Days of longing
Nights of need
Mornings of sorrow
Begat by years
And years
Of suffering

These things never change
They are the past
Dreary and damasque
Yet yielding to the light
And showing lessons one
Ought to have learned.

I shall ever regard you as the best
Even if it’s me you now detest.
A letter and tweets are all I have now
Pathetic? Probably, but my confidence is cowed.

You were my rock, my friend, my brother
You could bring laughter frothing forth like no other.
You were the Roger to my Mark
You kept away hunger and cold in the dark

I was a fool, selfish and brazen
I couldn’t see the toll i was taking
Chagrin and remorse fill my waking hours
The spice of life, for me, is left bitter and sour

So if this is farewell, as you say it must be
Then know that I’m sorry, but glad you can be free.

I have learned there is a blessing in every curse; a miracle in every sad story; an “Aha!” moment after total darkness. For thorns are accompanied by a rose; storms are followed by glistening rainbows; life springs forth after the dead of winter. Give thanks through ALL things, for nothing is mundane. Everything is beautiful. Life is eternal.

Namaste. Paz y amor,
T.O.

(Photo credit: Gavin Terpstra)

I’m in Love with the Triune Being.

 Darkness was under his feet and the hills danced with pleasure.

I circled round the sun and met four ministering angels.

They glared at me and I dodged their icy gaze.

I wondered why it was so and realised they were carrying the four pillars of the earth.

”What a difficult job,” I thought and they answered in unison.

”It’s not difficult daughter of Yahweh, you disturb the balance of life by coming here.”

”Huh, sorry,” and I scurried away through the universe.

I stopped over at the black hole and peered down.

Yet, His feet were there.

”Wow! You are everywhere!”

”Who’s there?” Yahweh bellowed but I noticed a chuckle in his voice.

”It is I, daughter of Yahweh.”

”What do you want?”

”I want to see your face.”

That was the last thing I remembered.

Whirlwind twirled me around and it tickles.

Then I saw Him, the face of Yahweh, my king and my Lord.

I felt unadulterated joy at the splendour of His majesty.

 His eyes were like mine, brown and merry.

When He laughed, the pillars of the earth shook.

He took me in His hands and I was lost in worship.

Such power. Such glory. Such honour!

I am in love with Him, He is my Triune Being.

The beginning and The end.

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This is my 74th post and today marks my sixth month journey as a blogger. I am immensely grateful for the friends I’ve met on the blogosphere, though I can’t blog often as I used to due to my many projects, still, I’m blessed by all the awesome posts I’ve read!

 I am honoured with countless awards and had  amassed massive followers, thank you all for your friendship!!!

This is my poetic thought for today, I’m grateful to God for all the joys in my life. I know life could be incredibly hard at times but we also have wonders of the universe too. The mountains, the smile of a newborn, first words of a toddler, the joys and pains of motherhood. Life is good, and my God is good too!

Thank you for reading my posts!

Much love, always:)

Seyi Sandra David.

(Photo credit: Andréa Krappweis)

Your only crime was to fall in love.

And that was all there was to it.

What a farce called honour!

When your heart beat wildly with fear,

And you sleep with one eye open,

Then you have a lot to fear!

When the icy glares of your parents and relatives

Sends a chill to your bone and a sword to your heart

Then you’re in big trouble!

When you run wildly through the moors

With the angry face of your father behind you

The snarling breath of your brother on your face,

Be very afraid indeed.

When all you can see, is the bag on your head.

As the man who brought you to the world scream,

‘Rot in hell,’ The heavens shudder!

When you hovered over their heads,

As your lifeless body was hidden from view.

What utter betrayal!

Your only crime was falling in love…

Just another incomprehensible statistics on the

culture of evil perpetuated by hatred.

And a farce called honour!

A class system where the love of a mother ran

cold against the daughter of her breast.

Thanks for reading my poetic thoughts on parents from hell…

“My Rape”. By rising young poet; Kunle Amuwo jnr.

