This Day

This day I live without regrets
This day I fear no one no matter their threats
This day I name after myself
This day I’m the ruler, no one is equal no matter their status or wealth
This day I’m eager to take on any obstacles
This day even a mountain to me is as flimsy as an icicle
This day all the world listens when I speak
This day you will find my thoughts to be remarkably unique
This day even teachers are as attentive as students
This day I show the world how to be a alive and jubilant
This day I fear only my own greatness
This day you are missing the point if you are still reading and haven’t figured out you are obliged to live to your fullest by his almightiness

Signed: Terrell (Mr. CEO) G

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This Christmas day, Nicholas is home from school.  Carole and I went to church this morning because she was the assistant minister for the service.  No one goes to Christmas morning church.  There were probably 15 people there, if that.  Everyone goes on Christmas Eve.  I remember hearing a few years ago that some mega churches weren’t having services on Christmas, because the expense of heating the church wasn’t worth it for the few people who attended.

The weather was gray and cold and rainy here, so the inside of the church wasn’t all that cheery.  On the upside, our pastor has communion at just about every single service, so with so few people, the service went very quickly.

I’m a reluctant Lutheran, but the message and explanation of the message that was in the beginning of Hebrews made some kind of sense to me.  Except for the parts where the author claims to know what God said to Jesus ……

Nicholas and Erika were here, as well as a friend of Carole’s.  We called my mother and she sounded quite drunk to me.  She doesn’t like the weather in Florida.  They are wearing shorts and t-shirts.

I don’t like presents, especially when I or another giver feels like they have to give something.  So basically on days like Christmas, Mother’s day, anniversaries and birthdays.  But I think I lived through it graciously enough.  I hope I did.

When Erika and Nicholas are with me for holidays, I always have the feeling of not knowing if they ever will both be again.  I’ve gone through only one holiday without Erika, I think, when she was in England at Thanksgiving.  At this point I’ve been through lots of them without my own mother.

Tomorrow, after our meeting, Carole and I have invited everyone from the meeting to come to our house.  For me, it’s in memory of my women’s meeting back home, when we would have a party at the meeting every year on the Saturday between Christmas and New Year’s.  Next year, Christmas and New Year’s are on Saturday, and I’m already liking the idea of having a party-meeting both days.

I also noticed that the Obamas made it to Hawaii OK for their Christmas.  I bet they weren’t even a little bit afraid.

I worked today and there was still more food at work today.  I can’t count the food occasions there have been there in the past few weeks.  At my meeting last Saturday, the person who set up brought chocolate chip cookies.  The guy who helps set up and lives next door to the meeting brought chocolate chip and snicker-doodle cookies, and donuts.  Another member brought banana bread.  Because of bad weather, there were less than 15 of us there.  But we ate well.

Last night my son came home from college and he ordered from the pizza place.  Tomorrow we will go to my daughter’s work’s Christmas Eve breakfast.  I just don’t remember all this food in years past.  The picture is of one of my cats (named for Bill Wilson) sitting in the sweet potato baking dish from Thanksgiving.

Last year I started Sparkpeople on January 1 and I lost 15 pounds between January and April.  I don’t want to know how many of those have returned.  A few.  I’m going to start it again in January and go for another 15.

I’m off work till Monday now and Saturday, after the meeting, we’re inviting everyone over to our house.  My women’s meeting back home used to have a party on the Saturday between Christmas and New Year’s, so for me it’s in memory of that.  We’ve asked everyone to bring something so that we don’t have to cook.  Too bad cleaning for such a thing doesn’t burn many calories.

It was about past 10 when i woke up. Its cold and i’m shivering.. At the kitchen i found my mom and dad eating breakfast or brunch i should say.. then i went back to bed again.

I took a bath today, even with the temperature is so cold that i had to wear a PJ’s and another clothes over it.

Mr. Sun never showed up today. Sigh.

We just finish planning our get together this Tuesday, i cant wait.

Started a day with a light breakfast, cereal and Milo anyone?

I’m not going to waste my time to go to school today, because I know that we’re not going to have classes and Cindy just confirmed it a minute ago.

I stayed in here in out apartment the until 4PM, because we went out to buy some things we’re going to wear tomorrow.

It was easy finding a yellow shirt this time, Thank God.

I don’t know if I’m excited for tomorrow or not. I can’t explain what I’m feeling right now, someone just texted me and asked if I’m going to the party tomorrow, I mean, it’s the schools Christmas party what the fuck you’re not going? Well, its nice when there’s another place to go to, but there is none!

Sigh.

Quick and boring.

