My periods nearly killed my marriage: A woman reveals how PMS made her so volatile it put a strain on her relationship

• I’ve long been aware of premenstrual syndrome or PMS – the idea of a woman snapping at her husband, craving chocolate and shopping uncontrollably once a month has become a tired comedy cliché – but what I didn’t know is that almost all women experience it to some degree in the two weeks before their period.

• The exact cause of PMS is unknown,’ says Michael Dooley, consultant gynaecologist at The Poundbury Clinic, London. ‘But it seems to be an abnormal relationship between the hormones of the menstrual cycle and the body.

By Keris Stainton

As I write this Jean is already in deep slumber.  I have this habit of getting up even on wee hours when an idea is bugging me.  Earlier, Im supposed to write my first blog entry about out very first adventure.  But perhaps I should just start from the present to clear out what’s bugging me.  I guess writing my mind out also serves as a de-stressor at times.

She got home at around 10pm today, and I have been waiting for her since 6 early this evening.  That kept me uneasy and wondering what’s up (though half of my mind knows exactly what maybe up) which prompted me to discontinue blogging and just settle for a replay run of mad max on tv, just to wait and waste time.  She promised to be back before supper just before she left lunchtime at 11.  It’s a Sunday and as a rule, it’s not usual for her or for any of us coming home this late.  And she looks terribly exhausted and not in the mood to talk.  I will probably get the whole story tomorrow after we get home from work.

Actually she asked me early in the morning to make the day as an exception to the rule.  She is going to meet up with Warren for lunch as he just came from a business trip from Hongkong Saturday morning. He was away for the past 2 weeks and wants to catch up what transpired at work.  He probably wants a first hand account of the nitty gritty details before he gets to read the office reports.  And being in the poly lifestyle, I know for sure, without Jean saying a word, it was understood to mean that part of the agenda for the afternoon is getting laid.  A welcome back party of some sort – perhaps, catching up physically for time lost.

Warren is ahead of Jean in the corporate ladder, but now she is no longer directly under his department but still subordinate in rank in relation to him.  She insists it all started consensually, and her job was not at stake.  He is middle-aged, good looking, married and a white guy (it’s quite obsolete to be referring to a person by his skin color but is only significant since both of us are of Asian origin).  And of course, he is my wife’s bf, boyfriend, other guy, lover(?), office fling?  I am at a lost for descriptions too, for the term to be used depends on one’s point of view. For swingers, he can be referred to as a regular NSA playmate, a fubu or fuck buddy, 3rd wheel, friend with benefits, etc.  Polyamorous guys, on the other hand, might call him a mate, lover, partner, secondary, poly husband, etc.  But to non-poly peeps, it’s a plain office affair, and my wife is a slut and Im a cuckold! Consult my Poly Glossary above. But for brevity, ‘bf’ is best.

We have been swinging together before for the past few years and its quite clear we are in for the fun and adventure.  But this is the latest development as we opened our marriage a bit more, and each one becoming more independent sexually; it appears we are going into unchartered waters and new experiences.  It makes me scary at times since we started this with myself in fully in control. But too early to tell if we’re really going true-blue poly like a full emotional relationship between Jean and Warren is on the offing. Or if she is just on it for the thrill and whatever side-benefits she get out of it.  If there are experienced poly couples out there reading, your inputs will be appreciated.

To add up some more details.  Jean used to work with him in his department and they usually fly together or with other personnel to offshore factories for a week or two or longer as needed.  It was in these travels and lonely nights far from home that they woke up one day in the hotel room to find their bodies entwined together in bed and hungry for each other’s warmth.  It’s almost a year now since he took her first and I still remember how Jean hesitantly broke to me the news when she returned after more than a week.  She has been transparent to me so far with her dealings with him. And recently, she was laterally transferred to another department which doesnt need to travel much.  Warren said that would be best for the meantime to prevent themselves from making waves in the office.  I thought the honeymoon was finally over but weeks ago Jean mentioned to me that he was looking for a condo unit or an apartment suite in town, apart from his principal family house.  Though still vague, its implication is big news to me!

