DON’T

Don’t care so much for me,

I may get used to it.

Don’t come so near to me,

I may not be able to detach from it.

Don’t put so much faith in me,

I may not be able to handle it.

Don’t touch me the way u do,

I may not be able to get over it.

Don’t become a part of my life,

Coz without u, I won’t be able to live it.

Don’t make me fall for u,

I may not be able to fall out of it.

Don’t come into my life,

If u have to leave one day.

Don’t give me the hope,

That it’s forever u r gonna stay.

Coz love is an emotion

I won’t be able to hide,

When love isn’t reciprocated with love,

It hurts deep down inside.

Don’t start something

That I won’t be able to end.

Don’t make me believe

That u can be more than a friend.

Coz at the end of it all,

I don’t wanna hear u say,

That,” I’m sorry,”

“ but I never felt the same way!”

Bakit kailangan ang ‘di kailangan, bakit kailangang pansinin? Wala naman do’n, maaari bang lumingon na lang sa isang tabi at mag-isang mangulangot?

Kumakalkal ng sangdamukal na hangin, at multo, at usok sa pagkatao kong unti-unting natutuyot. Hindi nakikita ang kahit anumang kabutihan, sakripisyo’t atensyon na nagsisimula sa pagbuhos ng kumukulong tubig ‘pag tilaok ng manok. Umaarte, nagpapanggap, nagkakalkula at nagbabalatkayo sa araw-araw na pagpasok at paglabas. Bakit kailangan ang ‘di kailangan, ba’t di na lang diretso at wag baliktaran?

Iniipit, pinipiga, kinukulong at sinasakal sa iyong mga kamay na sabi mo’y nagmamahal. Sino ba ako at sino ka ba at ano ang dapat nating maging mukha? Dapat ba akong maging ikaw at dapat ka bang maging ako upang tayo’y makapag-usap sa hapagkainan ng mahinahon? Minamatamis mo ang kahabaan ng nakalipas ngunit imposible na doong bumalik. Noo’y wala pang sakitan, wala pang alipustahan, punung-puno pa ng respeto ang bawat halik at yakap.

Hinihigop natin ang bawat isa hangga’t wala nang matira at tayo’y mga punggok na; at sa huli tila ba, tanging punggok na lamang ang iyong hahabul-habulin. Bakit ‘di makuntento, ba’t kailangan maging sinakulo ang bawat talak o haplos? Manhid na nga ba tayo dahil nasobrahan na sa kakakalikot ng ating bawat kibot at sirko? Sumasabog itong ulo, napu-pwersa sa pagkabobo upang lamang intindihin ang bawat lukso sa lohika.

O kaysarap sana ng gabi, kaytamis sana ng mga panaginip kung ‘wag lang sanang mamasamain ang pintig ng dibdib. Nakakapagod, nakakabuwang, nakakatigang ng pasensya at ihi. Nakakatae, gusto kong magkape, magpakalunod sa mga pantasya ng ibang kalawakan.

At sa bawat pagsasalaysay, apoy ang katumbas. Sa bawat pagtatapat, patuloy na nawawasak ang lahat. Walang katapusan pagkahaba-habang buntot ng paratangan ngunit sa huli naman, tayo’y mga unggoy pa rin.

Wala akong kakayahan na sabihin ng diretso, ang kaya ko lamang ay humiyaw sa aking espasyo. Mahal kita, mahal kita, ngunit bakit ganito?

Mapaghiganti, parang bata, mayabang, mahirap, at pangit hanggang buto — ‘yan ang sabi mo sa akin, tinatanggap ko. Ngunit dito sa puso ko, alam kong magmulat sapul, ang tangi ko lamang minithi ay ang magpinta ng ngiti sa iyong mukha. Sayang, nasayang dahil sa mga kasalanang ginuguhit lang natin sa ere. Kung tayo’y mas makatao lamang sa ilalim ng ating balat, baka naintindihan natin ng mas mabuti ang rason para sa lahat.

Sayang, nasayang dahil mahahalimuyak pa naman tayong mga tao sa harap ng salamin. Subalit dumampot tayo ng putik at binato sa ating mga mukha hanggang tayo mismo’y di na makatagal sa pagtitig.

Lumulukso, lumulubog, lumalaktaw
Masundan lang
Hinuhulaan, inaabangan, kinakabahan
Kumalma lang
Tinatanya, pinipiga ang simpatya
Lumingon lamang
Hinaharap, hinahabol, hinang-hina
Umaga lamang,
Niyakap pa, ilang oras, bastusan na
Ulong kinalawang
Nawiwindang, nagba-blangko, nagniningas
Hindi mabilang
Mga nasasayang, kabi-kabilaang mga kapraningan
Lubus-lubusang
Sinasagad, binababad, binibilad
Sa init ng pulang
Bumabakat, walang puknat, kumakalat
Nangangati nang
Gumapang, mabuwang, tumiwalag
Isipang tigang
Sumusuka, sumusuko, sumisiwalat
Mga damdaming
Nauudyok, nabubulok sa sinasapit
Ayoko nang
Lumulundag, nagbabasag, humihiyaw
‘Di mapigilang
Magnilay-nilay, magbantay-bantay, baka mauhaw
Naniniwalang
May oras pa, kailangan pang ulit-ulitn.
Lumulukso, lumulubog, lumalaktaw

What is Love

 
Love is Sharing. This is one of the 

most important ingredients of love. 

It is important to open ones heart 

and share pain, joy, success and failure, 

it really does not matter, 

as long as the heart is clear. 