I walked the dog this morning in the painful coldness.  I went to work, and I worked.  Things happened there.  People got served with papers.  People shared some of their scary illnesses.  People were nasty and people were incredibly loving.

I left work early because I want to go to a meeting tonight.  It works best for me if I don’t have to work all day and come home briefly, then go out half the night.  For me and the dog!  And Carole is working late, so it was more important for me to leave early.

I left work at 2 for what is a 30-45 minute ride that took two hours.  My ride takes me close to a concert hall, and there was a show starting at 3.  It took me two hours to get past the hall.

• Many of those people on the road were very very late for the concert.
• I knew YESTERDAY that there could be a bad traffic situation because of this.
• I know an alternate route and debated with myself and almost took it.  A simple turn of the wheel would have avoided all that wait.
• I have recently been thinking about tolerance, and trying to tolerate drivers who try to jump the line and merge at the last second.  Drivers who blow second hand smoke my way.  Drivers who don’t leave enough time for where they want to get, for parking, for walking in the place and to their seats.

I’d be interested to know when the show actually started, and if it was delayed because no one was there, and if the people who managed to be on time had to wait.

I also try to keep in mind that lots of these people are young, or not so young, but some of them are learning how long it takes to get places and when they have to leave.

So I’ve run up and down the stairs 12 times with the dog.  I’ve given her a marrow bone and a brushing.  I’ve written this and I’ll soon be leaving for the M-E-E-T-I-N-G.

Started as a lazy day and ended with a fight with my sister, it’s not a petty fight it is a physical fight. But, we’re okay now. So dont worry.

I woke up late again, and I am guilty for being lazy since Monday, like I’ve been absent for 3 consecutive days to my first periods. Sigh.

Though I was late, I was given a good news when I am supposed to attend my laboratory only to find out we’re not going to have classes and the students who went to our first period didn’t do school things instead they just chatted and wasted time. I was laughing, thank God, I had a good sleep plus I was lucky that they didn’t have a class in my first period.

I am 40 minutes late with my first period, after about 10minutes we are already dismissed.

After my first class, everything was cancelled until 12noon because there’s no current, and when there’s no current we dont have our classes cause its so hot, and our school dont own a generator!

1pm is supposedly my next class, but since we will have a department meeting, i didnt go to school and didnt attend the meeting cause i was lazy

3pm was my next class, i was 3omins late again, though i went outside to fetch a tricycle 5 minutes earlier, there’s this parade or somthing going on in the city, so there are no tricycles plus it was kinda traffic. tsk. Though i have plus 5 points in my exam cause i manage to attend my class even though im late. yey!

I didnt attended my first & Second period because i woke up late (caused by what happend last night).

I wen to school at pass 9AM for my third period which is Csci17-Lab. And thanked God our teacher came. After the class i decided to come home already, but at about 5 minutes they texted me that we’re going to see a movie, so i huridly went to them, without lunch! When we got there, as i was suppose to give the money for the ticket, something happened and viola! the movie is cancelled because some of us are having classes and they cant finish the movie we’re going to see, so  instead we just stayed there roaming the mall, wate corn kernel, went to the supremarket to buy some candies and back to school for their class, only to find out they’re not going to have a class. tsk. I was just “smiling” on my own, cause we spent money to go to the mall to see a movie, but we end up buying food and wasting money for the fare!

When we are already at school, we went to Admin to confirm if we’re not going to have classes and they said, yes! Then someone handed my a test paper in Csci08, I didn’t check my booklet i just check how much i got, i saw a 44, and so i thought it was my score, so when someone asked me my score, i said 44, then this “lola” said “Oh. Kasanu kuma ket agpadata met test 1? Kitak man testbook mo.”  And i showed it and only to found out that I only got 32, but wt*, she degraded me, how come she questioned my intelligence? She thinks she’s better than me, well she has higher scores than me only because she reviews and i dont! Such an IDIOT!

We seem to be stuck inside on this Sunday due to weather.  Not the weather pictured – that was at my program’s holiday party last week, and that weather was nothing.  I like to post pictures of my work although I can’t  post pictures of the people.  Making it through bad weather to work is one of the worries I would be very happy to be done with, now.  But I won’t be done with that worry.  I have about 25 miles to go there, and the weather can be treacherous.  I’m now one of the people who have to try to make it through no matter what.  And I’m a middle-aged woman with a plain old car.  And my work partner lives near me, equally far away from our program.

When we were looking for a house, I kept in mind bad weather in the winter and would not consider living a big hills.  I mentally kept track of how many days the weather actually made getting to or from work dangerous, and the actual number is very very small.

I’ve gotten a lot better with this particular fear and worry.  I remember sitting in a meeting a long time ago, when snow was falling, and talking about how much time I lose to this fear of weather.  I have made progress and I will continue to do so.

