Today I’ve began to notice something… As Osho has said in his book on suppression of desire that when you are in the midst of supressing something that you have strong attachment to you begin to dream it… (or something the body feels it needs).

For example, the need of food, if one goes into fasting as per their religion, after only a week of fasting the body will start craving food so much that you will start to dream having huge feasts of your favorite foods etc. The mind does this because it isn’t getting what it use to get, and feels it needs it (and well sometimes it does need it depending on the desire.)

For me, I miss… her… she is someone i care a lot about and we have a really good relationship. We are best friends but just the turn of events is that the love I’ve taken part in is not the same that she feels, but nonetheless, we have kept our strong friendship bond (for what its worth)

I have attempted to in a way pull away from my attachment from it which makes it a bit difficult for me, for a couple of reasons, mainly because I don’t want her to feel like shes trapped, secondly jealousy is within me, thirdly, I want her to be happy, and lastly, so this mind and body don’t hurt (i know, selfish right?)

But I have noticed… that after a week, that supression dreams have started surfacing, usually depending on the outlook the dreams will change (if i was longing) then they are cutesy, but this time they are dreams of goodbye..

Maybe some other day darling, maybe some other day when we are both petals of the same rose.

filled to the brim, i crack again
under weight of wine filled porcelain
lips stain blood kisses on the rim
i am seeping through my pores
from wounds and tears made light
by twilight and distant vines

someday the room will be empty
or my friends will fall asleep
and I will scream into ghost ears
words that chase paper and guests away

my life is a practice in holding back oceans
made of skinless, boneless me
pressing hot against my pores
and searching for the door
that leads to the place where i can be

what if i let go, let flow
let the barriers down
and allowed the source of this well
to have it’s way with me
the world might eat my soul
or my soul might eat me free

It’s such a shame that massive scientific breakthrough is strangled for commercial gains.

Imagine being able to destroy cancer, virii, any micro organism that could cause disease. Imagine doing so with something as ’simple’ as frequency. Imagine why the pharmaceutical industry would probably prefer you would never find that out.

There are 13 parts I believe. Very worth a listen.

China evidently blocked access to Twitter two days ago, two days before the sensitive 20th anniversary of the Tiananmen Square crackdown.

Other Internet services that seem to have become inaccessible include Hotmail, Flickr and search engine Bing.

In recent years, access to YouTube, Western media outlets and many other websites has also been blocked, often before or after ’sensitive’ events. And now’s a good moment to remember those who blocked themselves.

A few days after the blog of artist and government critic Ai Weiwei was shut down, he simply opened a new one (which you can see here, in Chinese). Ai also uses Twitter.

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Only 22% of eligible British voters have declared their intention to vote in the European and county council elections today. In 2004 the turnout in Britain for the European parliamentary elections was 38.9%.

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I LOVE this new Jamie Foxx song!  How about you?  My own interpretation of the meaning of the song might interest you.  I think the song is profound.  He is saying BLAME it on the alcohol – blame your authentic feelings, your desire to choose BLISS on a substance.  The real deal is that we do not actually need the substance to express feminine desire. (Not that there is anything innately wrong with partaking in spirits.  There is metaphysical purpose in that too!  LOL!)

Basically Jamie has noted a key element in our society at this time.  Women are fronting on the sex tip!  Not all women, but many women carry real guilt about their sexual desires.  Thus, they ‘get loose’ when they drink alcohol, the alcohol makes us free of the incessant need to judge ourselves about our natural, yet extremely suppressed, sexual energy.

Lets take a look at the lyrics…

Blame it on the Goose – gotcha feeling loose – Blame it on the Tron – got your panties off…

OK – the song opens with this.  It seems that what Jamie is alluding to is the fact that women want to be open and free and relaxed about sex, but cannot.  Many drink alcohol to bring out their authentic sexual energy.  We have all seen this, right?  Some women get drunk, and have wild sexual exploits that they can later blame on alcohol.  We call these women sluts, however, many more women have these desires, but do not act on them due to fear of being called a slut or guilt about sexual feelings in general… Let’s go on.

She said she usually don’t but I know that she front.  Cause Shawty know what she want ~ but she don’t want to seem like she’s Easy…

Who is he talking about?  Jamie Foxx is stating that women, in general are fronting.  He says that women know what they want, but do not want to seem Easy. DO you agree?  Many women want to and have wanted to explore their own sexual energy in deeper ways, but due to social conditioning, they have stuffed this sacred urge to be healed by a man’s energy to the background of life.  Think of it this way.  There are many angry women out there who simply do not get enough love.  These are the ones Jamie might be talking about in this song.  It is a shame that women want to suppress the sexual urge in order not to appear EASY.  But no worries, we are changing this!  The sexual paradigm in this country is about to shift and JujuMama will be on the forefront of that movement.  In my opinion, sexual energy and spiritual energy are one in the same!