It’s almost morning.  Will just continue the next day and perhaps I could upload this during the day after going through it again.

Hello there, how are you?

Today I was browsing the Internet, acquiring some knowledge if you prefer to call it like that, and I came across a posting that had the right path of creativity, therefore, I decided to re-invent it, edit it, and change it for your delightful entertainment.  Hopefully all of us girls can identify.. By all means, if you want to add another point, be my guest, this list can only keep getting better, that way we will find PRINCE CHARMING…

My Boyfriend Application and Test

First, a little about me. I’m a 26-year-old, very  good looking and intelligent Latina, with a full time Job and  attending University. I’m tired of wasting my time, so I have formulated some mandatory criteria in part A, and part B is based on points.

Part A

1) You must be born male. I’ll need to see a birth certificate proving so.

2) You must own something to wear to a formal reception. And at least a couple formal shoes.
3) You must not own or ever wear Birkenstocks, crocs footwear or wrangler jeans. Or wear your jeans so low, that  I can see the end of your briefs.
4) All your parts need to be in good working order, further testing will need to be conducted of course.
5) I can’t accept a regular drug user. Despite CA culture, I am including weed.
6) You must own at least four collared dress shirts. You need to look presentable standing next to me.
7) Your height must be proportional to your weight using the standard AMA guidelines. (fyi, I do prefer them taller than me, so you have to be at least 6 feet) .
You must have a couple photos which were  taken in the last 2 months.
9) English must be your first language. However you need to have a pretty good understanding of Spanish and Latin culture, or at least a desire to learn.

If you meet all of the requirements above then you may continue, if not, then you are now dismissed but thank you for applying to be my boyfriend.

Now: give yourself two points for each of the following criteria you meet

Part B

1) You have (or are working on) a degree.
2) You own a car and have a valid driver’s license. Suspended for DUIs: minus 10 points.

3) If your car is better and newer than mine add 5 points
4) You’ve never worn Ed Hardy, Affliction or any other Christian Audigier affiliated brand.

5) If 80% of your shoes can be described as sneakers take minus 5 points.
6) You follow at least one professional sport.
7) You have skills in bed. Not because you think you do, because your past experiences have told you.
You are not a born again Christian, Jehovah’s Witness or any other kind of religious fanatic.
9) You have been to at least three countries outside of the US.
10) You don’t need to call a handy man if something breaks around the house.
11) You know how to cook a meal for two. (Eggs, instant noodles, sandwiches, lean cuisine do not count as a meal)

12) You actually do shores around the house, like doing dishes after I cooked, help cleaning the kitchen, bringing flowers, wine etc..
13) You like stepping out of your bubble and trying new things like different cuisine, bungee jumping, salsa dancing.
14) You can make it through a romantic comedy without complaining (don’t worry we don’t have to tell your friends).
15) You have a great sense of humor. Are people laughing with you, or at you?
16) You can plan a good date without any help or advice from me. “I don’t know, what do you want to do” isn’t an answer.
17) You work out and enjoy being physically active. I hit the gym regularly, you should too.
18) You have a job that requires more than a high school diploma.
19) You read books, or at least you read the newspaper, so we can talk about worldwide subjects.  

20) You are an educated individual. You challenge my intellectual abilities.
21) You have a 5 year goal.
22) You aren’t afraid of being yourself, even if you have a dorky, nerdy side. (that’s kinda hot).
23) You’re competitive, and I don’t mean you like to battle it out on Wii with your buddies on the weekends.
24) You know how to dance.

25) You are spontaneous and creative.

26) You are secure about yourself and us. Meaning I’m not looking for a jealous, immature, insecure chauvinistic pig. People are going to check us out. Just enjoy the ride, at the end of the night I’m going home with you.

27) Last but not least, you can acknowledge when you screw up, and say sorry;  flowers and a romantic dinner might help you get some points back.

