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Nu îşi dorea decât să îşi ridice cât mai des fusta cu buline, în aşa fel încât păsărica ei neepilată să fie văzută de cât mai mulţi bărbaţi. Şi făcea asta ori de câte ori avea ocazia. La bancă, în metrou, la job, la piaţă, în pasaj la Sf. Gheorghe, prin malluri sau chiar şi pe la Cărtureşti. Iar de fiecare data mustea de mulţumire.  Şi de plăcere.

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The amount of celebrities infected with swine flu is getting out of hand. MBLAQ’s Thunder is now the latest victim of swine flu.

J.Tune Entertainment stated to Newsen on the 26th:

“Thunder was diagnosed this afternoon with swine flu. He is currently under-going treatment.”

In addition the representative stated:

“We are waiting for G.O, Mir and the other members’ examination results as well. Because Lee Joon and Thunder have both been diagnosed with swine flu, we believe it will be difficult to continue on with the groups schedules.”

Swine flu is getting absolutely ridiculous, I think we all need to eat more bacon.

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Hello Loves!

So I have this horrible cough right now. After two days of struggling, I went to Google.com and typed in “Cure a Cough at Home”. This is what I found. (They work!)

<3 Shelbie

Honey when taken with black pepper will loosen the mucous and make you spit the mucus. This will be helpful in throwing the irritating substances of the trachea and help you in treating cough. This is one of the effective cough home remedies.

Another effective natural remedy for cough is that if you have cough due to cold then just drink tea made of ginger 3-4 times a day or just eat raw ginger, this will subside your cough.

Drinking red raspberry, honey suckle, or liquor ice tea with honey is helpful in treating cough in 2-3 days. This is one of the effective cough treatment.

Take 2 tablespoons of honey and mix it in one cup of orange juice and drink it. This is a good cough remedy.

Prepare a cough syrup from baked onion juice, comfrey tea, and honey. Drink it daily and your cough will subside.

Another effective cough treatment is to before going to bed just take a spoonful of honey with few drops of vodka or brandy in it.

Mix 1-2 tsp of pure home made turmeric powder in warm milk and drink it twice a day for coughs of a bacterial origin. Within 2 days your cough will be gone by using this method. This is one of the useful home remedies for cough.

You may also gargle with warm water to which lot of salt is added as many times as possible during the day. This will help you to clear phlegm caught in the throat.

Mix 5 ml of onion juice with 10 ml of pure honey. Take this mixture at least twice a day. This will relieve your cough and will also help in soothing throat. This is one of the best cough cure.

Take 5ml of fresh tulsi (Ocimum sanctum, Holy Basil) and mix it in 10 ml of pure honey. Consume this daily at least twice a day.

Add turmeric to a vessel filled with boiling water and inhale the fumes. It is also beneficial for controlling cough. This is a good natural remedies for cough.

Prepare a paste using ¼ teaspoon of red pepper, ¼ teaspoon of ground ginger, 1 table spoon of apple cider vinegar, 1 table spoon of honey, and 2 tablespoon of water. Mix them well and take 1 teaspoon of this mixture whenever you have cough. This is one of the simplest home remedy for cough.

In case of severe and chronic cough, crush 2-3 garlic and some cloves. Add this to a glass of milk or water. Then boil the mixture till it reduces to half the original content. Filter this and add a little sugar to it for improving the taste. Drink this twice a day and continue this treatment for at least a week to see visible results.

In a large vessel just simply take plain water and boil it. Now inhale these vapors of steam by covering your head region with the towel. Taking deep breaths in between is advisable. You may cough in the beginning and every thing will be fine in 10 minutes, it will help you later to throw out the waste (phlegm).

One of the useful home remedies for cough is to take 1-2 gm powder of black pepper, long pepper, and dry ginger in equal ratios. Take this mixture of powder with honey, 2-3 times a day.

Cough cure – Take some garlic and boil them in water, and drink it. You can add sugar to improve the taste.

Crush some black pepper and eat them with honey.

Chop up an onion, and pour honey over it. Let it be on a sauce pan on low flame for few minutes. Now take some honey from it and allow it to be in your throat. Do not drink water for at least half an hour of this treatment.

For dry and frequent cough take 1-2 gm powder of fried turmeric with honey, thrice a day. This is one of the useful cough treatment.

Take 2-3 cloves and fry them in butter or ghee, and chew them.

Take half a gram of powder of long pepper and mix it with rock salt, twice a day, with hot water. This is one of the simplest cough remedy.

Take some garlic pieces and then boil it in water, add some sugar, lemon and honey to it and drink it.

Take equal parts of black pepper, dry ginger, and sugar mixed in ghee or butter two times a day.

