My apologies, people,for not writing over the past few weeks. I was battling demons of many sorts and natures.

My computer, my PC and my Ipad all gave up on me. So its off to the repairers to get it all fix and going.My Ipad is unsavable- if ever there is such a word. I’m now back to using the laptop which has a new screen and a so- so keyboard. The optimist in me always say- its better than nothing.

Yes, I’ve been battling demons at workplace. Inner demons as well as real demons in the form of staff, both teachers and aides. It frustrated me. I spent the last few weeks toying the idea of leaving but the challenge of working in this school constantly seduced me. Its only 6 weeks I’ve been at this school but I have rocked the boat big time, creating Titanic waves and that included an 4 page long email to the principal which caused her to avoid me for days.

I have had to step back and questioned my intention of doing what I’m doing.Am I doing it because I am power crazed? Am I doing this because I am arrogant? Am I doing this because I have a strong sense of justice, a strong sense of duty of care and the need to be the voice for the ASD boys in my class. Why can’t I just be quiet? Maybe I am mad but it needs to be done.

Where do I start? I’ve always wanted to time travel.By being at this school, I have been miraculously transported to the 80′s.The methodology, the practices , the thinking and the culture of the school are still based on that time.Wow! I’ve never been in a place like this school.

Discipline is carried out physically:- a wedgie, a tweak on the ear, the hands and lordy lord, physical restraints.

Teaching time is relaxing for some of the teachers:- I give the child work and then I chat on the phone  or I hate the colour of my class so I get the children to paint the class during curriculum time etc.

Assessments- what’s that? Why bother? They cannot learn.

Structure, Intervention startegies, sensory integration- That’s bullshit!

New changes:- why do we have to change when things have been working so well for the past twenty years.

Individualisation of work program:- Just photocopy a page of colouring and let the child do it.

Get my drift?….. Now you understand why I am frustrated?

Handover of information:- None.I had no information about who my kids were. Just had bits and pieces. The last reports filed in most of their files were dated 2008.

I have a class of 11 ASD teenagers from the ages of 14-16, with varying degrees of needs and communication.These boys have been in the school system for the past decade or so , with no structure , intervention and proper educational programs. They have been dumbed down. They are educable but have been dismissed as not teachable because of various needs, behaviours and the inability of the staff to engage them. All these children have been handpicked from 11 classes and a new class created so that they are all together.

I do not know all about autism and children. I’m no expert. I have no kids of my own. All i have is my passion , my desire to keepon learning and hence, constant reading and learning and my strong sense of justice. I’m still learning and will do so till the day I die.

When the boys came to class on the first day, I had structure.I had euclyptus burning in the class and soft muisc playing in the background.Their places were all ready and clearly marked so they knew where they had to sit. They knew where to put their lunch boxes and where to put the communication books. They then sat down at circle time. How do they know how to do that? I had put their chairs there so they had to find their names and sit down.

Boundaries for behaviours at group time

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I didn’t start the session talking. I started the session doing sensory integration activities, getting them calm and relaxed. The eucalyptus smell is alerting. I noticed there were a few of them who came to class in either high arousal, low arousal and one in almost shut down mode. Two were still in sleep mode. The music helped them be calm. The sounds of waves beating on the shore rhythmically helped to synchronise and regulate their hearts to beat at normal pace. We then do blowing out of candles. The candle/flame helped them focus on something concrete instead of on their thoughts which were probably racing at 200kmph. Blowing out of the candles helped to regulate their breath.When we are scared, we tend to breathe quickly and take shallow breaths.

Once I noticed a shift in energy in them, I then talked to them and told them of the schedule for the day. Mind you..this is the first time they saw me and I saw them. I went through the day, the week, the weather, their feeelings.It was like we knew each other and they started participating. We then went out for heavy body work in the disguise of exercise which they thoroughly enjoyed. When we came back to class, we did some table top work.

I did all these to do to set a routine and structure for them and also to assess their abilities, though informally. By our sixth week, they were well into the routine, adjusting to changes which were presented to them visually. They would come to class, scan the schedule to see what was happening on that day, and then carry out activities with no dramas.

People walked into the class said they have never seen the kids like that before. We took them out on excursion and I was told by the driver that he had never seen them like that before. I had meetings with some parents and they reported how happy their kids seemed. I was told that one non-verbal ASD child would always pick at his skin, and then the scabs but his parents reported that he had not been doing it at all since he started school this year. I had not seen it at all in allof the six weeks with them. In fact Mum reported that as soon as she told him to get up to go to school , he jumped out of bed.

Another child started talking about school to his parents, something he had never done at all in his ten years at that school. Few other parents reported that their children seemed happier and one or two would be upset if they cannot come to school that day.

Am I a magician? Do I have special children understand powers? No…its the structure, the visuals, the visual supports , the clear boundaries etc that helped the children understand what they have to do, how much they have to do, what to do next, when to finish and what to do when finished?Not hard.

I also didn’t have to deal with challenging behaviours in my class even though I was warned constantly. Howevre I saw four hissy fits that occured with the same child from my class. It was started by other teachers who decided to deal with this child’s behaviour the primitive way:- restraints. They felt they knew this child better than me and had dealt with his behaviours since prep and therefore, were experts.

To me, if the same behaviour techniques were administered on the same child over the last ten years, then it is not dealing with the behaviour. It is actually reinforcing a behaviour. The child has been aggressive because he learnt aggression from them. This child has learnt to be violent because they taught him violence. Is it his fault or their fault that he is like this?

