Okay, so someone commented on my first post. My first comment! And they seem to know all about the Soul Sense Connection. At least enough to make me feel stupid. But are they going to tell me about it? No. They’re going to ambiguous and tell me that I’m doing something wrong. I tried to figure out the clues, but I;m sorry, I’m not any good at riddles. But it is good to know that the whole thing is more than a random prank or social experiment. There is something more out there. A lot supposedly if someone is mentioning twitter acounts and cryptic webpages. Maybe if that someone could tell me a bit more about their own involvement with the mystery. Maybe just point me in the right direction.

Or I could just keep on wondering what on earth those clues are about and keep my mouth shut and stop complaining. That is an option. But I am new to all of this, and I was just hoping there was an easy explanation. Apparantly the mystery just keeps going. I just need a few more details to be motivated to hunt this thing. But give me a bit of time and I’m going to die of curiosity, at which point I will throw myself into it and actually solve the first clues.

In other news, one of the other guys who found a letter contacted me the other day. We had exchanged numbers at the meet-up spot. He says that I should contact his friend who actually solves mysteries as a hobby. I didn’t know there was such a thing. At least, I didn’t think there were very many mysteries to solve unless you’re dealing with crimes or philosophy which can’t really be solved anyway. But supposedly there are internet mysteries. I don’t what they would lead to. Secret societies maybe. Or virtual communities of hackers and pirates who manipulate media and work on overthrowing major corporations. Okay. So I did some major research. But this is not like that at all. So I don’t think I will contact this guy. I think I will try to figure those clues out on my own. Because I retrieved the letter from the lamp post. I was pulled into this by the words on that scrap piece of paper. I chose to show up and take that first step out of the ordinary.

And to the anonymous commenter, consider this a challenge. Who can solve the clues first? I’m on it. Are you?

If you running a GNU/Linux distro with PulseAudio by default, and you love pSX AND PulseAudio, you’re probably very mad by now hehehe… Fear not! I’ve found the solution, and would like to share with the community:

Rename the ~/.asoundrc and/or /etc/asound.conf files to something else.

There you go Simple isn’t? To think I uninstalled the WHOLE PulseAudio suite so many times just to make pSX work… tsk… : /

If the above doesn’t work, try this.

Reference
Ubuntu Forums

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Maze of Gilad Shalit in Uniform PDF of this Maze

If anyone knows anything about the Soul Sense Connection please contact me immediately! If we share our knowledge, we may both be able to grow closer to discovering the meaning behind it. Chances are though, you don’t know what it is. Because believe me, I have researched and searched for it all over the internet and haven’t found anything. But here is what I do know:

On November 12, this really strange thing happened to me. I found a piece of paper taped to the top of a lamp post. My friends and I could tell that it had lots of writing on it. So for fun, I climbed the lamp post. I got the paper down and we all read what it said. It was written to whoever happened to read it, kind of like a message in a bottle idea. It talked about something called the Soul Sense Connection. Like it was not just a thing, but an actual group or something. And then it included some really obscure clues. I still don’t know what those are about. But anyway, it then asked me to meet at noon on the 13th at this place downtown.

So my friends thought it was just some prank. At least, they joked about it being a blind date or some initiation to some cult or something. But I couldn’t not show. The letter was written in a really interesting way and said I would just meet some strangers. So when I get there, there are two people standing on this balcony. And the balcony is really just a landing between stairs really. But I walk up there not knowing whether these people have anything to do with the letter. And then I find out that they came for the same reason. They each found letters lying around. So I wonder what the hell is going on, right, someone is probably laughing to themselves from some nearby window. It’s stupid though. Why would some make up such an elaborate prank just to waste some people’s time?

But that’s not how it goes. Because I introduce myself to these two others and then a third shows.  We all have the same letter. And we kind of share stories, where we found them etc., and then nothing happens. So then one of them says screw it and goes to leave. And that’s when this other guy, Tim, notices that there are two small letters on the back of his. So I check mine and I have two letters as well. But mine are different. I’ve got ‘VE’. He’s got ‘IN’.

So we check all the others and think maybe they’ve got to be ordered in some way. So the other two are ‘LO’ and ‘SP’.

