So one of my friends found a store that sells UNREFINED shea butter!!…YAAAYYYY!!!  I have been wanting to get my hands on some for a while and even ordered some online ( but it hasn’t gotten here yet) but anyways, I got my hands on some shea butter and couldn’t wait to try out my own moisturizer mixture!  So I watched one of my new found gurus on YouTube, and saw how she mixed hers with coconut oil so I decided to try my hand at this new found obsession and see how it came out…. I did mine with 8 ounces of shea butter –melted on low heat, with 2 tablespoons of tea tree oil, and 2 tablespoons of carrot oil, and 1 tablespoon of a mix of vitamin e oil, carrot oil, and tea tree oil.  I’m hoping that I didn’t overdo it with the oils, but that’s what I put in it.  So now I’m just waiting to see how it’s going to come out!  From the video that I watched (whose link I will post at the bottom) she says that you’re supposed to let it sit at room temperature until it solidifies then use as you wish… so now I guess there’s nothing to do but wait and let it so its thing and marinate a bit then I’m going to wash my hair and see how it turns out!  I have never been this excited about a hair product before in my life.  I never knew that I would commit to what all it takes to maintain my natural hair–and it takes a lot!  But this I’m hoping will be my new staple!!…  Of course I had to call my girl Shams and let her know that I was about to embark on this journey of hair concoctions, and she was just as excited as I was!!  (Shout out to Shams)  But I am sooo anxious at this point!  This feeling that I’m experiencing is the equivalent to a child at Christmas time!  So I guess I wait!….

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I’m happy.  I’m relaxed. My mind is at ease. The blockage of thoughts is finally filtered

Rent Inspections – The point? I’m not sure, I’ve only had one since I’ve been in my house for the better part of two years.  I was meant to have one last week. My gal and I had the day off, Swallowed some No-Doze, Chased it with Red-bull and proceeded on the dust, cobwebs, linen, rubbish, toilet rolls and food remnants around the house. Pasta thrown on the wall for checking time.  If it sticks, its ready. Also some on the roof.  Sticky blue streamers aligning the walls from many a party ago. Glass throughout the house swept into piles, then the vacuum broke. Doh.

I hope when they inspect today (after missing the one last week) They realised how hot the god damn place is in summer. Perhaps I should have waited till today to Alfoil my windows. I slept in utter darkness, not awoken by the rays of light bouncing off the colourbond fence 1 metre away from my head. I woke up to a dark cool room. You have no idea how happy this makes me. I’m eagerly ecstatic to sleep in tomorrow!! yay!! Actually, I have my work Christmas party tonight at a nightclub, and I’ve given up my spot in the shared hotel room with my mates, to help a girlfriend out so she can stay with her man, and so I can sleep in, not only a dark room, oh no. But a CLEAN room (Domestos even used – Although it did stain some things) with CLEAN sheets and it just feels so damn CLEAN!

The guests tomorrow night who somehow end up in my room (as we always do) are going to be gobsmacked with the space of it. and the fact its CLEAN!

I’m quite anxious over who may be present tomorrow night. I mean last time I was so incoherently wasted prior to anyone arriving that I still don’t recall who was actually there. therefore, it doesn’t matter. However I plan to be soberly straight for the entire event of tomorrow, thus my conflicting anxiety kicks in. Perhaps I will just share a few joints and let the good times roll. The music was over powered last time and fights broke out over it. This time, people have requested they bring their own music onto made up cds and iPods etc. The night IS about MY Gal and I so therefore, we will change the music as we see fit..

It has also come to my attention that my light brown fluffy hair above my lip, has this year become more prominent. I said I never would but the time has come to swallow my words. I’m waxing my upper lip. God have mercy. I’m allergic to some waxes, the last thing I want is to look like a swollen buffoon at my work do tonight, and my event tomorrow!!

On the upnote, Meeting a guy tonight that I’ve been smsing and talking to on the neat and phone for almost six weeks now..  First one to be vulgar, or dirty etc. I’m liking it, ready to meet him.

PS: I’ve been maintaining abstinence.
PPS: It’s make me horny as hell *TMI
PPSS: My Gal and I have been best friends for 8 years and one day!!