This home remedy for cough is one of the most useful ones. Take some water in the pot and put it to boil, after the water boils, put three cloves of garlic, one spoon of oregano and leave water for boiling around 4 -5 minutes. Take this water in cup and drink directly or add it in milk and then drink it.

Take little water say ¼ cup , to this add 2 teaspoons of honey, half a lemon, cinnamon and one eucalyptus leaf and drink it.

Take some eucalyptus and mint leaves and boil them in water. Now inhale its vapors while the water cools. It will help you in curing your cough. This is an another natural remedy for cough.

http://www.natural-homeremedies.org/homeremedies-cough.htm

This has been a very busy week for me. In the past week I’ve been at the hospital for my sons MRI, then to the doctor because he won’t  stop puking and then in the midst of a breakdown in the shower because of hurtful words. There has been many tantrums and some sleepless behavior patterns of my 5 yr old which are highly suspicious of someone who is bipolar. This week has been full of many ups and downs and many times, I’ve silently asked myself “Why God, why me? Why did you give me these children? Why did you give me these difficult children? Why did you give me this life?” Then I have to stop and think about what I’m saying. He gave me these children and this life because He loves me and I should be thankful. I should be thankful that I have two healthy children, they do not have a terminal illness, I do not have to imagine my life without them. I should be thankful that my son’s MRI came out clean. I should be thankful that I have family that took my kids and I in during a rough time, no matter hurtful they seem to be. I’m not homeless and I have a warm place to be.

But I am human and I do get overwhelmed and lost and I want the easy way out. There is no such thing. I don’t know why things happen or if I will every know but I need to refocus my thoughts not on “why me?” but on “Thank you!!!”

Be thankful  in all circumstances, for this is God’s will for you who belong to Christ Jesus. 1 Thessalonians 5:18

So, I have no voice. Why, I’m not sure, I lost it yesterday. Doesn’t matter, I’m at 35K.
I’ve done quite a bit of doodling. I doubt I’ll post any. Maybe this one, I think I like it. Maybe not.
And RPG’ing. I’m working on making 2 new RPG’s of my own. Yes, I know I’m a Nerd. Thanks.
I’m just feeling crappy. And mute. I don’t want to be mute.

Saaraahhhhhhhh

I’m kind of a hypochondriac, but only when it comes to things that don’t matter, like headaches and heartburn. When I have real symptoms I pretend it’s nothing and then it hits me when I’m least expecting it. Sneak attack.

Like right now: I’m sick. Legitimately, three doctors visits and three $15 co-pays kind of sick. I even got the H1N1 shot because my immune system sucks.

It started last Saturday when I discovered that my skin was rather irritated. It developed into a full-blown infection causing swollen glands and a skin irritation working its course through my body. Balls. It’s not mono, and it’s not strep, but it’s something so Doctor #1 gave me some amoxicillin. Thank God. Sickness is a weight-loss plan I can only stomach for a couple days.

The throat cleared up beautifully, but I’m still a leper. Not attractive. To counter the inflammation, I took my first bath since 8th grade. The water was green (due to some oatmeal-like stuff) but my apartment bathroom is the shit. Candles, steamy water, and a huge tub. Ahhh.

Oh, and by the way, boobs float. Sure I’ve been in a pool, lake, or ocean within the last year, but tubs are totally different. I’ve grown a couple cup sizes since my last bath, and by golly that was just funny.

Yeah, take some ham too.

Thanksgiving is creeping around the corner. As much as a love the extended time off with the holiday, my vacation has been totally drained. I’ve tried to beat down a cold for about five days now. Not cool. As usual, the week has flown by in an instant.

On the bright side, my sister is finally coming home. Yipee! She’s not staying long, but every bit counts, right? Since I’m a cool little sister, I might just post two of her paintings she just finished. It totally impresses me when I see how good she is in the artsy realm–especially since she just started.

Along with the holiday hustle and bustle, a ton of Christmas plans are flying around. It wigs me out. Just the thought of approaching Christmas reminds of all the gifts I have yet to buy, the projects I have yet to complete, and first semester finals staring me in the face. Gross. However, Christmas is always good, no matter what. Right now we’re working on bringing some of my family from Florida out here to west coast. Freakin’ awesome! It’s been so long since we’ve had a nice family gathering. My sister and her boyfriend is coming out for this big ol’ fest too. I haven’t officially met this guy yet, so we’ll see how this goes. That’s right, Charles. One day you’ll read this. Haha. Nah, he’s a cool guy, so everything should go over nicely.