Love is being honest and 

knowing that the other person 

feels the same way too, 

it is sharing and losing ones inhibitions 

and knowing that the person on the other 

side will never be judgmental. 

Love is Talking. 

It is about speaking, 

telling and sharing. 

After some time people restrict 

their conversations to discussing 

bills, children and pets. 

This is a sure indicator 

of things going down hill. 

Bring the spark back 

by starting a conversation. 

Love is Spending Time Together.

A few minutes spent together everyday 

keeps the boredom away. 

I just made this up right now, 

but it is because I feel there is nothing 

like time invested in a relationship,

believe me, it pays!

Heavy work schedules take up 

much time and effort, 

so it is important to get things 

into perspective.

Love is Faithfulness.

To love means to be true, 

to love unconditionally.. means to give 

with all your heart to one, 

and only one.

Love is when you realize that he/she 

is the best thing that has happened to you 

and you want to cherish that person 

and the moments spent with him/her 

till death do you part. 

Love is Being Friends.

Love is being friends with each other. 

Enjoying simple pleasures in life 

like shopping, catching a movie or 

watching television at home, 

apart from a host of other things that 

"Friends" normally do! 

Love is Looking Together in the Same Direction. 

This may sound clichéd, 

but it is true…love is having the same goals and 

taking steps in that direction 

to make them come true. 

Ang pagsabak sa isang buhay na may ka-relasyon ay hindi madali. Akala siguro ng nakararami na ang pagkakaroon ng boyfriend o girlfriend ng isang tao ay kinakailangan para mabuhay. Hindi naman sa sinasabi ko na hindi ito kailangan. Pero para sa akin, may mas malalim na dahilan kung bakit mo nanaising pumasok sa ganitong sitwasyon.

Sa pamilya madarama ng isang tao ang pagmamahal. Bago pa man makakilala ang isang tao ng kaibigan o kaklase, makikilala niya ang kaniyang pamilya. Ang pamilya ay inaasahang magbubuhos ng pagmamahal para sa mga miyembro nito. Ngunit hindi lahat ay perpekto. May mga pamilyang sadyang may pagkukulang at hindi mapupunan ang pangangailangang ito. Dito sa ganitong pagkakataon mapapaisip ang isang miyembro [bukod sa ama at ina], kailangan ko na bang magkarelasyon?

Siyempre, mas nangyayari ito kapag nasa tamang gulang at pag-iisip na ang tao. Mayroon ding pagkakataon na mas maaga sa inaasahan. Ito ay may kinalaman rin sa pagiging mature ng kaisipan ng tao. Lahat ng ito ay nakadepende sa pamilyang kinabibilangan. Sa pagkilalang ito sa kakulangan, maghahanap ang isang tao ng makakaramay at magpupuno ng pagmamahal na kanyang hinahanap.

Para sa akin, hindi ko pa hinahanap ang isang girlfriend. Hindi ko pa nararamdaman ang pagkukulang sa pagmamahal. Hindi ko pa rin masasabing handa na ako sa ganoon uri ng responsibilidad. At higit sa lahat, masaya ako sa aking kalagayan. Kinikilala ko ang kalayaan ko na magawa ang aking naisin na walang inaalala. At marahil dahil sa kalayaang ito, hindi ko iniisip na maghanap ng makakasama.

May nakikita rin akong problema na maaaring umusbong kung sakaling sasabak ako sa ganitong uri ng relasyon. Nariyan ang mga pagkakaiba na paniguradong magbibigay-daan sa ilang di pagkakaunawaan. Maaari ring magkaroon ng di-pagkakaunawaan sa pagitan ng pamilya at sarili sa ilang pagkakataon. Kung susumahin, makasarili ang pananaw ko ngunit bukas ako sa mga bagay na maaaring mabago.

Uulitin ko, hindi pa ako handa at hindi ko nakikita ang pangangailangan. Ito ay sagot na rin sa maraming nagtatanong at nagtataka na sa panahong ito ay single pa rin ako. Sabi ko nga, hindi ito dapat minamadali. Isa itong responsibilidad. Kusa itong darating sa ating buhay, sa tamang panahon.

Read Each One Carefully And Think About It For A Second Or Two

I love you not because of who you are,

but because of who I am when I am with you

No man or woman is worth your tears,

and the one who is,

won’t make you cry

Just because someone doesn’t love you

the way you want them to,

doesn’t mean they don’t love you

with all they have

A true friend is someone who reaches for

your hand and touches your heart

The worst way to miss someone is to be

sitting right beside them knowing

you can’t have them

Never frown, even when you are sad,

because you never know who is

falling in love with your smile

To the world you may be one person,

but to one person you may be the world

Don’t waste your time on a man/woman,

who isn’t willing to waste their time on you

Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong

people before meeting the right one,

so that when we finally meet the person,

we will know how to be grateful

Don’t cry because it is over,

smile because it happened

There’s always going to be people that hurt

you so what you have to do

is keep on trusting and just be more

careful about who you trust

next time around

Make yourself a better person and know

who you are before you try and know

someone else and expect them to know you

Don’t try so hard, the best things come when

you least expect them to

REMEMBER: WHATEVER HAPPENS,

HAPPENS FOR A REASON

You just never know where a person is in

his/her life, and what they are going through

Never judge another person’s scars,

because you don’t know how they got them

Also, it is so important that we are not too

selfish to receive the blessings of these

messages without forwarding them to

someone else; Right now, someone needs to

know that God loves them,

And you love them too

Please pass this on to those you love…

God has blessed you,

so that you can be a blessing to others

Hugs,

My iNsPiRaTioN

Be enthusiastic!!!