If you have a score of 40+ then please contact me immediately. If you scored between 20-35 pts, you can contact me, but I don’t have a lot of hope for our future relationship. If you did not score high enough, then please do not contact me, but if at some time in the future you are able to improve yourself and meet the minimum requirements, then you may re-apply.

You MUST respond with your age (this is a creeper free zone, 25-36 year olds only please) and your picture.

I thank you in advance for your application, however, only successful candidates will receive a response.

fyi.. I’m not trying to be rude or insult anyone..

This blog is just for fun, and to make you laugh!

With Love

xoxoxoxo Ment@l Fashion Addict

Psychology Today

“It is most definitely impressive the strength, the wisdom, and sensitivity that God gave women. I look back to growing up and the absolute chaos my mother had to withstand. She was such a strong person and only once did I find her in the bedroom crying (Talk about a situation as a kid in not knowing what to do!) For those who read my blogs, you will have the chance to get a more personal look into my life. I recently started dating a girl that has all the qualities that a guy could ask for. She is an attractive positive-attitude independent and hilarious, but still sensitive, girl that I can’t help but smile when I’m with. I am a poem writer so I will be making poems frequently that are in reference to this growing relationship.

Poem #1

I took her out on a date
Left everything else up to fate
With chemistry floating all around
We looked like two kids
Out on the playground

What happens from here?
I am not going to fear
God will be in control
With prayer showing me the way
As I drive down this dating highway

True, Love

Question not love, my love, nor doubt our love;
love was always true between me and you,
was truth and Truth and remains ever—Love,
my love, was our mutual sky, star-filled
and glorious, lifting us beyond our
limits of self toward higher potentials.
Yes, love, our simplest truth was love itself,
organic though eternal immortal
despite our mortality—
                                       enter here
Eden’s serpent and our fall, ejection
from paradise: love failed not us, nor we
failed love . . . it was relationship and trust
betrayed that came to part us, grew into
that sword-bearing angel standing between.

David M Pitchford
23 November 2009

Once upon a time, when I was young and poor, I worked some pretty shady jobs. I’m not proud to admit that, but I’m not ashamed of that chapter either.

It started off as a beer promoter. Tiger Beer, in fact, which I detest. But it didn’t stop me from donning the uniform of tiny skorts, a midriff-baring tank top, and knee-high boots. Then I promoted some weird ass beer I can’t even remember the name of, but actually tasted decent.

Then I was a party girl. Essentially, I dressed in club wear and talked patrons into having a good time and buying me drinks. My commission was based on my drinks. I picked Midori 7 Up, mainly because it was weak, and it was one of those conversation starters, which helped when you were surrounded by boring people.

Even then, there were nights I went home piss drunk. My dad caught me sleeping in the kitchen once (I thought I’d just sit there for just a minute). Money was good then; I was in a pub at Boat Quay, and the bankers were pretty decent customers.

Then I pissed off the owner of the bar, and was relocated. I shan’t bore you with tales of dimly-lit karaoke bars and banal conversations. But that last night I ever worked in that line was as a shot girl.

Yup, skimpy dressing, tray of shots. One for $20, if I remember correctly.

It was at some lame ass pub in some godforsaken area. The clientele consisted of a couple of bored bengs initially, who were kind enough to buy a tray from me. Unfortunately, I had a partner that night, so we had double the amount to sell.

So when a group of guys came through the door, we figured we were in luck. They were bankers, from Deutsche, all Indian, all men.

And not that all male Indian bankers follow the bad example this group set, but it did colour my opinion of them quite a lot. For one, they were incredibly cheap. Out of a group of seven or eight, they only bought maybe four shots. And that was with my partner cajoling them non-stop. And by cajoling, I mean she let them talk her into giving them “demonstrations” of this position that was printed on the coasters. I think they call it Woman On Top.

