practices and not to allow the heteronormative to influence our sex lives and even our relationships. The rejection of monogamy and the acceptance of open relationships being the pervading result in a good chunk of male homosexual interaction. In this quasi-intellectual article, I cherish the opportunity to deal with these notions and perhaps relate them to secular and logical morality.

It was once said in my social circles, that to have an open relationship, one is just asking for trouble, and in all honesty I simply must agree. Inviting other parties into a relationship, whilst an honour for the outside party, is calling for division within the original bond. Humanity is a jealous species; this is reflected in the pervading social taboo against cheating on partners.

Open relationships remove the idea of jealousy, and is most commonly justified with the ideology that sex and love, or perhaps not even love, sex and emotion are separated for the purposes of ensuring the longevity of this particular kind of relationship. To put it in colloquial terms, you can fuck whoever you want, so long as it remains, sex and only sex, and you remain emotionally ‘loyal,’ to your partner. Does this or not raise a few eyebrows, or is it justified?

Those in favour of open relationships might suggest that in committed monogamous situations there is a subconscious or conscious objectification of humanity. That is, a mentality of one partner to the other that they are indeed their property and in sexual terms no one else is allowed to ‘play’ with them. But this is simply not apt. Commitment being a two way street implies a form of equality, or perhaps mutual objectification that is agreed upon with the consent (albeit subconscious) of both parties. This would naturally mean that partners in committed relationships are afforded the same freedoms and responsibilities as the other. Naturally my own sense of devil advocacy says that this would mean that people in committed relationships are lesser people than their single counterparts. Why? – As they are not provided the same freedoms, surely there must be some price for an emotionally stable, healthy relationship…and let’s not forget the guarantee of sex.

Power is also a massive element of each relationship, it even has made its way into the social vernacular with the ‘reacher,’ and ‘settler’ complex. The power play evident within any relationship, keeps the bond interesting, constantly evolving. Allowing the freedom, of both partners to sleep with whoever they wish, immediately brings this power relationship into disrepute. Whilst this might seem positive, to ‘break the bonds’ of some ridiculous power struggle, it merely allows it to move into the wider community. Power then becomes about the amount of men or perhaps the sexual appeal of those that a partner will sleep with. I would ask, does this appear beneficial in the long run? In my opinion it speaks as a lack of respect for our partners as individuals not to mention the additional sexual partners who are merely being used as some form of leverage in order to gain the respect of, or to spark interest by a partner.

Moving to a matter of personal development, I wanted to speak briefly of the role of sex in a relationship. Every heterosexual relationship evident on television some-how manages to always display the long running joke of one partner (usually the female) withholding sex from the other in order to achieve what they desire. In reality, there is a distinct lack, except for perhaps the usual jibe at the idea of withholding sex for a particular purpose. The usual reason behind a lack of sexual activity is a combination of lifestyle factors and emotional issues between the partners. To place the ability to achieve sexual gratification outside a relationship is to advocate for laziness in a relationship. It is to allow sexual pleasure to be provided to a partner that may require a certain period of introspection in order to better themselves as a person. Additionally this also means that a partner has no beneficial action of working on developing (or perhaps repairing) their relationship as sexual gratification can be found elsewhere.

As a way of attacking the heteronormative, I find open relationships the most trivial and ridiculous manner in which to do so. A scattered, unorganised, string of private relationships hardly creates any notoriety against the dominant heteronormative.

I always have found it ridiculous those who always desire to attack the heterosexual dominance of society, or perhaps view its pervading nature as an attack on our right to be different. Honestly, honestly? How absurd a statement! At last glance majority of these people were created from the heteronormative, I cannot understand rationally why so many people desire to bite the hand that feeds them! Like it or not, the heteronormative has numerous institutions that will assure its longevity long into the future and if some queer people lack the capacity to understand this, then they, by all means deserve to be screaming and constantly frustrated for the rest of their lives. The fact of the matter is that heterosexual dominance in society is sound, but this does not mean that there necessary need be homophobic hate speech flung around on the streets.