Have you ever experience a moment in which you authentically wanted the sacred healing of a man, but you did not want to seem like you were easy?  Sure you have!  Don’t front ladies.  The man speaks truth!

Next lyric:

I ain’t saying what you gon do – but girl you know what you wanna do.  Its what you been feining deep in side.

Hell yes!  Of course women fiend.  It is scientifically proven that women desire sex and sexual variety more than men!  An ancient Greek writing notes that “for women, sex is a nine, for men sex is a one”.  This simply means that women are multi orgasmic, can have levels and levels of orgasm while men can have one orgasm, maybe two in the course of sexual love.  This points to the fact that for women, the sexual experience is far deeper than a man’s experience.  This is notable and has been covered over with social mores.  In all, women have a greater desire for sexual experience than men!

Fill another cup up, feeling on your butt what, you don’t even care now, you was unaware how…

SO here Jamie is speaking about the boundaries that are lifted when a woman frees her sexual energy with alcohol.  He says that he is feeling on her butt and she doesn’t even care NOW.  Now simply means NOW, after the drinks!  She allows a man to appreciate her body, touch her body, when she has been drinking.  WOW!

This is an amazing look into the psychology of the modern woman.  We desire the touch of a man, the healing and sacred journey that his touch takes us on.  But here and today, we seem to shun the energy based on social conditioning and other factors.  The alcohol frees women of these artificial constraints.  AMAZING!

Not amazing that this fact is so, many people know this already, but amazing that Jamie FOxx has so clearly defined the scenario of modern madness!  I love it!  How about you?

Blame it on the Goose, gotcha feeling loose, Blame it on the Tron, got you in the Zone…

Yes.  Feeling Loose, Feeling Free!  The alcohol brings her to her natural state of openness and receptivity.  As well the Zone is where sexual bliss takes women.  We are supposed to be able to go to the zone during sex and indeed through meditation and other trance inducing activities.  WOmen are Trance DIVAS.  Trance is important because in the Zone is where we create future realities!  During sex, we have access to the inner plains where the work of manifesting the future takes place!  You can watch the Secret all day long, but nothing will allow you to manifest reality better than being in the Zone – that delicious state of Trance that we all love.  Too bad we need alcohol, at least some of us, to open to that place.  Kudos Jamie!

Oopsie, she spilled her drink on me, now I know shes tipsy, she put her body on me and she keeps staring me

right in my eyes

So here is where Jamie begins to describe the attributes of a sensually awakened woman.  She move her body onto him, offering herself to him in hopes to receive his love.  SHe is also open to looking him in the eyes, the eyes being the window to the soul, this is altogether a great thing!  All women would naturally exhibit these behaviors when choosing a man to give her love.  However, this natural activity is mostly shut down today due to fear.  What will the man think?  Will he be there in the morning?  What will he do if we receive his love?  How will he respond?  Is he a player or a good guy?  So many thoughts that we simply shut down the energy for fear of pain.

No telling what I’m gon do – baby I would rather show you, what you been missing in your life…

This line is really cool.  He wants to show her what he will do, how he can offer his special brand of healing BLISS.  Most importantly, Jamie knows that this is missing in her life.  He states, clearly, that he knows she has been missing out on all the healing bliss she deserves and desires.  Why is that?  Maybe it is the same reason that 78% of American women are not orgasmic in the bed with a man (toys and oral sex aside).  This is a state of affairs that we must shift!  How can we go another ten centuries this way?

Now for the sweetest line of the song

Girl you feel good, just like like you look, couple more drinks you’ll be open like a book and I just want to read you, I just want to please you.

This line tells me that Jamie Foxx is a masculine man!  He wants to please HER.  He wants her to open like a book, open to him, open to pleasure and love and spiritual BLISS so that he can read her.  Women, from a state of trance, can receive information from the inner plains.  When she makes love, if she can stop thinking and go deep within, she can get information just as she would in a state of mediation.  She can download Universal Truths to share with her man once she returns from Heaven.  And he knows that he has to please her in order to get her there!  I LOVE it!

So sweet.

Shawty got drink thought it all was a dream.  SO I made her say I I I – Now she got her hand on my legs and the seats all wet in my ride.  She looked me dead in the eye – my pants got bigger she already knew what to figga – had her looking at her boyfriend like _____ dat _______ !