So as for my current situation, I’m gellin’. Beside my indefinite need for tissues and vitamin c, life is good. I just block out the incredible amount of stress that’s cracking my brain open–try it sometime.

By the way, my dad cooks a mean. . .everything. So I hope your turkey feast is as tasty as mine. Chow down, my friends.

Happy Thanksgiving!
Cheers!

Photo courtesy John Paul Solis for public domain use on Wikipedia (linked source)

2PM on the East Coast and the madness has begun at airports across the nation on this, the heaviest travel day of the year. Here are some highlights:

• Currently, it is being reported that check-in lines at LAX are out the door. Every door.
• Reports from Houston, TX say so-far so smooth, which is good considering the AAA says more than 3 million Texans will travel today.
• San Francisco is expecting lovely weather today, which should help he more that 125,000 travelers passing through SFO the airport today.

More as it develops.

Along with every Travel Adviser out there, encourage you to employ PATIENCE today.

It’s been a while since I last posted. School has been going good. I’m currently home sick, and Thanksgiving is coming up tomorrow. I’m really excited that my cousin Brent is coming over. I’m making him a surprise. In the meantime, I am editing Wikipedia for a bit in a long time. While I was looking through the Sandbox I decided to write some poetry, but it would have probably gotten stolen if I posted it in the Sandbox, so I’m posting it here.

A million pears sat down to lunch
And they were very angry
They didn’t have a single mouth
But yet they caught the gangrene

I wished on a beautiful star one night,
I wished for the comfiest bed.
The star was really a meteorite
And it struck me right in the head.
So now I walk with a stagger demand
And a space rock lodged into my brain
My bed is the comfiest bed in the land,
But I wish that my wish was in vain.

Good morning, bloggy friends. First off, thaaaank you for all the well wishes! You guys are way too freakin’ sweet          

Although it’s almost afternoon, I just arose from my bed. Yep, the sickness definitely didn’t get better. I didn’t go in to work today, and any chance of going into work around lunchtime like I said I’d try to is getting less and less. My fever is only about 1.5º over what it usually is, but I feel like a truck hit me. And I’ll be damned if I let this sickness ruin Thanksgiving! So, I’m hereby ordering myself to bedrest for the day. This is very hard for me. Very, very hard for me. I’m the type of person where I can’t sit still. In fact, the husband and I joke that we can’t sit down to watch movies/TV for the night until 8:00. But it’s true, I usually won’t let myself “retire for the night” until 8:00 or else I feel lazy! I like it that way though

So I came home from work around noon yesterday, but brought my laptop home to do some work, because I was super slammed with a couple deadlines. Although it sucked to be working at home, being in bed with PJ’s on and my doggy next to me sure helped!

After a while, I took a brake from this:

to make some soup/casserole that sounded superb to me. I’d been wanting to try this recipe out from Vive le Vegan for a while, but then decided yesterday was the perfect day to do so.

There’s a lot of ingredients that are super healing and medicinal. Just what I needed. Ingredients such as garlic, coconut, and curry would be sure to help speed up this cold.

Although there’s a lot of ingredients, the recipe was super simple. Just combine everything and put in the oven, stir, cook it s’more, and eat!

Ahh… this was definitely a lunch for the mind, body and soul. It also got things moving around my stuffed up head. I made the whole batch, because I knew I’d want leftovers.

The rest of my day was spent here:

Niko kept me company (and warm – she’s like a heat blanket.) While Clarabelle was the “watch cat” to the bedroom:

She always lays in the doorway when I’m in the bedroom. Silly kitty.

The cold got worse as the night went on, and then by about 6, I had the chills until I went to bed. I think my shower lasted a good hour and a half. You know where you just don’t want to get out because the heat just feels so good. Yep, one of those kind of showers.

This morning has been pretty pitiful. I’ve been drifting in and out of sleep, and checking my work emails and doing a little bit of work in between. Hopefully all this rest will = a very healthy Thanksgiving Paige!

Hope today is going fabulously for everyone! Ciao!

My God. When was the last time PC had the #1 play on top plays? We all knew Greedy was capable of this stuff, it was just a matter of him putting it together in a real game situation. Ladies and gentlemen, he has officially put it together. Now if he’d just stop shooting threes. Unless he makes them.

Thanks as always to Friarblog for the video.

-SM

I'm getting nauseous just looking at this spread...

Unlike the rest of the world, Thanksgiving is my least-favorite holiday. I know, I know—the food, the laziness, the time off from work, the family (well . . . maybe that’s not such a plus)—what’s not to love?

For starters, I am a near vegetarian (I say “near” only because I will eat meat if other people prepare it for me) and I just plain dislike the taste of meat. So while the turkey is the main event for almost everyone I know, it kind of makes me wrinkle my nose. No, thank you.