I feel compelled to state this: at no time during my shady job did I ever use my body to get money. I chatted, I flirted, I occasionally placed a hand on a bicep. I never gave anyone a lap dance. For one thing, should I deign to do that, you’d better be paying me for the goddamned dance and not the shots.

So I stared, aghast as she ground herself against the cheap bastards, who didn’t even buy the remaining six shots we needed to get our commission. All that for $80.

Thing is, sure you can use your looks to get ahead in life. The problem is, not everyone is like those two bengs, who just wanted my phone number, and promised not to call; it was just to show off, apparently. Sooner of later you’re going to run into slimy bastards who just want one thing and not give you much in return, and therein lies the true measure of you dignity. Some girls just go with the flow, perhaps because they don’t know better, or perhaps they are desperate enough that false hope is better than reality.

In the course of that work, I had been offered interesting proposals. Bachelors with their nice big apartments and the fat bank accounts, husbands with their big cars and also fat bank accounts, all wanting a bit of companionship, nothing too serious, just their own personal geisha. I consider myself rather gifted in that area; I make men feel like kings. Not in that way, but that I seem so interested in them, in their lives. That level of interest is just something people don’t experience very often, especially not from a young, nubile (well, I was 22 or so), attractive member of the opposite sex giving you unwavering eye contact with a smile on her face and constantly asking you to go on as you talk about yourself.

I suppose if I had less scruples or I was single I may have considered accepting an offer like that. Instant propulsion to a life of luxury. Sounds nice, doesn’t it?

Problem was I couldn’t. Even if I were single, I just couldn’t. It takes more than money and looks to truly interest me. I need that spark. Sounds corny as hell, but it’s true. I simply cannot tolerate a relationship with a man who doesn’t hold that attraction for me. And I don’t even know what that spark constitutes of, but it’s an inexplicable force that pulls us together.

And everytime I end a relationship that once had that spark, I feel horrible, yet oddly freed. Horrible, because I somehow managed to break through their defenses and meant so much to them. Freed, because while that spark exists, other men don’t seem to exist. I don’t know if that’s because I’m a serial monogamist, or that that is just some divine being’s way of telling me that one isn’t right for me anymore.

I’m not a woman who loves lightly and I cannot separate love from sex and be able to look myself in the eye. Even considering it makes me feel uncomfortable. Life might be a lot easier if I could, but it’s just not a life I’d want to lead.

Running through an empty street

Under a cloud filled sky

Trying to forget

The emptiness of missing you

To no prevail

The sea whispering Your name

The wind crying out:  “I miss you!”

*

And then I knew

How much You mean to me

More than riches

More than popularity

More than fame and stardom

*

Because only You

Only You can give me what I need most

*

A willing ear

Full of understanding

A warm shoulder

Full of comfort

And most of all

A caring heart

Full of love

Dear Ann Marie and David,

As your visit draws near, I am once again reminded of just how dramatically good our God is. You are not even here yet and already I feel blessed.

Thank you.

Thank you for taking the time to connect to Jacob, and having connected with him, to develop a relationship with us. Thank you for finding a way to work with us, to come see the place where God has planted us and the work he has laid out for us. Thank you for being missionally minded – coming with such focus on God, his will, plan, purpose, and design.

He is great, and I’m delighted to be working together (pamoja) with him, and with you. I look forward to meeting you soon, even though I already feel I know you a tiny little bit!

Be blessed. If you need anything at all, I have a BlackBerry and so does Jacob, so you should be able to reach one of us by phone, sms, email, or instant message. At any rate, we will do our best to be at the airport when you pull in on Wednesday night.

God’s travel mercies go with you!

Jeremy (for all of us here)

I know that I risk a backlash of criticism with this post. Then again, criticism doesn’t bother me. If it’s unfounded I just ignore it; if it has some elements of merit (most of it does), I learn and grow by it. Nonetheless, I’m one who likes to stir the pot and would rather get negative reactions than none at all.

So, what is the heretical statement that I’m about to make? What could possibly be so outrageous that I’m bracing myself for an onslaught of unhappy communications?