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A lobster, when left high and dry among the rock, does not have the sense enough to work his way back to the sea, but waits for the sea to come to him. If it does not come, he remains where he is and dies, although the slightest effort would enable him to reach the waves, which are perhaps within a yard of him. The world is full of human lobsters; people stranded on the rocks of indecision and procrastination, who, instead of putting forth their own energies, are waiting for some grand billow of good fortune to set them afloat.
-Orison Swett Marden

     It’s nearly bedtime and before going to bed  I just wanted to write a quick update on the battle of the insomnia.  I’ve finally finished doing some things I’ve been putting off for entirely too long and am amazed how those little things that we try to put off can add up and multiply over time.  I’m feeling amazingly relaxed now that the worst is over and think that I may actually be able to get a full nights sleep this time!  Maybe it was just worry keeping me up.  Just in case, I’m also going to try a tip that a friend gave me and turn down the heater a little.  Supposedly people sleep better in cool (not cold) rooms.  Slightly skeptical, but willing to give it a shot.   Wish me luck and now, good night.  

After some very needed vacation we’re back on and trying again.

We got back from Poland on the 27th and by the 30th I already had an appointment with my doctor. He wanted to see me right away and I was very ok with that.

So we started treatment again. I’ve been taking wonderful shots since December 2nd. Yes….shots, in my stomach. To make things even more “interesting” I’ve been taking 2 different medications as of December 6th. My last double shot was the 14th and man was I happy about that.

Yesterday I went to see my doctor again and it seems that my follicles are all ready to go.  Last night I did my last shot to make those follicles release those eggs. Tomorrow morning is going to be the big day for me.

We’ll have our IUI tomorrow and I’m super excited. I’m already a little sore from the medications and I can’t imagine how tomorrow is going to feel.

Thankfully I’m taking tomorrow off. I want to be able to wake up relaxed and get ready for my appointment, then we can head straight home, snuggle under the covers and watch some movies. Just have some one on one time with my sweet husband.

Then I’ll enter the dreadful two week wait. It’s the worst but I’ll somehow get through it. right?! yes, right.

The holidays are just around the corner and at times I get way too emotional but hopefully we’ll have some great news from this treatment and I’ll be able to be emotional for a good reason.

Pray – Pray – Pray.

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That’s how my mum describes me. Mostly because I don’t let her see me stressing out, but whatever. It’s a pretty accurate epithet at the moment.

The (thankfully extended) deadline for my coursework is in approximately twenty and a half hours.

I haven’t done anything.

Mostly, I’m laughing at myself right now.

Because, well, stuff gets done, doesn’t it? Eventually.

I’m waiting for the “oh, shit” moment. That moment when it hits me that I actually have to do stuff in order for stuff to get done.

I can’t make myself get worked up about it.

I’m cheerful. I’m relaxed. I’ve been dancing around my room, dancing around my flat…walking around campus with a definite spring in my step. Everything’s fine.

Nothing matters. My coursework’ll get done. It won’t be the best thing I’ve ever written, but I have the feeling that the best thing I’ve ever written was written when I was about twelve or something. Every since then I’ve been doing just enough, and hopefully what I do will continue to be enough.

It’s fine.

I know I should be tearing my hair out over this coursework.

But I’m happy, and I just have this feeling that everything’s going to be okay.

Edit: It got done. Of course it did. With about three hours to spare, which could almost be called forward planning, for me. Of course, it was probably terrible, but no probem. It’s done.

That last post really made me think. Not so much the commitment about living consciously but the part about New Year’s resolutions. I know that I’ve been struggling with several issues in my life for quite some time now and I have been forced to realize this, even more so, through the monitoring of my daily actions over the past few weeks. I was reading a few of my posts and I have found them a little shallow. I feel that before I can begin to think about the consequences of my actions on the environment and on society, there are several aspects of my life which I need to correct. What’s the point of everything else if you’re unhappy with your life? I know this will not be easy, since many of these issues I have tried to work on with my psychologist for quite some time, but I am deeply committed to succeeding. The few aspects of my life I would like to work on first are procrastination, bed time, wake up time and diet. I will be keeping track of my daily activities, hour by hour, and at the end of the day I will grade these four categories on a scale from one to ten. I don’t know if this will work, but I have to try it. If it doesn’t help, then I’ll try to think of something else.

