“You cannot travel the path until you become the path itself.” – Buddha

Hello and welcome back after a short break. I was busy and didn’t get much time close to keep writing but I have not stopped.

I hope you watched the stars in the last 2 weeks, the Perseids made an amazing sky-show. I never seen falling stars that big and beautiful in my life. That being said the next astrological event will be in the night of 31st, when there will be a “blue moon” – the second full moon in the same month, the 13th full moon of the year – appears of a blue-lavander color on the last night of august. If time is with us we will prepare a small ceremony to celebrate this event and take advantage of the special night.

Thats all for now, I wish you peace and love wherever you are…

PS: I’d like to get some opinions on the next theme :

No one is free when others are oppressed. – Anonymous

I don’t even know where to start with this, but I want to say that no words can make justice to this experience. It was something that you read in books or shamans tell you stories about it. I cannot stop feeling humble in front of this experience and mother nature.

It was something far more than chemicals acting in the brain, there was intent, feeling and much greater powers than ourselves. It was something that carried me into hundreds of years and tens of human lives and deaths.

Death – the thing we fear the most, yet it is the thing we avoid talking about. We fear death because we don’t understand life beyond this human form. We hold on so dearly to our lives and the lives of our loved ones and we don’t allow them or ourselves to make this transition.

I was dead so many times in that night that it didn’t even matter. I just had to accept that I had to die in order to appreciate life. I was dead in every layer of what I thought it was myself. All that was left was the smallest piece of life, the basis of what was keeping me alive, and I accepted to let go of that freely because nothing would change if I would die in that moment.

Death only is important for the ego, because the soul never dies. And we have so much ego, in so many layers over our true self that we have to die many times to see what we are. It is something that nobody should go trough to know themselves but everybody should experience it to know.

Something much more powerful took control over me – some kind of energy – not some chemicals reacting over my body. Jolts of energy were running trough my whole body and it was making it shake and contract uncontrollably and my breathing was erratic and chaotic. I lost control and had to accept letting go of my body. Even though I could hear everything around me, it was somewhere in the background. I couldn’t speak even if inside my mind I was screaming for help and wanting to make it stop, until I realized that the only way is trough.

Deep inside of myself I knew that the Grandfather and the Masters were taking care of me and I was safe, but my mind couldn’t stop thinking that I may not see the day of tomorrow. Terror was running trough my body until I let go and everything stopped. I don’t know if I fell asleep, if I was dead or even if I was breathing. All I know is that everything was beautiful, I was so calm and at peace, finally.

This is only a minute part of what happened that night, because I don’t know if I can explain in words what happened then; and if I can, it would take me a long time to do it. I hope I managed to get the essence of the experience because the feelings cannot be described.

I can only feel humble in front of the knowledge that came trough me. It was what I needed, what we all needed and it connected all of us in a way that was unreal.

San Pedro – coming from the earth, cooked trough fire, water and air and carrying the etheric power of intent – became a Teacher that carried us into unimaginable worlds and dimensions that we never thought would be possible. I am grateful for this experience, even if it was the most terrifying, intense but beautiful and blissful experience of my life.

It makes you feel self responsible because you know that only you allowed  yourself to have this experience and that you have powers far beyond imagination. It kills the ego in every way to reveal your true self to you. It is something magical that happens in other worlds far from our understanding.

Would you drink heaven if it was brewed in hell?

It is good to be alive !