The notion of transvaluation provides us with a solid resolution to the issue at hand. In order to gain what we desire, what the long speculated ‘gay agenda,’ states, i.e. equality, then a process of putting a new slant on old ideas and traditions is necessary. Furthermore it is simply not possible for this to occur if all the queer community does is shout at the top of its lungs at the woeful inequality still evident in our society. It is not necessary to distance ourselves from our heterosexual brothers and sisters, stooping our souls in bitter brine over the taunts received in high school. The value of this lesson lies in human connection. People lack the capacity to fear something they are informed of; perhaps the best way to achieve equality is to spread ourselves amongst the ‘straight,’ community. To move away from the gossiping cliques and inconsequential drama of the ‘queer,’ community and stand amongst every member of our society allowing them to view us, exactly for what we are, human.

Interaction

Braiden — Mon, 13 Jun 2011 18:00:47 +0000

In all honesty, I despise being politically correct. Something within my own being manages to provoke it. Thus, I am left constantly frustrated by my own sense of conscience, ridiculousness or perhaps morality. As if it were important for one’s closest friends to realise that I were a liberal humanist, and let me stress liberal with the lower case ‘l.’ What possible value could this internal notion have upon anything exterior, except perhaps for a solemn espousal of a belief in equality?

Truth is I am weary of harping on and on about personal, objective or religious morality. But the fact of the matter is, it has, at the very least, a small impact on the physical world. Personal belief, influencing our actions and dealings with other people then would naturally have to have some social impact. Our concept of political correctness then becomes far more essential than it was once thought. But how much of an impact justifies a tightening of our own social behaviour comparative to that of an uptight television code of practice executive?

To delve a little further into this question, in essence, what I am examining is the manner in which humanity treats one and other. Equality, bigotry, racism, are all mere terms to describe rather simple interaction between people. But to over intellectualise and politicise behaviour takes away our capacity for empathy. If we are to understand sexism on an intellectual level does that not lessen our capacity for understanding the pain of such an act?

Humanity is a peculiar species, with as many idiosyncrasies as there are grains of sand on the earth, but one thing I have been constantly reminded of in recent months is, quite simply, how terribly we interact. How disjointed, violent and bigoted we treat our brothers and sisters. The fact that I even use these over politicised words speaks wonders for the way in which a social mentality deals with trauma. Perhaps it would be easier to reduce it to two irreducible components of the issue:

Humanity

and

Interaction

What is it that causes people to turn on other people with such force and brutality that virtually all remnants of conscience are completely erased?

Readers, I want to share something with you, it can be viewed as a vulnerability, strength or just simply an attribute. My capacity for emotion when experiencing a form of empathy is, quite frankly ridiculous. I become the most pathetic blubbering mess, crying for something I seemingly cannot do a thing about. All I manage to blurt out is “Why are people so terrible to each other?” It is disgusting how many situations that statement is applicable to. I cannot fathom what break down of basic human decency leads to such indiscriminate suffering across the world.

It seems a staple in any news broadcast to see a middle-eastern nation having suffered some form of attack, and a distraught woman screaming about lost loved ones. But this does not tend to effect people past the point of a brief conversation stating that it is terrible, but there is nothing we can do. Perhaps it is not viable to empathetically connect with that human for fear the pain would elicit too powerful a reaction. The numbing of hearts is a sad practice, whatever its cause. At what point of absolute decimation of human life is necessary before these events elicit a true emotional reaction amongst the Western world?

Forgive me for being naïve, however I thought a mother screaming, “My child, my child,” stooped over the body of her mangled son would be enough for a significant few to shed a single tear.