Procrastination: I have a very serious problem with procrastination. I’m really ashamed to admit it, but it’s really become sort of a decease. It has put all of my semesters at McGill at serious jeopardy. Just to show you what I’m talking about, my previous semester at McGill, I didn’t do any school work for the whole second half of the semester. I worked day and night the week before my finals, all the while skipping classes, just to catch up on my readings and homework. I promised myself that it wouldn’t happen again, but here I am. The semester at McGill is technically over and I haven’t finished all my assignments. Again, I’m working hard all day every day to finish and I even need to ask a few of my professors for additional extensions. But procrastination doesn’t just occur for school work. It governs every single aspect of my life, from replying to e-mails to cleaning my apartment to doing the laundry and the dishes to buying groceries. My grandparents sent me an email on August 30^th to which I still haven’t replied. And it’s not the first email that they write to me for which this happens. It’s probably the 2^nd or 3^rd in a row. Just writing this, I’m starting to tear up. I feel like such an awful person. I feel like a failure.  I don’t understand why I have such a hard time doing such simple things. It’s the same thing with dishes or laundry. Stuff just piles up until I have absolutely nothing to wear or to eat in. I often have to wash a single glass or plate by hand because everything else is dirty. Same with food, I don’t do groceries unless there’s absolutely nothing to eat in the house.  And when I say nothing, it’s literally nothing. More than once, I didn’t have anything to eat for a whole day and, by the time I convinced myself to go out, the grocery store had already closed and I had to buy something at the convenience store. I have really dark thoughts. I keep telling myself that everything will be hard and difficult and that I really don’t feel like doing them. I tell myself that I’ll do them tomorrow. But things just keep dragging on and on and nothing ever gets done. I don’t really know how things have come to this, but I know that I can’t live like this anymore. This is why procrastination is the most important thing I need to work on. I’ve decided to start a procrastination list. Whenever there’s something which I put off, then I have to write it on the list. If I think about it again, then I have to write a checkmark next to it on the list. At the end of the day, I will go over my procrastination list and write next to each item how long I believe the task will take me. Also, the item with the most checkmarks will be scheduled as the first thing I do the following day. I will also use Outlook to schedule my workday from 8AM to 6PM, as this usually ensures greater productivity.

Bed time & wake up time: I go to bed late. But when I say late, it’s insanely late. At my worse, I can go to bed at around 6 or 7 in the morning. This doesn’t really happen anymore, but it did for a while. Things are better now because I’m taking a medication at night which makes me really drowsy, but I still go to bed a little later than I would like. I understand why I do it. I spend my day procrastinating, telling myself that I’ll do X, Y and Z tomorrow and I begin to dread the next day, because I know that it won’t be enjoyable. Going to bed late is a way for me to push back tomorrow. What usually happens is that the next day I wake up very late. By the time I shower and eat it starts to get dark outside. I don’t like doing schoolwork at night so I push things off to the next day. I don’t like working in the evening because the times when I do it are extremely stressful. I only work at night when I’m in really big trouble. So this is the second thing which I want to work on. Ideally, I’d like to go to bed at midnight and wake up at 8AM.

Diet: When I say diet, I don’t mean following some crazy diet to lose weight. For the past two years, I’ve been exercising a lot and there have been prolonged periods of time where I’ve been extremely careful about what I eat. I haven’t done any diets, but I’ve followed meal plans which were combined to my exercise plan. I’ve measured everything I ate, counted calories, drank 2-3 liters of water per day, I’ve done all that. Overall, I’ve lost around 30 pounds. Since then, I’ve continued to exercise a lot, because it’s something that I love doing, but I’ve seriously relaxed my diet. I also tend to binge on food whenever I get stressed or depressed. More recently, my pattern has been eating very little during the day and binging late in the evening. My goal is not to go back on a strict meal plan, but I am now very aware of what I should be eating and in what proportions. My main goal is not to binge at night. One of the side effects of that medication I take in the evening is that it makes you hungry, so things have been a lot worse recently. Other than not binging in the evening, I also would like to watch what I eat. This means trying to eat healthy, enough fruits and vegetables, not too much fat and sugar, not too many calories, etc.

When asked with one days notice if I would photograph one of my dearest friends wedding I replied ‘of course’… That said I had to cancel a shoot at the Auckland marathon and the baby shower that was to follow.  Of course it was amazing care free day and I would not have missed it for the world.

I studied photography with this beautiful bride. No Pressure. A very easy and fun wedding.

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I admit that tonight went better than I expected. I can be kind of pessimistic about things and then the opposite usually happens. But I will walk in shame with my head held high.