Well, I want to debunk a myth that has been prevalent in business for many years that states “The Customer Is Always Right”. To that, I say “Nonsense!” In fact, I’ll stray ever more into controversy by stating that the customer is rarely right. You business owners out there know it’s true; you just don’t want to admit it.

Let me explain. Most consumers are typically ignorant to the benefits of your products or services. Many don’t realize when they’ve received the full value of their purchase. In fact, a good majority don’t really even know what they want. Now, ignorance is not a bad thing – it’s just a state of being. It’s up to you to educate your customers. In fact, it’s vital because if you don’t your competition will.

The first step in educating anyone is to listen to them. That may seem like a contradiction, but it’s not. You first need to learn what your customers are thinking before you can determine what new information they need. Find out what their preferences are, where they hang out and with whom, and where they get their information.

With today’s advances in technology, particularly in terms of social media, it’s becoming much easier to listen to your customers.

Then, you need to give them valuable information that will help them learn. A great example of this is finding out what your customers know about your product or service line. You’ll be surprised at how little they know about you. Don’t despair – this is one of your best opportunities! Find fun and interesting ways to educate them. They will thank you for it by opening their wallets for you even more.

Another area educate your clientele is with your products themselves. How many times could you have avoided returning a product if your customer would have known the proper use, or purchased the correct product in the first place? The better you can educate your patrons the more lucrative each sale, and the happier and less frustrated they will be.

You should also inform your customers on the rules of the game. Just as each employee needs to know this, so do your customers. Tell them the channels of communication, the importance of being on time for appointments, how they should treat your staff, and how they should pay. If you don’t educate them they will make up the rules, which will not bode well for you or your staff.

Remember: educated customers will become your best advocates.

So, how do you educate your customers and prospects? What stories do you have showing that a customer was wrong, and how did you handle it?

It wasnt really till i was actually up there.
Did i realise how long have i not been to esplande rooftop.
The scenery is the same.
But everything else is just… different.

I couldnt find a reason to stay in Singapore.
So im leaving for vietnam tmrw morning till fri.
Till then…

I realise im spending hell alot of money this month.
Tabs i probly would have trouble balancing at the end of the month.
But honestly, i cant give a rat ass to that.
So happiness, just take me away

I’m getting fat.
The weights increasing.
But my muscle mass is decreasing.
The bodys getting uglier by the day.
Where the hell is the weight coming from?

Get into a nice quiet spot and read these words.  Really think and feel what you are saying to get the full effect.   “I now release all indecision and doubt, all worry and distrust, and all fear of failure.  I go forward with all the trust, all certainty, and feeling of happiness and success to accomplish what it is that I have set my mind too.  I move ahead with my conscious vision that radiates into the eternal unlimited Universe and comes to me in the time that is right for all.  I am loved and supported in everything I do.”

Lee and I will be in the office this morning recording interviews.  I love hearing different perceptions of life and how people ‘be.’  No matter who we interview someone benefits from their story.  Life  stories help me to grow within.  They help me to expand my own scope of being.  I love how we all ‘tie’ together in this Universe.  We are helping one another without even knowing it at times.  Amazing…

‘a birthday dedication’

my midnight rendervous

my dream come true..

i will be blue

if you are not true!

you are my cheeky tricks

better than playin’ pick-up-sticks

i will fall sick

if you burn me with a candle wick!

so no more wait

please, can i checkmate?

when can we go on a date?

cos’ i really cannot wait!

if i may say

you affect me like hay!

i promise not to keep you at bay

because this is your special day!

so, let me have my say

a guy with feet of clay..

that come what may

it’s you i’d love to lay!

sssshhhhh! hahahaha!

Welcome back, brothers and sisters!!!