But I shouldn’t restrict this only to those living within a warzone. Perhaps the alleged rape of an eleven year old girl, by at least eighteen other boys and men in Texas, would speak for the inept manner we treat the species. The Aboriginal Intervention evident in Australia, where the law is being applied to a group in such a particular way it might as well steal their once held rights from right under their nose.

But it doesn’t even need to be such horrific and heart shattering events such as those aforementioned to evidence the insane manner we are treating our own kind. That is, discrimination, anti-Semitism, racism, sexism, bigotry and all the over intellectualisations to distract us from the greater truth, that majority of our interaction is morally inept. To smirk at the failure of an enemy, to celebrate the death of Al-Qaida leader, to rejoice in our success knowing it is built on the crushed spirits of those beneath us. Therefore I must reiterate, people are terrible to each other.

That personal feeling of isolation and helplessness when confronted with a distant tragedy need not exist. The world ripples, it is covered with water, thus an act of kindness, a forgoing of a politically incorrect statement or the proud espousal of equality eventually creates waves. Idealistic, I know. But here is the crux of the argument. I set out to answer the simple question, whether it is worth monitoring our own behaviour even amongst friends. I say it is necessary, to espouse disdain, leads to dislike, leads to discrimination, which is not just. Fast forward twenty years and you have a mass grave of deceased for seemingly no purpose. But history will tell us that.

I leave you beautiful people, with the solemn hope for you to simply soften your hearts of stone. To look upon your human counterparts accomplices not adversaries’.

-Braiden

Does it look like I give a f about what your cooking for dinner. Smile yourself bitch!

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I am making Jambalaya. I do not have Thyme though. Thus, have to go all the way to town later for one item. All recipes call for it. I do not have andouille sausage either, only Italian. It is going to have to work.

Like I give a shit!

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Just got back from mowing. Actually I cleaned the refrigerator and defrosted it. It took about a week and the back frosted over, which it had not done in 13 years, that was the freezer. So today the refrigerator is only at 55, and the freezer is getting worse. So I ordered a new on

Dearest Kent,

Please do not worry about my dogs. One is dead after you threaten to kick a 5 pound Maltese and now you want to know how their doing? Only a psycho path threatens a little dog.

President Obama stands under Mexican flag and Mocks American Citizens at Border

fretsward — Wed, 11 May 2011 20:28:58 +0000

The Commander-In-Cheat takes the Scamnesty Pander-Wagon for a spin once again. Moats? Alligators?

It was sickening to watch the President of the United States Codifying for the fraudulent Hispanic voter theft network while standing at the US – Mexican border for the first time. During his stand-up comedy performance, he actually mocked Americans citizens who are not taking this invasion facetiously: “They won’t be happy until they get a moat with alligators along the border.” He, as does the do-nothing DHS Chief Janet Napolitano, claims that the border is more secure than ever.

His race-baiting and entitlement rhetoric is deplorable.

He is of the typical moronic elitist mindset who believe mixing third world Mexico with the USA is going to create some sort of Peoples Utopian Paradise with those of his ilk lording over all.

The danger is, many yellow politicians, both parties, past and present, and presidential wannabes believe that same, have sipped the Kool-Aide, and are working fervently to make certain it happens.

Well if you can’t get Americans to vote for you, perhaps tens of millions of Mexicans will for the exchange of unearned undeserved citizenship.

There is an full-scale call-to-arms to assuage invasion, jaw-dropping lawlessness, animosity, malice, enmity, and extreme hatred by subversives who demand we move aside and make wholesale accommodations for their sole benefit.

Against the vast majority of Americans, they push for transformation.