Put people up; not down!

Develop the ability to find the ability

in others; it’s “Priceless”!!

Help others be liked.

Help others be right.

Help others be comfortable.

Help others be winners.

Get your ego out of the way.

Replace “I” with “We.”

Commit yourself to something

bigger than yourself.

Act as if what you do makes a difference.

It Does!!

Go for it!

Start an epidemic of enthusiasm!

Throw your heart  over the bar

and your body will follow.

Don’t waste your time waiting for inspiration.

Begin and inspiration will find you!

Be on a mission!

Never let weeds grow under your dreams.

Never mistake knowledge for wisdom.

Never chase a lie.

Never laugh at anyone’s dream.

Never make excuses.

Make promises sparingly.

Keep them faithfully.

Have no limits.

Never kill an idea.

Pursue character before prosperity.

Be loyal.

Ask “What if?”

Give so much time to the improvement

of yourself that you don’t have time

to criticize others.

Create an

atmosphere of

forgiveness.

Make your word your bond.

Don’t be little; be BIG!

Learn to say NO! to the good.

So you can say YES!

to the great!

Be unpopular when necessary.

Never be ashamed of what you believe.

Never let up when you are ahead.

Don’t blow your own horn, or

you just might miss the music.

Let others lead small lives, but not you.

Let others argue over small things,

but not you.

Let others cry over small hurts, but not you.

Let others leave their future in someone

else’s hands, but not you.

Never be afraid to dream;

be afraid not to.

Never be afraid to live;

be afraid not to.

Never be afraid to love;

be afraid not to.

Never be afraid to laugh;

be afraid not to.

You’re ALIVE,

“live it that way!”

Hugs,

Kay Sharaming:

Takot ako na sinasabing swerte ako dahil pag sinasabi ko yun, minamalas ako: nakakatapak ako ng tae o kaya biglang naghihingalo ang wallet ko. Totoo, lagi yung nangyayari kaya hanggang ngayon, ayoko man lang isipin na swerte ako.

Pero kahit anong gawin ko, hindi mapagkakaila na swerte talaga ako sa’yo. Daig ko pa ang nanalo sa lotto, naging champion sa sabong, nabigyan ng uno sa algebra, nakapulot ng isandaang libo, o na-cast sa bagong Harry Potter film. Sa pagdating mo, hinandugan ako ng tadhana ng isang ginintuang tsansa para tunay na maging masaya.

Hindi ko pa rin lubos na maintindihan kung anong nakita mo sa’kin. (Pag may nagtatanong sakin dati ng “Marvin, may girlfriend ka na?” Ang lagi kong sagot, “Wala pang nabubulag eh,” o kaya isang beses, “Wala pang nabubulag na aso eh.” na sya namang kinagulat ng pinagsabihan ko. “Ba’t naman aso?”) Siguro mali lang talaga ang tingin ko sa aking sarili ng mahabang panahon. Pwede mo naman akong tratuhing parang chewing gum sa semento katulad ng iba, pero hindi. May nakikita ka sa akin, kaya nagagawa ko ring maniwala na may maaaninag nga dito sa loob ko.

Anu’t ano pa man, hindi kwestyon kung anong namamalas ko sa’yo. Winasak mo ang ideya ko ng kung ano ang kagandahan at naipakita mo ng maliwanag kung gaano ako kababaw. Hindi mo kailangang maging tisay, chinita, mahinhin, maayos o malasanto para maging maganda, kailangan mo lang maging natural. At dahil ikaw ang pinakamanatural na nilalang na nasilayan ko, mas natural pa sa pagsikat ng araw sa silangan at paglubog sa kanluran, mas natural pa sa beach addiction ng mga tao, ikaw rin, walang duda, ang pinakamagandang nilalang na nakita ko.

Alam ko bwenas ako dahil pinapangarap ko lang ito noon. Dati, tinitingnan ko lang ang mga litrato mo sa Internet. Napapa-iling lang ako katulad marahil ng sanlaksang iba pa ngayon. Oo, inisip ko kung gaano kaswerte ang boyfriend mo at mga magiging boyfriends mo, pero hindi ko talaga nakita ang sarili ko na pupuno sa espasyong iyon. Para ko na rin sigurong inisip na madi-discover ako habang naglalakad sa MRT station at gagawin akong host ng ASAP. Wala. Wala talagang tsansa na pansinin ng isang katulad mo ang isang katulad ko.

Sinasabi ko ito dahil ayokong malimutan kung ano yung milagro, kung bakit ako nandito ngayon. Merong walang hanggang pasasalamat sa puso ko na nais kong manatili habang hindi pa ko tinatamaan at tinutumba ng swine flu. Kaya naman sa bawat minuto na kasama kita, gusto ko laging iparamdam sa’yo kung gaano ka kahalaga sa akin. Akala mo ba natuyo na yung katangi-tanging puting rosas na binigay ko sa iyo? Hindi pa. Patay na yung halaman pero yung tunay na ugat ng bulaklak na iyon, nandito pa, sariwa at dala-dala ko lagi nasaan man ako.