So we went through a few combinations, but all I can think of is SPIN LOVE. At least, I am rather certain the LO and VE go together. Would make sense. So then that’s it. We stand around and wonder. But now I feel like nothing’s happening cause it’s my fault. There’s some riddle here and we just can’t make it out. Anyway though, the others leave cause they have to go places, but I hang around because I’m wondering about the weird clues that were in the message that had something to do with the meeting place. I want to know what the hell it’s all about. And I know there’s more.

And it didn’t occur to me until a few days later that I bet there were missing letters. I mean, not everyone who finds a piece of paper somewhere is going to follow its instructions! So I think there were some missing. Now, I don’t expect those missing letters to show up on this blog. The chances of that are just far too slim. But, I think that this whole event has happened before elsewhere. There are two many clues that just hint at more.

So if anyone has indeed herd about the Soul Sense Connection, I want to know what you know. And I will share the letter I got. Maybe someone can figure out what those clues are about. Cause I’m stumped. And I don’t know if anything will come from this, but I am stumped and thought I should post this somewhere online and hope for more information. So here it is:

Thus far it seems that the overall feeling on Palin’s book is that it is a weakly voiced, whiny 400-pages of buck passing and finger pointing for her follies and short comings in the run for vice president as well as a self-flagellating recount of her life and family. I have not read it, probably never will unless it is lent to me by someone because I refuse to support her financially and idealistically. I have read a half dozen book reviews and heard her claims on the Newsweek’s ‘sexist’ cover that ran a photo of her taken for a shoot for a running magazine. In a time where she is presumably setting herself up to run for office in 2012 she has penned, or most likely ghost-written, an apparently petty and scathing editorial on those around her for her failings instead of taking responsibility for her lack of basic governing common knowledge and being ill-prepared for the investigative light that comes with the campaign for the high office that she sought.

In many reviews it is said that the book lacks the voice of a ‘leader’. The words are devoid of an overall message of power, strength, conviction, and accountability. She often slams the ‘liberal media’, though she has never shunned the coverage, and her secret desire to get one reporting team ‘slimy’ and dirty, which didn’t happen during a photo op fishing trip she went on with the crew. She felt slighted by those that made her over, and controlled her during the campaign, though this is what campaign managers and PR people get paid to do. She points out many short falls in the campaign in her eyes and speaks at length about the Katie Couric interview debacle that she wasn’t ready for. (That question on ‘what books do you read’ was a serious doozy for her I am sure.) She claims she was misinformed on Couric’s interviewing prowess. Misinformed? It’s Katie Couric, if you have owned a TV in the last 15 years then you should know that that chick swings for the fences in an ‘exclusive interview’ event like yours. Grow a pair, you are mildly educated on the topics you should know so much about, and Couric shoveled her way past your thin vail of a hockey-mom persona to find that there was little behind the mask. You got nailed, as Colbert would say, deal with it.

Whatever the book may be to those that read it, it seems that all is coming to fruition that I predicted so long ago. It will be a best seller, no question, and it will make her a media starlet again, for good or ill. Palin will take the place of the Jon&Kate fiasco on the tabloids, get serious interviews, like the one she had with Oprah pre-book release. She is doing her book tour, which will be a soft pedaling affair where most talk will be of how great her hardcore fans think she is, and how the media is so mean, when it should be her chance to push policy and talk shop, instilling confidence in her as a potential leader. Though this tour and public appearances would be a great chance for her to further her political career and talk policy and begin campaigning as a candidate for 2012 it will probably turn in to a whiny bitch session from stop to stop and TV appearance to TV appearance. Little will be spoken of that isn’t juicy, salacious, and an excuse for her performance and recent activities and this will be a huge mistake on her part if this isn’t taken advantage of as a chance to rally the ‘rogues’ out there that love her no matter what she says.

Sarah is all over the place, and one place she is not happy with being is on the cover of Newsweek. Sure enough, here comes the liberal media with it’s ‘sexist’ cover photo of her in thigh long running shorts, stockings, running shoes, and a long sleeve fleece zipped all the way up. Yes this ‘sexist’ cover showing less skin than a 1940’s ladies one piece bathing suit is a take from a shoot she did for some running magazine with the tag line ‘how do you fix a problem like Sara Palin’, or something to that effect. She claims that this photo is offensive and is sexist. Yes, this photo (a poorly lit and shot photo, the shadows behind her are an egregious slap in the face of exposure compensation and lighting proficiency, a flat lighting ratio, et al, a bad photo) that she volunteered to be in for a running magazine is now sexist on the cover of Newsweek. I don’t see how it wasn’t sexist in one magazine and then sexist in another. Apparently it objectifies her as a sexy woman and this takes away from her as a political figure somehow, as if the McCain team didn’t play her attractive looks and the republicans didn’t get a hard on with her as a poster child, gimme a break. How can you pose for a photo and then complain when a magazine legally obtains the rights to it for publication? It is such a cliched, poorly shot photo, do you see the American flag she leaning on? She prostitutes the word and idea of ‘American’ and ‘patriot’ to the point that the whole concept loses is power and meaning, so really the only thing the photo can be accused of, besides being bad, is that it is a tasteless pander to prostituting the honor and respect we should have for America and truly patriotic people, not those that whore the word out for political gain.

