i see your true colors and that’s why i love you

it’s christmas eve. i am so excited.

let’s spend some time talking about the beautiful people in my life.

papa tonti and mama – amazing grandparents. i would say that’s all ive got to say, but ive got lots. growing up, i never really got the chance to spend a whole lot of time with my papa tonti. whenever he came to visit, i stuck with him…all day and night. he read me stories and helped me go to sleep. my mama is my treasure. she is the most amazing women in this world. she is the reason why i am who i am today. they both are amazing, all i need in life…my life.

my father and my mother – ive gone through so much with them…i cant imagine. through the nicest and the rebellious times, they stuck with me. my father always forgets to get coleslaw from popeyes and my mother always uses the family computer after buying herself a nice laptop.

tisha – she is the slowest human being ive ever encountered…<—did i spell that right? but i love her and she knows it. we have so much fun together and after a day with her, we always end up with a bad stomachache. i love my banging emoish funny sister.

My baby Burtie – oh boy. wow! we collide. i love this guy so so so so much. ive made most of my memories and best awesomest moments with him. although we fight all the time, we always end up loving each other all over again at the end of the day. it’s never just “robert” it’s never just “krizzanne” it’s always “robert and krizzanne” all we do is eat when we’re together, maybe that’s why i gained 20 pounds. oh boy, i love him so much, like you have no idea.

rafael joseph – he’s the best cousin in the whole wide world. i can talk to him about anything in this world and i know it would be safe and sound in that big smart ass head of his. we’re unseparable, ever since we were little. i made him cry a lot though, which im so very sorry for. he’s really smart and i envy him for that.

damien – im sure you know damien. damien is like the best almost cousin in the whole wide world. hahahaha. i dont think i ever go a day without texting him. we always have something to talk about and we never get bored. we mostly talk about burt, naked gf, mr. tv, his kitty cats, and hmmmm food. damien, believe me you, sends m the best good night texts ever…and they’re always at least two page long.

now friends. i dont now who to start with, i really don’t. i love them all the same, some maybe i love more than the others, but sigh.

karen babe. manuelita. amber. sammy. carrisa. pheebs.

why does it feel weird? why dont i feel happy? i dont feel complete. as if there’s nothing left inside me. i feel empty. i feel…



sing with me guys,,

MATA   HATI  TELINGA

by : Maliq and the essential

Satu cerita tentang manusia
Coba ‘tuk memahami arti cinta
Benarkah cinta diatas segalanya
Hanyakah itu satu-satunya

Yang menjadi alasan untuk menutup mata
Tak melihat dunia yang sesungguhnya
Dan menjadi jawaban atas semua tanya
Yang kita harap mampu mewujudkan sebuah akhir bahagia

Reff:
Buka mata hati telinga
Sesungguhnya masih ada yang lebih penting dari sekedar kata cinta ooo..
Yang kau inginkan tak selalu
Yang kau butuhkan mungkin memang yang paling penting
Cobalah untuk membuka mata hati telinga

Adakah kau rasakan kadang hati dan fikiran
Tak selalu sejalan seperti yang kau harapkan
Tuhan tolong tunjukkan apa yang ‘kan datang
Hikmah dari semua misteri yang tak terpecahkan

Back to Reff: 2x

Buka mata hati telinga
Buka mata hati telinga
Coba kau buka mata hati telinga
Mata hati telinga

Download this song here

http://stafaband.info/download?artist=&title=mata+hati+telinga&cari=Search

(I really like this clip)

Where is the moment we needed the most
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost
They tell me your blue skies fade to gray
They tell me your passion’s gone away
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

You stand in the line just to hit a new low
You’re faking a smile with the coffee you go
You tell me your life’s been way off line
You’re falling to pieces every time
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

Because you had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don’t lie
You’re coming back down and you really don’t mind
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Will you need a blue sky holiday?
The point is they laugh at what you say
And I don’t need no carryin’ on

You had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
The camera don’t lie
You’re coming back down and you really don’t mind
You had a bad day

(Oooh.. a holiday..)