Ang alam ko lang, gusto ko lagi kang nakangiti at nakatawa. Gusto ko yung ngiti mo, mula Ilocos Norte hanggang Greece. Pag naniningkit yung mga mata mo dahil sa sobrang kakatawa, gusto kong patawarin si Gloria sa lahat ng kasalanang ginawa nya kasama na yung boob job. Ewan ko ba, pero kapag masaya ka, alam ko, isang pribilehiyo ang mabuhay.

Kung sumasablay man ako minsan na ipakita kung gaano ako nahuhumaling sa iyo, yun ay dahil tao lang ako na nagagalit at nakakalimot. Pero nagpapasalamat ako dahil binigyan ako ng talento upang mag-isip. At tuwang nag-iisip ako, isang kongklusyon lang ang nararating ko: mahal kita at maligaya ako sa piling mo.

Ngayon, nasa himpapawirin ka na. Pabalik ka mula sa malayo mong paglalakbay. Umiiling nanaman ako ngayon pero hindi na dahil sa tingin ko ay wala akong pag-asa sa’yo. Umiiling ako ng nakangiti dahil pauwi ka ngayon sa’kin.

Naghihintay,
Marbeng

PS: Pakisabi sa piloto, bilisan nyang mag-drayb. Naiinip na ko sa yakap mo at naiinip na ang buhangin ng Putipot sa mga paa natin.

Memories Of Love

“To fall in love is awfully simple, To fall out of love is simply awful”

Love……

That wonderful experience that can’t be bought, stolen or made to happen.. it just simply is.

That rare jewel of inspiration that places a fire in a man’s soul when found

And at the same time can be the agony in a man’s heart when lost.

I reflect back to the loves in my life, there is a bitter sweetness to them.

Maybe that’s true for everybody.

I think about the valuable lessons I learned from them.

Those who lifted and delighted my soul

and those who wrecked havoc upon my being.

I am not a victim or a casualty of love,

But I’ve had more then my share of loss with it.

There is a feeling of helplessness in watching

Something you nurtured and tended to

Go away and all you can do is accept it.

I love big and with that, I hurt big.

There were many times that my heart felt a little bit split into two…

Like half of it has been torn out

And the remaining half sat inside of my chest,

Pumping a little slower than usual,

Trying to decide whether to look for the missing half

Or to just grow a new one.

I always grew a new one.

And the funny thing is….

My heart would grow stronger each time.

Oh, but the delight of love when found…

There is nothing that compares.

The memories of those who I shared my heart

As I reminisce in the attic of my mind

The scrapbook of beautiful faces with voices that I’ll never forget.

Kisses that made me dizzy and warm thoughts of jokes only we knew.

Laughter…. lot’s of laughter and the feeling that

The world was right, and I held it in my hand

But if only in a slice of time.

Places and adventures we shared.

Dreams and secrets exchanged.

Not thinking about tomorrow, but living in that moment

The life we shared was all that was important

And wanting it to last forever.

And believing it would.

Feeling totally lost in each other…

No one else even existed.

Looking into each others eyes

And giggling like children.

Yes, I know that shouldn’t last forever,

But I think it could if life didn’t

Get in the way.

I know that all of the loves in my life

Have had a purpose.

To grow me, to prepare me for the next.

Sometimes, late at night,

I walk out onto my front porch,

And gaze upon the stars over head.

And I remember those loves from my past.

The ones I couldn’t live without,

And the one’s that nearly drove me crazy,

And as I remember them, I miss the good

In them and what we once had together.

I’m so lucky to have had them,

Even if it wasn’t long enough.

One of the the things you learn as you get older

Is the value of love, of respect, of support…

And that toying with the human heart is not a sport.

And perhaps most important, true love is rare,

And takes time to develop.
Cherish it when you find it,

Treat it like a gem, and… make allowances.

To love another takes courage,

To love at all is to be vulnerable.

But always remember, you never lose by loving,

You lose by holding back.

Hugs,

RoyGbiV

When we’re enamored with someone, we put them on a pedestal and they can seem to do no wrong. But reality has a way of biting hard just to make sure we’re brought back to the ground. Reality makes sure to remind us that our crushes are human too, who stink, fart, burp, and whatever human bodily function there is.

The Top Things About Your Crush That Turn You Off

1.    Once I heard him do the “waktu” (the sound you make when you spit out phlegm), and actually swallowed his phlegm back. That was it for me.

2.    I had a crush on a friend before, and when he removed his shoes, the odor was unexplainable – Grabe! Makapunit ilong!

3.    I had a crush in high school. He learned about it at pinagpustahan nila ng barkada niya na mapapasagot niya ko agad.

4.    I had a big crush w/ this waitress. Then after few text exchanges, we went out and ended up going 2 my place and…man…she moaned like a man!

5.    I had a crush on this super guwapo & hearthrob basketball player back in college, but he turned me off when he said, “Tara, Let’s play SCRAMBLE”, pointing to the Scrabble game board.

6.   There was this 19-year old ‘Japayuki’ crush of mine. One lunchtime, she arrived late and there was no clean plate for her, and to my surprise, she grabbed the ‘kaldero’ cover then served herself, sat and ate na nakataas pa ang isang paa!

7.   Back in college, my crush had a cute smile until she sang Barry Manilow’s, “Can’t Smile Without you, and her false teeth fell off!

8.   My crush has beauty and brains, a Chinese mestiza. Kaya lang her butt is hungry like a wolf, laging kinakain ng puwet niya yung panty niya.

9.   When I invited my crush to watch “Finding Nemo”, I noticed that she’s kinda SLOW, based on her questions like: “What’s the name of the blue fish?” and “Why did Nemo run away?” Paano pa kaya kung “The Matrix” yung pinanood namin? Baka bumula na bibig nun!