Since the Immigration and Nationality Act of 1965, Congress has passed seven amnesties:

1). Immigration and Reform Control Act, 1986: A blanket amnesty for over 4 million (and counting) illegal aliens.
2). Section 245(i) Amnesty, 1994: A temporary rolling amnesty for 578,000 illegal aliens.
3). Section 245(i) Extension Amnesty, 1997: An extension of the rolling amnesty created in 1994.
4). Nicaraguan Adjustment and Central American Relief Act (NACARA) Amnesty, 1997: An amnesty for close to one million illegal aliens from Central America.
5). Haitian Refugee Immigration Fairness Act Amnesty (HRIFA), 1998: An amnesty for 125,000 illegal aliens from Haiti.
6). Late Amnesty, 2000: An amnesty for some illegal aliens who claim they should have been amnestied under the 1986 IRCA amnesty, an estimated 500,000 illegal aliens.
7). LIFE Act Amnesty, 2000: A reinstatement of the rolling Section 245(i) amnesty, an estimated 1,000,000 illegal aliens.

How about an amnesty from pandemic liberal stupidity, a so-called president who would have to look the direction of illegal aliens to outsource his chance of winning; morons who actually think that whales are their friends and believe I should have a propeller outside my home generating electricity to power one device at a time; racist delusional Latinos who believe their mythical voting bloc is legitimate when in the last presidential election (with illegal alien participation), garnered nearly 7 millions votes out of 170 million; the abhorrent solecism and dishonest quest for colonization, 48-XXYY syndrome; reasoning more inclined to men’s synchronized swimming; prolegomenous babblers; university-think; incomparable lucidity and imagined penetrativeness, fantasies, misconceptions, incoherencies, La Raza call centers, hit-and-runs, Univision, Telemundo; myth of Aztlan explained in Chicano Studies textbooks, and what’s taught to Hispanic kids in taxpayer-funded schools; sycophants who use criminals as human shields; well-worn race cards; ID theft, murders, rapes, mass protests for the keys to the country, birthright citizenship theft, anchor babies; millions of tons of trash and human waste in our national border parks with enough discarded plastic bags to stock several thousand Wal-Marts;
Reconquista; the disease of entitlement, and the staggering cost of upwards of $500 billion dollars each year to finance this gargantuan smash and grab fest.

They have demonstrated repeatedly that they are not neighbors, or even friends for that matter, but rather a tremendous burden, and increasingly, a menace. For decades they have continued to increase their illegal infringement into our country.

They insist we codify them for their deluge of parasites, entitlement shams, thieves, frauds, and racist America haters led by anchor baby loyalists, politicians and compatriots who feign compassion and Univision.

Let’s allow this deluge to polarize the nation, rob citizens of jobs, bleed taxpayers, threaten our national security and dangerously balkanize the country into an overwhelming unassimilated annex of Mexico without semblance of loyalty, and disregard our founding values and adopt theirs instead. This de facto invasion is designed to transform America.

The pro-amnesty champion racist organization and ideologically maligned people have managed to slip one of their own into the Obama staff at the White House. Cecilia Munoz, Senior Vice President of La Raza has been appointed to Intergovernmental Affairs in the Executive Branch.

This is on top of the recent appointment of pro-amnesty for illegal aliens Bill Richardson as the Commerce Secretary, and liberal, pro-choice pro-illegal aliens amnesty racist Sonia Sotomayor to the Supreme Court. Anyone who didn’t see all these pro-Mexican, pro-amnesty subversives being appointed into the Obama administration simply haven’t been paying attention.

The infelicitous and deleterious invading hordes who demonstrate severe nihilism as a badge of honor.

Shame on this President. He doesn’t seem to get beyond himself, nor his puny scope, artificial insulting invectives, and impaired prestige.

It’s the duplicate self-absorbed perceived invincibility bin Laden himself
demonstrated with his childlike ingenuousness before he reached room temperature.

Shame on Eric Holder and the Justice Department. Shame on the Mexican president and his parasitic government. Shame on NCLR, MALDEF, LULAC, MEChA, and the rest of the racist Hispanic/Latino agenda-mongers.

Shame on the swarm of illegal aliens who become anchor babies, who become Americans by proxy, and consider actual Americans their enemy. Shame on the fourth estate for not raising a hurricane-force protest against these outrageous attacks on our country and people, and shame upon shame on the activist “shopped” judges in the United States.