So what is next? Well, she should appear on Larry King Live soon, before he dies. I would say Letterman, but she probably won’t do that after his whole blackmail/affair debacle a while back, so I am betting the Jay Leno Show would like to ‘get’ her. She will make a cameo appearance on Saturday Night Live, possibly this week. I would love to see her on The Daily Show, but that won’t happen, maybe Colbert, but unlikely, and I think she might make a Meet The Press appearance. Palin will hammer the media as they cover her and blast her critics who say she needs to come to terms with her delusions of grandeur and get back in to small politics if she wants to ever make a run at the highest office. There are those that feel she is just not ready for the big show, maybe in 20 years, when age softens her looks as well as hopefully gives her wisdom, she can come in and take a more measured and experienced approach; that is, if she gets back in to smaller state offices now. Her proponents will trumpet the same old line of how great she is, how strong, how smart, and ignore every fact that points to the contrary; and this is who this book is written for, those that she the world through a Palin-made filter.

Sara Palin’s first book should have been a trumpet to call her troops and instill the thrill of victory in to their hearts for 2012. The book cover to cover could have a clarification and idealogical manifesto for the new Republican Party that needed to emerge for victory and a better America. She could have silenced all her critics with a el written and tough out socially conscious piece, and like a Phoenix she could have rose from the ashes of her shortfalls and very public embarrassments. She could have spun a tale of love and devotion in her family, explained away the pregnancy and all that stuff about marital problems, et al. It should have been a speech like something out of 300 that gave you goosebumps and made you just want to kick a door in to see how it felt. Her words, or someone else carefully shaping her words, should have cut to the core of her constituents and should have shed a light on the system she was going so ‘rogue’ from, creating a firestorm of support that would rocket her to near mythical proportions in the coming years. Instead she penned 400-pages of her boring, quaint life growing up and came to the summation that: A) Katie Couric is a bitch; B) Washington D.C. is a cross between ‘sodom and the frozen circle of hell’; and C) that her wardrobe stylist, Lisa A. Kline, was the torpedo that sank the McCain dreamboat to the White House and ruined her beyond repair. Yeah, it was the stylist’s fault. Bra-fucking-vo, Palin, your legacy is intact.

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In preferred DNS server

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Very helpful list with pictures and explanations of why certain errors occur in printing.  Click here to read.

I’ve posted a new blog on my personal web site that explains why I’m blogging more here – at The Solution – and less there! The blog provides some additional SoLVe background that might be of interest.  Check it out!

An inequality(or inequation) is similar to an equation accept for instead of saying both side of the inequality are equal we say one side is greater than (or equal to depending upon the type of inequality) the other, this is done using the greater than (), greater than or equal to (), less than () and less than or equal to ().

Examples

Some simple examples which contain only one variable are:

Solving and Manipulating Inequalities

Inequalities can be solved by rearranging them and isolating the variable you want to find in a similar way to normal equation (see the post quadratic inequalities to see how to solve quadratics). However, rather than getting an exact value such as x=3 we get a range (open or closed) of values such as x<2 or -3<-1.

Much of the manipulation is the same though there are slight variations when dividing or multiplying by negative numbers or taking the reciprocal. The important thing to remember is that like normal equations we must do the same to both sides.

Addition and Subtraction

Addition and subtraction are exactly the same to equalities. We can add or subtract whatever we like as long as we do the same to both the sides. This enables us to take expressions “to the other side” by reversing their sign. For example all the following manipulations are valid.

Multiplication and Division

Again we can perform multiplication and division in a similar way to the way we perform it with equalities by doing the same to both sides. However, if we are multiplying or dividing by a negative number we must reverse the direction of the inequality since

This means we must be careful when diving by an unknown since by definition we don’t know whether or not it is positive or negative. If this has to be done you should consider both the cases it is positive and negative separately and if it is only positive or negative then the other inequality should lead to a contradiction which can easily be spotted such as x<0 and x>3.