10.   When my crush visited my house, he said “Ayoko ng amoy nitong goosi.” I turned around and got turned off when I saw him holding my Gucci perfume.

11.   My crush in a karinderia asked me one time, “Paano luto ng egg mo, cramble?” And I said, “Lagyan mo naman ng ‘S’ yung cramble.” Then he goes, “Ay nga pala, ‘crambles’!” I laughed and never went back there again.

12.   My super crush in college is tall, dark and extremely handsome. But one time, during an out of town trip with my friends, I later found out that when he got drunk that night, he had sex with my gay best friend.

13.   My crush was very sexy and flawless. Since madalas ang double shift sa opisina, minsan pag kausap ko, ang hininga niya amoy lumang baul or bagong tasang Mongol pencil!

14.   He’s my ultimate crush and so I sometimes stalk him. To my shock, I once caught him in the CR, curling his lashes! Yikes.

15.   After 5 months of dating a rich, handsome guy, we went to a hotel. But when we kissed – ang alat!!! It made we walk out!

16.   My college crush was a head turner. People turn their heads kasi ang bantot niya.

17.   My all time crush is cute, mabait and very funny. But later I found out that he’s a “scratch and sniff” type of guy. He scratches his butt then sniffs his fingers. Ewww. He’s my husband now.

18.   His personality is a perfect match to mine. But he always has sex on his mind. Maliit naman ang bird…

Better In Time…

Sometimes I wish  I were a little kid again,

skinned knees are easier  to fix than

broken hearts

Relationships are like glass.

Sometimes it’s better to leave them

broken than try

to hurt yourself putting it back together.

“Old times” never come back  and I

suppose it’s just as well.

What comes back is a new morning  every

day in the year,and that’s better.

Ask me why I keep on loving you

when it’s clear that you don’t feel

the same way for me…

the problem is that as much as I

can’t force you to love me,

I can’t force myself to stop loving you.

It’s so curious:

one can resist tears and ‘behave’ very well

in the hardest hours of grief.

But then someone makes you a

friendly sign behind a window,

or one notices that a flower that was in bud

only yesterday has suddenly blossomed,

or a letter slips from a drawer…

and everything collapses.

The turning point in the process

of growing up is when you discover

the core of strength within you that

survives all hurt.

That was rough….

Thing to do now is try and forget it….

I guess I don’t quite mean that.

It’s not a thing you can forget.

Maybe not even a thing you want to

forget….

Life’s like that sometimes…

Now and then for no good reason

a man can figure out,

life will just haul off and knock him flat,

slam him again the ground so hard it seems

like all his insides is busted.

But it’s not all like that.

A lot of it’s mighty fine,

and you can’t afford to waste the

good part frettin’ about the bad.

That makes it all bad….

Sure, I know – sayin’ it’s one thing

and feelin’ it’s another.

But I’ll tell you a trick that’s

sometimes a big help.

When you start lookin’ around for

something good to take the place of the bad,

as a general rule you can find it.

RoYGbiV

Spread The Word

20 Ways to Get Good Karma

(By The Dalai Lama)

.. ..

Take into account that

great love and great achievements

involve great risk.

When you lose, don’t lose the lesson.

Follow the three R’s:

- Respect for self,

- Respect for others and

- Responsibility for all your actions

Remember that not getting

what you want is sometimes a

wonderful stroke of luck.

Learn the rules so you know how

to break them properly.

Don’t let a little dispute injure a

great relationship.

When you realize you’ve made a mistake,

take immediate steps to correct it.

Spend some time alone every day.

Open your arms to change,

but don’t let go of your values.

Remember that silence is sometimes

the best answer.

Live a good, honorable life.

Then when you get older and think back,

you’ll be able to enjoy it a second time.

A loving atmosphere in your home is the foundation for your life.

In disagreements with loved ones,

deal only with the current situation.

Don’t bring up the past.

Share your knowledge.

It is a way to achieve immortality.

Be gentle with the earth.

Once a year, go someplace you’ve

never been before.

Remember that the best relationship is

one in which your love

for each other exceeds your need

for each other.

Judge your success by what you had

to give up in order to get it.

If you want others to be happy,

practice compassion.

For a Better World

RoYGbiV!