Today we are going to discuss the parable of the wedding banquet.  This is a parable that Jesus spoke to the chief priests and Pharisees of the temple.  The parable is as follows:

“The kingdom of heaven is like unto a certain king, whcih made a marriage for his son, And sent forth his servants to call them that were bidden to the wedding:  and they would not come.  Again, he sent forth other servants, saying, ‘Tell them which are bidden, ‘Behold, I have prepared my dinner:  my oxen and my fatlings are killed, and all things are ready:  come unto the marriage.”  But they made light of it, and went their ways, one to his farm, another to his merchandise:  And the remnant took his servants, and intreated them spitefully, and slew them.”

“But when the king heard thereof, he was wroth:  and he sent forth his armies, and destroyed those murderers, and burned up their city.  Then saith he to his servants, ‘The wedding is ready, but they which were bidden were not worthy.  Go ye therefore into the highways, and as many as ye shall find, bid to the marriage.’  So those servants went out into the highways, and gathered together all as many as they found, both bad and good:  and the wedding was furnished with guests.”

“And when the king came in to see the guests, he saw there was a man which had not on a wedding garment:  And he saith unto him, ‘Friend, how camest thou in hither not having a wedding garment?’  And he was speechless.  Then said the king to the servants, ‘Bind him hand and foot, and take him away, and cast him into outer darkness;  there shall be weeping and gnashing of teeth.’  For many are called, but few are chosen.” – Mattew 22:2-14 (KJV)

Brothers and sisters, let’s break down the parable, staring with the cast.

The king of the parable represents God the Father.  The son that the king has arranged a marriage for is Jesus Christ.  The bride to be is the church of Christ, which is all who live in the Lord.  The servants that were sent out to invite the guests represent the prophets.  The first group of guests that was repeatedly invited was the Israelites, God’s chosen people.  Remember, that though many prophets were respected and revered for a time, they usually ended up being persecuted/killed by the very people they were trying to reach with God’s message.

The second group of guests are the Gentiles, or the non-Jews.  When the Jewish people repeatedly rejected the Father, His word, and ultimately Jesus Christ and the Gospel He shared, the Gentiles were blessed with the opportunity to receive the Gospel and to receive Jesus Christ as their Lord and Savior while also receiving the gift of salvation that is found only in the only begotten Son of God.

Why was the one guest in the parable cast into outer darkness for not having on a wedding garment?  The answer is simple.  Do you know what the wedding garment is that the guests were to be clothed with?  Consider the following scripture:

“I will greatly rejoice in the Lord, my soul shall be joyful in my God;  for He hath clothed me with the garments of salvation, He hath covered me with the robe of righteousness, as a bridegroom decketh himself with ornaments, and as a bride adorneth herself with her jewels.” – Isaiah 61:10 (KJV)

You see, beloved, in order to attend the marriage of the Lamb of God, we must be attired appropriately.  We know that the only person we can get the appropriate attire from is Jesus Christ.  Why?  Through Jesus our sins are washed away, our hearts are purified, and we are clothed with the robe of righteousness.  The person in the parable without the robe of righteousness was a person that had not given their life to Jesus Christ, and was subsequently not wearing the necessary robe of righteousness.  Therefore, the inappropriately attired guest offended the king (God the Father). 

Brothers and sisters, there are people in this world who call themselves Christians, yet Christ is not found anywhere in them.  Such people often assume that going to church, periodically praying, and sometimes reading the bible and quoting chapter and verse is sufficient.  These are usually people that rejoice in sin Monday through Saturday, while attempting to live a Christian life on Sunday.  These are referred to as Sunday Christians, or Convenient Christians, and they do not have a place at the Lord’s table.  Why?  Beloved, Jesus Christ is our Lord and Savior 365 days/year and 24 hours a day, 7 days a week.  Likewise, we are to be His servants at all times as well, living obediently and faithfully in serving Him.  Unfortunately, some are not sincere in their service to the Lord.  Jesus spoke of such people when He said the following about the day of judgment:

