I have a really, really bad headache now.

You know, it’s kinda dumb that I didn’t think to check the STA Travel website that I based my budget on to see if they can accept overseas credit cards. Now that I was all ready to buy, I realise after unsuccessfully trying to enter in my credit card info that I can NOT buy from the STA Travel website. This screws everything up big time because a ticket that I budgeted for USD260 now has a price tag of minimum USD850. That’s like more than 3x the budgeted amount. I am freaking out. I just emailed them practically begging to let me buy the flight. I hope they do.

Otherwise… I’m really, really royally screwed.

To be fair, my sister did ask me to check, and I did try my best to. I forgot about the credit card thing though, ergh. I foolishly made the assumption that just because the STA Travel UK website could take my card, the STA Travel one could too.

If all else fails I will try to get it through the STA Travel UK site, through the Customer Service Department. Damn, I’m so stressed that I’m getting a really bad headache. I need to start on the costume but I’m so so worried now that I don’t know if I can. Damn, damn it all.

When my own words fail me, I find comfort in the fact that someone else once felt the way I am feeling now and was able to put those feelings into a more beautiful composition than I most likely could have. So now, for your listening pleasure here is Imogen Heap’s “The Walk”.

Inside out, upside-down twisting beside myself,
Stop that now, ’cause you and I were never meant to be
I think you better leave; it’s not safe in here,
I feel a weakness coming on.

Alright then (Alright then) I could keep your number for a rainy day,
That’s where this ends, no mistakes no misbehaving,
Oh, I was doing so well, can we just be friends,
I feel a weakness coming on.

It’s not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this, yeah,
No it’s not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this, so that makes it all your fault.

Inside out, upside-down twisting beside myself,
Stop that now; you’re as close as it gets without touching me,
Oh no, don’t make it harder than it already is,
Mmm, I feel a weakness coming on.

It’s not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this, yeah,
No it’s not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this, so that makes it all your fault.

Big trouble losing control,
Primary resistance at a critical low,
On the double gotta get a hold,
Point of no return one second to go,

No response on any level, red alert this vessels under siege,
Total overload, systems down, they’ve got control,
There’s no way out, we are surrounded,
Give in, give in and relish every minute of it

Freeze, awake here forever, I feel a weakness coming on.

It’s not meant to be like this, not what I planned at all,
I don’t want to feel like this, Yeah,
No it’s not meant to be like this, it’s just what I don’t need,
Why make me feel like this, it’s definitely all your fault.

Feel like this la la la la la la la la
It’s all your fault (Feel like this) la la la la la la la la
It’s all your fault (Feel like this) la la la la la la la la
It’s all your fault (Feel like this) la la la la la la la la
It’s all your fault

I will not get attached. I will not get attached. I will not get attached. Oh shoot, I think I might have gotten a little attached…Fuck!

Why am I fuming about how UNPROFESSIONAL Warner Brothers is, and why they ruined my A-list movie premiere red carpet?

LONG STORY SHORT:  UNPROFESSIONAL AND RUDE.

Gladly e-mail:  john.lee@warnerbros.com to complain!

For More Pictures Click Above!

Click Picture Above for Video!

Well, for the new Sandra Bullock movie, “The Blind Side”, I had confirmed with them for PRESS PASSES for the night. I spoke to the publicity department and also the people in charge of the photography press.  I was so excited! I arrived with m good friend Elisa and we noticed the line for photography press was huge!  They had two separate lines depending on if you were there to video or photograph.

Looking so young, we were asked a few times if we were with press. I explained what website we were covering it for and we had spoken to people and we would be on the list.  After waiting outside for over an hour in the cold, finally they let the photographers start lining up and given out press credentials.  They could not find our names on the list and we were told we would get in.  Then I showed them an e-mail sent confirming we have a spot.  The lovely man (note “lovely” is sarcastic) John Lee, not only told us we were not approved to get in, but he let in FREELANCE photographers and then proceeded to tell us “there’s no more room”.  Clearly there was room.  He was snide and made sure he talked down to us.  He spent zero time trying to accommodate us.  He seemed like he LOVED the fact he got to turn away SOMEONE.

So…. to add insult to injury, we had to cross the street and wait there in hopes of grabbing a  picture of two.  I wasn’t very successful but I did put together a video and photographs (see above).
We made the best of the situation and we found a few events going on that night…. so we covered:

Enjoy the pictures and video…. totally e-mail john.lee@warnerbros.com!!!!!

November 17, 2009

The Blind Side Movie Premiere
- Sandra Bullock, Faith Hill

American Eagle Store Opening
- Adrian Grenier
- Christian Siriano

A Steady Rain on Broadway
- Hugh Jackman
- Daniel Craig

I don’t know what to do, my brain is spinning in countless circles. I don’t know where to start, or where to end. So many things due tomorrow. Life Cycle, Company Profile, my AD’s omg. I don’t know what the fuck I’m going to do. I feel like it’s all crashing down on me sadly. I only wish I had someone to rely on that would always be there to say some shit like “Hey you can do it” some fucking encouragement. A great opinion, something reliable. It’s crashing down, and it’s going to crash hard. I can’t control it. I know it’s going to be bad. 