~*~I Believe~*~

I believe that the sun shines after the rain

I believe if you don’t get hurt you’ll never gain

I believe in not doing things the easy way

I believe that being selfish doesn’t pay

I believe in a second chance

I believe in a life long romance

I believe there is life after death

And standing up to a life of mess

I believe in love at first sight

I believe that revenge isn’t right

I believe that first impressions last

And there is nothing better then a good laugh

I believe that dreams do come true

I believe there’s destiny for me and you

I believe that good things come to those who wait

I believe love never arrives too late

I believe something good comes from

something bad

I believe that for tears of happiness there are

tears of sad

I believe everyone has a guardian angel

And the good you do will be rewarded well

I believe sometimes there is no explanation

I believe money can’t buy people’s affection

I believe you don’t know what you’ve got until

it’s gone

I believe a new day arrives with every dawn

I believe a smile can be contagious

I believe in being very outrageous

I believe in living with no regrets

I believe that life is as good as it gets

I believe that God watches over us

I believe the little things are worth the fuss

I believe you have each friend for a reason

I believe you will get punished for treason

I believe that what comes first is family

I believe we should all live in harmony

I believe in making the most of a beautiful day

And it’s not the end until everything’s okay

I believe absence makes the heart grow fonder

I believe you will lose if you sit and wonder

I believe every experience teaches you a lesson

And nothing cures better then a drinking

session

I believe everyone has one true love

I believe sometimes we need a little shove

I believe the whole world is a stage

I believe we only get better with age

I believe that to learn you have to live

I believe that to love someone you have to give

I believe one moment can change your life

And there’s still help when you’re in strife

I believe everyone has one true friend

I believe love helps a broken heart mend

I believe in the power of a song

And things will change before too long

I believe living is the best experience

I believe in not laughing at other people’s expense

I believe it’s hard to watch a lover leave

And when they’re gone all you can do is breath

I believe to always look on the bright side

I believe that life is just one big ride

I believe when I die people will grieve

But it’s ok because I believe

RoYgBiV

Tingin ka naman sa’kin. Kahit isang irap lang. Alam mo namang sa gitna ng usok ng mga tambutso, busina’t radyo, mga mata mo lang na tutok na tutok ang magpapakalma ng aking sistema. Siguro dapat kang gawan ng billboard na idi-display sa EDSA para maging mapayapa ang Maynila. Dahil kung ako yung drayber ng kakarag-karag na dyip na ito, malamok, susunod ako sa lahat ng batas-trapiko at hihinto ako sa lahat ng stoplight kahit wala pa sa pula ang ilaw para lang magtagal sa harap ng iyong ngiti.

Ngunit pasahero lang ako sa ngayon, hindi makababa sa pumapaspas at walang direksyong sasakyan ng dibdib mo. Maaari mo akong ibaba kahit saang kanto dahil hindi naman ako nagbayad, nag 1-2-3 lang, nagkunwaring natutulog para hindi singilin. Kaya nga pwede mo marahil akong pababain sa susunod na kanto kung saan bumaba rin sa mga naunang biyahe ang mga naunang pumara sa iyo. Karamihan sa kanila nauntog pa sa bubong ng dyip, bukol. Tagal na nilang nilalagyan ng gamot pero hindi gumagaling.

Kaya nga, miss, miss na kulot, miss na nayayamot, miss ng lahat ng masasalimuot at malalambot, miss na nanunuot sa’king ilong, nanlalasing sa’king utak, miss na minsan lang kumirot, miss na miss kita. Miss, pwede ba, isang tingin lang? Kahit irap lang?

Nakakatagtag itong kalye, sira-sirang adobe, samantalang ang Adobe ay nangre-retoke. Lagi tayong muntik sumalpok sa susunod na tao sa ating harapan. Trapik kasi, lagi naman. Wala pa tayong seatbelt. Cheap ba tayo? Siguro, ako lang. Basta, ang nais ko lang naman ay hawakan ang iyong kamay kahit pa namamasma na tayong dalawa at nanlalagkit na. Subalit anong lagkit man, pilit pa rin akong didikit at didikit sa iyo, parang linta. Sana ‘di ka mandiri o mangati (ngunit totoo, minsan, pinapantal ka) sa pagsipsip ko sa iyong dugo na lasang adobo ng aking ina.

Kung suswertehin ako, baka tumugtog sa isip mo ang mga tugtog ko pag nasa himpapawid ka na. Pupunta kong mag-isa sa Quiapo Church na sobrang lansa at luluhod sa diyos ko nung elementary. Magdarasal ako na, “Sana po, siya’y bumalik. Sana hindi pa iyon ang huling halik.”

“Sige na naman, mag-aalay ako dito kahit linggu-linggo ng sampagitang bibilhin ko sa lahat ng batang kalsada. Magiging mabuti ako sa kanila, mas mabuti pa sa World Vision. Isasabit ko sa inyo ang mababangong bulaklak at baka maalala ko rin ang lahat ng alaalang mahalimuyak kasama sya. Kahit araw-araw, pipila ko para sa ostya, para lang matandaan ko yung mga maiinit na araw na nagkukumahog kami para abutan ang tren, lakpas ala sais ng umaga.”

“Kung maaari lang po, kayo nama’y makapangyarihan. Dalhin nyo naman sya sa’kin upang sumarap naman ang bawat tanghalian. Kung makikita nyo lang kasi kung gaano katarik ang aking damdamin, kung ano ang kaya kong gawin para sa lang sa mumunting tingin, mauunawaan nyo kung anong puno’t dulo ng lahat; kung bakit ako nagpapakabaliw at tumatayang baka mapanghinawaan nya sa hinaharap. Dahil poon, poon ng lahat ng kapit sa patalim at adik sa pangangarap, sya lamang po ang pinakamasayang nangyari sa aking buhay.”

“Amen.”

Pagkatapos, lalabas ako ng simbahan sa ilalim ng sikat ng araw. Pilit kong tatandaan kung ano nga ba ang iyong pangalan — Simang ba, Salome, Cherry, Sharaming, Shalimar, Mae, Meng, Chemz, o Che–Che–nasa dulo na ng dila ko! Tang’na. Nagtatago ka kasi sa bawat babaeng dumaraan. Namamahay sa bawat dumadaloy na tinig sa aking tenga. Dala ka ng alon ng mga dagat at mga blangkong Sabado’t Linggo sa kama. Sana may kabuluhan ang lahat bagamat lubog ako sa panaginip. Sana hindi mainip sa aking nais ipahiwatig.  Dahil kung sino ka mang umuusig sa’king bawat paggising, alam kong mahal kita, noon, ngayon, at kahit maubos na itong mga salita’t titik.