“Not everyone that saith unto Me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ shall enter into the kingdom of heaven;  but he that doeth the will of My Father which is in heaven.  Many will say to Me in that day, ‘Lord, Lord, have we not prophesied in thy name?  and in thy name have cast out devils?  and in thy name done many wonderful works?’  And then I will profess unto them, ‘I never knew you:  depart from Me, ye that work iniquity.” – Matthew 7:21-23 (KJV)

You see, beloved, while we can fool our fellow man into believing that we are someone we are not, God always knows who we are.  God knows our hearts and knows all there is to possibly know about us.  A few acts, or a few words, do not make a faithful and obedient servant in Christ.  A faithful and obedient servant of the Lord lives in service to Him at all times, while also having the Lord in his/her heart at all times.  We love His word, regularly study it, and He writes it into our hearts.  We take every opportunity to share the Lord’s love and word with anyone we can reach.  We are never ashamed to confess to others that Jesus Christ is our Lord and Savior, and Jesus is not ashamed of presenting us to the Father and speaking on our behalf.  Beloved, let’s live Christ in our lives all day, every single day.  Let’s study His word regularly as diligent students, and let’s do His work always as faithful and obedient servants are to do.  The Lord has already given us everything by blessing us with the gift of salvation by grace through faith in Jesus Christ as our Lord and Savior.  Let’s show Him how much we appreciate His sacrifice, His love, and His forgiveness by doing His work and will unceasingly and with a glad heart.

Beloved, if you have not yet received Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior, but you would sincerely like to, then please pray the following prayer:

“Lord God Almighty, I know that I am a sinner and that I am lost.  I know that I need to be saved from sin, but I also know that I can’t save myself.  Lord Jesus, I know that only You can save me.  I know that you paid for my salvation with your own life and blood on the cross.  I know that when You rose from the grave on the third day, you provided everlasting life to all who trust in You.  Right now, I lay down my life and let go of my pride, my vanity and every other sin that has kept me from You.  Lord Jesus, I now completely trust my life to You.  I open my heart to You, Lord.  Please come into my heart.  Please forgive me of all of my sins, and please accept me as Your child.  From this point on, I commit my life to You.  Please guide me and provide me strength as I begin to live the rest of my life for You.  In Your precious and matchless name I pray. Amen.”

I you just prayed that prayer, honestly seeking the Lord, then you are now saved.  The robe of righteousness is now available unto you, and though you will still face adversity in this world, you now have the Lord with you to face and overcome anything that comes your way.  Nurture your relationship with the Lord by talking to Him often through prayer with thanks and supplication, while also studying His word.  Ask the Lord to guide your every path, and follow the path that He sets before you.  You no longer serve the sins and lusts of this world.  Your chains that tied you to the things of this world have now been broken.  Serve the Lord with all your heart, and always seek His will in all things.  Welcome to the family:-)  Know that the angels in heaven are rejoicing at your decision to give your life to the Lord!!!

I want to thank you all for joining in on today’s discussion.  I hope you will be able to join us for tomorrow’s next message.

I hope you have a wonderful and blessed rest of the day.  Remember, you are loved by the very Creator of earth, the heavens, and all life with a love that is perfect, complete, and powerful beyond our present ability to fully comprehend.  Precious one, He made you in your mother’s womb, and you are very special to Him:-)

May the Lord bless you, keep you, guide you, and make His face to shine upon you and your loved ones always.

Your brother in Christ,

Rev Jason Thurwanger

what if i say yes and you say yes then i change to say no but then you still say yes?
then i say yes but you say no then you turn to yes but i change back to no?
what if i never say yes when you say yes and i say yes when you say no or i say no when you always say yes?

let us stay in the past.
and let the past belong to the past.

we need to move on, yes?

I know I’m overdue to chime in on here.  As he has mentioned, there has been a shift in things around here.