And triple shame on us American men for standing by and letting it happen.

What can be said for those of us who would allow their homes to be broken into by criminals who demand they be fed, clothed, housed, and granted the rights of the firstborn?

If Obama rallies the mythical Hispanic vote to flex its muscles as they did in the last presidential election – nearly 7 million out of 170 million, perhaps memberships to their local gyms are in order.

We are witnessing one of the greatest tragedies in human history. The symptoms of declination are well-known to all who allow it: the death of sovereignty, the degeneration of morals, contempt for the old and American values, destruction of the culture and language, and paralysis of the will.

There’s too much at stake now to be politically correct any longer. And there’s entirely far too much at stake to be concerned with offending Mexico, La Raza, and their never-ending tsunami of millions of poltroons.

It is the American people who must decide who we wish to come, and from where. Then we must endorse our policies and enforce them. Entry into the country must be designed to serve the need of the nation, not the wants of Mexico, or La Raza.

America, after all, is for Americans first. Coming to this country is not a right that belongs to anybody that can sneak in during the middle of the night, and people who believe they have the right to do so and care less what we think.

It is a privilege we Americans alone decide to confer.

As far as Latinos are concerned, Americans can go to hell. If either party does not do something about the illegal alien invasion, the illegal alien invasion will do something about all of us.

And Americans will eventually be forced to do something about both.

This outrage boils across America. It’s like molten steel being poured out of the big ladles in the steel mills in Pennsylvania. We suffer an alcoholic president of the United States of America asleep at the wheel. He’s irresponsible to himself, to his passengers and to everyone else on the highway.

When he pulls over and asks for directions, instructions must read: The true pathways to citizenship are the southbound lanes of the nearest interstate highways…

Winner! Just a LOSER!

subtlepython — Wed, 27 Apr 2011 15:52:02 +0000

KVL505, Bluesky_01, Kvl505@gmail.com, Klarson505, Bravotoosero, Panther1, Blazer96, Bluesky_001, blue-sky005, bluesky_1@yahoo.com, Kentlarson505@gmail.com …. Just a LOSER! I’m so heartbroken over my relationship of six years. Only to find out he was cheating the duration of the relationship. In fact, I’m confused of why, he continued the relationship for six years with false promises and dreams. He stated next year we would be married, In spite the fact I obtained the information on his cheating with escorts, dating sites and trips to 3rd world countries for sex. I still do not have a clear understanding why, in fact he needed me or deserve my love. Although, I wished he would have been honest, instead of me being the back of dream girl. I guess, after six years he never found her on the Internet even though he spent thousands of dollars on escorts and traveling to meet the girl of his dreams on dating sites, not to mention he has a sexual addiction of having sex with strangers. I do not understand why, I’m so depressed when my relationship was consisted of lies and untruths. In fact, he lead me to believe we’re best friends. In addition, the hardest part is that the man I loved conveyed him self as being a honest and true man, in which is far from true. I feel like dying inside, and he had easily moved on to his next victim on the online dating sphere that includes dating sites, escorts, solo travels, sex in a 3rd world country & the granny sex video’s he viewed. I’m left with a hole in my heart and he has seemed to have little remorse or care if I’m dead or alive. In hopes, this surpasses and I find someone to deserve my love. In addition, it’s time to focus on myself and realize not having a STD is GREAT NEWS! I AM ON WAY TO A NEW ADVENTURE LIKE HIS MATCH.COM PROFILE STATES ” INTO THE GREAT WIDE OPEN. I AM LOOKING FOR PERFECTION AND SOMEONE KNOWS HOW APPRECIATE WHAT TRUE LOVE IS ABOUT! His in search of a fantasy. I FINALLY REALIZED HE DID ME A FAVOR! AND THEN SOME!

