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The powerlessness of trauma had left me without a sense of autonomy. For too long I had mindlessly enacted the relational templates of my upbringing, unable to choose when to say yes and when to say no, and enmeshed in a destructive morass of compulsive care-giving alongside chronic self-neglect.
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After the last post with the in depth discussion of shame from abuse and the feelings of self hate, degradation, self rejection and alienation it promotes, it will probably now be clearer why many abuse survivors are caught in self harming or in self injurious behaviours like cutting. 17 more words