OK – here is the big finish, right!  Everyone loves that line, why?  Why do so many women resonate here?  Well, I will let you tell me in your comments.  You know what I think already – LOL!

Thanks ya’ll!

Written By Kenya K Stevens

JujuMama xoxoxo

Now we know

On three consecutive days last week, major US newspapers and popular websites featured stories about Israeli behaviour towards Palestinians during and after the recent assault on Gaza.

There was a report on testimony from Israeli soldiers describing excessive violence and unwarranted shootings of Palestinian civilians. Another story featured reports of extreme rabbis assigned to Israeli Defence Forces units instructing soldiers “to get rid of the gentiles that are interfering with our conquest of the land”.

And there were pictures of T-shirts being worn by IDF veterans featuring a pregnant Palestinian woman in the crosshairs with the logo “1 shot kills 2”.

In the middle of all this came a front-page story in The New York Times headlined “More allegations surface in Israeli account of the Gaza war”, which discussed Israel’s post-Gaza image and the negative impact of the testimony of the IDF soldiers.

None of this is new. Back in the 1970s, I ran a Washington-based group, the Palestine Human Rights Campaign. As part of our work, we distributed a monthly report from Dr Israel Shahak, then-chairman of the Israeli League for Human and Civil Rights. Dr Shahak’s reports largely consisted of translated articles from the Hebrew press, which detailed stories of torture, collective punishment against Palestinian civilians, rantings by extremist rabbis who termed Palestinians “strangers who must be driven from our lands”.

Israelis reported these stories and debated them. But this information did not break through into the US press. And now here it is, three days in a row, and on the front page of the Washington Post and The New York Times.
L’affaire Freeman

When Chas Freeman withdrew from consideration as chairman of the National Intelligence Council, some might have thought that the story was over.

It was not.

Mr Freeman has been clear in maintaining that he was not forced out of his position by President Barack Obama. He said the decision was his and that he withdrew because the controversy created by the pro-Israel lobby would make it impossible for him to carry out his responsibilities.

On the one hand, there was the predictable outcry from the same elements that had mugged Mr Freeman, maintaining that they had nothing to do with the matter.

How strange then, that Charles Schumer, a New York Democrat senator, and Steve Israel, a New York Democrat congressman, would both issue statements taking personal credit for upending Mr Freeman.

Daniel Pipes, a Middle East commentator, has made the same boast. On the other hand, both the Right and Left have kept the story going, maintaining a discourse about the unseemly way the Freeman affair played out. This is a reflection of the growing concern that the charge made by the former ambassador was right when he observed: “[There is a powerful lobby determined to prevent any other view than its own from being aired.”
A Debate

The Doha Debates is a BBC programme (usually taped in Doha) that features an Oxford Union style debate on Middle East issues. Now in its fifth season, the debate was recently held in Washington.

When, a few months back, the debate organiser, Ali Willis, announced that the topic for the US-based episode would be “The House believes that it is time for the US to get tough with Israel,” some thought it was too hot for the nation’s capital.

Given the events of the past few months, however, it now appears that the debate topic is, as the British would say, “spot on”.

As per Oxford Union rules, at the debate’s end, a vote was taken. The affirmative side won by a 63 per cent to 37 per cent margin.
FBI-Cair Kerfuffle

It all began rather cryptically with the FBI noting the bureau would, henceforth, “limit its formal contact” with the Council on American-Islamic Relations (Cair), a civil rights group. The most that the FBI would acknowledge about the reasons behind this action was that “certain issues” needed to be addressed, and that “[Cair’s] leadership is aware of this”.

Cair cried “Foul!” and has organised some of its affiliated groups, issuing a statement that they were considering “suspending relations with the FBI”.

All this has been to the delight of anti-Muslim advocates who have written letters to the FBI praising the move.

The former chairman of Cair, Purvez Ahmad, has expressed concern with both the FBI and Cair’s handling of this matter, calling on both to display greater “transparency and accountability.”

This week on Viewpoint, my weekly programme aired on Abu Dhabi TV, I will host John Miller, assistant director of the FBI, in an effort to learn more about what lies behind this controversy.

Source: The National

Author:  James Zogby

Date:  27th March 2009

Orignal Article Url

Judges have made an extraordinary attack on the Barack Obama administration for continuing threats to withhold vital terrorism intelligence from Britain in a row over torture.

The High Court revealed today that the US had threatened to review its special intelligence-sharing relationship with the UK if documents relating to the alleged torture of a British resident held at Guantanamo Bay were made public.