THE 12 LAWS OF KARMA

THE GREAT LAW

As you sow, so shall you reap.
This is also known as the Law of Cause and Effect.
Whatever we put out in the Universe
is what comes back to us.
If what we want is Happiness, Peace, Friendship, Love…
Then we should BE Happy, Peaceful, Loving, a Friend..

THE LAW OF CREATION

Life doesn’t just HAPPEN, it requires our participation.
We are one with the Universe both inside and out.
Whatever surrounds us gives us clues to our inner state.
BE and DO yourself…
what you what to have in your Life..

THE LAW OF HUMILITY

What you refuse to accept, will continue for you.
If what we see is an enemy, or someone with a character trait that we find to be negative, then we ourselves are not focused on a higher level of existence..

THE LAW OF GROWTH

Wherever you go, there you are.
For us to GROW in Spirit it is we who must change and not the people, places or things around us.
The only given we have in our lives is OURSELVES and that is the only factor we have control over.
When we change who and what we are within our heart our life changes too..

THE LAW OF RESPONSIBILITY

Whenever there is something wrong,
there is something wrong in me.
We mirror what surrounds us
and what surrounds us mirrors us
We must take responsibility what is in our life..

THE LAW OF CONNECTION

Even if something we do seems inconsequential,
it is very important that it gets done
as everything in the Universe is connected.
Each step leads to the next step and so forth and so on.
Someone must do the initial work to get a job done.
Neither the first step nor the last
are of greater significance
They were both needed to accomplish the task.
Past, Present, Future
They are all connected…

THE LAW OF FOCUS

You can’t think of two things at the same time.
When our focus is on Spiritual Values it is impossible for us to have lower thoughts such as greed or anger..

THE LAW OF GIVING AND

HOSPITALITY

If you believe something to be true,
then sometime in your life
you will be called upon to demonstrate that truth.
Here is where we put what we SAY
that we have learned
into PRACTICE..

THE LAW OF HERE AND NOW

Looking back to examine what was,
prevents us from being totally in the HERE AND NOW.
Old thoughts, old patterns of behavior, old dreams…
Prevent us from having new ones..

THE LAW OF CHANGE

History repeats itself until
we learn the lessons that we need
to change our path..

THE LAW OF PATIENCE

AND REWARD

All Rewards require initial toil.
Rewards of lasting value
require patient and persistent toil.
True Joy follows doing what we’re suppose to be doing

and waiting for the Reward to come in it’s on time..

THE LAW OF SIGNIFICANCE

AND INSPIRATION

You get back from something whatever
you’ve put into it
The Value of something is a direct result of
the energy and intent that is put into it.
Every personal contribution
is also a contribution to the Whole
Lack luster Contributions have no impact on the Whole
or work to diminish it.
Loving Contributions Life Up and Inspire the Whole..

Love,RoyGbiV

Cos I do Believe in….

Love, RoyGbiV

Hindi ko alam kung bakit may mga taong sanay magsinungaling. Hindi ko maintindihan kung bakit hindi nila iniisip ang mararamdaman ng iba kapag sila’y nagsinungaling. Hindi ko mahinuha kung ano ang nakukuha nila sa pagsisinungaling. Sa madaling sabi, hindi ko kinakikitaan ng logic ang pagsisinungaling.

Sa buhay ng tao marami tayong makikilala at makakasalamuha. Mayroon tayong magugustuhan at bibigyan ng magandang puwang sa ating puso. Mayroon tayong iiwanan at mayroon ding mang-iiwan. Mayroon mananatili, mayroon ding kusang lilisan. Mayroon babalik at mayroon namang mananatili na lamang sa ating alaala. Sa lahat ng ating makakasama, may isang taong habang-buhay na espesyal sa atin at magkakaroon ng malaking bahagi sa ating mga puso. Ito ang taong labis mong pagkakatiwalaan at pag-aalayan ng buhay mo. Ito ang taong itinatangi mo at masakit mang isipin ito ang taong labis na nakakasakit sa iyo.

Aminin man natin o hindi, ang taong pinakamamahal mo ang siyang lubos na nakakasakit sayo. Bakit nga ba? Sa kadahilanang siya ang taong may pinakamalaking puwang sa puso mo, sa bawat maling nagagawa niya sayo, malaking bahagi ng puso mo ang nagdurugo. Pangalawa, ang mga expectations na hindi natutupad. Kapag labis mong mahal ang tao, marami kang gusto gawin at marami kang ipinapangako. Walang kang gudtong makita at maipadama sa kanya kundi ang the best ng lahat ng bagay. Mas malalalim ang sugat na ibinibigay ng taong ito kapag napako ang mga pangakong nakatatak na sa inyo. Pangatlo ay ang labis na tiwalang ibinigay mo.  Ang tiwalang akala mo ay sapat para tumbasan ng taong ito. Sa labis na tiwala, buong buhay mo ay kaya mong ialay. Walang desisyong hindi siya kasama, walang bagay na hindi siya ang una. Walang katulad ang tiwalang ibinibigay mo sa taong ito at sa huli pag ang tiwala ay nadungisan, mahirap ibalik ang ganda at kinang ng pagsasamahan.