But today, it is Sunday and I’ve gotten out of going to church and possibly shopping.  So I’m happy.  The only bad thing about today is that we won’t be able to exercise the dog outside.  I’ll have to run up and down the stairs with her many times.  Hopefully Carole and I won’t get on each other’s nerves too badly, and of course I must worry about my adult children trying to travel in this.  Erika’s not answering her phone (at ten in the morning) so I must hope she’s asleep and that she won’t try to travel until it’s safe.

I have a tough day tomorrow at work, though the weather shouldn’t be a problem then.  We’ll be short-staffed in the morning, and I have a pot luck lunch meeting for lots of the afternoon.  Carole is baking brownies for me to take and the bummer there is that it smells great and we can’t have any.

But I’m also very motivated to abate my anxiety about those situations, which are tomorrow, and which I will be truly blessed to experience.  Truly.  It also occurs to me and I’m also still grateful to not have to go chase alcohol or cigarettes in this weather.

Today is the last day of my preliminary examination! And I should be excited cause usually after exams, school break follows, but not in my school, we still have to attend classes next week until 18, which is our christmas program.

BTW, today i had again, i went building hopping with ate Ivy and Lerio. Though i was sweating cause we dont have any umbrella and i only have a handkerchief for my sweat i still manage to keep up to them both. haha. And we even bough a headband -we had the same style but for the color me and ate ivy grabbed a silver and ate lerio had the gold. * The pic will follow later.

7:58AM

Good Morning! I dont know why im blogging at this moment when my day still hasnt started yet-not literaly. Well I just had my breakfast and i should be reviewing for Compo04 already but i cant help myself to check my email account for some new messages, since i went offline early yesterday -it was i think pass 10. So, after 9 hours i have accumulated 23 emails, yay! And i’m not in the mod, so i just checked the one’s that are important and i’ll deal with the rest maybe tonigh.

10:30AM

We went to Robinsons Ilocos Norte a while ago to have lunch. And before that he’res what happened. My friends in school told me that we will go Robinsons, and then Robinson (Albano) heared it and started talking about it -how it looks, whats in there.., so i blurted out that it’d be my first time to go there, and he just freakingly reacted in a very OA way like “Really? Maloka nak man. Apay met tata ka lang mapan?” and gave me a “OMG! She’s never been there?!” look, and  i was like “fuck! Atleast im not like you, who -went there when in first opened like you’ve never been into a mall, who -have been there many times but never bought anything, who -have been there that he thinks he knows every detail of 4 sides of the box!” but because im not in the mod to argue with someone and FYI he is so not within my level and not even close with my level, so, i just blurted out “Wen. Kasi awan met unay time ko, ken awan kadwak nga makaanus agsursur..” though he stopped saying “as in, dika pay napan?” i can still see what’s inside his mind, that is if he have anything inside. lol -JOKE! haha. enough about him.

So we went there and we toured the whole building from end to end, and we even used the elevator though it only has 2 floors haha. and two girls saw us just riding it up and down and they though we are “ignoramos” people, but who cares?!

When lunch time came, we first went to the food court, when we are in the food court already someone changed her mind and we decided to just eat at KFC, but when we arrive infront of KFC there were no chairs available for us so we end up eating at Mcdonals in 365, its a building outside the mall. haha

6:52PM

I just took a bath and i feel fresh and relaxed.

Someone’s freaking buzzing & trying to chat with me, and i dont know him! darn. Stupid people! So i clicked IGNORE on my YM and viola! he’s Im’s stopped pooping on my screen.

Anyways, my day today? Supper fun Like we eat everytime we have time, Me and Faye ate at Mcdonalds 2 times, plus we ate another lunch lol, talk about Food trip huh.

Everything went my way. Everything! People, favors, happiness. hehehe

We planned to go to the Mall (it my first time), but we cancelled it cause our laboratory in csc17 is pursued! But it was still fun! Supper fun!

Jam and Joy went out to buy food, we’re having chicken again. lol Isnt it that there is a chicken shortage? Well, not here.

Was out for a while coz i need to focus myself to -PBB Double Up. I’m getting addicted to the reality shows esp. with Jason & Melai’s love thingy. And ofcourse to have a little sensible talks to my friends and more than friends. lol

It’s 11:16PM already, i still have to review for the my exams tomo. So, bye-yi!

I’m almost late in my first class, why? Cause I got off my bed at 7:30AM, I had only 30 minutes to prepare for school! Everything was rushed, especially my breakfast!