They unwrapped me quickly

My white birthday dress

Bloody and muddy

They forced into me with a hard press

Oh, I’m not a hoe

No, I wasn’t half naked

Oh, I’m not a drunk

No, I wasn’t walking wasted

I was only a girl

Trusting this cold world

They cast me out in the dark

Left alone to bear scars

So they mock my Mama, she didn’t raise me well

They ignore my father, he should go to hell

The joke is on brother, he can’t come home to tell

Fingers pointing at me, they know me well

Lived with the shame

Ten plus years

Bitterness and anger

Always in tears

Tortured and tormented

Sleepless nights full of nightmares

Seeing his face wherever I go

Fear cripples my soul

My silent secret explodes within

Searching for love

In all the wrong places

Seeking an outlet to express my pain

Who’s gonna love me

Who’s gonna accept me

Who’s gonna embrace me

Who will look at me and see an angel…

They unwrapped me quickly

My white birthday dress

Bloody and muddy

They forced into me with a hard press

I wish I never met him

This poem is a tribute:

To the 23yr old medical student in New Delhi who died recently from the injuries she sustained from a gruesome gang rape.

To every woman in Nigeria, Africa and the whole world in general currently living with the scars of sexual abuse.

To both the healed and walking wounded, know this; You are not alone!

”They talk about a woman’s sphere as

though it had a limit;

There’s not a place in earth or heaven,

There’s not a task to mankind given,

There’s not a blessing or woe,

There’s not a whispered ”yes” or ”no,”

There’s not a life, or death, or birth,

That has a feather’s weight of worth

without a woman in it.”

                                     Kate Field, Poet. (1838-1896)

I love this poem and I thought, why not share it and affirm to those words that I’m proud to be a woman (and a man too if you’re reading this), I’m proud of the fact that I can effect a change in a world filled with corruption and darkness, a world where demons walk in broad daylight and evil is extol with relish. I’m proud that when I effect a change in my world (family) I’m translating and infusing life and love into people of all ages. I’m proud to be a woman who chose to love people irrespective of who they are!

Are you proud of who you are?

Thanks for reading my post:)

Prominence Earth (Photo credit: Lights In The Dark)

 I watched with mouth agape at the volcanic eruption as earth spurted in anger.

‘What’s this? Why so much anger, so much stress?’

‘Because I’ve been so unfairly treated,’ said Mr. Earth,

‘By who?,’ I asked in fear.

‘By the sons of men,’ Mr. Earth replied with an ancient growl

that ruled the waves of the sea.

‘I’m tired of the bloodshed, the hunger and the tears of the innocent,

men raping women, children killing adults and babies,

evil abounds and I’m losing my patience

my core will spill out and it’s not going to be pretty.’

I was quiet, staring in disbelief as the rain of fire intensified

I’ll better run, I mused and found out my feet was glued

to the ground as lava moved stealthily towards me.

‘Only a change of heart can save your planet,’

Mr. Earth’s eerie voice receded into

darkness and I woke up!

It was all a dream…

Your words flow over my body like sweet honey melting in the sun,

filling the curses of my skin.

Dripping from the strains of my hair,

as you light my desires with every spoken word you whisper.

Copy writes ~ Sharon D. Kroth

Sunday, 12-30-2012

All Right Reserved

The want and need to write,

comes from the moment I knew my words could empower souls.

Move worlds.

Watch the sun set,

through the views from my eyes.

It gives me the freedom to soar like an eagle,

flying over flowered fields,

looking upon vast plains,

with every word I write.

It fulfills the need to express my thoughts encased within my soul.

Copy writes ~ Sharon D. Kroth

Sunday, 12-30-2012

All Rights Reserved

Today, I turn 33.

On a good note, I SO LOVE my early thirties.

I have been thinking a lot about what I have learned over the passed 32 years. How God blesses me each new day. 12,045 days of living on earth (whoa!) as I open my eyes welcoming my natal day, alive and well, I can say all my days are all new every morning. How great is God’s faithfulness.

Since I turn 33 today, I love to share 33 things about myself, my life in the world of blogging.