Examples of valid manipulation are below:


for and/or for

Reciprocals

When taking the reciprocal or “one over” of an expression you must reverse the inequality so

African Union panel says special court to try those charged with atrocities in Darfur is priority… From VOA. Full story

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As good as the misconceptions surrounding Toyota make it sound, the truth is even better.

– Stewart Anderson in Quality Digest’s Quality Insider 20-Oct-2009

Thanks to Stewart Anderson, both for bringing us the real story about how Toyota, famed for focus on quality, actually goes about doing it. Put aside for a moment what you know about ISO, QMS, metrics etc and read the carefully crafted wisdom of experience. How quality really works at Toyota. And yes, you really can apply these ideas elsewhere, even in software development.

All quotes are from the linked article by Stewart Anderson.

Toyota’s basic pattern for improving a process is based on a simple three-part model:

1. Understanding the current condition.
2. Developing and defining a target condition.
3. Understanding and tackling problems which need to be overcome to move from the current condition to the target condition.

This model has learning at its heart [to identify] actions to solve problems in the current condition.

The primary responsibility [of the team leader] is to monitor the process, ensure that standard work is being followed, and coach and mentor the work team in improving the process. Team leaders receive special training in process improvement and problem solving ….

To read the full article click here.

Related reading: Gemba Kaizen: A Commonsense, Low-Cost Approach to Management (my review here).

Full disclosure: My Toyota is over 15 years old and still running fine. My last car was also a Toyota.

Last wednesday, I ran into an annoying problem when I wanted to add a mail account to Thunderbird.  I’ll quickly explain the scenario:  I work for an IT-company (Analys4it), which, amongst standard products, has two “product lines” of it’s own (Mijnkmosite and Ofan Workforce Mgmt.).  This week, I decided to create me a mailbox for both the “products”, and add them to Thunderbird. 

The problem

When I tried to add a mail account, for some reason it didn’t show up afterwards.  I forgot all about that as I was summoned to do something else.  When I returned to Thunderbird, I – wrongfully – assumed that I had cancelled creating the account, so I attempted to create it again.  That’s when I was greeted with the following, less than interesting error:

"A mail or newsgroup account with the same user name and server name already exists. Click Back and enter a different server name, or click Cancel. [OK]"

Luckily, through trial, error and Google I found the fix.

The solution

[STEP 1]

In step one we’re going to delete some folders. I’m not convinced that this is absolutely necessary, but it didn’t hurt either.  If you feel like skipping this step, go ahead and inform me of the results. 

1.  Find the folder where Thunderbird stores it’s settings.

-  For Windows XP:  c:\documents and settings\<your username>\Application Data\Thunderbird
-  For Vista:  c:\users\<your user>appdata\roaming\Thunderbird

It’s possible that you’ve got to enable showing hidden folders before you can see the appdata / Application data folders respectively.

2.  Go to “Profiles”

3. Open the folder for the profile that you’re using.  Unless you created a new profile, it’s the one ending with .default

4.  Depending on the type of mailbox you were trying to create, open the Imapmail (for IMAP) or Mail folder (for POP3)

5.  Now it’s time for some searching, so take a pen and paper (or open Notepad, for all I care). First of all, open Thunderbird and go to Extra > Account settings.  For each account you see, click on “Server settings”.  Then, look for “Local directory” (all the way down).

6.  Navigate to the end of that path.  Write down the folder name behind the last \

7.  Once you’ve got your list, go to the folder you navigated to earlier.  Make sure Thunderbird is closed, and check the Imapmail and Mail folders.  Delete all folders in there that are not on your list.  Also, delete any .msf files not matching the items on your list. 

[STEP 2]

Now, we’re going to perform the steps that are absolutely, beyond a doubt necessary to fix the problem.  We’re going to be fiddling with your Thunderbird Preferences!

