I think the fact that I married so young, and am now facing the dating scene in a totally different place in life has made me more than apprehensive. I missed out on being a single adult and having the opportunity to let myself grow and decide what I wanted to be. Now that I have that opportunity, I’ve embraced it fully!

I’ve discovered I really enjoy being solely responsible for my life altering decisions, along with the discipline and care of my children. Selfish? Maybe a little. But the fact that I’m not forced to watch sporting events that bore me into a mind numbing headache makes up for it. Spaghetti with meatballs, hot dogs, chicken and rice, and a plethora of other kid friendly food has taken the place of roast beef that no one but my ex-husband would eat. If I decide to let my son have 3 friends over to spend the night, I don’t have to tell them “shhhh, his dad’s asleep guys!”, they get to fully enjoy their time together. If I decide to splurge on myself and buy a 100 scented candles if I wanted….I can totally do it.

I was in a relationship a couple months ago, and the guy was a nice enough guy. But when he was ready to move ahead faster than I was, I came to the conclusion that I may never be a good mate to another man. Why? Because I’ve let myself get disappointed too many times in the past and I really don’t think I’m able to fully allow myself to get to that point again. And the few dates that I’ve been on, I realized how truly naive I am to dating! Imagine my surprise when I discovered men REALLY will lie to you to try to get you in bed. My first thought was “I’M A MOM!”. Guess it doesn’t matter!

I do occasionally miss having someone to snuggle with at night, and to fix things around the house. Because even though I’m honestly working on becoming more independent, when I try to put D size batteries in a smoke detector…..I haven’t made much progress. I did however put together a majority of the Christmas gifts this year, although my poor little one know has a tool-bench with a shelf in backwards and a hook upside down. But with all that said, I’m going to be totally honest. I can’t stand dating for 3 reasons. 1) I would love to find someone I’m totally comfortable “pooting” in front of on the first date. and I can’t see that happening! 2) I fully expected to be over the “not wanting to eat in front of a boy” thing since I’m officially an old single mom, but I’m not. So stupid! and 3) I hate the thought of bringing another man into my kid’s life who is not only going to disappoint me, but hurt my kids if things don’t work out. So what’s the middle ground? I have no idea. If you happen to know….pass it on.

I’ve been sick as a dog for the past few days, so I’ve neglected my blog.  Sorry to my faithful readers.  But, I’m feeling better.

Last night, my, hubby and daughter were sitting on the couch with the dog watching tv.  The dog, Dash, is a 12 lb Italian Greyhound.  He was lying on Olivia’s lap, snug and content.  Then, Olivia pooted.  His ears stood straight up, then he growled, got up and walked away.  It was the funniest thing.  Dash moved over to my lap.  The whole family laughed and laughed.

Har precis sett 28 veckor senare. Den var helt okay. Bäst var helt klart undersköna Imogen Poots. Vilket namn sen. Efter vissa efterforskiningar har jag även lärt att hon spelade i samma film, V for Vendetta, mot världens all-around bästa kvinna: Natalie Portman. För att fira detta sammanträffande lägger vi in natalieportman.com i länkarkivet. Där hittar ni mej resten av natten tills jag somnar in drucken på hennes skönhet. Godnatt.