33 Things about my life on my 33rd.

1. I’m a Christian, a follower of our Lord Jesus Christ. I strive daily to keep my life centered on Him. I am in love with our Creator and cannot imagine myself doing anything without Him in my life. I’m able to write this post because of the skills He had given me. I am alive and have found the true meaning of life because of our Lord Jesus Christ. I thank Him not just for the blessings at the same time for all the challenges I faced, I’m facing and will face, for He’s continuously changing and shaping my life. He hones me to be a better testimony of His goodness and faithfulness although I don’t deserve it. The salvation that He has given me I know is the greatest gift I have ever received or will ever receive in my entire life. All the many wonderful people, things, moments, experience both ups & downs and countless blessings. I owe everything to Him and I pray that whatever this life brings me; He will find me faithful, strongly standing on my faith.

In my life, being a Christian is the main thing that best defines me.

 I really pray I can live and practice my faith for His greater glory.

I am nothing, without GOD.

Sharing this wonderful poem.

2. I love my family so much they are my priceless treasures. 2012 is quite a challenging year for me. This year I become an orphan. 1989, my Papa, in his 40′s passed away and this year my Mama in her 60’s, they finally went back home to be with the LORD. I terribly miss the feeling of having both of my parents alive. The more I realized their value in my life and my responsibilities of being the Ate. I miss Mama’s preparation for my birthday and everything about her, I miss her terribly.

3. I’m the eldest child, I have 3 younger sisters. So in our family, it’s Girl Power! My childhood memories with my siblings and cousins – one of the sweetest.

4. I admire most two women in my life. My Mama and my Aunt Agnes, they are God’s wonderful blessings. I thank God for using them to hone me to be the kind of person that I am now. A big part of who I am, it’s because of them. I have my flaws and imperfections but these two are the most kind, humble, understanding and generous women I ever met. In all my ups and downs, struggles, dreams that I fulfilled, they incessantly help and support me all the way. I will be forever grateful and I know I can never out give what they shared to me and with tearful eyes I want to express how much I love both of you.

5. I love reading and writing so much. I really miss doing it frequently. Most especially keeping diaries started penning when I was 10. I still try to write some journals but usually only when I travel. My favorite books of course the best book ever written – the Holy Bible and Amazing Results of Positive Thinking by Dr. Norman Vincent Peale.

6. I really miss all my long distant friends and family members. They are the ones that I don’t talk to often enough, but when I do it feels like we spoke yesterday. I have only a few true friends in life so I embrace special friendships.

7. I love laughing. I thank God for blessing me a natural sense of humor, I’m not bragging that attitude but if you’re that close to me, you’ll see that I have my funny side. I blurt out jokes without any intentions of joking. I can laugh really loud. Humor-tried and tested, it’s truly an effective method to lighten up; I also use it when I’m teaching.

8. I badly want to be a better writer, it’s my frustration. If I have a chance to choose another profession, I’ll choose to be a writer/journalist or maybe a lawyer.

9. I realized that teaching is my passion. I never thought that this will be my bread and butter. I so loved it that when I teach most of my students and colleagues will tell me that I don’t need a microphone my voice is so loud that they can hear me from the other rooms, and when I explain things, it’s so vivid and full of spontaneity. They usually ask me what’s the secret for all the energy. No more, no less my Creator, never ending gratitude to my Creator for the gifts He graciously gives. I thank God for allowing me to discover and do the things that I love and working for one’s own passion is one of the most incredible opportunities one could ever had.

10. I wake up students who are sleeping in my class although it happens very seldom, if I caught one, I ask them to go back to their dormitory if they want to sleep, but of course there will be consequences if one tries to, anyway no one dares to do it or else…

11. I love traveling, who doesn’t? I’ve been to several countries, and it’s filled with unforgettable and fascinating experiences for me. I usually plan all my travel trips and I avoid going thru a traveling agency. I manage to try adventures by learning as much as I can about the place that I’m going before I get there so I can prepare myself. Thinking ahead is an essential key to navigating any country or any city without burning out. I love strolling when I travel. Until my feet get sore, I don’t give up. I realized traveling on my own is more exciting.Thank God for allowing me to roam  His wonderful creations.

12. I don’t like rushing. I walk using my baby steps; I take time to do things, slowly but surely. Through this, I try to enjoy and appreciate my surroundings.