1.  Head back to the …\thunderbird\<your profile> folder.

2.  IMPORTANT!! make a back-up of the file “prefs”.  Rename it to something like prefs_backup.  You may skip whole parts of this how-to, but this step is crucial.  Ignore this warning if you’re planning to loose all Thunderbird data

3.  Open “prefs” with notepad or the editor of your choice. 

4.  You’ll see a bunch of code (which is why choosing notepad in the previous step might bit you in the ass right now).  Look for the lines about your account that went rogue.  The lines will look something like

this:

user_pref(“mail.identity.id<some number>.<something>”)

The easiest way is to look up the e-mail address you were planning to use when you got the error.  Find a line that looks like this:

user_pref(“mail.identity.id<some number>.useremail”,”<your e-mail address”)

Once you’ve found that line, delete it and all lines with the same value

for <some number>.

5.  Save the file.  Do NOT… I repeat, NOT delete the back-up file yet. 

6.  Start Thunderbird

7. Create the mail account.  It should work a-okay this time.  If not, start over from point 2. 

And remember folks: just because Open Source software is free, doesn’t mean it’s bug-free

 Do you experience this kind of problem whenever you attemp to install an application in windows box (2k, xp)?

“The Windows Installer service could not be accessed. This can occur if you are running Windows in safe mode, or if the Windows Installer is not correctly installed. Contact your support personnel for assistance.”

The ms website knowledge article 324516 gives 2 methods as a way of fixing this problem, but you might be very lucky if any of the 2 fixes the problem, alot of guys end up formating their systems and doing fresh windows installations or try wired ways of fixing it.

Well, the solution is very easy:

1. right click your root windows installation drive i.e drive where you installed windows
2. click properties at the bottom
3. select security tab
4. click Add and scroll down to SYSTEM account click add and click OK.
5. allow Full control permission and click Apply and then Ok.

This should solve your problem with windows installer.

Trends of transparency and the movement towards a connected community world

Not long ago many companies tried to ensure competitive advantage by focusing on building a large internal R&D team with a significant share of the total budget. The in-house scientists and engineers conducted all aspects of developing new products from research to strategy. At most, the internal R&D would stretch out and assign a couple of specialist teams to work on the development of new solutions.

Organisationally this was efficient, since only one person could direct the entire effort of a new value proposition. However, a key limitation was that a lot of “me-too” products made its way to market, since the organisation generally didn’t have the most qualified people in all disciplines to source the right specialists to create the right solutions for the market.

Today a network evolution is taking place, where each project includes a broad group of people from different networks. Every project is different and the objective and character of the project will determine the team and which networks to tap into. It is a never ending activity where the specialists are hand picked from external networks to work side by side to solve large corporations, cities and even countries quests to create sustainable growth.

This process Globe Forum is facilitating by finding (scouting) the right innovators and connecting them to our broad audience.  Globe Forum’s partner companies has the freedom to pick which innovator is most suitable to work on different projects, while at the same time ensuring that the solutions gets accumulated  to our knowledge based database yielded by our global network.

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Steps

• Realize what the problem is and think of possible solutions to it
• Talk to your family in a calm manner about what is occurring and how it could be fixed of eased.
• Even if no one listens to you don’t do anything you may regret later. This includes self-harming and threatening to commit suicide
• Even though it is hard, talk to ANYONE that will listen to you vent.
• Try talking to someone you trust in school, like a teacher or a counselor
• Remember no matter what happens, if the problems can’t be solved it is never your fault.
• Don’t beat yourself up over something that’s your fault. You are a good person, no matter what anybody says or thinks.
• don’t mind anything that will disturb you thinking of solutions to your problem.
• Use calm tone whenever you decided to talk with your family member. Ask them to talk one on one, sit together, look at their eyes and start to talk.
• Do not hesitate to ask a professional counselor to help.

Tips

• It may be hard but talking to people will help you get some of your emotions out so that you’re not bottling them up inside.
• You really are a great person, even if you don’t think so, find a quiet and safe place that you can go to and think or read or do whatever relaxes you, like a place nobody but you knows you’re at.
• There are other people out there with the same problems (me, as an example) and the ones who have overcome it want to help you.
• Never give up.

Warnings

• Don’t be afraid to talk from your heart.

• fight for what is right.

One of the most ignorant, immature tactics used in a relationship when problems come up is the silent treatment. Now if you don’t know what that is, it’s simply the other person shutting you out in some way (not talking, avoiding being near you, ignoring you, etc.) to make you feel like you’re not worth anything instead of dealing with the problem at hand and trying to resolve it. In any relationship, it can be the most frustrating, hurtful, childish thing anyone could do. I’ve dealt with it too much with people close to me and I think it’s absolutely ridiculous.