I’m sorry, but I don’t want to be an emperor. That’s not my business. I don’t want to rule or conquer anyone. I should like to help everyone, if possible, Jew, gentile, black man, white. We all want to help one another. Human beings are like that. We want to live by each other’s happiness — not by each other’s misery. We don’t want to hate and despise one another.
In this world there is room for everyone. And the good earth is rich and can provide for everyone. The way of life can be free and beautiful, but we have lost the way. Greed has poisoned men’s souls, has barricaded the world with hate, has goose-stepped us into misery and bloodshed. We have developed speed, but we have shut ourselves in. Machinery that gives abundance has left us in want. Our knowledge has made us cynical. Our cleverness, hard and unkind. We think too much and feel too little. More than machinery we need humanity. More than cleverness we need kindness and gentleness. Without these qualities, life will be violent and all will be lost.
The aeroplane and the radio have brought us closer together. The very nature of these inventions cries out for the goodness in men, cries out for universal brotherhood, for the unity of us all. Even now my voice is reaching millions throughout the world — millions of despairing men, women and little children — victims of a system that makes men torture and imprison innocent people. To those who can hear me, I say — do not despair. The misery that is now upon us is but the passing of greed — the bitterness of men who fear the way of human progress. The hate of men will pass, and dictators die, and the power they took from the people will return to the people and so long as men die, liberty will never perish.
Soldiers! Don’t give yourselves to brutes — men who despise you — enslave you — who regiment your lives — tell you what to do — what to think or what to feel! Who drill you, diet you, treat you like cattle, use you as cannon fodder. Don’t give yourselves to these unnatural men — machine men with machine minds and machine hearts! You are not machines! You are not cattle! You are men! You have the love of humanity in your hearts. You don’t hate! Only the unloved hate — the unloved and the unnatural!
Soldiers! Don’t fight for slavery! Fight for liberty! In the 17th Chapter of St. Luke it is written: “the Kingdom of God is within man” — not one man nor a group of men, but in all men! In you! You, the people have the power — the power to create machines. The power to create happiness! You, the people, have the power to make this life free and beautiful, to make this life a wonderful adventure.
Then, in the name of democracy, let us use that power! Let us all unite! Let us fight for a new world, a decent world that will give men a chance to work, that will give youth the future and old age a security. By the promise of these things, brutes have risen to power, but they lie! They do not fulfill their promise; they never will. Dictators free themselves, but they enslave the people! Now, let us fight to fulfill that promise! Let us fight to free the world, to do away with national barriers, to do away with greed, with hate and intolerance. Let us fight for a world of reason, a world where science and progress will lead to all men’s happiness.
Soldiers! In the name of democracy, let us all unite!
[Cheers]
Hannah, can you hear me? Wherever you are, look up, Hannah. The clouds are lifting. The sun is breaking through. We are coming out of the darkness into the light. We are coming into a new world, a kindlier world, where men will rise above their hate, their greed and brutality. Look up, Hannah. The soul of man has been given wings, and at last he is beginning to fly. He is flying into the rainbow — into the light of hope, into the future, the glorious future that belongs to you, to me and to all of us. Look up, Hannah. Look up.

This is one of the most touching speeches I have heard in my life. It goes beyond the words themselves to the voice that said them – Charlie Chaplin – and I think he really believed in what was he saying.

I wanted to incorporate this in what I had in mind to write about today, even though it may not fit on the theme… or maybe it does. Ignorance is the strongest enemy  I deal with everyday. It is so easy to close your mind to new things and stay in a safe place of ignorance. The path I’ve taken is surely not an easy one, because to know the true truth means that you have to go trough all the lies and fake ideas we ( or others ) set up in our heads. I notice that most people cannot handle the real truth just because they simply do not want to understand the process of acquiring true knowledge because the get hurt. 

I got to a point where I realized that I am wasting time and energy to try opening minds which are totally dark and closed within itself. I am not trying to show or tell anyone the right way or how to live their lives but I am trying to make something better inside. I may be young and may still have many to learn and understand, but I strongly dislike when someone thinks of me that I spend all my days looking at conspiracy theories or spiritual/shamanic books or texts or videos and discredit my time and effort spent on researching and understanding of the things I am speaking about.

It is sad to see people base their beliefs mostly of what they hear from others, the TV, news and so on. Most of this information is delivered as is by people who speak in scientific terms you will never get to understand and tell you that that’s how things are but they don’t offer the reason WHY things are like that. Read, research, study, ask and feel – educate yourself with knowledge and understanding rather than just the end result. Ask yourself the question WHY? is it like that, first to yourself to be able to find the truth.

I do not want to think myself as higher or above any of you. I don’t want people to follow blindly because we had enough of that. I want people to understand. We don’t need world peace or fight for human or women or black rights - but what is missing is understanding of ourselves and how we are all connected.

I hope I can learn from these experiences to make me better at communicating with people who desperately want change but are too afraid to change themselves. I am grateful for being able to learn from them and let them follow their own path and hit their own walls on the process.

I know that truth will always spread light over the darkness ignorance brings with it.

Have a lovely and peaceful day !

There isn’t any rule to living your life or making it better, but there are choices that improve it. These are a couple of things that worked for me.

In order to be happy you need to know what makes you happy. This means that my life is not better or worse than yours because it is different. You have a dream, even the craziest, wildest, biggest or smallest dream. You and only you can make this true.

Go out in nature, next to the sea or in a little pueblo village. Slow down!

You have been in a hurry all your life while living – working, studying, watching tv, playing videogames, etc. Take a moment for yourself and ask yourself what makes you happy.