I’m not above tolerating a meal I don’t like for one day out of the year, but the smell of Thanksgiving food cooking actually makes me feel slightly nauseous. This isn’t just because of the turkey—it’s a long story. (Warning: If you are of the weak stomach, I’d recommend you stop reading now.)

In seventh grade, my family hosted an exchange student from Germany for a couple of weeks in the fall, and we thought it would be fun to make a “practice” Thanksgiving dinner to share with her while she was there so she could experience a new holiday.

I was psyched because I loved Thanksgiving food at the time, and even though my stomach felt a little funny early in the day, I ignored it so I could eat as much of my dad’s delicious Thanksgiving food as possible. This, it turned out, was a terrible mistake. My stomach started feeling worse and worse as the day wore on, and finally I decided to try to down some Pepto-Bismol. I managed to only taste it before my stomach had had enough and proceeded to empty its entire contents… all over the dining-room table. I can’t even explain how traumatizing this was. It’s bad enough to get sick in a place where you don’t have to stare at everything you ate earlier, but to have everyone see what you ate earlier, well, it was quite distressing.

I was really sick for a couple of days, and ever since then, the appeal of Thanksgiving has just been lost to me. I try to hide in my room when the aromas of stuffed turkey, gravy, potatoes, and cranberries drift nearby, but even a stray whiff makes me feel ill. So for the last few years, I’ve just tried to avoid Thanksgiving altogether—a couple of years ago, I went camping with my boyfriend over Thanksgiving weekend, and the following year we prepared a lamb biryani Indian dish. This year, I’m thankfully dating a vegetarian, so he also has no interest in the traditional Thanksgiving spread. We plan to make roasted-vegetable lasagna, and for that, I truly can feel thankful.

I’m sick so no update yet.

We had a great time in the UK though, and I shall get on a post about that very soon.

After being poorly (I feel a lot better more of the time now) I have had the urge to clean the house meticulously and start creating decorations and presents for Christmas. I am rather excited about Christmas this year; I am never really over-the-top excited about it, but this Christmas will be the first in our new house! I put the tree up last night… a lot of people have said that it is far too early, but my family is coming to celebrate Christmas a week early, so why cant I put the tree up a week early!? It is just inspiration standing in the corner now, I cant wait to start putting presents under it.

Yesterday Ryan came home with a new frying pan, which was on sale in Debenhams:

So this led me on to looking at all the kitchenware that Debenhams sell… There are quite a few things that I love, which I am sure you can get elsewhere too, just they are all bundled together in one shop! Here are my selections:

1. Dark grey Roast ‘n Rack by Maxim – I love making roast dinners so much, but I still dont really have the roasting trays for all the ingredients.

2. Cream plate with glass dome lid – I just love the aesthetic of having this in the kitchen with cakes under it!

3. Teal rectangular stoneware dish by Le Creuset – maybe for pasta bakes

4. Cream stove kettle by Prestige – I adore the lines and the shapes that make up these retro-style kettles. I even love the fact you have to put it on the stove, so amazing! There are some of the same/similar style that are electric, but its not really the same thing is it. We also need an upgrade from the £6 kettle I bought a few years ago from Woolworths haha!

5. Azure cast iron casserole dish By Le Creuset – for casseroles of course. Winter is drawing in and I am always a sucker for homemade comfort food. For some reason all the Le Creuset items I have picked here bar one are in blue; I actually like all and any of the colours in the range that they make.

6. Ken Hom 5 piece Wok set by Tao – because I dont have a wok, and I really feel like trying to make stir fry and chinese style chicken.

7. Teal cast iron 26cm square grillit by Le Creuset – because it would make amazing steaks, and you can pour out the juices from the pan afterwards… mmmmm!

8. Spring form cake pan by Kitchen Craft – because I have none!

9. Volcanic regular cast iron grill by Le Creuset – I believe you can either put this in the oven, or as a hot plate on the stove… I love that idea.

10. 5 piece stainless steel set by Prestige – because all of my pans are leaving black flakes in my pasta yuk! Not necessarily this set, but something similar that wont ruin my food.

11. Blue Icona 4 slice toaster by De Longhi – so yummy looking! And blue again… why!?? We need an upgrade from the £5 toaster from Woolworths I bought 3 years ago…

12. 14cm microwave saucepan – when I saw this I thought of Ryan. He always eats beans, and always cooks them in Tupperware pots without handles or spouts, and it looks like a very awkward process to try not to burn your fingers, so this could be ideal!