The person giving the silent treatment is usually thinking that what they’re doing is good. They think that not dealing with the problem is better than getting mad about it. However, from my point of view (being on the side of the receiver of the silent treatment), I’d much rather be yelled at and see anger than go through the silent treatment. At least then it’s being talked about and I’m not feeling hopeless.

Now, I make it point to strive for assertiveness even though I know I’m often passive and need work. But at least it’s my goal. One of my role models is Martin Luther King Jr. and I loved the way he dealt with issues. He didn’t act with aggression, nor did he act with passiveness. He was always assertive. The silent treatment is a combination of passiveness and aggression. Basically, the person giving the treatment hardly ever speaks to you and often ignores you. However when they finally speak to you, it’s rude and mean and they treat you like garbage.

And another thing that bursts my bubble is when the people doing this proclaim themselves to be a Christian. It raises up the question in me, “what makes this person think that what they’re doing is of God?”
Matthew 5:23-26 says:
23“Therefore, if you are offering your gift at the altar and there remember that your brother has something against you, 24leave your gift there in front of the altar. First go and be reconciled to your brother; then come and offer your gift.

25“Settle matters quickly with your adversary who is taking you to court. Do it while you are still with him on the way, or he may hand you over to the judge, and the judge may hand you over to the officer, and you may be thrown into prison. 26I tell you the truth, you will not get out until you have paid the last penny.

When I’m facing an issue with another and they’re giving me the silent treatment, it deeply distresses me. Please, can’t we resolve this issue and be reconciled so that we may glorify God? Hate, unforgiveness, gossip, and rudeness are not of God.

The silent treatment usually follows a mistake you made of some sort or when you point out something they did as wrong and sought to correct them. They then act like a victim and don’t forgive you. And I understand that it’s not right if I’m rude to them or said something that bothered them and they were hurt, but it gets to the point where they take it to the extreme and become over-dramatic about it and you can’t even get a chance to say sorry for what you did wrong.

Anyone who acts like this, I can’t view as a mature individual. Anyone who shuts themselves out to another instead of seeking a solution to the problem through communication obviously wants to be pitied and treated as if they are a victim. In my opinion, the silent treatment is a form of selfishness that shows the person’s craving for attention. These people do not have humility whatsoever and would rather spend years of their life in bitterness and making the other person feel hurt and like they’re worth nothing.

At the time I write this, there are 2 people that are doing this to me. And I wish they would read this and have at least a speck of a desire to stop what they’re doing and come to some sort of realization that it is not right. If I have hurt you, I’m sorry. And there might be stuff that I don’t see right now that I may have done that wronged you, but I wouldn’t know because you don’t communicate anything to me. I think that the silent treatment is worldly and should have no place anywhere in the Church. I can not and will not let this bitterness affect my life to the point that it drags me down to acting the same way. It’s wrong and a sin and I will not take part in it. I have no unforgiveness to these 2 people, but it still hurts me to know that they won’t even give the slightest chance to resolve the issue at hand. Oh what drama.

I know it sounds strange but experiencing it , is strange enough on its own. I used to go to sleep well enough and wake up just like any other normal person, with a bit of a struggle and dismay but i woke up fine. But nowadays i have to battle with myself for hours just to even get my head to lift. It’s like my dream world doesnt want me to go. Just thinking about leaving my dream hurts so bad that i want to fall back asleep and continue dreaming. Now as you may understand this isnt about the sleep itself but has to do with the dreams i keep having whilst being asleep. The funny thing is that as soon as i wake up, i dont feel bad about letting the dream go and i can go on with my life just okay.

I have browsed around on the internet and have found various interesting articles about sleeping disorder and i must wonder to myself if i may also have one of some sort. Or maybe i am suffering from a type of depression where i want to hide in my dream world.

The dream i keep having is about me and my boyfriend. Either we are always arguing and making up. OR we are doing fine and then someone comes and ruins it. SInce my boyfriend is far away at the moment its hard for me to let go of the dream, because it’s the only way for me to be with him. I think it’s really weird to feel like that. I have actually missed classes and other important events because i just wanted to keep on dreaming. Thats just not normal