13. I have learned how to budget my finances through the years of being God’s channel of blessing in my family; it’s a skill that needs a lot of practice and experience. Nowadays our present world is full of beautiful things to tempt and lure us to spend much and it will never run out for sure, so having financial freedom is so essential for me.

14. I don’t drink milk; I puke if I tasted it, sounds weird. For example, I don’t put milk on top of “halo-halo” but I do eat fruit-salads, ice-creams (except for vanilla flavor) and leche flan, some people find it strange.

15. I drink too much caffeine; admittedly I’m a coffee-addict. My fave- Frappucinno Java Chip with no cream and black coffee medium blend. Like what I mentioned I don’t like the milky taste so even creamer is a no-no for me.

16. I had 3 boyfriends in my entire life haha, now this is what you call a confession. No flirting, MU and whatsoever, my first one at the age of 15, (puppy love) I used to be one of those teenagers who belong to the hopeless romantic club, please don’t judge me, its part of teenage life. Most of the relationships lasted for years and then gone, remember if it’s meant to be it’s meant-to-be. Moving on with my life I’m happy and blessed the last one is now my better-half and we’re on our way, going to our 6th year.

17. My bed, hotel beds, on the floor, in the car, on the train, on the plane doesn’t matter where as soon as my head is rested I would knock out and fall straight asleep even ‘a brigade of guards could march but sometimes it would not wake me up’ (lol). I love lying on my cozy bed just sleeping and relaxing, feeling so mellow & comfortable it’s so nice to just stretch, feel the warmth of my bed just embracing the peace of mind sleep graciously gives. I can have 12 hours straight sleep when there are no morning classes or appointments and during weekends, for sure a lovely day awaits me!

18. I don’t like wearing sneakers or the so called rubber shoes I think it makes me look shorter.

19. My favorite color is sky-blue, powder blue and all shades of blue. So if you want to make me happy even a simple thing with shades of blue can put a smile on my face.

20. I really used to admire Winnie d’ Pooh because of its sweet, naive look considering it’s a bear, not sure though of its gender. I have a pink Winnie d’ Pooh designed casual dress that I’d loved to wear way back college days and almost 12 years had passed when I went back home to Pinas for vacation surprisingly, I saw one of my younger sisters still wearing it (good quality).

21. I really don’t like hand washing clothes and also washing dishes. I would rather clean the house for a day, involve my self in general cleaning projects at home but washing uhhmm, my grips are not too strong. When I was young my late Dad asked me to repeat the dishes that I already washed not just once but sometimes I have to repeat it thrice, I can almost see my own image on the plates (lol). He kept on reminding me that as a girl I should learn how to do household chores properly and washing dishes should be one of my trainings. So, I won’t miss this chance of extending my gratitude to the inventors of washing machines with automatic dryer and also dish-washing machines two thumbs up to both of you, inventors really make our life easier.

22. I used to join Math and Spelling quiz bees, declamation contest when I was young but when I reached college days I was so confused with all the long complicated symbols, numbers, combined with the letters of the alphabet and so on just like Differential Equations, my brain nerves bleed with all those mind-blowing never-ending mathematical equations which are common in engineering courses. Papa was my disciplinarian tutor in my studies most especially in Math, it’s his forte. When he passed away I realized the value of having someone to teach and guide me in my studies, ever since then I have to do most of the homework, projects, lessons on my own. People, cherish your parents remember they are also growing old (once a famous quote shared on Facebook).

23. I always carry my precious camera. I take it everywhere with me wherever I go and take pictures. Memories captured on it are priceless.

24. I’m an acrophobic, I’ve developed fear of heights like hiking on mountains, riding roller coasters, cable cars, and visiting highest skyscrapers but still I tried them, most of the time I agreed ‘cause of peer pressure haha. I thank God for sustaining me to overcome it.

25. Any kind of “ginataan” is my favorite food and also pasta dishes. I think I could eat it for lunch and dinner every day!

26. When a cuisine is so good, I keep on talking  how delicious it is for so many days, what a long hang-over, the people around me maybe will be annoyed haha, ’cause I’m so kulit, and pauli-ulit.

27. I always have 20/20 vision, though I’m such a book-worm and a computer addict. Since birth I have never tried wearing eye-glasses and also contact lens for the sole purpose of reading or seeing clearly, maybe in the future but hopefully not too soon.