13. Assam teapot by Bodum – I am never any good at judging how long to leave teabags to steep in the water before pouring, and it either comes out too weak or too strong. So… if I can see what is going on inside the pot I will be ok! It also has a plunger to stop the process when it is right for you, and you can use teabags or leaves and it works!

14. Cream food mixer by KitchenAid – how gorgeous is this machine! We have one in the kitchen at the bar that I work at, I might see if they will sell it to me as it is not really in use.

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I am also in the process of designing some quilted Christmas stockings for myself and Ryan, to hang on the wall (where the mantel should be if the house still had one), some knitted presents for my grandparents, maybe some other presents too, and some decorations for the house! I am thinking garlands, and wreaths, and paper chains of course.

Ryan is dying my hair for me tonight, so if I think I look semi-unpoorly afterwards I shall take a photo and paste it to the end of this blog.

[Edit - photo!!!]

Jenn xx

P.S I am now down to 4 hamsters… It seems to be a sad time in Hamsterville. I have not changed anything about their living conditions… maybe it is just that time of year Rest in peace crazy dude who bit me really hard…

ever felt like you never gotten enough sleep or rest day after day, week after week and eventually feeling mentally drained?  that is when your mind and body is crying for help and asking you to take a break for yourself.  you have to.  but i didn’t.  i started feeling extremely tired about two months ago, at times even feeling almost feverish, but i was not sick, …yet.  not until i woke up one day about a month ago, with a fever, feeling dizzy, having a massive headache, muscle ache, nauseated, a sore throat (i wasn’t even coughing yet the day before), cold sweats, chills, short of breath, and barely any voice at all.  it was so sudden, and with all the H1N1 swine flu going around, i was really concerned.  i forced myself out of the bed and tried to make a doctor’s appointment.  the earliest available was the next day, so i just drank lotsa water, took tynenol, and just curled up under my duvet and slept.

the next day when i was at the doctor’s office, as usual the nurse brought my medical chart, checked my blood pressure, weight, temperature, etc.  i couldn’t even talk, so i handed to her a list of the conditions i was having/feeling on a piece of paper i had handwritten it that morning (i remember i was so dizzy and just grabbed a printed notice our association left at the door, and i wrote on the other side of the paper :p)  the nurse read it carefully, clipped it to my chart and handed to the doctor.  she was really nice and attentive, bringing me water when i was coughing a storm.  the first thing my doctor said to me after walking into the room was, “how are you today?”  i looked up and greeted him with barely audible voice, and he said, “oh, feeling miserable huh?”  after examining me and referencing upon my notes, he was concerned and asked if i was around anyone who had H1N1 or in crowded places recently.  yes, i had been…always…at the theater,  shows/exhibitions, events, concerts, conventions, conferences, seminars, etc… he wanted to get me tested for H1N1 immediately.  the nurse came in with a cotton swap to take sample of my mucus through my nostrils and told me we would know the result in ten minutes.  those 600 seconds they left me coughing alone behind closed-door felt like 600 minutes at that moment.  :p  finally the door opened…it was definitely a huge relief when my doctor delivered to me the result that was negative.  i was so thankful for the great news.  he wrote me a prescription for a course of antibiotics, an extra strength cough suppressant, and i should continue with tynenol for my fever and muscle ache.  i was ordered to stay home and not be around crowd until i’m fully recovered.  it was such a bummer to be this sick at the wrong time, as i was really looking forward to go to amy sol’s opening at copra gallery (formerly known as copra nason gallery), and to drop by the 5th anniversary opening at gallery nucleus that saturday evening.  but i must admit, it gave me an excuse to let myself rest and able to sleep and sleep and sleep.  i was literally home for the first two weeks, only to get out of the house to walk my dog, and i was/am so grateful and appreciative that my friend took the time to bring me food over the weekends that could last me throughout the week.  my appetite was pretty unstable during this time.  apart from the illness, i was also experiencing the full side effects of my medications…they made me extremely dizzy and nauseous.  there were food i’ve always liked that suddenly made me feel even more nauseated just by looking/smelling them.  other food that i don’t usually crave for, i was gastronomically tempted to devour in.  it was a weird experience, and my mom teased that it was like being pregnant. :p  when all my medicines were finished, i was still coughing a storm all day and especially during the night.  i started taking some over the counter cough suppressant for another week and patiently waiting for the side effects to go away.  so, after about a month now, i’m so happy and grateful to start feeling ‘almost healthy’ again this week.  during this time, resting (mostly sleeping a.l.o.t.), it gave me some quiet time to think…about all sort of things.  having lived away from home so many years, i’ve always been pretty independent, but somehow i started physically missing home (which is rare for me…to feel homesick).  i was missing all the home cooked meals and being pampered and taken care of.  anyway, so much to catch up on now that i’ve just prioritized my endless to-do list to get re-organized.  i also just realized it’s thanksgiving week when someone at the grocery store said to me “have a nice holiday” couple days ago!  see how much i was out of touch with time and missing out a whole month of events and information. :p  with this coughing, i should still avoid being around crowds, so i’m sad that i can’t volunteer at the “thanksgiving dinner in the park” this year.  it’s gonna be a quiet little thanksgiving for me.  hm, i wonder if we’re gonna skip the turkey altogether tomorrow. :p