Malaking bahagi ng relasyon ang katapatan. Ito ay kaagapay upang mapangalagaan ang malaking bahagi ng puso mo na inalay mo sa isang tao.  Sa tunay at seryosong relasyon, hindi pera o anumang bagay ang mhalaga kundi ang pagmamahal at tiwala. Sa totoo nga, hindi kung ano lang ang ini-expect mo kundi ang pagiging tapat ng taong ito at pagiging loyal nito. Pero may mga taong hindi maiwasang magsinungaling sa kung ano mang kadahilanan. Maniniwala ka ba na mahal ka niya kung ang pagsisinungaling sa mga bagay-bagay ay halata mo na? Masasabi mo bang tunay kang minamahal ng taong hindi kayang maging tapat? Ang simpleng pagsisinungaling ay hindi nakakatulong sa isang relasyon. Oo, ang hindi alam ng tao ay hindi makakasakit sa damdamin pero kung ito’y nalaman ng palihim sa ibang paraan, mas malallim ang sugat na pahihilumin.

Ano nga ba ang nakukuha sa pagsisinungaling? Walang iba kundi ang sakit ng damdamin ng taong nagmamahal at minamahal mo ng labis.

‘Wag mo muna ‘kong burahin!
Naghahalungkat ka ba ng eraser?
Tigil.
Hinga ng malalim.
Buhos ng tubig
Sa baso kahit walang lamig.
Lunok.
Hep! Hep! Pero hindi kita tinuturuang lumunok.
Ang kailangan yata natin ay humigop
Ng sabaw ng tinola,
Murang-mura, parang ikaw at ako
Dati.

Hayan, tama na ang tula.
Limang beses ko itong sinimulan.
Yung mga nauna pa-Balagtas pa,
Wala namang kwenta.
Yung mga nauna pa-drama pa,
Nakakaantok naman.
Yung mga nauna palalim pa,
Eh simple lang naman
Ang dapat mong malaman
At nais kong maunawaan.

Ganito yun.
Minsan sumisipsip ako
Ng kape, kumukulong tubig, tatanga-tanga.
Natabig ko
Nang hindi sinasadya.
Natapon sa aking briefs.
Dali-dali akong pumunta sa lababo,
Nagbuhos
Hanggang nagkaro’n
Ng malamig na dagat
Sa semento.

Ganito yun.
Minsan may isang batang kalsada
Tinawag akong “kuba”
Hinampas ko sa ulo ng kartolina.

Ganito yun.
Minsan sinimulan ko ng umaga
Natapos ako ng gabi.

Ganito yun.

Hindi totoo ang lahat
Pero may nais akong sabihin.

Malabo ang bukas
Ngunit nais kong aninagin
Kasama ka sa mga lupaing
Mga paa lamang natin ang tatahak.

Kung pwede ko lang lagyan ng straw ang utak mo
Para tiyan ko na lang ang kikirot
Sa malapot na lason ng aking tinig.
Mahal ko, mahal ko,
Hindi totoo ang lahat
Pero may nais akong sabihin.

Kung pwede ko lang lagyan ng padding
Ang mga dingding
Upang wala nang kakalampag
Sa tuwing tayo’y magdadabog,
Walang labang magpapabihag
Sa mga hawlang
Tinago natin ang susi nito lang umaga.

Nito lang umaga, gumising ako, umaamuy-amoy
Parang isang asong nakasinghot ng adobo.
Nasa’n na yun?
Wala…
Wala rito…
Nasa ilalim yata ng unan…
Wala rin…
Nasa loob yata ng medyas ko…
Tingnan nga!
Wala rin.

Ay.

Nasa likod na pala ng pinto.
Wala nang ganang magpaalam.

(Ilang stanzas pa ‘to, matagal pa
Kasi naman ‘di ko pa masilayan
Ang susunod na parating na tren.
Baka naipit sa may Cubao
Kung sa’n mabantot ang hangin.)

Gaya nga ng sinasabi ko
At sinasabi mo,
Kulang tayo sa pagkain,
Wala akong lalamunin mamayang gabi.

Tapos sabi ko nga,
Sabi mo nga,
Kulang ako sa lambing,
Wala akong aakapin at walang maghihilik.

Ewan ko ba.
Ikaw lang naman ang tulang limang beses kong sisimulan,
Kahit ang mga nauna’y pa-Balagtas, pa-drama’t, palalim pa.
Ewan ko ba, mahal ko,
Simple lang naman
Ang dapat mong malaman
At kailangan ‘kong matutunan.

Ayoko na ng manghuhula,
Mababaho, malalagkit na mga baraha.
‘Di na ko aasa sa pantasya.
Susundan kita magkandarapa man ako’t
Tuksuhin ng “kuba”
Sa susunod na kalsada.

O… o…
Naghahalungkat ka nanaman ba ng mascara?
Tigil.
Hinga ng malalim.

Hinga
Ng malalim.

Baka mas tamang maghubad tayo,
Kita buto,
Tanggalin ang ating balat,
“Wag magbuklat ng anumang aklat,
‘Wag sirain ang lahat,
Tiisin muna ang alat,
At makinig sa’ting mga puso.

O!
Naman!
‘Wag muna!
Hinga ng malalim.
Buhos ng tubig
Sa baso kahit walang lamig.
Lunok.
Hintayin natin ang bukas, baka bwenas.
Dahil mahal ko,
Mahal ko,
Hindi ko kayang mawala ka,
Mangulila sa ‘di nasilayang eroplano.

Teka.
Bibili lamang ako ng gamot,
Magtitimpla muna ng milo,
Papagpagan muna ang mga unan,
Pilit ka munang hahagkan.
Mahal ko,
‘Wag mo muna ‘kong burahin.