28. I’ve been a procrastinator in some areas of my life, I want some changes, but I just keep putting it off. I’m not proud of it and sincerely I hope to overcome it.

29. My favorite alone time is spent at a store; it could be in supermarkets, malls, bookstore sometimes even a convenience store. I’m just like a hunter, meticulously hunting for treasures.

30. I’ll splurge on bags, shoes and techie gadgets – they are my weaknesses, sometimes feeling guilty on buying them until a few years later when I know I’ve gotten my money’s worth. One more thing I avoid wearing painful shoes. They’re just not worth it. I now prefer flat ones and kitten heels, 2 inches high won’t hurt.

31. I’m quite moody; sometimes I just don’t feel like talking. I believe we have our mood swings. If I suddenly change the tone of my voice in a lower tone it means I’m not in the mood, the worst if ever I’m silent it means I’m pissed off about something.

32. I’d been bankrupt. I experienced how to own and ran a business a few years ago together with my two good friends; an outsourcing company, we tried so hard to establish it and it’s never easy. I was a novice then, should I say the three of us. After a few years things didn’t turn up well; we have to shut it down. I realized and learned a lot from that humbling experience and I can say looking back that’s one of the lowest points of my life. That part of my life, had taught me so many lessons. It’s been years  by God’ graciousness in my life He helps me all the way to recover just like in Job’s story in the Holy Bible, He blesses me in so many uncountable ways that’s incredibly far more than I imagine it to be. I’m able to be victorious in all those trials because I have a Victorious God who stand by me. Though there times I’m haunted by my greatest regret – it’s not about the lost investments, it’s the reality that I lost friends, friendships I once treasured most.  and though I haven’t seen them and I still wonder where they are now. With all sincerity I do wish and pray that wherever they are their lives are better, peaceful and happy.

33. I don’t fear death.  An added year on my age is a celebration it means I’m getting closer to the dawn of life. I’m looking forward to going home to my Creator. Nothing compares spending eternity with Jesus. No one knows but no matter how painful it is I believe there’s beauty in death, we will all pass away. I’m being reminded of recent memories when Mama’s physical body was being buried deeply underground, I told myself we will all pass away, that it is just the physical body. I know our final destination is not of this world, I thank the Lord for giving me an eternal life because this world is just temporary it will not lasts. Having just one life isn’t so bad if you live it to its fullest, fulfilling the purpose of God in one’s life. We’re blessed enough to be born on this planet, at this point of time. I enjoy it while I can. So while I’m still alive, I learn how to celebrate life. Getting older is something to celebrate.

 So on my natal day, on being 33,

I’m happily embracing my age.

Life is a gift, a gift from the Almighty Powerful God.

To all my friends and loved ones thanks for being a part of my life, for celebrating with me,  each one of you is God’s precious gift in my life.

Let’s celebrate life, Cheers!

Sunshine (Photo credit: Emdadi)

”I will not wish thee riches, nor the glow of greatness,

But that wherever you go, some weary heart shall

Gladden at thy smile, or shadowed life know

Sunshine for a while.

And so thy path shall be a track of light,

Like angel’s footsteps passing through the night!

(inscriptions words on a church wall in Upwaltham, England, Petworth, West Sussex)

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These words gladden my heart and I hope you’ll find wisdom in it friends!

Much Love.

Always:)

(Photo credit: Woq)

The shadows inched closer and I watched the wind walking with the legs of a deer.

What kind of hope lie in wait for the coming year?

I have no idea, said the old man, new year

are best for great ideas.

 Tears of the rainbow has nothing to do with the wishes of an orphan.

I lost a dear friend old man, I said, walking beside the sea of dreams

We all lose people at one time or the other, said the old man

The most important thing is not to lose yourself.

The year has been okay, I mused, wrapping my robes tighter

 Others don’t have it so good.

People have died, dreams extinguished!

Then do something about it, he said and left me

I watched him go and I saw falling stars hitting my little

house beside the lake.

Strange, I sighed

Life is strange indeed, said the wind, dancing with the lake.