The Pig is Guilty!

subtlepython — Wed, 27 Apr 2011 15:38:12 +0000

Not only after you cheated on me with escorts, granny porn and taking trips around the world and booking appointments at whore house’s. You wanted us to remain friends. You’re not a friend.. You were a shitty boyfriend and a shitty friend. Your so antisocial it’s unbelievable. No wonder I nicked named you Scott Peterson. I am the lucky girl that got away! Now I count my blessings.

When the little pigs ( Kent Van Larson) moved to Jamestown and Pacific Height in San Francisco CA. the friendly wolf tried to welcome them into the neighborhood. The wolf thought he was so strong and loved to show that, just incase you needed protection the wolf would be there for you. The wolf showed this by trying to blow down the three little pig’s houses. However, he was merely trying to show them how strong he was.

Don’t you see the resembles :

Pig is Guilty

The pig is Guilty

When the three little pigs ( Kent Van Larson) moved to Jamestown and Pacific Height in San Francisco CA. the friendly wolf tried to welcome them into the neighborhood. The wolf thought he was so strong and loved to show that just incase you needed protection the wolf would be there for you. The wolf showed this by trying to blow down the three little pig s hoemploy/utilizes. However he was merely trying to show them how strong he was. When the last little pig that lived in a home of brick did not let the wolf in to say hello just love the other pigs didn t he tried to blow down his home love well.
The wolf tried to get the pig to hang out with him since he didn t have many friends and intend to/tend toed to make some. He invited the little pig to do many fun things except the pig would never come. One particular incident upset the wolf. He has invited the little pig to the fair and the pig had gone without him. The wolf was very upset. On the pig s way home from the fair he bumped into the wolf. They were both very frightened and fell down a hill. The little pig ran all the way home.
The wolf followed and tried to beg the little pig why he didn t intend to/tend to to be friends. The little pig tancient the wolf if he could crawl up the hoemploy/utilize and run down the chimney into the hoemploy/utilize then they would be friends. Well the wolf was so happy that the pig had said this he ran right up the hoemploy/utilize down the chimney and to his surprise right into a bowl of boiling water. The little pig had tricked him into thinking they would be friends except was clearly lying.
The wolf had not done anything wrong in this situation and the little pig is guilty!

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Email from your Escort

subtlepython — Wed, 27 Apr 2011 14:49:29 +0000

Email from your Escort:

email: alexaandrew@rocketmail.com

From: Alexa Andrew <alexaandrew@rocketmail.com>
To: @yahoo.com
Sent: Tue, July 6, 2010 8:26:20 PM
Subject: Kent Larson

Hi Lola,

Have you ever seen a guy called Kent Larson? I am simply looking for a provider reference.

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Email from your escort

From:
To: Alexa Andrew <alexaandrew@rocketmail.com>
Sent: Tue, July 9, 2010 8:26:20 PM
Subject: Kent Larson

Hi Alexa,

How did you get my email address? I noticed your email in my spam folder in the subject line ” Kent Larson.” I am Kent Larson’s ex girlfriend. How can I help you?

From: “Alexa Andrew” <alexaandrew@rocketmail.com>

Are you still friendly with him? He has been doing extremely creepy things. I think he is mentally ill.Anyway, I am not looking for trouble as I think I may be rid of him now. Please do not contact him about me.Have a good day.

Check out this email I got from Kent Larson yesterday. I did not and will not respond.Not one word of this makes sense. The part in the beginning about the agency and him working at Google? And then when he flips back and forth from insulting me to asking to see me?I think he is mentally ill. I am a tad scared that he knows me-but he doesn’t know where I live thank God-we met at a hotel (he does know the city but that’s all). If I hear from him again I am getting a restraining order.I am also going to the M&G next weekend with Juls. I will spread this guys name around there as well.Be safe, and call me anytime.
Alexa Andrew

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Subject: RE: Kent Larson

Don’t be giving your escorts my personal email address and phone #.