The judges reluctantly agreed to keep secret the papers relating to the treatment of Ethiopian Binyam Mohamed, who claimed asylum here, in light of the ‘gravity’ of the threat made by the Americans.

Foreign Secretary David Miliband had warned  there was a ‘real risk’ that the potential loss of intelligence cooperation would seriously increase the threat from terror faced by the UK, and fought against the documents being released.

Campaigners said the most astonishing aspect of the case was that the threats, while first made under the Bush Administration, had not been withdrawn since President Obama took office.

This is despite Mr Obama signing executive orders for the closure of Guantanamo Bay within a year, and placing a ban on waterboarding, widely considered a form of torture.

Former shadow home secretary David Davis demanded a Commons statement on the ruling, calling it a ‘matter of utmost national importance’.

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Non mais qu’est ce que j’apprends ??
Ce matin en parcourant mon super Reader Google je tombe sur un article de Presse-Citron qui a failli me faire tomber de mon fauteuil.

Youtube a décidé (apparemment sous la pression des maisons de disques) d’enlever la bande son de toutes les vidéos sotckées sur leurs serveurs qui étaient dites “illégales”. Si toi aussi tu avais choisi “Good Vibrations” pour la bande son de ton diaporama de vacances, et bien tu es foutu. Ca tombe super mal car ce soir je comptais faire une soirée entre amis et comme je n’utilise plus de CDs je comptais balancer quelques vidéos de youtube pour avoir de le musique.

C’est là que je me révolte, Attention, GO :

Quand est-ce que les maisons de disques et les majors (ç’est la même chose non ?) vont comprendre que cet act dit “illégal” leur est au contraire bénéfique ? En tout cas c’est ce que je pense …. Je ne sais pas pour vous, mais cela m’est déjà arrivé d’entendre une musique accompagnant une vidéo et me demander qui en était l’interprète. C’est les méchants monsieur qui font des sites d’écoute en ligne et qui pompent les musiques des vidéos qu’il faut punir pas Youtube. Crions au scandale les amis. Révolutionnons nous !

Bref de débilité en débilité en ce moment, après la fermeture de nombreux sites diffusant les tablatures de nos tubes rocks préférés, voila que c’est Youtube qui en paie le prix. Je les croyais pourtant intouchables

Last time freedom of speech and expression were suppressed was with the poets invited for a reading at The White House on February 2003. Laura Bush called this reading,  “Poetry and the American Voice”. When First Lady Laura Bush realized her Poets reception would include anti-war poems. She cancelled, not wanting to hear the readings of “the poetry and the American voices!
Now she does not want to have a X-mas ornament hanging on her tree by an artist who included the Articles of Impeachment swirling about festively on her nine inch ball. Artist Deborah Lawrence was rejected only because her sentiment spoke the truth. Laura, lives in denial about the world she lives in unless it only includes good things said about her husband. She denies the First Amendment of the Constitution when it applies to anything personal having to do with Dubya. She has suppressed freedom of expression to artists and writers because SHE disagrees with their sentiment about her man.
I suppose, it seems the rest of the world can read Bush like a bad book, (and certainly enough books have been written about the idiot he is and probably will be banned from the new George W. Bush library,) but Laura is in her little “bubble” that floats tandem along George W’s, believes in the ‘wisdom of Dubya’.  And can’t you picture her anytime someone on the media says a negative about her lousy husband, she must clap her hands to her ears, close her eyes and shout for one of her staff to turn off the television so she is back inside her safety denial net.
I know when I heard Dubya spout off to Charlie Gibson after being asked asked what he was unprepared for during his presidency, and Bush said and I quote, ““In other words, I didn’t campaign and say, ‘Please vote for me, I’ll be able to handle an attack,’” he said. “In other words, I didn’t anticipate war,” I wondered if this was the kind of Bush incoherent rambling that was so endearing to a deaf wife’s ear… and yet foretold what a dufus was set to run the USA, why did so many GOP listen to that voice when he was running???
But not so for Laura in her love stupor, she hears her husbands words and the stupidity soothes her soul. She accepts his shortcomings and the assclown that he is.  But what she can’t accept is criticism and opposition and protest. It would have been classier of her to have listened to the voices of the poets who had negative things to say about war, and it would have been big of her to have let that ornament stay on the tree, but Laura is just like her husband, deny deny deny! Ah their last day in the bubble of the White House can’t come soon enough!

By: John Keitel

The black panthers were at a Philadelphia polling place standing at the door with night sticks.

This is definite voter intimidation and suppression, but you will not see it in the MSM

Rush on the issue.