have a wonderful thanksgiving, everyone!  please remember to give thanks, and pray for those less fortunate than we are.  i’ve said it so many times, but i do strongly believe that life is about loving and giving.  and with all the seasonal flu and the H1N1 going around, please pay extra attention to your own body, listen to what it has to say to you, watch out for signs, take good care of yourself and always make time to give yourself a mental and physical break whenever you can.  life is short, live well, stay happy and healthy.  xoxo

It’s been a while since I updated.
And I’m actually in no mood to blog right now. but I’ll do this anyway. You’re going to be reading a lot of random things, mind you. Here goes:

iGFX is starting to kill me. No. It’s not like everyone is getting on my nerve. It’s just that Chris has been getting harder to deal with. I for one am not going to allow for any emotion to get in the way of me doing my job right. FUCK EMOTION.

I aced the mid-term quiz in the College Success Seminar. 100 points on 100. The last time I scored that much was in 1st grade. No wait. The last time I scored anything above 90 was in 7th grade. Yeah……..this feels good.

I’m really enjoying college a lot. Never had I thought that I’d end up joining this place or even doing a CG course. God works in wonderous ways. I should thank him more.

I should stop getting so paranoid about getting ad-dam on my undies when it’s time. I really should.

I have to find a way to watch more football. I don’t like missing all those crucial matches.

I need to finish all my pending work. I must not procrastinate.

I must stop being so nice to Daniel. He is a nice guy. But he can’t help hugging girls and being annoying at all. Either I start treating him like shit right now, or I explain to him how the people in the Mid-East function first. Yes. I think I’ll go with the latter.

I don’t want to get close to anyone at college. I have my friends online. I’m closer to them. I’m not comfortable with these other people. I don’t know why.

My dad won’t let me go out with Beautta to the mall. It’s just stupid. He thinks it isn’t safe. And that’s really just wrong. I never asked him if I could go out with friends before. Meaning I never actually socialized like that at all. Now that I’m finally trying to, he doesn’t encourage me. And he wants me to be streetsmart? way to go dad.

Eid is coming. I need to hide the cameras.

Mum forcibly put me for classes at a more posh centre for learning Quraan. Well, not Quraan actually. It’s just Tajweed [grammer]. Atleast I don’t have to deal with racist Baluchis.

I really need to talk to Jon more. Especially about how to fix iGFX. FAST.

I need to stop chatting so much though. My wrist and fingers are killing me.

Winter is coming and I’m getting wrapped up already. I can’t do much without my fingerless gloves anymore. I love how cool they look.

I need to take more Vitamin C and try to sleep better. Fuck my problems. I need my immune system in perfect order again.

I’m not okay.

The past three days have been hell.  I woke up one morning, with a pain that I would rather due without for the rest of my life, it rendered me completely irate and incapable of speech.  Throughout my whole body were aches and muscle spasms, finally nausea took over and made the pain seem less so.  I managed to make it to the bathroom for the nausea to leave my body, as you can imagine it was not a pretty sight.  Shaking from exhaustion, I managed to choke down some water and find my way back to my bed.  An hour later, in the living room, my son was getting ready for school as I lay on the couch groaning from pain… it did not matter which position I assumed, it was worse every time.  It was as if two huge boulders were colliding within my abdomen, fighting over space.  I went to the bathroom again to have some more water, and lay back down on the couch.  Within moments my son came to me to ask me a question and the water left my system and landed on him… needless to say he was less than pleased.  I ran to the bathroom again, and my son came running to me… “momma, what did you do? What did you do to me?” with his arms up, trying not to touch the water I spewed all over him.  I felt even worse seeing the look on his face, it seemed he was more worried about why I did it, not that I had.  I put him in the shower, put him in new clothes, and got him ready for school… the mother instinct seemed to trump the pain and illness by that which I was overrun.  My dad took him to school as I lay on the couch, with the cartoons still on, grumbling and finally falling asleep.