Sometimes the system goes on the blink
And the whole thing turns out wrong
You might not make it back and you know
That you could be well oh that strong
And I’m not wrong

(yeah…)

So where is the passion when you need it the most
Oh you and I
You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost

Cause you had a bad day
You’re taking one down
You sing a sad song just to turn it around
You say you don’t know
You tell me don’t lie
You work at a smile and you go for a ride
You had a bad day
You’ve seen what you like
And how does it feel for one more time
You had a bad day
You had a bad day

Chỉ là bài hát thôi nhé, hôm nay không phải là bad day của mình. Tất nhiên rồi, thời tiết đẹp thế cơ mà

wanna be on top? nicole won. i have no idea how and why. it should have been LAURA.

im home doing nothing. i might go out later, but im not sure. im in so much pain.

i dont really know what to write. all i know is that ive been turning my iPod on and off.

hush now.

i look to you

As I lay me down
Heaven hear me now
I’m lost without a cause
After giving it my all

Winter storms have come
And darkened my sun
After all that I’ve been through
Who on earth can I turn to?

I look to you
I look to you
After all my strength is gone
In you I can be strong

I look to you
I look to you
And when melodies are gone
In you I hear a song, I look to you

About to lose my breath
There’s no more fighting left
Sinking to rise no more
Searching for that open door

And every road that I’ve taken
Led to my regret
And I don’t know if I’m gonna make it
Nothing to do but lift my head

I look to you
I look to you
And when all my strength is gone
In you I can be strong

I look to you
I look to you
And when melodies are gone
In you I hear a song, I look to you

My levee’s have broken, my walls have come
Crumbling down on me
The rain is falling, defeat is calling
I need you to set me free

Take me far away from the battle
I need you, shine on me

I look to you
I look to you
After all my strength has gone
In you I can be strong

I look to you
I look to you
And when melodies are gone
In you I hear a song, I look to you

I look to you
I look to you

One plus one is one – together
One plus one is one – forever
One plus one is one – together
One plus one is one – forever

Everybody needs to know it’s the year of the rat

Every day we’ve got to hold on
’cause if we hold on we could find some new energy

(musica enviada pela querida e phina Carol Andreis)

its sunday and i still have about 4 hours before i go to church. i havent been doing much really. just listening to music. read about a page of GO ASK ALICE, then stopped because i couldnt remember the page i was on when i started reading it this summer. watching my sister and my mom play littlest pet shop monopoly

-man i have to go to jail
-already?
-yea i got catnip

my sister cracks me up. going on the computer and writing on this blog. i have no idea why i started writing on this again. i just felt like it.

remember the colors.

im sitting here watching meet the spartans. its a pretty funny movie and ive seen it countless times. i need and crave music right now.

i dont know why im so irritated, but i just am.

i miss home. maybe thats what it is. im home sick. im robert sick too.

i wish people i love didnt live so far away. i want them next to me. i want them to hug me and tell me everythings going to be ok.

i crave love.
i crave forgiveness.
i crave kindness.
i crave happiness.

why do people walk away in times you really need them? why do people tell you they love you, but then the next day everything you believed in was completely shattered? why do people lose faith and believed in nothing else but sorrow and despair? why do people make promises then break it right there and then?

why? idk.

Friday night beneath the stars,
in a field behind your yard,
you and I are paintin’ pictures in the sky.
And sometimes we don’t say a thing;
just listen to the crickets sing.
Everything I need is right here by my side.
And I know everything about you
I don’t wanna live without you.

[Chorus:]
I’m only up when you’re not down.
Don’t wanna fly if you’re still on the ground.
It’s like no matter what I do.
Well you drive me crazy half the time;
the other half I’m only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.
And I’m only me when I’m with you.