On a saturday night:

With e company of Jav and friends and bbq food and liq!

My deargirl made me do this pose for like 5mins.LOL!

On a monday night:

Ended up wasted outside zirca and damn. Aguguguguguugu

OKayyyyyyyyyyyyyy gonna head down to get my stuff done and get to the east!!!!!11111112 BRB!

When I think back about this episode, it was pretty disgusting.

The married man E**** that I was seeing looked just like him, and everyone would comment are you Sen. **********? He would always pretend to be him, nobody knew the difference.

E**** the ex-adulterer lying ass cheating son of a bitch was very, very handsome and quite a bit older than me.  I would have to say that he was the only man I ever truly loved, but of course nothing is normal in my life anyway, so naturally it was co-dependent. So who knows if it was love or just addiction?

It was a revenge fuck.  You know what I speak of.  I made sure he knew I was bandying about with him (and also his brother-in-law-but that’s another story) to get his gut all twisted. We had about four encounters over a year’s time, and then I abruptly ended it.

I fondly recall that he had a member that was about 10″ long and could go forever, despite his age.

We had just started to nookie on and he went into the bathroom and sat on the toilet to pee.  Something snapped in me.  As powerful a politician he was in the public; he was a pitiful old man who sat down to pee in my bathroom.

Sometimes, revenge is brutally bad.

~W

I hate the people who almost took my happiness away. The happiness that me and my boyfriend is having now. Fuck them.

Some people say “Tellin the truth is way better than keep silent”,

or else “Tell the truth, even if it hurts.”

But those moron forget to say, “…well, it made u feel bad sometimes. HA-HA!”.

Damn.

I found out that maybe this is the better one..

“The truth may hurt for a little while, but silent and lie hurts forever.”

May God forgive me for everything that i said last nite.

May this bad feelin just disappear in next morning.

May he knew i did it for such a reason. Ain’t for me, but absolutely for himself. I took some risk here, but i dun mind at all.

May nobody ever feels the way i feel rite now, it’s just too sucks.

May everything’s just get better as soon as possible.

Yea, im prayin here, rite now….

Amin.

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Why do you look like you’ve lost weight? I don’t want or need to lose anything. Why did you make me nauseated last night? I was so incredibly hungry and nothing sounded good. Then you make me so tired, but I can’t go to sleep. You wake me up at morning, and surprisingly let me go back to sleep. Then wake me up again at 5:45 on a Saturday, and won’t let me go back to sleep. I’m still not hungry, but I ate anyways, and you made me feel sick. My throat is killing me, and for five hours I’ve been trying to sleep some more. You make people say that I’m suffering from insomnia. I forgot to mention that you’re making me cough and it’s hurting my lungs. I feed you healthy food, so why do you hate me? You make me cry seeing myself like this.
Please let me feel better soon.

Love, Nadirah.

i wont disclose anyone’s name here since its gonna be very brutal.

first, there’s this girl who mocked her friend’s father picture on this social website and made it sound like as if she’s the most coolest girl on earth. she said that she wont give a damn if people do that to her but hey lets be real, i bet she would wan to kill me if i were do that to her, right? before she wanna make fun of her friend’s father, perhaps she should get her academic and teeth straight first. she even asked me a few times where i cut my hair, the reason? she wanna have a hair like mine! *rolls eyes* i can fcuking come out with tons of things about her that’s driving people crazy. and oh yes, did i mention that she keeps on calling me a few months back and asked for my help to make her a model, no? now that i’ve mentioned it, i’m beginning to believe that she’s very desperate. and super irritating. besides, do i look like a modelling agency or what? also, on her social website status, she kept on babbling about her life non-stop. bottom line is, people can read her like a book. a very easy one though. too easy sometimes. she’s not even 18 and she smokes. eww. maybe i should report her to the authorities? the most selfish thing, she didn’t even turn up for her own grandfather’s funeral.
tsk tsk tsk.

i feel so sorry for her. i mean come on, who doesn’t?

I can’t believe that boy # 2 & 3 are still sleeping, boy # 1 was up and out quite early, he is at this time taking his SAT, I wish him the best, Iknow he is worried about the math portion, which I would be too, I don’t do math…well I do to an extent, I can add, subtract and to a small degree divide…but any more than that and I’m screwed. Boys 2&3 went to bed quite early, around 8ish they must have been exhausted after a tough week, not sure what could have been rough about it, but they are usually up.

Yesterday I made a long list of chores for all 3 of them, maybe they are pretending to sleep…I will go and check on them soon, wake them, feed them and then get the whip cracking. This house will get clean this day, walls and baseboards included.

Later today will be movies and DVR’ed stuff, it is nice and chilly this morning, so will take advantage of that and maybe bake or cook something, I’m thinking creamed soup and cake…I don’t have any ripe bananas if I did I’d be baking a banana bread.

Okay off I go to wake up my boys, I can’t stand this filth any longer. Happy Saturday to one and all. Much love from my little corner of the world.