It was horrid, and that was the first day.. the first few hours.  As I am sure that many of you are less than happy to read the details, I think the first paragraph was quite enough.  I had a fever along with all of that, was not able to eat or drink.. I managed to fight down some sprite in hopes it would settle my stomach.  I took two days off from work and am off today.  I was going to write a follow up article to the Christians Vs. Non Christians blog.. but as you are aware, that has to be another day.. perhaps tomorrow… dunno.

The pain I was in managed to get me to scream once, and in doing so it aggravated my dad, who told me it was rude and that I should think of the fact that they do not want to hear it.  I was flabbergasted by the statement.  He then proceeds to tell me that he is in pain sometimes but doesn’t bring attention to himself.  Way to go on the sensitivity there dad.  All I could say was, ” are you fucking serious?”  He does not seem to understand that when I cry out, it really fucking hurts, I mean shit.. I didn’t cry out while I was in labor! Twenty-five hours of labor.  So fuck off.

These past three days have been hell.

My significant others voice made me feel better, a lot better.  It was good to hear a friendly tone.  I was feeling so homesick and ready to just get the hell out of here and head home to him.  I am trying my best to make time pass, it seems like it is stuck on repeat or something. The last year passed by quickly, but now it seems this month has taken a year to pass.  Always that way isn’t it?  When you want time to pass, it moves at a snails pace.

Yesterday my head was pounding, I could hear my heart beat in my head.  It sucked.  I took a pain pill and drifted to sleep last night after an hour of tossing and turning.  I sent my man a letter the day before I got sick. And now I am starting another letter.  Today, I woke up with a stir, my kid was sitting on my back watching cartoons.  I slept on the couch again last night.  I looked at him and he said to me “I want some chocolate milk momma.”

Normally I don’t get sick. In fact, the last time I got sick was about a year. Under similar circumstances. It was my birthday recently and I partied really hard – two non-stop days, 4 hours of sleep per night, lots of drinking and other stuff. So yesterday around 10am I started feeling it. A gentle cough, but not a normal one. This one felt like a baby was punching my chest from the inside. As the day progressed, it got worse. I had to take emergency action.

Before bed, I resolved that I was not going to work today.

I slept non-stop for 10 hours and then woke naturally. I didn’t eat breakfast because I wanted my body to not have to deal with processing food, just fighting the flu. I did drink water non-stop though. I also have taken roughly 5000mg of vitamin C today.

For lunch I had a delicious plate of sizzling pork chops, fried egg, broccoli, carrots, cauliflower, and rice. It came with a bowl of soup which I gladly guzzled. Afterwards, I walked to a juicer shop and had them juice me up a cup of freshly squeezed green grape juice.

On coming home, I took a nap and then upon waking, I’m sitting down to write this blog.

Aside from giving my body rest, lots of water, and amping it up with vitamin C, I believe in staying in a cheery mood. Though it’s hard to stay happy when you’re sick, I’m convinced mood plays an important role in recovery.

I think I’m winning the fight against my flu. I think by this time tomorrow night, I’ll feel all better.

The past two weeks I’ve been fairly ill and haven’t found time to update my bloggy. I’m still highly uncertain about the future- i.e. my future and what I’m going to do as a living. I’ve positioned myself in a position where I’m still kinda working with radio but not. I do not want to divulge more than what is stated here for privacy reasons. Let’s just say I’ve encompassed several media opportunities that can lead to other places besides radio- WHICH IS WHAT A YOUNG PERSON LIKE ME NEEDS. If I decide to pursue media, it has to be in some interactive form cause duh, that’s the future.

Nevertheless, yes, there is always going to be that part of me that would drop life if I ever had the chance to work at the BBC in some capacity if I could live comfortably on my own on the given salary. As a US citizen, it will never happen. Maybe if I acquired a graduate degree in foreign political relations and spoke a second language, perhaps I could get a job at BBC World service in some form and capacity. It’s in the back of my mind, as are many things. I wish I knew what I wanted.

I’m always going to be a bit of a radio geek, a scary foreign KROQ fan, and slightly much to obsessed with UK Radio. I don’t see that changing.

Today at work, I found some old late 90’s style KROQ stickers on a filing cabinet (I have no idea how they got there) and the guy that worked at the desk nearby probably thought I was really weird that I took them off of the cabinet surreptiously.

Don’t even mention the words ACX to me.