Tonight was the second to the last class and it hasn’t hit me the way I thought. Probably because I have been so stressed out and being occupied with my art and trying to write at the same time.  I do expect next week to be a bittersweet day for me. But until then..

Our goal was learning personality types for this session. I can now describe people fairly well,  by appearance and how they behave. That’s really cool that I can say that now. I did have some trouble remembering past words, but I tried not to let that show too much. I like keeping up appeances that way. But I really do need to study..who knows I might end up be a translator at some point.

So every week we are paired in groups either at the beginning of the class or at the very end. But tonight I was with someone else for a little while. I was paried with a funny dude named Carry then I got to learn some aspects of his life. And my group had always been the same, a really nice couple from the town next to mine. I’ve learned a lot about their them and their family, plus they are really awesome people in general. I will miss them the most.

But I can’t really complain about anything tonight. I thought I was pretty relaxed. And guess what..no migraines or panic attacks. I can’t say that next week will lack these aggravations, but the finality of it all will override anything I’m feeling. But I can’t stop thinking about next week. Has it been 12 weeks already? I was a bitter soul a few months back and then suddenly I wish to see more of people I don’t know.

A few people said they are signing up for Sign Language Part 1 again to relearn everything. And they teacher made a comment about us being “a big happy family”. I chuckled. Because part of me wants that. Just a little bit of light in my life is all I’m asking for here. I don’t know what my answer is yet..should I sign up again? Just to keep myself busy and possibly ignore the pessimistic part of myself. I have about month to think about it. But really, I’d rather move on.

But the nice people I met will always be with me in my thoughts.

It’s gotten down to the wire now and I’m feeling a bit overwhelmed. Am I supposed to feel this way about people I don’t know? Even if we did share so many hours together? I become attached to things too quickly. That’s something that I can’t control, but I do hide it.

CJay out.

• Do not eat or drink caffeine before you go to bed.  Particularly sugary foods and grain
• Do not watch TV in your bedroom.  Remember the bedroom should be turned into a Temple of Sleep.  Therfore only sleep in the bedroom and your unconcinous mind will associate the bedroom surroundings to sleep.  However this does not exclude the other activity that is associated to the bedroom.  I should not have to spell it out.
• If you often find yourself at night worrying about things from work, a family issue or a disagreement,or an event that has not happened yet, then write your worries down on a list 30 minutes before you go to bed.  You will find that this will unburden your mind.  It means that you can wake up refreshed to tackle your list.  This will help you quantify your problems.  Your problems written down on a small list  will become less frightening than have them building up in your mind.
• Keep a moderate temperature in your bedroom.  It is a common fact that most people who suffer insomnia, have their bedrooms too warm.
•  Avoid alcohol.  Yes, alcohol makes us go drowsy but it prevents us having a good night’s sleep.  Alcohol stops us  going to a deeper stage of sleep and it is in those stages that our body and mind gets true rest.
• Do not clock watch.  Put the clock out of view and reach.
• Exercising regularly will help us feel more relaxed before we go to bed.
• You should not do any work or any real mental activty an hour before you go to bed.
• Try and get your body clock working consistently.  Therefore try and go to  bed at the same time every night and that goes for waking up in the morning.  Also avoid sleeping during the day if you are not on night shift.
• If you are taking over counter drugs and this may be affecting your sleep then do not be afraid to ask for some guidelines from your doctor. 

Remember from now on your bedroom is a Temple of Sleep therefore you are going to worship your new sleep pattern.   If you want more advice then please contact us on 07747367479 or go to our website www.aklhypnotherapysolutions.com.  The AKL Team wishes you sweet dreams.

When I think about my logo, chamomile tea, I immediately think of its medicinal properties of relaxation and a calmness. When I think about what relates the best to my logo in terms of the real world, I immediately think of a hug. When somebody wraps their arms around me in a tight hug and holds me close, I basically melt. I can’t think of anything more calming than a hug. It has the power to make you feel safe, loved and relaxed all at the same time.

I also am reminded of the mythological sirens. Sirens used their calming and beautiful voices to lure sailors. When I think of a siren, I think of them having this extreme relaxing effect that envelopes anyone who is near them. Sirens were also said to calm the winds of the seas, tying in perfectly with the theme of fear/calm of my mystory.

Though sirens have a calming effect, they are deadly. Stay away!

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