Just a small town boy and girl
livin’ in a crazy world.
Tryin’ to figure out what is and isn’t true.
And I don’t try to hide my tears.
The secrets or my deepest fears.
Through it all nobody gets me like you do.
And you know everything about me.
You say that you can’t live without me.

[Chorus]

When I’m with anybody else it’s so hard to be myself.
Only you can tell.

[Chorus:]
That I’m only up when you’re not down.
Don’t wanna fly if you’re still on the ground.
It’s like no matter what I do.
Well you drive me crazy half the time;
the other half I’m only trying to let you know that what I feel is true.
And I’m only me
Who I wanna be
Well, I’m only me when I’m with you
With you
Uh huh
Yeah

i sit here thinking about what to do next. i think ive failed my quiz today. people tend to fail at life which is pretty funny.

Zero gravity/david archy

Tell me what you did to me,
Just there beneath my feet.
Didn’t even notice we were miles above the ground.
I’m not afraid of heights,
We crashed into the sky,
Didn’t know that I could feel the way that I do now.

I’m not asking for an explanation,
All I know is that you take me away,
And you show me how to fly.

Nothing brings me down,
When you’re around.
It’s like zero gravity.
The world just disappears when you’re here,
It’s zero gravity.
When things get messed up,
You lift my head up,
I get lost in the clouds.
There’s no sense of time with you and I,
It’s zero gravity.

The edges fade away,
‘Till there’s no more shades of gray,
You only have to whisper anything at all.
You opened up my eyes,
You turned my lows to highs,
And that’s the only way that I know how to fall.
Not gonna analyze and try to fight it,
Don’t even care if it makes no sense at all,
Cause with you I would fly.

Nothing brings me down,
When you’re around.
It’s like zero gravity.
The world just disappears when you’re here,
It’s zero gravity.
When things get messed up,
You lift my head up,
I get lost in the clouds.
There’s no sense of time with you and I,
It’s zero gravity.

so im doing nada. im listening to music tho. it calms me down. i wish we did NOTHING but listen to music all day. and everything we did was about music and everything we said were lyrics. that would be a perfect world. but all we could do now is wish and nothing ever gets done. i know im complaining at this point. i pretty much look at life well the positive way.

and as for now, ta-ta!

D’Masiv – Jangan Menyerah

tak ada manusia
yang terlahir sempurna
jangan kau sesali
segala yang telah terjadi
kita pasti pernah
dapatkan cobaan yang berat
seakan hidup ini
tak ada artinya lagi

reff1:
syukuri apa yang ada
hidup adalah anugerah
tetap jalani hidup ini
melakukan yang terbaik

tak ada manusia
yang terlahir sempurna
jangan kau sesali
segala yang telah terjadi

repeat reff1

reff2:
Tuhan pasti kan menunjukkan
kebesaran dan kuasanya
bagi hambanya yang sabar
dan tak kenal putus asa

repeat reff1
repeat reff2

Vidi Aldiano – Cinta Jangan Kau Pergi

Kusadari
Kesalahan ini
Yang membuat segalanya
Gelap jadinya

Oh... oo... kasihku
Kuharap kau mahu
Memaafkan menerima pengakuanku

Jangan kau diam lagi
Ku tak sanggup menahan
Bicaralah kau sayang
Jiwa ini tak tenang

Cinta jangan kau pergi
Tinggalkan diriku sendiri
Cinta jangan kau lari
Apalah erti hidup ini
Tanpa cinta dan kasih... sayang

Do you hear me,
I’m talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I’m trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Ooohh, ooooh, oooh, oooh,
Oooh ooh ooh ooh

They don’t know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I’ll wait for you I promise you, I will

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we’re in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I’m sailing through the sea
To an island where we’ll meet
You’ll hear the music fill the air
I’ll put a flower in your hair

Though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you’re all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
I’m lucky we’re in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

Ooohh, ooooh, oooh, oooh,
Oooh, ooh, ooh, ooh
Ooooh, ooooh, oooh, oooh,
Oooh, ooh, ooh, ooh

*u know who u’re’