Intermission

Happiness is an intermission between death and despair
The world is a cruel place that’s unfair
That shouldn’t stop us from trying to live
Shouldn’t detract from the things that we give
We shouldn’t view death as something to fear
It’s coming some day, but right now it’s not here
This is the life you were given
This is the world you must live in
Life’s just a game; happiness’s are breaks
We all fall down, skin our knees; we all make mistakes
Sometimes wounds heal like they never were there
Sometimes a scar is our burden to bear
Happiness is easy for some people to accept
But for others, it’s too hard to handle
The remnants of a burnt out candle
Some believe it’s just an illusion
Some are lost in the confusion
Which parts are the game? Which parts are the breaks?
Was that a strategic move or was it a mistake?
It’s these people we’ve got to watch out for
It’s these people who are the thinkers
These people who will save us
When we pollute the sky so much the sun can’t shine through
It’s these people who will know what to do
The people who think of the worst possible case
The people who are forever in the chase
For the solution to the problem no one can solve
It’s these people; they’re the one’s who evolve.
If the optimists were the main source of evolution
We’d already have suffocated from the pollution
Because they’d think everything would just work out fine
Think there never was a line
So how could we have crossed it?
No, it’s the pessimists that will keep us alive
Living for the intermissions in life
Working through the despair
Embracing their moments of happiness
Because they do come, sometimes
And they will continue to live
They will evolve
And they’ll save us all
And who’ll be laughing then?

K.M.

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The preparatory device of a plant provides us with a bit of information that’s relatively meaningless at the time, but becomes much more critical later. It requires the audience to grasp and retain a detail for later use, so that at the time of the payoff, the whole story seems more unified. The gesture, prop, etc. of the plant takes on a new meaning in the payoff (which is usually near the resolution of story, when circumstances of characters and audience have changed). In the beginning of the search, at the toyshop, Basil finds the toy soldiers without their uniforms and wind-up toys with all the gears missing. Later at the palace, Ratigan’s minions are dressed in uniforms stolen from the soldier dolls at the toy shop. The plant has been made and the audience has been reminded of it. The payoff finally comes when we learn that Ratigan has had the toymaker build a mechanical replica of the queen. Thus, Basil solves the mystery.

It would be a heck of a thing to say that I had the answer to all of life’s problems. The truth is, I don’t know anything about you or your problems, and I probably don’t have the slightest clue how to solve them for you. But you do. The answers you seek are available to you right now. Others have faced problems just like yours and they have persevered. Therefore, the universal solution to all life problems (that can be solved) is simply this: Learn more. Sounds simple, right? I’ll let you in on a little secret: Most things are. This was mentioned earlier, in “Step Three: Your Actions.” Most people don’t advance in life because they don’t know what to do next. How do you find out what to do next? First, identify your goal. Second, start taking action to achieve it. That’s the part where people get hung up. They know what they want, but they don’t know how to get it. Rest assured, the answers are out there. Whatever you want to do, you can learn how to do it if you apply yourself and learn what actions you need to take in order to get what you want. Visit your local library and pick up a few books on your selected subject. If you’re interested in developing your personal success skills, here’s a recommended reading list:

Simpleology by Mark Joyner
Blink by Malcolm Gladwell
Outliers by Malcolm Gladwell
The Law of Attraction by Michael J. Losier
The Success Principles by Jack Canfield
Harmonic Wealth by James Arthur Ray
The Attractor Factor by Joe Vitale
Ask and it is Given by Esther and Jerry Hicks
The Science of Getting Rich by Wallace D. Wattles (free download)

The subjects of these books are essentially all the same, but their methods vary from scientific to spiritual, so feel free to check out their summaries on Amazon.com to decide which books are right for you. If you’re interested in something else, other information is available to you as well. No matter who you are or what you want, the answers are out there. Not sure what kind of car you want? Learn more. Not sure how to write a novel? Learn more. Read. Read a lot. Visit seminars. Watch free educational videos on YouTube. Remember, you are always taking action. By definition, everything you do is an action, so if you don’t know what action to take next, take the action of learning. Develop your skills. Learning is how you grow into a bigger person. If you already know everything you need to know, start applying what you’ve learned to get what you want. If you already have the knowledge within you, you have no reason to sit on your butt while your life passes you by. And if you don’t, you have no reason not to get out there and start learning how to achieve your goals.

Once in a while suicide seems like the only option it looms over your shoulder suducing you into its grasp telling you its the only way out of your misery. As you contemplate the end of existence you wonder if it is sweet to end your own life then thoughts of faith come in and does the end really solve your problems or send you into a firery hell and damnation? Who the fuck knows not I nor anyone else.

Originally Written November 8, 2005 at 1:20 AM