When we first met, we had discussed the fact that both of us were switches.  As our relationship progressed, it seemed that he was more a Dominant with submissive tendencies while I was a submissive with Dominant (aka stubborn and bratty) tendencies.  So, we had settled into a traditional Mdom/fsub relationship.  But, of course, we can never do things traditionally in our household so, even though he was the Dominant, he stayed home with our kids and I was the breadwinner of the family.  I can admit now that there were many times where this situation did not sit well with me but I didn’t feel comfortable enough with taking on a Dominant role.  His sexual experiences way outnumber mine so I felt intimidated that I wouldn’t do as well as other lovers he had.

Prior to our move, things were not well – lots of stress, little to no sex – so, once we were finally done getting everything moved in, we were both frustrated.  When I get frustrated and stressed, I tend to withdraw, which made things even worse.  Once I did start to get my sex drive back, I kept leaning towards teasing and torturing him.  Eventually, this spawned a turn towards a Mommy/little boy relationship.  I’m not a harsh Mistress by any means, hence the Mommy role.  It was a pleasant experience for me because he is such a responsive slut and thoughtful little boy.  We even started looking at harnesses and new dildos for me to use on him.  I thought to myself that I finally had gotten the control in the relationship that I had wanted.

However, while this relationship was developing, conversation had sparked between myself and one of my friends on twitter.  We actually ended up doing a bit of roleplaying the first night we really talked.  The interesting twist to things was that we had done a Daddy/babygirl RP.  So, yes, I was engaging in one side online and the other in real life with him.  It caused a bit of strife in the first couple days but we talked through it and decided that this would be the best course for now….until today.

This post was actually going to take a different slant except a couple things I read today shed some light for me.  I have been lurking and following bad bad girl’s journey into a new D/s relationship and her post today struck a chord with me.  I have been reading a daybook on simple living and one of the entries I was catching up on talked about answered prayers.  Most people don’t think about the fact that, if your prayer is answered, you then have to take responsibility for what comes of it.  Also, most of the time, what you actually ask for is not what you are needing (i.e., asking for a soulmate when what you need is the self-confidence to be the person to attract your soulmate).  Through discussion, I realized that, when I wanted more control in the relationship, what I really needed was a greater sense of appreciation and validation from him.  I think the past couple weeks have been some sort of cosmic test/reminder/kick in the tail of where I fit in and what my role is.  So, we are back to our old arrangement of Daddy/babygirl.  But, all in all, I learned a valuable lesson – I finally see how a polyamorous arrangement would be beneficial for us.  I have a deep-seated need for affection and attention from my childhood (long story for another day) – so, while the relationship I have with him has been very good, it’s not quite enough for me.  I realize that statement sounds a little greedy and maybe I am.  We already have been in talks with a female friend, who we both agree would be a good addition to our relationship as we both would be involved intimately with her.  But now, our definition of our ideal poly relationship has expanded to include a male play partner for myself.  He has stated that he would allow me alone time with my partner but he would also want the option to be involved in our play at some point.

So, there will be more exploring and an adjustment period while we settle back into our roles but it should be an interesting ride.

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This is where I chime in. I have to say first off I’m glad to have my babygirl back. I’ve missed her a great deal despite enjoying my role as of late. We both learned a great deal from this time reversed. I learned I really am a bit of a wanton whore. Go ahead, get the ‘duh, obvious’ out of the way. I’ll wait. *tick* *tock* *tick* *tock* Done now? Ok, as I was saying. Aside from a really spiked interest in anal play and being tormented/tortured at night in bed [and I hope both continue...damn did I sleep good those nights], I realized how often I openly sought validation for my actions from her. I plan to keep that in mind and offer it to her without her being quite as pressing [read annoying, I'm sure she does] as I was. I also feel I have a better handle on myself, to the point where a short bit of notice and some play to help me along should make it easy to briefly flip the switch as it were. That way when she does feel like being Mommy again, or beating me with the flogger and what not [yes, open invitation] to get out her aggression, there won’t be a tug of war for control. If I go much further I might as well start a post of my own, so I’ll end with this. I’m happy to have my girl back after my time with Mommy and I’m going to make sure she doesn’t forget that anytime soon.