1.3 Million Registrations by Acorn
“No Evidence of Voter Fraud”

Interview of Loyola Law School Professor and election law expert Richard Hasen
by Newshour’s Judy Woodruff
Discussion of integrity of voting systems

ACORN DISCUSSED
John Flannery Constitutional Expert Destroys FOX Pundit On GOP’s Vote Fraud Fraud

Mccain campaign and DOJ, Department of Justice conspiracy to suppress votes and steal the election

The Obama campaign has asked the attorney general to order a special prosecutor to investigate whether the Bush administration and the McCain campaign are illegally working together. This comes after the McCain camp alleged voter fraud.
Interview with Jonathan Turley

Court Testimony – Computer Programmer Clinton E. Curtis
How the 2000 election was fixed?

Princeton University
AccuVote-TS Diebold Software Manipulation

I left an issue of my mag at my parents house yesterday when I went out south to pick up a few things. I came to realize that my Pa portrays one of the personality types I long to reach out to. Maybe that’s been a motivation to change minds, you know? I have someone so dear to me, that represents the complete opposite. Worry, Money, Status, Possessions.

Don’t get my wrong, I like money when I have it. I admire my papa for handling it well, something I’ve never been able to manage really. Of course I love him all the same, but I know these aspects of his way of life are bringing him down into some dark place of fear and regret that I hate to see. He drives me mum nuts sometimes.

He always has gone against most of what I do. He has in the past had some reason to, but for real…shit. I’m not a bad kid. I never have been. One thing that has always stuck with me was something he said to me when he dropped me off at school in eighth grade or maybe even freshman year.

“You’re not the weird kid are you?” He asked while I slung my pack to my back with a puzzled look.

“Dad, I’m not prom queen if that’s what you’re wondering, but I have friends,” I snapped somewhat jokingly until I realized he may be ashamed of who I was…which I probably looked too much into.

He’s a hard shell to crack, very traditional. I’m the girl who is going to open the door for the boy I like and bring him flowers on occasion. I just don’t think things have to be a certain way and never have. He may think I should be fine-dined by a scholar working on a bachelor’s degree. Yeah…right.

My point is, I think he plays somewhat a subtle role in my motivation for change. I see how unhappy he can be living and thinking this way. It saddens me. As a whole it’s overbearing thinking so many people are experiencing this suppression of self and fear of actually getting out of somewhat of a “rut” they may be stuck in closing their minds towards other possibilities that make our world beautiful.

That’s all. Peace Daddy-o.

Delight

How much you meant to me…

I couldn’t express!

Feelings of mine,

I was forced to  supress!

Everytime I didn’t have  you around,

I went breathless!

It wasn’t easy for me,

To let you go…

But I had no choice to opt,

When destiny turned to be my foe!

Nothing was in my hands..

I hope you could understand!

I left a shade of myself….

When I left you behind!

I’ve had a few niggles in my left ovary today so things are progressing.  I was pondering the lack of monitoring – I haven’t even had a supression check but I know that my Dr is notorious for doing fewer blood tests than everyone else.  I said to my friend, who is a Bio-chemist in an IVF lab that I suspect it’s because they’re not expecting much to happen, and she countered that it was because they expected me to respond perfectly  She is a good friend! Anyway tomorrow I will update with what they found.  In the meantime I have to decide whether it’s OK to take my Gonal-f an hour earlier or whether to take it with me.  I think I’ll do it early….

I walked alone down the noisy street and headed inside Mcdonalds..I ordered  a full breakfast though I’ve eaten before i left the house. I saw vehicles passing by before me..what a great view! I finished my breakfast alone having many thoughts crossing in my mind..

My review just started last Sunday. It’s nice to hit freedom in the outside world..There is something refreshing in every thing I see. There are colors everywhere. I get to see the world in different perspective, in different colors.. Being with company isn’t bad but I happened to be with peers and real friends but I was suppressed. I was not able to express the real me to the world. I was suppressed of freedom. I forgot the whole wide space before me. My friends became my world.. I became like a wave of the sea  wandering…And though I’ve got tons of great thoughts, I was not able to carry out all of it.

The real me is a loner..I knew i have an inborn love for solitude. All the colors in life is my world, not a particular person nor the past that haunts me. Solitude is my real friend who accepts my silence and the thoughts in my head. My constant companion who gives me freedom of thought without supression. The one who give me time to think for myself and let me smile and laugh..The one who helps me realize the splendid beauty of everything around me.

I was onced a loner.. I am now a loner..my thoughts will always be in the heart of acquiring enlightenment through my DEAR friend, solitude…