When doing a behaviour modification program, we need to understand that we are either managing/shaping the behaviour, extinguishing the behaviour or reinforcing a behaviour. And in trying to manage/shape a behaviour, a rule of thumb should apply. If after three days of introducing a behaviour program (this is if you see the child on a daily basis) and nothing has shifted, we need to change a variable. This is something that we should be doing actively so that something shifted instead of doing the same intervention for the next ten years and reinforcing a bad behaviour instead.

We need to be thinkers and proactive . If something doesn’t work, what can I add, change , reduce to create a better outcome?

When I raised these, I was met with blank stares , quizzical looks and raised eyebrows. When I talked about no hands policy and the legalities of using restraints, it was like I spoke in a foreign language. When I questioned if he has had a meltdown or a temper tantrum, they looked at me like I was dumb. The teacher with The Jack of Spades hairstyle told me authoritatively that she had dealt with his behaviour that way since he was in preps and that had always been the way. The Troll Doll teacher (I kid you not- her hair is like that Troll doll) declared that she would not have him in her class unless he is assigned another aide.

Lordy Lord. The changes that must occur in this place. The challenges I must face. The battles I must fight. It will all begin with a single step forward. Onward,march.

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Philip Glass — Morning Passages

“I’m doing this so that people who feel their lives are over, or they don’t know how to have an intimate relationship, that they can find a way back again into living.”

“The idea is to rescue myself from the role of a victim. That I have a choice left. Though I can’t change what has happened, I can choose how to react. And I don’t want to spend the rest of my life being afraid of intimacy and afraid to cry and rage for what was stolen from me. I will not be silent. I will tell my story out loud and share it with others who also need to heal.”

“People out there must be told about the self-loathing that follows rape and child abuse and sexual abuse and how it’s the greatest breakage in divine law that has been done. The trust that is broken. Being used and threatened with harm and death of yourself and those you love.”

“You decide whether you look at your reality or live pretending these feelings don’t exist. They do exist. You feel ashamed that you think you let your abusers do this to you, like you had any choice in being sexual, emotionally, physically and psychologically abused. There was no choice. The abusers stole your power away from you.”

“You have to crawl into the wounds to discover what your fears are. You have to gently rip open the wounds that have been infected for years. They need to bleed in order to allow the cleansing to begin. Once the bleeding starts, the cleansing can begin. Then the healing can start to happen.”

“I think you have to know who you are, get to know the monster that lives in your soul, dive deep into your soul and explore it. Their are voices of an angel and a demon sitting on your shoulders and they each tell you what you should do. Listen carefully and then tell the demon to go fuck the hell off and stop filling your mind with lies. You can trust certain people who care. Let them in when it feels right to you. If they prove themselves then keep listening to the voice of the angel telling you that the demon is lying to you. The person or persons you trust are not pretending or abandoning you. They care and they love you and are there for you. Just keep remembering that when the doubt sets in. For it will try to betray your mind into thinking upside down. You have to fight the lies and remember the truth.”

“I see the dream and I see the nightmare, and I believe you can’t have the dream without the nightmare. The nightmare is real. The abuse did happen. It will be inside of you but you don’t have to let it control you. You will need to do a great deal of work to heal from the nightmare but the dream is there for you to believe in and build on. You do have people who care and there are people who will help you to heal. Just let them in and they will be there for you. Let them be.”

“I think that the nightmares are telling me things about myself that I need to know. And I try to understand what they mean, so I can get to know something more about my soul. Listen to what your heart and body and soul are saying. Let go of the evil that was done to you. Those who were evil and abused you are gone now. They may haunt you but you have the power within to fight them. Don’t let them in. Push them away. Feel your own power and the power of those around you who are good and who support you in your healing. Feel their love and strength and your own love and strength that you give to yourself. It is okay to feel the love from within yourself and from those who are giving you love. It is okay to accept their love and to feel your own. And it is okay to love those people who love you and care about you and want to see you heal.”

“Anger is healthy, but out of balance if it doesn’t have compassion. Feeling your emotions are okay but to rage at those who love you needs to be brought under control. Emotions are just that emotions. Feelings are a way to express what emotions are coming up from inside of you. Working with a psychotherapist will help you to understand how you can learn to express what your emotions are and how to feel your feelings. It is okay to feel love again. It will help you to heal. Those special people who tell you and remind you all the time that they love you and care for you. Believe them. They are speaking the truth. You can see the evidence all the time in what and how they show they care and love you. And it is okay to love them back and to care for them. They are not going to be anything like the abusers. They are not going try to hurt you. They are not going to try to abandon you. They are not going to make you do anything against your will. You are safe with them. Keep this in your mind and remind yourself all the time that they love you and you can love them. There is nothing wrong with loving someone you care about. It is good to feel love and to tell someone you care and that you love them also.”

“I am finding that vulnerability gives me great strength, because you’re not hiding anymore. It is difficult to be vulnerable but it is okay. It helps you to build close relationships with those people who have shown you that you can trust them. Don’t be afraid to open up your thoughts and feeling to them no matter how scary it may feel. It is safe to trust them with whatever you are going through inside. They will be honest in return. You need to claim your life back that was stolen from you. Intimacy is a very important part in feeling and sharing love and to building a relationship with friends you feel close to and want to feel close to or closer to.”

Just some thoughts and feelings… by jk the secret keeper

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