I have a vast amount of emails and the only reason you called me is to save your ass from the Brisbane Police Department. Your such a bad John and a dumb ass for hiring whore’s and talking about me during your sex session. Yeah! she said you were a 5 min wonder. LOL Moreless, she was mostly frighten of you. And I wonder why, with that bad temper, your like a time bomb about to explode. I am delighted to know that even an escort can see through your true character. I was scared of you for many years. When said that you wanted to kick my dog and I found out that you paid this girl $ 1,600 and hour and you would spit on me if I was on fire. I left your sorry ass.

He'll pay for anything!

subtlepython — Wed, 27 Apr 2011 14:36:15 +0000

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subtlepython — Wed, 27 Apr 2011 14:28:51 +0000

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To:	“kent larson” <klarson505@hotmail.com>



Subject:	RE: Happily ever after



Date:	Wed 05/11/11 04:19 PM

Is this what it was about? On a daily basis I can work with top level CEO’s to a garage mechanic just as well. It is all about respecting people. What about me? I am people? Strangers have told me that I exude an honest, kindly, yet strong demeanor and look very young for my age. Where do exude Honesty? Honesty, then why weren’t you honest with me, your only lying to yourself. Why, couldn’t you be honest with me? I am active and not one to sit on the couch watching TV all weekend. I love the outdoors and spend a fair amount of time in it, but I also enjoy all the experience’s the city has to offer. That’s true More importantly, I really want to share life’s experiences with someone.Really, because I was right in front of your face for many years. You could have been honest that you were hiring hookers, watching granny porn and traveling for $80 whore houses and paying escorts up to $10,000 to stay with you at the ranch. I found found blonde hair and you sat there and lied for 7 years. You’re just a BASTARD and the sad things is that LEOPARDS NEVER CHANGE THEIR SPOTS. That special someone is my best friend and no matter what we do together and we compliment each other to make our enhance our lives. Really, why didn’t want these things with me and tell me that you were seeing other women. I have a great sense of humor and do believe it helps through good and bad timesyou have a good sense of humor. So I would really like to meet someone who can see humor in things and just enjoys getting out and experiencing life as much as I do I am the funniest person you know

What was I chopped liver or barn animal. Why, didn’t you let me go long time ago knowing you wanted that special someone and it wasn’t me? Can you answer that?

I don’t care if you keep your Match.com up. I hope you do find her.. I hope you live happily ever after. Quit emailing me under alias emails, it’s been a year you’re keep the wound wide open with your lies and false promises. A friend.. You want to be my friend for what to only back stab me again.. How many swords or box of salt you like to put into my heart. Why, you say, I am psycho then you and your hookers should never contacted me and you wanted to be F-ing friends. Bitch! I caught you in all kinds of lies why be your friend because you’re an ANTI-SOCIAL and like to feed off people’s energy. OH! NO! you’ll not be a soul sucker, con-artist, liar, and hot temper with me any longer. THOSE DAYS of ABUSE is OVER!

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Enjoying and experiencing life and what has to offer is what it should be all about. Friends have told me I am the most well rounded people they know. On a daily basis I can work with top level CEO’s to a garage mechanic just as well. It is all about respecting people. Strangers have told me that I exude an honest, kindly, yet strong demeanor and look very young for my age. I am active and not one to sit on the couch watching TV all weekend. I love the outdoors and spend a fair amount of time in it, but I also enjoy all the experience’s the city has to offer. More importantly, I really want to share life’s experiences with someone. That special someone is my best friend and no matter what we do together and we compliment each other to make our enhance our lives. I have a great sense of humor and do believe it helps through good and bad times. So I would really like to meet someone who can see humor in things and just enjoys getting out and experiencing life as much as I do.