DECEMBER 12th

(There’s nothing here I’d really want to see besides maybe AFI but I’m not into them as much as I was. Note, as a kid I’ve seen AFI perform when Davey used to dress like a So-cal punk band singer. That means there was NO makeup, NO bondage, and NO black clothes or hair.)
AFI
Rise Against
Alice In Chains
Thirty Seconds to Mars
Three Days Grace
Dead By Sunrise
Anberlin

DECEMBER 13
Muse
311
Slightly Stoopid
Phoenix
The Bravery
Metric
Vampire Weekend
Cage the Elephant
White Rabbits

I’ll start crying.  Well not really, but you know, it never goes away. My dad jokingly asked me earlier this week if I wanted to go to Jingle Ball. Ironically it falls as the same weekend as ACX but I’ll be home in New York with finals. The Live 105 week of NSSN and the actual NSSN is unbelieveably tempting. If I manage to catch up with my schoolwork and somehow snap, that would be something I’d be willing to go to. The bottom line is I am not ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen anymore. Rise Against, Anberlin, Unwritten Law, Pennywise, (e.g. all those so cal bands) don’t really rule as much as Vampire Weekend and Passion Pit does now. After spending most of my time in NYC, I’m used to smaller shows at clubs and seeing the bands play for an hour or two. Nevertheless, when you’ve never really experienced the ACX, like poor little me, the thought of what if always lingers.

Anyway Live 105 has something more my style with my current tastes and state of mind (Yes, I still hate on LA, DUH.)

LIVE 105 DAYS OF XMAS!

No. It’s not happening.. sigh. There’s always XFM winter wonderland? NO Jeany NO. You must stay home!!!

So as I sit here, I wonder if New York is a curse and a blessing. We’ll never have events like that in our cluster but that’s the way it is (we also never had a real alternative station either).

When I’m feeling a bit more energized, I shall resume blogging and writing again once I pickup my good ol’ laptop macbook pro from the apple store.

At least things with me are nominally better and that sorta radio sorta not radio thing I’m working on isn’t so bad. It looks better on a resume than what it actually is – at least for an undergrad.

가족 거의 모두가 감기에 걸렸다.

특히 막내동생이 열도 많이나고 기침도 심하다.

“아프다”

[형용사]『…이』
1 몸의 어느 부분이 다치거나 맞거나 자극을 받아 괴로움을 느끼다.

• 손바닥을 아프게 때리다
• 칼에 벤 자리가 아프다.
• 매 맞은 자리가 아프다.
• 바늘에 찔려 아프다.
• 돌부리를 걷어차 발이 아프다.

2 몸이 병이 나거나 들어 앓는 상태에 있다.

• 배탈이 나서 배가 아프다.
• 몸이 아파서 조퇴를 하였다.
• 사람들은 아파 봐야 건강의 소중함을 안다.
• 그 사람은 걸핏하면 아파 주위 사람을 걱정시킨다.
• 어디가 어떻게 아프다고 말을 해야 알지 덮어놓고서 아프다기만 하면 어디가 어떻게 아픈지 알 수가 있는가.≪이무영, 농민≫

3 오랫동안 어떤 일을 하여 몸의 어떤 부분에 괴로운 느낌을 받는 상태에 있다.

• 책을 오래 보았더니 눈이 아프다.
• 무릎을 구부리고 오랫동안 앉아 있었더니 다리가 무척 아팠다.

4 해결하기 어려운 일이나 복잡한 문제로 생각을 하기 어렵거나 괴로운 상태에 있다.

• 머리 아픈 문제
• 그 일만 생각하면 지금도 머리가 지끈지끈 아파 온다.
• 달리 뾰족한 수가 없는 문제를 가지고 온종일 생각에 잠긴 김 대리는 점점 골치가 아파 왔다.

5 슬픔이나 연민이나 쓰라림 따위가 있어 괴로운 상태에 있다.

• 그와 헤어져 가슴이 아프다.
• 어머니는 자식에게 제대로 해 주지 못한 것이 끝내 가슴 아프신 모양이다.
• 그와 더불어 지낸 세월을 회고하니 내 가슴은 찢어지는 듯 아프오.≪이병주, 지리산≫

최근 많은 종류의 아픔을 겪는 것 같다. 그러면.. 요즘 어떻게 지내? 라고 누군가 물어본다면 그냥, 아팠어 라고 대답하면 될지도 모르겠다. 마음이 회복될쯤 하니 몸이 말썽이다. 또 몸이 아프면.. 마음도 약해지고 또 아파할 일이 생길지도 몰라.

강해진다.. 결국엔 마음뿐만이 아니라 몸도 강해져야 한다. 운동이라도 해야하려나 모르겠다. 겨울동안에 열심히 운동을 해서 몸이라도 만들어볼까.. 캬하하.

일단은 낫는게 우선이다. 낫자. 낫고나서 생각하자.

나 뿐만 아니라.. 내 가족 모두 다 잘 이겨내길 바라며.

I didn’t go to my internship today. I woke up feeling like shit. I think I’m coming down with a cold.