El otro día quise instalar Windows después de haber instalado Ubuntu, asi que reparticione mi disco con el fabuloso livecd de gparted, y supuestamente, ya tenia todo listo para insertar el disco de instalacion de windows y dejar que él hiciera el resto. Me llevé una sorpresa cuando al seleccionar la partición donde quería instalar Windows me marcaba un error de que no podía encontrar una partición donde pudiera instalarse. Intente una y otra vez eliminar y crear la partición que tenía destinada para el Windows sin conseguir éxito. Decidí desistir por ese día y volver a trabajar en mi querido Ubuntu. Fue ahí cuando me lleve una terrible sorpresa, “Insert disk, Operating System not Found”… WTF……..

El problema es que tenía una partición extendida y el espacio que deje para Windows lo puse en esa partición extendida, esto ocasionaba que Windows no se pudiera instalar. Lo que no entendí es, PORQUE DEMONIOS BORRÓ MI TABLA DE PARTICIONES. En fin, para recuperarla hay una excelente herramienta que se llama TestDisk y es muy fácil de usar. También la puedes encontrar en el “Ultimate Boot CD” (fabuloso para toda clase de tareas de diagnóstico y reparación), lo díficil es encontrarla en los menús… :-| bump ..  pero si no mal recuerdo esta en la opción de “Recovery Tools” (yo andaba perdido buscandolo en Partition Tools, Hard Disk Tools, Antivirus jajaja)

Una vez recuperada tu tabla de particiones tienes que vovler a cargar el GRUB en el MBR (asi es, Windows no solo borró la tabla de particiones, reescribió el MBR completamente :@ ) para poder arrancar Ubuntu. Esto lo puedes hacer con cualquier disco de Linux (Ubuntu, Fedora, OpenSuse, etc), yo lo hice con el de Ubuntu
Basta con arrancar el liveCD de Ubuntu (seleccionar “probar Ubuntu sin modificar mis archivos”) y una vez que carga la interfaz gráfica, abrir una terminal (Applications->Accesories->Terminal)
Ejecuta el siguiente comando para entrar en la consola de GRUB

sudo grub

Ejecuta

find /boot/grub/stage1

Te va a regresar algo como “hd?,?”, p. ej. “hd0,0″, vamos a usar esa ubicación para el siguiente comando

root (hd?,?)

finalmente ejecuta

setup (hd0)

Nota: El ultimo comando instala el GRUB en el MBR, si quieres instalarlo en una partición utiliza setup(hd?,?).

Listo! Hemos recuperado nuestra tabla de particiones (gracias TestDisk) y reinstalado el GRUB (boot loader).

Fuentes:
Ubuntu Forums – Ubuntu install not recognizing current partitions.
Ubuntu Forums – How to install Grub from a live Ubuntu cd.

14 Oct WednesdayI got my Biology paper back. It was… terrible. I barely passed, having scored 4/11 for my Mendelian genetics  question. I had 4.0 for Biology for my midyears, and for end of years’ it’s 2.4. Awesome.

For Lit options we discussed the techniques used in Cinema Paradiso (which we watched the previous lesson) to give it its narrative form. Near the end of the lesson, we started on Thelma and Louise. The movie that made  Brad Pitt big. I’m tempted to look it up on Wikipedia but I don’t want to spoil myself like I did with Psycho, another movie we watched for options.

We went on a field trip to a farm for Bio options. The farm makes use of hydroponics to produce a portion of its output. We were given a tour around the place, but the rain made it less fun. Puddles of water all over the place ):

Our guide also showed us the various species of herbs that they grew in the farm and let us touch/smell/even taste some of them. There were many herbs that were edible and there was one that tasted particularly sweet! It was cool.

15 Oct Thursday History. I was so darned nervous when waiting for my results, having majorly screwed up the paper. In the end though, I didn’t fail! I did miserably for the essay but I didn’t fail!

Geography- I was hoping I would do well for the paper, but I didn’t get the score I wanted. I won’t be getting 4.0 for this subject overall like I was praying I would, sigh.

16 Oct Friday Math, Chem and SAP results. I totally did not do well in both Math papers, making stupid careless or ignorant mistakes here, there, everywhere. Kind of makes me wish I had a time machine. I passed at least, contrasting last year’s paper where I didn’t.

For chem, I didn’t do so well for my practical paper which was to be expected to some extent. For the end of year paper, I scraped 4.0! That means it’ll make my chem GPA of 2.4 in the mid years not so sucky. (Notice how it is directly opposite to bio? Freaky)

For SAP I got full marks for the final paper (as did some others) so I probably will get a 4.0 for that It is also probably the only subject I’ll get 4.0 in.

I realise I sound so calculative, noting down and measuring my performance. lol.

17 Oct Saturday Nothing much to say, I vegetated in front of the computer as usual. I drew something but I won’t bother showing that yet. I went to my maternal grandparents’ flat in Telok Blangah for dinner, and there was crab! Yay! Crab is nice to eat but also horribly tedious because of its shell.

I also finally succumbed to Katharine’s cruel marketing tactics and bought jewels. She was offering 500 extra jewels to people who had not previously bought jewels to buy them within a time period, and it seemed really worth it. I bought $10 USD’s worth and got 1550 jewels in return instead of normally 1050.

i smell hypocrites.