I saw the falling stars by my window

I tried to stop them but I couldn’t

How can I help?

Dear friends, it’s been a great year, some dreams go unfulfilled, others need more work but one thing I realise is, it’s never too late. New Years are for fresh ideas, hold your loved ones tighter, tighten up your belt and fill your mind with positive thoughts. Work hard and you’ll see great results. Things don’t always go the way we want sometimes, but that is why the sun ALWAYS rise again.

Don’t give up on yourself!

Happy New Year (in advance) great friends and I love you all!!!

Straw (Photo credit: GlacierTim)

The wind kept blowing, taking me to places I never wanted to be

I felt myself been lifted high above the clouds and I sigh!

I saw a girl with brown hair, laughing

I fell back into the grass

There was no sound

Her laughter echoes and the force of it threw me off course and I drifted off

She giggles and I envied her beauty and innocence.

No wonder, I am envious, I am only a straw

Nobody cares for a straw

Lifeless straw!

Humans stepped on me but I can feel and sniffs tales from afar

Christmas is near, the end of the age is not far, some says

I have no qualms, after all

I am only a straw in the wind

with no cares in the world

Why do humans worry for what they cannot change!

Why stress over destiny?

Why fret over imaginations?

Why do they live in the past?

Afraid to move on!

I have no idea

Besides, I am only a straw

with no cares in the world

Wheeee, the wind is back

And as it took me off

I saw the girl with the brown hair again

And I wonder

What fate awaits her!

This is one of my poetic thoughts, I hope you’ll enjoy reading my life as a straw!

Happy Holidays Everyone! It’s Xmas soon isn’t it?

I tread in dark places where I only see those sharp pin pricks of light and what happens tomorrow is a big black lump. Worry curls from my teeth and disappears, an anxious offering to the moon.

The moon accepts, and comforts. I am warmed.

It is about a feeling of confidence, warmth, independence,

it goes far beyond.
It is about knowing and being certain of what you know.

It is about this feeling of being safe, no matter where it is you go.

It is about a trust, a confidence so deep, it can’t me touched by any man.

It is about knowing that no matter what, your hand rests in the palm of

His hand.

Writing has always been and will always be a good therapy for me.

For this time I choose to vent my feelings rather than staying in silence.

Expressing my thoughts on things that are getting out of control need to find their way out of my mind.

I’m telling you right straight to your face, YOU DON’T KNOW ME!

I’ve only met you once and that doesn’t give you any right to judge me and say awful things about me. Don’t put the blame on me; don’t drop my name most especially in a public profile where the rest of the world can see it. And as of the moment I’m really, really pissed off because of what you did.

Who are you to judge me wrongly? Do you know my life? Do you know what I’ve been thru?

Are we even close enough for you to drag my name in a pit where you are in?

You don’t know what I’ve felt or what I feel right now. So, find something better to do with your time than making your wrong judgments. You know nothing about me. You have not been down my road.
Remember you have not cried my tears; you have not carried my cross.
Do you think you know my story?
Do you think you know me? You don’t even know me.
I will not step down to your level; I’m not that kind of person. Yes, I’m venting out my thoughts now, but I chose not to drag your name in public because I still have decency, I can do that if I want to but I prefer not to.

I don’t know if that word is even in your vocabulary, decency doesn’t reflect in your attitude. Putting my name on the spotlight filled with your wrong judgments defies your purpose of putting my life into shame. The embarrassment falls back on you, just like a boomerang.

I seldom get angry, unless you’ve really stretched my patience to its limit. I tried to be fair and understand the situation the best that I can – but you have stretched my limits. You have step into the barrier where your words are too degrading, damaging to my reputation. Don’t pass the blame on people even to me for what’s happening in your life, the consequences of your choices you must take the responsibility. I can look straight to your eyes without any guilty feelings. I’m not a hypocrite just like what you’re trying to tell and broadcast to everyone, if ever I help people I’m not expecting anything in return, I don’t ask them to be in debt of me because I myself had been in challenging situations wherein generous hands helped me in different trials I had been through. So why should I act as one that’s too proud because I was able to lend a hand to some? Each time I have chances to help someone I take it as a blessing because the Almighty chooses me to be a channel of blessing for them. It’s not because of my own goodness but because of God’s goodness in my life.