Twas a quite good day, because before lunch something happened to me -a “lady” (they say) just turned into a barbaric one, she acted like she’s not in the office! And to think that she DONT have the right to yell at me! They say “If the older person acts young, the young should act old!” and I did. I just went out the office and went to my “Who cares what you said!? I’m still better than you! You’re just a mere Ac*** in this school! I won’t let your f*ckung drama ruin my day. attitude”.

And after that, my day started, discussions was a blast today, especially with my Statistics class with Sir (Forgot the name) hahaha. He is so intelligent and witty.

We’re having fried chicken tonight! Must go eat already, coz maybe this little sisters i have here will eat my food. Yay!

It was still so freezing both inside and outside the house. My mom had to come pull me out of my bed for me to get off and eat my breakfast. We we’re eating when the electricity went off again! My dad was saying things again like –when will they finish doing the f*cking lines?! And my mom was just laughing at him, as always. After breakfast, since there’s no electric service again, my mom suggested that I and joy should just take a bath here in Laoag since we need electricity for water to come inside the house.

I came here in Laoag with my PJ’s, ‘cause my sister suddenly went to the bathroom making our helper fetch more water from the “jetmatic.”

My dad & mom went home after we had lunch; it was 2:30PM. And so, I switched my laptop on and then I’m still here in front of it.HAHAHA. I’m currently watching Showbiz Central for chikka updates.

We had pinakber and bagnet for dinner plus ice cream for dessert.

December 5, 2009 –Saturday

It was about 9AM when I opened my eyes. Only to find out there’s no Electric service again! And our explained why –it’s because Weekends the INEC stuff is scheduled to fix some wirings here in our town!

The sun is shining so bright, but the air that the wind blows is cooooldd.

We had spaghetti for Snack then we begun cooking, cause we have visitors for Lunch. On the table was all Ilocos Delish. They bid goodbye to us at 2pm.

5PM, the electricity just came, I came here in my room directly to charge this (my laptop) and my cellular phones.

It’s now 7:29PM and i’m shivering again! Usually its colder in the morning, but tonight, its friggin cold. Im in my jackett plus socks. Haha.

We had family lunch together for my Dad’s Birthday Celebration!

But after the food, i found myself doozing on pictures of myself.

Found the love of layering clothes -cause its December, its super cold.

Hectic hectic hectic.

I’m very busy at work.  The nature of my job means that as “other things” happen and take my time,  my paper work piles up behind me.  We’ve just finished three days of auditing and all the stress and preparation that entails.  Our holiday flea market type open house is tomorrow, and the preparations for that are extensive.  Next week, we will take all 80 of us off of our site to a ski lodge for an all day party.  There’s tons to do for that.  There are administrative meetings to attend having to do with the end of the calendar year and the beginning of the next.  And, like I said, the paper work stops for none of this.  It’s actually a high-volume paper work time, second only to July.

Then there are the other commitments, invitations, parties, get togethers and etc.  And gifts to buy, donate for, and make (I’ve just begun to crochet).  There are even two things I’m supposed to provide food for.  One is a regular twice a month meeting that the boss said, “What say we start an hour early and bring a covered dish?”  Oh joy.  An extra hour of meeting, a cooking assignment, and an hour less to spend on paperwork.

I love my job.  And I like this time of year.  And all this is distracting me from mooning over the past Christmases much.  So yay.

I am making sure I make my regular meeting and one other each week, even through this, I’ll maintain that.  It’s not enough for some people but it works well for me and has for years, and I won’t skimp on that, no matter how high the paper work pile gets.

Our schools foundation celebration starts today, good thing itd start at around 1pm (they texted me cause i didnt want to go motorcading -with this kind of hotness in Laoag? Gahd, no way!.

I just let myself become a busy bee for this day cause im really not going to go to school, plus i dont want to wear our department t-shirt! and i dont have it here, its in burgos.

So while was making myslef busy, i went over to Gossip Girls season one just so i have something to ponder on. Then was at Episode 10 already when my sister came home and we still didnt have cooked food, so i decided id cook(crossing my fingers)  please God, it will turn tastety and so it did, its called “rabong” which is bamboo shoots  with a soup in it, was so freaking jumping when Jam said its “okay”. See my happiness there? Cause i rarely cook nice food, except for spaghetti cause its my specialty. Haha

Anyways, its 2:54Pm. Be back later

7:37PM

Waiting for my food to arrive, im hungry, i feel im gonna “pig out” later. haha

Anyways, my life was focused on my cyberzone all afternoon and until now.

1:43Pm

I went  didnt go to school because I’m lazy and i know they’re not going to have classes today because “everybody”, well not everybody just the concerned people are getting ready for the our school foundation tommorow.