Getting in touch with nature doesn’t mean you have to go live like a caveman on top of a mountain; but get at least the slightest connection to nature. Because nature is what is allowing us to live and strive here. Give a little of your time back to this big old lady that is kindergardening us.

An old buddhist quote says:

The best time to plant a tree was 20 years ago, the second best time is now.

Don’t plant a tree but take care of your garden or your flowers. When you give time to nature you are giving time to yourself.

Educate yourself. Everything you read, see, experience take trough your own thoughts, feelings and understanding. Do not expect for anyone to come and awake you. No one can come and give you some information that you are not prepared for. You have the key when you ask the question. It is up to you.

Sing, dance, love and be grateful for every moment.

Meditate – the idea of meditation is not in getting into a certain posture or chanting certain words; but enhances it. Close your eyes and your mouth. You have time to speak, see, hear, think all day – take a break ! This time you spend with yourself and is for yourself. You are not selfish, you deserve this!

to be continued…

Until now I felt that I had to speak about other subjects before reaching to this one. It was a life changing experience that opened my eyes and made me know and understand myself and my fears.

McKenna notes that, “The pro-psychedelic plant position is clearly an anti-drug position. Drug dependencies are the result of habitual, unexamined and obsessive behavior; these are precisely the tendencies that the psychedelics mitigate.”  McKenna is clearly advocating responsible psychedelic plant use, and not advocating drug abuse.

I do not encourage anyone to try this, as it may not be what you are looking for and not always easy and beautiful. Also I do not recommend recreational use, as these plants are medicinal and spiritual, and should be treated as such.

As I woke up the day before to prepare everything for the ceremony my mind was full of questions and doubts started to appear. Fear was setting in as I knew that I was heading into the unknown and had to face myself and my fears.

“Why are you doing this?” I asked myself. Everything faded away as the day went by, as I calmed myself down and went to sleep. The day of the ceremony I woke up and it was pouring outside. This couldn’t be! We need to be outside in nature to do this, to connect with nature and the spirits. When the time was ready we got a few hours window of sunshine and everything started to go for the best. A ceremony cannot be forced, it just happens at the right time. We were accepted to have this experience on this day, as the weather was with us.

The day before I ate only what a baby would eat, and the next day nothing. Details like this make the difference between a common recreational drug use and a medicinal ceremony. We were ready. I was ready.

We lighted some incense, rolled a pure tobacco cigarette and got into it. I will never forget that taste and smell. After I drank the second glass and closed my eyes everything I knew started to disappear. I was took away from where I was and landed in a strange different world and time. I was awaken to on the edge of a cliff, watching a sunset next to a camp fire. I wasn’t myself, at least not the same; I had the feeling that something bad has happened and many had suffered. I panicked for a moment, when I started to notice that I am not in the same place I was, and at this point I was brought back.

The third and final cup was the one that enabled me to see the spirit realm while being completely awake. The rest of the day was just beautiful. Everything was different. The colors were brighter and my perception changed. I could focus on certain sounds and separate myself from what I considered unwanted noise. I remember that close to midnight I was absolutely shocked while simply looking at my hands I could see my whole self. I felt so big… so awaken.

A feeling of inner peace was with me the whole day and a few days later I experienced very strong feelings and mood swings. It took me time to absorb the information given to me that day. I had known my deepest fears and hidden emotions, without even having the slightest idea. I was shown everything I need to know, but it was up to me to face these fears and express these emotions.

Something inside me changed that day and I have to change my view on the world after that. There is so much more to life than this and I have known it. It was not easy, and at times it was not pleasant. I did this because I felt I had to and it was my personal choice. It is hard to describe what happened, because it was not about the psychedelic side of it, as about the spiritual and medicinal side. My spirit responded to it and the whole universe was unveiled in front of my eyes… i was so much bigger than this.

These plants are known as “teacher plants” for a reason… they hold much knowledge if treated properly. To end this post I’ll leave you with this quote:

It is very important to keep in mind that, “a plant using shaman is far more than a witch-doctor who gets wigged out on drugs; he or she is a healer, experimentalist, and psycho pomp. Anyone who seeks to understand the dimensions of the shaman’s healing system without understanding the place of psychoactive plants is going to miss a vital factor” (Rheingold, 27).

I am still far from becoming a shaman, but I had taken an important step into the understanding of consciousness and nature. I am but a humble pupil, for there are so many lessons to be learned and so many mistakes to be made.