So, DON’T rush to your wrong judgments on an issue when YOU DON”T KNOW ME AT ALL.

Think a thousand times before you speak, sometimes saying things without thinking very often a thoughtless remark may hurt others’ feelings or cause a misunderstanding or an embarrassment. We must, therefore, always think before we speak.

If there’s one thing I always avoid myself to get into that is to get MAD. Well, to be honest I believe I reached my boiling point, it has reached to a certain extent wherein it’s about to explode, and I want it to explode straight to your face.

Most of the time I’ve tried to take control of my feelings, most especially anger because when I’m mad, there are times I feel I have absolutely no control over a situation, feelings of powerlessness. If I try to express what’s in me and you never even bothered to listen, I would just keep silent and I might never try to open up again. Silence will engulf the totality of me. But this time it’s different. This situation is a test for me. I still feel the anger because of what you did, though I know I should always have an open, humble and forgiving heart but sometimes it’s really difficult especially if that “trying to be fair attitude” will just be hypocrisy.

It reminds me of the old French saying “tout comprendre est tout pardonner” –
“to understand everything is to forgive everything.” It is so easy to make wrong judgments about a person on a superficial level without understanding what is behind a person acting as she does. Sometimes what you don’t know about a person is more significant than what you do, on a slight acquaintance.

I’ve been ridiculed…
I’ve been persecuted…
I’ve been abused…
I’ve been lost…
I’ve been vulnerable…
And I’ve been at my worst.

Through all my pains…
Through all my nightmares…
Through all my failures…
Through all my anxieties…
Through all my loneliness…
Through all my weaknesses…

His Word comforted me.

It has been a steep, rocky road and I’ve been wounded along the way. But I’m telling you my heart just won’t give up! I had chosen this road, because God has chosen me first.

I have to finish the fight. I won’t give up. People like you can’t put me down.

God knows the truth. I gain my strength from Him.

Remember, you have not walked in my shoes, you were not there at all. Take time to judge yourself before judging anyone else.

In Matthew 7:4-5, Jesus says, ” Or how wilt thou say to thy brother, Let me pull out the mote out of thine eye; and, behold, a beam is in thine own eye? Thou hypocrite, first cast out the beam out of thine own eye; and then shalt thou see clearly to cast out the mote out of thy brother’s eye.”

A good judge will not fail to judge himself. DON’T rush into your wrong judgments, for judgments should be rendered compassionately and in conformity with the facts.

You have not walked in my shoes, you were not there at all.

- George Bernard Shaw.

The quote above is quote in which many people live their live by, one I find ridiculously stupid. The quote should be changed to “If you live everyday as though it’s your last one day you’ll be right.” 

Living your life as if there is no tomorrow is just another way to speed up your death, as the new saying goes “Live fast, Die young” right?

I believe in taking chances and fulfilling your life, because yes, we can die at any moment; But think about it like this: “If the choices I make today predict on whether today will be the last day of my life would I want to do what I am about to do today?” Say that to yourselves and answer do you come up with? Yes? No? Is what you’re about to do worth dying over today?

Side Note: Unfortunately, some people answer the question above with a yes, and for those individuals I often wonder what is their life worth. Life is a blessing without a question. God put us here for reason, our life serves a purpose and it’s a shame people would throw it all away..

I cry…
I grieve…
I feel defeated,
Yet, I breathe.

I have faith,
I have values,
I have beliefs,
I have needs.

I seem invisible,
Yet I am not.

I am forgiving,
I am devoted.

I am who I am.
I am His child

I am a mother,
I am comitted.

Even though I am,
Who I am, many don’t see.

Many can’t comprehend
My depth, my persona, my ways.

I strive to be no one else
But who I am.

I wish to be a better me, there is not another I’d like to be.

I am simply me. I just want a piece of ‘life’.
I just want a slice of the pie of happiness.

I just want to relish in His goodness & block out the drama of this world.

For this world…it is not my home. I am merely a passerby. My destination is much bigger. This is only a stop towards true happiness and bliss.

I wonder
I ponder
I hypothesize
I pray.