Hoping it will be a blast . Cant wait to watch the pageant, esp. the Q & A portion. lol

8:14Pm

We went to Mcdonalds for dinner. While texting, i saw this guy, he keeps checking me (he’s with her gf and her gf’s friend), whenever i look through where they are seated i see him looking at me too lol. t’was so funny when Joy & Jam left me to go to the Night Market and i was alone already eating my ice cream cone, and he cant even touch his food lol. then when i went outside to wait for “them”, i still see him check me out lol. And oh, i know the girl she was a batchmate wayback in MMSU. lol

My phone was ringing not because someone’s calling me, but because It’s already time to wake up –It was of course exactly 4:45 in the early morning as I programmed it in my phone’s alarm.

I woke up early because I still need to travel one hour to Laoag.

My day started bad, (I don’t want to remember what happened)  but as long as I hopped inside the bus, everything went well until now.

I went to school earlier than expected. After my first class everything was a –BLAH!

We didn’t have classes because some teachers which is our teachers are coordinators for the coming School Foundation –December 3-4, 3009.

To kill time, we went to the 2^nd floor corridor to check on the candidates for the pageant. There are 9 pairs and they are all.. –No comment! Haha.

I am now, here in my room facing down my bed typing this and watching TV Patrol Laoag.

You want ice cream, my sister bough me a drum stick. Later! I need to finish this, its melting fast!

IT’S MY DAD’s birthday! But there’s too much to do, so the celebration is on Friday.

I woke up with a rainy morning, no sun and no current again, according to our helper the INEC is fixing some lines in Bobon –a barangay here in Burgos and it will take until 6pm. So I was frustrated again, two day vacation but you don’t enjoy it –when there’s no current everything stops, I think.

The current existed at about 5pm in the afternoon, 1 hour earlier, thank God because my cell phone’s battery is about to be drained as well as my sisters’.

Hm. What else, there’s nothing too exciting or good to write in here so, till tomorrow.

Status: Googling Manila Street Wear

9:17PM: Waiting for Full House to starts I’m thrilled.

Yay! The First episode was so good, I love Love Marie Ongpaoco. Her character is so bubbly and intelligent –kind off.

Im so getting excited for tommorow

It’s already 6:59PM and I’m still in my PJ’s. Haha. I know, maybe your thinking about my smell but don’t worry I don’t smell bad, as far as I know. So here’s what happened today.

It was already pass 9AM when the sun’s rays went through my curtains and woke me up. It was a hot morning, I was sweating  like a pig, I tried reaching for the fan switch to find out its switched on and there’s only three reasons why its not spinning A-its broken, B-its unplug and C-no electric service available. And yes, your right its C, there’s no electric service.

The absence of electricity made my Sunday morning lazy.

After fixing my bed unwrapped because my bed sheet is off (because of how I sleep, I don’t know how), I checked my phone for text messages and find nothing.

As I head to the kitchen, noticed that the house is quiet, not that electricity is out but because my mom and sister is out for church. And so with the table having only one plate in it, I ate my brunch alone again as usual because in our house we don’t wake up anyone just to eat, my dad always says “Just let her sleep, she will eat her food when she’s hungry.” when I eat with them in Breakfast and my sister is still in bed.

After eating I noticed the sink is not de-cluttered and then it came to me that it was Sunday, our house helper is out, and it means I will wash the dishes and tidy-up the kitchen and so I did.

After the kitchen work, I decided to continue the book I’m reading “The Witch of Portobello by Paulo Coelho”, went back to my room pick-up the book and went in our asotea since it was so hot inside the house.

While starting to read, I noticed the weather, it was windy and the air kinda cold, so I went back to my room opened the windows and started reading, then I found myself sleeping.

It was already 15 minutes before 4 in the afternoon when I opened my eyes, and still no sign of electricity so decided to continue my sleep but sadly my body refuses, so I went out to find my dad with his plants, my dad loves planting from vegetables to flowers.

While seating in front of our house, someone came and she is looking for my dad. After directing her where my dad is, I heard them talking about our animals to be exact it was about one of our goats that is missing and turns out someone saw her with our goat so she came to talk with my dad about it ‘cause she heard that my dad want her in prison. I was being bored with the story and her explanation so I decided to look for our emergency lights and candles since there’s still no current. While looking for a candle, I jumped; “Thank you God!” there’s current already, I went straight to switch on the lights and the television.

7:30PM still no sign of my mom and sister, maybe they attended the evening service which means they should be here by now. But there’s no reason to worry, cause they sure can take care of theirselves and they usually late sometimes.

8:04PM, They’ve arrive –my mom and sister. See I told you. So, till next time, im going to take a bath already Bye!