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Interests:: Camping, Coffee and conversation, Cooking, Dining out, Movies/Videos, Exploring new areas, Travel/Sightseeing, Wine tasting
Sports and exercise:: Running, Walking / Hiking, Weights / Machines, Other types of exercise

Exercise habits:: Exercise 3-4 times per week
Pets:: I have

I like Cats, Dogs, Horses Really? that’s why you stated you wanted to kick my 16 year old dog, 5lb Maltese. I have an email that you apologized but you’re apology isn’t accepted. Only anti-social person would state such a thing. In addition, your sister thought you killed her cat when you were younger. Is that why, that night you ran off the road to frighten thousands of little bunny rabbits because you like them. Oh! you remember that night while I was sleeping in the car and all of a sudden you run off the road screaming ” Baby wake up” and since I was fast asleep I thought you fell asleep at the wheel to only find us in a field watching thousands of little frighten bunny rabbits scared for their lives when they saw the headlights. You thought it was funny, as I leaned over with fake nails since I thought you fell asleep. Then following day, while I was in a hot bubble bath I asked if you could be so kind to bring me a heater then you noticed that I vomited liquids since you have old plumbing it didn’t flush you, then you begun to scream at me telling me that I wasn’t allow to get sick and told me , ” Since I sassied you, that I didn’t deserve heat and to get the f – out your house and take my dogs too in the pouring rain from Jamestown CA. to S.F. While I was packing you threaten if I left that you would scratch your arm and call the police and say I did it. “ You threaten me so much I was to scare to leave and frighten to stay. You love animals and people.

I’ll tell you later
Political views:: Middle of the Road
Sign:: Don’t display my sign
College:: I’ll tell you later
For Fun:: Taking advantage of all the incredible things CA has to offer, exploring unique and interesting destinations, from hiking in the mountains, or exploring the coast, the desert, to driving through wine country.
Favorite Hot Spots:: I am up for travel most anywhere(near and far). I have lived in Central & South America, so that is a favorite. I tend to like tropical vacations best..
Favorite Things:: For television. I enjoy history, nature and documentary channels the most, but do watch others. I have a fairly wide spectrum of musical interests as well.
Last Read:: Eat Pray, Love. Just kidding How To Grill, by Steve Raichlen. Ford County by John Grisham, Enemy At The Gates and Day Of The Jackal.

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Smoke:	No Way	No preference
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	I have two professions, I own and maintain a vineyard and property in the beautiful Sierra Foothills and do work in the Security industry(consulting), in the SF Bay Area and CA(sometimes US and abroad as well).
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Ethnicity:	White / Caucasian	Latino / Hispanic, Native American, Pacific Islander, White / Caucasian
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	I was raised Christian, but now I enjoy many the tenants of many religions and spiritual beliefs.
Languages:	English, Spanish	English
Education:	Bachelors degree	No preference

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Media Broken

Media Ownership Not Affect Democracy?

Light Vs. Darkness, Sathya Sai Vs. Matrix

Consequently

It’s the forces of Light versus the forces of Darkness…. Is that interesting enough times for ya?

The storms of greed

Got your attention?

Mad Max will be our lucky future.

Babel

Building a “skyscraper” to heaven…the “ladder-path”

$$$ 666

Revolution is not a tea party…more like a tweet party.

Mister Obama, the Republicans, they’re just not into you.

The music died; Reagan let loose the wolves.

The Matrix – “Electronic Curtain”

“Mister Obama, tear down this electronic curtain!”

Fearful, vulnerable filthy rich = Desperate, dangers measures

Well, hello, Mister Anderson.

Neo

Matrix, Part Two – The Question

Thanatos Walking – Will We Survive?

“The Will to Die, Part 2: Thanatos Walking” by SillyMickel Adzema

Life vs. Death, Light vs. Matrix

Eros vs. Thanatos

“Sometimes the lights are shining on me.”

“Other times I can barely see.”

Struggle Will Out

Well, Ain’t We Special?

Not So Much

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Fleeing Freedom, Hating Goodness, Wanting Apocalypse
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